#two but I’ve never met them

[seagull-scribbles]

I want you to tell ‘em that you love the way that they don’t stick out like sore middle fingers

[Continuation of this]

#TMNT 2012 #casey jones 2012 #raphael hamato #rasey #this is platonic again but I’m not against romantic subtext or whatever #when I was in school being able to do this with your hand was super cool and I often still do it with both #but I’ve met both adults and kids who’ve never seen it before and it freaks them out ahaha #anyway I was jus thinking of hands again and this is a warm up sketch #but i do think thee two would have heart to hearts on rooftops sometimes and really open up #maybe theyre sat next to eachother and raph looks at his thigh next to Casey’s and gets self conscious #maybe one of them was hurt in a fight (probably Casey) and theyre patching eachother up and they just start exploring their differences #or maybe its something as simple as raph asking casey if he was Tarzan and the scene with the hands and Casey’s like yo we can do that #or even more childish theyre just doing it to see who’s hands bigger because Casey’s sister has been doing it a lot and its fun #because let me tell you it doesnt matter how old the kids i work with are they all love comparing my hand with theirs #but i imagine Raphs eyes for a second would give away hes upset a little cause he’s definitely the most self conscience about being a mutant #so Casey would do this and be like ahh look see we arent that different really #raph could bend his fingers to emphasise how much shorter Casey’s are #and cause would say something like these digits might be small but theyre mighty #leading to a shove or even a thumb war or something #anyway ill stop gushing i have a comission to do xxx #OH OH OH THE BITE MARK ON CASEY IS BECAUSE A MUTUAL COMMENTS ABOUT EATING MY RASEY ART SO THATS THEIR TEETH but im not naming names....

[skhardwarevers1]

is there such a thing as a second bisexual awakening

#Realizing I wouldn’t be opposed to dating a man it’s just the fact that I haven’t met a guy I actually liked (excluding el cuz) #(Cuz at the time I considered myself homo flexible and therefore dating guys wasn’t really my thing???? I guess???) #But like no shit I’ve never wanted to date a guy (esp the cis ones) they’re all dickheads. Honestly! Sure they’re nice enough to be friends #But eehhhhh I don’t like them that much #(Excluding the like two cishet guys I actually consider good friends—still would date either of them though) #Then again it also might just be a t4t issue hitting me on the head repeatedly with a metal pipe cuz cis guys don’t have my full trust #Anyway long story short: I might have been right the first time around (about being bi) #And for lack of better words: I quite literally have no met the right guy yet #I can totally envision a future in which I do. But right now? No. #S.K MIGHT have been right the first time around #S.K thinks

[betheny-esda]

at 29 years old, i am now confident in saying frat parties suck, but i do miss the commitment to a Bit

#some of the most incredibly ~niche~ parties i’ve ever been to #i went to one once that was a ‘wedding’ and they separated people into bachelor and bachelorette parties with strippers #and at midnight they had a five minute ceremony and then there was a reception #my weirdest though was a wake that they held annually for a different member #i got invited as a date by someone that i never met - we all had to wear black and sit in the dirty basement #we watched a two hour home documentary the guys spent putting together of the dearly departeds life while he sat in a coffin #there was an intermission and they plied him with alcohol the whole time #i then watched that man and his friends run for local government and one of them was my parents rep for years

[herawell]

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#negativity cw #was looking at old photos of my parent when they were dating/newly married #and it’s very bittersweet #they were just a year or two older than me when they first met #and I can see how much I look like both of them #especially my dad for the first time #I’ve never really seen my resemblance to him before #but I can’t forget my mom telling me every year since im 13 im the reason they have marital issues #and that they’re going to divorce because of me #and my dad is going to have a heart attack and die because of me #and they’re going to have to sell the family home bc of me #and my siblings are going to grow up in a broken home bc of me #and she’s going to [redacted] herself because of me #and even now that I’m an adult and financially independent and moved out #and the drama of my middle/high school/college years are behind us #she does not feel any guilt or remorse over it #and still very much blames me #their anniversary is coming up in the new year and they are not seeing a gift from me

[ocdhuacheng]

