#wish i could live off them!!!

[yardsards]

how to explain to your parents that you can't move back in with them because every time you're near them a big part of you buries itself and you're not sure how long that part can stay buried before its hidey hole becomes its grave?

...without offending them, of course

#eliot posts #last time i was forced to move back in w them was when the dorms closed for quarantine #and a part of me DID die then #and i think in those first 18 years i spent living with them so many parts of me died before they even had the chance to be born #they keep framing it as a generous offer. i won't have to pay rent AND they'll get me set up working oart time for my dad's friend #AND they'll replace my car with a newer one #but i do NOT fucking trust it #they act nice while i'm not living with them and am able to freely escape #but that niceness goes away once i have nowhere to go #like that's exactly what happened when i was forced back to them during quarantine #and how hard they're pushing this seems realllly sketchy #i told my mother i'd think about it (to get her off my back) and she said ''don't waste time thinking. just agree to it.'' #like hellll no. i do NOT trust like that. #even my sister was trying to talk me into it which i don't get because she of all people should understand. #but anyway. i'm applying for jobs and looking at extending my lease. i am NOT going back there. #i just wish i could tell them that without getting yelled at and guilt tripped and talked to like i'm a stupid little baby.

[seaglassdinosaur]

I know we collectively agree that Hiccup isn’t romantically inclined, and his getting married and having kids didn’t make sense in the epilogue, but consider: Hiccup getting married for political reasons.

It’s a marriage of alliance, which is recognized both by him and his partner, and they enter it without expectations of romantic involvement. Since they’re now married, they live in the same castle, spend time together, and Hiccup finds he really likes his spouse. They’re funny, get along with his friends, and has the same interests and values. They both probably speak multiple languages. She understands why Hiccup is so dedicated to making the Wilderwest better, and holds similar views. She’s a good politician (her job after all, was to be an ambassador). Hiccup likes spending time with them, and the feeling is mutual. They’re not in love, they have their own lives, but they’re dedicated to each other and eventually decide to raise children. They teach their kids how to train hawks and hunt with dragons, riding, history, the Languages, and all the necessary skills of their world. They’re not in love and they’re happy together.

#pushing the aromantic hiccup agenda and also the queerplatonic agenda #as much as the idea of hiccup getting married was always a little off to me it was more the romantic angle #which I why I like the idea of a marriage of alliance and a partner who understands that #and then of course the montage of them being a good team and getting along #and going ‘yeah I like this person. I think this is the person I want to spend my life with.’ #also a) a lot of arranged political marriages did have the foreign spouse function as an ambassador #b) polyglot hiccup is canon and I think it would be neat if his spouse was as well. it is a marriage alliance after all. #she isn’t from the small area of berm #(actually give all the Vikings regional accents. I think it’s neat) #c) she/they because I didn’t feel firmly about the partner’s gender and the nords were pretty gender diverse #anyway I think the partner would probably be fond of the library and admire hiccup got it open way back when #get along with Fishlegs and camicazi well enough #and enjoy dramatic stories of their adventures. maybe have some of her own #also: normalize people having their own lives outside their partners. hiccup and they are happy together but also have their own friends #oh and you know hiccup would be a great dad. he loves Stoick but he would so much be the dad he wished he had growing up #are the kids bio related? are they adopted (cast off and No Names)? who knows! #I could build in my head what hiccup’s spouse is like but I’ll leave it here #they exist as we construct them #httyd #httyd books #my post #book!hiccup #hiccup the third #hiccup horrendous haddock iii #book hiccup

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Wait, but what is it about wally in the human au that makes him so weird?? Is it just an ableism thing or does he have like strange habits/interests

mmmm it's a bit of both kinda? more so the latter honestly! i mean by social norms & standards he's already a quirky guy, and i think he'd have a plethora of 'odd' mannerisms & habits on top of that. so yes, he's genuinely strange, but it's up to others to view/treat that as a negative or a positive or a neutral yk yk

