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ur-fav-has-rabies · 9 months
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*laughs like a fool*
Megatron
(Request for totally anonymous person who is not my husband)
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Megatron from mtmte has rabies!
☆ Rabiophobes DNI! (/j)
☆ Requests open
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mugunghwc · 1 year
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unprompted ask / always accepting
@badheart​ said: "You better love it," Fang huffed, as it had not been so cheap but Rei definitely deserved a big plushie in her bed or couch or wherever finally. It was a bunny, second choice had been a cat, but Taro was there after all, so she went for a black bunny with droppy ears, which wore a fluffy hoodie in lilac. It definitely met Fang's tastes more, as it looked a bit mischievous.
     eyes widened at the sight of the bunny, showing her excitement right away, as even the smallest details meant a lot to her. it was so cute, & totally fang’s style as well. rei would reach out for it & inspect it. especially its little hoodie, which went with her preferred colour scheme. it made her wonder if her friend had chosen to dress it that way, or if it had been coincidental. regardless of what was the case, rei showed her gratitude by leaning down to hug fang with the bunny in-between the two. she couldn’t help but gush about it. “it’s so cute. thank you!” rei dug her fingers onto the soft fabric, enjoying the way it sank underneath pressure.
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       & as she turned on her heel, it was placed on a sofa by the window of her bedroom, next to the one that jiro had given her for white day. fang’s bunny looked much bigger in comparison, but both were special to her. not only because of whom they were from, but due to the fact that they went out of their way to get them, while thinking of her. rei almost wondered if fang had purchased it online or gone through the struggle of shopping by herself. the thought made her all the more appreciative about it. “now you will have something else to snuggle with whenever you stay over.” if taro didn’t approach her.
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octoagentmiles · 2 years
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Any headcanons for the octoagents?
This is an old ask, my apologies 😅 I wasn't sure how to start, because there's so many. This is gonna be a long post.
Paani:
Definitely not neurotypical but I can't place how; He seems to have low empathy for people, but hyperempathy for objects (his measuring pole and waterboard) and a rigid moral compass (why he stole the Gup-H and their water without thinking, because he thought it was right).
I can see him as both being gay and aro, so I'm gonna say he is both. yeah.
Multilingual, mostly speaks English and Hindi, but can also speak Spanish, and a lot of Indigenous languages.
Chose his own name.
Tracker:
Autistic, was diagnosed young
Barnacles' first actual friend in the cub scouts
Also friends with Bianca: he visits her and the cubs regularly
Fluent in ASL/BSL; goes nonverbal during meltdowns/shutdowns
The Polar Emergency Post Station also has a Text to Speech messaging option for him to use just in case he's ever nonverbal during a crisis
He's younger than Barnacles (but older than Kwazii, so like 28-ish), and really looks up to him in a "big brother" way
Hits his head (lightly) or pulls his fur as a stim
They/he vibes. I feel like he's nonbinary but doesn't realize it
Natquik:
Grandfather figure to Barnacles; his relationship with him mirrors Kwazii and Calico Jack's
He's an immigrant, that's why he has a Russian accent
Maybe like 40-50-ish years old??
Noticed Barnacles was autistic immediately upon meeting him, and chose to become his personal mentor for that reason. He's autistic himself
^ would've done the same with Tracker had they met earlier
Calico Jack:
Shunned by his family/crew, he left on his journey to the Amazon River because he had to leave them
Would've come back for Kwazii eventually, he wrote letters to him everyday. Most of them got lost, but the ones that didn't contained spooky monstery tales
Pete is almost as old as he is (60-ish)
Guess who else is autistic???? that's right, this guy!!! also has dyscalculia
Left handed/ambidextrous because Pete always sits on his right arm, so he taught himself to use the other
Can speak Japanese
Asexual he/they because I say so
Ranger Marsh:
Let Tweak dye his fur last time she visited before the Great Swamp Search (the dye is like, SUPER permanent. Tweak engineered it herself)
Can't swim, that's why he'd never been under the swamp's waters
Taught Tweak how to grow carrots, and a bunch of recipes
Excellent forager
ADHD and dysgraphia (but never diagnosed)
Pearl:
Dyslexia and dyspraxia. She struggles with coordination and spatial awareness, and she's not very good with her hands.
Nerd™ almost moreso than Shellington
Around the same age as Barnacles, so like 31-35.
Always tired for some reason
Abrosexual. That's all.
Min:
Her colour scheme is literally orange, white, and pink, need I say more?
Hypermobile
10-ish years younger than Inkling, so about 50-60.
English is her second language, Mandarin is her first
Paints as a hobby; she likes to paint rocks and leave them in the places she travels, then mark them on her maps
Totally knows kung fu
Ryla:
Gay gay homosexual gay and they/she
The neurotypical friend 😔 /lh
She and Dashi definitely had a Thing™ together at some point
Can NOT cook. Has really bad taste buds in general.
Probably has a bunch of scars from cave diving
They've been stuck in caves for much longer than "a few days" before; this started happening much more often after Dashi left
Koshi:
Autism. no neurotypical child reads 56 novels in that short of a time because they feel like it.
Instead of not noticing/struggling with social ques, she's hyperaware of them at all times. She heard Barnacles say his catchphrase ("Let's do this!") once in her first appearance, then stole it from him immediately in AnB.
Stims very "loudly" (jumping, screaming, arm flapping)
Calls Dashi "Sis" because that's what Donna Doxie calls her sister. The author of that book is siblingless.
Pinto:
ADHD; coincidentally happened to be having a hyperfixation on pirates when he met Kwazii in his first appearance
Kwazii hooked onto that AND recognized his ADHD right away, which is why he bonded with him so fast (he reminded him of a younger version of himself)
Struggles with executive dysfunction sometimes, and jumps from one interest to another constantly
He started school recently, and it's made him more aware about his "inability to focus" and he's been feeling kinda insecure about it
^ he's gonna have fun being a Junior Agent, because at least half the Octonauts have ADHD too, so he'll feel more understood and accepted with them :)
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pinkhairedsniper · 3 years
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lol spot on for sniper
ngl he has a hellish planet ? namely, land of countdown & predators. he has to deal with weird evil NPCs that basically are creepy furries, complete with gothic bone themed castles & all. so he has that whole royalty to take down and snipe. he also has countdowns that basically are. do shit on time else really bad shit happens.
it’s *really* rough on him bc the sylph class is namely a class that creates through sheer grind & force of will, and sure yeah sniper is used to it bc he had to grind like hell to get good at headshots & what everyone else had handed to them in australia he had to work for it, BUT
*slaps soldier’s tits* this man can store so much hope in him- but ye he mostly makes it bc solly decides to help him & be hellbent on protecting him, which tbh. is a valid strat lmao. stick ur hope players & their fancy miracles on ur sylph, shit will work out
but YEAH THE CHARACTER DESIGNS R SO FUN
esp since each god tier has their fancy colour scheme, & theyre fun to mess with. it’s not really obvious if you go thru my tag if you look at my scout art bc time is coincidentally bright red so it just looks like his uniform but weirder, & i also have a lot of spy art & that one is incidentally dark blue so Once Again it just looks like his regular colour scheme, but medic for one has a green and magenta colour scheme which looks surprisingly good on him, sniper is dark green & dark purple, solly is pastel yellow, demo is orange... (uhh whod i miss. pyro is black & electric green, heavy is purple, engie is aqua, the admin is sky blue & pauling blood red, saxton hale dark magenta)
also thanks to time travel + TF2 australia, they get lots of modern shit, so yes i’m saying, mercs with modern phones chaos, and yes, engie becomes a total weeaboo
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currywaifu · 4 years
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𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐥𝐞: playing pretend 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩: minagi tsuzuru/reader 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: sfw 𝐰𝐜: 3.5k words, 1 image
𝐚𝐧: tysm~ Everyday, my love for this boi increases. Also here’s the thing, I’m a hoe for fake dating. Listen, I can and would write so many fake-dating fics. Watch me apply every trope here lol. enoUGH ABOUT THAT, enjoy :>
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He watched you stride over to him, quickly setting your bag down the empty space beside him. Before he could greet you, you slapped what looked to be a flyer in front of him. He was no Kazunari, but the tackiness of the hot pink mixed with crimson made his eyes burn.
