#which i may have mentioned before

[chocolate-cringymuffin]

Hello, I am alive haha.

#I know I have been absent lately #but It’s because I have too many things going on #And I want to continue this little story #which will feature eventually the otps #but It’s taking me too long haha #I know this part may be boring/annoying and you are right #but I want to give a little bit of context before jumping to the interesting part #I haven’t overcome my hyperfixation on my blorbos yet don’t worry #korranok art #other ways #maybe I will do a master post with all the pages done so far #apologies for the messy drawings i #and unconsistent anatomy ksskskksks #not to mention I don’t have writing skills so don’t expect much :v

[good-beanswrites]

Haruka clenched his fists. “Y-you would be surprised if you woke up and -- and -- and your cell was full of ice cream!

I was just thinking of this line from your last Mikoto drabble and wondered… Can you make this happen?

I certainly can >:3 I tried for a while to frame this as straight-up comedy, but it actually worked so much better as something sweet, with silly lines here and there :) Thank you so much for the request, it was so fun!! (Also, I wrote John using Mikoto's name for ease, but in my mind he's switching between first person pronouns.)

There was someone unexpected in cell 009. 

No, no, it’s not like that. Everyone was very aware that there were two distinct residents of that cell. John himself was very aware of his position in that cell. 

The thing was, someone else ended up in there, too. 

John kept his eyes shut, feigning sleep. The other person was here on a mission. They’d slipped in without creaking the metal door. Their footsteps were nearly inaudible against the floor. He would have thought it was Kotoko, with skills like that, but she would have leapt to an attack. This person was busy doing… something. 

He strained his ears. It was impossible to tell their goal. They were going in and out, moving things around. Was it a trap? There weren’t enough materials in the prison to set a trap. Were they stealing things from around the room? He had nothing of value. Plus, he was sure Mikoto would have given anything to anyone who asked. What, then?

Unable to come to any conclusion, he readied himself. He’d protect himself. He always did.

In one fluid motion, he rolled out of the bed and pinned the other to the ground. The perpetrator let out a high-pitched squeak. Impossibly wide and frightened eyes looked up at him.

“Haruka…?” That was the last person he was expecting. John squinted around the room. “What the --”

Ice cream. He didn’t know what it meant, but that’s what Haruka had been arranging. Dishes and dishes of ice cream. Everywhere. Plates stacked on the desk. Bowls strewn across the floor. All  vanilla. There was a scattering of toppings; some with colorful sprinkles and others dripping with chocolate sauce. When he’d tackled the poor boy, he sent another dish of it clattering across the ground.

“I’m sorry! Ah, I-I, ah, I’m sorry!” Haruka squeezed his eyes shut. “It-it’s a, it was a surprise, for you! For M-m-mikoto…!”

“A surprise?”

“The other d-day he said, we were, we were talking ab-bout --”

“He asked for this?”

“Uh, no, but --”

“He didn’t know about it?” John’s eyes narrowed. “It’s some kinda prank?”

“NO! No, n-no I’m not being m-mean. It was f-fun. A fun surprise.” Haruka held his palms up, unable to make his smile anything but panicked. “...Surprise!”

John stared.

Despite how nonsensical the whole situation was, there didn’t seem to be any danger. He rose. Haruka scrambled to his feet. 

John gestured to the extensive supply of sweets around them. “How did you get all this together, anyway?”

“O-oh!” Haruka wrung his hands. “I was, uh, planning it for a while. I requested ice cream three times in a row. And I n-never ate mine for dessert. I’ve been saving it. Es asked why, b-but they still let me keep it.”

“And why did you? Why do all this for Mikoto?”

“I t-told you, it was sup-supposed to be fun...”

John braced himself against the desk. He was just wondering how long it would take to take care of this mess. He mused, “it’s all going to melt.” 

He might as well have thrown a punch, the way Haruka’s expression shifted. “I’m sorry! I’m -- I… I didn’t think of that…”

“Eh? You don’t need to apologize or anything. It’s fine.” 

They fell into silence. Haruka shifted on his feet. 

“Y-you… can have it, if you want. The ice cream. I didn’t let anyone else have it but-but, you can, I think. ”

“I don’t want the ice cream.” He wanted to be left alone. He wanted the cell clean so Mikoto didn't stress out about cleaning it. He wanted to avoid being bothered by bizarre ‘surprises’ first thing in the morning.

