#ugh I love him more than I love myself

[sysig]

Blind side (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Gaster #Sans closing his good eye every once in a while and keeping his blind eye open - obviously he does so in-game as well so it's a style-match #It's just interesting in the context of him being textually-confirmed blind in Handplates hehe #There's a level of vulnerability there! Not more than closing both eyes around someone - and potentially also distrust! #''I'm baring myself blind right now but /you/ don't need to know that'' - it suits him ♪ #Especially when he does it around Papyrus! Because obviously Papyrus knows about his partial blindness #But when he's trying to be duplicitous - the way he looks at him sidelong with his blind eye when he's trying to lie unsuccessfully ugh <3 #And again-again it being about how much he trusts Papyrus! That he can be a little lazy or spacey and Papyrus will help him! #Also something about his entire right side being impaired - pawing around with his plated hand for something he can't see on that side #The dynamics! Internal and external! Very good like them lots #And then there's Gaster lol ♪ Throw him into the mix I'm sure it won't make a mess at all haha #I guess he's visiting? Just spacing out - he and Sans have a lot on their minds - separately haha #I do love how Sans pushes Gaster to be kind to Papyrus - very deservedly! He wants Papyrus to be happy of course #And he's obviously still angry with Gaster a lot but how might that present itself when Papyrus is Papyrus at Gaster hehe #Even just in that small jokey way of ''you tryin' to step on my turf?'' hehehe #Especially since the comparison wouldn't even come up if he had two functioning eyes hm?? Right Gaster???? Lol #Speaking of that scene and Sans' partial blindness tho ughhughuhg <3 <3 The fact that Sans stands with Gaster to his blind side #It's the vulnerability/distaste/confidence of it all! He's grown up so much it's all right there in how he holds himself #That he either trusts Gaster enough not to attack him - starting to believe him - or that he has enough faith in himself to protect himself #And only looking at him with his peripherals unless he looks directly at him hghhhgh I am Normal about shot composition I swear lol #Also I like how that last panel turned out lol - Sans just appears at the bottom of the steps like how's it going. care to gtfo thx

[sunshinediaz]

wip wednesday 🫧

hi <3 i was tagged by @giddyupbuck, @fortheloveofbuddie, @wikiangela, and @daffi-990 mwah thank you all so much!

i've been working on the heart attack fic, so have a little something sweet before it all goes sour

Eventually, Eddie and Albert return from their search. Albert sidles up next to Buck and grabs hold of the hose, offering support, while Eddie jerks hard on Buck’s turnout to spin him around. Buck notices he’s not wearing his oxygen mask or air tank and immediately starts fussing.  Eddie accepts Buck’s fretting with a dirty, crooked smile. “Gave my tank to one of the victims,” he says. “I’m going to triage for some oxygen.”  Buck’s chest tightens and he squeezes Eddie’s shoulder. “You okay?” he asks, a half yell. Their radios aren’t needed; they’re close enough to read one another’s lips.   “Yeah,” Eddie answers, frowning. Buck can see his tight lips and pinched forehead, a crinkle in the middle of his brow, and it’s equal parts endearing and worrisome. “Just—can’t take a deep breath. Air’s hot.”  “Are you—” “Just out of air,” Eddie interrupts, smiling softly. He tugs on Buck’s turnout again, something he must’ve picked up from Chris, and Buck steps impossibly closer, knees knocking into Eddie’s. “I’m okay.”  Buck nods, as placated as he’s going to be. “Be careful.” He squeezes Eddie’s shoulder once again before dropping his hand. “Follow the hose.”  “I will.” Eddie’s smile grows, crooked and bright. He fists Buck’s turnout and pulls him close, butting his forehead against the visor of Buck’s mask like an affectionate dog. “See you out there, cowboy.”  Dazed, a little mesmerized and a lot in love, Buck watches Eddie follow the hose carefully, quickly, until his figure’s concealed by smoke and he alerts over the radio he’s made it outside. He shakes his head, clears the warm fuzzy feeling Eddie always seems to cultivate when he’s sweet, and gets back to work.  Albert nudges his shoulder. “What was that about?”  Buck grins, cheeks hot. “I’ll tell you when you’re older,” he replies, chuckling at Albert and Hen’s twin bark of laughter.

no pressure tagging @eddiebabygirldiaz, @eddiediaztho, @callmenewbie, @wildlife4life, @watchyourbuck, @disasterbuckdiaz, @rogerzsteven, @thewolvesof1998, @folk-fae, @hippolotamus, @loserdiaz, @honestlydarkprincess, @made-ofmemories, and @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy, and anybody else!!