“Hn? Did you design this or something?” He asked, turning away from the paper to look at you.
“Tsuzuru!” Watching you pout reminded him a little bit of his younger brothers when they wanted something from him, maybe that was why the brunet couldn’t help but tease you a little bit.
He’s known you for almost two years now, so he can already guess what you’re gonna ask of him. Nevertheless, he patiently waits for you to sit down and begin your business pitch.
“So you remember the cute but affordable cafe we went to two weeks ago right?” When Tsuzuru nods you scoff at yourself, “duh, you’re sleep-deprived not suffering from memory loss. Anyway,”
Tsuzuru intercepts you with a quip of his own, “takes one to know one, right? Who’s the one messaged me at 3 am?”
“It was important!”
“You sent me a TikTok asking if I was a toaster,” he watched the corners of your lips stretch upwards, “because you wanted to take a bath with me… you need help.”
You could only nudge him in retaliation. “It was a 3 am mood, okay? I was going to go to sleep already when I realised I forgot the assigned readings and I went all what the fuck.”
“Good grief… Seriously,” Tsuzuru laughed, shaking his head as he read the flyer more carefully this time, “2 for the price of 1 drink of your choice?”
Your eyes sparkled with excitement, “so the fine print does say it has to either be hot chocolate or milk tea, but like, still!”
“I have a shift 6 pm onwards, but,” well, not spending at all would be optimal, but exams finished two days ago and neither of you had the chance to reward yourselves for the hard work, “as long as we don’t stay that long.”
You giggled, trying to suppress your volume as the door burst open with the professor in tow, “you really are the toaster to my bathtub, the left AirPod to my right Air-“
“I’m regretting everything,” he groaned, “not that I mind getting discounts, but will you ever take someone else?”
“Listen, my fellow stingy boi,” with the most serious tone you could muster, you put your hands over his, “for as long as you don’t start dating, I will exploit you in all my schemes.”
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As soon as 4 pm rolled in the two of you were out of the campus. It wasn’t the first time you dragged him into similar endeavours, neither did he have the heart to stop going along with you nor stop you.
Every now and then there would be a special offer or discount for couples, and Tsuzuru was your poor victim. It wasn’t bad, though. The two of you valued affordability and formed some kind of partnership in finding and sharing good deals on all sorts of products.
If that included coincidentally wearing the same outfit colour scheme and walking closer to each other, it wasn’t either of your faults if people assumed you were dating. At least, that’s what he’ll tell himself. If somehow his acting skills and your determination don’t win in the end, he’ll just chide you for bringing him into this and run.
“Looks like we’re not the only ones with the same idea,” you said, the both of you looking at the line just starting to form outside the establishment, “should we get the drinks to go? It’ll be less hassle than trying to get a seat inside.”
Tsuzuru nods, letting you hold onto his arm while falling in line for a special booth specifically for take-outs.
An unfamiliar voice, to Tsuzuru that is, calls out your name; the both of you find the couple directly in front you turned around to face you. When you grip his arm a little tighter, he knows something’s up. For a moment, you stiffen slightly at the sight of your high school ex-boyfriend and the girl beside him who was smiling as awkwardly as you felt. Quickly fixing yourself, you set a grin on your face.
“It’s been a while, hasn’t it?” You replied, stepping a little closer to the boy beside you.
Subconsciously you wrap an arm around Tsuzuru’s waist, and if he’s uncomfortable by that he doesn’t show it. As expected of your favourite actor!
“It really has! You getting the promo too?” With a wide grin, he put his arm around who you presumed to be his girlfriend, “she’s been craving milk tea, so we decided to get some ♡~” Oh? He wants to out-sweet you? Doesn’t matter if it’s intentional or not, he’s gonna get it. You can be petty too!
You pressed the side of your face against Tsuzuru’s shoulder, leaving just enough room for you to be able to reply back.
“Same here~ Tsuzu-kun and I really love the stuff here ♡ we can’t get enough of the flavours- oh, looks like it’s your turn to order?” Gesturing at the front of the booth where the cashier stared at the pair, the female proceeded to order while the guy kept talking. Inwardly, you wished you could tell him to shut the hell up. Was he always this talkative in the past?
“Well, it’s been fun catching up!” Catching up, he says? What the fuck did you guys catch up on? The fact that both of you had dates? Well, not exactly on your case, but he didn’t know that, “I hope you guys enjoy your date ♡!”
Before you could think of the most sickeningly sweet way to phrase a you too, Tsuzuru breaks his silence, “we already are enjoying, thank you.”
Your ex looks slightly shocked, before turning around. Holy shit, your brain.exe isn’t responding, do you close the program or wait for it to respond? Totally forgot that not only was Tsuzuru an actor, but a playwright as well. Of course he’d be good with dialogue.
You weren’t really expecting Tsuzuru to respond. Usually it was you who did the talking, you took responsibility for dragging him along all the time so might as well play the role of the sweet s/o, right?
Still, just one line from him was a pleasant surprise. And to your ex nonetheless!
When it’s your turn to order you quickly slam the payment on the counter, startling both the poor cashier and Tsuzuru. Before he could protest, you wink at him, “let me treat you for your hard work today!”
As the two of you left, your hand hung lightly on his arm, you swore you could feel eyes digging into your skull. You spun around, causing the man beside you to stop his tracks as well, but from what you could tell you didn’t recognise anyone.
“You alright?” Tsuzuru asks, sounding slightly concerned at your sudden action. You looked back to face him, before nodding to reassure him.
“Yep! Let’s go find somewhere to sit before you go to work. We still have some time to hang out.”
Neither of you noticed the two people staring at you from inside the cafe.
“Oi oi, ain’t that Tsuzuru?”
“Haa… looks like we’ve seen something we shouldn’t have?”
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Finally sat at a park bench, you found yourself a little bit more conscious of how touchy you were being a while ago. Sure, holding onto his arm here and there when people could see was fine, but if he wasn’t okay with it you had to apologise.
“Sorry, was I too much a while ago?” He sipped onto his drink for a moment, before shaking his head. He looked slightly exasperated, but it didn’t seem to be directed at you.
“Was that your ex? He was kind of annoying.” You chuckled.
“Yeah, but like way back in high school so I’m not pressed or anything. Broke up through text, had the audacity to use text abbreviations plus send a heart emote with his message. Character limit, I guess.”
Tsuzuru’s expression twisted, and you couldn’t tell if what he felt was wry amusement or disgust. Both, perhaps? “That ain’t it, chief. He’s either an insensitive jerk or an, uh… insensitive eccentric… you’re really okay?”
Rolling your eyes, you brought back your hand to his arm to squeeze it to put him at ease. “Obviously! Tsuzuru, you and me, we make a great pair! Plus, your ad-lib totally shook him! Simple but effective, it was a nice touch.”
Just as Tsuzuru was getting used to the added weight on his arm, the pressure lightened up once again. You one-sidedly clink your cups together before you resumed drinking the beverage, “we should do this again sometime.”
Which part?
The two of you always went out to redeem promos and discounts anyway, that much was a given, so did you mean something else?
“Yeah, we should.”
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He did not expect to be confronted within a minute of coming back to the dorm. Itaru, Kazunari, Banri, Omi, and Tsumugi all simultaneously looked at him upon his entrance in the living room.
“Good evening?” He greeted them, albeit a little awkwardly. Is he missing out on something? Were they playing some kind of mind fuck prank or psychology game?
“We were just talking about you,” Tsumugi started before quickly retracting his statement, “ah, wait, that sounded kind of weird right? What we’re trying to say is-”
“Tsuzuroon, I totes get why you never wanna go to mixers!” Kazunari interrupted, adding onto Tsuzuru’s confusion.
