#very helpful for anxious minds

[eyefeelthebeat]

All the time that I need is never quite enough All the time that I have is all that's necessary

#Spotify #forgot to post it yesterday on its anniversary oops #such a nice song. and i love this ^ idea #very helpful for anxious minds #all the time #the strokes #comedown machine #the strokes band #music reccs #music recs #music recommendation #tunes

[canisalbus]

just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3

Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.

#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though #it often takes me a long time to write that response #my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly #I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times #I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory #so I keep putting off reblogging gift art #because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give #maybe that sounds dumb and fake #but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that #often weeks sometimes months even #and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed #I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time #not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person #so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet #please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess #and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you #feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot #and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it #because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond #thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it #sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot #because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness #I'm trying to work on that #answered #anonymous

[muzzleroars]

What if Michael had a conversation with his past self?

How is the pet drone doing? and how did the ferryman and drone interact for the first time and did the ferryman hold the drone like hamburger?

OOF mike talking to his past self...there would be so much to say to him, yet i think his most urgent advice would be to stay. stay in heaven. god is gone, he has left and if he doesn't wish to be found, he won't be. he believed, in panic he refused to show anyone else, that he needed to prove something to god and to all of heaven, that if he sought him and strove after him, god would answer his earnest effort. he believed god wanted his devotion proven, but he didn't consider his abandonment of heaven, of his people, at their very weakest. he was meant to be their prince and he disappeared nearly as god did. it brought ruin, to heaven, to gabriel, to himself. he should have stayed, should have led them, instead of vanishing into the wilds where their cries couldn't reach him. show your devotion in honest prayer, beg for god's forgiveness where you are, because you won't find it on your own. and they will all be left with nothing. in a way, he knows he deserves his fate for his negligence, for how he failed in his responsibility. it displays his shame, and it is his payment for leaving them. so stay. pray for god, but be present for your people.

more drone!!! the drone is quite happy living in the apartment, as gabriel and v1 are always bringing new things in for it to look at. plus, it gets to engage with its proper programming and act as a guard for their apartment - it basically can stare out different windows for hours, and it likes to patrol the premises on a schedule. the ferryman, given how they came to stay at gabe v1's apartment, didn't really notice the drone at first - it floated around checking them out, but their mind was so distant from their surroundings it just failed to register. after a couple days of rest, however, they first actually see it following gabriel around with curious little chirps and feel a bit foolish when he explains they've been keeping it as a pet for a little while now. they are appreciative of its company however, with very few human souls immune to a curious little robot, and how it provides a little companion to pet on its downtime. it's also quite charming watching it gently float up from the couch or a lap, and it...does actually provide them with a little sense of security as it hovers dutifully by the windows. the ferryman thanks it for the peace of mind, and the drone is thrilled it's performing its job well

#mike's biggest struggle (past the uh. obvious) is feeling he failed as a leader #and he absolutely believes his current state is his punishment for it #which is why i say he's a lot like a ghost now - he just regrets and regrets and plays out his mistakes over and over #as for the drone and the ferryman they actually get along well bc of its job #they're so anxious over michael returning that having the drone as a lookout is actually massively helpful to ease their mind #and it's very happy to be 'guarding' someone :] #cake answers #michael #drone #ferryman

[einstetic]

i'm not tired, i'm exhausted

#my head is full of sooo many thoughts and i'm feeling way too many emotions right now #i struggled with my thesis today again after a few months break #yesterday a guy i'm kind of getting to know asked me a question that hit home when we were talking about the effects of past events #“'last time when cuddling and i gave you a kiss you tensed up completely for a sec. was that you being shy or being uncomfortable. ' #i didn't even realise it and now i'm feeling extremely anxious about my subconscious acting out when i am in fact feeling comfortable #background: he knows my history of unpleasant events concerning intimacy/sex and he's very mindful about it yet challenges me in a good way #but now i am a mixture of extreme exhaustion experiencing high levels of fondness and yet feeling extremely agitated #and having constant minor flashbacks and i really don't know what to do or how to merely exist in this moment now #not going to bother anyone with this and my thoughts as they are having a good time and that also goes for the pretty nice guy i mentioned #so i'm on my own in my own company #maybe some music crying and ice cream straight from the tub would help haha #thank you for taking your time to read this mess love you and have a nice morning day or night #literally no one cares emma

[running-in-the-dark]

a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)

