#under the influence I suppose

[spade-club]

I love my job, sucks I have to look for a new one soon. Just learned 3 of my bosses have a pact to all look for other jobs and quit asap. So either I have to do manager training and try to save this business on my own (tempting...) oorrr, the smarter idea, just dip out when they do. I love my job so much though and I think in just a little while it'll get so much better if management just lets us do our thing again, which they were doing just fine before. Sometimes with this job I feel like I was born onto a rocket ship and the first word I heard was ten.

#im a little uh #under the influence I suppose #(mostly just sugar) #but like. man Im so upset about every thing im so worried about my job #I just want things to be how week 2and3 were forever. but instead they keep doing weird shit #I hung out with someone who was fired today and hes like. 26 I think. an adult. and he was like. yeah that place sucked. #but he also sawthe fun in it!! #idk #I forgot what I was saying #I'm going to lay down now I think

[eerna]

"why did Orpheus turn to check if Eurydice is there if he can just return to Hadestown if Hades really did lie about letting her go" that's the thing. he can't. the only reason he can enter Hadestown without taking Hades' deal/dying is because the lalalas open the way for him. Eurydice only gave him a chance after he showed her the power of the lalalas. and in Doubt Comes In, his lalalas no longer work - twice he tries to call on them, and twice he fails. he has lost the ability to wield their magic because he stopped believing their power can change the world. if he leaves Hadestown and Eurydice isn't behind him, she will well and truly be gone forever. of course he turns around. of course he can't take those final few steps out of the Underworld without making sure the lalalas worked.

#hadestown liveblog #listening to doubt comes in west end bootleg on repeat and going AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #very much in the same vein as ''why should orpheus trust hades''. it's not about him trusting HADES it's about him believing in his mission #and holding true to his beliefs. THOSE are the things he betrayed. he was supposed to believe hades would fall under his influence. #and hades DID!! but orpheus no longer believed he could hold power over a king. #he was no longer the boy who noticed hades looking at eurydice and placed himself between them as if he could protect her. #WHICH IS WHY I AM ANNOYED THAT THEY TURNED IT INTO A JOKE. LIKE. BRO. it is supposed to be IMPRESSIVE. you're supposed to be like #''oh damn orpheus you're so brave???'' but no broadway turned it into a haha ''look at this pathetic kid defying hades'' moment #ANYWAY. ORPHEUS I LOVE YOU.

[adragonsdance]

Does anyone else ever think about how WC!Scott canonically brought Mertha back to life and there was a bit of hand waving like “Eeuuhh she was a goat that’s not to difficult” but really she was a human soul trapped in a goat’s body, so Scott could bring back a human soul by like, the middle of the trials, so he might have already been powerful enough to bring back Milo by that point or soon after, without having to go full Lich and do all the horrible things that ritual entails, but by that point he had convinced himself so thoroughly that the only way to achieve his goal was by becoming the Supreme Witch that it didn’t even cross his mind to try?

#something something a perceived solution to a goal becoming something we cling to #so hard that we keep ourselves from seeing any and all other solutions #even if they might be much easier and objectively better #something something clinging so desperatley to a possible solution or an all-consuming goal that reaching for the solution becomes #almost more important than achieving the original goal #becoming a lich is NOT A PRETTY PROCESS YALL #it involves doing a lot of bad stuff #that protagonists we are supposed to like generally avoid #like intentionally killing innocents #and surviving from the energy of their souls #generally things that should be avoided #i quite enjoy the angst of wc!scott getting moral whiplash from all the stuff he did after coming out of lichdom #and trying tp learn to live with all THAT #and the knowledge of what he was willing to do #possibly while under the influence of magical corruption #or maybe not #witchcraft smp #scott smajor #witchcraft scott #dragon brambles #wc!scott

[unityrain24]

"oh the loki in the series isn't the same as the one in infinity war because he got several movies-worth of character development scrapped. the tva version is all the way back from avengers 1, that's why."

ok but have you considered that maybe that doesn't even make sense for avengers 1 loki.?

