#you knew what you signed up for

[sparring-spirals]

Compromise. Im not going to actually WRITE meta but i AM going to lay out a list of things I'm thinking about broadly and thematically and would probably write meta about if i were properly caught up and informed, but is instead influenced much more by early campaign F.C.G:

**edit: no this is kind of meta again. sorry.

- F.C.G grappling with the questions of: being made. purpose. whether it matters if you find your own purpose if you were made with one in mind and you "choose" something else. Can you actually? Does it matter? Is your choice a choice at all?

- Wanting so badly to heal people and help people and the unique fear of waking up and seeing damage done by your own hands. To the same people you wanted so badly to help. You extend healing and you offer comfort or kind words but all the while, in your core is a tightness. In your core is a danger. How much good do you need to do to get the blood off your chassis? Can you, at all?

- Metal body. Metal hands. A little wheel. You were a turtle once and it felt so wondrous to breathe. You try out tongues or little wooden legs or whatnot but it always comes back to an inorganic metal body and empty insides no matter if youre filling them with liquids or secret goods to smuggle or pastries (faux warmth). Maybe everything like wooden legs dangling off a metal body. All for show.

- A coin in hand. Looking for a higher power. Thinking about choice. Deferring choices.

- You love your friends, so much. You love people being kind to each other. You love your boyfriend and their wonderful way of thinking. You love being alive. Even when you doubted you were at all. You love, truly and deeply.

- Ashton raging at F.C.G for being a martyr. For aching for a good enough reason to get himself hurt or killed or blown up. Ashton looking at F.C.G knowing they're all messed up inside and trying so hard to stop them from letting it destroy them.

- Ashton always worried about how they're always trying to find a big enough cause, a good enough reason.

And so with those things, I remembered about F.C.G:

- F.C.G looking at their friends all down. Ashton laid out unmoving.

- F.C.G with something awful in their core. Ready to spill out. The same something awful they were always worried about. They were always aware of.

- F.C.G always looking for that reason. For that bigger and better cause.

- F.C.G always feeling like they didn't understand purpose, like it was so. unattainable- finally, briefly, startlingly- sure. Finally free of doubt. Their friends down and something awful and destructive in their core and one last thing they can do to maybe make things worth it, and the ability to choose it. They were made for something. They chose what to do with it.

- F.C.G finding that reason. F.C.G making that call. F.C.G thinking it was worth it.

- I think because of him, they succeeded. They won. That is certain.

- I think. "Worth it". Is always a subjective thing.

- I think. A self sacrifice is never just one person giving everything up. A self sacrifice, unfortunately- is one person making a choice.

And everyone else caught, in the blast radius.

#critical role #cr spoilers #cr liveblogging #c3e91 #fcg #AH SHIT. THIS IS META AGAIN. FUCK #sorry. i. god. look. you all knew what you signed up for when you followed me right. im sorry #look im certain i missed 40 episodes of character dev i just need to word vomit where my brain is at given my context #character meta #spar speaks #fcg meta #i. GUESS. if other people want to take any portion of it and chew through it in a more informed way please be my gues #id love to. know things #ive got a lot of emotions to parse and im also about to make a ton of slightly terrible jokes if im not writing meta leggo

[aithusarosekiller]

Idk if I'm just on the worst side of tiktok right now but am I the only person who thought it was pretty damn obvious that the news clippings about voldy on reg's wall were a hint towards him researching/piecing together the secret?

Like is that not what everyone else saw? Bc I'm seeing people use that to argue that he didn't change his mind at all

I think some people are just too set on him being completely evil

He's an inherently grey character yk?