#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have #heart disease. #scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it #but it's been years now so I don't remember the details #just that that's a thing apparently #and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that #do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :) #it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week. #like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭 #also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary. #like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and #yeah it sucks. #specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't #need to say it where anyone can see #it's embarrassing enough #though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about. #like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45. #it's so unbelievably exhausting. #but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :) #oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently #that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me #haha isn't that fun :) ) #ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very #well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part. #and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for #this long. so. guess I'm just fucked. #personal

[fly-sky-high-09]

Tears of the Kingdom day more like tears I'll cry if something is actually wrong with Teo when we visit the vet tomorrow

#i'm a kind of anxious even if Teo has been like #behaving super normal and healthy outside of his stinky breath and drooling during sleep issue #hopefully it's only mouth/tooth problem that can be fixed with couple visits or meds #but my mind is currently blowing it out of proportion and i am scared lol #i'm not use to having sick cats because both teo and our old cat were always indoors with no major health issues #and last time I took Teo it was during a hard period in my life #i can't help but associate this with the memory #cept i'm not going alone this time both of my parents are coming (for my own emotional support lol) #actually hoping I don't start crying I am usually very emotional about animals and especially my guys #as mood has been all over the place for the past week

[shvdowsdrowned]

Hiiii sorry I disappeared on yall (if anyone cares lmao), I went through some rough shit and I just couldn't stand being on this app after that BUT I'm definately feeling a lot better than I did in the beginning, still not 100% there but I think I should be well enough to come back <3

Plus, I really miss posting about my girlfriend revenant apexlegends so I'm gonna try to get back into the swing of things 💕

#making this post is already making me anxious.... if i end up changing my mind later then ill let yall know at least #if i decide to disappear again 😭😭 #i was gonna wait until after my trip but im so fucking bored without this damn app i figured i outta start getting back into it now #im going to visit a friend tomorrow again!!!! im very very excited to hang out with her!!! <333 #and I know it's definately gonna help me move along and get better mentally so i cant wait!! #ah fuck i hope this doesnt end up in the tags bc i put his whole government name in the post 😭😭😭 #anyways I'll let yall know how the trip goes when i can <3

[featherbliss]

It’s been a long day. I’m stressed but won’t show it; I can’t let ruin your day with my trivial problems, and you know there’s no making me talk about it, but you do know how to raise my spirits.

Like a tiger watching it’s prey, you wait for the perfect moment to strike. Only when I stretch, raising my arms above my head, my shirt raising to expose even just a fraction of skin do you pounce. Before I know what’s happening, you’ve got me down, sitting on my legs as one hand keeps my arms pinned by the wrist above my head, your free hand gently guiding the hem of my shirt further towards my ribs so you can have better access to your prize.

I can hardly get a word out before your fingers dig into my soft tummy, and I can hardly fight the giggles that bubble in my throat. Any effort I make is thwarted the instant your finger dips into my navel; a simple poke, a small scratch against the knot cause me to squeak and immediately dissolve into laughter. I squirm the more you wiggle your finger in my embarrassingly ticklish belly button, and you let up and let go when I’m red in the face and have tears in my eyes.

“Feeling better?” You ask, a smile on your face, almost matching the one still on my own face. I simply smack your arm with my hand, and you laugh; you know the answer is yes, since you know just which buttons to push to make me feel better.

Laughter is the best medicine, after all.

#tword text #giggle button twords #I’ve just been super stressed and anxious lately and I can’t shake the anxiety so I tried writing this #in hopes it might help distract me and keep my mind from wandering back to the anxious thoughts #the lee mood is very strong

[yvmoveon]

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#this is for myself #only thing i ask if you read through this is to pray for my father #my dad went to the doc today and basically his kidney levels weren’t good at all and these labs were from february #he got new labs done but i’m just terrified that it got worse #i already know my dad will refuse dialysis like that’s a given #i just don’t want it to get to that point #it’s just scary because it’s bringing back what happened last year when we almost lost him #like every time i think about that day i can’t help but tear up because my dad was lifeless and me and my sis were doing cpr on him #at like 4am in the morning like imagine if we had to go to work #this is all going through my mind #and he can be very stubborn as well #i spoke to him before and he says he’s willing to try and improve himself but actions speak louder #he made a promise to me when i was younger and i just want him to keep it :/ #just thinking about all of this makes me teary eyed #and reminds me of my uncle #being a nurse makes you so much more anxious of everything medical #i’m just going to try my best to help him and pray pray pray my hardest #that’s all i can do

[rapha-reads]

Cover letter in French : boring, tedious, but easy (it is my native tongue after all).