#personally im standing off to the side sighing wistfully #wishing i could live my life so unbothered by how the world views me. oh to live your most genuine self without fear or compromise.... #like for example i gotta stick with the apple theme. he fucking Loves those things. he'll talk for hours about them #like in his & barn's kitchen there is an Apple Basket for him to gaze upon or pick out an apple to admire or paint #and he gets distressed whenever he views someone eating an apple or cutting one up cause to him they're Not Food & he loves them yk? #and of course there's the intense unbreaking eye contact with literally everyone #unless he's explicitly asked 'dont look me in the eye' he Will Stare Into Your Soul #and if asked he'll Remember & will literally never make eye contact with that person again. he'd rather close his eyes completely #& in this au he's still Constantly Smiling & honestly is very hard to ruffle to the point of it being slightly unnerving #he goes through a haunted house with his friends and has them all cowering behind him as he strolls through casual as anything #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #i could go on! he's just... yk! he's Him! without compromise! he takes norms & expectations and crumples them up! #he looks at them and says 'wow! this is worthless!' #and keeps doing his own thing

[cowboycunt]

someone give me quick easy no stress answer to all of life’s problems

#debating telling work that during my two weeks off i will be getting top surgery #this could backfire because well. i live in the uk. #however i’m wondering if i will actually just be able to get away with not saying anything #i am expected to lift things at work #tbh i think i wouldn’t mind doing some work during week 2 of recovery because i imagine i’ll be bored out of my mind and i could just - #- draw some maps #and then i also technically need an extra two days off in addition to the two weeks which i was gonna play hookey for but. idk. #i am getting stressed #and like idk i work with liberal people. and wouldn’t ask for things to change because we work with volunteers #and i don’t wanna spend every week explaining they/them pronouns to a new batch of volunteers #so like. idk #i wish i were able to do this while i was still in college. would make my life so much easier. #but oh well #fish.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[aaandbackstabbed]

Goldie needs to be able to one up Scrooge (it’s practically an addiction). So when the twins arrived and she hated them she needed a new approach. And she already had stocks in Scrooges business and maybe she’s been neglecting them sooo perhaps she should pay some special attention.

#wink wink #that’s right #Goldie decided to be a business woman in the 90s #((not that she wasn’t already she had a successful hotel empire by this time but still)) #there was no way she’d gone the entire 60s 70s and 80s regularly interacting with Scrooge #((that’s right I said it they spoke regularly for 30 years fight me)) #only for her to allow them to go back to no contact #just because some stupid kids live there now #nah ah #she will get her fix one way or another #and if means sporting business suits instead of her usual adventure gear then so be it #and if she happened to use this to her advantage #to say show off her assets #((or maybe just feel clean rather than dirty and sweaty when she was him)) #like Goldie is fashion icon #we all know this #so when I say she turned up looking her absolute BEST #I need you to know how badly I mean this #ugh I wish I could draw #I would show you guys all the outfits that are in my mind rn #goldie o'gilt #scrooge mcduck #ducktales #scroldie #the duck twins #Goldie is addicted to inconveniencing Scrooge #nothing will stop her

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[tenebrous-academic]

Actually I can’t stop thinking about the way Watcher dropped the news on the same day as the release of TTPD. Did they…think that it would somehow cause us to associate it with they hype of a new album? Or were they hoping the news cycle would focus on Taylor and let them sneak this one by us? We know they have swifties on staff - what was the thought process here?

#I’m dying to be a fly on their wall right now #what were they thinking #obviously they deserve to earn a living wage and make content they love #but damn this was a wild move to make #people are making good points about the other ways they could have made the money without being beholden to advertisers #and I came off hot yesterday reacting to people wishing them ruin and failure #which seems so extreme #people want art to be free apparently #watcher #watcher entertainment #watcher tv #taylor swift #ttpd #taylor swift ttpd #ttpd release #april 19 #the tortured poets department

[bunnihearted]

im the one society marked as avoidant yet im always the only one who wanna fucking talk things thru. y'all are a fkn joke!!! im sry but u rlly are 💀 im the avoidant one. the one scared of conflict nd afraid of talking.... yet im always the one staying and begging to talk while the other one just leaves or is a wall nd refuses to talk abt it 😹😹😹😹😹

