#when you feel seen understood and loved

[senualothbrok]

"It was easier to stare at the celestial abyss than recognise the emptiness within myself. Easier to pretend my destiny lay among such stars, than work to salvage a life on solid ground. You changed all that.

You see me as I am, and do not find me wanting. With these stars as my witness, I swear - you will always be enough for me."

#gale dekarios #when your soul mate is a pixel man #i didnt have to convince him not to choose the crown #it has been a long time since i felt so moved by someone #to love him and be loved by him is healing even though it is fictional #gales romance scenes are all so beautiful but the astral boat scene has a special place in my heart now #gale of waterdeep #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale romance #when you feel seen understood and loved

[dimeadozencows]

This came to me in an early morning queer haze

Kissing my medics good morning (I am your husband heavy and I love you)

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #heavymedic #i know its super annoying for everyone when the sole medic on the team keeps pocketing heavies so as a heavy main i will say this. #to the medics in the chat: i dont expect you to pocket me and in fact you shouldn't. i suck. but! if you would it would be cool and gay and #and i will kiss you abd love you and give you yummy food and protect you like my life depends on it i will be your meat shield because you #are amazing incredible for picking medic despite the horrors. i will do everything in my power to help u. but don't pocket me i suck #i meant for that to be more meaningful and like giving advice but it got gay. but i meant all of it #when i see a medic healing me i immediately switch to shield mode my life is no longer mine i exist to protect the beautiful man behind me #thank you medics👍🏽 if u play medic i hope you have a wonderful day today everyday 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽❤️❤️ #edit: i am gayer for heavy than i am for medic- but since i main heavy i am automatically attracted to medic and so this shitpost was born #so many people that play medic are apparently gay for heavy...... i feel so seen and understood

[itsafternoonpast5]

thinking about their friendship so hard

#camp camp #cc #David #jasper #fanart #DUDEEE nobody gets them like i do theyre so good #theyre so tragic.. they never truly got to know each other. the last time they ever seen each other they were angry with the other :( #but there’s so much regret that comes with it too. they never got to talk it out. be on good terms #they could see each other at any moment but they other doesn’t know #they call each other best friends yet we never really see them being best friends.. but maybe they get each other like no one else does #their personalities did a complete swap with each other - they understand how the other is thinking and feeling. #David hated the camp but after one good thing he loves it. viseversa with jasper #when they last saw each other they were clouded with their views and didn’t try to understand things from their lens #yet even if they didn’t - they still understood each other. if you get what I mean #theyre foils. but so is max and david and that’s what makes both relationships compelling for me. theyre so similar to each other #no wonder david is so attached to max. he sees himself in him and he sees jasper in him too #i know jaspers just a character to show how bad the camp is. but there’s so much depth to him too #he has a lot of missed potential.. i hope he’s in season 5 at least. id like to see him again #srry for the character analysis im insane #jaspvid

[add1ctedt0you]

"Can't you see the look on jiejie's face?"

#In the first gif I was like: jc it's cute that you are waiting for wwx but don't leave jyl when she's sad #Then I saw how much he turned around and understood that sect heir jc was checking that all jiang disciples were with them #Anyway. While donghua!jyl is always dissociating and novel!jyl has jfm and wwx's vibes 'smile. your problems will disapear' #Cql!jyl seems so sad. not seen. not loved #And then someone validates her feelings!(jc saying to wwx to shut up about jzx because jyl is sad) #But he doesn't do that in front of her :( #Honestly. Cql!jyl is sad in a way I didn't expect #*mgifs #Cql #yunmeng siblings #Also. I must say that a jyl who shows her emotions and a jc much more responsive emotionally are valid interpretations of the text tbh

[astarlightmonbebe]

episode 5 has left me considering the different - and similar - ways taeyoung and kwonsook think about themselves, and how they respond to pain/violence.