Cover letter in English : slightly harder, demands more brain cells working on it, but still easily doable (it is my "heart language").

Cover letter in Spanish : ... suddenly I don't remember a word of Spanish. What's a cover letter? Help me, Obi-Juan whoever the fuck you are, you're my only ho.

I speak Spanish. Technically. Officially. On my good days.

*pathetic screech*

#so uuuuh i've been accepted to a university in spain (not telling you where exactly) to do a year of master's degree #all in spanish of course - the university accepted me without even proof of my spanish language ceritification (that i do have thank you) #the masters is super interesting it's a continuation of my first degree (1st: media and culture - this one: contemporary culture) #i'm super excited to finally go back to university it's my dream number one and even more to move in a new town #but help aaaaah i am very silently and discretly freaking out while reassuring my mother that it's all good #sure there's the financial situation and the housing to deal with (i'm quitting my job in two weeks FINALLY) #but what makes me most anxious both in good ways and bad ways is wondering if i can do a whole year of studying in a language #i'm not totally fluent in - and yes yes that's exactly the point of why i choose spain (that plus sun and food - #i love you scotland but you depress me) but it's still a worry and a challenge and my emotions are all over the place #anyway i'm done rambling i'm going back to writing that cover letter to get me a part time job with any luck #rapha rambles #personal #don't mind me #the tags are the actual post lmao

[anthropoetics]

hi! i'm brazilian too and i love your blog! also, have you recently moved out of your home to study in a bigger city? i'm asking because i'm also doing the same but i'm completely terrified tbh! i'm probably older than you, so i shouldn't be feeling this way and just be confident about it, but having to leave my home and my family and everything i love behind has been breaking my heart immensely. i'm going on this journey alone and it's very scary to me. after the pandemic i became really scared and insecure about everything.

hi, darling! i don't think age can be something to rely on, especially for such a big step! it's only natural we feel all kinds of emotions that paralyzes us from time to time. i feel comfortable in different environments very easily and change excites me, but even in my most optimistic days i can feel a bit anxious, and that's normal. until you settle down and make yourself at home, know each path (sometimes in a literal way), it will take time and honestly? i don't think i have any advice or tip on how to make this easier, you just have to go through it each day, little by little. for example, i was quite anxious a few days ago because of the bus (my city is small to the point of not needing them unless you live very far away), and i even got lost 😭😭 but hey! now, i can go to my uni smoothly and i even helped someone yesterday at the bus stop. it's all good, you'll get the hang of it, be kind to yourself and cry if you feel like it honestly fkfkfldk

#also it's good to waste your energy on physical things #we get very anxious and stressed and all the energy just concentrates on our mind #so listen to music and dance around. #walk around the neighborhood to get familiar with the environment #and visit some shops too. you'll get the know how the people around live and they'll always lend some help i'm sure of it! #and if you need someone to talk to i'm here!!!! 💌💐

[longagoitwastuesday]

Truly the José Ferrer version of Cyrano de Bergerac is the best by far because by the end of the film he has you convinced he's the most attractive man ever, even if he still doesn't believe it, and that is at the core of what the play is about

#Le Bret at first‚ Christian later on but quite soon and Roxane by the end but much earlier with Christian convinced his looks don't matter #and that his nose is not so ugly or grotesque to make him unlovable‚ not even hard to love #but he dies convinced he can't be loved because unlike the princes in fairytale he remains himself #and his ugliness doesn't disappear when being loved #Le Bret is frustrated about this even before he is on stage!!! I love the scene with the seller girl on Act I #I love that they included it in this adaptation #And I love that Le Bret scoffs when Cyrano tells him he can't confess his love due to his looks in this version #Anyway... Cyrano being a bit shitty in this version and helping Rageneau because otherwise the bakery won't be open #is very funny and also adorable to me in the gesture he makes I can't help it #As it is that he just totally forgets about Ragueneau by the end of the act. I adore that Le Bret tries to go help him #but only when he considers Cyrano is in trouble. I love how well Le Bret manages his pride #And I love that at the beginning of act II in this adaptation Cyrano is anxious about Roxane changing her mind and Ragueneau comforts him #I can't with the duality of this man I adore him. I want to hug him like a plushie. I want to put him in a blender and drink him like juice #Cyrano #Cyrano de Bergerac #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #José Ferrer is also the best at managing the anger/fun/sad emotions in my opinion. Depardieu is too sad. Kline is too funny #Dinklage is no fun at all and the Jacques Webber version is also too sad. There's another version where the actor was no fun at all either #and definitely too old. The Solès version manages this dance of emotivity quite decently as well in my opinion #but I just prefer Ferrer most of the time. He is dignified and fun and frustrated and confident‚ #so very angry but also loving and self-conscious and a bit bashful at times #And what a voice. What a voice. Truly the best Cyrano's voice of them all. It is important in the play but until I started watching #different versions I didn't truly process just how important the voice is and Ferrer has that velvety growl that is so perfect for this #Oh Mcavoy. I forgot about him. He had potential but I think he is a tad too sad for my liking and mainly not fun enough #but I think it's a problem of the production more than the actor's delivery. He had it in him. We see glimpses #I'm missing some others but meh it doesn't matter