#if i put some work into this fic i might have it finished in a week #because it's kind of heavy? but also. buck gets to be mean and angry and i really REALLY like that so who knows #might even finish it by saturday but don't get your hopes up i am sore and achy and doing my best not to fall asleep right now #in other news it has a happy ending #and ALSO this is my first time writing from buck's pov???? he's different than eddie but not uncomfortable so we're on the right track #also ALSO i get to write chim and hen being a big brother and sister to buck and eddie and that's fun like why don't we take advantage more #something something eddie's the oldest child and grandchild so he's never been a younger brother but he is with hen and chim #they love him a lot :') #i'm gonna make myself mushy ugh #tag games

[skitskatdacat63]

I have to write a relatively long German paper, and man its just so difficult for me. The pro side is that I can pick any topic I want, so of course I picked Charles VI. But I've literally not written any German in months, and I'm almost 100% sure our prof doesn't actually read them. I should just write and submit boy king fic....

#i wish it was in English #bcs i would be very happy about it #but i have lost so much capacity for any German writing #bcs he sucks so much as a prof and has dropped the ball on actual language learning imo #how am i supposed to suddenly write a 7-8 pg paper after youve spent all our class time just lecturing at us #and giving us no real opportunity to really learn or test our skills #i shall.. probably just cheat. #LIKE i want to learn german so badly #but what the fuck is the point of even trying when i know im not going to get actual feedback on my writing #why should i even try at that point. put that much effort in and know that he doesnt really care at all #it just sucks so much bcs i genuinely love and am so fascinated w the topic #but the idea that id put so much work into translating it only for him not to read it really kills me #again. just submit boy king fic and see if he notices sjfkgllblb #but do you know what i mean? like im sure ill write a good version in english that i think is actual good content #but translating it is such a lost cause bcs all the effort is reallt for nothing #like atp im jusy interested in the history more than making an effort w the language #ugh i wish i wasnt this way but yknow lack of stimulation anf feedback really kills my enjoyment and interest #like see i can convince myself that thr eng version of teh paper is my typical personal research #<- i mean im making a fucking family tree for funsies so this isnt that far off #but the translation part is so difficult bcs my german has been eroding a bit SOB SOB #lol anyways i say this bcs i was plotting a boy king fic in my head as i was goong to bed #and was like oh i shoulf write it out tmr! and then remembered I HAVE AN ESSAY UGH #well yeah. suffering. we'll see how i feel abt i write the original copy and if i have the capacity to germanify it #i just feel so guilty about it. cheating. I dont want to and it feels so low effort and terrible #but why would i force myself thru all that for a guy who barely reads it #catie.rambling.txt

[pekoeboo]

feeling Emotional tonight and i ended up crying ugly tears thinking about Khalan again. it's always the songs from my character playlist that get me good, man 😭

#if i knew how to do animatics. BOI #y'all would be in for a treat #but alas i cannot ;n; #so it's just something that will forever stay in my head and only i will cry about because idk how to share what i see with the world #i just. ugh. i love khalan so much #the thing that was getting me specifically tho was like. #thinking about how much Aya changes him when they first meet #how she encourages him to be brave. to go beyond his comfort zone and be More than what he believes he can be #idk maybe i'll share the specific song if anyone's interested #putting this on my art blog tho because it's about my oc #i'm kinda trying to get over my strictness of how i manage this blog #and sometimes let myself post things that aren't always Just Art #anyway sorry for all the tags #might delete later idk #my ramblings #text post #oc #khalan al shariq #primordial smp

