#tw: ivf

[topguncortez]

in case you don’t know

the republicans in washington, who said “we must protect IVF”, failed to protect IVF. They turned down a bill that would protect IVF across the 50 states after Alabama introduced their ridiculous and scientifically incorrect bill against IVF.

IVF isn’t just for the rich white woman.

IVF is for the woman who had to have a hysterectomy at a young age because of cancer.

IVF is for the same sex couples who want to have children.

IVF is for the person with infertility, both young and old, male and female, cause infertility doesn’t just affect a certain age or gender.

IVF is for the person who can’t carry their baby to term, so someone else volunteers to do it for them.

#tw: ivf

[rhettabbotts]

Do you think when Rhett and babysitter get married, she adopts the girls? Also, do they have another kid when they get married?

YES AND YES

rhett asks her to adopt the girls before they ever tie the knot and she cries so hard. the girls already call her mama and they’re like her own. they have a little baby boy after they get married but it was a struggle. it took a while for tilly to get pregnant and they did ivf for a while but along came sweet baby henry 🥺

#rhett abbott #tw: pregnancy #tw: ivf #rhett x babysitter #dilf rhett 4 ever <3

[shmaptainwrites]

I know you did one similar with the miscarriage but how do you think wilson x reader would be struggling to get pregnant 🥰

ooo okay if this happens a little “later in life” (and by that i mean biologically, sorry it’s the ecologist in me) it could be from some age related struggles and then maybe that takes some of the guilt from either end out of the equation because you can rationalize it a bit

but i think if wilson wants something he’ll try every avenue before giving up, so maybe you discuss it and decide after a while of trying without much success to do some fertility treatments or IVF and i think considering it’s already a difficult time you’d want to maintain privacy and wilson is super supportive and does a really good job of keeping things between you both until you maybe have some good news to share

obviously when you want kids but are struggling to have them it can get very emotionally exhausting and it shows so you take some extra time to just be together and allow yourselves to process everything that’s happening, maybe even consider adoption because you have the means and it could make sense

overall i think what im trying to say is you’d take things in stride, be there for each other every step of the way, physically and emotionally and if you find good healthy ways to deal with it, in the end it brings you closer

send me your RSL character x reader thoughts

→ accepting asks for james wilson, cruise, and peter müller

→ i’ve seen up to 5x6 of house — NO SPOILERS PLEASE

#mimi answers #mimi’s wilson thoughts #james wilson #james wilson x reader #james wilson x you #tw: infertility #tw: ivf

[thegirlwhowritesfics]

TW; infertility,IVF, surgery ect,

rambles ahead:

My endometriosis is out of control this week. My period is so painful, like the amount of painkillers I’m on for my regular chronic pain could take down an elephant, the fact my period has hit me like a truck isn’t a great sign.

I see my OBGYN next week and I have this sinking feeling she’s going to suggest I have a second surgery before we do IVF.

So we harvest my eggs

We scramble them with some spunk

Then we put them on ice

I have surgery

Then we defrost the popsicle and pop it in the oven and hope for the best

I knew at some point I was going to need to have a second lap, I just wasn’t excepting it to be so soon after my first and also the cost is just so brutal especially when we are paying so much for IVF.

I cannot wait to have a baby then rip my damn uterus and tubes out. I know this won’t stop my endo from growing but it will definitely slow the fucker right down and I won’t have any more bullshit periods.

#Ivy rambles #I’ll probably delete later #tw: surgery #tw: infertility #tw: ivf

[sarahdempsey]

thesarahdrew: So excited to share the trailer for my new movie BRANCHING OUT premiering Saturday April 27 at 8pm on @hallmarkchannel! Made with some old and new besties #corabella @mia_marina_official @maclainnelson @kaleymccormack @juanpablodipace @davidwulf @jake_relic ! I can’t wait for you all to see it! We had such a blast making this! ❤️❤️❤️

#On Set #Me #Hallmark #BO #Juan Pablo DiPace #Kaley McCormack #Mia Marina #TW: IVF

[mysharona1987]

Hey, at least she’s upfront about her hypocrisy.