His stomach disagreed, apparently. It let out a loud grumble. Both prisoners looked over. 

He muttered a curse. With a huff, he picked up one of the bowls. 

“Alright. But even if I did eat this, or Mikoto did, there’s no way I could finish it all.” He shoved it into Haruka’s hands. “You made this mess, you’re gonna help me deal with it.”

The boy nodded frantically. 

“Come on, you can sit here. Pass me that one, with the syrup. And hurry it up.”

#milgram #mikoto kayano #john milgram #haruka sakurai #(they hardly make a dent in it) #john makes sure haruka doesnt get a stomachache but now hes left with a cell full of dessert ;--; #maybe hed enlist the others to help... #john doesnt quite Get It - he still thinks somethings suspicious #hes never done anything just for the fun of it before #but haruka is so genuine he eases up after a bit #and ends up enjoying the ice cream at least :3 #i dont think i mentioned which trial it was for the first drabble but this is definitely after john has started appearing #mikoto himself may not be ready to accept john but in my mind every other prisoner is very familiar with him #though they dont necessarily Expect him a lot of the time #es is dealing with so much t2 shit they dont really care if haruka keeps an elaborate stash of ice cream in the milgram smart fridge... #thank you so much for the request haha! this was a ton of fun :D #theyd have interesting interactions... i kept this one simple and sweet but theres a lot going on there.... #drabbles

[gabe-lovebot]

some thoughts on hell and lucifer

an interesting little tidbit to think about is that in dante's inferno, it's stated that Hell existed since before humanity, that the concept of Sin is not something which started with humans. the most common explanation for this is that god made hell for the rebellious angels, and was later on used for sinners as well

in ultrakill though, hell was made with humans in mind. and the reason i say that is testament IV in 5-S:

"FATHER, WHY ETERNAL TORMENT? IS IT NOT CRUEL? IS TORTURE UNENDING TRULY A FATE FIT FOR A FOOL?" AN ANGEL SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL ASKED ME THIS . . . AND I COULD FIND NO ANSWER FOR I COULD NEVER FACE THE GUILT OF WHAT I'D DONE . . . MY REGRET, A GNAWING CANCER IN MY HOUR OF WEAKNESS, TERROR POSSESSED ME THEN AND I CAST LUCIFER, TOO, INTO THE INFERNAL DEN ONCE I REALIZED WHAT I HAD JUST DONE . . . I COULD ONLY WEEP AS I SANK SLOWLY INTO THE DEPTHS OF DESPAIR . . . DEEP, OH SO DEEP

lucifer in ultrakill did not 'rebel' against god until after hell was made, meaning that hell's original purpose in ultrakill is to condemn sinners. and the reason for lucifer's fall was not some desire within him for god's power. rather it was his pursuit for justice for the damned souls that sealed his fate.

#void.txt #ultrakill #also note that until lucifer spoke up against god #people had already been sent down to hell #(hence the 'and i cast lucifer TOO into the infernal den' implying that there's already souls trapped there) #so lucifer didn't decide to have a chat with god immediately when hell was made #he was watching people suffer for a while and couldn't stand it #also for anyone wondering about where in dante's inferno that thing in the first paragraph is mentioned #it's the start of canto III #in ultrakill we only have the 'abandon all hope ye who enter here' part written on the 0-5 door #but there's a few more lines before that which basically say that hell is more ancient than what we may think

[tricksterlatte]

Anyone else think short form social media based on algorithms designed to promote topics that create more engagement instead of more joy, the idea of fast fashion but conveyed through social media, and the fact you can monetize suffering and outrage better than ever has largely resulted in the death spiral of media literacy and the mass emergence of bad faith readings?

