#vulnerability and tear you down

[quibbs]

she's the moment......

#baldurs gate 3 #my art #A LITTLE SHOCKED by just how many people clocked me as a future karlach fixater #me: heh i'll be the judge of that #(me meeting karlach) (tears streaming down my face) (slams my gavel firm but true) #i feel so vulnerable and exposed like a turtle on its back and yet? so loved and seen #thank you all

[phosphophylight-of-my-life]

oshi no ko aqua is such a fun character bc by most counts he's a more than decent guy.

in his first life he regularly visited hospital inpatients who had no visitors. he was genuinely happy and excited to help Ai deliver her babies, because he wants her to be happy on her own terms. he saves Akane simply because he can, and gets angry at the staff on her behalf. he doesn't stop at saving her life and spends sleepless nights turning around her public image. at that point there was nothing in it for him to keep akane around, she was just a person he was able to help and wanted to help.

by most counts he's a pretty decent guy who steps up when people need him most, except. except he's also a guy who really wants to kill his dad and that makes him manipulate people somewhat often and this is somehow not entirely at odds with his instinct to help others

#oshi no ko #like he's a doctor i can rly respect yknow #except for the patricide thing #gorou said do no harm unless it's my dad #also the way that gorou regularly visit patients is something SARINA has to tell the audience and not gorou #bc to gorou is nothing worth mentioning #for quite a while i was like man gorou is kind of sleazy for only visiting sarina esp when she's so young and vulnerable #but he visits the others also... sarina was just the most special patient to him because she introduced him to ai and also #because she was a kid whose parents never showed up #also SPOILERS FOR LIKE CH90+ OR SMTHING BELOW #the way aqua doesnt let akane dirty her hands like ok aqua we get it you want the best for everyone who isnt your dad #wipes tear someone get him therapy hes a decent guy who's ruining his life #also the way he is conscious of how he's playing w akane's feelings and tries very hard to be honest with her and to do her right #like sigh okay aqua i GUESS i cant hate you #and that one ghosting kana arc where i wanted to beat him up and then he was like i dont want to drag kana into this & he looked terrified #like SIGH. OKAY. FINE AQUA i cant hate you after all #like apart from the patricide (which is big know) the biggest downside to his personality is how cold he is #he pushes ppl away all the time and is just borderline rude #but like idk i feel like thats a byproduct of his 'i plan to go to jail for patricide and dont want to drag others down' mindset #which is like... well. you can't hate him for that.. he's looking out for others in his own way

[synonymroll648]

headcanon that as sophie ages, she gets more and more off-put by how she still looks twenty at some age past 40. the only wrinkles she has are smile lines and a barely-there crease between her eyebrows that never leaves. no gray hairs. it doesn’t feel like there’s any physical evidence of how much stress aged her too fast.

(maybe she dyes more grays into her hair to feel better about her reflection, the more time passes by. maybe, on bad days, she contours wrinkles into her skin with makeup. maybe the bad days get more frequent as she ages outside the human lifespan. maybe.)

#i feel like fitz and dex are the only friends of hers that really get it #since fitz understands more surrounding human cultures than most elves thanks to his firsthand experience in the search #and dex grew up with his mom’s romcoms #which would probably show some human perspectives on aging #and his mom explaining some things that didn’t quite make sense to Smol Dex #but i’ve always imagined sophie turning up on fitz’s doorstep in the middle of the night #with tears running down her face and saying she didn’t know who else to talk to about almost-immortality feeling so so so wrong as she #gets older. not necessarily just because he knows more about humanity than most of her group #but also because like. there’s some part of her that says ‘if he can help you through learning to be an elf at 12 maybe he can help you at #42 too’. and they’re cognates. and they’ve gotten old enough to set aside teenage grievances with one another #and i like the idea of them sitting on a couch together by lamplight and trying to navigate the cultural and personal differences #in how the two of them and humanity and the lost cities view mortality #and not really reaching a concrete conclusion. but rather. a conclusion that keeps the two of them sane until they reach triple digits. #and then they have the conversation again. and come up with a plan to stay sane in their triple digits. and the same thing pops up in their #thousands. idk man the whole thing screams trust down to the bone and that’s what they should have when the war is over #is there anything more Cognate than talking through wildly different fears surrounding the same thing that make both parties #super vulnerable??? down to how your minds work in the face - or lack of - death? #maybe so but i can’t think of them off top of my head #kotlc #sophie foster #kotlc headcanons #keeper of the lost cities

