#yes I know it’s messy lol

[jade-len]

okaaaayy, so, i saw a post that i think was sort of targeted towards one of my posts talking about how "lbh was better than me bc i too would've gone bat shit insane"

"I've seen a post saying that that they understand LBH going bat-shit crazy because one guy (Shen Jiu) rejected him, and that they would've done the same."

and i would just like to say that i am in no way justifying bingge or bingmei's actions, and i think i made it pretty clear that i knew how fucked and unhinged lbh was ahaha..? though it's not just because one guy rejected him, but because of the terrible side dishes, nasty after taste, and tragedy galore!

all i was rlly doing was putting myself in lbh's shoes. in my post, i was saying how if i was thoroughly bullied and alone throughout my whole life and then was randomly taken cared of by someone and proceeded to fall completely in love with them, and then out of nowhere they turned a complete 180 and pretty much told me to fuck myself bc of my race and pushed me down into literal hell, i think i would've gone crazy! absolutely bonkers. then that person kept running away from me when i'm just trying to talk to them? i don't know how my mental health would be able to take that! the post was more placed in a joke-y manner, but i do think that i would've done the same if that was my situation. is that okay? hell to the fucking no, i'd be horrified of myself if i were to see me doing that no matter the reason. the same goes for the og, the pidw binghe's situation

and really, the same goes for sj as well. if throughout my whole life i was on the streets and then a slave and beaten etc... shit, i probably would've turned out just like him. it doesn't make it right, and i'm not justifying it, but i'm placing myself in the characters' shoes and understanding how they came to be such a way

so, i was pretty much saying that i understood luo binghe, though in no way did i mean to excuse his actions. but i understand that it sounded like i was justifying it, so i can 100% see that now looking back which i am completely at fault for. and, i for one also dislike it when people try to downplay luo binghe's actions or justify what he did

"by your logic, can we excuse serial killers going on a rampage because the person they liked refused them?" no, absolutely not. and no, i wouldn't be okay with a crazy bastard taking it out on someone i cherish for a stupid reason. i wouldn't be okay with someone taking it out on anyone for any reason. there is a line between reality and fiction that i do not cross, and even in fiction i can very thoroughly recognize the fucked up side of my favorite characters

lbh's fucked and definitely a little more than unhinged, and i don't truly think that he's a completely good or even bad person, but i do appreciate that (at least, to me) he seems to try to become a better one after all of that at the end of the series and recognizes that he can't own sqq

and, hey, sj is one of my favorite characters! i enjoy how mxtx made the svsss characters be fucked in some degree. like how lqg thinks just beating up his disciples is a valid teaching method. i enjoy stories with characters who aren't necessarily "good" or "bad" only. moral ambiguity with characters is so interesting!

i really don't think that we should be putting lbh stans and sj stans against each other because, well, there will always be people on both sides who justify the characters' actions. it's not just one side is doing this and the other side isn't doing that, ykwim? and this isn't even just about lbh and sj when we think about it, it's how some people perceive characters who are morally questionable and don't truly look at all sides of the character! the bad, the good, and the ugly

i love sj and lbh, i love my characters with ambiguous morals, and i love that i can put myself in their shoes and see where they're coming from/why they're the way they are no matter how delightfully screwed it is. especially bingge, he's a deliciously tragic and horrible person

so, if i were to believe that lbh's (or tbh any svsss's characters') actions were okay and justified, and also proceeded to believe so if it took place in real life, then there "might" just be something wrong with me

#this is not meant to attack the other poster! i just wanted to explain myself and give some thoughts #sorry if this post was a little messy lol #hey if it wasnt targeted towards me then im sorry about that but i think this still stands #also i think the difference between lqg and sj's teaching is that sj went out of his way to directly target lbh #like providing him a fake manual etc #not justifying lqg btw but that provides a reason why people dont give lqg a lot of shit #like yes he does actively also go out of his way to beat up his disciples though sj just wanted to sabotage lbh for a reason- #-us fans don't know! #this is all so silly #svsss #mxtx svsss #svsss meta #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #liu qingge