#I may be venting a lil but god it blows my mind #fyp is a blessing and a curse because i don't think ppl were ever meant to be subjected to this many ppl at once #god i took a bird site hiatus for weeks and now BARELY check it and it already feels like a hit #oughhhhh #even fandom spaces have hugely incorporated marketing and networking into them bc of cmms and sponsorship and building portfolio #which would be fine tbh if it weren't for the way socmed is designed #now it's like you can't support too many ppl or else you're shadow banned or you have to make yourself palatable and marketable #and websites with threads in which people will only read the first post before qrting because ratios are seen as five minutes of fame #features that permit beating an algorithm are locked behind a paywall that promises you money if you go viral #and what goes viral is usually incendiary content meant for those ratios or trends. whether for or against OP #even in hobbyist spaces the climate has changed so much due to the monetization and marketing and just. ugh #not to mention side accounts dedicated to gossip in this new priv account culture like...idk #if you have to make another account so you can make fun of a friend on main with selected priv friends it just doesn't sit well with me #and not every priv account does this but enough do and it makes me tired #unsolicited hate comments are still as bad as they used to be on ff dot net except now people openly are proud of it more #why do most socmed feel like passive aggressive sticky notes on high school lockers #there is so much more I could say about everything that has left me weary about the internet but I don't know the time or place #and I don't want anyone to think this is about them because it's a general statement. though if you are doing the more inflammatory things. #maybe rethink that. it's not good for anyone else and it's not good for you either #I keep coming back online to check on ppl and see art and I *know* it's draining for my health every time #but I feel a lot better now that i use socmed less overall. and that I try to focus on what makes me happy #it just sucks seeing so many people i care about endure absolutely wild struggles bc people online do not care. #I like rambling in my tags because this is the only place I ramble except my personal journal and to my wife

[doodlingbot]

[gift for the speedrun champion.png] Surprise I'm drawing your Stanley for once!

Something of a bit of surprise gift art for @alexis-royce because his reply to my comment was very heartwarming for me to read.

I had actually wanted to draw them interacting like this when I saw that picture on- ...no context, but I got a bit distracted and so now you're finally getting it!

(gonna ramble more at the end of my regular tags.)

#tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp stanley #doodles #my art #tsp doods #tspud doods #stanley doods #I know we don't necessarily talk... which I blame on my own fear of initiating things. but do know that seeing you pop up in my notes #has always been one of the biggest highlights of drawing for tsp. for me it made me feel like I was doing something right that someone with #such superb characterization for these funky characters would like my silly little comics. Oh and don't you dare think this is the last #time I'll be drawing for you. there are still scenes in advanced ludology I really want to draw. still not entirely sure how i'll get #extended feedback art to you. I may either pop up someday with a spicy link or straight up my discord to send things or use a third party #to pass things along for me. OH not to mention I downloaded a few of your games to check out. not sure if I'll be able to draw a whole lot #for them yet. my brain is awful at letting me choose what to draw and what not. but. prepare your self I suppose. #ok I have a tendency to never shut up so final note before these tags get any longer. If we ever find ourselves in the same fandom again #know that I'll be greeting you with open arms! even if its just in spirit or your notes.

[edwardbonnets]

emily’s 1k followers celebration ➥ @engli-i-ish asked: 💌 the rowboat & horse scene (+ lucius’ reaction)

#our flag means death #ofmd #ofmdedit #ofmdgifs #ofmdblog #stede bonnet #lucius spriggs #rhys darby #nathan foad #my gifs #ems1k #haha yeah rhys' acting when he finally remembers what nigel is talking about #my heart is shattering into a million pieces like the fact that you can so CLEARLY tell how upset stede is by this #and of course nigel and the other british fucks dont care #which i think says a lot when its contrasted with stedes crew who look horrified at how awful they are #and this is a crew who were literally about to mutiny against stede like five minutes before this sdfhjks #also in your ask you mention lucius' reaction being one of sympathy from a place of relatability #that lucius might have experienced something like this before and thats what warms him up to stede #hearing the shit he had to go through that is very much thinly veiled homophobia #so yeah stede may be a goofy pirate captain but lucius sees him and feels for him :') #okay enough rambling in the tags lmao thanks so much for the request!!!!! <3

[ehlnofay]

19! :)

19: sea change

In the last few days of the year 200, Torr kills the Emperor. In early 201, a war breaks out.

