#yes i'm still crying over this

[atwas-meme-ing]

I keep replaying Frontiers in my mind, and... Maybe I'm just a sadist, but Rhea Island was my favorite part, honestly. But not because I like seeing Sonic in pain, but because of how he just kept pushing on.

My single favorite moment in the game is when Sage asks, "How can you smile when you can't even stand?" And he doesn't answer. He doesn't waste precious time and energy on a response. He just smiles a little more and moves forward.

He knows he's dying. He knows he won't survive this, but he also knows he will succeed. He can smile because he won't let himself fail. He has people to take care of. If he has to drag himself, blind and senseless, up that last tower by his fingertips, he will. He won't give in until he's freed everyone.

Man. What I would give to have that determination.

#sonic frontiers #sonic the hedgehog #my opinion #sage #rhea island #yes i'm still crying over this #what about it?

[nightrae13]

I regretted wondering in the past if HoneyWorks had sunken a ship they initially sailed

“Invisibly, it looks like the crybaby was able to change”

It’s been weeks now, but I still can’t get over Crybaby Boyfriend and Hajimari no Sayonara lol. 

#honeyworks #Lenku #miku x len #can't believe I love them first in a break-up au lol #yes i'm still crying over this #vocaloids #like I know Len's happy there but- #I still feel sad for Miku #Idk if the arragement of pics makes sense lol #anyway I'm broken already without reading the novel yet #VOCALOID #hatsune miku #kagamine len #the links are actually the cover and subbed versions lol #Back to December is soo their song!! #which is currently playing as I type this HAHAHA

[i-dare-say]

The pain of finishing one of the best fanfictions you've ever read and not being able to talk about it with anyone because 1) no one you know has read that fanfiction 2) NO ONE YOU KNOW HAS READ THE SOURCE MATERIAL EITHER

#yes it's still scum villain #yes I'm still obsessed #no it will not go away #I'M CRYING HERE OVER THIS 300K FIC AND I CAN'T EVEN TALK ABOUT IT WITH ANYONE #I should be studying for my bachelor's degree and yet I'm here still thinking about these two idiots and their idiot love #please end my suffering #svsss #scum villain #bingqiu #i would do anything for bingqiu #scum villain's self saving system

[wolfandrain]

Me, starting Marry My Dead Body: This movie looks like it will be ridiculous and over the top and just like, a good lighthearted comedy. I am ready for a fun and silly time! :D

Me, finishing Marry My Dead Body:

#marry my dead body #yes i watched it two weeks ago YES I'm still thinking about it #hard to explain like YES it's ridiculous YES it's over the top #but then BOOM it's also super poignant and you will cry #living in my head rent free fr

[sammichly]

going crazy over the parallel of Neil "I won't be like them. I won't let you let me be." Josten and Jeremy "As your captain and partner, don't I at least deserve the chance not to be a villain in your story?" Knox. THEY CARE SO MUCH

they're facing people who haven't been given a choice before, who have been ignored when they say no and they're saying it will be different with me. you will be safe with me. AUGHHHHH

#still not normal over this book #Jeremy knox #Neil josten #tsc #aftg #the sunshine court #all for the game #like yes!!!! #give these characters someone with whom they can feel safe and respected and PROTECTED #these motherfuckers have never been protected a day in their lives and they need that!! #and they get that!!! #and I'm so happy for them #sobbing screaming crying

[angelsdean]

ruthlessly deleting old 2021/2022 posts (not by me) from my dean studies tag like *click* un-incorporating that from my beliefs system! also the way SO many posts have me like ok uh-huh good aaand then say one completely wrong thing that loses me. it's so many posts.