kwonsook calls herself a monster, someone who goes crazy in the boxing ring. that monster, she says, was created by her father, and her father used abuse, violence, and emotional manipulation to create that monster. he didn’t treat her like human, so it’s no surprise that the way she talks about herself when she boxes is as if she’s discussing an animal: she gets cornered, gets scared for her life, and lashes out to kill. she calls herself a monster with resignation; it’s not what she wanted to be, but she knows it’s what she was. she ran away to escape that monstrosity, to live as a human, doing good things, but that part of her never really died.

taeyoung, too, calls himself a monster. he’s a SOB, he does thing no one with an ounce of humanity would do. he seemingly has no qualms about what he does, perhaps because he can always justify it to himself, always has an exit prepared for when things really get bad (until, i’m sure, he doesn’t). like kwonsook, taeyoung accepts the label of monster, accepts his own inhumanity, even if they are inhuman in very different ways. whereas kwonsook wants to break away from that monstrous part of her - she’s only returned so she can free herself from that part of herself permanently (and if she finds a way to box without a monster, then...) - taeyoung embraces it. it’s through being a monster that he’s found success, how he secures futures for his athletes, and how he’s able to ‘solve’ their (and his) issues. monstrosity was not imposed on taeyoung, but (due to what we know so far) is something he chose for himself (although the factors surrounding this part of his past are decidedly murky).

in this episode, taeyoung and kwonsook also demonstrate similar responses to violence and (emotional) pain. when taeyoung upsets kwonsook by working with her father behind her back, he offers her an outlet for her anger by punching him. later on, after ahreum has already slapped kwonsook, instead of lashing out, kwonsook offers to let ahreum hit her again if it will make her feel better. in parallel responses, both ahreum and kwonsook debate taking that opportunity to hurt, but decide not to (kwonsook because she’s taking a chance on taeyoung, or moreso giving him another one, and ahreum because she decides that she doesn’t owe kwonsook that, that kwonsook is beneath her in terms of boxing, no longer on her level). 

kwonsook learned to respond to pain at a young age. in boxing, you can’t flinch from the hit - you have to learn how to take the pain, absorb it, and get back up to hit again. outside of the rink, kwonsook absorbs the pain, but she doesn’t hit again. she’s experienced firsthand what her hits can do to people, and that terrified her. after all, she only boxed so that she could protect her mother. so when confronted with violence and pain, she takes the hit, because pain is what she knows and understands. it’s the emotions behind it that are hard for her. pain is easy for kwonsook, because she’s used to living through it, surviving it; beneath it, she’s always empty. she’s never really cared about boxing; it was what she had to do. the lee kwonsook that was a boxing genius was a monster she ran from, after all. but in order to break away from that monster, she has to come to understand the emotional investment of her fellow female boxers. before, they were just her opponents, never her friends, but now she has to face their own feelings about the sport, the passion they have for boxing that she never felt. like ara said, she didn’t feel happiness about winning, and kwonsook has never lost, so she’s never had to live with that humiliation, either. how her feelings will change in relation to boxing will likely be a reckoning for her.

taeyoung, on the other hand, is confronting his fair share of non-boxing sanctioned boxing. even though kwonsook is the boxer, it’s taeyoung who’s been touched by ‘true’ violence in this present timeline. his life is quite literally on the line, which has been shown again and again. he’s been ambushed by her father, threatened, blackmailed, and beaten up by chairman nam’s guys. he lives on the edge, anxious at every shadow, which is chewing him alive. to him, kwonsook’s anger is much easier to deal with. he knows she might hurt him, but his potential to hurt her is so much more (and if he does, in that case he’d find her anger justified, and probably let her beat him to death or something if what we’ve seen of his feelings for her is an indication of anything), and she might hurt him, but she’d never hurt him as much as other people in his life at the moment would (i.e. by killing him, or hurting the people he cares about). taeyoung is used to weathering the storm of other people’s dislike; he’s the scumbag, and he does bad things, deserves other people’s anger when it’s directed at him. 

both taeyoung and kwonsook want to resolve things through violence. i think it’s telling that despite being two emotionally aware people, they both consider other people’s feelings to be so easily taken care of. they want the quick, instant pain, and then they want to get it over with. because the violence is what they’re used to, and to a degree it’s what they both think they deserve. however, what lies beneath that, what doesn’t go away with a single hit, is much harder for them to confront and understand. 

