#yeah! creative endeavor!!!!

[wyrmwright]

Day 10. Wise Counselors and Scheming Guests

#april fools challenge 2024 #april fools challenge #afc 2024 #babes we are behind but no sworries #we can skip days or merge prompts #its all for the sake of fun and creativity! #yeah! creative endeavor!!!! #pere the fool #ocs #the king the fool #tktf

[tmntismdoodls]

old doodles pages

#hi yeah im not dead my health’s just gotten a lot worse #i have like no energy for creative endeavors atm so. Yay…. #my art #art #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt raphael #tmnt donatello #tmnt leonardo #tmnt mondo gecko #tmnt mona lisa #tmnt 87 #tmnt 1987 #tmnt 2012

[quatregats]

Went back and reread some of Master and Commander again and goddamn is that book rich with detail...truly I did not know how to appreciate it on the first (or second) read-through...

#19-year-old me was very silly but also there's just too much there for one reading #i'm now resigned to my fate (actually learning how ships and sailing work) and the previous owner of this book left very neat notes #so i think i'm going to try to follow in their footsteps and disentangle a bit of what's going on #plus go through it all more slowly i read way too fast and then i miss things #but yeah. like that one and i think also post captain and hms surprise are really just bottomless pits of historical detail #trying to write fic for it again and i'm realizing even more what an incredibly talented writer he was. just constantly in awe of mr. pob #perce rambles #The Creative Endeavor and other aubreyad nonsense

[heraldofcrow]

Ok, I need to say something and get it off my chest while I actually have some energy.

I know what I want to change for the new year…even though normally I don’t really care for the idea of resolutions because to me there is no guarantee that the turn of a year implies change. I just think everyone should grow at their own pace and transform when they are ready. But my current catharsis just happens to be taking place now, so I’ll make it a resolution. A resolution about creativity.

My energy as a fandom creative has been incredibly low this year, which is weird for me. I have been in quite a few fandoms over the years, but the ones I actively decided to participate in were always fun outlets for me to improve things like my writing and actually make room for my energy. I used to write absurdly long analyses and metas in other fandoms for my own enjoyment and get into in-depth discussions with people about lore, story, themes, or whatever else would come up because that’s where I thrived. I was always the essay spammer lol. I miss the energy that was fueling me then. Something happened to it, and I wonder if it’s because I changed from “writing for myself” to “writing for the fandom” at some point.

Don’t get me wrong, I always loved supportive communities that help you grow and develop in some arena of art. I need that as a person because as isolate and introverted as I can be about my interests, I do have this side that craves the thrill of sharing passion and excitement with others. I love when I create something and other people like it too…I mean, who doesn’t?

That’s a huge part of fandom and of course I am here for that support system, but I don’t want to make my goal to be about supplying content for a fandom.

Just about a year and a half ago I started messing around with drawing for the first time in my life. I had attempted to doodle and scribble as a kid, but it was stick figure stuff. I never was serious. But the urge to depict specific pictures in my head was overpowering. I had to buckle down and watch some tutorials to get anywhere, but I did get…somewhere.

I don’t draw even slightly near the level I want to yet, but I’m glad I practice and learn new little tricks every so often. I just need to break down walls, especially the walls I have been hitting recently. These walls stop me from getting better. They kill my interest in writing. I have trouble responding to people and their conversations with me in fandom…when people express interest in my opinions, I shut down and hide. I don’t put the effort I used to into analysis or research. I am stuck and it is smothering my creativity.

My drawing and writing won’t improve until I stop being scared about challenging myself or being willing to branch out.

That’s my resolution. I need to stop doing stuff for a fandom. I need to smack myself upside the head and genuinely draw whatever the fuck I want and not to create content like a YouTuber. The reason I used to write metas or get into long lore convos with people so confidently is because I was passionate about it and not because I was trying to put something on a platform.