#democrats #republicans #Ivf #donald trump #Us #alabama #pregnancy tw #gop #parenting #politics #joe biden #maga #science #ivf treatment #in vitro fertilization

[pixelnrd]

Heather and Jenny were excited for their first ultrasound after the positive pregnancy test. They had waited for weeks and weeks, and now they would finally get to hear the heartbeat of their little miracle science baby.

In the doctor's office they waited with bated breath for the ultrasound machine. It was top-notch technology - getting to see their baby on the inside for the first time!

The doctor paused and went quiet as images began to show on the screen. Heather and Jenny couldn't tell what they were looking at, but they worried something was wrong.

'So, now, we did talk about the increased risk of multiples,' said the doctor matter-of-factly. 'And if you look closely here, you'll see there are two little blobs on the screen. It looks like there are twins in there - congratulations!'

Heather and Jenny were stunned. This was far from the news they had been expecting - in fact, it was completely outside of any reality they had considered.

After making their way home in silence, Jenny broke down crying in their living room. Heather hated to see her so upset, especially over something that had until now been making them both so happy. She tried her best to reassure Jenny that everything would be ok. 'Dustin has twins, and you love them!' she said encouragingly to Jenny. 'I know it's one more than we bargained for but at least this way they will have eachother, a sibling to grow up together with.'

Jenny was still a mess. 'Heather, how will we raised two babies in this apartment? One baby would fit but two? There's no room for two cribs. And all the clothes, and the diapers, where will we put it all? How much is it all going to cost? How will we manage with nobody else nearby to help us? What about the food stall, and our jobs? How will we ever go back to work? Oh and I'm going to get so huge!' she wailed.

Heather hadn't thought as fast as Jenny, but as the reality grew in front of her she began to panic too... she knew their lives would change having a baby, but this was more than either of them had bargained for. And it scared her, with what she now knew in adulthood about the reasons that her own parents marriage had fallen apart.

When Jenny left the room, Heather called her Mom to tell her. She needed some guidance, advice on what to do next.

#sims 4 decades challenge #ts4 decades challenge #sims 4 historical #ts4 historical #ts4 legacy #sims 4 legacy #the langston legacy #gen 10 #1990s #heather lenowski #jenny prescott #tw pregnancy #tw ivf

[becca-e-barnes]

Hiii I have nothing to do at work so of course I have to day dream about different dark!Bucky scenarios (I do not condone cheating but this is really hot to me aaaa)😩 like imagine your husband and Bucky have always had an ongoing rivalry, They worked together, went to college together, hated every ounce of each other. One night you’re at the bar with your friends when Bucky comes over to you and buys you drink after drink after drink, taking you back to his house. He’s throwing you on his bed and ripping your clothes off, kissing you hungrily. “Get ready baby, this is gonna be much tougher than you’re used to.” “Please.” “Yeah? Is he not satisfying you baby? This pretty pussy deserves to be treated right, luckily I’m here now.” He’s so rough with you, fucking you harshly, the dirty talking is driving you crazy. He’s so cocky and cruel, bending you in several different positions and pounding into you for hours. If only you had seen the camera… (part 2??? Bucky making your husband watch the video 😭) -💒

This, a thousand times over 😵‍💫 and I can just imagine throwing all the stuff at him that you wouldn't dream of doing with your husband. Maybe your husband really doesn't let you explore your fantasies and if you've got one chance to do that, you're determined to take it.

Especially if Bucky is quite a bit rougher than you're used to while still being so respectful. He got the impression that you're not being fucked how you want to be and he wants to give you everything you dream of when you touch yourself. He's not necessarily rough with you because he wants to be. He's rough because that's what you want.

If he's feeling extra filthy too, he'd fuck you in the bed you share with your husband. You're on your hands and knees on the bed, presenting your glistening pussy to him, enjoying the sensation of him smearing your arousal over the tip of his cock.