[loveofastarvingdog]

on one hand having conversations with my mother is stressful and draining because i’m closeted and she’s trans/homophobic etc etc but on the other hand sometimes it’s funny

#timothy's txts. #girl help i’m being psychically attacked for being neurodivergent and queer #she’s beaming mind damage straight to my brain #on the plus side it keeps being gender affirming because apparently everyone thinks i’m a guy or a butch and well. that’s nice >:) #on the other hand though this is not ideal and now i’m self conscious and frustrated and anxious #BUT i am still very sexy etc etc etc hot and attractive etc

[chisatowo]

i love heckling solo cover videos as a l/n fan bc so many of them r so obsessed with shiho covers just bc. its not ichika which like i understand she does a LOT but most shiho covers are just . this sure exists. the only one i actively listen to is bokura mada underground but even then its like 50% bc the other two versions are so high pitched on the chorus it hurts my ears ALL THIS TO SAY . i really like reading ur opinions on vocals shiho is the mizuki of leoneed to me anddd uh i like saki hare wo matsu <3 goodbye

Honestly as someone whos favorite l/n vocalist is Shiho yeah 100% their covers are overrated as hell they rly don't have that many good ones. They are indeed very similar to Mizuki where they have a very unique voice so ppl think all their covers are perfect when they're just. Kind of eh (looking at you Shiho 1) and they're one of those characters me and my sibling always dread on favorite solo cover lists because there are correct answers for which are the best Shiho covers /j and no one picks them </3 also ty I love talking abt my opinions on vocals <3

#rat rambles #sekai posting #in my opinion in general l/n rly struggle vocally #they dont work poorly together bit they also generally dont compliment eachother much in their group covers #25ji have a very similar problem but with more flexibility if theyre willing to sacrifice kanade #it also doesnt help that when l/n covers do try to have more complientary vocals the audio balancing usually ruins it #like even if it was balanced right itd still probably be eh but yknow it doesnt have to be like That #my main problem with most of l/n is that they dont rly have noatble strengths or their strengths get overshadowed by other vocals in sekai #I do have some l/n covers I rly rly like (stella my beloved (not the solos)) but in general I think they struggle a lot with their covers #I dont think any of them have bad voices they just struggle with having notable covers in my opinion #I hope they get their own bug one day that jusy unexpectedly brings out strengths in their voices I didnt even know they had #cause Im sure they have them but they just dont rly ever get to properly shine #me and my sibling are so mean to saki during our video binges just cause ppl have such bad saki taked Im so sorry saki </3 #but also ppl who try to say saki teo is the best saki cover make me lose my mind what thr fuck are u talking abt bro????? #you havent seen me and my sibling at our meanest until youve seen us go through the l/n section of a favorite solo list with reasons listed #again this is why I save most of this for private I genuinely dont wanna hurt ppls feelings even if my meaness is lighthearted </3 #but general analysis and critique is on the table for me to post in public eveb if it makes me anxious still dhdjgdjdy #and the occational vague fun making instead of the very specific quotations me anr my sibling still make dydjhdjdy #also I cant just say ichika's playlist as a descriptor on here and expect ppl to get what I mean fhdjgdjdh

[shymaidxn]

“This is the third meal you’ve missed this week, are you okay?”  HELLO

noticing trauma sentence starters

@flovverworks

Diantha wasn’t about to admit how unwell she felt. Not when she knew crying over unfavorable circumstances wouldn’t bring her any closer to her goal. Not when she knew she had to power through learning curves a foreign world presented her, and poured over any book or conversation that could help her along the way. Not when this sweet person suddenly gave her so much of their time to help ease her woes, when they should be taking care of their own friends, and especially when they were practically complete strangers until a short while ago. She wouldn’t let the negativity in her seep out…At least, she had promised herself that she wouldn’t, yet here Akira was pointing out her negative habits.

