#waste another years

[wonderlandleighleigh]

Jess and Doula (if there was a headcanon for them)

Or

Luke and Liz

This could work for either:

#liz danes #luke danes #jess mariano #doula #gilmore girls #waste another years

[egophiliac]

some (extremely) quick doodles to celebrate the glorious return of glorious masquerade! I haven't had a chance to do much personal drawing lately, but I didn't want to let it go by without doing something!

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #glorious masquerade #every time they do a rerun event they should make everyone's hats bigger #i feel that this should be true of every game #i think eng might be getting it this year? if so someone PLEASE tell me if they keep the 'be cool' line #the only localization that matters to me #meanwhile aside from foxman and catboy our halloween event this year is shrouded in mystery #i know they want to do a big fancy announcement and i am looking forward to it! #but it is pretty hilarious to look at the schedule and see basically just 'halloween event 2023 - wait for the abema' #look twst i just want to know if i need to save my keys or if i can waste them all in another bid at masquerade malleus #how pretty are the cards going to be. i need to know.

[magellanicclouds]

Personal Journal (Theodore Srivastava, MBBS-MD) / Entry 0864 / 2559-10

>>: The recovered individuals had required extensive medical care on arrival, and a battery of diagnostic testing to understand their biology enough to successfully deliver treatment and establish a safe continuity. Commander Mallah had offered to loan me a few techs from the Xeno lab for consultation. For humans.

Their rate of healing has been extraordinary however, and there's blessedly no signs of preliminary rejection to organ tissue, structural implantation, or soft tissue grafts. Primarily just scattered ecchymosis for two out of the three. It's remarkable. Examination is on-going, several rounds daily, and expected to continue for a series of weeks to establish more reliable trends.

They'll be with us for the duration of course.

There's nowhere else to go.

We've learned that the individuals represent a third generation of Spartans, and their...atypical lab results have been casting long shadows to say the least. More of the UNSC's deeply forbidden secrets are filling our charts in waves and creating a lot of unease regarding this sub-category's uniquely dangerous mutagenic traits. These features are remarkable for organic changes in their brain tissue and gross manipulation of the endocrine system. Even considering the total divorce of human ethics that the Spartan programme already represents, this seems a startling escalation.

What is happening back home to have prompted such a chilling devaluation of human life?

The discomfort amongst my staff is overwhelming their fascination.

It's not yet clear if the Spirit's limited facilities can even maintain the critical needs of these new and terrifying soldiers. What is the margin for error on the consistency of their 'smoother' dosages? How short exactly is the fuse on their hormonal detonators? Could a scuffle in the mess hall lead to a massacre?

They're bracingly young, but noticeably removed from the common traces of youth. The scars between them are enough to trade away for decades of warfare.

Myself and other providers have found their temperament similar to the Spartans of Red Team at least. Polite. Professional. Human certainly, though most of my staff have remarked negatively on their atonal general expression and significant lack in sense of social familiarity.

Truthfully, after the hell they'd undertaken groundside (and surely horrors years before now), I find it callous to hold 'being withdrawn' against them. They do not shy from eye contact, and when one looks back with not the eyes of a provider, but the eyes of a man, it is clear that these Spartans too know fear and sadness and heartbreak.<< //

#post-divine wind #au where mark lives #it's one thing to kill a character - another to waste them #this sketch was from early last year actually #I am not the best writer #but I wanted to give it a little narrative background ' v ' #teddy is now one of two medical ocs - I am collecting them #halo #ash g099 #veta and the ferrets #my writing #my art

[wonder-worker]

I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the death of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