BROS I CAME HOME FROM WORK TO FIND THAT SOMEONE HAD GIVEN US A WHOLE ASS TELESCOPE‼️‼️‼️ FOR FREE‼️‼️‼️

#hi thank you I love it I love you #I’ve never met them before but apparently they’re an old couple my mom runs into a lot when she takes the dog for a walk in the morning #and she said she told them about the eclipse last week ans the star party in September #and they were like oh we have a telescope we don’t use do you want it? #:O !!!!????!!!!!!!! #bros….. it’s so beautiful…… #it’s on the smaller side but who cares it’s free #it’s a cassegrain and motorized so it’s fancy too #alt azimuth mount and the tripod looks decently stable #and it came with like 8 eyepieces a Barlow and a set of color filters #basically all we need now is a polarizing filter tbh #THIS IS CRAZY #I was pissed off about that guy at work but this just made my day #I need to thank them #.txt #have to bring it to a club meeting to have someone look at it to get it collimated and stuff before we use it #Oogh I’m excited. now we have two telescopes :) #the one we borrowed from the club for the star party was really fun too. that one was a reflector. and the one we already have is a refracto #*refractor. I’ve never used a cassegrain before :0

[peapod20001]

Haha I’m so </3 lonely

#vent #soary I’m late night posting random negative shit I’m just feeling late night negative #sighh </3 maaaan!! #wasted like two hours zoned the fuck out thinking negative things about my relationships and just fucking mauling my fingers #hmmgnnhmm </3 I would like to talk..I wouldn’t mind it..it sucks that I can’t do super good conversation in a text format #an I. keep questioning why people are my friends or view me so highly even tho I’m. not super worth it haha #ahh.. wondering if people actually like. REALLY know me or if I’ve somehow gaslit them into thinking I’m some great person khsghsn #trying to navigate my feelings about things and people. I just really dislike people I’ve never even met and idk why but I don’t like them #and don’t wish to be their friend or ever deal with them. just cause! #that’s not about anybody here btw you can probably tell when I don’t like someone cus I’ll just barely answer or acknowledge them #actively ignore them.. yadda yadda. eugh #crying! yea. that’s something I did that I should probably do more. and uhhhh. hair loss confirmed! #cool cool coolcoolcoolcool.. uhhhhhm. I’m just going crazy here nothin new

[willowcrowned]

Joy

one time I got into a fifteen minute argument with my AP French teacher junior year of high school because she’d asked us about life changing experiences and I said that that morning I’d been alone in a little courtyard and watched a tiny bird fly out of a bush into the brightening sky and and breathed in real deep and started to think I might be able to remember how to want to live again, and she said it didn’t count because I wouldn’t even remember seeing the bird fly out of a bush three days later but the joke is on her because I’m still pissed about that argument years after

#not joking she was one of the worst people I’ve ever met #like. i try to believe that most people actively want to do good #even if they’re very very flawed in the way they try to achieve it #but I spent fifty minutes with her every morning for months #and I never saw a single act of kindness from her #meanwhile she took everyday courtesies and made herself a hero when telling us about them #she spent twenty five minutes of every lesson talking about hersel #in English too! not in French!! #one time she monologued to the two of us about how brave and selfless she had been in 1998 to volunteer at a hospital #where people were dying of aids #and tried to convince two queer kids #one of whom had parents who would have actively kicked her out if they’d known! #how serious the plight of ‘the gays’ is #anyways #she was self obsessed and tone deaf and a worshipper of any rule that let her take out her petty frustrations on teenagers #and the only kind things she ever did were in front of her superiors #who would compliment her for it #ask game replies #sigh #I’m being unfair to her I’m sure in her own way she did really mean to help people #but that doesn’t mean she wasn’t an awful teacher and a cruel self interested person

[cowboyslikedean]

the passing of time is insane

#seeing my high school friends get engaged and married and having kids via social media is such a mind boggling experience #one of those things you think of as a teenager and wonder at it but assume that it’ll feel normal when you get to it #but the wild thing is that it doesn’t! #and the logical part of my brain is like. of course it feels like no time has passed because how long a year or two years or six years is #relative to the length of your life #and it #is a value that is guaranteed to eternally diminish - a year goes from a 13th to a 20th of your life in the span of your teens! #but most of my brain is not very logical #and it’s not a ‘you’re too young for this’ thing. it’s one of those odd little feelings that get amplified by distance too #what do you mean you have a husband and a child i’ve never met and you do date nights and post them on facebook where your comment replies #all end with ‘sending my love to the kids! x’ #i signed your shirt as the whole year drank in a field on the last day of high school three months ago #i’d swear it! #at seventeen i could have told you the details of their first kisses and the hair dyes they swore by and the subjects they were best at #now i couldn’t reliably tell you their husbands names #lucys ramblings