#like the tva variant loki is supposed to be branched off from avengers 1 loki #but there isn't even any resemblance in that sense? #like loki's health in a1 was SHIT #he sort of hid it near the end but it still wasn't great #he was literally under influence of the mind stone AND tortured/blackmailed by thanos/the other/the black order #(WHICH IS CANON) #(ITS LITERALLY CANON AND THEY IGNORE AND EVEN CONTRADICT THAT) #he was still pretty graceful in that movie? there were a few scenes something silly/clumsy happened、 #but he was able to regain composure in a way that didn't invalidate his gracefulness? or intelligence? #he isn't comically over-animated or energetic either. #he is reserved. #all of that they just take away the moment the series starts #also loki speaks allspeak???? which literally was shown in a1 but then scrapped in like the first scene of the loki series? #AND IT WASNT EVEN JUST IN TERMS OF PERSONALITY AND CONTINUITY! IT WAS THE COSTUMING TOO! #like that was NOT what his hair looked like??? #very obviously?? #one of the main parts of a1 fandom was making fun of loki's long greasy spiky “christmas tree” hair????? #i hate this. i hate everything. #loki #mcu loki #anti loki series #anti loki show #loki series criticism #loki series hate #loki series critical #loki show hate #loki show critical #loki show criticism #unityrain.txt

[goldkirk]

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#I am struggling so hard to pinpoint where the lines are in discussions of situations like the franke and hildebrandt behaviors #because like ok #people keep being so outraged and angry and baffled that they viewed the kids as #deliberately willful and disobedient #and then transitioned into believing them to be infected with evil and or influenced or possessed by demons or under satanic influence #and that’s where everyone is like HOW COULD THEY THINK THIS HOW COULD THEY TELL THEM THAT HOW COULD THEY ETC ETC #and that’s where everyone loses me #like yeah. of course it’s wrong. of course it’s damaging and shitty. but like. what in the world is everyone so shocked and upset by #about that concept (not the physical abuse it caused obviously) #how are you shocked. how are you shocked? it’s just the logical conclusion of believing children have disobedient evil wills #like if you assume evil you’re only going to escalate from there. OBVIOUSLY #I don’t understand how it’s different #where do things cross these lines? no one explains that to me #normal life as usual while tons of kids including me spend years or decades believing we’re evil and under stubborn satanic influence #but in one of the rare situations where it rises to public awareness suddenly everyone is shitting bricks over it #I want those kids drowned in love forever and I wish it never happened to them and their situation #was definitely so so so extreme and severe and I am so glad R was so brave and desperate and got them out #but like. how is everyone so shocked #this is standard. this is common. there’s a huge subculture of people doing and believing this shit #like why is it different just because this case is so visible #so like how is it so hard for people to grasp that this is a widespread issue #I don’t understand #of COURSE it’s wrong to do to someone but like #so many parents and adults do so many of the things these two did just less #fewer hours. less intensely. not in a desert. not with handcuffs and shit. etc. #where’s the line legally? where’s the line culturally? #like how am I supposed to grasp that it’s not a problem until it’s at some level that #I know it’s all Bad but I mean in terms of when the populace starts to mass-care

[whippetcrimes]

Whyyy the y

#thats what i get for doing crafts under the influence i suppose #whippet #misdemeanor #dogblr #petblr

[furiosophie]

>> memory fragment, room 04, thunder wasp \\ not categorized

Now when he wakes up at night it's to Vanto’s hand already on his shoulder, stretched over the chasm of their beds, warm and real, an anchor against the emptiness of space around them.

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Thrawn reflects on his time spent at Eli's side.

POST·MOR·TEM  [READ ON AO3]

ship: Thrawn | Mitth'raw'nuruodo/Eli Vanto

words: 25 556, completed

tags: hurt/comfort, angst with a happy ending, canon-typical violence, slow burn, mutual pining, epistolary elments, pov thrawn | mitth'raw'nuruodo, more or less canon-compliant, same timeline just slightly gayer, starts soft and gets progressively worse, just like the books, forgotten moments in between, eli is a very competent aid, eli get thrawn to take a nap challenge, I just want to see my fav autistic coded characters being taken care off is that too much to ask, tactical bed sharing, tactical hand holding, thrawns life hack number 304: you do not have to feel your feelings if you pretend everything is a puzzle to be solved

series: pt 1/3 of postmortem - excerpts from former grand admiral mitth'raw'nuruodo’s private journal of catalogued memories