"Fuck, do you know how bad I want this?" He hums quietly, trailing his leaking tip over your slick folds. "Do you know how badly I want to press inside you? You've made such a mess. Bet you feel like fuckin' Heaven and he doesn't even appreciate it."

With his free hand, Bucky grabs a handful of your ass, squeezing just enough that you feel it hurt.

"Don't want to rush this though." His tip lines up with your entrance, teasing the little fluttering hole and God, you're desperate. "I want to take my time. Want to make sure every time your head hits this pillow, you remember how it feels to have every. Last. Inch of me slip inside you."

You can't have him wait any longer though so you press your hips back onto him, feeling just the tip slide into you. "Good girl, that's it. Fuck yourself on me. You need this, don't you? You need to be fucked right for a change."

He's not wrong. You couldn't stop now, even if you wanted to so you keep going, taking all of him. The weight of him inside you is delightful.

"Oh God, you're perfect. You feel like you were made for me." He doesn't dare move. Instead, he takes a second to just enjoy the wet heat of your body and the snug fit of you around his cock.

"You are. A fucking. Dream." He tests the water with a few shallow thrusts, rutting his tip against the sweet spot inside you. You're so wet, you're convinced you must be dripping onto the sheets and your eyes roll back in your head at the very thought.

This is how sex is supposed to feel. You didn't think you could crave anyone the way you do now. "Buck, please." You whimper, rolling your hips back against him, pressing him as deep inside you as possible. "Don't be gentle."

You hear him groan and feel his fingertips trail down your spine, making you arch your back into the bed. "Is that what you need, sweetheart? Can tell just by looking at you that you need it hard and fast and rough tonight. I'll be gentle with you tomorrow morning, I promise. Gotta work some of that tension out of you first. Bet you haven't cum in months."

You don't like that he can tell so easily but you're not surprised either. The first sharp thrust knocks the air from your lungs but all you hear is a pathetic sob, followed by the crack of a hard spank to your ass and the blossoming, stinging pain he's inflicted.

You're not surprised that it only makes you wetter.

#asks answered <3 #💒 anon #becca writes spice #bucky barnes x reader smut #bucky barnes smut #I've got no words for what I've just written #I think I made myself dizzy #I want to give this like nine more parts eughhhhhh #and I think I'll definitely give it at least one more #tw: cheating #there's nothing I love more than finding someone you just click with #I usually stick with the same hairdresser #but my hair was sitting weird and I was desperate to get it cut so I went to a different stylist at the same place I usually go to #and we just vibed #she's the coolest #within half an hour we were planning how she's gonna tell the new man she's seeing that she's starting her first round of IVF #We talked the entire 3 hours I was there #and she said she hopes her daughter turns out like me 🥺🥺 #like no girl I swear you don't #but that's the sweetest thing anyone's ever said

[chokerslayer]

this our IVF process and journey to becoming pregnant after months of trying.

believe me , writing has me so emotional. so excuse me for any typos because i'm still shaking and crying happy tears. i'm also sharing our story because i want people to know .. it's okay.

so when i started dating maxwell we jumped all in from the beginning. we fell in love quickly and were living together almost from the beginning. because when you know, trust me you just know. go with your gut and heart because it's never wrong. i knew this my happily ever after. i knew he was my prince charming. we eloped soon after. anyone who knows me truly, knows i'm not into big weddings. for me .. just me and him getting married at the most beautiful place in the world.. outdoors was it for me. he is the person i'm suppose to be with forever and have a baby with i just knew it!

after months of trying and pleading with god. begging him to let us have a baby. that’s all we wanted. i would tell god everyday i will do whatever you want me to do, even retire from wrestling . just please give me a baby. i begged for months. but that’s just not how it worked for us. until one day we both decided go to the doctors and get tested see if we are okay.. if anything was wrong, all the tests came out great we are healthy . but we just couldn't get pregnant until our doctor told us about IVF and we decided to give it a shot. after awhile of doing IVF .. i took a test because something wasn't right. i was sick and i just wanted to see if i was pregnant before stopping treatments and late last night we both got the news.. i always wanted to scream and say.