It’s not wholly unexpected, at least not by those who know where to look. The Emperor’s death is no small blow to Solitude, the city that sent him off on a voyage he would only exit under a pall; especially considering that the guard had patted itself on the back for successfully foiling an assassination attempt right before his ship left, only for his throat to be slit under their noses, anyway. The head of Skyrim’s Penitus Oculatus appears to have vanished. No-one reports seeing anyone out of place on the boat until they started stumbling over the bodies. The Empire mourns through all the official avenues as the heir prepares for succession; Solitude’s government is busy trying desperately to smooth it over, putting out excessive bounties on the assassin that failed and scraping up intel on the one who succeeded. Not that there’s anything much to find – it’s a locked-room murder, and every logical suspect has an alibi that holds up to interrogation. There are no leads to follow.

And Windhelm is a powder keg.

It always has been, ever since the Great War, as long as Torr or any of his kids have been alive. Short-fused and disillusioned, crowds moving hot as blood through its winding stone streets, it’s always been something tough, hard-throated, splintered into careful lined sections. Torr walks whatever lines he wants, but not everyone has the energy to straddle them; not everyone can.  The upper city is all harsh-cut stone and ice, the bricks ancient, the crowds in a hurry, even though none of them seem to know where they’re going; the Grey Quarter is where the snow runs when it turns to slush and the walls are stuffed with rags. The planks keep snapping with dry rot, sharp and gaping as broken teeth. They need to be filled to keep the cold out. The Cornerclub keeps the fire roaring. Talres goes there to work most days and doesn’t come back up to the house until the streets are empty. No-one knows it’s going to happen, not exactly, but there's no way anyone couldn't know. There are a lot of people who have been waiting on an opening, and all eyes are pointed elsewhere.

With little fanfare, the Jarl and his entourage leave Windhelm.

The city stops being a fuse and starts being the wreckage after it’s blown. Torr is told that there’s a span of a few weeks where Talres stops leaving the house completely. Katla gets arrested again and weasels out of it on her own. The ill-drawn posters of something approaching Torr’s face stuck up over the walls of Solitude are covered up with announcements and calls to join the Legion. Windhelm floods with bodies ready for the rebellion. Aventus’ house is already crowded; in a few months, Torr hears, it’s nigh impossible to walk in for the bedrolls and blankets spread over the floor. The city has never been a warm place in any sense of the word; Torr’s siblings are inundated with more kids and more kids with nowhere else to go. They don’t know if Solitude is much better; they look different now than they did on the night of the assassination that wasn’t and then was, hair cropped shorter and uneven, face gaunter, the weight they’d managed to gain over their comfortable months in Falkreath sloughing off them like a spider’s old skin, but even so it’s a bit much to step foot in there so soon, some of the bounty posters still mouldering on their posts. One of the kids says something about needing a whole other house. They’ve only got the one. Still, it makes Torr think.

(Skyrim has one orphanage, a little wooden hall down on the banks of Riften’s canals. And now there is a cursed house in Windhelm.)

Torr doesn’t go to Solitude. They only occasionally go to Windhelm. When they’re not on business, they stay on the outskirts of Danstrar; the Pale, all frozen winds and snow high enough to ice a horse’s knees, is an unappetising enough target that aside from an announcement of alliance with Windhelm’s Stormcloaks the war has not truly reached them yet. Which is ironic, considering.

(If prompted, Torr probably could have seen this coming – Torr, who spent years with his finger on Windhelm’s pulse, moving through the people and hearing endless talk about the government. It was going to happen sooner or later. And of course the Empire reeling from the assassination of its Emperor – the first since around the time of the Oblivion Crisis, which no-one is anxious to repeat, and the reminder of which put plenty of important people quite on edge – is enough of an opportunity to weigh heavily in sooner’s favour. If he’d thought about it with his blade set beneath the hairs of the old man’s beard, he would have known he was setting a war in motion. What Torr doesn’t know is if he would have cared.)

(Probably not. He still doesn’t, after all. Not enough to regret anything.)

Dead winter bleeds into spring; a little ice melts, and the sea begins to change. Torr’s shoulder aches when the weather is bad. There are clashes on the roads, outside cities, described in newspapers and word of mouth. Cyrodiil ships off heaps of soldiers to spill into Solitude’s ports. The house in Windhelm is overrun. But the nightshade kept in the temperate corner that Babette has transformed into a garden begins to bloom months early. The tides still come in and out.