#im sick nd tired of it #sooooo many ppl say they wanna talk #nd blah blah fucking blah #it's never ever true #!!!!! im so sick of ppl jesus fucking christ #im sick of society telling ME im the sick one the distubed one #im the one w a personality #w a personality disorder lmao*** #yet every one else are x100000 more avoidant than me #it's a joke!!!!!! absolutely fucking ridiculous #i barely have patience w ppl anymore bc all they do is blah blah blah but 1% of what they say is actually true #yeah yeah blah blah you're just wasting air atp maybe just stfu #dont say things u cant stand for #god im so fucking angry like????? why is it so hard for y'all to fucking TALK. say what u mean!! say what u wanna!!!! #talk things our instead of running away like a dumb fkn coward everytime smth gets a bit tough #or it's more like everyone have these extremely high nd uttainable expectations nd demands of u #nd if u dont live up to them suddenly you're trash nd they dont even want to talk abt things #bc you're not the perfect little thing they made up in their head #ugh fucking yikes people are so incredibly infuriating #i wish i could just find my ONE person nd then just go off nd be w them nd not bother w everyone else jfc #ok i obvi cant speelll when im angry whatever

[kirstielol]

my building turned off the heat last week when it was really nice out

except this week it's back to being freezing cold (it's -5 out right now), and the heat is still off!! my apartment is currently 18 degrees (64F)... i'm so fucking cold 🥶😭

#when they turn off the radiators for the season they do something that sounds like they're running water or some liquid through them? #takes them two days to do whatever they do #so.. i feel like they're not gonna turn them back on after doing that #stupid old building.. wish we lived somewhere where we had control over our heat #guess i'll just freeze 🤷‍♀️ #at least the reptiles have heat lamps and stuff #wish i could shrink and crawl in mochi's tank and sit under his heat lamp

[lesbiangiratina]

Not very fond of people like waving off testament’s gender as just a Gear Thing but well at least it becomes funny when people apply it to gears as a whole. Like yeah i can agree with that. It has nothing to do with being a gear tho theyre all just transgender

#okay ill talk about it seriously down here #it does feel like the original intent behind their androgyny was to kind of Other them from humanity #daisuke saying theyve transcended humanity / talking about their ‘inhuman beauty’ #i dont want to call it dehumanizing since theres like. a weird positive (…i guess) angle of them being ‘above’ humanity #thats just kind of a trope though. like nonhuman characters without a human concept of gender or sexuality. yknow #but anyway strive didnt really go back on this. they kinda made it a part of their arc? #i think dev backyard says that theyve ‘lived without the concept of gender’ since being turned into a gear #but theres no disconnect from humanity that goes along with that anymore #i like the implication that reconciling with humanity and more importantly their OWN humanity coincided with their presumable transition! #alright now for the part of this i dont like. its weird to assume the gear conversion had some effect on their body and THATS why theyre nb #i think any implications of that are vague enough to be dismissed #i wouldnt even call them Implications its like. messy (and contradictory!) early 2000s phrasing and a theory about 1 line of dialogue lol #early fandom stuff im aware of but dont know enough to talk about aside. nowadays its just used to like #excuse their androgyny. by gamers who cant just. believe that theyre nonbinary because they want to be. lol #not because of anything that was done to their body against their will. or even more simply because theyre just a gear and are Above gender #literally theyre just nonbinary. isnt that cool. i wish everyone could agree this is cool and end the discussion there. #except for me. i can discuss it all i want forever. because im the understander. #whatever. at least the section of testament’s wiki page theorizing about their genitalia is gone now. kissaroo for whoever took that off. #I NEED TO WRITE UP THAT TIMELINE IM LITERALLY NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAY IM AUTISTIC ABOUT TESTAMENT’S GENDER. CLEARLY #the kat goes meow #gg

[girlthingdecay]

.