[rawwithlove]

Why ignore me when you could ✨adore me✨

#me #my face #I need a full length mirror so I can show off my cute shoes #there is no reason I need to be so gotdamn sexy to go grocery shopping #but I can’t really help it #lol #yes I know my room is messy #selfie #dirty mirror selfies are superior

[suolainensilakkart]

Hmm. Au Ra Axel

#doodles #fan art #kh #ffxiv #kh axel #not putting many tags on this bc its a super messy wip but i wanted to let yall know im still alive lol #yeah hes ass naked here dw abt it ill put some clothes on that beast later #anyway. been on a huge ffxiv kick lately. yes i have an axel alt #forced myself to spend as little time fussing over the details as possible here. i ❤️ gestures

[hetagrammy]

Based on this map x

She's there for Cillian Murphy, he just happens to be wearing pink he swears

#hetalia #hetalia shitpost #my art #hws ireland #nyo!ireland #hws romano #iremano #yes i know barbenheimer has long passed #but i forgot i did this and never finished it #so i figured posting a messy thing was better than nothing lol

[raiiny-bay]

home for the weekend

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #dhestyn #kelly #welcome to dhes' teenage bedroom lol #i'd like to think that as adults the boys visit dhes' parents like #once a month? #maybe stay for a week or two in the summer? #but yea dhes was the kinda kid to put anything & everything on his wall #he was NOT allowed to have a messy bedroom so he made up for it by having messy walls #the pieces of paper are notes from kel btw #they passed them back & forth throughout high school & during class #(they had a lot of classes together) #& dhes kept them all :-) #& i did take the time to write out actual notes (w dates) but of course you can't read them lmao #also YES i know the too much gene kicked in w kel's hair #say NOTHING #thx

[illegiblewords]

Dungeons and Dragons-related thing! Heroforge updated, so I decided to try my hand at some Abyssal tieflings. From top to bottom gave influence tied to Demogorgon, Pale Night, Yeenoghu, Obox-Ob, Orcus, Pazuzu, Zuggtmoy, Fraz-Urb'luu, Baphomet, Graz'zt, Dagon, and Juiblex.

#tieflings #abyss #dungeons and dragons #dungeons & dragons #dnd #d&d #Originally demogorgon tiefling was going to have splitting down the center as a major visual motif but the composition felt messy #in a low quality sense rather than 'ah yes she is living in filth good for her' #so knowing that demogorgon cults are unbelievably fucked up and obsess about demons + being closer to demogorgon in all ways + duality #so I'm gonna say a cult really REALLY wants her but she may have been stolen by a chaotic individual of neutral or good alignment #before the fuckery could begin #I justify my graz'zt generation xerox by saying he inherited those genes real strong and is leaning into it to get laid #I'd probably go trippier with Baphomet tiefling if I wasn't trying to balance the lineup strategically #but no rule she has to be the only Baphomet tiefling lol

[dallonwrites]

beau is sooo messy i'm obsessed with him. him being happy to see felix seemingly flourishing and being more confident etc but also feeling weird and almost jealous at the fact that it used to be just him that got to see felix that way. that he used to be the only reason for it. and like he KNOWS that's a messy and kind of fucked up way to think about it but he also knows he's in a really weird spot emotionally and can't help it

#one question i am obsessed with at the moment is what makes a person/character 'toxic' #i don't think it's a simple yes or no a character either is or isn't #especially with grief and complicated emotions like... #i have had some UGLY thoughts about people. even about people i love and consider friends #and i have had times where i've had to question myself and wondered if i'm actually this spiteful and meanspirited person #but i realised all of those moments were happening in very difficult and dark times in my grief #which was making it harder for me to regulate emotions and being much more sensitive and quick to take something personally #even though i would know logically that i did not feel that way AS I FELT THAT WAY #it was a mind fuck and it took so long to figure out how to process and unpack all that... #anyway im obsessed with grieving characters having sensitivity and messy feelings and being easily triggered into them #and feeling them even though they know logically that's not how they actually feel under 'normal' circumstances #all this to say i dont think beau is a toxic person. but i do think he is grieving and his is the fleshiest/rawest character ive written in #a while LOL #hes competing with felix and dorothy. who imo were actually being toxic to each other in RR LOL #but then it's like. a character that is toxic at times is not necessarily a bad person to me! #im specifying character because i dont want to get into a discussion about irl morality. but like. #oughhh i love characters who are hypocritical and suck but are also full of love and a desire to be better but its hard to be