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Opinions on Dream? :^

SO many feelings about him omgg rant under cut please forgive me

okay so i don't really talk or draw him much cause honestly,,,most of the times i just think he's a bit....boring? or more accurately plain? not in a mean way either but just in a 'fades into the background' type of way like don't get me wrong!! he's a really nice friend to his peers, his feelings about his powers and aura making his relationships harder to navigate and trust along with his whole conflict with nightmare and morality about what's good and bad IS very cool!! and i love it whenever they write him to be complex and not on this black and white mentality or when he's just straight up following along his friends with no free will or with a dubious purpose without ever addressing his issues or feelings! it's just unsatisfying to me :')

or when they're making him the 'naive' and oblivious, (sometimes childish?) character being marked as the obstacle and villain along with the other star sanses from the fic's pov, always talking about doing good things while fighting his brother and not hearing him out about the balance, (and for weak reasons most of the time. like it's been so long and you STILL haven't sat down with him when he's, generally, basically begged you to just have a talk? guys please :'( ) or when they go for the victim sad dream always missing the old nightmare, where corrupted nightmare is the incarnation of evil, with no sympathy or emotion except anger and sadistic glee, killing and hurting everyone and dream's just trying to protect the multiverse and dream's always been in the right. such extremes!!!

LIKE!! i hope i'm not the only one that thinks a 500+ year old should have had enough time to idk. learn things? about people and manipulation and deceit? after knowing what the villagers did to night? about the bad things in the world and how there's a lot of grey areas in life and that he maybe reflected on his past enough to process and ask himself if there should to be a convo to settle his differences with nightmare (and you can make nightmare the stubborn one too! or have them BOTH be petty and imperfect and have some things wrong and some right at the same time like why do i always see the good guy vs bad guy cliché with these two when they're the perfect example of why positivity doesn't have meaning without the negativity!! as long as there's a satisfying evolution or growth that doesn't leave me empty i'm good yknow?)

plus i believe dream really isn't as dumb as people view him. i do get some of you saying he probably can't read or write since that's actually a pretty interesting idea to explore! but in general please let him have emotions other than pure sunshiny happiness or endless sadness like he's gotta have more depth than that! let him make mistakes, have flaws that don't just make him the bad guy that's always in the wrong by default, and be angry or suspicious or jealous or bitter or battling his mental health problems/depression or malicious or smart or witty or mischievous and silly or sarcastic or ANYTHING dude i just want him to be put into different scenarios where he can be serious or lighthearted like it doesn't even have to be long or perfect but make him feel real.

it could definitely be that i don't read or see much art about dream or really look for it hard enough but also i just. i feel bad for even saying this fr and i wanna be honest about why i don't enjoy most stories about him cause he always gets the worst treatment along with ink!!! especially ink omg the poor guy has it the worst i think like wow do they mess him up :'(

always one dimensional in non shippy fics, or too plain or easily replaceable by other, more entertaining people in the significant other's life in most of his ships like man. i have read fics out there that made me genuinely FEEL and root for him and love his character so much it restored all hope for me!!! but i can only name one on top of my head and the others? it's been so long i don't even remember their names i just legit feel terrible cause i love him still and i can't find many headcanons that fit my interpretation of him yknow?

not to say people who write him very happy, mislead or sad are ruining him like that's silly- if i see something i don't like i just. move on bro i wouldn't force people to feel or think the same way i do about him cause anyone can have whatever headcanons they want!!! just talking about what i personally look for in him and why i can't exactly find it since most of the stuff out there just isn't my cup of tea :')

hopefully i didn't set anyone off with this rambling opinionated essay i just pulled hhh xD i know i know he's a popular character and i know a lot of people like dream so *sobs* please please recommend me artists and fics about him that you think is good it's been so looong since i've read or seen anything new that makes me attached to this little guy aughg<33333

#ask #rambling #delete later? #probably xD i just wanna love him SO much but sometimes he's just *sigh*...forgettable #i tried to explain myself but also it's like 4 am and i skimmed through the proofreading so don't take this too seriously HHH #like really even when i do read good fics about him he's not on the forefront of my mind and it's painful to me :'( #i used to see him as my third fav but now? ever since i've read and seen characters who get heavier more in depth plots? #i can't say it with as much confidence :') and dream lovers out there i am not bashing your choice or even your headcanons #to each their own but i really wanna hear someone be passionate about him in my feed or askbox like TELL me about him #i've seen ink rants out there that are FIRE like so true!!! but where's the dream defense team??? #maybe it's just me tho :') btw i still like cream but not the same way as before if i'm being real #it feels the same...all of it and it makes me wanna bite something ARGHGG #i know i know i ship some stuff that's basic too hhh but dream and cross are always written the same and dream is too innocent #and nightmare is too weird in some of these fics like if MY brother ever tried to literally attack my hypothetical partner???? #i wouldn't give him the :'((( sad face and weakly tell him to 'please stop...you're hurting him'' like NO girl they're TWINS #they're the same age i would tell him to BACK off and not insert himself in my love life after years of ignoring and fighting LIKE #especially since most of the time cross is actually good to dream and all- so he doesn't have a good reason to disrupt his bro's dates #UGH i just have so many opinions but basically i would love him a lot lot more than i do now if they also let him be more flexible #and shake things up like with shattered and stuff! gimme alternate versions of him even if it's too ooc like we do for all the other sanses #jaa i am SO sorry you had to read all that dude thank you so much for passing by :'D

