#which im still grateful for

[livingincolorsagain]

rereading old-ish sambucky fics to feel something

#by oldish i mean from 2021-2022 #so not at all old but #the feels are immeasurable #i wanna go back #i came into the fandom late so i missed most of the craze #which im still grateful for #i just got there and read all the incredible fics and followed all the incredible writers and artists and gif makers #im going through it man #sambucky #a rambles #also im somehow discovering new fics as i do this #which is always a joy

[ryssbelle]

Lil trolls ocs doodles I did, the first two were my own attempts at mixing Poppy and Branchs dna and the second is a very cute troll who belongs to @spjs

#my art #trolls #trolls oc #dreamworks trolls #im not here this is queued #the little broppy kids dont have names #they just exist #maybe ill give them names at some point or maybe theyll fade into nothing in the back of my mind #they were made when i was first learning how to draw trolls #jade was drawn after i had a few drawings under my belt #but you can see i was still using the inking pen and not the modified syrup pen #i love the syrup pen on procreate fr #itll never be the same as the gpen on medibang but its good enough for now #the gpen on medibang had this thing called ooze which made my art look crunchy in a good way #if anyone can find or make me a new gpen i would be forever grateful #blease i need her

[hurglewurm]

me: keeps drawing random one-off fanarts from things that aren't currently big at all

also me: why no notes on my arte

#grateful for all of u lol #but why no notes !! lol !! i want attention i want engagement #i need to be LOVED and sharing my art is the vessel through which i ascribe my self worth... #it's like how if you have a long list of movies to watch ur still more likely to just. #watch some random movie you heard about 2 minutes ago that seems interesting. if u have spare movie time #bc it's lower pressure or smth #idk brother ! idk #im just chillin here in my cave drawing things apparently only i want to see and like maybe 5 other people #welcome to my cave #alligates says things #yo being an artist on the internet is genuinely awful. social media is not built for my delicate ass #even popular artists (i might technically be a popular artist) like i Know it sucks babe. i know #anyway 'no notes' generally in the past i could hit like. 500 ? with relative ease ? sometimes #yall i'm struggling to hit 100. why 7 reblogs and 35 likes. this is not the way #i'm a creator on the internet complaining about numbers ! not really gonna stop me tho #let's be honest whether or not i'm getting attention my ability to draw or not is contingent on. my own psychological ass. and little else #thank u for listening. it is my bedtime. goonite #if you read all these tags... idk. tell me the name of your favourite flower !

[magicbats]

hi guyssss i miss u all <3

back in october when i had covid it sucked my soul dry and i lost all energy for most hobbies and i havent even turned my pc on for a few months. im still not at 100% since having covid but thankfully i'm not experiencing anything debilitating, but honestly thats the main reason i disappeared again.

additionally, not having a usable desk has rly made me not able to play the sims consistently (or any game not on switch, which sucks so bad) so i just haven't even checked up on simblr for fomo reasons lmao.

im hoping to get back into it soon, maybe in the new year, and i hope u are all doing well this holiday season 🫶

#very grateful for my health these days because even though i deal with a lot of chronic health issues i know it could be a lot worse #i also just dont have the funds to revamp my setup which sucks but is like. how life goes when u have bigger priorities #like if we have some extra $ in the month im gonna wanna use it on stuff we Need not a new desk and chair which :/ but is just my situation #eliposting #nonsims #anywho i miss u guys<3 #im realizing my blog is still halloween themed and ive had an ask telling me my links are broken for months 💀

[tobe-sogolden]

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#hi!!!!!! #i feel like i should update here bc despite the stress it caused me this place got me through some of the roughest parts of med school #so if anyone at all is still around thank you <3 #im updating to say match day was friday and im very excited to have matched into my dream specialty in a program im very excited about! #im thankfully moving much closer to my family which im stoked about and ill have excellent opportunities here so im super grateful #im graduating med school in two months which is surreal #i will be a literal doctor like who allowed that im just a young girl #anyways thank you to harry and this place for giving me stuff to look forward to during the rough patches #idk what he's up to these days but i hope he's well!!! #anyways byeeeeeeeeeee hope you guys are doing great