[riacte]

how it started:

one ren peeing twaddle conversation later:

#ria.txt #💀💀💀 #this isn't even including the 'blimey ren i'm worried for you' #me at the start of the stream: funny how ren calls him unlucky with the ladies when 70% of his fans are down bad for him #me in tears in the middle of the stream: with all respect i understand now. #false's chats are environmental storytelling #also the way she came back and was like 'what happened' and then the pee convo and she left 💀 #and ren said he scared her away 💀 #its so funny how it started out as like :) yeah i'll help you with vh. lets discuss british biscuits. whats a rusk. #and then: its vulnerable when i eat with someone. and then the pee convo #normal ren stream trajectory but its stillllllllll so fucking funny #false at the start 'don't leave me alone 🥺' #false at the end 'bye im never seeing you again' #false and doc next time they meet up with ren irl: 🧍🧍 #nooooooo bc why did he have to talk abt All Of That with two ppl he met irl and has prob ate with #ren's mods are the real heroes of the story #AT LEAST THE RUSK DESCRIPTION WAS NORMAL. #fuck it. im tagging ren #rendog #the rd difference #pogsupremacy

[kurapioca]

tensions | pt. 2

“Enough.”

#you know when you’re angry/frustrated #and usually tears don’t ever come #unless it’s with someone who truly knows you #that’s when you can’t stop them from falling #because deep down your heart knows you can be vulnerable with them #even if your mind is against it #dick grayson #roy harper #dickroy #roydick #dc #dc comics #my doodles

[vaguely-concerned]

the way all of anders' battle dialogue in da2 sounds stressed out right to the brink of hysteria is something that can actually be so personal. it's the real healer experience. anders you're herding moths constantly trying to launch themselves at any passing bonfire with your whole chest and your whole heart and you are so valid

#you can hear him all but tearing his hair out as he flits between them to get them back on their feet fhsdkjfa #obviously this is exactly what lands him in a fucking world of trouble but anders truly does just care so much at all times #dragon age #dragon age 2 #anders #for real tho the battle dialogue in DA2 is phenomenal in general #it's so in-character and so emotional -- it makes it feel so real for them to have all these ways to react to each other getting hurt #they're friends not an army! they react as if their friend or their sibling just went down in front of them! #(except fenris who delivers all his lines with the sort of dry absentmindedness you'd use for commenting on the weather #and we love him for that) #carver gets super small and scared when he gets injuries and lashes out at you because of it but he's just. afraid. #he just wants his big brother/sister to fix it and it makes him sound so young and vulnerable under the surliness ;____; #also there's so many -- and I cannot stress this enough -- EXTREMELY funny lines in there #it's the sort of detail work I'm kind of sad inquisition left behind #tho I DO understand why it's not a thing you can feasibly do when you have permutations of like nine different companions lol #but the mixed horror and disbelief whenever aveline or hawke go down -- like they are universal constants to the rest of them....... #does so much storytelling and character work in such a little space it's so *elegant* writing-wise

[wordsofwisdomandsoul]

#being strong #brave #being brave #acting #humble #humble yourself #swallow your pride #brave face #break down #hug #hug someone #good cry #tear you apart #lean on someone #talk it out #humility #be humble #be human #be vulnerable #vulnerable #quotes #words #life lessons #wisdom #inspirational words #growth #healing

[dennisboobs]

misery

#i have so much i want to do with this fic the options are kind of overwhelming #and im trying to keep it canon compliant which is. almost an impossible task lol #like... timeline wise. #ada speaks #its just. breaking dennis. tearing him down to his absolute lowest and having him pretend he's so fucking normal while he loses his mind #and then season 13 starts :))) and haha havent you missed me guys i didn't miss you and everything is fine & normal #i didn't just have the absolute worst year of my life and have my ego ground to dust #after trying so hard to be the best i possibly can. opening myself up and being vulnerable and real and failing so hard. so spectacularly. #i've just confirmed my worst fears of being like my father. couldnt hack it as a dad. i'm giving up and accepting that i'm truly worthless. #but i'm still the same old dennis. haha. heehee. i'm back. is anyone going to ask why. no? ok. cool. good. let's pretend everything is fine #business as usual.