#it's usually when they randomly drop some line of fanon. like saying dean has never admitted to being wrong in his life #or never expressed an emotion or been vulnerable or doesn't Talk About Feelings or is super duper RepressedTM #like i'm sorry. have you watched the show. oh and have you taken off the sammy POV goggles first? #bc this guy is always crying and being vulnerable and talking about his feelings. he is self-aware. #he may not always want to talk to sam abt things! but he sure does talk about things with other people #do i need to reblog the compilation posts AGAIN? #(also re: his sexualiy? AWARE. sorry i saw him flirt and be flustered by so many men. he knows how he feels.) #and then 'first time ever admitting to being wrong' this one came from a post abt dean's prayer in the trap #like i'm sorry but first of all. dean apologizes more than any other character on the show. there are hard numbers on this. #people have tracked this on spreadsheets. i think ilarual is one of them. #and often he is apologizing for things that aren't even his fault! but he still feels responsible for bc he's been made to feel that way #his whole life!! #other characters *cough samandcas *cough* apologizing Less doesn't mean they've Done less things wrong #it just means they're not owning up to it and brushing it under the rug. something both do frequently. #anyways. aside from apologies. dean also has no problem admitting he's wrong y'know when he's actually wrong #which is less often than you'd think bc he has pretty good instincts and intuition and often suspects things which turn out to be Right #but anyways. another thing abt the trap prayer is. i don't think cas Needed to be forgiven #i think dean was justified in feeling angry w cas over the circumstances leading to the Death of His Mother! totally normal grief response! #i think cas also understands dean to be someone who needs time to process and deal with his feelings (he says as much to jack) #however. despite me not think dean Needs to forgive cas. the thing is. with dean when it comes to cas the forgiveness is implicit #when he says /of course i forgive you/ and in the cut like /of course i wanted you to stay/ like. yes he was mad and dealing with grief #but also. yes cas was already forgiven even back then. he just needed Time to work through the feelings #anyways i think dean says he 'forgives' cas bc it's what CAS needed to hear to stop feeling guilty and dean gives him that closure #but i also think cas was already forgiven even in dean's anger. he wants him there always. i'd rather have you. we can fix this. etc etc #a lot of tags for a non-rebloggable post ajksdfs maybe i'll make these into a real post sometime #vic.txt #dean and feelings #so i can find this all again later

[solume]

#soukoku #bsd #bsd s5 spoilers #bsd s5 #yes i am still not over the reveal #what do you MEAN Dazai said all thos things to a CONSCIOUS Chuuya ??? #they make me absolutely insane #wtf was that bullet thing ?? Oh yeah i very casually trust you with my life and the most delicate part of the plan #MY EX PARTNER THAT I VERY MUCH HATE #crying sobbing maniacally lauging #skk is one hell of a drug and i'm on a high #i want them to kiss but also to kill each other but also to live together but also to have the most fucked up divorced energy ever and-

[fictionadventurer]

The Rosemary Tree is the first time I've had to put down a book so I could sob over how beautiful it was.

#elizabeth goudge how do you keep doing this? #her books are such a strange thing for me #either they're 'yes it's pretty but could you please get to the point and have something happen?' #or i am slammed with waves and waves of intense overwhelming emotion so i almost can't stand how deeply it affects me #i think it helps to read it at the same time of year the story occurs #the dean's watch during advent was a life-changing experience #and now reading this book in march is having a very similar effect #i actually had to go in a room by myself to properly cry #because someone caught me tearing up #and how could i begin to explain that i'm sobbing my heart out because miss giles is reading the secret garden? #i've cried over sad moments in books but i've never felt anything like this #such intense joy and sorrow all mixed in so you can't tell which emotion is causing the tears #it's been like two hours since that happened and i'm still shook #my world is upended #and i'm being reminded in an entirely new way of what really great literature can do #the rosemary tree #elizabeth goudge

[torgawl]

okay but imagine loving someone so much you're willing to live the same crushing reality over and over again with no one to share the immense guilt you feel over lying and having to watch people die you could technically save solely because you cannot live in a world where that other person isn't by your side

#yes i'm crying again #i wonder if qiao ling now has xixi's powers and if she will ever read lu guang's memories #still not over the password on lg's phone.... #he doesn't let it faulters he doesn't let himself forget what he's enduring all this shit for even if it's painful and [screaming] #doomed by the narrative gays always hit.... i'm so sad #link click

[musicalchaos07]

This will force him to open up and, for the first time, let someone in - Jonathan Byers's character description in The Montauk Pitch

#If I think about how this s1 quote is still relevant to his character I will scream #also yes the you act like you're all alone with Will in BG is intentional bc Jonathan is so dismissive of his problems in that scene #ANYWAYS EVERYONE GIVE IT UP FOR THE YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN KID #... I'm gonna go cry over blorbo now #also that's the last line of his character description and it refers to Nancy. I'm attempting to be normal #Stranger Things #Jonathan Byers #byers brothers #Byers Family #Jancy #will byers #Joyce byers #nancy wheeler #userlark #<- so abby can cry over the boy with me later