It’s not necessarily that I have been doing this YouTuber thing all year, but I know for certain that the stupid fandom idea of “having a role” or “being The Guy for a certain character” has craftily snuck itself into my head. I adore Bloodborne, I love my Bloody Crow, but I also fucking love Dark Souls, I love Demon’s Souls, I love Elden Ring, I love LOTR, I love Arcane, I love FF7, I love dozens of other films, books, shows, stories…

…I love so much and I want to draw stuff for all of it, I want to write for all of it, I want to express my thoughts on it. I am a subtle participant in plenty of fandoms if they aren’t too toxic, but I have restricted myself to Bloodborne because I felt “safe” about “creating content” here. I also felt a necessity at times.

But truthfully? I am going to suffocate if I force myself to restrict my creativity to one fandom forever. No, I don’t intend to leave it, because I do love it here and I want to still enjoy the community. I also still want this blog to be Soulsborne oriented while my sideblogs are for other fandoms, but that’s just for the sake of my own interest in organization, not because I have to. That’s because I fucking love Soulsborne and its fandom and I want to stay here to share and create. Not because I have to.

I have been hanging around the Soulsborne community for over ten years now…it’s just an infinite vat of creativity and inspiration. I want to contribute because it’s fun. I need to stop limiting myself to the ONE game though. It’s killing the ability to improve my drawing because I don’t truly always want to draw everything from this game. Sometimes I just want to draw knights from Dark Souls.

Sometimes I want to practice drawing armor and not Bloodborne style get-ups. I just want room and space to explore. There is plenty of variety in Bloodborne yes, but it has to be variety I am passionate about or I will half-ass it. I need that option.

It’s the same with writing. My writer’s block has been horrible this year because once I actually started sharing my fan-fiction for the first time, I felt that pressure of having readers and I wanted to make sure everything I put out was perfect. This kills my motivation. It’s utterly deadly. I actually am fine with my writing normally and am very comfortable with improving it through practice, but whenever I succumbed to the likely nonexistent external pressure, I suddenly couldn’t finish editing to save my life.

I need to be free of this and be able to enjoy my fandoms. I need them. 2023 was one of the hardest years of my life. I was so miserable so often, and it’s during those times when I really want a safe space to run and create. It helps me “regenerate.” But if I’m polluting my own safe space with pressure and worry, then what do I have left?

And so yeah, that’s my goal for this next year and the years to come. I want my old energy and passion back, to use this little online outlet to grow and learn more about drawing, writing, and whatever else catches my fancy. I won’t pressure myself about this either, but I hope it comes naturally if I take it slow and try to unlock my brain from the narrow way of thinking.

No more playing into a role. I just need to be free and enjoy myself.

#SO YEAH NOW I AM A PENGUIN AND NOT A CROW #lmaooo #i’m kidding #that would be hilarious #just taking a different role after abandoning one (help) #no but see crows are just ME #that’s different xD #It’s funny because 90% of me has never cared about fandom expectations or roles #but with the bb fandom there was so much drama once upon a time that i got caught in the trap of taking up a role as a form of armor #now that it’s kind of in the past…i really need to move on #fandoms are supposed to be fun…not warzones and i need to stop restricting my creative endeavors to them so much #because even though bb is peaceful now…if it ever happens again i can’t fall into this routine a second time #there is a lot here #but i’m glad i’m thinking about it #personal #new year #fandom stuff #CrowNotes

[lesbianambermoon]

im so excited for artfight because my cat OC world (that i haven't talked about here yet because it's not much atm) is on there now so i hope there will be an explosion of my dearest meows this july

#maybe one day i'll talk more about them when they. actually have a story 😭 unfortunately story is where i fall short in creative endeavors #character design? HELL YEAH! #individual characters and their dynamics? fun! #story and greater worldbuilding? .......ehh youre losing me... #i hope one day i can come up with something because i love these characters a lot

[delivish]

