#with seemingly no progress

[miniatureliterature]

The universe can stop now. It can stop. I’ve had enough now, it can chill out. I’m good. It can stop.

#for god’s sake #i’m nine months pregnant #our new washing machcine bought in feb is defective #and i’ve been fighting for a repair or preferrably a return for 3 straight weeks #with seemingly no progress #bc as soon as it was fixed it broke again #no one told us when we bought our house 2 yrs ago we’d have to file for primary residency #so our taxes jumped up 58.6% and our mortgage company raised our mortgage $600 more a month to compensate #i’ve had to call so many county clerks offices to retroactively try to fix that and bring it down #but they’re on a time scale of 6-8 weeks #which mathing out from when i got the paperwork filed is my due date or 2 weeks after #and the bank got part of it fixed but isn’t applying it to our next payment yet #our insurance decided now was the time to require us to use their online pharmacy for ‘maintenance drugs’ #but took 2 weeks to tell me if my pregnancy stuff was considered maintenance bc it’s short term #i’m having to try and get a company to pay for the medical bills from my er trip when i got food poisoning #and it took me dozens of calls just to figure out what bills were coming from where and how much #i’m going to four med appts per week bc i’m stupid high risk #and can’t eat anything without intensive math because of this stupid gestational diabetes #to the point where i can’t even have unsweetened applesauce in my cottage cheese anymore bc that’s started spiking my blood sugar #found that out today #and on top of it all #i just had to call our internet company #bc i saw a $130 bill and was like that can’t be right #but no #it is #the promotion i was put on in november that i was told would last 6 months and keep our bill down to $60 a month #oh no #it was marked for expiration on march 3rd no matter what #and every other thing i was told about it was a lie and now i have to face living with it or finding a new company and i’m tired #just. please can everything just sort itself out so when i go into labor i don’t have to think about any of this shit

[sophisticatedswifts]

I want what they* have

*the mysterious couple on Louis Tomlinson’s tour merch that seem to be navigating time and space together

#I need to know their lore #he’s given us no explanation for this #but whenever he has another show we get another merch design of them seemingly progressing through time and space #it’s so cryptic and I’m fascinated by it #louis tomlinson

[bixels]

Gunsmith cats being on your favourites makes sense.. Your art style feels like it. Do you take inspiration from it?

That's funny. I haven't taken particular stylistic inspiration from it. I like the action, I like the cars, I like the short story format. It definitely captures what I love about 90s OVAs, where budget and energy is spent primarily on simple but flashy/stylish scenes with fantastic depth and character animation.

#ask me #anon #the politics of this ova are interesting too #at first glance it seems like a very anti-gun control story but it's really about american politicians hiding behind seemingly #progressive policies to enact unprogressive agendas like “cleaning up illegal immigrants” #also the atf aren't even the bad guys in this story. they're actually pretty chill which surprised me because the atf was EXTREMELY #unpopular when this anime was made/released. 2 years after the waco siege

[uncanny-tranny]

Healing can look and feel a lot like pain, so it's hard to imagine this being a good sign. However, I think feeling like it's getting worse can be a sign that you're healing and you're making progress.

I've been noticing in myself that I feel a whole lot worse ever since I actually... acknowledged I have a lot of healing to do and that I am unwell. I actually allowed myself to entertain the idea, and it's opened the floodgates to me finding out just how bad it got. I'm grateful in a way that I'm getting worse now because I have the ability to heal.

If it feels like it's gotten worse, maybe it could be because you're making your way out of the storm. It's going to be okay.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #recovery #i think getting worse is a sign that your brain is ready/you feel safe enough to BE worse #it can be more complex than that but this is my general opinion about it #i've noticed a lot more increased symptoms/seemingly new symptoms and while it's hard to discern why that is... #...i guess i just think it's okay to 'let' yourself be/become worse as you make progress toward recovery #because recovery is a process and not a destination #it's learning how to feel safe and secure and learning how to recognize yourself and your boundaries #it's learning how to apply those skills in your life to make it easier to navigate #it's a messy and human process that is so dependent on the individual and their needs and goals

[sonknuxadow]

sorry for the weird pauses this video is multiple recordings edited together. because im playing the switch version and screen recording on switch is kind of weird. but anyways. as promised heres that glitch i was talking about the other day. girl help they locked me out

#sonic frontiers #sonic frontiers spoilers #sonic frontiers the final horizon #this was really funny at the time but i probably would have been mad if this happened at wyvern or knight #because it was seemingly impossible to beat the boss like this and i had to start over #like its funny and no big deal when it happens at giganto because its just giganto. #its the first boss and ive basically mastered the art of beating it as quickly as possible. no big deal if i have to start over there #but with the other two its like. come on ive already made some progress here and youre doing this to me.

[viviennelamb]

Whenever the topic of "toxic individualism" is brought up, I think it's going to be about society's rabid egotism, but it's "I think it's toxic people won't let me drain them to death."

Thank God for the West's bodily Freedom and Individualism. I'd rather kill myself than be in a community with beasts and his lovers which is why third world countries are karmic failures. Communities exist to find a sex partner. If you want to get anything meaningful done, you have to do it alone. Males are anti-individualism because they want to fuck and women want a free babysitter.