“Didn’t know you had it in ya,” Banri continues, “when we saw ya outside the cafe a while ago-“
Oh, ohhhhh. That’s what they meant?
For a moment, he feels a smidge of relief from figuring out what he was missing out on, until his stomach plummeted once more. Oh, fuck, that meant at least Banri and some other guy saw him, with you. With your hand dangling on his arm, your arm around his waist, your face pressed up against his shoulder-
He can feel his face start to heat up, though he’s not sure if it’s more getting caught or more recollecting what happened a while ago.
“Can’t believe you’re dating someone now, GJ.” Itaru says with his shit-eating grin, before looking back down towards his phone.
He should really be clearing up the misunderstanding. It was simple- the two of you were just friends, you went together to redeem a promo, that was it.
“Hey, that’s not-“
“Is it someone from Yosei?” Omi interjects, looking a little bit thoughtful as he tried guessing who it could be, “Hmm… the one you’re with a lot, right? What was their name again?”
He prays to the first deity he could think of, which was for naught because Tsuzuru’s ears perk up as soon as the photographer says your first name. At a loss for words for how fast your identity was revealed, Omi’s chuckles get echoed by the other boys.
He didn’t get to deny it. He wouldn’t be surprised if by tomorrow morning, everyone thought the two of you were a thing.
Tsuzuru thinks this should be more of a pain to him, but he can’t will it in himself to be bothered by the assumption they have on his relationship. If for a little while he could avoid Kazunari wanting to bring him to mixers, he could consider this an advantage.
When your phone alarm rings you jolt up from your bed, panicking slightly until you realise that you didn’t have class today. Lazily stretching to grab your phone, you notice a text from Tsuzuru.
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“Pfft, can’t believe I influenced him this much, lol.” You muttered, setting down your phone to make breakfast.
It’s not until you enter the kitchen that you realise you were smiling the whole time.
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Other than a few knowing looks from Omi and a curious gaze here and there from the purple-haired one (you’ve come to learn his name was Juza), nothing really changed between the two of you.
Until Tsuzuru gets hit by the familiar sight of you rushing towards the table he was situated at. Your eyes weren’t brimming with excitement, no visible smile, so he braced himself for what you had to tell him.
“I need a favour. You can refuse if you want, but you’d actually be saving my life so hear me out please,” as if to put further emphasis on your current predicament you placed your hands atop of his.
“Go on,” he urged you.
“Not to be a fanfiction trope, but I need you to be my date at my old homeroom teacher’s wedding,” you groaned, “that my ex is also attending.”
Tsuzuru didn’t know if he should comfort you or laugh at the situation, “and you need me to go because-“
“Because,” you interjected, “that dumbass asked the group chat if he could bring a date, then encouraged me to bring my date too. Then my competitive dumbass was all like, yeah we’ll see you there!”
You hid your face with your arms, resting your head on the table. “Tsuzuruuuu, I messed up huhu. I only wanted to go for the reception, what am I doing with my life, I didn’t even like that teacher so why did I accept?” you whined.
Fake dating to redeem promos was one thing, pretending to be a couple in front of your old classmates is another thing, pretending to be a couple while attending a wedding is another spectrum of things.
“When is it?” You raised your head to respond.
“Next Sunday, 10 am. Reception at noon, probably.”
He’s not too sure why he keeps going along with your whims. It could be because you’re a dear friend to him, or he doesn’t mind all that much whenever you’d drag him along to fake-date to get sweet deals hang-out, but he can’t deny that being with you is a nice feeling lowers his stress levels.
“I’ll be your date,” Your eyes immediately snap up to meet his, still traces of hesitance on your face.
“I could totally just make up an excuse on why you or both of us can’t go, are you sure?”
Nodding his head, Tsuzuru was soothed by your usual, bright smile- spectacular to the point that it made him think of the rainbows that came after spring showers. He felt the corners of his lips being tugged upwards; before he could calm himself you wrapped your arms around him, a spontaneous and affectionate embrace.
“Thank you, thank you! Gosh, I love you!” You squealed, and his plan to calm himself down failed ultimately. He was glad your face was buried against his chest right now, at least you wouldn’t be able to see the rising flush on his face; then again, you probably could detect how his heart writhed and thumped.
“What colour are you wearing?” He finally asked, refusing to acknowledge the slight displeasure as you let him escape your caged arms.
“Green or teal, maybe.”
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“We’re in your room exactly why again?” You propped your hands on your hips, giving him a look that said really, now.
“We need to practice touching each- okay, wait let me rephrase, ugh…” trailing off, you sat yourself down on your bed as you covering your face with a pillow, your voice coming out muffled, “casual touching.”
“Don’t we already touch each other?” Lowering your pillow to peek at Tsuzuru, he turned away from you in apparent embarrassment, “you know what I mean!”
Tension was building up in the room, much to your chagrin. Tsuzuru had a point. Even though you initiated affection pretty much all the time, the two of you already had a bunch of pre-planned poses to convince people that you were dating.
“I guess I just wanted to do more…” it was hard for you to admit that to yourself, much more out loud, but it was the truth. You didn’t have any grounds to ask more of him, but selfishly you wanted him to reciprocate your affection.
You could swear up and down that it was just you craving affection, but the truth of the matter was that it was his affection you wanted-  you craved being physically and emotionally close to him.
The line you drew was getting blurry. You didn’t want to ruin anything.
The weight on the bed shifted.
“Hey,” Tsuzuru looped an arm around your waist, gently petting the top of your head, “don’t overthink this. Just be natural, whatever you do I’ll go along with and vice versa. This is just the same as all the other times.”
It didn’t feel like it.
“Thank you,” you replied, releasing the pillow from your death grip and lightly hugging it instead, “I was overthinking it. Can you stay for a while, or do you have to go? I feel like watching Whisper of the Heart.”
Tsuzuru scoffed lightly, “We watched that last time. Laputa: Castle in the Sky or nothing.”
With a laugh you shoved your pillow at Tsuzuru, standing up from the bed. “I’ll get some snacks, brb.”
As soon as you exited the room Tsuzuru buried his face against the fluffy cushion, letting out a noise between ardour and agony. This was just method acting, they’ve done this before. No need to get all worked up about it.
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As luck would have it, you and Tsuzuru immediately ran into a bunch of your old classmates.
“Ne? Is this your boyfriend?” One of the girls asked, giving him a quick glance, “your outfit matches his eyes! Love it~”
Tsuzuru coughed lightly.
“Shh, I was waiting for him to notice!” You giggled, looking into Tsuzuru’s eyes before looking away within a few seconds, “his eyes are really beautiful, I doubt I could ever do them justice.”
“Hey, don’t say that,” Tsuzuru swoops in, curling an arm around your waist, “you look really lovely today.”
“Tsuzuru,” you murmured, heart hammering a little faster, wondering if he was being as truthful as you were.
In the eyes of the girls in front of you, they were looking at two bashful lovers, and they were eating it all up.
“Wah! I wish I could get a boyfriend as sweet as him!” With a pout, you situated yourself to stand a little closer to your date.
“Well don’t get any ideas, he’s mine~” you teased them, laughing along with the rest of the group.
When the vows of the couple began, you found yourself sniffling.
“I thought you didn’t like that teacher,” Tsuzuru whispered jokingly, but he reached out to hold your hand for comfort, brushing his thumb against your knuckles.
You ignored him, actively listening to the bride’s speech.
“Falling in love with you was like entering a house and finally realising I'm home. When you smile at me, I feel the glow of the sun against my skin. When your eyes are locked on mine, it's like I can see countless of stars instead of just pupils. Having you in my life makes me feel like everything's possible in this world, we simply work together. With you, I’ve discovered so many things, things I’ve come to treasure, but the best discovery of all was love.”
Eyes stuck on the scene in front of you, you failed to notice the look of longing from the man beside you. It was as if the words uttered all applied to you, and yet somehow the words he could write about you wouldn’t be enough to express what he felt.