[todayisafridaynight]

YEAH........... YEAH..... LIKEWISE, NO NOTES AT ALL, THAT'S EXACTLY IT... Main antagonist deaths are often treated as "comeuppance," but that would be the ultimate comeuppance for Aoki. As it stands, the only people who actually suffer for it are Ichiban and Jo, and Ichi didn't even do anything wrong. Also please I'm positive there's more to wring out of Aoki and Jo for an essay 😭😭at the very least, I always love to hear your perspective!

"he'd made a social circle for himself where people predominantly liked him for the power and influence" <- incredibly Mine-core of Aoki btw (I also feel the rest applies a little in terms of Mine probably being very quick to write off people who Do care about him as not caring about him, as with Katase, but it's nowhere near the extent of the Arakawas)

Wait actually it's kind of funny... for both Mine and Aoki, I was so sure their endings would go a certain way. Mine and Kiryu'd fight Richardson off together and Ichi'd, I don't know, shield Aoki or hug him so Kume couldn't get to him in the first place, or after that INSANE direct parallel to Arakawa running to the hospital with Masato, he'd miraculously pull through like he did on New Year's. Tormented with visions of the better timeline... With Aoki in particular, it makes me want to tear my hair out because the moment of him choosing to put the gun in the locker was REVOLUTIONARY for the series, looking at the characters he was most heavily based on.

Anyway. Bottom line. These bitches need to hug it out. It was so evil Arakawa didn't hug Ichi at Omi HQ or on the waterfront like bro stop being """manly""" for five seconds you're ruining my life you're ruining your own lives

There'd genuinely be nothing more painful yet more satisfying for an antagonist than being confronted with the consequences of their actions and having to navigate life after having making those decisions, ESPECIALLY when it comes to mending the bonds that- for anyone else- would have shattered long ago. With Aoki being motivated by the want to be loved and appreciated for himself, it would've been nice to see him finally acknowledge that he did have that love and start to better himself as a result (however much he'd be able to while in prison anyway lmao).

The Mine and Aoki comparisons are so real though, I remember joking to myself about it days after beating the game but it just fuels my mental illness every time I think about it ☠️ I LEGALLY AM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OFF ABOUT THE Y7 ENDING I'VE DONE IT TOO MUCH it makes me so mad every time I think about it 😭 ESPECIALLY THE PARALLELS WITH ARAKAWA AND THE LOCKERS UGGGHHH IT COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH AN EPIC CONCLUSION WITH THAT... Arakawa running from the lockers at the start of Aoki's life compared to Ichiban running from the lockers and getting Aoki to the hospital so Aoki can restart life I'm Going To Kill Someone (myself) (in Minecraft)

#snap chats #theres a note here about aoki's self hatred and ergo his inability to believe people could love him without 'worth' #and some kind of. I Dont Know occurs that comes with aoki accepting that love and ergo At Least Tolerating himself #and again becoming better as a person as a result. not WHOLLY you cant undo Everything Wrong With Him with one therapy session #but itd at least be a start and thats far more than anything else rgg has given since like. ryuji in dead souls #but w/e i- as per usual- have the vocabulary of a walrus so we're just gonna have to imagine i said something profound #AND THE LACK OF HUGGING IN THIS FRANCHISE IM GOING TO STAB ALL OF YOU. IN MINECRAFT. #with the power of delusions and this like seven-year-old wacom tablet i can fix that...... #it'll never be enough it'll never fill the void in my soul but it'll be something i guess #BUT UGH NO SORRY IM JUST MAD NOW #nothing in my life has ever genuinely triggered anger in me than the y7 ending its just soooooooOOOOO #IT WAS SOOO CLOSE TO BEING PERFECT I CANT #im going to give myself a blood clot thinking about it anymore i feel my heart stopping Do Not Call An Ambulance I Cannot Afford It #so to stop myself from going in any more debt than i already am..... the possibility of any essays from me are very small #my ability to use words is near non existent. i feel like a right ninny sometimes #in any case im not sure what else i could expand on that isn't restating what you've said #cant ever be upset with bein on the same wavelength tho it gives my inarticulate ass a helluva easier time trying to explain LMAO #plus im petrified of trying to interpret anything from the english dub or english subs #and looking into language use is Very Much important when dissecting abusive relationships #i guess there's always just talking about general actions committed and not inspecting the exact words used #idk.. at the very least ill rotate the concept in my head and then fend off the urge to eat my teeth #i'm gonna throw up.... im still thinking of it........ gonna make an unrelated-but-arguably-related post in like three seconds #dont look at it its cringe

