#well I am already going to hell

[genericpuff]

vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once” #i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

[starbuck]

can’t wait for them to murder each other :))

#It Has Been Foretold (by the foreshadowing) #LOVE when characters have the option to Simply Say Yes and avoid a bunch of problems but instead they say No #for some stupid reason and it fucks up their entire life as well as their loved ones #it’s the ASBOLUTE best #like. hell yeah! stubborn bastard rights!!!!! #he is going to say No for some dumbass reason that makes no sense and everyone is going to die and i am SO excited #i still have over 100 pages left and i already miss all my lovers so much i’m so SAD #i don’t want to gooooooooo

[tryingforthedelicatehopeofitall]

It's a new day and I still cannot stop thinking about that wesper scene!!!

I am trying to focus and carry on with the day but all I can think about is how in Jesper's nightmare/flashback which was essentially a sweet dream where he got to meet his mom again and she was so proudly telling him how Jesper was a natural and he would turn spoons into rings and coins into keys ... AND THEN JESPER USED A COIN TO MAKE THE KEY FOR WYLAN!!!!

Jesper is actually no longer hiding what makes him special. He is sitting with his lover in his bed and having a heart to heart and doing magical stuff 🥹

*twinkling sounds when Jesper makes the key*

And then the way Jesper is flustered when Wylan thought the key is a coat hook and started overthinking his sweet gesture (he is so me!) 🥺

Wylan saying “that is the kindest thing that anyone has ever done for me.” with his starry eyes filled with surprise, gratitude, hope and perhaps even love (?) 🥹🥹🥹🥹

They are so used to having their armour up but in that moment they are just fearlessly themselves and trusting each other with their vulnerability. I am going to actually cry now :'",,) <3

God I love them and their love so very much!!! 🥺💙💜💖🫶🏼

I wonder if one day Jesper would again turn a spoon into a ring. Only that time it would be the most beautiful ring to ever exist because it's literally crafted with love for someone just as lovely and beautiful 🥹

#jesper fehey #aditi hilli #wylan hendriks #wylan van eck #wesper #six of crows #shadow and bone #shadow and bone deleted scenes #that deleted scene shows how much the crows deserve their own series #we could have episodes dedicated to each of the characters and i would love to learn more about all of them #really hope we get the jesper and inej deleted scene soon as well #unless we get a s3 or spinoff confirmation before that and then that is saved for a flashback scene #netflix please don't fuck up and break hearts again #the year has literally just started and it's already been hell #i need that soc spin-off #the crows cannot leave me so soon #wylan jesper and nina cannot leave me so soon #*big sigh* #i am going to go and press play on my favorite background noise that is shadow and bone s2 again #i adore them all so much

[foxgloveinspace]

How do you save pics from instagram?? Do you HAVE to save them to your story?? Instagram is the only social media I share with my family so I can’t save a pic to my story, but everyone’s sharing that pic of Vessel kneeling in front of two (and a few of the others) but NO ONE is including the last pic on that post and it is BREATHTAKING.

#I am not beating the vessel simp allegations today #not that I ever am but damn it’s been awhile since I’ve felt THIS CRAZY about him lmao #very much so #sleep token #for blacklist #‘why can’t you save pics of sleep token to your story?’ CAUSE THEY ARE ALL MEGA CHRISTIANS AND WILL TELL ME IM GOING TO HELL #well… my mom will my sister already knows how down bad I am for them but she doesn’t KNOW know you know??

[padfootagain]

Can someone tell me why I love stories with a character who thinks they don't deserve the other so much?!?!?!

I don't care if it's OOC, all of my characters are fucking insecure...

#but then again I like characters BECAUSE they are insecure #And I already know the answer to that question #I know that it's because I AM insecure #no need to actually point that to me #anyway #have currently about an hour to write and do you think I would be responsible and write one of the dozens of requests I have #or finish a chapter for a series? #nah #better write a little something I will never post #much much better #am i going to hell for writing about real people? #yes #the answer is obviously yes #but then again i'm queer so according to our dear old Dante I'll be sipping cocktails while listening to duets between Bowie and Freddy #Mercury under a rain of fire anyway #might as well add that to the list

[mechawolfie]

spongebob shoe squeaking sound effect

#smudgy.png #trigun #vash the stampede #my brain refuses to cooperate w me on what to draw so i just went w this fucker #nightow rly went im gonna make this mans outfit more & more difficult to draw w each redesign. anyway *esplodes* #i love to use my tablets sketchpad. its so freeing #trimax #vash the stampy (he stampin him feets) #wheres he goin..? well... mans on his way to get sum pussay!!!!! #(hes going to feed stray cats with nicholas) #(theyre going to have gay sex afterwards) #oh what tha hell its 12 am already⁉️ i gotta get outta here!! *skedaddles* #good night all who its night time for. smiles gently and kindly