[borrelia]

knuckles series.... 🤢

#im still gonna watch it but i will probably enjoy it as much as i enjoy sonic movie 1 #which is to say not beyond novelty #myaa #the more ive seen really good takes on knuckles as a character the more movie knuckles grates on me

[snickerdoodlles]

I have a thought that's spinning my brain like a top except I have NO IDEA how to express it oh man oh man oh mannnn

#it involves Big and Porsche and Pete #specifically: how wigged out Porsche is about Big's death #by way of Pete's non-funeral #pete being forgotten and then mourned without any investigation between #but still being mourned in a way Big never was #even tho Big was as close to Kinn as Pete is to Khun #and even if he recognizes that Kinn *can't* mourn Big #(which! im not sure Porsche would! a lot of shit is going on around him!) #but even if he could acknowledge Kinn cant mourn a guard the way Khun can #he would still be WILDLY uncomfortable and upset with that #Big is a person! Pete's a person! #HE'S a person! #and he grates against the non-personhood the mafia tries to force onto him! #i want to fic this but idk how to yet but oh man oh man oh mannnn #kinnporsche

[compacflt]

yesterday (06/12) was the anniversary of me watching top gun for the first time so here are some of my favorite personal reviews

i saw tg and tgm in june & didn’t think about tg for two months. i wrote the epilogue for wwgattai on august 10 and THEN rewatched it on the 11th & that’s when i knew there was enough potential to start writing wwgattai for real

a lot can change in a year. :)

#mostly: i went from rating tg 2.5 stars to 5 every time #very grateful to this mid-ass movie for giving me something to chew on for the last ten months #okay: sorry for the radio silence btw ive been saying ‘todays the day i post my one-shot’ for the last five days #TOMORROW!!! Im trying. #but i also have a fun wip wednesday so that might be wip Thursday. ugh idk. im so so busy 😵‍💫 #ive now seen top gun over 15 times OMG CRINGE #still only seen tgm 5 times and 4 were in theatres (regal unlimited. didn’t pay. that deal is basically legal piracy). #Not a huge tgm fan obviously which is why idrk those characters #it’s ices death scene. i literally cannot take it. i have to close my eyes every time. #tg (cringe mid movie) is somehow my 4th favorite movie on letterboxd #all my friends are in film & i show them my letterboxd and they’re like…what #love it so much. god i love this movie. #top gun

[grymmdark]

im so tempted to buy a ricemaker but not allow my family to use it just to be petty about my parents making me eat shitty stovetop rice for my whole life

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #listen you can make good rice on the stove. but they dont #they follow the instructions on the bag which are basically ''put rice in boiling water'' #it turns out ao bad and it's definitely not enough water they add either #one time i was so fed up i looked up how to actually make good rice on the stove and it's like 2 extra steps. like just wash it and add some #butter. and i made it and i told them how to make it but they still just follow the instructions on the bag #listen im greatful i dont have to cook for myself but I'd be more grateful if the food was actually good

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[always-a-joyful-note]

Shoutout to ORV for letting the fictional and real world merge and keeping it that way and taking it a step further by reuiniting all the characters regardless of what worldline or reality they come from. Yes, your sacrifices matter and they change things and the people you came to love in either reality are so important enough to die for yet partings are a part of life BUT the webnovel really said that while they matter, your sacrifice doesn't have to end with death. You CAN be brought back. Maybe you don't "deserve" to live but maybe you're loved enough that it doesn't matter. And maybe you can be part of two worlds, one that you loved already and another that you came to see still had good in it