The old Emperor is dead. Skyrim is tearing itself apart. Torr cleans his knife after use with a soap that smells like lavender and tries very hard to dredge up any guilt.

#don't know if this makes any sense at all! but here you go #I think I've mentioned before how in my timeline the emperor's murder precedes the civil war #it's so. nothing. in-game in a way that doesn't make sense #so having it be a weak moment for the empire that ulfric takes as an opportunity to kickstart his rebellion felt more coherent #which means that in a roundabout fashion torr is responsible for the civil war. oops #so here is an unedited ramble about their feelings on That. #or the lack thereof as the case may be #(the war would have happened anyway eventually. torr is just the reason that it happened Now) #anyway #oc tag #torr #the elder scrolls #tesblr #skyrim #tes #fay writes #my writing

[miodiodavinci]

the burnout is real lads . . . . .

#which is to say that i came home and just stared at the wall for roughly 2 hours instead of completing my documents #it was at least validating to get to talk to one of my coworkers today #and hear that they're just as burnt out as i am #and usually have to sit in the parking lot for 4 to 5 minutes before they come in because they just don't want to be here that badly #and it feels hard to admit because this is typically thought of as a passion driven profession #and it's like #neither of us have lost the passion for it??? #it's not that we hate our jobs #it's just that we both feel like. we're putting in increasingly more effort week by week but we're just. #no longer getting results. #i mentioned how i feel like my faith in my ability to do this kind of work has just plummeted to zero #not at all helped by my mentor constantly pushing me to go faster and faster but then getting mad when my presentations go poorly #because i went faster or reduced the amount of material or cut the Q and A section down 10 minutes #i just feel . . . . . tired . . . . . . . . . . . #i still need to write three planning documents for tonight #one of which needs to be Really Good because my direct supervisor will be looking at it #but my god #i just want to sleep for three days straight and then stare at a wall for another three #i'm so close to the end though . . . . . #just another 15 of these documents (including the three from tonight) and that about covers my internship #of course then there's also the seminar work and the group project and all the fancy official employment documents #and. the portfolio project (a man screams in agony) #but god . . . . . . . . #so close . . . . . . . . #so close . . . . . . #once i'm free from the portfolio it's back to zola work and THEN . . . . . . . . . . #i can finally have a substantial mental health break for the first time since last may ;;; _____ ;;;

[permanentreverie]

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#ok so mini rant session #i am doing a bit better today - little less distraught over getting fired from a job i thought i was doing pretty good at and i was trying #really hard and genuinely enjoying #and just more baffled because truly i had no warning and i was completely blindsided #i was in the middle of a 3 month trial and i would have a review at the end in which i would be offered a permanent position if it went well #and i thought i was making my way towards that! granted i was still making mistakes but genuinely not of such a great scale i thought it #called for my immediate dismissal #that being said i was still VERY MUCH IN TRAINING. i had only been there A MONTH AND A HALF learning COMPLETELY NEW SYSTEMS #and i was told that i had been there a few weeks already and that i wasn’t catching on quick enough. that there were some areas i was #understanding and others i just simply wasn’t #and i asked what areas specifically so that i could learn more and try harder #and they didn’t give me a specific answer. #ok and so. so. i have this insecurity. #that at first impression people will like me. that they may think i’m pretty or kind or funny or whatever #but then they spend time with me or get to know me and realize that that’s all bullshit. #that i’m actually not pretty and im mean and loud and selfish and lazy and rude and etc etc etc #MASSIVE fucking insecurity in that like that’s why i genuinely don’t have friends or a significant other #and that genuinely i’m just a Bad Person #and when i was fired? i was told ‘a persons true colours show after a few weeks’ #so that’s MAJORLY fucking me up. #when i was hired i was boasted to about my boss’s hiring process and how she’s ’only been fooled twice’ #and the morning before i was fired in a meeting my supervisor told everyone that i was doing quite well. #so yeah i truly had no fucking warning. at fucking all. #hurt and confused and angry and baffled and did i mention hurt #anyways if you’re still here i’m sorry i know this is not a good look for me

[uncanny-tranny]

I saw somebody discuss it a while back ago, but it was so affirming and I wanted to open a similar discussion here...