He settles on retrieving his handkerchief from his pocket and gently dabbing it around your eyes.
The whole reception was a bliss that came and went too fast for your liking. There was the plus that your ex miraculously couldn’t attend the reception, as well as the chef’s kiss worthy buffet, but you owed it all to Tsuzuru.
It was the same feeling for Tsuzuru, who didn’t feel awkward or out of place the whole time with you by his side. He kept looking forward to the next thing you would do, regardless if people were even watching the two of you or not.
When you let him feed you a slice of cake.
When he used his thumb to wipe off the crumbs near your lips.
When you rest your head against his shoulder.
When he cheered for you even with an unsuccessful bouquet toss.
Nothing felt faked today.
After saying your goodbyes to everyone, the two of you headed home hand-in-hand in silence. Every time you took a glance at the man beside you, so much feelings burst from within, but words themselves could not escape.
Stopping outside your apartment, you let go of one hand.
“Thank you for today,” you whisper, cupping his face to kiss him right where the corner of his lips ended, barely missing them. Tuning out every noise but yourselves, you heard his breath hitch.
“Are… are we still pretending?” Tsuzuru waited with bated breath for your response.
Mustering up all your courage, you shake your head. “I’m not. Are you?”
Squeezing your hand, he pressed his forehead against yours, “I’m not either,” he said quietly, before softly pressing his lips against yours.
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saoirseann · 5 years
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Bookly - Read more
Bookly is a relatively new app (or so it seems) but it was actually created in 2016 with the original name Bookout. It’s an app which helps you track your books, read more and also improve your reading over time. You can scan books (similar to Goodreads) or you can search for them online to add them to the app.
Bookly lets you add goals and in order to get people to read more or to be better focused when reading, they set achievements through which you can then unlock in the future the more you use the app. 
I like the name for this app and coincidentally it was a similar name I reached when brainstorming for my brand name through combining reading and endlessly together to make Readsly.
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acetechne · 7 years
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How do you adapt colour palettes to specific characters? Like drawing a character in a colour pallet other thain their own? Idk how and it makes me angry.
are you talking about colour palette challenges i’ve done? where it’s a random palette? the trick is you gotta stop thinking in terms of ‘his hair is red’ and ‘his eyes are green’, start thinking in terms of ‘his hair is medium’ and ‘his eyes are light’. Colours are a lot more versatile than they seem at first, and that whole debacle about the friggin ‘blue/white or black/gold dress is a great example of that. Things change colours in different lights and when they’re next to other colours, and can even look different from person to person!
It’s not easy to wrap your head around and I still have trouble with it, but that’s why colour palette challenges are a great exercise in combining colours and also training in hue/saturation and why I like doing them so much. 
so let’s do an example with ed because i draw him a lot: 
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This is what I’m gonna call “Accurate Colours”. I tried to keep it simple but this is the sort of colour scheme I use for ed in simple comics where there’s not a ton of dramatic lighting or anything and even then i still kind of use it as a base. His hair is brown, his eyes are hazel, and city hall behind him is painted with roughly “correct” colours- at least for a late morning/early afternoon as it looked when I was there today. So let’s say we want a random colour palette that kind of has a summery mood (i gave him an ice cream because we’re having a heatwave right now rip)
Here’s a random palette off colourlovers that has the sort of mood I might like to convey, you might notice it has a lot of contrasting colours and that’s part of the reason I chose it. 
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The trick is to stop thinking in terms of “that brown on the left has to be his hair and eyes because it is brown” or “that dark blue has to be the water because water is blue”. Instead of “has to”, think “can”. The trick I use with colour palettes if I’m having a lot of trouble is to desaturate them and order them from light to dark- I can show you this visually although I’m more or less at the point that my brain can do this automatically for me from practice.
Take a look at the greyscale version:
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This is a bit tricky because the palette doesn’t have the same range of tones as my drawing- it’s going to change the mood and the contrast but it’s not impossible!
Here’s a version where I basically went from light to dark and tried to replace the lightest colour with the lightest colour on the palette and so on:
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these might not have been decisions I would have made if i was colouring it from scratch, but it’s not too terrible. It’s also (coincidentally) got a couple colours (like the blue of the pyramid and of the sky and water) that match the original quite well. However, there are some problems I have: the trees have almost no contrast with the sky and parts of the building, and what was supposed to be fountain spray kind of look like creepy misshapen hands emerging from the void. Sometimes you have to use your own judgement in addition to this simple method- try different colour combos and see what looks good next to each other!
Here’s a new version where I took what I liked from the version above and tried some other things to make it more visually interesting
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I usually pick one colour at a time and try to place that colour all over the image to make it visually interesting- I did the hot pink last because it was the most ‘popping’ colour to me so in this atmosphere I didn’t want to overuse it- you can do the same thing with any of the colours you like depending on what mood you are going for! but look closely- isn’t it interesting how this pale red kind of looks brown in this combination and the blue sort of “echoes” the green in the original? No idea why that is- opposites on the colour wheel maybe- but cool.
There’s still something I’m bothered about with colours that are too close together- so in that case in a simple drawing like this, some patterns won’t go amiss! Here’s my final version:
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As you can see I ended up changing some things, and colour combinations i was originally unsure of (like the orange in the fountain) look a bit more interesting and textured with different amounts and drawings. You can see I added a couple things and changed some colours around as I was working, and that’s totally ok too. I feel like if I wanted to make this a nightime scene, I could have used either dark blue or pink for the sky and orange for the water, for example, and the mood would have been very different even with the same colours- a bit more romantic or quiet. But you never think “oh man that guy’s hair is blue is he an alien’ because it’s obviously a limited palette and he matches the environment.
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(oops i left white on this image i didn’t mean to do that but since the lines are black nothing’s stopping me from adding white either)
You can also try having warm and cool colours split up between different sections, like foreground and background as I did here:
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The principle is the same if you’re just doing a colour palette of a character without an environment, but if you pay attention to textures and shading or how flat colours behave next to each other, you can get a lot of different moods and effects without it ever looking like an “accurate” palette. If you mess up the hues too much…
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Notice something? this is a fine colour combo- the skin is a great midtone even though no human usually has blue skin- but because his hair is light it’s giving the impression that this is a guy who is either an alien or at least is a different character who has tanned skin and bleached hair- the super sonic recolour of ed but not ed xD (it doesn’t help that I haven’t coloured the background to match him to his environment out of laziness) but we can fix that a little:
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You can still use orange in his hair without making him look blonde and a simple colour swap of the eyes to make them darker than his skin makes it work better. As you can see, there are nearly infinite combinations and if something is not working it probably is one or two colours just “out of sync” with the others. This is also why having a simple design with only a few colours is effective- it’s easier to remember how to draw and it’s easier to ‘translate’ into a different palette! (and if you’re working traditionally you can easily blend colours too… just sayin). 
If you need a good starting point before diving into crazy colours, try a monochrome palette as a first challenge and only paint in different shades of one colour, or even different saturations could be interesting if they’re not too close together. 
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So yeah, I hope that answers your question a little and you can sort of start training your brain to think in different ways. Experiment! Make mistakes! Do weird or bad combos on purpose! Have fun!! Paint with the moods and emotions, not with the “correct” colours. :)
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mannapolis · 5 years
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17 January 2019
00:21
I just realized something... perhaps you have noticed it but I haven't. The way I placed those two pictures on your board. The demonic ”it” on MY side whereas Wonder Woman was on yours... I am the darkness and you are the light.   I don't know what meaning could be assigned to it. Perhaps my identification with the oppressors. Perhaps the black veil of silence that I have put on that experience. Perhaps my shame and guilt that have pushed me away from the sunlight that shines only on good people. I feel guilty about what happened. I provoked it with my ostentatious promiscuity and the lack of self respect so deep that it annihilated my instinct of self-preservation. I HAD BEEN a victim before ”it” happened. I had been a victim searching for oppressors! I asked myself a few times in these last few weeks if it's possible that I had been molested as a child but I have no recollection of any sexual abuse in my childhood. I think my victimhood is my family heritage and the heritage of the culture in which I was raised, the culture in which the ONLY truly respectable woman is Saint Mary, mother of Jesus because she (for all I know about her story) never had an actual intercourse and despite being a mother kept her virginity. I know that my mother had been raised by an aggressive and abusive alcoholic and his hard-working wife who had been submitted to various forms of violence and who had never stood up to her oppressor. I was simply neglected and as a result I came to believe that my life had little or no value.