[trainingdummyrabbit]

listen, listen. i just think th worst Worst fucking part of being a human in this setting is the constant running theme of "if you weren't Always something, it is already too late." you just have to Already be good at something, just Know to do it, or else its a lost cause and you might as well give up. it just wasnt meant for you. which can range from things as simple as Hobbies and Skills to things as intrinsic as Behaviors and Mindsets.

there is far, far too much permanence in what you start as, in what you lose, in what you can never reach. things that Just Are, and theres no use trying to change it. sometimes even decided by people who arent even effected by the damn thing. whats it to you i didnt break out of the egg knowing how to fly already?

#it could just be a side effect of chronic levels of Not Going Outside but iam currently; as they say; In Hell #its always Be Good Or Die; be some pinnacle of perfection or its not even worth trying-- why bother when theres someone better? #why bother when that role is already taken? #well fuck dude what Role do you even want me in!!!! Dont Answer That. #piktalk #is it just me being blinded again or is life doing a shit job of encouraging Living. am i just going insane. mods.

[mayathescientist]

I don't trust people who are obsessed with cleanliness and personal hygiene and rely on their feelings of disgust to make a moral judgement or form an opinion about a person.

I don't trust people who make conclusions about people very easily and like to claim people with one or two words they use to define this person's place in their eyes.

I don't trust people who are popular, sociable and talk about others a lot. I don't trust people who measure everyone by how that person compares to them.

for no particular reason at all :)

#maya posts #talking to mia #vent post #Almost #I hate my roommates and the way they talk about other people behind their backs and how they treat me with discreet contempt when I'm here #and how they no doubt already talked so much shit about me when I wasn't there considering discussing other people is this favorite pastime #they're also friends with our class leader which no doubt shaped her opinion about me loooool #can't wait to turn into an exile in my uni class too hell yeah #they know nothing about my personality my interests etc and frankly they don't fucking care #as long as they see that I'm fat obviously neurodivergent in my patterns of communication and have poor hygiene and have to build self care #habits from the ground up after years of untreated mental health issues #as long as they see I don't go out as much as them don't have many friends or a boyfriend and don't rly have what's considered achievements #their judgement on me is sealed #and it would be fine if they just thought i was a loser because well socially I am and they think so too #they literally pretend I don't exist. like it's just the two of them living in the room. #all of the decisions are made without me. they cook for themselves I cook for myself. my attempts to even ask if I can move something while #cleaning are IGNORED. #all of my attempts to mend our relationship by giving them awkward gifts or clean the room every other day since I know how obsessed with #cleanliness they are #all of my attempts to make peace were IGNORED. #whenever someone knocks on our door it's always one of their friends looking for them #I'm a nobody #absolutely a nobody #I literally just don't exist. #also these girls are extremely lesbophobic and just bigoted in general I don't think they know anything about my queerness but they might be #just kinda able to tell #I literally wear boxers and flannel shirts and I own a shirt with a male cut and I have extremely short hair and wear exclusively trousers #I don't think they haven't noticed #considering the fact they cared enough to notice how often I was my hands

[carcarrot]

the downside of watching match game for the past week is my new insatiable hunger for 70s clothes

#sitting myself down and telling myself YOU DONT GO OUT ANYWHERE! YOU DONT NEED A LEISURE SUIT!!! #however it is my new years resolution kinda to dress more colorfully and express myself more clothing wise #on the other hand considering i wear a sort of uniform at work and don't normally go anywhere other than that. my options are limited #i need to go on more adventures. #i also wish cool tumblr people/online friends werent all so far away bc THEN i could show up to get coffee looking swag as hell #investing in cool outfits now however just means ill already have cool outfits in the future. but i also am running out of room 😭 #oh well. life is fleeting but great clothes are forever (hopefully)

[newjenns]

dtblr (and associated acts) reblog with the first tags that come up when you type dream, george, sapnap, quackity, and karl

#i’ll go first #and when they were talking about ace race dream was like well … we’ve already tested this one 😏 #hell get over. once he sees george :) #tbf the sapnap one was more vulgar #the same way i am neutral towards like karl quackity foolish etc #spn after karl’s stream most likely ^ ^ #i’m just curious #i realized how much i talk in tags so i wanna see everyone else’s #if this flops i’ll kill everyone here btw

[supercantaloupe]

apparently i'm already halfway done my musicology degree??