[thebirdandhersong]

we are all trying to reach home and belonging because we were made for something beyond this earth but why does it feel like some people have more access to that feeling right now

#in other words: i am once again asking why i am standing on the other side of the glass #the dorm people have been visiting each other?? people have been inviting each other over to their houses over the summer???? #people are extending invitations to their friends freely too????? i did not know this #i mean. why am i surprised WHY am i surprised #i HATE to be like. okay well why haven't you invited me. why have i never been invited by anyone before. it sounds like whining to my ears #i mean. i AM whining. i have been sitting in this space for the past 2 hours in the same room with these people #and i am STILL on the outside. there's only FOUR OF US IN THE ROOM #praying for strength bc i have no energy to cry again. like yes i know the lonely little girl is still alive and weeping in my heart #but i am too tired to beg for love i am too tired to perform for it i am too tired to hold my hands out and say: #may i please receive this too. I AM TOO TIRED. #tired of feeling like i'm injecting myself into conversations! of being HERE but not totally belonging! of being the odd one out! #i know they like me but do they love me! why does it always have to feel like i'm CONSTANTLY ASKING for love! #the waiting room chapter

[sysig]

It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Xigbar #Of all the crackships that I didn't expect I probably wouldn't have expected these two the most lol #I super wasn't expecting to feel So strongly about them this is like multi-tier Big Feelings in varying directions #One - ZEX - obvious (lol) | Two - Xigbar (hehe II hehehe) - I think I mentioned it like maaaybe once over here but I was Huge into KH #Specifically Org XIII specifically-specifically 358/2 it is the only game in the Kingdom Hearts line that I've beaten and probably ever will #Oh no wait that's not true I did play through all of the DS release of Re:Coded but like......does that count lol I think no #I played the intro of Kingdom Hearts II and shut it off after the bit with Roxas and Sora like - the egg scene how do I non-spoilers this #I own it and I will never beat it I am too sad I want only my Nobodies lol <3 #Kingdom Hearts had a big influence on me - that and Magic Knight Rayearth are a big explanation as to Why I'm Like This lol #Cough cough casting away the dark parts of your heart only for it to come back and bite you later and also The Gay™ lol #But AnyWay lol - Xigbar! #He wasn't my favourite-favourite - aside from Main Characters that'd probably go to Marluxia - but I still hold him very fondly!! #Definitely doodled him a good bit he's very handsome ♪ #And just - ah ♥ An old fave and a new(er) fave interacting and making each other happy and feel nice and play well I just fsalkfdf #As well as that being Max's body! There's something heightening about all these different aspects that was just overwhelming to me haha <3 #If it's not already obvious - yes this was the happy cries lol this is the only explanation I have haha #I feel very strongly about Them and Interactions and Feeling Nice and fjdslafsdf #Anyway! This isn't Just them! Just a lot haha ♪ #I have started a playlist lol - so far it's just this song - Everybody Talks - but some of the others from SCII playlist fit well too :) #The rest is just ZEX being cute hehe <3 ZEX not understanding what crying is is very interesting to me :3c No VUX equivalent? #Seems like they don't have the same kinds of chemicals like adrenaline et al so I guess a flushing system isn't as necessary! Interesting :D #ZEX fumbliness leading to him being a bit on the back foot is so cute hehe <3 He wants so loudly and openly but actually accomplishing it- #I also really like how he holds himself - all the tension through him to fight against new muscles and bone everything too alien! #I imagine his hands as being very rigid and all the fingers pulled together straight but that could just be how he describes bones hehe #Alien in there <3 Plenty to read into :3c

[theflyingfeeling]

yes it's just me whining about the same thing for the billionth time, pls just scroll past nothing new to see here 👋