06:53
Here I am again at 5 a.m. I can't fall back asleep. I feel anxious but not panicked. My stomach feels a little different, less knotted. And my breath a little deeper and my heart is not pounding so hard. I've been WONDERING about the paradox of being afraid of you and trusting you at the same time. Maybe it is the result of what happened the last time I trusted a therapist. I was never afraid of him, not until much, much later. My ”therapy” with him didn't last long. I contacted him to complain about the way my group therapist told me to ”go away” when I was totally under the transference spell. He was older than my group therapist and was also his superior which altogether created a sense of his greater power and authority but his attitude was such of a compassionate father. He was excellent at ”softening” people. I immediately projected all my transference feelings of love, admiration and trust onto him with a new hope for reciprocation. We've had about five sessions in irregular distances of time. He was very warm and accepting during sessions but there was completely no scheme for that process. It was pure improvisation without any mention of rules, contract, regularity, goals. Those sessions, as I see it now, were serving him as his narcissistic ego booster and had no particular aim to my benefit. He was almost always late and once didn't appear at all but called to cancel for some very important reason. I did feel frustrated and I did think it wasn't right but there was really no higher authority to complain about it. Plus, I was already too involved and too determined to win his love through seduction. When I ”succeeded” less than two months after our first meeting I was absolutely thrilled. I thought I finally was admitted to heaven where I would indulge myself in ideal parental love until death do us part. I wasn't truly attracted to him physically but I was attracted to the fantasy of seducing this paternal figure and symbolically crossing the boundary of taboo. I was in my very early thirties with my procreational instincts at their top. I remember sharing with him my fantasy about the rain of semen. My childish rationality concluded that combining these two desires - the desire for a child and the desire for a loving parent - in ”one go” was a great solution. And so I did. Wow, I just realized that I had contacted him at about the same time of year as I contacted you. It was somewhere between September and October. And I also just realized that both my children were conceived some time in December... I also thought that the paradox of my trust and mistrust is generated by the fact that the more I trust you (which I do because you give me caring attention and the sense of security through our regular sessions), the more dependent, vulnerable and subordinate I become. And I have quite a lot of negative associations with trust and dependance. It's ok to be cautious (I wish I had adopted that belief long time ago) but I don't want to be afraid of you. There is a difference between being cautious/prudent and fearful. I want to be prudent but I don't want to be fearful.
08:13
My wake up mantra: Never gonna give you up Never gonna let you down Never gonna run around and desert you Never gonna make you cry Never gonna say goodbye Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
Spoken to myself
08:29
Precisely what I needed 😁 I love YouTube. And I love you 😉 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=814A3eKthj0&feature=share
[Helplessness, Suffering, and The Power to Overcome]  
10:29
My mother! I think laughter is the best protection I can use against her compulsive need to control, discipline (despite the fact that I'm 42 years old), criticize, lament, worry, blame, disapprove, deprecate, attack, berate, judge, lecture, ostracize, dictate, subjugate, domineer, INTIMIDATE... This is the dark side of my mom 😄 No wonder I grew up to be what I am - a loser 😞 She came here yesterday for her doctor's appointment and during her visit in her/my (?) place, I was told that: I'm too old to do handstands, that it is dangerous and I can break my arms, head or even spine; that I probably have anemia and that I should go to the doctor as soon as possible; that it is cold outside and I shouldn't go out without a hat, that my complexion looks unhealthy and I should use a different face cream, perhaps the same as she does; and that I should get a haircut according to my mother's precise guidelines... She doesn't know that I continue seeing you. I no longer feel the need to share that information with her. I feel the need to be compassionate towards her. She's never had an opportunity to meet her Dr Canapini…
11:30
Last night I made a realization as I was indulging in a fantasy about me and ”you”. As you can see the word ”you” is in quotation marks because I realized that it was not you that I was fantasizing about but an imaginary ideal to whom you just lend your physical features. I felt so clearly the pleasure of this idealized intimacy which was an arousing factor of this fantasy. It wasn't about you. It was about the IDEA of absolute love, devotion and intimacy. It was a soothing fantasy and for the first time I didn't feel this painful urge to make it real 😊
12:05
Which absolutely doesn't mean that I am free of the desire to seduce you because the ideal which you embody in my narrowed perception is so compelling... It is all I ever wanted. Perhaps, it is what we all ever wanted.
I wonder if I will ever be able to look at a man, find him appealing and not fall into this trap of idealization.
I am laughing at myself now because I just remembered my side note about the author of Wonder Woman's lasso of truth. In case it didn't occur to you, I was vaguely suggesting that I am ready to share you... I'm laughing to cover my embarrassment. I know you are not there to judge me but it is embarrassing nonetheless.
But I do find interesting the unconventional love triangle that William, Elisabeth and Olive created and maintained throughout their whole lives. Elisabeth and Olive even named their daughters after one another. I imagine them living as a big happy family with lots of love, respect and laughter.
14:34
I should be replying to those inquiries about English lessons but instead I'm reading about erotic countertransference. I've discovered it is very gratifying to read about this phenomenon while thinking about you and me. I am still here, desperately needing you to reciprocate my feelings. I suppose this state will eventually find its natural resolution which will allow me to unlock new achievement in the game called ”adulthood” 😅 But until I get there, I will be using ”you” to please myself. It's incredible how within four months from  a complete stranger you have become so dear to me. Actually, upon reflection, I see it is not so incredible. You just filled the void that was in the centre of who I am. My whole personality was built around this void. Perhaps most of my life choices and decisions were driven by the desire to fill this void. I wonder how long will I need to become satisfied. Is it possible?...
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”It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.” Henry David Thoreau
17:08
This purely “coincidental” choice of characters and their eyes colour. Makes me WONDER…
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19:00
”One man's bullshit is another man's belief system” 
Never believe. Always wonder.
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About two weeks ago I think, I asked rather rhetorically: what are we doing here (meaning your office)? Recently I've come up with the idea that we are updating my operating system because the old one was really obsolete. 
Have you heard about the theory of positive disintegration created by Polish psychiatrist and psychologist Kazimierz Dąbrowski? It is really fascinating. According to this theory: ”[...] psychological tension and anxiety is necessary for growth. These "disintegrative" processes are therefore seen as "positive", whereas people who fail to go through positive disintegration may remain for their entire lives in a state of "primary integration", lacking true individuality. Advancing into disintegration and into the higher levels of development is predicated on having developmental potential, including overexcitabilities, above-average reactions to stimuli.”
It's just a theory but I find it very compelling. It has this vague narcissistic appeal - higher levels of development accessible only to the chosen 😄 But on a serious note, it gives hope in the hour of darkness. I have arrived at the dark side of my soul and such ideas bring me some light.
On the 23rd of August last year I woke up with this vision in my mind.
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And I wrote this on the same day . Now, as I read it I think it had a potential for spiritual awakening but the void... The void that has always been holding my head in its grip and forcing me to look at it saying: See? Look! Look at this. See? There's a hole right in the middle of your heart. Don't you ever turn your head away from it. This hole is your core. You are empty at the core. 
I am this black hole sucking everything in but never filling up.
Buddha was absolutely right. Desire is the source of all suffering.
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Another ichiruki fic because I'm literal trash
Title: Roses by another name Fandom: Bleach Rating: T+ Characters: [Ichigo K. Rukia K] Summary: "You're something." A boy, a girl and a stab wound. There are better love stories, but this is theirs. Link
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Roses by another other
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Rukia has no time for normal.