#i kind of want to kill myself. im so disconnected from anything. i have no original thought. everything is scripted #everything is just put together pieces from things ive heard elsewhere and i do not have a single original thought #everyone can see that im masks all the way down and everyone can see that i am nothing underneath and even that is a stolen way of saying it #i have no way of making nothing palatable but i am simply nothing. invite me over and ill try to adapt to you and write a new script based #off new media but if you make me truly comfortable and somehow manage to unplug my behavior then youll be rewarded with me just sitting #beside you on the floor and staring at whatever media you show me without speaking much and only occasionally seeking further warmth from #you #i vocalized it to someone close recently but im a nothing void and i wish people all acted in exactly the way i wanted regardless #i have selfish fantasies about people just doing everything to make everything easy for me and if i were a god i would be an entirely #selfish one #if the right people would go and stay as i please even though im a nothing void and dont deserve them around #if they would all do whatever i needed like gave me cuddles or sex or affirmation or money or treats #if life was one long cycle of being the most treated god by everyone then maybe i could be something i dont know #maybe something could be manifested into me #everyone already projects an idea onto me so maybe a collective idea held by all with a great deal of love would make whatever they say of #me true and maybe then id exist fully #until then oh well #though in reality im just sanitizing a bit. having others fully as puppets serving me isnt something that i want because i think itll “fix” #me by any measures and id likely only grow far more sadistic and selfish but i wish for that world because i could live in perfect comfort #i could do anything i wanted and have anything i wanted and nobody would stop me #sorry this is just like. a long rambling in tags. i should shut up now

[berryicet]

I think they should meet. Just let them sniff eachother through the door first though

#you know #I'm just now realising that these seem SO ooc #but just take my word for it. #they've had some amazing character arcs and soooo much character development #i promise im not insane #they have the capability of being good ppl just LET THEM LIVE FOR LONGER THAN LIKE 3 DAYS #sometimes it's stuff like this that makes me wish i could actually write #because i could just write a fanfiction with all the stuff I've been imagining for months #and it would be lifting a rock off my soul #inanimate insanity #ii mephone3gs #ii mephone5 #my art

[jedi-bird]

Tried to go outside and do some more yard work this morning. Managed to get the native Douglas yellow iris and the hollyhocks planted before it started raining. I've now abandoned the yard in favor of laundry and hot tea and dreams of going to ikea to drool over couches.

#adventures in gardening #it looks like it rained a lot last night which is good for the plants #the new herbs survived nicely #i was concerned that whatever keeps pooping in my citrus beds would dig them up #i have about 10 pounds of ginger that i grew that i need to process and freeze and I'm putting it off #i also wish that i had friends who lived by me that were into gardening so i could foist some plants onto #there are so many succulent cuttings that they're taking over #the temptation to set up a plants for sale sign is quite high

[immamapletreekid]

was trying to enjoy my evening by listening to bokuaka playlists while reading, but TELL ME WHY IT IS THAT WHEN I SEARCH FOR PLAYLISTS I KEEP GETTING ONES FOR IN ANOTHER LIFE!!!?@?!1!@!????

#I DONT WANT TO REMMEBER TJAT FIC I READ IT ONCE LIKE 5 YEARS AGP AND IT CAUSED IRREPARABLE DAMAGE #that fic taught me the importance of reading tags i wish i could say im joking #I WANT SILLY SWEET U ARE MY UNIVERSE MY STAR AND GUIDIJG LIGHT WE ARE THE PROTAGONISTS OF THE WORLD #KIND OF PLAYLIST NOT #SHUTTINGDOWN BC I CANNOT PROCESS MY EMOTIONS AGTER READING A FIC THAT REWIRED MY BRAIN #i am a weak person i need bkak to be the bestest of friends and sweetest of lovers forever and ever and let them rule the world and live #long happy fulfilling lives until they are 130 years old i need them to remian in each others lives to always be the constant for each othe #i need bokuaka protagonists of the world always forever until the end of time for all eternity i need them together and not separated #i need them making weekly visits to see each other during volleyball season i need them living together during off season i need #them going on morning runs together getting groceries together giving eschother hugs and kisses and cuddling in bed and saying i love you #to each other 395857380192 times a day i need them to constantly send each orher owl puns good GOD #rambling about stuff