He was a stupid teenage boy who had just started to grow and see the truth

and then promptly died before he managed to finish that journey (while doing something really fucking brave and risky). I thought that was the ENTIRE POINT

#literally listen to what hermione says #he knew he was wrong but wanted to protect his family #he didn't sacrifice himself for you guys to say he had no growth #taking a stand IS GROWTH #the reason he wasn't perfect is because he DIED before he got the chance to change fully #is the point not to show that growth and change is possible #I think he was really interested in who voldy was and how he got so much power #and he started researching and then signed up out of a mix of morbid curiosity and genuine interest in his supposed goals #and then started discovering more and obviously that's when everyone saw his true intentions #even Sirius says he wouldn't have knows voldy true aims at the beginning

[darksvster]

Do you still ship daemyra after that scene? lol it was harsher than i thought, maybe he will be better with nettles🤞

yeah lol, i clearly do since i watched it 2 years ago and i'm still clearly shipping them today. as are my friends who read this script with me in january. i would question any daemyra shipper who held on for this long, only for the written script to say something basically identical to what we see on the screen, and for that to be the straw that breaks the camel's back.

if this is what breaks daemyra for you, then i hate to say it but you have been misinterpreting that scene since the beginning.

he's choking her. it's as harsh as i expected and remembered. people who were expecting some kind of redemption via the script were deluding themselves. i said there were romantic scenes in this episode, i didn't say it was a whole new script.

i don't consider the script drafts canon, but that scene plays out pretty much how i interpreted it from watching the show: daemon being jealous and infuriated about viserys and the prophecy, rhaenyra shocked at the attack and by the fact that daemon knows nothing about it after 10 years. (i'm not going to go into a full analysis of the episode, no one would read it and honestly i've had some version of this conversation a thousand times.)

do i like the scene? no, ofc not. do i get annoyed when antis throw it in my face as a gotcha? yes. you know why? this isn't real! daemon is not a real human being, with a full pattern and history of abuse, rhaenyra is fictional, she does not exist in any world. of course, i can still ship it, just like i would ship any other problematic couple. antis act like shipping them means you support abuse, so i don't bother reasoning with them. they don't want to debate, they want to scream until they're the only voice in the room and call it a victory.

personally, i don't believe nettles is going to be on this show, since there were already rumors circulating about that as far back as 2 years ago, and the fact that they did not cast her confirms some of those rumors to me. however, it would be 100% worse with nettles. anyone shipping those two who want to point to the choke as a daemyra breaking point, well... i would say that nettles would be a teen who daemon would be both raping and grooming. so anyone who wants to seriously romanticize that and say it's morally superior to daemyra, well lol good luck with that one.

#ask #if you're just now leaving the daemyra ship i hope you find peace in a more vanilla and peaceful romance #personally i knew what i signed up for and i'll stay until the ship sinks

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

#psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #bored waiting at the airport so you get more psychonauts meta from me #the delugionists have been on my mind recently (because i Might Just have an upcoming au lorepost about them and also cults are fun) #so tossing my thoughts up here because people seemed to like the last few times i did this #and also it's my blog and i like to talk :) #related vent i HATE drafting posts in the tumblr editor because if you hit crtl+z to try and undo a formatting change #it deletes like half the post you just typed out #(yes i did it again while i was writing this. yes i'm still salty. why do i even bother) #what else... this is just becoming a disconnected thoughts dump #but if you've seen my posts you knew what you were signing up for when you hit the button to expand the post tags #there's new art coming hopefully this weekend if i can get it finished! it's more mermaid au designs #i'm two and a half weeks late for mermay but it turns out starting a new job and moving house doesn't leave you with a ton of free time #but that's okay it's never too late for mermaids #omg and artfight's coming up next month too! geez #i gotta make refsheets for the fsau trio because i would LOVE to get art of them #and this year i don't have a thesis to crunch on so i might actually have time to participate #oh and then in august i'm having top surgery! will make a proper announcement post for it at some point #i say 'announcement'. it's just a life update but it's nice to share #i'm super excited about it :) #i might end up blogging the process and recovery but obviously it won't be going here lol. i'd put it on my main #idk if anyone would find it useful but when i first started looking into surgery i had like very little idea about the whole process #and it's only through joining a bunch of online support/discussion groups that i managed to find more info and resources #so hey it might be useful to share? we'll see #our flight doesn't land for another fifty minutes so now i'm just writing in the tags because i'm bored #alright i'll proofread this and then post it when i land and have signal again. peace out yall hope your pride month is going well