#i wanna talk about me #between the course i did in undergrad and the frankly ridiculous number of courses i'm taking this semester #apparently i'm over halfway done already #i know the musicology portion is a smaller load than the library science portion but like #man it was weird walking into my advisor's office and him looking me in the eye and saying like 'oh you're almost done' #three courses is all i have left for a master's. Man #well i'm gonna spread those out over the next year and a half...and probably pick up an extra elective here or there while i can #cause idk man i like studying music history...even if i don't Have to i like taking the classes and learning #(esp if it's gonna be paid for by my fellowship as long as i'm still here) #well i need to figure out. how the hell to get in touch with a library science advisor now. #i emailed yesterday and haven't heard back #but i don't know what i'm doing for that degree going forward rn #other than. i guess taking 552. but i KNOW there's other specialty and elective courses i'll need to take too #and i want to take stock of what shit i'll have to take in summers too cause i know some of the courses are only offered in summer #(need to find out if any of my fellowship scholarship can go towards summer courses. i'm guessing not...) #weird. it's weird. i don't know what i'm doing here #anyway #meeting with my advisor went okay i at least know what i'm doing now re: the music stuff #didn't cry which is good but man i hate how my voice started to break more and more the longer i was in there #and when i talked about how i put too much on my plate this semester and am struggling to keep up with all the work #and he asked me if i've been reaching out to anyone for support. or if i had people to reach out to #and i just had to sit there like. uh #define. support? #i have a couple friends at least that i chat with about stuff like that sometimes but not always cause i don't want to bother them too much #but like. it's not like i can ask someone else to write a research paper For me #or it's not like i can control when my coworkers get sick and i have to cover their time in the office #and this didn't come up at all (and i'm glad for it) but jeez it's not like i can control global political conflicts!! #it's hard for me to focus on getting enough work done in small chunks of time in the best of times #let alone when my fucking hamster brain is on high alert for getting hate crimed in public if my necklace is too visible or something #idk. it's a lot man. i bit off more than i could chew this semester even before the world fell apart

[sysig]

Can love 😍💕💞❤️ bloom 🌻🌼🌹🌷💐 on the 🤜💥 battlefield?? (Patreon)

#Shitpost #My art #Wander Over Yonder #Fist Fighter #Lol #As high-effort as I'm willing to put in to make it appear low-effort <3 #Initially based on my silly little Fist Fighter OC(?) with a crush on Peepers - he's already started to morph a bit #Peepers might be a bit too high a station to pursue - shoot for the stars and all that! #But just by the sheer number of Fist Fighters and Watchdogs there's statistically gotta be one apiece that mesh well #And there's nothing that says he couldn't have a crush on Peepers to start! Kind of an ''Oh shit I guess some Watchdogs are kinda cute'' #Until that slowly congeals into ''Wait no most of the Watchdogs are pretty cute actually.......uh oh'' lol #If he's gonna stick around he needs a name tho hmmm #Kinda tossing around Keith but I'd like to pull up some references to verbally-named Watchdogs first #That's another thing I've been thinking about - from my recollection/what I've seen in rewatching - #It seems like all the Watchdogs have either masculine or unisex names and are shown to be at least visually understood as male #And depending on how Word Of God you wanna go Craig McCracken has confirmed there are female Watchdogs on their home planet but like #There are feminine names /on/ Wander's list for the Giftening 2 but we only see them sneaking onto the Skullship! #Yes those are almost certainly staff-and-loved-ones Easter eggs >:P Do I care? Am I still going to integrate it into my HCs? Take a guess |D #And anyway that's Just the Watchdogs - unfortunately Awesome's force aren't really seen often enough to get names :( #Hell just finding a speaking line of theirs was a rare treat haha ♪ Up until then I almost thought they were mute! #Seems redundant because like - Bring Back WOY first of all of - but more Fist Fighters! They're too cute!

[im-still-a-robot]

My favorite thing about goncharov is that despite being entirely and completely fictional, we are starting to have a full picture of the film, to the point people could actually create scenes if they wanted to

#wacky watermelons #goncharov #should this be tagged unreality? i am not treating it as real but i get that just the mention may be bad? #unreality #might as well? #anyway. i have even seen like. screenplay/script. i didn't read it but it was clearly in that format #i also haven't read the doc but the fact that we're solidifying what we're considering 'canon' is incredibly interesting and funny #like its not a scorsese film. it was not made in 73. but at some point (or already) theres going to enough of a story #that we can genuinely start having conversations about it and the characters. without the made up elements? #which is cool as shit. and also hilarious. and also wack as hell #its the most crowdsourced movie

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

Hi! I've been on Tumblr for a little while and most of the time I've been searching for some interesting AA/TGAA analyses. And I want to say, I really like your opinions in particular! I like your takes on T&T and Iris in particular (she's such a good and underappreciated character), and your Homumiko ship bingo was really revealing and I still haven't recovered from it I don't know if this may be untimely, but I'd like to say it anyways :) have a good day