[im2tired4usernames]

I hope what ever asshole cultist invited the stay at home daughter movement a very your dick gets rips into bits and eaten by pigs

#the stay at home daughter movement RUINED MY LIFE #IT RUINED MY CHILDHOOD BECAUSE I WAS FROCED TO BE A HOUSE SLAVE AT AT NINE INSTEAD OF A KID #IT RUINED MY HIGHSCHOOL LIFE AND ALL LIFE PLANNING BECAUSE I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO GET MORE THEN THE BY LAW NEEDED SCHOOLING BECAUSE I WAS #WXPECTED TO BE A HOUSE SLAVE TO MY FAMILY UNTIL THEY PAIRED ME OFF TO A HUSBAND THEN ID BW HIS HOUSE SLAVE AND SEX SLAVE BECAUSE MY JOB IS #CLEAN HOUSE COOK POPULATE THE QUIVERFULL AGENDA AND HAVE 160 KIDS THAT'S KIDS AND NO INTEREST NO HOBBY NO INDIVIDUALITY JUST #CHRISTIAN HOUSE SLAVE OOPS I MEAN WIFE AND MOTHER #IT TOOK AWAY ALL AGENCY I HAD IN MY LIFE BECAUSE MY PLACE WAS CLEANING N COOKING NOT SCHOOL NOT JOB NOT FRIENDS NOT GETTING SMART NOT #GETTING INDEPENDENT IT DRIVES YOU TO RELAY ON A MAN COMPLETELY AND TO SUBMIT COMPLETELY YOU HAVE NO SAY YOU ONLY EXIST FOR WHAT WVER JOB TH #MAN WANTS YOU TO HAVE #I HOPE WHOEVER INTERDUCED THIS TO MY PARENTS CULT GETS EATEN SLOWLY AND PAINFULLY #I'VE NEVER TRIED TO BETTER MYSELF GET MORE SCHOOLING GO FOR A DCENT EDUCATION I'VE BEEN FROCED TO BELIEVE I CAN'T SURVIVE BY MYSELF AND #THEY'RE PROBABLY RIGHT BUT FUCK THEY MADE ME SO STUPID AND.I LET THEM BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT'S WHAT GOD NEEDED #FUCK GOD FUCK RELGIOUS MEN AND FUCK ALL PARENTS WHO PURPOSELY SABOTAGE AND HOLD BACK THEIR CHILDREN FOR THEIR BENEFIT #I'M ANGRY #I DIDN'T DESERVE THAT LIFE I NEED TO FUCKIN GET OUT OF THIS CULTIST HELL I'M TIRED OF LIVING BY THESE STANDARDS AND RULES I WANT A SAY IN MY #LIFE I WANT A LIFE INDEPENDENT FROM GOD AND HIS FOLLOWERS I WANT A SAY IN MY LIFE #I WANT TO BE A PERSON AND NOT PROPERTY OF NO ONE NOT MY FATHER NOT MY MOTHER NOT MY BROTHERS NOT MY HUSBAND NOT GOD FUCK THEM ALLLLLL I WANT #TO BELONG TO ME AND ONLY ME AND I WISH I HAD A WAY OUT THAT I COULD SEE AND ACTUALLY OBTAIN BUT I JUST DON'T #I DON'T HAVE ANY HOPE FOR ANYTHING BECAUSE THE STEPS WILL NEVER BE TAKEN FOR THINGS TO GET BETTER I WILL DIE A DAUGHTER AT HOME I WILL DIE #SERVING THIS CULT AND THEY WILL USE MY CORPSE FOR WHATEVER SERVES THEM ALSO MY NAME WILL BE USED IN WHATEVER WAY PLEASES THEM #I WILL NEVER BE MYSELF I WILL NEVER GET AWAY EVER IT'LL JUST BE IN DAYDREAMS AND WORDS BUT NEVER REALITY