[bernthalized]

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#lmao I have posts in the queue?? I added them months ago I guess #okay maybe it's time to come back?? #yeah I was confused and ugh this whole situation pffff #but I still love jon still fucking love that stupid mfucker #so cancelling him for something what his friends did? no #please don't @ me I'm so so so tired of dealing with this shit that keeps happening of dealing with horrible people #tired of my heart being broken #the last few months I keep seeing people I thought were good and kind are turning into monsters #jon is definitely not the worst person in my life #and not worse than me #soooo #I'm here #hope you're here too #(btw I haven't watched the sh*a episode just couldn't make myself watch it so I don't really have an opinion) #(as someone who experienced abuse I can't I just can't pffff) #(maybe later when I'm more mentally stable lol) #💬 blah blah blah

[kebiday]

okay i'm sorry i'm not done thinking about thoroughbreds kandrew. (hyping myself up) it's fine. it's fine. it's my blog with no followers & i can be as delusional as i want

#i want to make it work so bad. #miss popular kevin taylor joy & adopted brother/uncle... mister 'emotionless' ambiguous disorder minyard who has so many emotions in him... #ugh. but the horse is so crucial to the narrative. how can we insert a horse in andrew's backstory. #not that i doubt his ability to be a horse girl it's just that the upper class childhood friends setup leans kevineil instead #i believe in neil wanting kevin to be the one to get out between the two of them too so he's not Unviable per se #but the rest is so kandrew i want it to work for kandrew. love & sacrifice & betrayal & friendship #'...i did it because i think i loved you. because i think i still so. and because i knew how happy you could be— #so much happier than i ever could— but how tied down you were by your own fear and guilt.' (<- ENOUGH!!! ENOUGH!!!) #i think kevin has more love in him than lily too. which is worse unfortunately #s/o to mari i'm thinking about the passage in tnotg about andrew always thinking he'd die in kevin's arms #he would be laughing and kevin would be sobbing and wailing and it would be tragically comic! or perhaps comically tragic! #OHHHHH (CHASING AFTER MYSELF WITH A KNIFE) #sorry this is too niche. i have animals rotating in my brain #kandrew #mimithoughts

[mugirmu]

ive heard of lots of people having frequent crash issues when playing dragon age origins on pc, but ive been lucky... 3rd crash ever was just now in the battle of denerim 😭😭😭 its no big deal because im a frequent saver, not even at the archdemon yet either, but RIP my immersion HSKDBSBDKS

#AAAGH THIS GAME IS SO GOOD I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT #all today ive finished the landsmeet and every other thing i wanted to do or check up on and this past hour or so? battle of denerim babyyy #when i played as a wee lad i never got past the assemble your armies part of the game #ive done so so much more than i ever had and im about to finish it!!! i really am!!!! #i LOVED the landsmeet and EVERYTHING SINCE THEN its so EPIC and da:o is a GREAT FUCKING GAAAANE #FOR FERELDEN!!! FOR THE GREY WARDENS!!!!!!!!!!!! GO KING ALISTAIR GOOOOO #anyway time to load in and do this one battle again i was almost finished with it >:((( #oh also HOLY SHIT RIP RIORDAN like i knew he had to die because the sacrifice is up to me but NOOO I WAS SCREAMING #also i had planned earlier to do morrigan's ritual (male warden) but when actually making the decision.... it was hard #i was thinking of what my warden would do. that he was totally ready to make the Sacrifice if he had to. and protect alistair the soon-king #but in the end i decided that zevran was more important to him than following honor in this situation #in death; sacrifice. but not today #also speaking of pre-made choices i almost backed out on: i also planned to have alistair rule alone #and he is! thats what ended up happening and im happy with it. but i sat there for like 15 minutes debating with myself #on if i should marry him to anora and have them rule jointly or not #but no :) maybe another playthrough #i LOVED the cutscene of alistair executing loghain. who can deny his ascension when he beat the snake in an honorable duel #ugh i know im ranting but ive never played or even seen videos of the landsmeet and the battle of denerim before and im SO EXCITED #YOU!! YES YOU!! LISTEN HERE!! IF YOU LIKE FANTASY YOU SHOULD REALLY PLAY DRAGON AGE ORIGINS #i know ive already spoiled it some but uwu forget