I've noticed in myself and others this intense (genuine) trigger response to people not understanding us or our words or whatever it may be, and it can feel so important that you correct people, that people know you, not a shitty cut-out version of you.

I think this is a valid response, of course. It is completely understandable, and I get where it comes from. When I was in the middle of abuse, I was misrepresented in order to be abused, so it can be a genuine trigger for something "small" you said, did, or are to be misinterpreted or twisted into something it isn't. It turns from, "this person didn't bother reading what I'm saying," to, "this person might be just like them, they're going to hurt me."

My overall point is that a huge part of living is this misinterpretation of you or your character, and it isn't your fault, and it isn't in your control. Hell, even, a huge aspect of language itself is in not being able to fully represent you or what you're saying because language is interpretive and based (in part) on other people's interpretation of what you said. They fill in the blanks with their own experiences, desires, or their own character, and at some point, it isn't really about you, you know?

My biggest piece of advice is learning how to let people be wrong. This shit, of trying to correct every single person? Personally, I have found it to be exhausting, and it feels like I'm blaming myself not only for everybody's interpretation of every little thing I do but also for abuse that led to this intense of a response. It's really hard to let people be wrong, yes, but it also has allowed me and permitted me to be more interested in my own life, not in my life in other people's brains. It's given me that specific freedom from abuse, from worry.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #abuse tw #abuse mention tw #no this isn't me saying that only abuse survivors feel this way because it is a very human and very normal emotion #*however* i have also found that abuse trauma can exaggerate that normal emotion into something more sinister #just like my trauma disorders are exaggerations of normal emotions. #this is mostly for clarity but i am aware of how other people can (and will) misinterpret this #i try my best to be clear in my intentions because it is my responsibility but i am also aware... #...that there is only so much i can do before it is excessive. because i can be 100000% careful and people will misinterpret meaning... #...or whatever it may be. that's a part of life. weirdly enough but having this blog... #...has taught me something about being misinterpreted because i have seen so much horrific accusations of me being levied... #...with no evidence. with no proof. that part of me did feel triggered by that because that shit was used by people who abused me... #...but that wasn't my fault. those people who did that? they clearly had it out for me from the get-go and it taught me not to value... #...what was said. they were biased because of how i choose to exist on here - which is queer. which is trans. which is disabled... #...not because i am secretly knavish or whatever it may be

[sysig]

Some more Just Desserts pets, and thinking about Candy Mers again (Patreon)

Also ft. the pigeon study I did, what a cute bird!

#Doodles #Just Desserts #Been thinking about the JD pets a lot lately actually I'd really like to make a size chart sometime #But honestly a lot of it was motivated by thinking of a pet to give Cherry Shortcake - a merengue pigeon! #I know I love birds and really enjoy drawing birds but I honestly wasn't expecting to have so much fun and be as pleased as I am haha #What a cute! Love that ♪ #She doesn't have a name or an ADS chart yet but she does have the appearance upgrade so she's won at least a couple battles lol #She's a plain no-bean vanilla merengue but Cherry Shortcake opted to make her matching so she's got a cherry ''filling'' on her chest #To mimic bleeding-heart pigeons! It's very cute and highly symbolic lol #She is cute ♪ #Then a pet idea I had months ago but never got around to because I lost the inspiration source! D: #I swear I saw a YouTube thumbnail at one point of a very chubby rain frog that looked like a mochi lol but I can't find it ;; I've looked! #But it's still an adorable idea so mochi frog hehe #And then the Candy Mer stuff ♪ I legit forgot I'd called them Candy Mers and not just mercandies at one point lol #Both of the links are related because it's more worldbuilding - the second one is kind of more relevant? But it all is so #I mentioned very briefly about mercandy death at one point but never elaborated because it made me sad haha #Still true but I thought about it a bit more! About the ''natural springs'' part - once a body of water is fully saturated with sugar - #The sugar-breakdown of a mercandy's body changes from a complete breakdown to a partial breakdown - little pieces slough off and float up #Once they fill with air they turn into gummy aquatic life or - ''jelly fish'' hehehehe ♪ Which is how natural fish occur! #Depending on how big a mercandy is before she dies her body may turn into a whole school! The shape and texture is random tho haha

[wright-phoenix]

hmmmm idk how i feel about the way the game handles khura'in.... i'll keep playing and observing....