[maximoff-pan]

I'm sorry but your recent Eddie one shot really sucked. You've deffo lost it as a writer man. I'd say go back to the drawing board and work on your style a little more before you post things. You used to be pretty good, a writer I looked forward to posting but now your shit.

oh, wow...

not everyone is going to like my writing, and that's okay, but I feel like this was unnecessarily mean. It's true, I haven't written or posted much in a while, and while I too was definitely starting to doubt myself, in the end, I was just happy to be writing again.

so I apologize if it's not up to your standards. I hope you can find work you enjoy elsewhere and that maybe you’ll think twice about sending something like this to any other writers, period.

because you have no idea what is going on in someone's life, and shit like this is never okay. constructive criticism is welcomed; what don't you like about my style? I'd be happy to work on it, because I'm not perfect (nowhere near it), and I only want to improve. But this felt like a little more than that.

just think about it next time you hit send.

xxx gia ❤️

#as a writer on this site I understand it comes with certain vulnerabilities #but I also know that doesn't mean it's okay to try and tear people down #be kind to each other on here #it means more than you know

[time-is-restored]

i have literally nowhere else to put this i apologise for the spam. the absolute best thing to come out of s3 trent is without a doubt the fucking earnestness... like in s1-2 he always came across as a very self-assured kind of guy, who knew how he came off (ie: intimidating) and enjoyed it. but seeing that paired with him being silly + completely relaxing in certain company??? pulling ridiculous faces at vodka + scrunching up his nose when he smiles @ colin + making the most ABSURD 'i really wanna say something right now but i feel like im interrupting' noises ive ever heard in my fucking LIFE??? its like. he is cool as shit and he is self assured AND he can make dumb fucking sherlock holmes jokes and dance ridiculously. its like!!!! he's lame but he's also not bc he's exactly as confident in being lame as he is being cool. do u see the vision. he has killed the part of him that cringes!!!! its just.. that unshakeable self confidence that u see in his fucking swaggers into frame includes all of himself + his different moods and eccentricities and that's just so based to me idk. unironically live ur best life wear the loudest combination of prints and patterns and primary colours uve ever seen in ur life while espousing the virtues of extended museum hours!!! contain multitudes! get silly with it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ted lasso spoilers #combined with james lance's hc abt trent's past its just. like!! #the growth from 'i can't be what you want me to be so im going to be Better than them + tear them down' #-> 'i know my reputation so im going to lean into that + be ruthless + intimidating' -> #'actually fuck this? fuck this! im just gonna be me and if anyone has a problem w then L To Them I'm Actually Living' #also this is just my hcs at this point but like. i do think ted helped a lot w the latter part of this process in so much as. ted embodied #someone who was Visibly weak + vulnerable and had no armour/no sense of self preservation #(the opposite of trent's persona) and made no effort to change anything abt himself to prevent attack. obviously ted has a lot of social + #class advantages that make that less risky for him than it would be for others but like. u get the drift #and i THINK. seeing how without that armour/facade ted was able to be rlly direct + earnest w connecting w ppl #like asking an interviewer 'what do u love?' and rlly genuinely wanting to know the answer #and bc TRENT was specifically in the position of 'i could fucking destroy u rn and u wouldn't put up a fight' #that kind of. shifted his perspective a bit? like. damn what would that say abt me if i wrote a hit piece on this guy rn #i disagree VERY strongly w the idea that trent's more positive character development moments happened ONLY bc of ted (i don't think that's #true for anyone in the show tbh) BUT i think ted's presence at a pivotal point in his life was what helped him confront the fact that #at this stage in his life all his intellectual armour was doing was making him into someone Mean rather than just incisive #like. 'is this a fucking joke' is not cutting journalism. u get me?? #and arguably that's a fine and even safe choice to make when ur younger and have no support/reputation backing u up #but after decades? its like man wtf are we doign here if were literally just living preventatively #smth smth i hope i am not just a tumblr blog to u but a blog who is inventing the brain chemistry of a sitcom side character #w each new episode they watch. trent crimm is my best friend irl i know he would have scorching hot takes abt each new season of survivor #and would earnestly heckle the jury and final 3 alike