[noxtivagus]

WAKING UP TO THE NEW TALES FROM THE DAWN !?!

#tag later #I SHOUTED WHEN I SAW HERMES . #MY HEAD ACHES RN BUT IT'S OK BCS MY BABY BOY HERMES!!!! #I HAVEN'T EVEN READ IT I JUST LOOKED AT THE PICTURE.... I LOVE HIM SO MUCH PLEASEEE #i rmber first seeing him in-game n i immediately got attached!!!! he's so pretty n his voice is so beautiful and HE'S SO GENTLE. #i'm afraid to read the story i think i'll cry. i love him that much. bb needs a hug T_T #NO BCS I ALSO KIN HIM... N HE'S SO TRAGIC. I LIKE SAD PPL SO MUCH ?? UGH I FUCKING HATE IT HERE #whenever i think of those enw scenes i clearly remember his voice. the emotion in it n how soothing it his #ngl he's more my type than emet-selch bcs he's also infp n he's so. next to cats / birds are actually my second favorite animals #and blue is my favorite color.... so w meteion that. yeah. #I'M TOO NERVOUS TO START READING I CAN FEEL IT I'M GNA CCRY #FUCK. I STARTED CRYING AT THE FIRST SENTENCE' #he reminds me so much of myself n that's why i'm so in love. #I'M ACTUALLY CRYING. EVERY SINGLE WORD SPEAKS OUT TO ME SO MUCH #I CAN'T EVEN WRITE IT DOWN ANYMORE. THE WRITING HURTS SO MUCH I'M SPEECHLESS #blue like the fucking sky #'meteion' crying i can hear his voice #stroking his hair.... i see so much of myself in this story for fuck's sake i'm too in shock to shed even more tears rn #'that hope did not last'. that hurts so much. that hurts so fucking much #i finished reading n i'm at a loss for words. it's been a while since i felt this way. i'm an utter mess #his desire and yearning for truth.... is something i relate with so much #from start to end. i didn't even cry /a lot/ n i think it's because #i relate with it so much. it hurts in that way. which is why. i can't. #& when hermes talked about the wol. it felt like he was talking about /me/... that hurt so much #n when he talked about himself and his experiences. i saw much of my own self in them. we're so similar it hurts #'What Hermes had glimpsed in her gentle countenance was neither kindness nor forbearance / but strength.' #'A person who / despite turning the Elpis flower a sorrowful hue / could continue to smile.' #'And so he gazed into her eyes / the same striking blue as her wings / and recalled the days that had led them to this reckoning.' #the writing is so poetic in a way that's so reminiscent of my own self. i relate w the themes in his character so much #every word reminds me of myself. from 'acceptance' to 'chaos' to 'choice' and 'blame' and 'answer'

[backslashdelta]

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#mine #personal #venting ahead sorryyyyyy please feel free to skip #ugh sometimes I forget how small-town the place I live is #like the people I surround myself with are generally pretty good #maybe not as aware as I am ofsome things and the ''correct'' language to use but like. they've got the spirit you know? #and I do think the intent and beong a good person is more important than having the most up to date vocabulary #I'm not gonna label anyone a bad person if their terminology is a little putdated you know? #but then theres stuff like what I just had to deal with #where my neighbours who are lovely people were having a fire in their backyard and asked me to come join them #so I did and a few of their friends were there #and one of them was uhh... questionable imo with some things he was saying but whatever #and then. THEN. #''I'm not prejudiced but-'' followed by possibly the most prejudiced thing I have ever heard spoken irl #and I just- #I guess I forgot there are genuinely people put there like that #and nobody said anything and some even agreed with him #and I didnt say anything because at that point I wasnt even sure if it would be safe to like... I genuinely felt a little unsafe. #so I'm not upset about how I reacted because I know I shouldnt have to make myself feel unsafe just to try to educate someone who #probably wouldn't listen anywY #but like. fuck. I just hate people.