I'M PREGNANT.

BABY FRIEDMAN IS COMING.

@dcvilhimsclf

#annawell♥♥ #(baby friedman.) #( tw: ivf treatments.) #tw: pregnancy troubles

[largesunglasses]

Crying in the club or a citizen crust. A few weeks ago my aunt sent out a group text to all the aunts and cousins to see if anyone wanted to get lunch today. Most were working and my sister and another cousin were going to visit another cousin in a different state. I ended up texting my aunt I wasn't sure I'd have the day off since it's a holiday but if I could I would love to get lunch with her and my cousin. When I got there my cousin who recently has had a shit load of medical stuff thrown her way told me I could be the first out of the group to know she was pregnant. So in true Laurie fashion I started crying then my aunt started crying. I found out she was actually pregnant when we went to James Taylor (where I sat with her outside a target in Boston and asked her questions about her ivf journey not knowing she was already pregnant). I'm so excited for her and her husband and just everyone.

#tw pregnancy #tw ivf #tw baby #tw infant #please tell me if i missed and tw #tw fertility

[goldenboygate]

I don’t know how much I’ll be online in the next few weeks as I’ll be starting my hormone injections in the coming days.

I’m an emotional bitch at the best of times and don’t know how they’ll affect me so best to minimise my online presence just in case.

Don’t need to be crying 24/7

#tw pregnancy #karenína’s ivf journey

[stoneinc]

*     ◟    :    〔   ruth wilson  ,      cis-woman    +   she / her    〕      claire stone  ,      some say you’re a  forty one year old  lost soul among the neon lights.      known for being both  conscientious  and  emotional ,  one can’t help but think of  you keep me crawling  by   aurora  when you walk by.    are you still the  ceo   of   stoneage inc ,     even with your reputation as the liability ?     i think we’ll be seeing more of you and crumbling behind closed doors, intense glares of dissatisfaction and  creased silk blouses,     although we can’t help but think of jeanine matthews (divergent), rachel duncan (orphan black),   and rebecca bunch (crazy ex-girlfriend)     whenever we see you down these rainy streets.  

oh look, it’s me bringing more morally grey female muses with daddy issues (now never to be resolved) and an obscene and overwhelming amount of power....

triggers: mental illness tw, abandonment tw, abuse tw, just very bad parenting in general tw, death tw, mention of pregnancy tw, ivf tw,

     claire, the first and only (known) child of multi-billionaire damon stone. born somewhere in the south of england, conceived in a ‘dingey bar’/a quaint countryside public house, and not a particularly wanted asset by her parents. her parents had been allies that supported each other’s work and had similar ideas about the future, they got on but were hardly romantic. perhaps their sexual affair had been because of loneliness or driven by their own narcissistic tendencies. both brilliant minds in their own right, they never really stopped working or striving for the future, thus, leaving their child somewhat neglected.

      an emotional child wasn’t something that was ideal for either of them - a massive inconvenience. claire would cry and cry only to be met with logic when all she needed was some contact, a hug from either of them. it was her mother who particularly despised her crying when she was trying to work, so much so that she would resort to physically gripping her daughter a little too tightly, not the type of contact she wanted. damon hadn’t seen his partner cracking but she was. 

    claire’s mother had become so consumed by research that she was unable to think about anything else. her obsession with technology, specifically artificial intelligence, had consumed her and lead her to constantly write journals (ones that would never be published under her name). obsession turned into delusions and resulted in her early death. her mother’s passing deeply affected claire, not so much damon. she was old enough to understand that something had been wrong but not how or why. one minute she had someone whom she called mother, the next she hadn’t.

     her mother’s journals were punished under damon stone. they brought about new opportunities for him and investments started coming his way. from a young age, claire had shown an interest in her father’s work because she quickly saw it as a way to garner affection from the man and get that ‘quality time’ she wanted. prodigy wasn’t an accurate description of claire but it was the words used when she attended university at fifteen. her entire life had been studying and was a compliant child - the thought of exams had terrified her but she had listened to damon and applied what he had taught her (or what she had overheard in passing). 

