#while i made my escape

[thistransient]

Bicycling to see the rice fields

#i went on three trails/roads I'd never explored before #but i was hedging my bets that there'd be enough people out on sunday that i wouldn't be the first victim of feral dogs #indeed one auntie with an exercise band and no fucks to give held the attention of some barking warehouse dogs #while i made my escape #otherwise i can add ‘collar wearing goat’ to this list of things I've mistaken for a dog at a distance #to be fair the goat was solid black and having a stroll on the pedestrian path #what was i to think #taiwan #taipei #biking #nature #rice paddy #稻田 #clouds #banyan tree #榕樹 #北投區

[perilegs]

the dead three's chosen as gifs taken out of context + celibacy

#i made these while i also made the gortash uti gif and i think now is the perfect time to let these escape my drafts #bg3 #ketheric thorm #gortash #orin the red #gifset #my gifs tag

[magnolia-sunrise]

what have you gotten yourself into, lover mine?

~

my homage to the history of homoerotic depictions of St. Sebastian, featuring none other than Bastien <3 this piece is inspired specifically by depictions from Guido Reni and Roberto Ferri, as well as James Clifton's paper on "The Erotics of the Axillary Pose"

#painting #original characters #illustration #queer art #st sebastian #artists on tumblr #art #bastien #happy bastien bednesday??? #wolfgangs influence is there if you look so yknow. it counts #my man cannot escape the fire symbolism ever #hes made one single good decision after a lifetime of failure now hes all happy and smug about it #getting back at religious trauma by stealing their imagery and art styles #ahh i worked on this for a good while i hope you enjoy as much as i enjoyed painting it <3

[cannot-be-cyn]

me, engaging in other media be like:

#so i slipped and made a meme from my orv hyperfixation #orv is like a lover that one have an on-off-and-on again relationship with #sometimes im normal about orv and think im finally over it #but then orv *knocks* on my door while im engaging in other fandom/rl chore/work and im suddenly reminded about the little things #those little things that seems insignificant but to an orv reader????? nauuuuurrrr #i cannot escape orv #orv follows where i go #i close my eyes and orv is a hyperfixation i cannot stop myself from not fixating #han sooyoung #yoo joonghyuk #kim dokja #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #omniscient reader

[puppyeared]

throws oc lore at u <3 (anton belongs to @poicyss )

#im in the middle of doing an updated voice claim video and im taking a break so i made these lol #this is probably only canon to starshadow!au but if i had to guess she probably came from another planet than dimension #so.. technically an alien instead of an abnormality??? lol #making objects float comes from the star antigravity!! im sure she could make the opposite happen and pull things toward her w gravitationa #pull!! a few of her powers are inspired by mario galaxy so that was borrowed from the pull stars and other gameplay mechanics ^_^ #her meet cute is basically something that was supposed to be for mutual benefit and then it gets out of hand and they escape the facility #together or smth.. theres a reason why she doesnt exist in antons canon and thats bc the universe cant let them be best friends LMAO #BUT LIKE IT WORKS... antons indestructible and could withstand her radiation and nobody wants to talk to him anyway #and theyre both curious they could like talk for hours while anton does ''''work''''' on her (they are just chatterbugs having a good time) #i wonder what kinda stuff they would do if they escape.. maybe they explore the galaxy together who knows hehehehe #kicking my feet and giggling like an idiot #my art #myart #doodles #my oc #friend oc #anton #augusta #starshadow #sillies family #SQUEEZING THEM. DUNKING THEM IN MILK AND THROWING THEM AGAINST THE WALL #lobocorp #lobotomy corporation #sort of????????

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

strained myself too hard trying not to cry last night and ended up with a horror-movie-level nosebleed. apparently that can Happen!