I saw this right as I got back home from work, and I just. Thank you so much!!!! I'm so glad my ranting and raving about the women I'm in love with has resonated with you, especially the hmmk (aka my Susato propaganda) one. That's lovely. Thank you so much for sending in such a sweet message. I hope you have a great day, too! 💞💘💞❤️💓💗💗💖💞❤️💓💕💖♥️💞❤️

#asks for the notebook #you probably know them extremely well already but may i plug my beloved dearest mutual kate's (aka cornertheculprit) and fandom favourite #trlvsn's blogs for more amazing takes? there are others im missing right now but the aa fandom has so many people analysing characters and #relationships and they're always a pleasure to read. im in botw mipha hell right now which is why i haven't been as insane about iris and #susato here but know this: i am always thinking of them. always. might go insane about susato again soon #anyway!! thank you so much for this ask! you're so lovely 💕💗💞💘💞💕💞💓💞💖❤️💗❤️💖❤️💕💓💖

[arcaneyouth]

i'm starting to think living with 5 other people may simply be a problem

#vent post #negative #i've come to the conclusion i'm not getting enough sugar in my daily meals #(which is. ironic in a lot of ways. but i don't know what else the problem would be) #and that's great that's cool that i've come to this conclusion. i don't think i can solve this one #we don't buy that much sugary or junk food stuff anymore #my dad's got diabetes that makes sense that's understandable #so a lot of our family meals are like rice and meat and a salad #but yknow i'm not really gonna ask my parents to change that! it's been like that for a long time now it's fine it's alright #but i don't think i can actually solve the problem #i. already have a lot of foods that the rest of my family isn't allowed to touch. because i am So Picky #and when they were eating my foods more often i was Starving #i don't. think. i can ask for more. and you know what that's fine! that's fine that's ok i like my meals they're tasty as hell #what about snacks then? can we get snacks for the whole family? well no #we stopped buying more junk foodish snacks because it was All my siblings were eating #and it was bad! it was bad they shouldn't have been doing that. but now i don't think my parents trust us to be responsible with snack food #so our snack foods are. protein bar. fruit snacks (i had to request these specifically). popcorn #that's. that's fine. that's fine maybe i should be focused on fruit instead! fruit is good sugar! #well we don't store fruit i like the way i like it (don't put it in the fridge) so i never eat any of it anymore #but everybody else seems fine with it so really i'm not going to win this argument cause everybody else actually eats it more when it's out #(i don't think this is true. but i think it's true for My Dad and My Mom specifically.) #and i just. it really got me thinking about how much i don't have foods that i like in the house or meals that i love because Somebody Else #likes it done differently and not the way i like it #and that takes priority #to the point where i don't know what the fuck kind of foods i like because we just don't. have. any #i prefer white rice. mom prefers brown so we get brown. i prefer crunchier potatoes. mom prefers them soft so we make them soft #i like my fruits cold. my parents prefer to be able to See the fruits so they stay on the counter. i only eat chicken breast not any other #part of the chicken. my parents prefer thigh meat so we get thigh meat (which i don't eat) #oh huh. this post was a lot longer but tumblr deleted half the tags. yeah that's fair

[coquelicoq]

i have finished the first part (of five) of les misérables! that's the good news. the bad news is that i now have to read the second part, which opens with a 70-page section entitled "waterloo". like babe i do not know what ANY of these nouns are though. i'm getting that there was a battle at which lots of people died horribly (as often happens in battles) and we are now describing the battleground thirty years later. okay so are we gonna do this for the whole 70 pages or...

#i think we're actually about to move on to describing the battle itself possibly beat by beat #so i'm getting ready to see a bunch of VERBS i don't know. never a dull moment! #at one point he hit me with like five unfamiliar nouns in a row but because i know the word for 'well' i'm pretty sure he was #talking about various parts of the well mechanism. words i probably don't even know in english because i've never used a well in my life #i saw 'meurtrières' & was like ok first thought is Women Who Kill. but in context i feel like it has to be some kind of war equipment #apparently it means arrow slits #i just feel like if you're going to take 70 pages to talk about waterloo it's probably for a reason #and i'm probably missing out on the reason because i'm just letting the sentences wash over me because i only half know what they mean #anyway. bad shit happened at waterloo! war is hell! that's my takeaway so far #i am really glad i already knew about the lion statue irl or i would have been so confused by that part lol #i would have been like sooo...is this a metaphor for something? #why would there be a lion on this hill in belgium #but unfortunately that's about the extent of my knowledge of waterloo. other than the fact that napoleon lost lol #les mis #my posts