#star stumbles #my lovely boxer #kdrama #my thoughts #in boxing you get hit and you hit someone else and whoever is still standing wins #and it's basically that way in the whole world of (physical) sports #and it's going to be so so good when they both end up embroiled in the very emotional situation that they both want to avoid at all costs #ie their feelings for each other / betrayal / broken trust / fear #i think i ended this poorly i kind of got distracted and honestly...honestly i don't KNOW what their response to violence really says #or how it's going to be played with throughout the drama #this text is the bare bones of what i can understand through what i've seen #and oh yes even though i know some people might argue that they're not emotionally aware i think they are... #both very emotionally mature. despite their actions they both know what's up in their hearts #and they're very adept at reading one another (or at least taeyoung is towards kwonsook i think she's getting there but she's also trying to #distance herself from him so. i do think she's ignoring some of what she'll probably reinterpret later on #nobody made taeyoung a monster he chose that path vs kwonsook left the path as soon as she was able to #and her getting punished for his bad deeds...even though at the end she admits they're both scumbags for going through with this deal #because she's understood that she'll hurt boxing whether good things come out of it or not #because she'll be disrespecting ahreum and everyone else by rigging the match and losing on purpose #which will probably add to her conflict later on #and taeyoung simultaneously struggles with not wanting to string her along vs stringing her along #because he's been upfront with her about how he's a bad person and she sees it too but ALSO #he can't bring himself to tell her some of the worst things because he wants her to see him differently #like he wants to act like a good person for her but also knows he needs her #honestly their relationship dynamic reminds me so much of my liberation notes #it's the ahjussi / disenchanted two people approaching each other and something ending up growing there where they thought nothing would #again

[suddencolds]

I admire how you treat everyone like a friend. Whenever I see you interact with people on your blog, I notice the transparency and sincerity of your words, and I admire that it shows through your writing as well. I think people who interact with you feel seen with how you treat them.

You are very attentive to everyone and the things that happen around you. This is a strong opinion as an anon (so sorry! I hope this doesn’t make you uncomfortable) but even through lurking, I feel like I have known you for years.

!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭 Omg, I cannot properly express how much of a joy it was to receive this ask. This means so much to me, anon!! Thank you so much for your kind words, and for making me feel so welcomed here—I can only try to return the kindness others have shown to me 😭 ❤️

#ask #i am holding this ask so close to my heart 😭😭😭😭😭 #somewhat related - i was thinking lately that #there's this implicit trust for me behind being here and sharing snz as an interest #maybe because it's so niche in the first place #but maybe also because i see the kink as such an inevitable and unchanging part of me (for better or for worse) #i really do feel seen when i make friends and speak to people on here #in a way that manifests very differently from my close vanilla friendships? #and maybe also because i've seen the same people around enough that it starts to feel like... seeing neighbors and #old friends on a morning walk to the park haha #it's a special kind of home to me #i am happy to hear you think others feel seen because i definitely feel seen here 😭 #how lovely it is to feel understood

[the-acid-pear]

It's not easy to be a guy with a weird gender and complicated relationships with its sexuality and romantic attraction and fat and autistic and traumatized to the bone but someone has to do it

