my dad looked through my sketchbook without my permission and he was like "are u not doing well? a lot of ur drawings are about feeling bad and worthless" which makes me feel really weird because those types of drawings were not drawings i wanted anyone to see and like i don't go through his notebooks and shit, so why is he allowed to look through my sketchbooks (he has a history of this and it's one of the reasons i ended up going to therapy because i used to draw a lot of pictures of people, mostly myself, being mutilated and he looked in my sketchbook and saw that and was like "hm i think my kid is unwell") and when i got upset with him, he was like "well u just left it on the kitchen table and u said u had been drawing more so i wanted to see what u had been drawing!" which like fine ok but like it's an invasion of my privacy to do that???? i'm 26??? don't go looking at my personal sketchbook without my permission?????
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"you're so quiet!" thanks, i have a speech impediment and I'm hoh so communication is already difficult, and i was conditioned to think i have of substance to say because nobody would try to hold a genuine conversation with me, no matter how much i worked on my conversation skills. 99% of people around me don't care, they don't really listen to me or listen at all. they don't respond to me more than half of the time. they just ignore me, or punish me for talking. no fucking shit that i don't talk much when I've been treated like I don't really have any worth as a family member or friend, unless people can get something from me and I'm trying to fit into their box of what's acceptable, so it's convenient for them. yeah.
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*valley girl voice* its likee soo fucking craazyy that having CPTSD, means that I like, have it.
gaymers fucking help me im experiencing shrimptoms of my mentol smeeness
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starts throwing up uncontrollably .
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Sometimes when I send asks or messages to people who get upset a lot I feel like a really anxious cat slowly approaching someone so I can boop them, violently shaking the whole time.
I know that some people like being mean or making others upset but I am Not One Of Those People, whenever I make someone upset or even if I have the slightest suspicion that I may have, I feel like I’m going to combust from pure regret.
Edit: I am this cat.
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(I found a version of this image on Redbubble, someone named Drowsy Bee is selling stickers of it.)
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someone used he who shan't be named as a reaction image in a ship video that involved me on tiktok and I feel sick and paranoid now
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