[star-spangled-man]

harry, i am kindly asking you to please unwrite matilda <3

#it hits a lil too close to home and i dont like how vulnerable it makes me #the tears i have cried over this song today #i love it but also want to violently sob slide down the wall and rip my hair out #i will be sending you my therapy bills you better pay up lad #harry styles #harry's house #hs3 #harry styles matilda #paige talks #my biggest hits!

[makyurini]

deadpool is so baby girl in cannon

pls don’t get me started on how much i love him because oh my god??? i could talk about him for HOURS and be kicking my feet and twirling my hair the entire time. that man deserves so much goddamn love and i just want to swaddle him and cradle him and give him so many forehead kisses and make him home cooked meals every single day and make sure he’s filled to the brim with affection and happiness

#❀.ask #❀.anon #HE’S SO— #so obviously i have a type #and it’s men who hide their angst and anger behind humor and being baby girl #until you break them down and let them be vulnerable around you <3 #between him and jason and könig and johnny i have my work cut out for me— #BUT REALLY #i think what sums deadpool’s character up so well is the fact that his body is constantly breaking itself down and healing again #because of the cancer and healing factor and what not #so he’s always ALWAYS in pain #that one panel of him curled up and sobbing ‘my skin it hurts everything hurts’ makes me tear up every fucking time #and then being cursed with immortality from thanos because he fell in love with death and thanos is like ‘nope! she’s mine’ #(depending on what interpretation you’re going with) #I JUST— #HE’S SUCH A TRAGEDY #AND ALWAYS GETS PUT AS THE COMIC RELIEF #LIKE THE DUDE HAS ONE OF THE MOST TRAGIC BACKSTORIES AND LIFES EVER IN THE COMICS???? #LET ME LOVE HIM GODDAMMIT

[merge-conflict]

the damn things overlap, ch4 - transfiguration

chapter summary: valentine does a little hardware hacking and is unhappily reminded of her own corporeal form

“Alright,” she said, when she’d finished. “Hold still. This is going to sting.”

She propped herself up on one knee to get better leverage, before she gave the command to eject his board. Goro flinched, and she patted his tense shoulder sympathetically. Hot swapping felt like getting kicked in the back of the head.

Still, she couldn’t help but take a moment to marvel at the sight of it as she tugged it free, feel a shiver of jealousy at the elegance of the red and black silkscreen, at the intimacy of holding the warm circuitry of an organ in her bare hand.

“Ready?” She braced against his shoulder. “Here we go.”

Her old deck slotted in perfectly, and with a little force, anchored itself in a satisfying click. She connected her jack from her right wrist into the exposed port at the back of his head. They were truly, completely entangled now, but until she could verify everything was working she was loathe to prematurely disconnect the rest of the mess, after the work it had taken to get them all in place.

But the deck booted successfully in the first try, and she felt a sudden burst of mortification as the custom banner she’d created scrolled past her view. Goro made a low noise.

“Higurashi,” he murmured. “The sound of summer. This is your symbol?”

“No, it’s uh–“ She bit her lip, tasted blood again. “It’s a joke. There are cicadas out east, that spend seventeen years underground before they finally emerge. Took me a while to get this thing working.”