   it was an investment that paid off for him - she would stay with someone else and that freed up his time to devote to research. he hadn’t even told her that he had moved to the usa until she had turned up (as a surprise) at her now former home only for someone else to answer the door. luckily for her, the strangers had the right temperament to calm her down but she feared being abandoned and she had felt like it had happened. damon assured her that it was not the case but what kind of parent would not only move but move countries and not tell his child? damon’s selfish actions had preyed on her insecurity of only having him and losing him just as easily as her mother seemed to go.

    it upset her and her father couldn’t understand why. he had seen a fatal flaw in her, a weakness that he had a severe distaste for. while her academics remained at the top of her class, multiple professors advised that she was too young for the institution, that it was breaking her and that she should be withdrawn from the course. they made a point of it to damon but he declined. the professors spoke to claire but she’d burst into tears and say that it couldn’t happen, that she needed to do this. if she wasn’t able to keep up with damon’s intellect, she felt she’d lose him completely.

       nepotism would serve her well as she assumed a role in stoneage inc. at straight after completing her phd, at the age of twenty two. her academic would quickly be washed away by the inside hatred others would have for her, claiming the ‘special treatment’ due to the blood in her veins. at this point, her personal and professional life had fully merged into one. as stoneage inc. had more and more success, damon would only treat her as a colleague and would ridicule her, perhaps worse, for her emotional outbursts. he had always made them worse but he had hoped that if she received poor treatment, it would deter her from making the same mistake. claire wasn’t ‘strong’ like he was - all it did was knock her down. 

    to an onlooker, she was the classic spoilt prodigy nepotist baby in new york city. she would go out and party, would always take it too far and would even accidentally injure herself in the process. reckless and spoiled. when damon came to pick up the pieces, it was the only time he was kind and actually took care of her. however, he would take notes and label her as a liability in his mind and also spread it among his most trusted advisors.

damon kept her away from his dodgy dealings and somewhat forced her into motherhood when she assumed responsibility for sabine. the man made sure she was approved and that further lead her away from the research field. to claire, sabine was just someone that needed someone - who was she to argue with that? she wouldn't realise that it had been a calculated move, a rather misogynistic one from her father. claire quickly became attached to sabine. she cried and claire would have the natural instinct to run to her and give her a hug, to give her something she never got growing up (or rather rarely). AT SOME POINT, claire did become an overbearing mother and her control issues definitely started influencing their relationship with each other. it's not something that she realises she's doing but she is a stone after all - can you really fight your nature?

    over the years, claire would continue her research but would be kept at arms length. damon wanted her to remain out of the corruption and tensions, to keep her at arms length personally so she wasn’t a distraction. no one would know why mr. stone kept her so distant when also writing her as the sole inheritor of  stoneage inc. (keeping her in the dark would do his legacy and multi-billion dollar empire a favour in the future). 

    she would also develop her own unwanted feelings towards androids. they were emotionless, efficient, everything her father wanted her to be. perhaps that was why he was so obsessed. the woman found herself wishing far too many times that she was one - maybe appreciation would come with that. it was a thought that she’d run away with, primarily while drinking alone in her exquisite penthouse. it was so easy to just erase a models memory, to reinvent it for a particular purpose. it felt like dangerous territory and she knew it. claire envied them but her interest was peaked if they could be capable of taking on a particular emotion, a download of her own negative feelings onto a drive. it didn’t seem realistic but it also didn’t seem impossible. however it was only a thought, one that turned into several but none ever actioned or analysed. 

     multi-billionaire damon stone drops dead. that would be the headline. an unexpected death at a crucial moment in trial talks with the government, a bereaved claire steps in to close the deal. cause of death remains undetermined and foul play has not been ruled out. a surprise and expected, claire stone assumes the role of ceo of stoneage incorporation as well as inheriting her father’s fortune. it was a partnership that would be described as destined. she had failed at winning her father’s affection and she wouldn’t fail again. that was easier said than done.