#(the quote is by Richard Woodville in his deathbed will; he was the last of the Woodville brothers to die) #elizabeth woodville #woodvilles #my post #to be clear I am not arguing that the death of an English gentry family name is some kind of giant tragedy (it absolutely the fuck is not) #I'm trying to put it into perspective with regards to what Elizabeth may have felt because we know her family DID feel this way #writing this kinda reminded me of how I am just not fond at all about the way Elizabeth's experiences in 1483-85 are written about #and the way lots so many of the unprecedentedly horrifying aspects are overlooked or treated so casually: #the seizure and murder of two MINOR sons and the illegal execution of another; #her sheer vulnerability in every way compared to all her queenly predecessors; how she was harassed by 'dire threats' for months; #how she had 5 very young daughters with her to look after at the time (Bridget and Katherine were literally 3 and 4 years old); #how unprecedented Richard's treatment of her was: EW was the first queen of england to be officially declared an adulteress; #and the first and ONLY queen to be officially accused of witchcraft #(Joan of Navarre was accused of her treason; she was never explicitly accused of witchcraft on an official level like EW was) #the first crowned queen of england to have her marriage annulled; and the first queen to have her children officially bastardized #what former queens endured through rumors* were turned into horrifying realities for her. #(I'm not trying to downplay the nightmare of that but this was fundamentally on a different level altogether) #nor did Elizabeth get a trial or appeal to the church. like I cannot emphasize this enough: this was not normal for queens #and not normal for depositions. ultimately what Richard did *was* unprecedented #and of course let's not forget that Elizabeth had literally just been unexpectedly widowed like 20 days before everything happened #I really don't feel like any of this is emphasized as much as it should be? #apart from the horrifying death of her sons - but most modern books never call it murder they just write that they 'disappeared' #and emphasize that ACTUALLY we don't know what happened to them (this includes Arlene Okerlund) #rather than allowing her to have that grief (at the very least) #more time is spent dealing with accusations that she was a heartless bitch or inconsistent intriguer for making a deal with Richard instead #it also feels like a waste because there's a lot that can be analyzed about queenship and R3's usurpation if this is ever explored properly #anyway - it's kinda sad that even after Henry won and her daughter became queen EW didn't really get a break #her family kept dying one by one and the Woodville name was extinguished. and she lived to see it #it's kinda heartbreaking - it was such a dramatic rise and such a slow haunting fall #makes for a great story tho

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[non-sims]

“I need a life.” ...

Will they or Won’t they  |  Chrono

PREV / NEXT

RAI: Lulu, Duke. Matt is finally out of the house.

RAI: I know I know, you two are going to miss him, giving you guys extra treats. You didn't think I knew huh.

Lulu & Duke *just staring at Rai*

RAI: …I need a life. Come on, let's go for a walk.

*Duke not moving from his spot*

RAI: Huh? You don't wanna go? Fine, we'll be back soon.

…

[25 minutes later]

RAI: You ready to go back home Lulu? It's hot today.

BRUNO: …Excuse me. 

RAI: Yes- *stunned* Bruno?!

BRUNO: Hey...Rai.

BRUNO: It's been a while hasn't it.

RAI: Yeah…it has.

BRUNO: Is it okay if I sit beside you?

RAI: Yeah, of course.

…

BRUNO: So are you still making music?

RAI: Not as much, but yeah sometimes.

BRUNO: That's good, I would love to hear some.

RAI: ...

BRUNO: You look good by the way, have you been working out?

RAI: I've been playing a little bit of basketball on & off.

*Lulu barking at Rai*

BRUNO: Who is this little pup?

RAI: Lulu.

BRUNO: *petting the dog* Hey there little lulu.

RAI: I got another one back at home too. His name is Duke.

RAI: …

…

BRUNO: You stopped messaging me.

RAI: Life got busy…

BRUNO: Guess you can say the same for me as well.

RAI: You could've told me that, instead of me thinking that you ghosted me. For almost a year.

BRUNO: You also could've done the same.

RAI: *sigh* So that's how we doing this?

…

RAI: What are you doing in the valley.

BRUNO: Finally visiting.

BRUNO: Could we go back to your place and talk more privately.

RAI: *scoffs* Sure, why not. ...

PREV / NEXT

#This is unnecessarily long I'm sorry #and this whole conversation came off tense but I like that #they haven't talked to each other for a year #and haven't seen one another since what maybe 4 years #the tension may be high but the chemistry is still there #Bruno said enough time has been wasted #ALSO if you know or remember the cartoon little lulu you're a real one #ts4 #sims #*will they or won't they #sim:rai #sim:bruno

[silverskye13]

is msh ever getting finished? i got so attached to them…

Hopefully yes. MSH suffered very hard from what RnS is suffering from now: a handful of chapters that, for no good reason, are terribly hard to write. I started and stopped the current chapter of MSH at least 8 times, and will probably do it 8 more times before it stops feeling like an awkward mess.

All that to say I plan on coming back to it, just as soon as it cooperates with me again. In the meantime, here's a snippet of the chapter that'll probably be cut but who knows:

The mist had thinned to a sheer veil by the time they made it to town, collecting in the dips and hollows in the fields like the bustles on a quilt. The sun worked hard to burn it away, but it clung stubbornly to the ground, making the air heavy and leaving dewdrops on every surface in sight. Even the windows of the houses were streaked with damp as though rain had passed over, and the half-clouded sky made the illusion all the more convincing. 