[akermanch]

Love Lies Bleeding Minimal Spoilers

#love lies bleeding #messy dyke drama of the decade #love lies bleeding spoilers #film #yes I know it’s New Mexico but that was what I was thinking the whole time lol #mine

[httpiastri]

hope ure doing okayy and feeling a bit better than before!! here’s a perfectly fine thought to think about bc i can’t stop thinking about it:

yn and paul being we can’t be friends (wait for your love) by ariana grande coded 🫠🫠 imagine after the breakup and paul and yn are on okay and friendly terms again, but every time paul talks to yn the voices in my head are literally screaming and cursing and crying, telling him he can’t be just friends with her!!!!!! but every time she talks to him or something he just thinks… “i’ll settle on the thought of being her friend even though i no longer have her as my lover. that much is good enough for me” even if it breaks his heart over and over again every time he thinks about it. LIKE the thought of having just one teeny tiny space in her life is better than nothing at all…. he’d really rather have CRUMBS of her :(

“How could you ever even try? I don't wanna tiptoe, but I don't wanna hide But I don't wanna feed this monstrous fire Just wanna let this story die And I'll be alright

We can't be friends But I'd like to just pretend You cling to your papers and pens Wait until you like me again

Wait for your love Love, I'll wait for your love”

… LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND TELL ME ITS NOT YN AND PAUL. ☹️ hold me im so fragile rn.

omfggggg!! i ADORE this ask and i ADORE you!!!!!!

i hadn’t listened to this song before this ask but… ive been streaming it nonstop now, thinking about paul and yn 🫠 because it’s SO yn & paul coded omgggg. you’re a genius 🙏🙏

the thing im thinking about paul and yn is that their relationship is so complex, just like the song paints it out to be. they know they don’t wanna live without each other in their lives, and they’d rather have just a piece than nothing at all. but they also know they can’t just be friends, their bond is too strong and their past is too passionate to for them just to be able to go back to being only friends. it's definitely especially hard for them in the beginning, like... im still in love with you, how am i supposed to just be your friend?

like u said, even crumbs is better than nothing... even seeing her smile across the paddock makes paul so happy... and just seeing him on the podium in bahrain makes her happy too :(

"i dont wanna argue, but i don't wanna bite my tongue" – being so sick of their fighting all the time when they were still together, but also not wanting to just go along with it...

and just "wait for your love"........ that line hits me the hardest :( they're both just waiting for the day when they can love each other again :(((

#ive been trying to work out what their relationship is gonna be like in different parts of the story and like #this is exactly how they are in likeee a few months… after a specific chapter #i don’t wanna spoil too much 😭 but some stuff is gonna happen in the beginning lol #but both of them just waiting for the love to come back 🥺 knowing them being “just friends” wont mean that theyre just friends #it cant work like that #‘you cling to your papers and pens’ is also so funny bcs you’re gonna see her journal so yes she’s clinging onto them ssjsjsjsjs #also thank you so much for your concern sweetheart 🫶 it's been a messy few days but its all good! #love love loved this <3<3 #asks! #anon! #perfectly fine thoughts!