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#can i be vulnerable here for a minute babes? is this a safe space?? #like #i don't even really know how to phrase this #because playing the numbers game when it comes to creative endeavors #especially wrt fandom #is one of the fastest and most surefire ways to kill any joy you have for it #but part of me would really love to be at least somewhat recognizable. be one of the people whose name comes up #when X-ship is mentioned #and have that one well-known and beloved fic #i just think it would be neat y'know #and before people pop up with their 'write for yourself' #'popularity isn't everything' #'write for the 2-3 people who will see and appreciate it' stuff #yeah yeah yeah i KNOW that. i'm not discounting any of that #i'm JUST SAYING y'know? and i don't think i'm alone in this #-/----------

[knxfesck]

 🍓 back!

literally in my top 10 mutuals despite following you super recently, I like your personality and that youre very chill about saying what you think. I love reading your original posts, I'd probably read a book if you wrote it ngl. Correctmaxxed and disillusionpilled warrior in arms. Mutuals I'd love to read at the beach with. Thank you for making me google alevism 🙏

#per usual I gotta put stuff in the tags but yeah I appreciate you so much #askbox #I'm very flattered by your opinions on my creative endeavors 🫶

[qasian-tech-support]

Please ignore if I clicked the wrong blog to respond to.

But I also want new Megas and Protomen :(

RIGHT?!?!

I mean, yeah, the Megas also have their takes on Skullman's theme ("Cracked Skulls"; inspired by MM4) and Chill Penguin's theme ("Chill XMas"; inspired by MMX), and I guess there's also one based on Storm Eagle's theme ("Rougmer Storm"; MMX), but I haven't listened to that one yet.

Like, I get that they have a good story arc to cover the first 3 classic games, but it would be so cool if they explored some of the themes of the following games, y'know? Or flesh out the MMX or other series music! Or hell, pick and choose some Robot Masters and make a new narrative, or like literally anything, please, people are starving over here! And it's not like they aren't still active. Don't get me wrong, I love their Castlevania stuff under the Belmonts label, but it would be nice to get Mega Man content outside of just remixes/remasters of their existing songs. Plus, they're still doing concerts, so like the audience is there for it!

And as for the Protomen, I hope that they actually end up releasing Act III at some point. Having listened to The Fight, it makes me crave it to an unhealthy degree. I love the grimdark kinda take on Mega Man that focuses more on the role that humanity takes in all of the conflict. I feel like that angle gets extremely neglected in Mega Man media.

Idk, as a fan, it's just kinda frustrating how neglected mega man gets. Like, it feels like the rare times whenever we do get content, it focuses on the first three or four games (if we're lucky), and then it just dies off! Or goes dormant for a decade or more. The franchise has so much creative potential that just isn't realized and it's so sad!

#hoping praying everyday for more #oh god and like just how foundational both bands have been for the creative efforts for the classic series #the archie comic even references The Megas a few times!! I GAVE YOU HAIR (ROBOTIC HAIR) #imagine the potential with a Bass focused narrative! or Quint! or Dr Cain!! #and Capcom themselves arent free from scorn here. if they encouraged more creative efforts a la the archie comic it could stimulate #even more interest in the series beyond just jumping and shooting. like that helps to build an evergreen fanbase #and i mean more than just XDiVE. like i find XDiVE charming yeah but like. Im not seeing the profits from being put back into mega man stuff #having friends that have gotten me back into transformers really makes me reflect on Mega Man. i get that transformers has toylines and MM #is more game focused and that def makes a difference but like. the amount of comic series and issues that help flesh out the transformers #universes. for MM we get like 55 issues for archie? 'indefinite hiatus'? bro we know the sonic stuff brought MM down with it just say 'dead' #let IDW take up the license and get Ian Flynn to come back. i know we likely wont get ArchieOCs like Tempo back but like #idk.... it hurts bc i know how good of a job the archie comics were. its hard to imagine a reboot that isnt basically identical in story to #archie. esp bc how much love was put into tying in with the side content like the hand held games. but surely something could be done #somehow it could be continued. find some kind of Genesis Wave-esque mcguffin to change the OCs out. retcon the sonic stuff out completely #i really dont want to see MM1—MM3 needing to be revisited *again*. its like a Dr.Wily/Sigma in their own right for how much it comes back #like thats prob what kills a lot of creative endeavors tbh. the themes and events are so foundational that theyre nigh inescapable #I'm just.... tired.. #i have so much love for mega man and so many chains holding that love down