    there is a period when it seems the woman doesn't care about her dear father's passing - she was thrown into the deep end and wanted to do well, finally given the chance to prove her worth. it was odd how little tears she shed given her past emotional outbursts. there was a lot she needed to be doing. there was a lot of pressure on her but for the first time in her life she not only accepted it but thrived on it. it was like a temporary high for her. with damon out of the picture, claire's life felt better and that didn't feel like it was stopping.

people would think it was the wrong time to try for a child shortly after her father's passing and her peaking in her career but claire felt like it was the perfect time - everything was going right. someone had donated and her ivf treatment had succeeded after a few rounds that had made her ill. she'd push through. of course, the maternal image does not go without stoneage capitalising on it, to show that it is just as about people and the new generation as it is about ai. claire doesn't believe everything that comes out of her mouth, she hates everyone telling her she's glowing when she feels absolutely terrible but it was good for business. the woman who's got it all - that would be a frequent headline.

at the end of june, claire has another daughter at a birthing centre surrounded by trusted confidants and a small selection of vetted staff members. the high from it all is beyond her. she names her celine but hopes no one will call her cece for short but lina instead. so many emotions are going through her during that first week and the room is silent after she utters the words 'i can't wait for him to meet her'. it's like she's been hit with a dose of reality, it finally sinking in that her father isn't here, neither is her mother. the memory of her and damon in the theatre clapping for sabine comes to her, they'd been so proud of her but she was unable to imagine that situation for the baby up against her because it was unattainable. finally breaking down in tears follows that, an extremely delayed reaction but an action, nonetheless. claire felt like she had destroyed her own happiness by making that statement, it forcing her to acknowledge what was happening, what had actually happened to her?

now comes the time where claire feels like she's pushed herself too hard. every thought somehow leads her back to him and nightmares start up in her very little sleep time. her subconscious has blocked something out and she can't uncover what. at the same time as trying to care for celine, she feels like sabine is the one that needs the most attention from her. she does as much as she can from home because she feels like lina's too tiny to be taken into that place - she wants to keep her from it.

     to those outside, claire stone is a formidable force but others within the corporation know that it’s only a matter of time before she cracks, and when that happens they will be there to assume the inc. for themselves...

THE UNKNOWN

the something that she has blocked out entirely and at this stage doesn't know about. the first model of replicant stoneage put out was an C1AI.re, a replicant that had been modelled by the couples own daughter with some modifications on the features that they thought weren't attractive/wouldn't 'sell'. the models were suddenly discontinued several years after their release, previously being a model to be upgraded. it was when damon had grown to despise his own daughter.

C - Claire

1 - first

AI - what it says on the tin

.re - replicant

perhaps some plots??

honestly looking for anything and everything but here are some ideas

people who work for meta news - perhaps they’re old friends that have spoken in a professional setting before? someone who ran a succession story on claire without permission, someone who’s been trying to get her to do that tasteless all-about-me interview after the death of her father? an ally that has buried stuff (can be discussed) for her in the past? 

sentient androids that, you know, want her gone. self-explanatory. also perhaps a privately hired android? only the best, of course. 

someone under her wing - we all know after reading my ramblings claire is a mess but would be nice if she had people under her wing, most likely started before she assumed her new role in the incorporation. what their intentions are is utp. maybe even her own protegé? someone with potential?

i’m tired right now so i’m stopping here but i love brainstorming and would love to get plots with you. this probably wasn't all of it but i love to muse!!