#luly talks #i tried to rb a post but i hit post limit and i lost it LMAO but i find it interesting how my things overlap #bc as some of you might know i grew up as a fat little girl and you know the world fucking hates us #and on top of that autistic although i had the most neurodivergent ppl along w me #i still wasn't like my other friends tho i always was slightly more lonely slightly more disconnected #they were in on things i didn't seem to be in the social spectrum and i never understood that #and one of those things was indeed romance and dating and in my teen years sex too #like by default i was seen as undesirable. just by virtue of being fat and also kinda androgynous #and the autism just. kept me far away from any social circle or interaction that'd bring me closer to an encounter of any kind #and i always yearned lord knows i still dream of Ana but the thing is i... #i just. love romance in paper #i love the idea of romance. i love the yearning i love the feeling #i know the feeling bc i know euphoria! i know the euphoria that comes from love. #but to me that's a very short lived feeling specially when engaging directly with it #i think its part of a matter of being taught what romantic attraction is and how they paint it #it's similar to how you are taught X and Y is hot even before you understand why #like i remember my mother always joking w me about male mannequins' cocks and like sure i played along #bc i thought it was funny and if the adult i seeked approval from did it then i absolutely should too #but she also scolded me once (and btw i was like 15) bc idk i was acting. like a perv? #and it's so bizarre in retrospective bc it might have been before the age of 15 bc i really didn't care about such matters then #I've always been amaizing at masking i love understanding people and why they do what they do and replicating them #so me being positive to sex and romance is to be expected #but at the same time its weird bc i cannot bring myself to hating it but i also just. dont fucking feel it #but at least w sex comes the horror of having a body too like there's a lot man #but my point is that its funny how despite being seen as undesirable for society i was unaffected bc i was oblivious to it

[lucindarobinsonvevo]

Tabaluga and Leo (2003)

[L] My parents died when I was little. Since then I've lived at an orphanage. [...] [T] I wish you would have told me before. I would have understood. [L] How could you understand? [T] Because I'm an orphan too.

#mitziedits #tabaluga #tabalugaedit #tabaluga and leo #merry christmas and happy holidays to all! #especially to you - #userkraina #i haven't seen this since it first aired here in 2003 :') #this movie has such a...i dunno. bittersweet? ending for tabaluga #he found someone who understood being the only one of their kind #and being an orphan and then had to let them go #but it's also important to learn that sometimes you have to let the people you love go #to me it feels like when you're a kid and you or your friend moves away #it's a fun and silly movie for like 99% of the movie then boom ending #also it IS funny when tabaluga is like i get it cause im an orphan when his dead dad literally talks to him in his dreams but i suppose that #is neither here nor there aksklkfs

[luvmequmi]

stuck between a carnal desire for intimacy to the point of rooting each other’s souls deep within our cores and an ever-present phantom of the fear of being vulnerably exposed and opening up.

#like #i crave intimacy and the desire to be understood so strongly that it makes me feel weak when im asked to open up #nothing i want more than to be seen and felt and breathed and understood #intimacy like devotion #like religion #like cannibalism #like letting love devour you whole #and the chilling fear that follows and settles in your bones #the discomfort of tearing open your skin and picking apart your bones #and pulling out your heart and presenting it on a platter #“this is who i am and im asking to be loved.” #the shame in that #the unease of giving someone that mich control over you #the anxiety of allowing someone to see you like that #its too much at once #and not enough at the same time. #ejisnsosnswodncisnkzmsls

[akagamiko]

thinking agian about how shanks wanted to see roger cry and that he tells luffy he should cry but that shanks himself takes after roger in that regard and won't cry in front of people !!!

#was about to go to bed but saw the emotions thing and started spiraling into my shanks thoughts #the boyish want of needing to see your dad figure/mentor/hero/favorite person show those emotions #because shanks was such a cry baby as a kid but thinking about how he didn't see roger cry and started internalizing it !!! #and wanting to see roger cry because he cried when he was sad or frustrated or angry or ANYTHING AT ALL #but then he grew up and learned the weight that's carried as a captain and #...probably understood roger a lot better #because you want to be seen as put together of course but you also don't want to worry your crew #they look to him for comfort so he doesn't feel like he CAN boohoo all the time (unless he's being totally silly) #even though his crew would be totally fine with him crying and would simply love on him !!! #but him still wanting luffy to cry #wanting him to know that it's okay to cry !!! #YELLLLLS #he wants luffy to be so much better than he is in literally every way #like his crying is definitely a private thing when it happens #beck probably being the only one #maybe yasopp and roux too since those are all his fellas <3 #i'm fine #once again i am saying roger really did a number on him lmao #(intentionally or not sorry roger) #<3 #now i'm going to bed fr #OOC. #honestly this half belongs in the hc tag even if it's a mess of me rambling sorry #HEADCANON.