[touchlikethesun]

one thing that always strikes me as odd in a fic is when one or more of the side/non-pairing characters are… like super extra supportive of the main pairing. like idk how to say it but like there’s a difference between how people support their friends and want good things for them in real life, and like shipping your friends together. it won’t ruin my overall enjoyment unless it really does come up a lot but like it really pulls me out of a fic

#was a much bigger problem a few years back #i don’t see it AS much today #like i understand so clearly what’s happening #the author (self identified shipper) is using the side characters as a mouth piece to express their own excitement #which i think also is supposed to have the effect of pulling the readers in since now these characters are textually engaging in the same #fandom culture as they are #but like… people don’t act like that irl #or if they do i’ve not met them #i might think two of my friends are good for each other and have chemistry #but i’ll never say something like omg i ship you guys you guys are just soooo cute together like that’s just a bit much #idk maybe i’m just a hater

[wwerewwolves]

HELPPPP MY BOYFRIEND WANTS TO OWN A DOODLE.

#my certifications for this argument stand as: 4 years working in pet care. #his certifications for this argument: he met two very nice doodles #like listen. I have met good doodles. even GREAT doodles. I like some of them a lot. but I would never ever consider owning one #just due to the genetic variability and destandardization of breeding them there is absolutely no way to ensure that they would end up #like those doodles that are good. I’ve met enough bad doodles that I have a negative outlook on the breed. #literally ask any dog groomer #or someone who works in pet care like a kennel. #my ENTIRE staff GROANS when a doodle walks in #I even told him I would be down to own a poodle but no he wants a DOODLE #a bernedoodle to be exact #I just. I CANNOT become a doodle person #this is the same man who won’t let me get a boxer because their fur causes his bad allergies to flare up #like boxers are my DREAM dog I have genuinely loved every single boxer I’ve ever met. they have wonderful drive and personalities #I like their breed standard and temperament #this is not a jab at mixed breeds. I think every dog should have a home of course. but for MY lifestyle and MY decisions I’d want a purebred #or at the very least any mutt that isn’t a doodle 😭 #captain’s log

[observethewalrus]

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#got a message on fetlife from someone I haven’t seen in like 4 years #they’re trying to give away some really nice looking rope and it was nice of them to offer it to me even tho I don’t need any rn #they said theyre not involved in community stuff anymore cuz they’re focused on exploring kink with their partner #and goddamn if she ain’t living my dream #I haven’t been active in the community in YEARS #I’ve been to one or two munches since covid but that’s it #I spent years going to every dungeon party and class and munch I could think of #and they were all anxiety nightmares #if it wasn’t the anxiety of trying to make friends among people who already had their own very well defined friend groups #(literally no different than when I was in school) #then it was people who went after every single sub they met #who wanted a quick scene and then disappeared and moved onto the next one #when people did actually try and engage with me I never felt like we were on the same footing #it felt like I was being interviewed for a job and I got all the answers wrong #literally my dream is to have a partner to explore kink with #and still know they think about me as an actual person outside of kink too #I know it’s possible #I’ve known plenty of people in relationships like this over the years #but it feels like the kind of thing that always happens to other people #and I’m not meant for that #and I’m not saying kinky people aren’t nice #some of the nicest most talented most amazing people #I’ve ever met are kinky #it’s entirely me being a nervous wreck that made it so difficult for me to find my place in the community #personal

[sluttyten]