[ribbonmiku]

shoutout to the psychiatrist intaking my information the last time i applied for disability who i told i had non-verbal learning disorder only for him to write in my rejection letter "they have a learning disorder and are non verbal" and then told me to go work in a factory about it

#i can SOCIALIZE JUST FINE #IN FACT I LOVE RETAIL AND IM VERY GOOD AT IT #but if i work more than 20 hours a week for 3 consecutive weeks i'll have have a burnout so bad i cant get out of bed #i cant do anything that requires thought i cant take care of myself i cant do ANYTHING but lay in bed and cry because im so tired #EVERY TIME IVE TRIED #YEAH. I'LL GO WORK IN A FACTORY ABOUT IT #asdfasldlj and i TOLD him that but he was not listening to a WORD i said #ugh. #txt

[ame-chansalt]

I miss A <3

#I dont remember what he looks like anymore #or acts like #or his voice #or anything really #i just miss him #ugh this is so embarassinh #i wanna kill myself sm. #but then again i wont see him anyway #im more in love with fictional characters than i ever was with him #he doesnt feel real sometimes #sometimes i think he never existed #its like a fleeting dream #i miss him #but he was so dreamy #it feels like a nightmare now #I just wanna be with him again #i miss you adam #But you're dead now so whatever ig #nobody remembers you #but me

[pizzabookbuying]

thinking about the fanfic I read where one of the characters upon his death traveled back in time and how I was like oh cool I love second chance fics but then the timeline ended up making him like early 20s while his eventual love interest was like 12 and I was like…oh…maybe he’ll leave because it’s too weird for him and then when he eventually comes back they’ll actually have to meet again that’s kind of cute.

But no. No. He stayed there. And she developed a crush on him. And his pov was sooooo creepy ffff ugh the things I end up reading for a rarepair because I’m desperate for fics

#I want to be very clear I did not like this fic the grooming undertones were very creepy #but it sucks because the writing itself was good so I kept getting my hopes up that the writing would use their talent for good #also it wasn’t tagged for any of the creepy stuff going on ughghgh #the pairing is so good too and the time travel death could actually work so well #the pairing is the background romance of a love triangle and he’s the one she doesn’t choose because she’d always loved someone else #but she is like…engaged to him at one point?? idk #ugh the time travel fic where he goes back in time and is like ok km removing myself from this equation because I know I’ve always loved you #more than you’ve loved me #but in canon she actually ??cares about him a lot but just never lets on??? so that would be so interesting to #explore in a fic!!!! why did it have to be #CREEEEEEPYYYYY

[channieblossoms]

so i saw yet to come in the theatre earlier… idk how to put everything i’m feeling into words but it was so incredible, so special, such an amazing time. the songs they performed, the cinematography of it, everyone dancing and singing and screaming together, their ending ments that made me cry…. like i truly don’t even know what to say but i felt so full of love and such a sense of belonging, which is not always easy for me to feel. every time they tell us not to worry, to trust them, that we’ll make it through the difficult times together and continue to grow up together forever, it just… feels so reassuring and good and. idk how to explain it but tonight pulled me out of a depressive slump i’ve been stuck in. something about singing the lyrics of zero o’clock with them and a room full of people just. fixes something in you. plus everyone in my theatre was so energetic and so lovely, getting up and dancing together, crying together.. and after the concert this girl gave me a jimin polaroid just because, just walked up to me and said this is what she has left and she wants to give it to me, and now it’s one of my favourite pcs i have.

so yeah. they won’t see this and every army already knows that specific feeling they give you, but i just wanted to make a post because i’m feeling it really strong tonight. i’m just really grateful for them and the way they’re always there for me and the way they make everything feel okay. and i am greatly looking forward to the day they’re all on stage together again.