#just read the webtoon rewrite the villainess #which was an EXCELLENT story (and completed and free to read on webtoons) #and a really light but more meaningful exploration of the villainess isekai genre #but that ending left me in tatters #and made me so happy for orv #i am forever grateful to the rtv author to have given us what if scenarios #even though that ending did make most sense #but tatters #i love you orv. youre still the no. 1 korean webnovel in my heart #orv #fandom spamdom #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv spoilers #btw ive not been very active lately and im okay! #lifes just been busy (in a good way) and ill probably be sporadic or disappear from time to time #stuff i say

[lorephobic]

idk how to even like. put this pain into words and i would normally vent about this shit on twitter, but the person its about follows me on there so like. anybody have skills for coping with the crushing realization that the person u love most in this world and have built ur life around sees ur current situation together as a temporary hurdle that's preventing them from their truest and happiest self which. is separate from u entirely? anyone know how to deal with this?

#live with my best friend in the whole entire world who. honest to god makes me the happiest person alive. #like im always waxing poetic about her in the tags on posts about platonic love #and i talk about her like she put the stars in the skies because for real it feels like she did for me #she is. the most important person in my life #and every day i feel grateful just to come home and sit with her #like honest to god i cannot imagine a future that is better than this #if i have a bad day i get to come home and my best friend in the world will make me laugh #what more could i ever ask for #but tonight we talked and she made it abundantly clear that. even if i do everything right #even if i'm the perfect roommate and the best friend i can be #in just over a year #when she's making enough money for it #she plans on moving into a place of her own #which like. makes sense for her. of course we were going to get to this point. #but i just. don't know what i'm going to do. #and it kills me that we're on different pages because for some reason i thought this was a long term thing #i thought we were going to move into a house together #i was just telling my coworker this week that we need to move into our forever home soon which was partially a joke #but also. even if i was making a million dollars a year. #i would still want to be here. with her. #or somewhere else. with her. #like it's so hard to imagine a future without her. it breaks my heart and scares the shit out of me. #and i know i can't afford it here. and i can't move in with strangers. and i'm working my dream job but i'm scared that i'm going to have t #give it all up and move back east because. i can't do this alone. and she's all i have. and all i ever wanted. #and she's leaving. #she doesn't want to be with me. #sry this is so fucking. ugh. idk. i just don't know what to do. #for real might just drop everything and move to chicago if it comes down to it ksdkfljdfs #its what sufjan would have wanted #fucked up terrible no good week

[dolokhoded]

considering the amount of people who like men in the jcs fandom there is a surprising lack of posts talking about the fact that for the last few scenes of the show jesus is on the floor half naked writhing covered in blood

#🧅 #which im grateful for because im aroace-ish i don't wanna hear about the things you want to do to the son of man #but still it's remarkable

[muselexum]

<3

#sending you all so much love #it's crazy how a year has zipped by #every so often i'll come by and check up on the dash and i love seeing all the familiar names <33 #I'll prolly write a more official post in the new year at some point #but im so eager for this work contract to end at the end of this year #im grateful for the job in many ways but in others it was really burnt me out and drained me #ready to turn a new leaf in the new year #and hopefully get some of my creative motivation back when my mind clears #ive put even art/painting on the sidelines as well this year which is something im sad about #but on the positives I think ive had a lot of personal and emotional growth this year that im really proud of!! #(still dont have a driver's license though.. LOL OOP) #and ive really worked on my anxiety and depression. like even if this job is burning out and depressing me// I don't feel DEPRESSED ya kno. #ive just been experiencing a lot of personal growth and change #and the people around me in my life have told me that they've seen changes in me this year too so :') #BUTTTTTT #I so so miss my creative outlets and I feel like I've neglected that this year #I went from escapism to fully avoiding the outlets so now I think it's time to transition into the healthy middle #anywaaaay #hope yall have been doing amazing #love u all and ill probably pop in here for the holidays <33 #blows u all kisses #ooc #tbd

[izzyizumi]

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[faundraws]

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