[storfulsten]

my silly viera wol alt bc reasons uwu

#very messy tablet doodle could be better but eh it's something lol #anyways ye this is my edgy bunboi alt whom I like very much #it's about the vibes #I guess #if you don't get the vibes then congratulations I envy you I wish I wasn't so hung up on them tbh geez #ye he's silly af but I'm just having fun so lol #and really he doesn't look all that silly ingame I'm just projecting nonsense quite a lot I guess ha #his hair is actually black with purple details not all dark purple but I improvised and it ended up like that so eh #it works I suppose #he ninja'd his way up through hw danced through sb and is now reaping his way through shb and beyond yeehaw #shame his favorite facemask is bound to ninja only though bc the one he has to use as reaper is so clunky but eh it works #and there's always the bandana options for variety I guess ha #gonna continue through shb with this guy soon when I get the time #catboy's 'bout to ruin this poor bunman's life even more letsgooo #anyways enough random rambling sorry #enjoy or don't it's whatever #ffxiv viera #wol #idk if I should tag the finger flipping but eh let me know if I should I guess idk lol #I draw what I want #also unrelated but go stream DISDAIN on your platform of choice or don't I'm not your mom but either way yay music highly recommend yessir #anyways next artpost will be bombeep or at least fnf related in some way I swear to jeebus #fingers crossed something'll be doodled soon yeehaw

[woainiaini]

Name: Mo Zhao (趙魔)

Ethnicity: Hakka Chinese

Species: Vampire

Birthday: 04.10.1756

Physical age: 34

Height: 163cm

Sexuality: Gay

backstory summary

now an urban city life lover and tattoo artist, Mo grew up as the oldest son of a fisher family in present-day shenzhen

had to help out and take responsibility from a young age, got married at 19 and had 3 children

at age 28 he got caught having sex with another man and subsequently fled his village to avoid punishment, ultimately got involved in anti qing dynasty rebellions in taiwan where his organisational skills caught the eye of the local coven which turned him some time later

worked for them for a while before getting bored and tired of being told what to do, started a rebellion within the coven & killed his masters, had to flee taiwan

went to live in japan for a while after getting bored of fighting (mainly in the opium wars, thought it was fun at first + made some bank) and started taking an interest in tattoo art

now settled down a bit compared to the wild life he led before, not loyal to anyone but more reliable as a potential ally; main residence back in shenzhen with second residence in bolivia

random trivia

most of his body is tattooed, always has his fangs out for The Aesthetic because when you work in the body mod community that's still regular human passing

loves to cook even though he doesn't have to eat anymore

very fun oriented, does whatever he wants whenever he wants; can be very charming but also loves being the center of attention and aggravating others on purpose

enjoys the urban luxury lifestyle, city view apartments, fast cars, high fashion, expensive alcohol, loud shows etc.

his best friend is guang and he's constantly hanging out at his house, much to hsin-yis dismay

liqin is his eldest daughter but neither of them know it (yet)

only learned to write and read while in japan so even though hakka is his native language he was literate in japanese first. also left handed

he is not very emotionally available and doesn't like talking about himself or his life on a deeper level

almost exclusive top, if he bottoms for someone it means he caught feelings and will start avoiding them very soon to not feel dependent on anybody 🤡

pinterest board

website

#hes a bettered bastard and I love him #mo #mine #oc moodboard #ok once i post this shit i can NOT edit anymore..fighting for my life adjusting the pics and text rn jesus tumblr get it together #also literally don know how to do these it miht be lame lol sorry.. mostly doing it to document the basics :p #i should also come up with tags for the other verses tbh ..its p obvious with the vampires but other characters itll just be messy . ough #also YES we made a whole ass website including most of the vamps ok. and yes vixx are on there for some reason dont ask #vamps

[rawwithlove]

Going to tan naked in my backyard and read this book✨☀️✨

Which is funny because Holden would probably think I’m corny as fuck for it but it would probably also kill him lol

#me #my face #yes I know my room is messy #it’s just that Idgaf #lol #laying in the sun is one of my favorite things to do #gonna go play some dmz now #😈

[imma-lil-sunshy]

I need to just say fuck it and make ME happy, I need to write my own BatFam fics where Dick is an acrobatics teacher and is unabashedly bi and the Wayne fam is seen as the Kardashians of Gotham and Dick gets invited to Galas and magazine shoots and late night talk shows, and Tim gets interviews abt the Wayne company since he's so young and literally running this shit and all of them get paparazzi shots and red carpet invites all while juggling the whole saving the world shit