[beelzeballing]

yknow ive come to realize i have not drawn izzy ONCE so far. which is insane. thats a fucking crime. but i know its partially because im scared ill mess it up. ive never rlly been in the business of drawing anything but twinks and hot anime women so izzy is very much Out Of My Comfort Zone. yes i am very limited as an artist, leave your hatemail in the asks, you will never be more horrible to me about my own art than i am to myself.

anyways ive been meaning to draw him for weeks now and i have multiple specific concepts in mind but. well. yeah. art. haha. haha. haha. (<-trying desperately not to immediately spiral at the mere thought of "art")

#moogsin' #should i tag this as a vent #i dont know #but yeah uh. i have a hard time. #with. uh. creative endeavors. #as in 'this would need years of unpacking in therapy but im not in therapy LOL'

[juergenklopp]

Memes, broadcast screencaps:

Fanart, meticulously crafted gifsets and graphics:

#Like yeah we make things for our own enjoyment first and foremost but man #.txt #Oh well #Feel free to use my tracked tag! I don't have many followers but I want to support your creative endeavors #Queued up some stuffs here we go

[hallothere]

i don’t know what it was called, but in 8th grade english we watched a series of vocabulary videos, and one of them involved a little silly song the guy sang- ‘i’m so nefarious and that means i’m evil’

i remember it perfectly and try to live by that to this day

#this is specifically about something canon i'll endeavor to make worse #but i vividly remember that line #it has driven many creative endeavors #but yeah if anyone knows the series PLEASE tel me #i remember it was voiceovers of different video clips like movies and things #they specifically dubbed over nightmare before christmas #this is the only other one i remember #she said 'you engendered me and that means you can make other things and other people' #it was cheesy but we loved them #anyway

[party-gilmore]

And thus begins the overly anxious lead up and transition into the Day That It Is Very Important Not To Eat Or Drink via the annual “Overthink Everything The Day Before And Doubt Yourself And Start Feeling Guilty Because You’re Already Sure You’re Going To Fail Because You Have No Self Control When It Comes To Consumption And You’re Considering Tweaking Your Fast Plan To Allow For Water Based On The (Mental) Illness But Then You Swing Back Into Heavier Guilt Because You Aren’t Even Sure It IS Mental Illness Rather Than Just Your Analytical Brain Looking For Excuses To Make It Not As Hard And You’re Just Really Starting To Feel Like You Just Kind Of Suck. As A Person. Fundamentally. That You Can’t Even Do This One Thing Right. Then Get A Boost Of Defiant Energy And Decide To Just Chug Water Like Dry Potting Soil And Piss Like Racehorse All Day While Pretending You’re Not Terrified That You’re Going To Abysmally Fail Your Own Expectations Of Yourself” tradition.

Haha WELP. At least they were right! That soul sure CAN afflicted!,!

#yom kippur #eating disorder #(not quite exactly but close enough that I’m tagging for peoples filters) #imposter/faker syndrome so severe I can’t even tell if I’m truthful or just lying/making excuses to my own damn SELF or not #(: #and oh yeah… not to mention the fact that absolutely EVERYTHING that settles me down and grounds me #is SOME kind of creative endeavor??? #so literally on the day I’m supposed to be Thinking Of Important Things and assessing my year and looking inward during a day of quiet #restfulness and contemplation…. my ‘meditation just feels like genuine torture’ ADHD ass in just going to be IHATETHISIHATETHISIHATETHIS on #repeat… which KIND of feels like… it defeats the fucking purpose T.T

[quatregats]

May I present for your consideration...Jack Aubrey but he’s the manager for mediocre non-league side Sophie FC