[deermouth]

Nothing about Paige as a character suggests to me that she ever wanted kids, but it's still so tragic to me that the first time she ever calls something her child it is in anger and fear. The dynamics of being a "parent" to a god are waaaayy off the map of normal human family dynamics, but still. She should be able to break the cycle, to "parent" better than her dad. And of course she never will.

#the silt verses #the silt verses spoilers #horror podcast!!!!!!! #wuh oh! you thought you knew what you were signing up for when you became the parent of an eldritch being. but you didn't. :)

[palehottubchild]

fr tho i think SLTs is actually such a good concept because im just thinking like yes we had the biology sex education of hormones are a thing and if you dont use a condom this is what your penis will look like but if anyone ANYONE had been open with me about what sexualities are and how they feel then maybe someone wouldve said 'hey this is something that you actually feel its not a thinking thing and yes, some people actually DO start this early. if you dont relate maybe look into the words asexual and aromantic' then i would have maybe felt less like a freak and not forced myself through both guys and girls trying to find something that actually felt right because right now nobody talks about it especially not when it comes to teenagers which is fair enough but also it really really would have been beneficial to me and im sure other people if it was discussed in a respectful controlled manner

#sorry if anyone doesnt know what SLTs is its a reference to heartbreak high #like i come from a very progressive open left family and surroundings #my school had p much a 0 tolerance policy for all things discrimination #yes we had a gsa but you dont sign up for that unless you already know something is up #so like i knew about the gay straight bisexual everything #and i even knew the word asexual #but since nobody ever actually explained anything about anything i just figured oh whatever itll happen im only 15 anyway #and ESPECIALLY on being aro i didnt know that was a thing and even if i did i never would have identified myself if it wasnt for tumblr #heartbreak high #idk if i should tag that #asexual #aromantic #aroace

[goldkirk]

it’s so scary and so freeing to just be a person.

#the discovery and fulfillment of my curiosity as I go #trying to scientific observational field researcher my way through discovering #What Existence Includes #while I’m in this state to experience it #it’s like being back to my very youngest days before I started learning the major rules #when I was just sensation and experience and curiosity #making sense / making an ongoing story of the world and time itself as it flies past #personal #cult escapee #katie.txt #past me: thank you thank you thank you for holding on through the nightmare. thank you for riding out the huge world-ending pain. thank you #it was worth it it was worth it #of course it isn’t perfect but I SAID it’d be better within a few years didn’t I? #you signed up for this you made the commitment when you knew. #you tried allowing yourself to trust yourself again for the first time since age 7 or so. #you knew you couldn’t hold it all up front for that long if you were gonna survive transplanting yourself like an organ. #you knew you’d be giving up a lot. and you did it anyway because you were brave and you cared that much about how very very little you #deserved better for her world #and here you are. and here we are. #you told the therapist ‘of course not!!!’ so instantaneously and so full of belief. so dead sure on deep reflex that you could NEVER #trust yourself in a million years because even if the supernatural surveillance state wasn’t real and you didn’t have innate evilness #just from the Doctrine Is Saying So #where was I going with this. I’m typing tags on mobile and it’s religious for me but it’s also impossible as a ui #anyway my POINT WAS: it is so hard and so scary but it’s like walking into the world of Sesame Street for real. #you were right. it IS good to be alive. the whole thing all the way through is a bewildering baffling marvel. you’re ok to be delighted #about it and marvel at how wild it is that there’s so much about it all and so many things to see and think and meet and feel and do during #our spans of time #no matter what came before or what might come next #what a goddam marvel of it all. ain’t it just the strangest thing of all that we’re alive. what a marvel. what an absolutely magnificent hit #existence is an absolute absurdity