She's inherited a shady family empire upon her graduation from boarding school, and her stoic older brother pulls no punches about the reality of it. It's something she appreciates after so many years of being in the dark about how exactly the Kuchiki name stayed so prominent over the years.
So she studies under a name that isn't Kuchiki and she does everything in her power to lay low – to learn what she can about what she needs to – the dog eat dog world of finance, business and politics; something that surprisingly her fancypants All Girls Boarding School for Scheming Rich Girls did not cover. Until she's ready, until she can be the heir and right hand her brother needs her to be.
She has no time for normal things like making friends or falling in love, but inevitably, both happen.
Rangiku is a pain in the ass, but she's Rukia's pain in the ass. And honestly, the rowdiness of the Rukongai apartment complex just off West campus was a definite culture shock to what she was used to, something her brother showed little sympathy for (the bastard). Yet somehow Rangiku kept a strange, almost refined control of the chaos in the building. As for Ise, she really is the only sane one besides Rukia herself, and what else was Rukia supposed to do when she found out that Ise was in almost all her classes at the university anyway?
As for the love part, that's a bit more complicated because Rukia had relied almost entirely on her lack of sex appeal and her too-good-for-you nose-in-the-air act that her fancypants All Girls Boarding School for Scheming Rich Girls did cover which would usually deter normal guys.
Unfortunately, Kurosaki Ichigo was not a normal guy.
The first time they meet is definitely no fairytale. Not by a longshot. He doesn't pull up in some horse drawn carriage, and she isn't decked out in some enchanted dress.
In fact, he was bleeding on the floor behind the Starbucks a block away from the Rukongai, and she was wearing sweatpants that she wasn't sure were clean, a shirt that had several holes in it around the one armpit, yesterday's makeup, and an Americano she didn't want but needed because mid-terms are coming and Jesus, why does it feel like she didn't know anything after half a year –
And her response to finding him there – looking valiantly like he wasn't in pain and holding his bleeding side with an equally bloody hand, was, "I thought I looked like hell."
She really was charming; she got it from her brother. (Seriously.) But to her credit, Bleeding Guy's reply wasn't any better: "You're fucking loud, you know that?"
"I'm sorry, I wasn't aware indoor voices were required in back alleys," she sarcastically replied.
He snorted, and she backtracked on the bitchiness because dude is bleeding, and asked, "Do you need help?"
Huffing through his nose, jaw clenched and eyes narrowed in suspicion, she can practically hear his refusal ringing around in his head, and she really can't wait for him to land on a figure for the probability of him dying here as opposed to accepting the help of some strange girl he met behind a Starbucks so she stooped down to his level and offered a hand. "No hospitals, I'm guessing?"
His eyes are amber, and they glint like a cat's, and she should be concerned and wary and run away right now because – you shouldn't talk to strangers, least of all strangers you meet bleeding in alleys – but her instincts are top notch, and there'd be no harm in being a good Samaritan. She added, waving her offered hand impatiently, "Hurry up, my coffee's getting cold."
"Why are you helping me; I could be a serial killer for all you know."
She considered him for all of four seconds before she shrugged. "Maybe, but what are the chances we're both serial killers?"
And that's the line that gets him because two minutes later, he has his arm over her shoulders and her arm around his waist supporting him as they hobble towards her apartment.
It being four in the afternoon, the Rukongai was unusually quiet.
Everyone was still nursing hangovers from Rangiku's latest party which coincidentally coincided with Rukia visiting her brother in the city, and the aftereffects just happening to result in a quiet environment for her to study upon her return. (Rukia couldn't help but chuckle at Rangiku's incessant winks and nudges of "Get it?" when she told her of the initial plan, and lamenting how, "You won't be there to see the fun part, but you'll thank me, you'll see.")
The apartment is mercifully clean when they enter, though small and sparse of anything to give Bleeding Guy too much of an idea about who she was, even as she dumps him on the couch and goes to the kitchenette to grab the First Aid kit.
His hair is bright and juvenile, and that's what she focuses on instead of all the blood and – "Don't worry, most of it isn't mine."
Her hands shake a little, but her fancypants All Girls Boarding School for Scheming Rich Girls were filled with people who talked a load of shit just to get a reaction. Maintaining a neutral expression, she asked, "Who the hell did you piss off?"
He bared his teeth, caught between a grimace and a grin. "You should see the other guy."
He looked so weirdly proud that it was her turn to snort. "You're such a cliché."
"And you," he began, gaze only flickering briefly into hers, but making her feel exposed all the same, "are something."
She found out a few hours after he left that Rangiku, half dead herself by her own doing, still knew everything that went on in the building and – "I did not K.O everyone for you to get laid," she scolded. "Not that I wouldn't, but I like to know in advance, you know; full disclosure, total honesty."
"There's nothing to be honest about, I didn't get laid."
"Obviously," the busty woman waved off, "you're way too grouchy and confused. What's going on?"
"Nothing," she lied, and at least that was something she was good at, but Rangiku was annoyingly persistent.
"Then who was that guy?"
Drying the coffee cups that they had used after she had cleaned up the stab wound that had grazed his rib (grazed! he really hadn't been lying that the majority of the blood wasn't his) and putting it back in the cupboard, right next to the First Aid kit she needed to restock. "I assume you know him."
"I do, but I want to hear the words from you."
"I found him in an alley, he was hurt, I thought he could use some help."
Shaking her head with a laugh, Rangiku amended, "So you took him in like a stray kitten?"
"Not exactly."
"Trust me, hun," she said, patting her arm, "He doesn't need the help. I'm sure one of his men would have come and gotten him."
"What?"
Her jaw hung slightly ajar at the admission, and because she had a flare for the dramatics, Rangiku's hands flew up to frame her cheeks. "Oh, so you really don't know him?" At her silence, her companion declared, "You're so dense! Everyone knows him, Kurosaki, ring any bells?" Her blank look answered the question, and with a long-suffering sigh, Rangiku tried again, "How about Shiba?"
Rukia's eyes widened. "Like, the crime family, Shiba?"
"The one and only," she said with some pride. "Word is that Ichigo's extending territory, making the old guys around here antsy, you know how it is."
She did, her family was one of those old guys, and she bit back a curse. That was exactly what she didn't have time for, and she resolved to stick to the plan – stay low and out of the way. Any interaction with Kurosaki Ichigo would just be an inconvenience, something he apparently loved being because three days later, he showed up in her class.
Everyone noticed, of course, because apparently people have been noticing him for ages and she's been laying so low the only thing she'd been seeing were the words in her textbooks.
Ise was filled with warning after, as they sit across from one another in the library, "He's looking at you."
"And what do you want me to do about it?" Rukia demanded; teeth gritted as she repeated the mantra study, study, study even as she could feel his eyes boring into the back of her head.
"You've heard about him, then?"
"I have," she eventually replied.
Her brother had agreed that having her own security detail would be counterintuitive in her quest in being invisible but she knew there were at least one of his men watching her, and so she had gotten him to give her intel on one Kurosaki Ichigo.
Renji had delivered. Everything from surveillance of his dodgy dealings, to fights he was involved in, to businesses that went under or rose to prominence under his control as his influence grew, Rukia felt, for an instant, at a loss of how shady her life actually didn't look compared to his.
Renji had side-eyed her hard.
"You need to tell your brother."
"And what will that do? Make him pull me out of uni?"
"No, but he should know. He could do something."
"Like what?"
"…I don't know."
"What are you going to do?" Ise asked for what felt like the third time that morning.
Sighing in frustration, Rukia asked, brow arching sharply, "Can I do something about it?"
Her companion shrugged, adjusting her glasses on the bridge of her nose. "If you do, I'd love to know. This is a lot more entertainment than I gave you credit for."
She snorted because she expected to be the most boring person ever, that was the plan, and it's going to stay that way. "Whatever it is that he wants he won't get it from me."
"Is that so?"
Ise coughed.