What gets me is when people are like “you've never done anything by yourself anyways” ...then what's the problem?

Life's so much better when you rely on God only. No more fickleness, betrayal, envy, fear, meanness, fakeness, psychopathy etc. Relying on egos is completely unnatural, but egos like the drama so enjoy lol. If humans were social creatures, the social struggle wouldn't be this significant (struggle with what? oh you know: lesphobia, innocence-hating, anti-Reality, a big motherfucking etc). The day you're screwed over hard enough is the day you will stop idolizing egos and you will finally have the motivation needed to seek the truth that humans are actually wired to connect with God which is why we are souls. Anything else is dogma so animals can guilt you into letting them steal your life.

Humans actually fucking despise each other and The Distraction is trying to make people get along when it's not possible. When you have wants and needs, you become a rapist of all sorts; raping minds, bodies, emotions, time, kindness, happiness, sympathy. People without wants and needs are highly sought after because parasites can take and take, but people who are sane and sober don't want to be around them. This is what this debate is all about and why complainers don't want to be with each other.

Egotism has already created a dystopia that has been going strong since egos became the majority of the population. Egos come up with ideas of the way things "should be" instead of looking at the reality of what is actually happening right Now which would explain why people are weary.

#“I want to rely on people” most ppl can't be relied on. face reality & adjust ur expectations. it's not individualism... #ppl who don't have discipline in their own lives cannot help others. it's impossible. they've mentally and emotionally regressed #& ppl without discipline have no faith or persistence so how the fuck are they gonna help you? 💀 #as soon as something seemingly better/easier comes along they're out. instant gratification is the ego's god. #life isn't meant to be easy but ppl give you the illusion of that... as soon as they abandon or betray you you're left at square one #No thanks! If I fail I want it to be 100% my fault. At least my progression would still remain somewhat in tact.

[front-facing-pokemon]

#mamoswine #what is this. ground/ice? i think so. maaaybe evolves from piloswine? i dunno. did piloswine really need a retrofit evo? #i think the swinub -> piloswine progression is like. good on its own. and now there's _this_ guy thrown in there for seemingly no reason #like. why though. why're they here. i dunno. am i being super negative for no reason? man maybe i am #i like their blue mask with the black around their eyes. i think that's nice #i don't conceptually dislike this pokémon i'm just not in a very good mood today i guess. i'll be more positive on the next set of tags #i swear. the next one is a pokémon i really like

[metanarrates]

it’s so fucking wild how OFTEN I see stuff subtly (or even unsubtly!) positing that femininity is not well represented in media nowadays. i feel like that’s been A Take for most of my life but it’s wild how many self-proclaimed progressives are saying shit like that in the last two years? do you have brains. have you ever watched literally any mainstream piece of media in your life.

and all of this ALWAYS seems to culminate in positing butches as the enemy of all things feminine or whatever, doesn’t it? it’s crazy how often I’ve seen that recently too. there’s a prevailing myth that butches are overrepresented particularly in sapphic media and i’ve seen people EXPLICITLY hailing (insert feminine sapphic character) as more progressive than that Backwards Shit That’s Just Gotta Include Butches.

like i don’t mind liking over the top femininity in media! i genuinely don’t! but when people start to engage in fervent hype around Femininity In Fiction, it ALWAYS ends up with people being aggressive towards butches. it’s exhausting. it feels like both the right wing and the “inclusive” lgbt spaces lately have been increasingly hostile to butch existence and nobody ever gives a shit.

#the NUMBER of seemingly progressive posts I've seen recently that are like that. mein gott #also if you well actually me on this post i'm vaporizing you. #i KNOW femininity is not always treated well in fiction or irl. it's still frequently valorized. #and butches are forever punished for not conforming to it. like... lol #being a dyke online is exhausting but ESPECIALLY lately. there's so much discourse about lesbian existence

[ghostcrows]

ok the thing thats driving me mad is you cant just Be transphobic and then say no what we're doing is just a defensive action to protect ourselves from transmascs. that is not what youre doing?! like you understand that you cant just be like "i stay 100000 feet away from any transmasculine person because theyre all infected with misogyny and they hate trans women" and when we say. what. that is not true. be like "ok mra yeah 'not all men' amirite'" .... like what is with this shit man why are we being told we "ruined" the solidarity of trans people. why when i bring this shit up people ignore me or act like im being crazy what am i missing here. even other trans guys its like we are only allowed to talk about how much we fucking suck or else its bad optics or something its "being an mra"... im not standing up for the nebulous concept of mens rights im talking about TRANSGENDER men and how suddenly we are like the reason the community is ruined

#im trying not to get so freaked out but no matter what i feel crazy about this #like i guess im just failing to understand how its progressive to hate other trans people seemingly more than you hate cis people #like i keep shutting the fuck up cause i feel like an idiot and afraid ill loose mutuals/followers #but...like. what is the fucking energy lately

[dark-elf-writes]

Fic idea where Cloud and Lazard are both Shinra bastards who get along shockingly well with Rufus (time travel shenanigans mayhaps?) but it’s told exclusively through the lens of the Turks assigned to the three of them that just want their charges to Stop. Getting. Into situations. For like five minutes.