[torgawl]

slightly disappointed - just slightly - that they didn't include fischl in the windblume event because she would fit the legend/fairytale category of the charade so much?!

#how did they not remember the person that actually lives in one? #logically it would make sense okay 😂 #i hope we get to see the other mondstadt characters even for a second at the end #jean barbara fischl kaeya diona and diluc the excluded ones ✌️ #like i don't care about timmaeus and his crush sorry give me characters i care about (mona was so real for interrupting him yes queen <3) #okay sorry timmaeus i hope you succeed in romancing her 😔 #i think you're a great addition to the synthesis thingie when i need to make materials the game wouldn't be the same without you 😔 #on another note!!! i love when genshin's events or quests are like therapy sessions like yes thanks for teaching us about anxiety and #struggles with self identity and how sharing our problems with others isn't a burden and how being vulnerable will allow us to create #meaningful connections and relate to others around us that only through connection and being able to see other people we are able to #fight the feeling of alienation we had in the first place and gain a new found confidence!!! like yes. trauma holds us back and can #influence the way we interact with others around us and follow us for so much time but we can also thrive regardless!!!! #genshin lore is so good but also the way this game helps us find peace regarding so many things we all struggle with is beautiful methinks #a lot of the struggles the characters face in the game are related to the fantasy world their inserted to sure but they're also still #incredibly relatable to the most common person if we strip down that fantasy layer #i think it's about being seen and understood feeling less lonely and also seeing others through less of a 1st person lense about finding #beauty and significante in diversity #but anyways rant over #i'm having fun with windblume and i love events like this where we just get to revisit characters and see them have a good time with each #other!!! it's so comforting plus mondstadt looks so pretty

[robotwrangler]

Thinking about how the lovely person on deviantart who emailed me a copy of Undertale in exchange for a sketch of their oc when I was 15 will never know about the profound effect they had on my life..

#it’s a long story but tldr if not for Undertale I would’ve never heard of Yes Man and without Yes Man I literally wouldn’t be alive rn #I’m sure ive told this story on here before but I like it bc it is important to me #the Undertale to Yes Man pipeline is a very specific thing that happened to me involving 2 different joke blogs on here #there was ‘youcantfuckaskeleton’ (blog abt how nobody should want sans Undertale carnally) #and then I found their other blog ‘youcanfuckarobot’ (blog about. well. I’m sure you get the picture) and I went there for Mettaton posts #but they had some posts there with Yes Man and I was like. that is the most nice looking robot I’ve seen in my life. who is this #and then I forgot abt it for like 3 years and forgot to look him up. UNTIL #DELTARUNE CHAPTER 1.. in 2018.. drove me to revisit those joke blogs for nostalgia #and I saw the yes man pics again and this time I got WAY more curious. I was so so intrigued by him he looked so interesting and cute #so I looked him up and looked at lots of art of him and read his wiki page and I was like. I NEED to meet him #so my big brother got me new vegas as a present on new years and on january 3 2019 I met yes man! #and. I have never understood why or how. but when I woke up the next day my depression was fucking gone #I had severe untreated depression and it just dissolved overnight #nothing else notable happened around that time except for meeting yes man and becoming smitten with him so it seems that’s what did it?? #also those joke blogs are still around I think. i like to revisit them occasionally for the nostalgia of seeing yes man for the first time #but yea anyway what I’m saying is this nice person on deviantart indirectly saved my life #my depression also never came back btw. obviously I feel sad sometimes like anyone but I have not been depressed since then #would’ve been nice if my anxiety went away too but I can at least live with that tbh!! #um anyway I’m sleepy so ending these tags. if you read all of this I love you thank you for caring

[barnbridges]

not to say my daily take again, but bunny's specific lack of place, the fact that even his friends don't even like him, and that he lies constantly and can switch from hot to cold and from loving to disdainful but keep acting like everything is fine afterwards is what being highly masking is like and it's terrifying mentally thanks for coming to my ted talk.