And, though Rukia felt like she was being drained of all the colour in her face and going blood red at the same time, she remained composed because she's Kuchiki Rukia, damn it. She did not survive heiress etiquette classes and her fancypants All Girls Boarding School for Scheming Rich Girls to be sent off-kilter by some boy.
Tilting her head to take him in, one hand in the pocket of his pants and the other rested on the table right beside the textbook she was trying to absorb through osmosis, he was a combination of suave and dangerous.
To his credit, he didn't look like some gang banger. His bright orange hair was about the only thing that screamed delinquent, but the rest of him was all tanned, toned, lean muscle and chiseled jawline. He didn't walk around in baggy pants accented with chains; he's got suit trousers on, for goodness' sake. He wasn't even covered in tattoos. Well, except for the ones on his chest, the outlines of the black bands she can just make out from the buttoned-up white shirt that stretches across his – her eyes widened – Oh my god, no.
"Kurosaki," she greeted, neutrally, if not hastily.
"Rukia."
I didn't tell him my name. She's too invisible to know off hand; she isn't a Kuchiki here and the university has more than a thousand students in this part of the campus alone, and all she can think is Why do you know my name?
"Is there something you want?"
"Matter of fact, I do," he said, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
"Does it have something to do with you eavesdropping on my conversations, or do you just make it a habit to be nosy?"
"I like to know what goes on in my school."
She snorted quietly. "You think awfully big of yourself."
His shrug was nonchalant. "I know what I am, what I'm capable of, and what I want."
"I'm still waiting on what that has to do with me," she remarked, casting aside her pencil and crossing her arms, head tilted just so in an almost mocking acquiescence of acknowledgment, and that smirk of his got bigger.
"You'll see."
And that's what he left her with, and Ise exhaled deeply, muttering, "Jesus" and Rukia can't disagree because what was that?
She still doesn't tell her brother.
Even when Ichigo sat beside her in class, arm propped up on the back of the bench like that cheesy move guys did when they were at the movies except there's nothing really romantic about it – if the half-lidded gaze he sent the other students says anything at all it's that they shouldn't come near them.
Rukia didn't really mind because that's what lying low meant – no connections, no friends – but she also wanted no attention, and Ichigo's reputation demanded it.
"Can you not?" she hissed.
"Do I make you uncomfortable?" Rukia can tell he wanted her to say yes, and give him that validation he wanted that he was the Big Bad Wolf on campus so instead she retorted, "You're more annoying than anything."
He snickered.
At the end of the lecture, he took her books from her and walked her to her next class, and if she wanted to fight about it, she forgets because they end up talking instead:
"The Republic is a load of crap." – He's good at distracting her – She spluttered, "Are you kidding me? It's like the greatest book on leadership ever written, it's still relevant hundreds of years after the fact." – "So is Shakespeare, and the majority of his work consists of dick jokes and sword fights, pun only partially intended." – And she forgets that she has no time for him and the inconvenience he brings because – without fail, she laughs. "Are you actually an idiot or do you have to work at it to convince people you are?" – He rolls his shoulders and smirks again, almost warm, always affectionate. "Depends on the day, depends on the person."
It's a routine she unwittingly gets into, like having coffee with Ise after their study sessions or day drinking wine in her pajamas on her days off with Rangiku as she regales Rukia on her latest escapade. Ichigo with his weird puns and love of Shakespeare and getting so easily ticked off by her to the point where the Big Bad Wolf on campus is pulling his tongue at her and teasing the hell of out her for kicks regardless of whose watching.
He's a friend in a different way that Ise and Rangiku are, Rukia is convinced. And she may not have come here wanting friends, but they're not so bad especially him.
Ichigo with his weirdly gentlemanly like habit of opening doors for her and walking her to class and carrying her books – and so what if he has two noticeably large men following them – him – at a distance or that when their attempts to irritate each other get physical, she never tries to touch him because what if he got in another fight recently and I don't know, and its healing and –
He noticed, of course, he noticed everything.
"Afraid I have cooties or something?"
"I'd be disinfecting myself constantly if that were the case," she retorted before sucking on the straw of her juice box. She'd never had a juice box before she started university, Kuchikis drank out of glasses, and Rukia certainly couldn't picture her older brother drinking out of a box. Ichigo had taken too much pleasure in that fact – that she hadn't tried it before and he was popping her juice box cherry, the nerd.
Swinging her legs from her perch on the railing of the Engineers' Building, the tallest building on campus because – "I like high places." – He huffed. "I hope you aren't thinking of jumping." – She snorted. "If I wanted to kill myself I'd choose something a bit more graceful than ending up like Humpty Dumpty on the sidewalk. Besides, the view's amazing." – "And you wanted to share it with me? I'm honored," he teased, and she almost walked all the way back down just to spite him, but she couldn't because she actually really did want him to see her favorite place.
"Then why is it," he began, suddenly right in front of her, his hands branded on the railing beside her thighs, "you won't touch me?"
Slowly she detached her lips from the straw and flicked his forehead with her index finger. "There. I touched you, satisfied?"
"Not even a little," he murmured, nudging his forehead a little against hers, getting her free hand to grasp at something – least she lose her balance and end up on the pavement– she settled for his hand next to her thigh. "Tell me."
"What's there to tell?" she challenged.
"I'm not the only with secrets."
"You don't have secrets," she retorted, "Everyone knows what you are and what you're capable of."
His agitation beginning to show in the tightening of his jaw as he asked, "So that has something to do with why you won't touch me?"
Rukia hummed, tilting her head so that they were literally nose to nose as she posed, "What if I did touch you…"
"And?"
"And you're hurt," she continued, "like the first day we met. What if I jokingly punch you, and not realize that you broke a rib or something during a fight? What if I touch you, and I hurt you?"
She expected him to snort in amusement as if this little slip of a girl could possibly hurt someone who ran a gang, but he looked to be considering her, eyes intently on hers.
And goddamn it, what was with his eyes? All intense and focused and piercing, and she can feel her blood pressure shoot up, and she demanded against the beating of her heart in her ears, "What?"
"You don't want to hurt me."
"Didn't I just say that?" she asked, rolling her eyes, mentally chanting play it off, play it off, play it off –
"Rukia," he exhaled and her name is like a caress on his tongue, and he was actually smiling as he informed, "you're something."
Snorting unconvincingly, she tried to push him away but did it too quickly that she teetered dangerously on the edge. Fortunately, his reflexes were faster than hers, and he held her to him, arms tight around her body, and her head tucking beneath his chin as she leaned against his chest.
"If it helps," he added, "I don't want to hurt you either."
And yeah, that's the day and the conversation she realized that shit, what have I done?
Friends she can handle; friends, people grow out of all the time, but love? Nonononono –
But whatever it is – was – it ends. Not in the obvious way, he still sits with her, carries her books, teases her relentlessly, but now – now there's a distance. They don't go back to the Engineers' Building.
"Shimizu-san."
Rukia looked up from her lunch, her conversation with Ise about a group project temporarily put on hold at the sound of her fake last name, and the sight of Inoue Orihime.
"Oh, hello Inoue-san," she greeted with a nod. "May I help you?"
The girl is older than Rukia by a year, and they only really have one class together – the one with Ichigo – and they worked together once or twice throughout the year for presentations, but Rukia couldn't claim to know her any more than she would any classmate.
"I just wanted to say that I'm sorry."
"About what?" Rukia asked, genuinely concerned. They had a presentation in two weeks' time, did Inoue mess up somehow because there was still time to fix it –
"About you and Kurosaki-kun," she said.
She and Ise must have looked pretty comical, blinking in unison as Rukia asked lamely, "I'm sorry?"
Inoue nodded. "Yes, I'm sorry you broke up."
Ise made a sound of disbelief, but Inoue wasn't done, "We dated in high school you know, briefly, and we were just kids then and didn't know what we were doing. And I know it's only been a few days, but I hope you don't mind if we give it another try?"
What. What. What. What?
"Huh?"
She made to bow. "Of course, we don't need your permission, but I thought it would be polite to at least let you know, ne?"