#it was a killer way to escape the conversation ngl #people are upsetting you? get a massive nosebleed and hide in the bathroom!!!! #i still need to scrub blood out of the tub #im shocked i didnt get any on my clothes! #i soaked through the rest of a toilet paper roll! there was still a Bit on there! #nose was like a faucet goddamn..... #for a moment i genuinely thought i had burst something Important and was going to have a Hospital Experience #nope! sure felt like it tho! #scribble salad #honestly in hindsight i made a funny picture #huddled in the bathtub spilling blood everywhere while i tried not to hyperventilate. festivities! #its all or nothin with me i gotta admit it #im either stone faced or bleeding everywhere No Inbetween #and dont. dont ask me about it lmao im not gonna answer! personal stuff and all that <3 #the context of vent posts are between me. and me. My business to handle <3

[pilferingapples]

it's such a weirdly done ad?

if you're interested by it there's no further info

if you hate it there's no obvious off switch (though I'd bet adblock can get rid of it)

even if you already like One Piece it's not giving any info or anything? just. Evil Clown. Staring at you.

why

#this is like practically the LAST way I'd want my own fandom introduced to anyone #with no explanation and no escape #who made this campaign. why. what was the point #blah blah at least we're talking about it but I'm talking about how I hate it #this is. this is seriously biasing me against 1P #and I have 1P mutuals who've been making me kind of interested in it for a while #but YEESH #natter

[snailsfall]

Not now kitten, daddy is trying to unmask the truth

#edward nashton #Paul Dano #dano riddler #dano!riddler #the riddler #the Batman 2022 #my bones tried to escape my body while typing this #I made this

[owl-paints]

played Zero Escape: 999 recently and this was my takeaway from it

#i made this *while* playing through the game so its kind of a collection of my thoughts but also not LMAO #honestly made this to cope with the plot while it was unfolding bc once I got to that one specific bad ending #I NEEDED to do something abt what i was experiencing LMAO #doing the same with VLR too since im currently playing through it #also im aware the actual og game came out much earlier than 2017 but im playing the remaster specifically #zero escape #zero escape spoilers #999 spoilers #9 hours 9 persons 9 doors #zero escape 999 #owl talks

[solradguy]

About a year before I got into GG, a phlebotomist said that I have "dark blood" (???) and since then my one friend group and I have joked about my cursed evil beast blood. It's been three years. Happy three years anniversary to my sinister dark blood

#textpost #I don't know why she said that and no phlebotomist has said anything like it since #Probably it was just the lighting in the room or something #(my red blood cell count & other results were fine) #It was funny though. Funny enough that we're still joking about it three years later #GG just made it funnier tbh. And now there's Granblue. I can't escape this wicked hex upon mine mortal essence #It's easy to joke about because my biology is just kind of weird in general #Like Wellbutrin turned me into a steam engine so if I don't drink water regularly I get soooooo hot and sweaty #And if I get hot and sweaty while I'm sleeping I have super fucked up nightmares #But it's ok. It's just my evil beast blood curse #And the night vision

[velvetjune]

the chapter songs in Alan Wake 2,, flawless

#they deserve more love and discussion #saying this while also not knowing what to say other than they’re so fucking good #alan wake 2 #i think it’s partially because poets of the fall’s tracks are iconic so of course they’re in the spotlight (as deserved) #but also the CHAPTER SONGS. them being made for a given chatacter(s) with the help of Sam lakes poetry #the changes with ‘this road’ by Poe with every Alan chapter. becoming more distorted and revealing lyrics and the spiral #the scratch song being 1) hilarious and 2) similar to Zane’s poetry in the aw1 arg #the emotion in superhero when saga feels lost at the story making it so Logan was gone #the lines of her feeling like a ghost in this story forming around her.. how she feels guilty and absent for both what the story’s doing #and being away from Logan because of her job. ashdhhhhjhh my heart #AND. follow you into the dark HAS to be alice. which kills me because at for at I thought of Alan #but no. Alice jumped in the dark place after him. it’s so !!!!!!!!!!! #the rabbit hole line. Alice spiraling deeper and deeper into a dream—into wonderland #the Lost at Sea one is also good. intrigues me. the Bowie and Lynch references are blatantly aw2 Zane #but it’s so similar to diver Zane and the ‘originals’ death. being lost in the dark place with illusions of escape #and losing any sense of identity. whether he’s real at all or the monster of this sea or just a lost soul. #the soft and calm vocals / instrumental really makes the whole thing #NEED to stop typing more tags because this is a Lot. however. #‘no one left to love’ is also a phenomenal song and one of my favorites from the album. GORGEOUS vocals and how it all flows together. #such a powerful and beautiful way to end a chapter #anyway that’s all I had to say :) #god. I’ve started to watch a few playthroughs of the game and 90% of people have skipped the chapter songs and every time im #that’s fair but my brain and soul might implode if I don’t see anyone else talking about how good these songs are