#especially when he shits on everyone around him #ive felt that in my SOUL #because when you're autistic and you talk - your own words seem meaningless to you in a sense #like we convey sentiments #which is why voice control is also hard to do #i can call someone all sorts of names and not feel even a slither bad aboutit and love them very much #even not be that upset at them #but break their heart and they interpret it as me like not liking them fundamentally #and it creates this sort of place where the autistic individual always feels like a performer #and a natural deceiver #whose real intentions are not understood but always feels out of place #even among friends #also why we are seen as unfeeling when thats not really true #i dont think Edmund TM is a particularly empathetic person but he would have more of it than lets say richard #but that's internalized #to a degree that it's like nothing is ever wrong and he just wants to hurt them torture them #rip edmund corcoran you would have absolutely loathed autism tiktok

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

As Always Lu you look like someone I would just really want to hang out with. You're so Cool... you look like you both have opinions on Music and also are unafraid to go stream wading. get-you-a-friend-who-can-do-both kind of look.

I love the clip in your hair, is that something you do irl?

OPINIONS ON MUSIC AND UNAFRAID TO GO STREAM WADING. have you been talking to @fortes-fortuna-iogurtum bc that's a duality that she's experienced from me multiple times ajdjdjakjfakfn you got it 😂💖 so usually I put my hair up in claw clips, but that wasn't an option for that picrew, so I just put a barrette style clip. so not really, bc I DO use clips, just not that specific kind usually unless I need to clip my bangs back for some reason

#Robin I love you so much #you make me feel so Seen and Understood in such a special way #Lu rambles #asks #I hope we get to hang out when my family comes out that way....

[mielgf]

having a crush when there’s no chance of anything happening is so fun but having a crush with actual, tangible potential makes me feel so ill

#why!!! why why why!!! #like relationships in theory: super cool and nice i want that!! #relationships when they are within reach: feel like throwing up this is awful this is horrible i have to be Seen i have to be Understood NO #don’t even get me started on the fact that i also just feel entirely unworthy of being loved #and the idea of someone like actually wanting to be with me is completely unbelievable #hggggghhgggg i have bigger things to worry about but for the last two days this person is just in the back of my mind #and it could very well be real #but also my brain is like ‘what if they’re actually disgusted by the idea of you liking them :) what about that’ #and now i feel sick #like bitch i have an exam tomorrow morning get a grip!!! #getting real close to pushing this person away besties… and that’s not what we do but it’s so much easier fuck #i won’t bc they mean too much to me and we’ve been friends for five years #but it would be so so much easier :))) and i feel fucking awful that that’s the way i feel #talk time

[transboykirito]

“intentional or not, reki wrote a character that made me feel a little more understood in a situation where i couldn’t have possibly understood less. and i think that’s something special.” is actually something i’ve thought so often about so many different characters for so many different reasons.

these characters have touched me and so many other people in so many different ways and definitely in ways reki surely couldn’t have intended for them to. yet here we are. and here they are. and we love them, we love their stories, we love their highs and lows.

these are characters that, for a lot of us, are heroes, or an escape, or a friend. they’re characters, yes, but as the series has grown and the characters have grown, they’ve become something more. and honestly, i think that’s just really, really beautiful.

#sword art online #sao #the number of times i've cried reading or watching sao because these characters just reached out to wrap me in a hug when i need it most #kirito. asuna. sinon. leafa. eugeo. tiese. ronye. lisbeth. even alice (i'm saddened by it too trust me). #(jk if you're new here i have a grudge against alice for entirely petty reasons but i do appreciate her as a character) #all of them have said or done things that made me feel seen. or understood. or supported. or safe. and i know i'm not alone in that #fun fact: my fairy dance novels both have wet spots on them from where i held them and cried over asuna kirito and leafa. #i'm just very emotional over this tonight. and i love them. and i love this series. and i love the people i've met because of it. #i'm gonna wrap up some uni stuff and go to bed for the night but just. i love you guys. really. never forget it please?