#yes i need to catch up with wayne family adventures too #im just saying #what if it was even MORE indulgent and catered to ME #lol i also see dick going through lots of dating 'scandals' #as opposed to bruces 'flavor of the week playboy persona' #dick is like the one who gets into various serious relationships #and everyones speculating marriage #and dick might have real feelings for a lot of these ppl #(bc my hc is that dick falls in love easily and wants to be in love but cant bc u know vigilante stuff) #so theres always a big messy breakup covered in the tabloida #okay so maybe i just want a whole dick grayson love fest fic fine #u caught me!!

[fourteenthz]

If any of the hairstyles that won the contest not come for viera I swear I'll riot square WATCH OUT

#(in the video game) #hello yes I'm procrastinating dont look at me but hear me out #i think i already know my 7.0 hair HOWEVER I want more...... there are some messy ones so fun #and the curly ones I'm gonna scream man i need an alt RIGHT NOW it's not funny anymore #there are so many ones with cool highlights as well i just love the choices so much every single one of them #maybe they won't translate 100% but I just hope they keep the curls and length. #ALSO if i see one in game nice messy and with like slightly longer than what I have on my bun now I MIGHT BE PERSUADED #i want to naturally grow it back I THINK but I'm not sure. yet. #so ill keep the style for hire for 7.0 for now UNTIL we get the new ones than ill decide #bc I saw a messy one for male that idk... if we get it for female it would be nice.. #anyway imjust really excited with the winners i like the bit of diversity square is slowly allowing for cc it's nice. #i might finally find a good long hair for azem so YEY #bc man I just KNOW it will give some good matcheups with the new ones lol and the highlights under it SO GOOD i need it #kelly says #dl

[ryuuseini]

God I wanna... Say Something regarding fatphobia in media and the terms ppl use in describing characters who gain weight over time ("letting go" like bro shut the fuck up???) and how like, there's also nuance to the discussion (like, a character who starts out on the heavier side choosing to lose weight shouldn't be demonized either - as PLENTY of people want to lose weight for various reasons, and while you can point to a decent amount of it stemming from our fatphobic society, a lot of it is also just personal desire at the end of the day - but I also understand that if your ONLY fat character loses weight at the end and the other characters don't change either, then that's not good) but idk, I'm a little too tired to properly articulate what's going on in my mind? But I just... wish this was more of a discussion

#fatphobia #like - this is coming from someone who is overweight and is very visibly so #and yeah i do wanna lose weight simply because i dont like the way it distributes on me #but theres also the pressure of my mom who thinks its just wrong of me to be this weight and im like ??? pls stop #but I know for ME its more a personal desire #but i think my biggest issue is that like. bc we're at a state of representation where the bare minimum is never met #we're pushing for a monolithic representation of a far more diverse group #which. yes. i get it. ppl shouldnt be reduced to 'hi im fat bc i love food' and that be all rep #like no i 100% agree with that like a character shouldnt be striped down to solely be about being what marginalized group they are #but humans are so fucking nuanced that like. i DO want to see a character who does have a vibe of 'i like food!!' but have OTHER traits #like you have the skinny anime boy who has a million of other traits and cannot solely be defined by 'loves food' #but you also see them literally DROOLING over food and ordering a shit ton of food and somehow eating it all and like #and like the fact that here im specifically talking about Luke Yugioh Sevens who i would ACTUALLY describe as a kid who has like #ZERO awareness of the world outside of himself but does have a strong sense of self worth and genuinely wants to be great #but is very much aware he has to EARN that and doesnt want to be handed it... makes you wonder why marginalized identities dont have nuance #like??? pls just... make ppl human. humans are messy. thats what MAKES us human #this kinda got away from me but yk what i mean im tired lol

[hyperfixation-tangentopia]

Sooo have some angst

#yes I know it's super messy #I was trying something #+ I cannot get myself to do it properly rn so #enjoy #the shading also makes 0 sense but y'know #mental fuckery has led to some nonsensical angst have fun lol