This early in the morning, Haltvale was slow to come to life, but it was. Gardens were being tended, and people walked in pairs or small groups to their errands, rubbing sleep from their eyes and talking quietly. Theirs was the only wagon on the main road, a slow rumbling of solitary and distant thunder, and folks made room for them as though they were a rain cloud passing through. Ren frowned when he noticed it, casting puzzled looks at all the wary glances in their direction. The prickling of eyes watching etched patterns across his spine, and it disturbed him even more when he turned to confront those stares, only the watch as gazes abruptly averted and paces quickened. Doc seemed to sense it too, because he kept his eyes on the road, his expression grave. His normal bright and welcoming greetings were absent, replaced by hunched shoulders and the firm line of his frown. 

"Did something happen?" Ren whispered, biting his lip nervously. "Everyone's on edge."

"Well I don't know, Ren," Doc smiled grimly, "has something happened in the past couple days that might put people on edge?"

Ren winced and rubbed the back of his neck self-consciously. He let the conversation drop just as quickly as it started, the trundle of their wheels on the rutted road filling the silence. At last, Doc pulled them to a stop by the general store and stepped off.

"Alright," Doc said, "you two stay close. I won't be long."

"We won't get carried off by any creatures in town, Doc," Gem said, poking her head up from the back of the wagon. "Besides, I need fabric, and you suck at picking it out."

"Fabric?" Ren asked, raising an eyebrow. "What in the world would you need fabric for?"

"Because someone keeps getting his shirts shredded by some creature in the woods." Gem answered with a narrow-eyed smile, daring him to argue. Ren coughed awkwardly into his hand and suggested: "My favorite color is red."

"You'll get what I get you," Gem sniffed, hopping down from the wagon.

"Am I the only one grounded to the wagon, then?" Ren asked.

"You're not grounded," Doc said, his voice dropping just a hint lower. "I ahm… I don’t want to be in town very long, alright? Meet back at the cart in an hour, two hours tops?"

Ren shrugged, settling back in his seat as comfortably as the wooden bench would allow. “You two have fun.”

“Weren't you just complaining about being grounded?” Gem asked, crossing her arms in feigned indignation.

“Well now that I know I'm not grounded, I'm choosing to stay here and nap while you two go do your errands,” Ren sniffed, pillowing his arms behind his head and reclining in a shaft of weak sunlight that dared to peak out of the clouds. “Go on, shoo.”

#answering asks #anonymous #monsters splitting hairs #kinda jaded about my writing atm sorry anon #im worried the Spring Slump has finally settled in #i dont want to do another haitus this year #it didnt feel good last year and it went on for far too long #i feel like i wasted a lot of time #but theres also not much i can do about it #[disconcerted noises]

[imagine-darksiders]

Smdh can’t believe we all missed Deathember.

#opportunity wasted for another year

[moothecowgirl]

Trying so hard to fight that post Ramadan regret and guilt right now…

#just thinking about all the things I could have done better this Ramadan #and all the opportunities I wasted #AAAAHHH I hate this so much #I missed my chance at the last Ramadan close with my masjid and with rawdawg and rowdy #it won’t be at least another two years before this opportunity could happen again #and even then who knows what will happen in those two years. #🥲🥲🥲

[silversoulstardust]

watching atarashii joushii wa do tennen for the BL but I'm amused at how accurately they portray traumatic work experience

a simple thing could be triggering

and yet it could easily be fixed with a kind gesture from a superior

#ive been working for almost a decade now and ive had a fair share of horrible bosses. so i sympathize with momose #the worst I've gotten was when i was still working under the government. i worked an average 80 hours per week and my boss at the time— #hated me and how vocal i was against his abuse (read: cutting off contract workers and passing the workload on the overworked paramedics) #so he digged out some shit on me from a year before (read: went on vacation outside the country without notifying the gov) and — #gave me an ultimatum: get transferred to another hospital or face disciplinary actions (and risk not furthering my study) #so i left #anyway. five years later shit works out just fine and im grateful for that. but it was depressing at the time #all the hard work I poured was wasted on the wrong people #oof im rambling too much #sorry bout that. still salty about that boss #i hope he's living a miserable life #chromie is watching #atarashii joushi wa do tennen #my new boss is goofy #momose kentarou #chrmz.txt

[notbecauseofvictories]

nosferatu is a beautiful movie, amazing choices by everyone involved---except the main actors. they were terrible.