It was something - anxiety creeping into her heart, her stomach churning, and brain buzzing with so many thoughts it all turned to white noise - she swore no one would easily see, or at least no one here would; that she had gotten so good at hiding that no one would even see what there was to figure out. Though she had to suppose Akira wasn’t “no one” now, at least for outwardly circumstances. There were so many people coming and going from this place though, that she had just assumed their attention would be elsewhere, from business affairs to friendly encounters. Yet they had always made a point to greet her, ask her about her day, even offering a little snack or even a good meal. Sure, she was the new girl, but they seriously didn’t have to be this nice right off the bat. Even with the comforting report they now had, and even with this sense of trust she's started to feel from them with each conversation. Heartwarming as it was, Diantha just didn’t feel like she had…earned it, in a sense. She certainly didn’t deserve it, at least not in her mind. But it also begged the question: How close were they outside of calming and casual conversations they had every day to warrant even this level of concern and attention to detail? 

“I’m…” Hesitation in the form of broken eye contact and the fidgeting of her long ponytail. Combing through, twirling around, straightening then relaxing. For some reason, under their gaze, even if it was just pure concern, it felt like a stab to her heart when knowing she did something wrong. Guilt - that was hard to hide. “I’ve just…Been so busy that I’ve forgotten about it.” A truth mixed with a lie; she’s made herself too busy for her own good, and only thinks about food when it’s offered to her. “B-But it’s not like you see every meal I eat, so you haven’t been around when I’m actually eating, probably…Not that I’ve looked out to see where you are.” Yeah, none of that helps her case at all, not even with that forced sheepish laugh of hers. But all she really wants is Akira to drop this and move on, so she may stubbornly shoo him away so things could come back to the normalcy she was just getting used to.

#flovverworks #( *tries to leave this vague to see if you wanna do mhyk or modern* #mhyk diantha worries would obviously be 'haha oh no i'm transported to this random world with completely strangers!! panicking low key!! ) #in reality it is highkey panic but she tries to play it super lowkey for the sake of not wanting to upset akira and all the wizards #even the mean wizards she may or may not want to stay very far away from #modern diantha worries for this thread is very 'just quit being an idol and this person who helped me move into the apartments #is very sweet and easy to talk to; but um the stresses of learning school and school life while also grappling with #what the heck am i actually supposed to do with my life now since i'm living off residuals from my groups' albums now #yet i actually miss my friends and while i'm less in the spotlight i still feel so anxious and confused on my own' #and now the nice guy from the apartments notices and she desperately avoids this conversation (unsuccessfully) #idk what you have for akira's modern but they definitely live in an apartment in my mind ffhggfhjcff #i won't force other ideas i had while writing here; but just....comfy apartment vibes )

[yongseungkim]

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#a lot of this came about too partially bc it was her black belt test right and like at the very end #she comes up to me and goes i didnt mention it in the speech but u were a part of why i got this today. #i was like aww i mean u didnt have to mention it and she was like yeah idc abt the rest knowing i just want u to know #so then we talked about it a little later as we were winding down for bed #and i was like congrats today and also for reaching out at the end i appreciate it #and she was like yeah i wanted to know bc i dont think youd have connectedthe dots #and i was like yeah i would have never guessed #(again to me in my mind im like ? idk how this girl sees me) #and she was like yeah youve made an impact in my life and im sure others as well #and i dont remember the exact words but smth abt how like ppl miss you when ur not there and all that #which caught me off guard i did start crying like i didnt know any of this #like how was i supposed to know any of this #so for me the next day idk i woke up and just spilled my anxieties and like #i cant tell if it was the right or wrong thing to do #im a little better in that like im not exactly anxious that she'll get mad at me for sayign this #but im more worried right now if its information she had to even know cuz its just my anxieties ? like #its not necessarily real its just how i perceive the world idk :(( #i really hate feelings becasue i always think im wrong for having them. #and the sucky thing about anxiety is like if its not her itd be something esle for sure and i know that much like #idk man why is having friends SO CONFUSING #i was like damn if you feel like we are close and you miss me while im not there then whyyy do we not talk when in group settings #idk where i was going with any of this tbqh i just #i feel weird and anxious about it still #and i thought being open about some things would help but it hasnt not really