#idk the whole....phoenix is in a foreign country but barges into the courtroom and disrespects their way of handling things #i mean they did have a defense attorney there before they said so themselves so it's not unprecedented #but idk it still is so weird to me like.... sure in the context of the game it's like. yeah we know it wasn't the little boy #and we know phoenix can't just sit idly by in the face of injustice like this #but idk it just rubs me a little wrong 😭 #feels so much like. “i bring progress to you” yknow? even when we know in the game context that yeah i guess #it's unfair to not have a defense attorney #put a pin in that. is it defence or defense.... #anyway . #cas.aa #these tags may not make sense if u dont have context #phoenix is in khura'in to visit maya. the boy who shows him around and is a friend of maya's gets arrested #the khura'inese court system doesnt have defense attorneys they do some sort of séance #which shows what happened or sth idk the details abt the séance yet #and the plot is that phoenix just runs into the courtroom and insists on being the boy's defense #while everyone in the room is like PREPOSTEROUS...! #bc well. he's literally just a tourist #also. the bailiff back in phoenix's country are unarmed or at least it's not mentioned if they're armed #maybe they've pistols by their sides or sth. but the khura'in bailiff has a big viaible machine gun so. idk #it's just.......it feels weird. you get me? maybe im overthinking it

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

One of the biggest reasons I try to recruit all the characters in Three Houses isn’t just because I don’t want to kill them, but because if I do, I still have to go back to the monastery afterward. I still have to pass by their dorm rooms full of their belongings and know that’s where they spent their alone time and where they slept. I still have to pass by the spots they frequented the most. It’s not just the sad dialogue of characters reacting to the deaths, but passing by the spots I vividly remembered them hanging out at.

I realized this most in my first playthrough when I didn’t have the chance to recruit everyone and I accidently killed Raphael at Gronder. I didn’t have the enemy attack range turned on so I didn’t realize he was in range of attacking.

During an exploration, I was looking for Ignatz who was, unfortunately, in his dorm room... and I walked into the wrong room and into Raphael’s after he was killed and man that fuckin’ sucked! Feels bad but like, multiplied with big numbers, u kno??? ???

YES, IT’S A VIDEO GAME. YES, I HAVE HUMAN BEING FEELINGS ABOUT IT.

#DCB Comments #I also didn't get to recruit Ferdie in my first playthrough which is what I mean about #characters mentioning others dying. like Dorothea saying ''we killed Ferdie'' didn't hit nearly as hard as #walking into now dead Raphael's room and seeing all his stuff still lying around the way it was left when everyone had to flee #AND THE WORST PART? it's not like I MEANT to go into his room and stew on it. I completely accidentally walked into it #because I was trying to find/talk to Ignatz who was in his own room. MIND YOU after that I made it a point to NOT #walk into Ferdie's room and have that same thought process! because like. Raphael isn't one of my faves #and it was a huge Feels BAD Man moment walking into HIS room #forget if I walked into the room of someone I loved!!! I did try to recruit him but it just didn't work fast enough #I BARELY got Caspar in that run bc it was the final month which is only two weeks and I think I actually #didn't even get him the first week. I'm pretty sure I got him on the absolute last week so literally on #the absolute last possible exploration for recruiting. I had Linhardt already so I was hellbent on getting Caspar #bc I didn't want them to have to be enemies. basically I'd watched the game online already before playing #bc I didn't own the game or a Switch for a while after the game was out. I knew the spot you fight them at #and that they're both in the same chapter as enemies if not recruited which meant that if I only got Linhardt #that Caspar would be alone as my enemy and he wouldn't even have his best buddy there AND they'd be enemies #also tho Raphael just hit hard because I may not consider him a fave at all but he was still a nice dude you know??? ??? ??? #like he's just a regular nice guy vibing and like... realizing that gentle nice man was killed in war #and walking into his old room was SADS. very big sads #DCB Three Houses Stuff

[verycoolsnails]

YAYYY MISHA THEME!!!