#i just want to enjoy the summer but i feel like i don't deserve to if i'm not constantly trying to become employed again 😭 #''apply for jobs then? problem solved'' uh-huh yes but!! i also hate applying for jobs #job seeking can be so incredibly humiliating #first i have to send them a letter BEGGING to be invited to an interview #and then i have to try and convince them that i am actually competent and good at my job even though you have my cv right there #and then afterwards they call me to tell me they found someone who they liked better than me #(or rather someone who was more competent than me judging by their work history etc.) #it's like ''yes we are hiring but not YOU specifically lol'' #like. at school if you take a test you get the grade you deserve based on how you did in the exam. #it's something you can actually directly affect yourself #but if someone who's applying for the same job with me has more work experience or whatever they will get hired over me no matter what i do #(at least that's how it usually works on my field) #in which case it doesn't matter if i do well in the interview or nah. bc the other person was always going to be picked for the job anyway #and yes one could say i can then be satisfied if i did my best but it's little consolation when i'm still unemployed!! #and so every time i apply for a job and get rejected it feels like a personal failure #and to avoid that feeling of failure i want to avoid applying for jobs altogether #so yeah. being active in job seeking is more likely to relieve me from this misery but job seeking is ALSO misery. so 🤷‍♀️ #that on top of the fact i don't even _want_ to apply for all the open positions on my field #but i feel obliged to because it's what i have a degree on. and when i'm unemployed i don't have the luxury to choose which ones i apply fo #i can't afford to be picky #I DON'T DREAM OF LABOUR I JUST NEED MONEY TO LIVE BUT I ALSO DON'T WANT TO DO JUST ANY JOB! I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR THAT! #i don't want to come home crying from work every day because i hate every single aspect of my life INCLUDING my job 😭 #when this semester i actually HAD a job i didn't mind waking up to every morning 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair #to conclude i don't deserve to enjoy myself in the summer because i'm not doing enough to fix my unemployement situation #(just like i don't deserve to feel sad about being lonely because i don't work hard enough to maintain deep friendships #but that's a crisis for another day! stay tuned ✌️)

[maddy-ferguson]

Ngl, I really think that these bylers that are crying 24/7 about "purity culture" or whatever, are playing dumb when they start with their "but Nancy and Steve were 16 and 17 in that scene of s1!!!1" like... We got introduced to these characters at that age and the people playing them were already adults. So yeah, sorry but I think it's easy to see why most viewers would be uncomfortable with a more sexual scene of Mike and Will and it's not automatically homophobia, I think that would be the case with any of the kids since we got introduced to these characters when they were 12 and the actors were babies as well. We literally saw those kids grow. And I'm not saying byler should only get to peck or hold hands, It'd be cool if they have their epic kiss or whatever, but Will hasn't even had his first kiss yet and some of these people are already talking about sex scenes, like... Be for real 😭

funny you should say that...because i've used the nancy was 15-16 in season one argument (last tag) before while also saying that i understand why people find the sex part of their sexualities uncomfortable to discuss. and i wanna reiterate that, again, i totally understand that people feel like they've seen them grow up etc etc and that they still think of the actors themselves as children even thought they're not anymore.

i don't think it's all homophobia because like you said, people would probably feel the same about lucas and max and discussions of sex (i don't know if anyone is discussing that because there's much less discourse to have there and you can't argue that people are homophobic if they disagree with you) but i don't think it would be justified either. the "but we knew the characters when they were little" argument makes me think me of an ancient disney channel/abc show that old people and girl meets world fans who watched it for the first time in the 2010s will know, boy meets world (1993-2000). classic comic of age show, look at these kids. and eric in the back (he's fifteen).

they're eleven at the start of the show and then, what happens in any coming of age story happens, you guessed it...

they grow up. this is them in the later seasons, when the main characters are still in high school i think. they grow up, they talk about sex and about having sex at prom in season five and then they don't have sex right away because they figure it's not the right time yet or something like that, and then they have sex later and get married, the details don't matter. but my point is, who watches a show for five seasons, over years and years and gets upset at the main characters having sex because "this is crazy they used to be children"? isn't that the point of coming of age stories that cover multiple years or that focus on the latter years of adolescence, that they're not children forever and that at one point the characters "come of age" which usually includes their first sexual experiences?

i don't think the having sex part is particularly important in stranger things but also it doesn't have to be for it to be portrayed (see jonathan and nancy), teenagers have sex, it's just the way the world works. i'm not advocating for sex scenes of any kind especially because stranger things isn't a show that features a lot of sex in general, the only "explicit" sex scene being nancy and steve in season one with cuts to barb dying, but i genuinely don't think the duffers would have any qualms about portraying teenage sexuality in general with the party. if they did, they wouldn't have included erica threatening lucas to tell dustin what she found under his bed (it wasn't the communist manifesto) and they wouldn't have had max looking at a shirtless steve for an amount of time that's supposed to make the audience laugh. it's been 7 years. if they do a time jump, the babies will be about 17, played by actors who will all be around 20, the age natalia was when filming season one. the characters are teenagers, babies grow up. it happens to the best of us. i get why people would find it uncomfortable and maybe i would find it uncomfortable too but i wouldn't be scandalized. the duffers had no problem having a child actor portray everything will goes through in seasons one and especially two, i really feel like sex is fine and...not traumatizing or hard to watch compared to every single thing will's gone through lol. and again, i'm not even expecting them to have sex lmao, but i wouldn't cry myself to sleep if they revealed that everyone in the party actually knows what sex is.