#feeling cheesy love them big time #happy to be feeling real emotions again because of them #also getting a jimin polaroid (of this concert) means so much to me bc he RLLYYY got to me like more than usual #like he’s always been my comfort person. they all are but him and jin a little differently.. and i kinda rly want a jimin url now but idk #also jin’s ments and the way ppl cheered his name….. made me cry for real #also not to mention how fucking HOT they were i didn’t even know what to do with myself but that’s another story agsjwhdkejs #but ugh?? cypher 3?? HOBI IN GENERAL???? i am very overwhelmed #ANYWAY. this is discombobulated i’m just feeling a lot of things for them

[lewisvinga]

that’s my girl | lance stroll x fem! reader

summary; lance’s fans hated y/n for her personality and willingness to defend him and herself at any cost. however, their views on her change when a fan meets her and posts all about it

fc; tara yummy

warnings; suggestive comments

taglist; @namgification

note; requested! i’ve been obsessed w tara yummy lately but yall my requests are closed atm, i’ll open them soon once i finish w the requests i have rn 😫 so pls bear w me n be patient 🙏

masterlist !

liked by lance_stroll, lilymhe, and others!

yourusername: my man bought me chanel. sick.

username: not her not tagging lance…

yourusername: don’t want people looking at what’s mine 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

lance_stroll: acting like you weren’t begging for a bag and a pair of shoes🤣

yourusername: not u exposing me 😩

lance_stroll: just telling the truth 🤫

lance_stroll: anything for my girl❤️

yourusername: wahhh

username: i wanna be like y/n

yourusername: to be like y/n, u gotta have the y/n mindset 💆‍♀️💆‍♀️

username: she ate this tho icl

username: ugh i don’t like her, she’s such a gold digger and it’s so obvious

yourusername: gold digger is when girl receives bags from millionaire boyfriend🤕

username: she’s so ugly and unclassy, idk why lance is dating her

yourusername: you’re pretty unclassy, but while we’re at it, lance just made out w me 😁😁

lilymhe: WOWWWW you’re so hot i can treat u better than him

yourusername: i can treat u better than alex bae

liked by lance_stroll, carmenmmundt, and others

yourusername: i 🖤 st tropez

username: here she goes again w the not tagging him💀💀💀

yourusername: big deal , i’m literally sitting on him and he watched me post this 🥱🥱

username: THE SECOND PICTURE???? IS SO???😩😩😩😩😩

username: omg the second picture i’m gonna go crazy

username: who even took the last picture?

yourusername: my boyfriend 🔥

lance_stroll: beautiful as always😍

yourusername: gonna give you a big fat kiss

username: i actually like her but he’s all daddy’s money, she should date some other driver who earned his spot

yourusername: LMFAOOO, babe most drivers on the grid ARE nepo babies and come from rich families 💀 yall just mad that lawrence is a loving father 🤕🤕

username: she ate this one thing up

username: i love her idc attitude idk

username: i don’t! she’s so mean and disrespectful to lance’s fans, it’s so nasty

yourusername: no i just defend myself and lance, maybe if yall weren’t coming at my neck every 5 seconds i’d be nicer 🥱🥱

carmenmmundt: GORGEOUS 😍

yourusername: NOOO YOUU😩

liked by lance_stroll, yourusername, and others

f1wagupdates:

a fan met y/n l/n while in new york city! she said that y/n was super nice, complimented her outfit, and even introduced her to lance! turns out the black cat of the paddock is super sweet!

tagged; yourusername, lance_stroll

username: her smile :( she looks so sweet

username: ugh i love her idc what yall think

username: omg omg i was that girl, she even gave me her lip gloss bc i asked about the shade😩

yourusername: lmk what u think bb bc the formula is so chefs kiss

username: omg shes in nyc??? i need to meet her nowww

yourusername: for a couple more days, may or may not pop up in saks tmrw at noon🤭

username: y’all were just bitter she’s dating your fave!! y/n will always be her

username: u could never catch me hating on mother

yourusername: i promise you guys i’m not scary😩😩 i’ll just defend my man or myself whenever 🤷‍♀️

lance_stroll: y/n is the sweetest girl i’ve ever met. she’s made me the happiest man ever. hating on her means hating me. i would take legal action against some people who leave nasty comments but y/n’s against it. she’s the best girl i could ever ask for. liked by yourusername, f1wagupdates and others!

lance_stroll: but that’s my girl ❤️

lance_stroll: and that ladies and gentlemen is how to make the y/n l/n giggle

yourusername: STOP EXPOSING ME😖

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