[elftwink]

one major difference i have found between service industry work (in my case food service but this is widely applicable to similar jobs) and other public-facing positions is that the job itself is often very similar because people is the same, it's just in service everyone approaches you already thinking they're right and you're a fucking idiot and its their god given right to disrespect you, where in other positions even if they are not nice to you they usually acknowledge that you know more than them on issues pertaining to your job. like the difference in behaviour from people who see you as serving them vs helping them is unreal. i am doing literally the exact same things. customer is always right mentality did irreparable damage to the fabric of society

#good idea generator #i loveee the library front desk everyone is polite and people will just ask you anything #they assume so much knowledge and access to data #ill be like 'just one moment let me look that up in the system' [googles name of school + upcoming events] #also not in a mean way but i never realized until i worked here how little anybody is googling anything #i think its funny and i also love to google things for people so i am perfectly suited to this #and some questions even though they are googleable the issue is more that the person isnt totally sure what theyre asking #but like. the library hours are visible on the home page. and outside the building that you just walked into on a sign #PPL DO NOT READ SIGNS. i knew that from other jobs but good lord people do NOT even GLANCE at signs #ppl would fully walk past like 4 signs about a specific thing and proceed to ask me a q about the thing. after waiting in a line #constantly CONSTANTLY ppl are trying to enter or exit through locked doors. clambering over closed signs to do so #its someones job when the library closes specifically to point out the signs and direct ppl to an open exit #and still often people will get up to the automatic doors and be baffled and confused as to why they dont open #but like even this i dealt w/this at my food service job and it was so frustrating #bc when you had to confront these people they would get MAD AT YOU. furious that they didnt read a sign telling them where to line up #but at the library people are polite and apologetic so you know it's not malice or entitlement ppl are just kind of inattentive #monumental difference tbh i actually love front counter so much people are so fun #and i like it when nobody is actively trying to kill me with their mind while we speak

[goldenhourhimbo]

just me bitching!

Trying to decide my last day in office is like, so much more fraught than I expected it to be. I run a two person department and my backup my entire leave is a 75 year old. She didn’t want us to hire any temp help and honestly my job is so niche it would be impossible to train anyone in the time available anyway. She’s going to be alone here for 12 weeks which makes me feel like I need to stay as long as possible. I polled my friends who have had babies and every single one of them worked until the day before they gave birth which makes me feel pathetic for wanting to bounce early.

BUT I AM SO SICK OF BEING HERE. It’s cold. Everyone is annoying. I don’t care that you want bond documents about something the hospital did thirty years ago. I have to pee every 7 minutes. My body hurts. I am a warm body in a chair.

The entirety of my leave is unpaid which I knew and am prepared for but begs the question…why do I feel like I need to tough it out? They’re not going to fire me. My boss wouldn’t last two days in this role, like, the concern isn’t “looking weak” or whatever. Am I concerned about what I’ll come back to after leaving everything in the hands of a septuagenarian for three months? Yes. Is an extra week going to make or break that? No.

I just need to make a decision and be done with it!

#if you read all this feel free to weigh in lol #just me whining about still working even though I knew what I was signing up for! #should have specified I will be working from home until the day before she comes #I’m just sick of my actual office

[tswwwit]

So not sure if it was asked before (my apologies if so) but after rereading Faking it I’ve been wondering if what happened to Ford would have happened to Dipper if they were to switch places. Like you mentioned in the fic how Dipper realizes that the main advantage he had and the reason he wasn’t tricked by Bill is that he, as opposed to Ford, knew that Bill was a demon from the beginning. So my question is would Dipper be able to see through the flattery and lies quickly enough on his own or it would be a case of pure luck as it was with Stanford?

This hasn't been asked before, and it's a nice question!