FILE 01 | FILE 02 | BORIKA INTERLUDE | FILE 03

#thranto #it's finally done #FINALLY #pt 1 anyway #i wrote this on trains planes and buses #under the influence of sedatives and painkillers #and edited with a fever #but the brainrot is real #gotta rotate the blorbos #this was not supposed to be 25k but here we are #anyway #enjoy #thrawn #eli vanto #it will not let me add alt text for some reason i'll try again in a sec sorry

[tweetsongs]

2ha is the PIDW that SQH could’ve written if he weren’t a coward

#look between him implying that bingjiu was gonna be the og ending before fans made him go the trashy harem route #and sj being a pathetic little meow meow actually #i'm RIGHT actually #i will say 2ha is somehow way less problematique then bingjiu #bc sj was in fact evil to bingge while mr was suffering from magical influence #but while the misunderstandings themselves were different the flavor stays the same #shizun was supposed to be lofty and untouchable and cold. someone who hated everyone #shizun was actually a deeply tragic lonely figure who was twisted by his background. someone who wanted a refuge #tbh at least wanning had xue zhengyong who was kind of his yqy #but u know without failing him and then never clearing things up or giving any kind of explanation lol #wanning is like if not every thread of potential communal bond in sj's life failed him #do i think sj genuinely has the capacity to be as deeply kind as wanning? no i think he's way more inherently pragmatic/selfish #where wanning is characterized by DEEP empathy and compassion behind his stoicism #but i do think they share this kernal of desire for genuine kindness buried under the walls the world built around them #svsss #2ha #shen jiu #<- adding for anyone who wants to block me being sj apologia on main

[astarionbae]

Science Fiction. Fond memories. And music. They’re the key to survival.  

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#ocappreciation #allaboutocs #fystocs #queerocs #stranger things oc #rylee prescott #fic: after dark #this gifset is supposed to be the times that she's under vecna's curse / influence and is trying to get back to reality #i tagged a few who showed an interest in rylee's posts if that's alright #my ocs #mine #my creation

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

When the only emotion that doesn’t trigger your laughter response is genuine joy.

#Every time I laugh for the benefit of others’ social situations it feels like I’m getting punched in the stomach and it’s being forced out #But at the same time it’s automatic and I can’t really stop unless I’m ready to collapse of exhaustion (even in private!) #If I didn’t have as good a reputation as I do people would probably think I’m under the influence #Everyone thinks it’s “cute” instead of concerning because I’m a girl and girls are supposed to be giddy #No wonder I have such a strong diaphragm lmao #It’s from lmao… every day… all the time #vent tw #“If I were an animal I’d be an owl” No Tarrie you’d be a hyena #I actually do sound like a hyena

[charrfie]

Can we all agree to start making shit for ourselves again. Can we actualy jump ship on something when we say we're going to do it? I'm sick and tired of having to rely on giant fuckin corporations because they've created a monopoly in the market!!

#YES this is about the youtube adblocker shit. im so fucking angry #it is fucking dystopian the way the internet has changed under the influence of capitalism and corporate greed #also before you ask yes i have ublock origin yes i use firefox #yes ive input the code i was supposed to in the my filters section of the extension #even if i do wind up figuring something out to avoid that damn pop up im furious that you have to jump through all these hoops #to get a thing that barely works #it is disgusting to me knowing that so many people out there dont even use adblock or dont realize thats an option #because of what corporations have lulled them into #im so fucking mad #laika originals #neg

[weaselishmcdiesel]

I still feel like I have used illegal substances after entering your tumblr

's amoazing

my love all im doing is answering silly asks with silly answers you should get better substances!!

#weasel speaks #asks! #all i know is one time i was around some people who were drinking and they were like wow youre so funny and youre not even drinking #and i was like ok cool what a . weird fuckin thing to say asdjkfh #what am i supposed to say asdfkj “and for my next performance i will be under the influence” lmfao idk #soryy. soory idk .