MISHA 💖💓🩷❤️💕💖💓🩷💖❤️💖💓💓💖🩷💓

#i loevev them so much did you know that #currently saving up for him and it is HELL after spending it all on sparkel .so many quests and not enough timw ......... #and . ouhhh havent had the chance to talk abt . shit what is it called . lemme go see real quick . #A CHILDS DREAM . yknow that one map with the text on the walls and the melted clocks and stuff . #that was done . SO incredibly well it makes me INSANE........... #so like . im 100.1% sure the speaker (who talks abt mikhail a lot) in that room is misha. #like that IS her voice right . im not going insane #its just . auuh... the dreams (or at least golden hour) in peacony are so childlike .... like . some of the puzzles are jigsaw puzzle ; #turn into a small cartoon character ; and help the cartoon character find his cartoon gears . #and then you get to clockie . who can only be seen by someone w a childs innoence (or smth around those lines) #and that misha can see clockie . which like . cool right ? yeab. UNTIL YOU GET TO A CHILDS DREAM .. #where theres something just ... sososo off . #and its ... its just gotta be misha . its gotta be . idk if theres anything outside of main story im missing (there probably is) #BUT . augh . auf even . #childs dream still has these childlike qualities to it (the paper birds; walking on walls) but just ... more warped #(the general atmosphere of the place; the monsters even .) #the music having a music box to make the tone of the song more distressing ... how its so much more smaller than golden hour .. #aughhhhhh ... its just such a good parallel..... i could talk abt it all day really . #anyways . i WAS going to tell u abt my misha theory (which may or may not be confirmed) bu t i got DISTRACTED. #uhh anyways . my theory is that misha is somehow trapped in peacony . #when misha goes onto the parlor car they mention that theyve never been outside of peacony before and that she can t stay for long . #which i imagine is very normal! BUT its this combined w her lock motif (pupils; most of the doors in childs dream) thag make me suspicious #i mentioned before that golden hour has a very childish quality to it. and that misha has that childish quality. #okay well . what if mishas being kept there so that golden hour can keep on being a dream for other people? #and so that would make golden hour mishas dream. (or part of his dream? could be more people the familys keeping) #and that would imply that childs dream is . well . mishas nightmare . #uhm . i think thats it ..? if i come up w anything else ill . ramble abt it somewhere . definitely not the most eloquent but #i hope i got the point across <33 #i think its an understatement to say i love misha . i LOVE MISHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[lhrry]

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#gotta say (but not trying to guess or explain even if there are a few theories in my brain) #that everything happening these past weeks really is curious and it’s going to be interesting to see what happens next esp in potentially #looking at why babygate was so terribly ramped up during louis’ promo #because you have that in a quite unparalleled way but then you have Eleanor not being mentioned once like #literally danielled #and then you have the way fitf is queer #and then suddenly it becomes very clear that harry is no longer blacklisted in louis’ interviews and you have a syndicated press release #about louis struggling with fatherhood and few days later there is article upon article about louis on his ‘brother’s’ success #at a time when mp came out and with all the comparisons people are making with larry one would think they’d shun this but apparently not? #and then you have louis saying harry hits too close to home which still was a formulation for the books skmsk #and then you have holivia BUA which we expected around this time but louis’ 1 more day tweet makes it even funnier ngl #and you have gemma and lottie interacting on social media more (although there’s been something here and there before) #and there was even sth about harry on the twins’ igs a few weeks back or sth i dont know i dont follow them #but like no matter whether this is it and they’re just changing up the nemesis narrative or whether there are going to be further #developments #there definitely is some kind of a shift and it may end here or it may not but there definitely is sth happening

[fairymint]

How would you feel if you ever get pregnant, Felix?

"I'm guessing that I would probably feel pregnant. Depends on the time and place, I have options." Too vague, anon. He could guess what direction of question that you're actually trying to ask, but he won't. "probably keep it or abort it. unless there's some interdimensional babysnatcher out there to make it schrodinger's cat, I think it's just a typical pregnancy. I feel like you should probably go listen to some women and pregnant people if you can't fathom it."

#ask. #anonymous #felix ???. #pregnancy mention #to be fair- i can't glean which part of that general question is what needs answering dfhjds #like. pregnancy in general? transness? the kid that comes out? #none of this applies IRL btw. i'm not having children ever lmao- #like i just went over one of the elements of this question right before this was sent. consider that there may be 5000 more