Ford and Dipper are both intelligent. They're both ambitious and clever! But Ford's... a little more full of himself, and less emotionally intelligent. He saw Bill's arrival into his life, took his pleasant polite demeanor at face value, coveted the power and intelligence and thought: Great! This is amazing! With this creature working by my side, I can do amazing things!

Dipper in the same situation would think: Great! This is amazing! ....wait a minute. 'Great' stuff never happens out of nowhere, or at least not for free. What's the catch?

Where Ford's ambition shows him vast opportunity, Dipper's cynical nature outlines all the possible traps. Even if there aren't any there! He'd be much more of a skeptic when it came to great stuff just. Being handed to him.

Overall, Bill could have fooled Dipper - but he would've had a harder time of it.

#answers #Though that's not saying much. I imagine for Bill fooling Ford was a piece of cake #Ford was just too caught up in the enthusiasm of SCIENCE and being GREAT that he was blind to the subtler warning signs #Dipper can be fooled too! But he'd be more of a puzzle #A temptation could work on him as long as he knew what the downside or catch was #Makes it look more realistic and honest #It also gives him a Known Problem to work around and preoccupy himself #Honestly Bill's best tactic to take would be offering all the great stuff he offered Ford #*And* mention he's a demon #Or some other downside like 'once you learn X amount of things I'll own your soul' #Which is a lie but would also get Dipper calculating how *much* he could learn before said soul being taken #Trying to figure that puzzle out would keep him well distracted from a bunch of other stuff #While Bill could then create Other more Sinister problems that Dipper wouldn't think to look for #But if Bill started out with simpering flattery and sweet talking and being Nice (fake) and Polite (fake) #Dipper would have been paranoidly fending him off with a broom within the hour

[slocumjoe]

You SPEEDRAN falling in love with an NPC, I have never seen someone go from "who tf is this?" to "sleeping to dialog comps" so fast. Its kinda impressive and I salute you

shutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutup

#I JUST THINK HES NEAT OK ;;;;; #HE'S FUNNY AND PROBABLY VERY TRAUAMTIZED WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME #I WAS TRICKED INTO THIS #TEN DOLLARS!!! TEN DOLLARS TO BE SUCKED INTO A TUMBLR DOT COM CULT #*PLS GET NUKA WORLD SO U CAN WRITE GAGE* A FARCE! A LIE!!!! A TRICK!!!!!!! #DECEPTION!!+!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #IT WAS NEVER ABOUT THE REACTS YOU FUCKS KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN #LOOK AT ME #I SPENT TWO HOURS ASKING HIM FOR HIS THOUGHTS AND ABT OUR RELATIONSHIP #JUST TO HEAR MARK ROLSTON CALL ME A STUNNER #I DIDNT SIGN UP FOR THIS #I SAID NO MORE BLORBOS AND YOU /SUCCUBI/ #YOU /DEMONS/ #*ITS A SHORT DLC AND THE COMPANION IS NEAT* I SPIT ON ALL OF YOU #asks

[bungouchronicles]

Sometimes I'll feel weird about reblogging or posting about stuff I'm sure none of my followers care about but then I remember that this is my house and I can do what I want

#So yeah #follow me for bsd. vampires and the random shows I will sometimes show my love for #sorry for polluting your dash with stuff you don't care about #you knew what you signed up for when following me though pfft #aria indulges the voices

[mymp3]

my poster from the con!