Read more here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/41966397/chapters/106481283

#self promotion sunday #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 fic #goro takemura #valentine #my fic #the damn things overlap #i've only dabbled a bit in hardware hacking so this chapter mostly inspired by mobile testing #but the bit about the alligator clips crowding in being such a huge pain in the ass to keep together is very real #lots of vulnerability as intimacy in this one :3 #seriously though have you ever held a warm pcb in your hand? #i know that goro wouldn't have a true deck by lore standards. but even so he's gotta have some general OS running #there's always a buttload of software in everything and you don't want to tear open each individual implant every time you want to update #so there's gonna be some main controller especially for all the basic file management and sensory shit and HUD etc. #that's going to be what they shut down when they cut you off from arasaka #anyway i tried not to get too in the weeds but i do think about it a lot

[hugepolecat3298]

one of the bizarrest contradictions i think in how the toxically masculine act is how theyre all “ohhh nobody takes mens mental health seriouslyyyy i want to die all the time but nobody cares cause im a MAN” and then they turn around and go “its pussy shit to not like it when your friends mock you when youre hurt or upset. it just means that you dont have a sense of humour. thats just how real men show care and affection” like ok sir have you considered that maybe youll stop wanting to kill yourself if you tell your friends that you dont like it when they call you a gay crybaby for having to stay home sick from something

#originals #this was prompted by this fucking post i saw earlier which i havent stopped seething over #it was someone being glad that their friend made them their fav soups and brought them in containers to their house when they were sick #ZERO indication of either op's gender or the friend's gender btw #and every comment was like. either trying to emasculate the soup maker (who we dont know the gender of) or saying they just wanted to smash #and some sane people were pointing out that is THE bizarrest reaction to an act of kindness espo bc op was ignoring all of them #and they were just like huh whuh what i tell my friends that i hope they kill themselves when they say theyre feeling a little down #like thats just how men show friendship bro if we do actual kind things for people it just means we want sex #like HELLO????? are you trying to parody yourselves????? and it wasnt one troll either the majority of the comments were like this #oh this also reminds me of how someone got upset that their new therapist had a mug that said 'patient tears go here' #and all these cucks in the comments started insulting op for not liking it and saying they dont have a sense of humour and that theyre not #gonan get better if they cant handle people mocking them when theyre at their most vulnerable #which is again jawdropping because a therapist has total fucking control over you #if a friend says something like that its just mean but if a therapist says something like that its a genuine threat #like normal adults are stupid enough to simply not understand the implications behind 24 7 mocking people but if a therapist does it then it #means that they actively want you to kill yourself or just fall deeper into being suicidal so they get more money #the amount of people who think that therapists want to help people and not make them worse to suck them dry makes me scream #its even worse when theyre like ohhh its a safe environment youre safe NO THE FUCK IT IS NOT? #first of all you are always monitored by a third party be it your parents or just mikes second if you say a SINGLE thing that they dont like #whoopsie doopsy guess that means youre gonna be hospitalised! we dont want THAT now do we! if you express suicidal ideation EVER again we #will be sending you straight there for indeterminate amounts of time! like come the fuck on #i hate therapists and i hate people who try to make you kill yourself and then act all innocent about it

[rosicheeks]

If I were dating you, I would stand you in front of a mirror naked. I would then point to a spot on your body and ask you if you like that spot. If you say yes, we move on, but if you say no, I would gently and lovingly kiss that spot as many times as it takes for you to smile (or blush) from the love and attention. This would continue until there were no more spots you didn't like.

🥹

#ok I love this idea #but the thought of standing in front of the mirror completely naked and you just pointing at my body #makes me very uncomfortable #I know that’s probably the point to not make me as uncomfortable #but ehhhhh #can I change it a little bit? #how about you lay my naked vulnerable body down on the bed #and then you’ll kiss every single inch of my body #telling me what you like about the spot you’re kissing #and tenderly and gently kissing every single insecure spot I have #cause I’m pretty sure you’d be able to tell whenever I’m a little insecure about a spot on my body #honestly I’m pretty insecure about my entire body #so idk #I feel like you could just do it to my whole body and it would work 😂 #I just can’t see myself being like ‘yeah I love that part’ and then you move on #but I could see myself crying from this #idk what type of tears #but this just sounds so wholesome #I think every single person deserves this love #hoping one day I’ll find that person who will do that #you are so so sweet 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #thank you cutie 🥰 #ask #anon

[howifeltabouthim]

And as he spoke there was the fragment of a tear in his eye, and the hint of a quiver in his voice.

Anthony Trollope, from Can You Forgive Her?

#vulnerability #close to tears #tears #sad #breaking down #reminds me of #kendall roy #fanfic inspo #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #anthony trollope #can you forgive her?