[hotmess-exe]

I just hate when it's not my fault

#i dont react well #to exterior influences or third parties being directly responsible for when shit happens #those little small errors someone else makes that fuck your life up #or the type of carelessness that completely fucks up your plans #that shit sends me spiraling so hard #too hard #its just been too long a life of exactly that happening from literally every angle possible #from mild inconvenience to severe consequence #really fucking upset rn #fuck wells fargo #and it never fucking matters that i did everything i was expected to do or supposed to do #nope go ahead and get hit in that crosswalk #yea you'll only be here for a summer then you'll go back home #yep you're all set go ahead and spend that money #fucking sick and tired of constantly being thrown under the bus #just because people dont fucking care what happens to me

[longagoitwastuesday]

I keep thinking of that reply in my Odysseus/Agamemnon post about how I regard differently Odysseus' and Agamemnon's actions, while acknowledging that at times Agamemnon is written as a sweet man and Odysseus is always straight up shitty, and how it was taken as some sort of defense for Agamemnon and as a form of pointing out the double standard; and that wasn't at all what the post was about for me, even though I can see where they were coming from. To be honest, given I didn't imagine it would spread anywhere other than my own blog, I didn't explain myself very well (or at all).

The fact is that when I talked about Odysseus not caring about hurting someone else's child to start and end a war I was indeed comparing his actions to Agamemnon's, but my words about supporting Odysseus' wrongs and cheering him in his terrible actions, while in a joking tone, weren't entirely a joke. I do think that Odysseus does some very shitty acts, and some quite terrible ones depending on the sources. That's a fact, that he does is at the core of his characterisation and it's what makes him so much fun; but not even when he is at his most cruel does he harm his family, his own son. Agamemnon, while sweet and loving at times in some texts, at his worst is willing to sacrifice Iphigenia. When readers regard with more sympathy Odysseus over Agamemnon despite both being responsible for children dying, I don't think there's a double standard in this aspect at all considering it's never his own kid Odysseus harms. And that's the key, I think.

Odysseus and Agamemnon have very different priorities, a very different view on loyalty and duty. It could be said that Agamemnon acts out of selfishness, but it could also be read in a kinder light, saying that Agamemnon is ruled by the gods first, and by his role as head of the achaeans; Agamemnon is not entirely himself. In opposition we see Odysseus acting perhaps mainly for himself and his own family and men; yes, he is a king, but he has not the role Agamemnon has. As a consequence, Agamemnon submits his family's wellbeing to the war, to the gods, while Odysseus stops the plow before hurting Telemachus but is (depending on the source) the cause of Iphigenia's sacrifice and Astyanax's death.

Both Odysseus and Agamemnon have reasons to support their actions, and both can be sympathised with; it's fiction after all. When it comes to fiction, at the end of the day which character a reader is drawn to or sympathises with is mainly an issue of personal taste, but I suppose it also implies a certain level of one's own views or preferences on morals, what makes us find certain actions more justifiable, or tasteful (perhaps that's a more accurate word), than others. Agamemnon sacrificing his daughter, no matter how sympathetic or understandable the reason, generally sits worse on people than Odysseus doing the same with someone else's kids, because they're someone else's. This different emotional reaction they provoke has place not just metanarratively, but also inside the very story; it is narratively significant, given it determines how their arrival home plays out, how their wives react to them, and thus their futures. Ultimately it determines whether they live or die.

I think both terrible acts go in line wonderfully with each characterisation, showcasing the role they hold in their world, what they value, what they care for, what they're willing to sacrifice for themselves and the others, how much of their own they're willing to give and bend. While looking at the wider picture it could perhaps be drawn that Agamemnon is the better person out of the two, but Odysseus' selfish actions are perhaps easier to empathise with, especially from a modern viewpoint. Odysseus is treacherous and prone to betrayal, but not against his own; Agamemnon follows the rules of the gods. How fitting in that context that Odysseus doesn't die at the end of his story, that he cheats the death heroes so often are fated to, almost as if cheating the narrative itself, bending the rules of the world he is ascribed to; how fitting in the context of those texts that point towards Sisyphus being his father. But that's another topic, and I've already talked a lot.