#the elf talks #ff7 #and they never do. they are forever in situations #tseng is too much of professional to beat his head agaisnt the wall in frustration #katana on the other hand is not and he is definitely thinking about it #cloud is the worst of the three and whoever is assigned him is seriously considering a child leash #fourteen year old cloud thrown over the shoulder of a Turk and pointing at sephiroth shouting at top volume ‘get a paternity test’ #just imagining an outsider watching the seemingly insane progression of the story by three feral blinds is just *chefs kiss*

[mariocki]

"From a very early age the child becomes part of a pattern he never fully understands and is powerless to change. It is a pattern that is made up of rituals - of form periods, morning assemblies, lessons that follow each other in quick succession for no apparent reason, bells rung by other people that govern his changes of activity, milk, school dinners, homework. His life is part of a scheme that has been devised by people he does not know, and into which he is expected to fit without question.

And it is here that we come to the real content of our educational structure. At school, the child is taught by experience that it is normal for other people to organize his life. He will be told in Civics or History that he lives in a democracy, which means that people govern themselves. But he will know as an experienced fact that he must expect to be governed by other people who know better than he does."

- Albert Hunt, The Tyranny of Subjects, in Education for Democracy (2nd ed., 1972)

#teaching tag #education for democracy #albert hunt #quotes #the tyranny of subjects #1972 #education #teaching #this is proving a valuable read; it's necessarily dated‚ and some of the ideas that must have seemed revolutionary in the late 60s and #early 70s are now taken for granted in most popular approaches to pedagogical ideals. elsewhere tho there are radical suggestions for #completely new approaches to comprehensive teaching which still carry merit and would still bear further investigation (and remain just as #unlikely to see implementation under the current uk culture of education). many of the articles and papers collected in this book were #written under a Conservative government that was slowly undoing what small progress had been made in the field of universal education #by the previous labour gov. in the 59 years since publication‚ that baton has gone forwards and backwards several times‚ with seemingly #ever slower and smaller progress made at the expense of ever greater compromise and deconstruction. two steps forwards‚ one step back; same #as it ever was. same as it may well ever be

[adventuresofsnake]

"Don't mind if I do!"

#the adventures of solid snake #mgs #solid snake #metal gear solid #alcohol tw #gotta unwind somehow after going through seemingly endless boxes of childhood toys and reflecting on the linear progression of time amirite #at least Snake had a good time

[edge-oftheworld]

I love how no one knows what the fuck any of the chords are in any of the songs on CALM

#like lonely heart. I have just seen the two MOST DIFFERENT takes on it. it’s worse than teeth #G/Bm/A/D on loop (wrong too major) and a seemingly random progression of those chords and Em which it starts on with no pattern #and then there’s whatever I did and I’m not even sure with it tbh

[fauna-and-floraa]

Love how ostensibly King the Land is a fanciful little romance show starring kpop idols but then every other episode they say something about the ill treatment of employees under corporations and the indecency of the executives and it's just like huh ?? Okay!!!

#Dont get me wrong i wont pretend its like Groundbreaking #or intensely progressive or anything im not that silly #but they very easily could still have the sister be The Big Bad Boss and not have the leads really say much beyond wow isnt /she/ mean #but they do actually consistently have them acknowledge most workplaces are exploitative and dont value the workers #idk its just neat for a show thats seemingly to just swoon over handsome rich guy #kudos to the writers #king the land #gu won #cheon sa rang

[mimiatmidnight]

Class reductionism is so funny because it will bring you a socialist saying full-heartedly, "Stop defending that Black woman from racism. Don't you know there are people who are underpaid!!" Like I'm dead this woman actually said, "Guys this is Not A Good Look™ 😕"

Grace, my comrade . . . people have the ability to care about two things at once. And no, economic violence against poor white women is not any more important than racist violence against wealthy Black women.

Disrespectfully, shut the fuck up <3

#meghan markle #at first i understood what she was saying against iconizing the rich elite as the only harbingers of social progress #but then it very quickly turned from seemingly ''whose work deserves idolization?'' to ''whose struggles deserve *attention*?'' #''whose pain is more real?'' #and that is just completely off the rails #empathy is not a limited resource GRACE. #peoples lives are affected by far more than merely class GRACE. #my god #also did you catch her little trivializations like ''oh ofc we all feel bad for her'' #girl fuck OFF #i don't ''feel bad'' for meghan #i FEAR for her BODILY SAFETY #how's that ''look'' for you?

[revindicatedbyhistory]

wanted to fact check how socially conservative kke is and from what i learned from an extremely quick glance it seems like they opposed one specific law by syriza about lgbt things? but wikipedia says they also want more legal consequences for homophobic actions so idk

#admittedly if all they did was one bad call on a law this would be an improvment over many communist parties both past and present lol #they also seemingly are big on greek national identity but to be fair at least the greek ethnic identity is like. real. and for #nationalists in europe being anti eu and nato must be incredibly progressive #idk do any of my mutuals know more about greek politics