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

poems for Grac(i)e - (for @imissthembutitwasntadisaster on her birthday)

Maggie Smith, Good Bones // Gerard Way, How It's Going To Be // Ocean Vuong, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous // Griff, Vertigo // Elizabeth Bishop, One Art // Taylor Swift, You're On Your Own, Kid // Kim Stafford, At The Student Poetry Reading // Fall Out Boy, Baby Annihilation // @/daisies-on-a-cup // Stephen King, It

#yes this is just a revised and expanded edition of that post I made a while back. I found more poems that stuck with me #you're my escaping the narrative beloved. that narrative will never catch you. we're learning from the ones who've already made it out #which is why baby annihilation is on there even though it's kinda cynical and a bit angsty. it's the fact that it's even on the album #every time I read the student poetry reading poem I think of you gracie. just btw. I love you. happy birthday #<3 #web weaving #oh also one more thing: actually higtb and yoyok are very similar songs to me and I'm emotional about it

[ct-multifandom]

Sean, we can't both exist. I'm going to become half of you. And I need you to know that every moment you hate being yourself, that's me, hating you and hating being you. Because you're going to be something extraordinary. You're going to be a robot.

#zero escape #delta ztd #sean ztd #ztd spoilers #zero escape spoliers #zero time dilemma #I’m sorry I have ztd on the mind and the Lois griffin rose quartz meme has been stuck in my head #it’s been a while since I made a hit delta edit #this image with deltas head on 50% opacity was terrifying

[prettyboyscollection]

(draft from my main, disclaimer for anyone who sees this: this blog is primarily a porn blog and stupid debating will be ignored or laughed at, you can try it but i dont care)

reading stuff about trans rights (especially in the south) on places like twitter is SO fucking frustrating because SO many people uncritically say "people never judge trans men for not meeting/meeting male stereotypes!!" "conservatives/republicans/gender criticals/etc don't care about trans men, they only hate trans women!" "no one cares if a trans man wants to play sports with cis men!" "trans men dont have their presentation criticized!" etc because that's not fucking true! its not!

trans men have all of that and more thrown at them, we're the forefront of a lot of anti-trans talking points (IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE: THE TRANSGENDER CRAZE SEDUCING OUR DAUGHTERS. do you remember this? do you realize this is still one of their huge sources?) and our bodies are seen as mutilated and disgusting, often even more than trans women's, because they see us as women, as ruined women, women they dont see as sexually appealing, potential mothers/incubators, and they take it out on us especially violently. i didnt go through DIY conversion therapy from two conservative transphobes (that included straight up illegal shit) in texas/oklahoma to see people online uncritically parroting the idea that trans men/trans masculinity arent just as fucking hated by people like that. fucks sake.

#debated for a while about posting this because its angry and controversial to admit that trans men are in fact affected by transphobia #transphobia // #misogyny // #transandrophobia #conversion therapy // #anti transmasculinity #transmisandry #any more words that we use for this idk #its taken me a long time to admit that what my parents (particularly my mom) were doing to me was in fact conversion therapy #but now that ive accepted it its just made me angrier about people saying that trans men dont experience unique forms of oppression #im sorry but i dont think that people other than trans men have to deal with their mothers talking about how theyll accept being a woman #when they get pregnant and cant escape the constant reminder of their biology #this is inherently a transandrophobic statement and experience #sorry if it breaks your fragile sense of who can be a victim of oppression #z.txt #vent post

[itspileofgoodthings]

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

#not to put too fine a point on it but that’s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh #and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past: #you have overthought this and now you’re terrified of it #anyway it’s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly. #like it was just like. Oh. You did it again #you’re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadow—- #until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality #while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know it’s a common problem #but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing #I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts #and what makes it worse—immeasurably worse—is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis #I’m programmed that way #so I can’t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away. #and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I don’t know it just all clicked today #these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me #anyway I guess it’s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!! #in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of God’s voice in the wind #but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context #and that’s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately —deflated #my counselor has been so good about this tbh. she’s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works #and wants me to be able to use it!! #so I’m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward #ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES

[newvestroia]

Uhhhh the room ever 😁

#thought tumblr might like this paradox model I made a while back #blender #rusty lake #cube escape #3dart #paradox #myart #dale vandermeer #sculpt #art #my art