#Don't get me wrong. Odysseus is super shitty and this is a 'pick your poison' kind of situation #But I don't really think there's a double standard when it comes to the kids situation given that Odysseus doesn't sacrifice his own kid #I really think that's what lies at the core of this. Does that make him shittier and more selfish and a worse person? Actually yeah perhaps #But we are no kings with thousands of people depending on our decision yet cringe at the idea of hurting people close to us #It feels like betrayal. And this is where the moral preference takes the role. Which do you prefer? The one that would betray their family #for the greater good or the one who'd sell the world for their family and themselves? It's interesting because #while in fiction the first option is often the most frown upon while selfish actions for the beloved are easy to sympathise with‚ #in reality these are usually worse regarded. I didn't want to go there because I already wrote so much it didn't fit in the tags #but I actually think the same thing happens with Galahad/Lancelot. Heathcliff/Edgar I'd say has a somewhat similar situation going on #There are many many examples but mainly I was thinking of Galahad and Lancelot #So this is not an 'Odysseus did nothing wrong'. This is an 'Odysseus did many things very wrong but he didn't kill his son #so while both him and Agamemnon were the cause of death of kids‚ their action are not the same so there's no double standard regarding #the particular action of sacrificing Iphigenia. In fiction that kind of betrayal makes characters often unlikeable' #I guess that action 'stains' the view under which Agamemnon's actions are seen and so his character is often seen under a darker light #He is presented a bit as an antagonistic presence opposed to Achilles who is very popular so I guess that also influences this? #Anyway I've been elated by the musical causing Odysseus art and posts but I do have noticed that he is very goodified in it and that #it has influenced how he is being regarded around here (the way it happened with The Song of Achilles as well I suppose) #And I must say I like that less. He is shitty in a fun way but not in a light way. He is very shitty #Definitely not better than Agamemnon depending on the perspective you take. I can't believe I'm 'defending' Agamemnon #He is not my thing at all I'm all for selfish actions for oneself and the loved ones through manipulation‚ #lies and scams and letting the world drown if needed. In fiction Lancelot's‚ Odysseus' and Heathcliff's actions are a lot more preferible #to me than Galahad's‚ Agamemnon's and Edgar's. But yeah #I ALSO didn't want to go there because again it would have take me forever and I would run out of tags (yet here I am) #but there's also a Priam/Hector/Paris comparison in how they act and how they're regarded to be drawn here #Agamemnon/Iphigenia‚ Priam/Hector/Paris‚ Odysseus/Telemachus. And that is not even including everything with Elektra/Clytemnestra/Orestes #or Oedipus and his own family for that matter #But yes. I'll better shut up already. I'm talking a lot more than I intended #I just found that discussion super enthralling and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I still can't #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

Struck by the Tumble and Etcetera are cousins agenda this evening.

#not by blood but they're cousins <3 #Tumblebrutus #Etcetera #extemporize back chat #i get struck most effectively by like tiny coincidental relationships between cats in my hcs #tumble would only go along with asapargus to visit auntie jelly if he promised etcetera would be there #not because he doesnt like auntie jelly but because dad and her talk *forever* about boring stuff #and he gets so *bored* but at least if etcetera is there he can snatch her quietly from her basket and bring her outside to play #or she'll run out behind him when they come in and tackle him so he'll piggy back her out (he has no choice) #tumble isn't so good at the 'make sure she doesn't get into trouble' part #etcetera is very good at the 'hey! leave him alone! *reveals something extremely embarrassing about him #that inevitably makes it worse and he gets cross with her for involving herself but you know what actually #it's kinda nice she stood up for him but never do that again*' #'why are you dragging her along?' 'cause she's such a crybaby! 'i'm gonna tell! i'm gonna tell if you don't let me come!' #while etcetera sticks her tongue out at him #and when they're older they're keeping that good olde theatre cat generational tradition alive #because they're the ones left who...understand i suppose? #because they grew up fully under that influence #while jerrie and teazer were exposed to less of it #not for any other reason than they weren't super interested for the longest time #so tumble and cettie carry that quiet weight of mutual understanding

[absolute-flaming-trash]

Y'all might just get a fic out of this Nyquil-powered writing spell, we shall see in the morning when I look over this thing.

#riri rambles #it's either going to be really good or really shit #I don't trust myself under the influence of things that are supposed to simultaneously supress coughs while helping me sleep #riri talks fics #kinda #also delete later maybe