#please appreciate that it looks like a naval uniform and please overlook that the 'epaulette' is on the wrong side #(it's supposed to be the piping(?) on his tracksuit jacket btw. not sure if that was clear) #yes i'm 11 books into this series no i still have no idea how anything in the navy works #stephen says things and i'm like yeah sounds about right they probably do call it that on board the ship #anyways this is indeed for my aubreyad football au aka the notorious Creative Endeavor #we're still on it and we haven't gotten anything to show for it! here have a little art for fun instead! #it's intended to be based on the first book hence why jack only has one epaulette and also why he looks like Baby #and yes i do wish that he was a bit more rounder and squishier looking i will work on that one for next time #still getting the hang of drawing him and stephen but i do think that the pencil-and-paper seems to do better by me #he is a little bit messy but alas all digital attempts looked Much Worse so we're sticking with pencil sketch #*breathes deeply* i am going to post this to the tag i am going to accept the mortifying ordeal of being known #aubreyad #The Creative Endeavor and other aubreyad nonsense #perce rambles #also in other news i've downloaded so many books about football someone stop me #and oh! if anyone has Aubreyad Football AU Opinions to share i would love to hear them! always happy to get messages :) #scribblings & such

[dayisfading]

okay so i was able to get into my old, old blog as well as my old sideblogs which i have been browsing because i am having uncontrollable nostalgic urges

i'm looking at the old graphics/gifs i made and well, they're not great, but you know, they're also 10 years old, but the gifs also looked so choppy and bad compared to what i'm used to seeing now and then i remembered there used to be a GIF LIMIT (i assume there is now too but it's definitely bigger) and they could only be certain sizes so i pared down the quality and reduced the frames and blacked out the background to make the file size smaller oh my god it's so sad

#don't mind me just having war flashbacks to 2012 #but actually doing that sort of thing was so fun and i miss it a lot #it was a good technical/creative balance bc i'm not creative enough for most artistic endeavors #also yeah it's 10am and i'm on tumblr bc i started my new job but i'm waiting for onboarding stuff to come through before i can do anything #else so it's just like #surprise vacation #except i don't have access to a car so i can't really do anything LOL

[kindahoping4forever]

1 and 6 and 9 - 🦭

Thank you 💙

1. is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

I've had a specific arc for Gardener!Ash plotted out for about a year now and have started on it several times but keep stalling out on it. I think it's partly what I discussed earlier, about not feeling like I'm in optimum condition to write it (which again, is silly) and partly that it's a lot of work, there's a lot of set up to get to the pay off I envision. I'm obviously excited to tell the story I want to tell but I think it just seems daunting to me when I think about it so I keep putting it off.

6. something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change now

This turned into a much longer and much more negative answer than felt right for this fun lil ask game (lmao) so I've deleted my extended answer and will just leave it at: I don't know that it's "too late" necessarily but I do often wonder if writing in 2nd person POV was/is the right choice for me.

9. what, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

I generally try to write everyday since there's always something to work on and on the days I'm having trouble getting into it, I've found what helps inspire me the most is either reading back some of my older work or talking fic with a friend (99% of the time it's Cass lbr) Whether we're talking thru my WIP or hers, it gets the creative brain flowing and helps me feel excited and motivated to get things done.

Get To Know Your Author Asks!

#that gardener Ash story is happening this year tho dammit 👽 #and yeah the 2md question is something that plagues me but i had to delete my rant bc that was not the energy for this survey lmao #and i wish i had cooler inspo tricks but honestly even just talking about a creative endeavor feels like working on it in some way #which is why i like ask games like this! #so it definitely helps #💙💙 ty! #ask #🦭 anon #kh4f writing #gardener ash #author asks

[trashcatmonster]

im trying to get a bit more into art (a hobby i lost in my later years of high school) and im trying to draw nyx! however. im avoiding drawing him by focusing on the background first bc im intimidated by the idea of drawing fur.

bright side: the background sketch looks cool so far :3

#chittering #yeah now that im roped fully into undertale im gonna be using this blog to ramble about my creative endeavors a lot lol #still looking for ut friends!!! if anyone wants to chat feel free to dm me!!! #youre also welcome to ask for my discord!! but you gotta dm me for it #cant have friends without making conversation first!