Ise's dying. Rukia can see it, and she can feel her blood pressure spike for an entirely different reason to when she's around that orange haired idiot. Luckily Inoue wasn't waiting for a reply and left immediately after, probably to that same class they both shared with him. Fuck.
"Well."
"Don't say anything," Rukia ordered slowly, rubbing her forehead, her lunch forgotten on her lap. "I'm still trying to process." What was that 'we' Inoue had used? If Ichigo really was getting back together with his ex, why was he still spending so much with her? When did he even have the time to –
"So you and Kurosaki, hm?"
"No!" It doesn't matter, I shouldn't care. "Of course not!"
"Sure."
"Well apparently not," Rukia ranted, "we're hypothetically broken up and his ex-girlfriend is getting in there."
"You want to go claim your man?"
"Shut up."
But yeah, she kind of wanted to because love was an inconvenience that affected proper brain function and – her leg was jigging under the table in impatience because she can feel Inoue looking at them, biding her time for the class to end so she can –god, why is she so pissed it isn't like they're a thing –
Her jigging leg came to stop at the pressure of his hand on her knee. "Stop it."
"I can't," she hissed back.
"Why the hell not?"
"I'm irritated," she blurted instead of the lie she had prepared when she inevitably messed up and let him know that Inoue had bothered her with something so stupid, oh my god, what have I become?
For a few minutes as they paused to listen to what remained of the lecture, he asked above the hum of students getting up to leave around them, "Do you wanna to talk about it?"
She can see Inoue moving in for the kill out of the corner of her eye, and with a strained exhale and a message to whatever gods were listening to make this quick, she replied, "You'll see."
He didn't.
Without even lifting his head to acknowledge Inoue, a message on his phone distracting him, he stood. "I got to go, something came up."
Rukia blinked; the warmth of him by her side and the weight of his hand on her knee gone so fast she was left cold. "What? What's happening?"
He managed to throw her a smirk. "Don't worry, it'll be quick. I'll see you later."
Inoue's sunny smile was considerably dimmed as Rukia too stood to follow him out of the lecture hall, his long strides making her practically run to catch up to him in the hallway. "Wait, what? I'm seeing you later?"
"Yeah, don't worry I'll text you," he said, nodding at the two men that followed him about to go ahead, and there's a frantic voice in the back of Rukia's head telling her that something is going down, something dangerous and Ichigo could –
She didn't realize that he had his lips pressed against her hair until she's engulfed by him, his tall frame acting as a buffer between her and the people around them. He wasn't even touching her, really, but Rukia can feel the heat of him sinking into her pores, and she heard herself sigh as he pulled away.
"I'll be back, I promise."
It was two and the morning and she was still waiting on that promise.
Her phone had been fully charged for two of those hours, and she'd been pacing the length of her small apartment for about the same time. She had studied, revised and covered an entire wall in course material, telling herself that she wasn't waiting, she was studying.
When there was a knock at her door, she ignored it, instead glancing at her phone.
Rangiku had been checking up on her periodically for hours so when the knock on the door became more insistent, she called out, "I'm busy Rangiku."
"But I brought food."
That wasn't Rangiku.
Throwing open the door, Ichigo filled the frame – a box of pizza in hand and a bluish bruise on his jawline. "What the hell happened to you?" she demanded, searching his face.
"The line at Donatello's was brutal."
"Don't talk shit, what happened? It's midnight!"
"It's two, actually, but I'm sure you knew that," he said, sliding the box of pizza onto the center table and sliding onto the couch gingerly. "Were you waiting for me?"
"You said you'd text," she defended, before getting right back on the topic at hand because if he thought for one second she would forget –
"I'm part of a gang, I'm sure you know," Ichigo remarked. "This," he gestured, "tends to happen."
"Oh my god," she exhaled. "Are you hurt anywhere else? Bleeding maybe?"
"Nah, I'm starving though." Popping open the box, he added, "I wasn't in the mood to pick out the pineapples this time, hope you don't mind."
Seriously? Was this her life now?
"You give me anxiety," she declared, sitting beside him and resting her head over the back of the couch.
"Were you worried?"
"Don't be a jerk, of course I was."
The ass looked like he was smiling, and she pointed at him. "You better be happy because that pizza is amazing and not because you're taking pleasure in giving me grey hairs."
He raised his free hand in surrender, adding, "I won though." And she sighed, closing her eyes.
They spent a few minutes in silence, Rukia on the cusp of sleep as she heard Ichigo move about her apartment before she felt a considerable weight on her lap. Peeking out between her lashes, she said, "I swear to god, if you put the head of the person you beat on my lap, I will stab you."
"It's my head."
"Knew it felt pretty empty," she noted to his snicker.
"What happened?" she ventured to ask a beat or two later, and he sighed.
"Work, it rarely happens now that things get physical, but my dad had an old score to settle and I wasn't about to let him go alone."
"If you work, why are you studying?"
"Can't run a business without some know-how," he mused, "You would know, wouldn't you?"
She tensed. "You looked me up, Kurosaki?"
"I wouldn't be very smart if I didn't, Kuchiki." To this she was silent, and he added, "Shimizu fits you, in some respects though – clean, pure – bet you never had to do any of the dirty work yourself."
"No," she allowed, exhaling and feeling the tension ease. "I never even knew, not until my parents died and my brother was in charge."
"Both of them?" he asked.
"Yeah, car accident," she recalled, "allegedly."
"Huh," he mused. "My mom was murdered when I was nine on our way home from karate practice so mine was a bit more jarring..."
"It ain't a competition, Kurosaki," she reminded, pinching his nose in retaliation.
He chuckled. "I know." A second later, "I'm sorry about your parents."
"I'm sorry about your mom," she returned.
In unison, they exhaled, and the air was clear. "What happens now?"
"I spoke to your brother."
That was unexpected. "What?"
He shrugged. "Your family is old and traditional as fuck, I figured if you had to date a gang member, the least I could do was be polite about it."
"Who said I wanted to date you?"
"Fine," he declared, and she can practically feel him roll his eyes. "Court you, then."
Making an exaggerated face of disgust, she added, "Ew."
Next thing she knew, he had tugged her down to press his lips against hers, and apparently that was the deal being sealed.
Between their exchange of breaths, he murmured, "You're something, Kuchiki Rukia" and that was better than any declaration of love she could ask for, and it certainly didn't hurt that a second later, he promised, "I'll give you a city" because she was a graduate of a fancypants All Girls Boarding School for Scheming Rich Girls, and spoilt little rich girls loved grand gestures like that.
A/n: Lols, the trash. I'm terrible and I'm not sorry.
This story is also available on wattpad with the same name, but with original characters because, why not?
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GODDAMIT SUEDOU WHY CANT I HATE YOU I still feel practically nothing for this game's plot since it started sliding downhill but WHY did they have to have a funny cute evil grandpa I am such a bad person that I keep enjoying this character:s existence :P HES JUST SO SHAMELESSLY TROLLISH Spent the first half of the game pretending to be a good guy, helped us out, got revealed as a villain, CAME BACK TO HELP US OUT AGAIN What Suedou u slimeball holy shit He's just like 'fuck it imma backstab my villain friends and hang wit u guyz but BTW I totally am still evil' He keeps manipulating both sides to pursue his own abstract goals and he's just so shamelessly honest and cheerful the whole time Tells us thats exactly what he's doing, and manipulates the situation so that we HAVE to let him help us even when we know its a terrible idea And then he trolls us the whole way along Trolls us by BEING A NICE GRANDPA He's so fucking polite even when he's being terrible He's so cheerful He's so 'yay, road trip' And hiding behind us calmly stating 'yeah I'm kinda fragile, you do all the fighting yo' But its like... 'Ha ha ha I'm gonna die :D' He has such a weird personality I can only really sum it up as 'combine Charon from pokemon with henry from fire emblem' And coincidentally his colour scheme and appearance even looks like that :P Goddammit why can't I hate youuuuu
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