#compendiumnotebook #alright finally get to post it! #the glare is killer but i still wanted to try #the con was super fun. there were some dickheads (what would u expect) but for the most part everyone was really nice #waiting in the yuri lowenthal line probably took like 45 minutes #there was an overflow line filled with people with sasuke funko pops and spiderman merch #it was super cute #all of the spiderman fans were incredibly sweet btw #the man himself was a sweetheart、you could tell he did this for a living. very professional. he had little things he would repeat over #a little kid asked abt yosuke and hes like “oh yosuke is my brosuke!” like he did it a million times、but he was still very polite #i was unfortunately a little out of it because there were too many people at the con but he tried striking up a convo w me #he knew what the poster was! he was like “oh neat、the kotobukiya one!” #like you can tell he tries to keep up with the franchises he's apart of for his fans and its sweet #aleks le was also very polite、 poor guy had to put up with carts of resellers though. like just carts of ppl with pops for him to sign #fortunately i got to actually ask him some stuff because i was better adjusted to the con. he thought my poster was cool #he said he had had 2 people previous ask him about persona in the con、so he was excited to talk about it #and oh lol #while he was signing he asked who i was cosplayed as because he thought i looked like akechi. lol. #very sweet men 、nice little expierence

[savrenim]

okay so. I don't actually know that much about video games / everything I remember is from tumblr osmosis but it has been driving me crazy that between

the layout of the submersible is literally just a single tube

it has one window on one end of the tube and a computer screen with imaging on the other??? I think???

the people inside were bolted in on the surface. there is no hatch. the only way out is getting the thing back to the surface and undoing the bolts

it is steered by a fucking x-box controller

is. is this not just literally the setup of iron lung. did these people not pay $250k apiece to. to literally be in the iron lung submersible. why do I not see anyone else freaking out about this.

#titanic submersible #current events #iron lung is $6 on steam #why are you paying $250k for the same experience #literally all these people are missing from their current iron lung simulator is the blood ocean and maybe?giant monsters?? #maybe I'm misremembering how iron lung was described to me but the rest of the similarities feel UNCANNY???????? #anyways there's a part of me that really really hopes everyone is rescued bc that seems like a horrible way to die #there's another part of me that finds it really really funny that the passengers are a bunch of billionaires #who all got in an experimental vessel signing a waiver stating they knew it was not approved by any regulatory body #that got lost last year #paying more than $1 million between all of them #on the stupidest possible trip to see the Titanic wreckage for what?? bragging rights???? #and now they are somewhere that despite all the king's horses and all the king's men and all of their money #even finding them before their 96 hours of oxygen are up is going to be a huge challenge #not to mention that the fact that there's no hatch means that no underwater rescue can be performed they'd need to be hauled up #I'm sure there's a tw that I should probably tag this with but I have no idea what it should be #thalassophobia tw #drowning tw #submarines tw #submersibles tw #claustrophobia tw #deep ocean tw

[july-19th-club]

was looking up the only ash wednesday song ive ever loved (offering of ashes. btw. or just ashes. tom conry 1978 i know nothing else about this man except that he wrote this song) (for fic purposes) and stumbled upon a forum full of catholics discussing the revised version that was included in the 2021 hymnal and boyyyyyyyy the trads HATE this song. it was a 70s piece and a bit hippydippy in the sense that, for a catholic song, it is low on guilt and strong on self-forgiveness, and the first guy in the thread just has to point out that the unrevised version was too pelagian to be properly catholic

#pelagianism is one of my favorite heresies and i dont even know how this song could be that #next commenter 'i wouldnt use either in church if you put a gun to my head' third commenter 'i love it when heresy is removed from hymnals' #so far im feeling great about what i want this song to DO in the fic. like i knew i liked her for a reason #she's actively contrary to the spirit of lenten guilt! she's doing her own thing! and she's doing it hauntingly #lots of the commenters dislike the fact that the song contains the refrain 'an offering of ashes' because the ashes of ash wednesday #are not an offering they're *an outward sign of penance* #which even as a child i thought was sort of self-aggrandizing. like ohhhhhhhh we get it you went to church and we all see it #it always made me feel like a guilt trip if i washed mine off #i love when religious folks get SO up in arms about theology of lyrics in songs. girl i think he was just trying to make it rhyme #do you not have bigger things to worry about. religiously? #theology is like grammar. to me. it's fascinating to learn about its history and usage but some people treat it like the laws of physics