🤔

#I joined this GO on Instagram in like March rught #and we all paid #and then the person hosting the GO was like oh damn y’all I’m using my friend’s PayPal and it’s not working atm so I can’t buy the set #(it’s for photocards) #and it’s now been like 2 months and we’ve just gotten another update that the PayPal account mught not ever be back working #(there’s been a few other updates but they’re mostly irrelevant to this story) #and I’m just like is the original set even available anymore? like did the seller just like hold the set for the past two months while the #person/GOM figures this out? I’m confused #but it sounds like maybe we’re finally gonna be getting them? and I’m just confused and have lowkey been feeling scammed for 2 months now #really wishing I could just get my money back but I also really want the two photocards I paid for #like I get that shit does happen but like 😭 #and I’ve never participated in one of these before so I don’t really know how it works but she took our payments and I don’t believe any of #us have given our addresses or anything yet? #and she has SEVERAL group orders going according to her account so I’m like there’s no way that she’s scamming on all of them #anyway I’m just confused and needed to rant #because ALSO I’m kinda feeling scammed because my best friend’s friend who I’ve met a few times messaged me on IG a few months back like #in February I think and was like ‘hey I want to get this thing for her (our mutual friend) and I think it would be really nice for her but #it’s more expensive than I want to spend so I was messaging some people to see if they want to chip in’ so I told her to let me know more #and she told me there were other people on board so I was like ok sounds good and I paid her and now it’s been several months and nothing #so like did she forget about it? is it still on its way? is it because she just hasn’t seen our mutual friend in a few months and she’s just #waiting until they see each other again to give it to her? did I also get scammed here? (which she definitely doesn’t at all seem the type #to scam especially not in the context of the gift and who it was for) #so yeah this is all giving me trust issues lol

[halloithmeagain]

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#I’ve never been someone whos good at change #but chnage has always led me to better places #when I finsihed school I went to a collage where I knew no one #all the boys I went through so much with I just left #only a year or two later I relapsed leaving them man has done me so much good #the quality in my friends improved drastically #but yeah that’s just one example #i wanted to speak about this bc #I’ve always hated going to the gym on my ones #so much that I’d drive 10/15 mins just to go with some of my boys #but I have a gym that’s like a 2 min run from my yard and I started going there #bare in mind I don’t know anyone from my ends lool all the mandem live in lozells or small heath #but yeah I’ve been going to my local one for some time and i met a good few bros #not the type where you have eachothers numbers and you tak all the time but just people you talk to when you see them and it’s predominantly #about health stuff #so nice lool

[ghostickle]

I really be cursed for everyone I meet to just end up using me huh

#I live the next town over from a college town #that’s like. everyone fucking hates the college kids #especially cause this particular school it’s all just assholes with rich parents #unfortunately for me it’s also full of cool looking alt people who keep fucking me over #cause I fall for the crust pants and platforms and cool hair #then suddenly I’m talking them outta suicide every night and basically parenting them #like full on making sure they’re getting food this recent one giving him a place to crash so he didn’t have to live with his ex #driving them around paying for everything despite the fact they’re unemployed and their rich ass parents buy them everything #meanwhile I actually work and am struggling to pay my bills every month #I can’t afford to feed myself but god knows they’re getting everything they could ever want #and still being ungrateful and rude #and I’ll be like hey maybe u should go to a professional yk im not a therapist I can’t help with ur whole suicidal thing #and they get mad at me and throw me away cause oh no they have to work on themselves and take accountability #I’m not gonna keep spoon feeding some fucker who’s gotten life on a silver platter #idk there’s two very different sides to punks I’ve met #there’s either punks who are punk cause they have been through hell and fucked over by the universe and have a genuine understanding of the #beliefs it comes with and the morals #and there’s the punks who maybe sure like the music and the style but have never had to so much as raise their voice to be heard #never had to fight for anything #which isn’t inherently bad I wish I was that lucky #but they’re never really aware of that privilege and just expect to be handed everything #and get pissed if they are expected to be held accountable for being an asshole #ghost rambles

[forbidden-interlude]

I followed back this guy on IG and immediately regretted it and then for a good 30 seconds I thought that I couldn’t do anything about it now before I remembered I’m an adult and I can do what I want. This shit is not real.

#it was someone that bought me drinks at a club like two weeks ago #and he wanted to see me again #but I didn’t #and I don’t have to overthink that lol #I can make decisions #I’m not obligated to see them again #idk why I do that sometimes #also like general rule of thumb #I’ve never met someone at a club and continued interaction post club #we drunk and it’s dark in there #if it were meant to be the universe would’ve had us meet sober in the daylight