last question: do we have any indication that jonathan had talked to more than one other girl (the girl at the halloween party being the one girl i'm counting for him) before he got together with nancy. i'm just asking because of your last sentence, because if we don't he should have slowed down also😭

#yes i'm back to calling people old for no reason. <3 #saying that they will all be around 20 isn't a stretch because noah's turning 19 in 4 months and they haven't begun filming yet. thank you #i'm not mad at you anon sorry for not really agreeing with you and again i get where you're coming from and i don't even expect them to #have sex and if they did i would expect it to be implied like jonathan and nancy but yeah #what i mean when i say it's not particularly important in st is that i don't think they need to have sex for will's arc to be complete or #anything😭 #i would've been happy with jonathan and nancy only kissing in s2 like idc yk it's a detail #i'm not advocating for sex scenes means HERE in this case i'm not anti-sex scenes in general lmao #i didn't watch bmw over years and years i watched it in like. a month and a half maybe i really was not crying when cory started wanting to #have sex and i was 15...an impressionnable kid who knew what sex was...disheartening i know💔 #<- that wasn't me making fun of you anon lmao again i get where you're coming from i just respectfully disagree #i looked up the episode where they have sex and (spoiler alert lol) cory and topanga end up only having sex on their wedding night i think? #and that's not the episode in s5 i'm talking about but they consider having sex and talk about it so still bringing that one up #i found an article about something rider strong (shawn) said about not liking this episode because while they talk about sex at length they #never talk about safe sex and he even talked about his concerns to the showrunner because he thought it was irresponsible since yk young #viewers and all that and he was like maybe you don't get it different generations mine grew up with aids and everything this is really #important and he brushed him off! i thought that was interesting. this has nothing to do with st #ask

[possiblynya]

When in doubt, redraw your dnd party as animal crossing characters (again) 🥳

#dnd #oc #dungeons and dragons #dnd character #artists on tumblr #dnd party #ttrpg #Acnh #Animal crossing #Did I draw the same exact thing with my other dnd party three years ago literally to the day? #Yes I did #But hey. I sorely needed a project w minimal creativity involved bc boy howdy I haven't been feeling making art #This is helping me feel a little bit confident again lol #I've been itching to draw another animatic but every time I try I feel like crying bc it just seems so overwhelming :') #Despite the fact that I've made ones in the past that I still think look great!! #Ugh idk it's just frustrating to know what I'm capable of and to still not feel like I can do it. Anyways. Maybe over Xmas break #Strixhaven gang #<- gonna start using that tag for these fellas #oc respite

[rowenabean]

#the wedding was lovely and i am so sad #managed to get most of the sad out of the way Friday and Sunday so i could be glad for them on the actual wedding day #but still. i'm going to miss her. #we always talked about living together and we never did and now we probably never will #i've got a model of married folk living together in community but i don't think they do and it has to be something you choose #her family are lovely and i was really glad to meet her friends and cousins that she talks about so often but they don't really get it #they get to have her!!! she's moving somewhere that's more convenient for literally everyone other than me! (this is not hard to do) #really good to get home and hug my dad and my little sister and have people who are my people around #was actually really good at the reception that there were a few other folk from my current town - i wasn't the only person who was #mixed joy and tears #i said something about us giving her over in my speech and they said yes that's exactly how we're feeling #but it wasn't till her husband responded to that in his speech that i started crying #everyone has been so kind to me but it has been SO good to get home #hoping i can get a bit more sleep as well. emotions are bigger when tired even though they're real still #(her cousins invited me to come stay any time and tbh i can see that living in Auckland could be actually really nice if you live where they #do. but i couldn't live where they do and do the work i want to do it is quite far away from the places in Auckland i could imagine working) #rowena adventures #btw no photos of me currently but probably some later??? not that we took many the groom had been sick the previous week and was #still pretty wiped so they got like two photos with the bridal party and ten with just them and that was it