#I know uta hagen won't be around for another thirty years or so but stanislavski was doing good stuff in the early 1900s! #where was that naturalism!! come on!!! #instead I believed everybody was exactly who they said they were except hutter ellen and orlok #(though some of the supporting cast were treading dangerous territory too....) #apart from that...I cannot stress how unexpectedly beautiful the movie was. really. #given that it's all in weirdly-colored frames and occasionally more impressionist painting than film-accurate #it is strangely and devastatingly effective. #some of its imagery lingers even now. for example: #there's a whole section where you're flickering between the increasingly-desperate demeter; jonathon riding hell for leather #trying to beat dracula to england; mina wasting away; and renfield growing increasingly agitated in his cell #it's important to know: these flickering images are wordless. they are silent. #they are also incredibly effective and beautiful. #every shot of the ship at sea was lovely. the crowd scenes were lovely! #the actors were awful. the end. #a proscenium for our dreams

[grey-has-rusted]

what they don't tell you about life is that it's hard. woe is me

#ramblings #yes. i logged onto tumblr just to complain. #i have not been having a good time irl </3 #guys am i cooked? i wake up everyday with a heavy sorrow in my heart. #i am sad all the time even though i enjoy the wonders of life. #i laugh and smile and talk and learn. but im still sad. #it also doesn't help that i have psychotic tendencies and episodes #'go for a walk. that's a healthy coping mechanism' bro i can't even go outside bc i will get lost and walk for hours and almost- #unintentionally kill myself #it sucks. it all sucks and i say things that don't make sense either. apparently. allegedly. #i just want a functional brain. i would be so unstoppable if it weren't from my brain maybe i could actually function like a normal person #and hold down a job and be consistent with my hobbies and passions and actually maintain friendships #ong ive been so lonely too #i haven't bothered making friends anymore bc i know i won't be consistent and i dont wanna waste anyone's time #that's just really unfair #and i rely so heavily on videogames and fiction to get me through the day #bc it makes me feel less lonely. yeah i know i sound lame 💀 #anyways- see y'all in another year when i remember tumblr exists

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

woke up before noon. feeling genuine hatred towards a lot of things right now

#first: my siblings who have trained the massive dog to jump on people. hate them a lot. he got mud all over the only outfit #that genuinely doesn’t give me sensory issues. very upset. yes i am literally crying about it now i have to do laundry a day early and #all my plans are ruined #second: the fact that i have to eat food. not a fan. i don’t want to cook i don’t want to deal with that #third: the fact that i feel like i’ve wasted my life because i low-key hate being a psych major but i know i’m unable to change my major #because i’m so tired of school and i just want it to be over and i would lose it if i signed myself up for like 2 more years just because #i want to go into a different field and 2 years isn)t that long but i don’t have another 2 years in me i’ve been here since i was like 16 #fourth: my fridge which i’d notable apple juice-less

[woundedheartwithin]

How I’m spending my birthday ❤️

#she speaks #took the day off and everything #just gonna chill and read fanfiction all day #or until my phone dies lmfao #god I’m fucking 32 today #that’s the REAL April fools day joke #another year older another year wasted

[eddis-not-eeddis]

.

#i don't really want to make a whole post about it because it was a very personal and very miserable time for me #but genuinely #the thing that got me wanting to move on again and LIVE after my life plans all fell apart last year #was sitting down and very seriously thinking about the kind of woman i want to be when i'm 70 #i hit that thing that a lot of people in their mid-twenties are hitting right now #where it feels like we've already wasted everything and not only are we failures now but we will always BE failures until we die #but right now i'm still in my twenties #and when i thought about what a good lifespan looked like to me #70-ish seems about right #and what do i want to have when i'm 70 #what skills will be useful and beyond that #what skills will be fun #i had gotten into a mindset of “too late too late” #learning to draw #or sing #or dance #or fix a car #or ride a motorcycle #they all felt like learning NOW would be pointless because *melodramatically* aLL my YoUtH HaS bEEn WaStEddd #but unless God has another plan i'm not going to die in my twenties #i'll likely live many more decades #my life probably isn't even half-way over yet #what do i want to be when i'm 70? #it doesn't matter that i don't know everything yet #i have more than four decades to work on it #that's more than the entirety of the life i've already lived #and yeah #i spent five years at a dead end job that finally drove me almost to a breakdown #but even that wasn't a waste #i saved enough to go to school and i learned a lot while i worked there

[kittykillsposts]

Part 1 <- x

#this is like two years old and i have been thinking about this au for like four years #i think it deserves to see the light of day #or light of tumblr anyway lmao #god it is so emberassing i cant even #but if you do think i should continue it say something #!!! #because i will probably have another session of speratic post deleting lol #its always like omg noo i was so emberassing and go on a post deleting spree #idk if u guys have it sometimes like that?? i really dont like screaming into the void #anyways. vanessa!! my girl!! go get therapy #OH NO #i love her so much i would give her the world #also freddy talks alot. thats why um psoting it i think its a waste of big words lol #fnaf #fnaf sb #fnaf security breach #michael afton #fnaf vanessa #fnaf gregory #fnaf movie #fnaf fanart #fnaf vanny #fnaf comic