#lawlessintro #mental illness tw #abandonment tw #abuse tw #just very bad parenting in general tw #death tw #mention of pregnancy tw #ivf tw

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[yourlocalswan]

feeling pretty down about the political state of things for women particularly. so much rampant transmisogyny and sexism. it’s not just chronically online nutjobs; the republicans are systematically embracing straight up, unironic, full-send puritanical, fascist values. no surprise there ofc.

the US of course was founded on these extremes, polarity has always been the name of the game, but this level of moral panic and lashing out against women, particularly, so despicably mirrors the witch trials. what the movies don’t tell you is the cultural forces that were ratcheting up over decades that led to the mass killing of innocent women. it wasn’t an overnight thing; it wasn’t magic mushrooms or exposure. history always repeats itself in the most abhorrent ways but we never fucking learn.

my sisters, i stand in solidarity with you. it’s been such a hard week for trans women especially. WOC, trans women, fem-leaning, cis women, etc are being systematically dehumanized before our eyes and i can’t even find anger in myself anymore. i’m just so deeply saddened by the world around me hating us for existing. as a cis WW i have safety and privilege that is denied to my sisters and it’s sickening to know what little control i have.

they’re after us all, and to draw further divisions is utterly counterproductive. TERFs etc have drank the conservative kool aid. an attack on one is an attack on all, and we’re being hit from all sides.

i think i’ll need to step back from the news reel for a little while and try to recenter on my immediate world and help those around me. i recommend others do the same. spend time with the women in your life and remind them you love them. embrace whatever level of femininity you want and fuck what anyone says. be smart, be safe, and spread love.

also, not a bad idea to stay strapped. just sayin.

#feminism #personal vent #tw mentions of transphobia #tw discussion of misogyny #abortion rights #oklahoma #alabama #ivf treatment #support women #i love trans women #be smart be safe spread love

[whentherewerebicycles]

wedding was wonderful but I’m very happy to be curled up in bed with the dogs now listening to the rain and finishing a novel. I give myself full permission to be a hermit all afternoon and then I think I’ll hang out and cook with my sister tonight. tomorrow I get bloodwork done in the morning and then will probably have a busy social day with liz + sam which is good as it’ll prevent me from being glued to my phone waiting for the results. at this point I don’t even know how to feel. I’ve read enough journal articles and forum posts to know that the odds are against me but that there is a small chance I’ll be one of the lucky ones whose body just follows a different course than your average pregnancy. I’m expecting to learn that I’m going to miscarry but obviously hoping against hope that I don’t… and also hoping, in a more clear-eyed realist sort of way, that if it has to happen it’s via miscarriage rather than an ectopic pregnancy, and that the process itself doesn’t take too long (so I can start again this summer instead of having to wait weeks or months). but ah well—I need to settle back into waiting mode, as I probably won’t get the test results back until tuesday morning and can’t change anything or make anything happen by obsessively googling in the meantime.

#I think I’m going to switch doctors too if this one doesn’t stick #IUI tag #tw miscarriage #I feel like I’m just having to constantly bug her to make changes to our approach #and I don’t really have a ton of confidence in her to adjust her approach or even notice when it needs to be adjusted #like my thyroid levels jumped a ton since we last tested which ups the risk of early MC #and she didn’t even notice? I had to show her the jump on my lab results #and then had to follow up three times to get her to prescribe the medication #and when I pushed for an IUI at 36-48 hours instead of 24 #which seems to be what multiple studies suggest is most effective #she was kinda resistant and then was like well it doesn’t matter bc the sperm will be there waiting for 4-5 days #and I was like no that’s with fresh sperm. the research indicates frozen donor sperm only lives 12-24 hours max maybe less #and then the first time we did a 36 hour cycle I got pregnant 🙄 #and then this week I asked for a progesterone test or supplements #and she was like we would never do that for an IUI that’s for IVF only #and I was like that’s just not true! like the research seems to be slightly mixed on how much it helps but most clinics I’ve looked at #list it as a fairly standard part of their IUI cycle protocol #idk!!! just not feeling super confident in her and also I feel like she gets annoyed with me when I’m just trying to like #understand the medical reasoning behind stuff instead of just doing what I’m told #bleh #whatever #I just want someone to blame but I think even setting that aside #there have been enough frustrations that I might just switch anyway