#truth is like a blanket

[anouri]

Fernando Pessoa from The Book of Disquiet (1982)

#burden of consciousness #words #truth is like a blanket #fernando pessoa #mine #the book of disquiet

[creepyscritches]

My partner and I didn't do anything for valentines day but yesterday he showed me the trailer for love lies bleeding and asked if I wanted to go get drunk and watch sweaty grimy 80s bodybuilding women flex their muscles with the intensity of a werewolf busting out of its clothes. :)

#Creepy chatter #Hes like: I've sent you be unwell about both leads in the past year let get you booze snacks and a blanket #The poster is just her big fucking sweaty arm? Christ? Things that would have made your closeted child self burst into flame #I know my truth now. Sweat on me please grimy women

[scalproie]

really wish people would realize that every single character endings in t8 isnt canon

#yes even the ones thats seems “likely”. yes even the ones you like. yes even if some seems to be connected. #THEYRE *ALL* WHAT-IFS. THE “CANON” STORY IS STORY MODE. EVERYTHING ELSE IS FLUFF #AND ITS A GOOD THING‼️‼️‼️ #anyway jun's ending was bittersweet and might be my second favorite. no its still not canon. #her *special* episode where she explains what happened to her pre-t3 IS CANON. her *character* episode aka the arcade mode IS NOT. #its a self-contained little story with an intro. a couple fights. and a cool cutscene ending. just like every other character episodes #this is so obvious to me but i keep seeing people not making the distinction #*yes* as cute as it would be to imagine freshly-beaten kaz sleeping in that tent. no jun just woke up she doesnt have a full camping set up #and the g corp blanket at the end of her ending is meant to signify that maybe her happy dream had some truth to it since kaz left it to her #and i have a whole essay about jun's role in the (canon) story mode but i'll try to be brief. its like 1am #tagging later

[swordofazrael1992]

i’m gonna be honest the notion that jean paul/azrael are bad at detective work/skills annoys me. they're not BAD at it. they're not PATIENT enough for it and find it boring. because of this they seem bad at it, but actually being bad at it and not having patience for it have COMPLETELY different characterization implications, imo.

from batman: sword of azrael (1992) #3

(see above) from one of their very first appearances jean paul is shown to be very adept at problem solving and logical reasoning, both skills important in detective work. and this is with practically no experience, beyond what was implanted in the system.

i do understand where people get the idea that they're "bad" at detective work from--it is stated constantly throughout the knightfall saga that jp/az, and i do see most of these as azrael character moments, are bored by/don't like detective work. but i think it's very important to remember the context of those issues. they're in the middle of severe emotional and psychological dysregulation, and have less capacity for things like slowing down and doing detective work. but that doesn't mean they aren't able to, especially when they're not in active crisis. and this is proven throughout azrael: agent of the bat. jp and azrael are not absolute expert detectives, obviously, and they're still impatient and immature in a lot of their casework, and rush into situations before knowing all the details. but they still display a natural aptitude and skill in detective work, something that bruce wayne comments on in his own narration about jean paul/azrael!

also! according to the azrael secret file below, they were barely twenty-one during the events of SoA 1992! of course jp/azzy are impatient and immature sometimes!

azrael secret file from batman: no man's land secret files #1

i just think it's too easy to say that jean paul and azrael are bad detectives when, in my opinion, the majority of that evidence is taken out of context (knightfall saga and the fact that they were in the middle of a mental health crisis) and also doesn't acknowledge the fact that they are early to mid twenties AT THE MOST, with VERY little actual training in detective work. or in anything outside of being a brute force assassin only used to kill and send threats.

am i saying they're good at utilizing these skills and actually doing the detective work? no. but i think that just saying "they're bad at it" is an oversimplification that can lead to the development of mischaracterization, or at least unfaithful characterization, of jean paul and azrael

#id in alt text #also #this is not directed at anyone ! i just see a lot of people say this as a blanket statement #and i fear that people who haven't done complete readings of jp/az could see that and take it as absolute unassailable truth #which we all know the dc fandom is very likely to do #also this was my first time image id'ing comic panels so if you have any tips/corrections in how i did it i'd be happy to hear them #jean paul valley #jpv #azrael

[verkja]

Figuwhump Day 5 (substituting bonus image 2)

[ID: A pencil drawing. A skeleton sits slumped on the floor, facing away, leaning on one arm while her legs extend off to the side. Her other arm is visible through her rib cage; she's holding her face in her hand, as if tired or sad. Bookshelves line the wall beside her. End ID.]

Had an awful day and did not draw. Fortunately I finished this last night and only had to photograph it. :) This character, Maella, has been mentioned in my ongoing story but has not appeared in person. She's a very old (very morally dubious) lich. Maintaining her unlife takes a lot of energy, so she's frequently tired; this scene has probably happened at some point.

@figuwhump

#woke from a doze to make this post #featuring by far the sexiest pose and outfit i'm likely to draw a character in #why is she wearing just a blanket and slippers? #i don't know maybe she just got out of bed #(in truth it's because i wanted to draw bones) #figuwhump #figuwhump23 #figuwhump23day5 #whump art #id #oc stuff #cw skeleton #i guess? #lady whump #...technically #she is a lady she's just also a lich

[junotter]

I finished playing Stick of Truth and I love my new kid even though I don't get a gender option it's okay

I picked thief so she sneaky (read tags for more info on her)

#south park new kid #south park stick of truth #south park oc #my oc #ocs #my art #shout out to my rendering it fr looking really good #shes quiet and cries easily #and moved from fuckign montana cause i miss montana #sad face #she also has her house key on a shoe lace so she doesn't lose it #but she pretends its her magic theif's key that can unlock any door #also her cloak is a blanket tied up with a shoelace #and her mom makes her wear thermals under her costume so she doesn't get cold #her arrows are pieces of paper glued to wooden sticks and the quiver is craft foam taped together in a cylinder #the bandaid is useless and she puts the scar on with her moms makeup #to make it fit with canon she just was too shy to correct anyone on her gender #and also gender is fake #and shes like 10 so it doesnt matter #once i finish fractured but whole i'll make her superhero outfit

[heich0e]

i am all for having opinions, personal preferences, and being critical of the media that you choose to consume. i also fully agree that you are within your right to express your thoughts and opinions on your own blog, bc hey! that's your space. but if you express opinions that can hurt other people, regardless of the possible implications or harm that might come of it, i think that is just being a bit mean.

#subjective opinions that are presented as objective truths will always cause harm #posts made with introductions like 'i want to cause problems' will ALWAYS cause problems #blanket statements indirectly target individuals #the ‟writing community‟ is made up of WRITERS #we are not one singular unit

[typheus]

grimm n felicity sketch 🤷‍♀️

#my art #my ocs #grimm #felicity #in which grimm once again forgets. felicity is blind. #tho in her defense felicity does have a replacement eye. she just doesnt use it #anyways. #i havent drawn in what feels like forever #but in truth i think is just a few days #but ive been knitting so its hard to tell #ive made v little progress on the blanket. but i have made great progress on the socks

[anouri]

Stephen Adly Guirgis from The Last Days of Judas Iscariot (2005)

#never have been and never will be normal about this #i will take a crowbar and pry out the broken pieces of god in me #to love despite one’s flaws is to carve away a piece of them and decide that that portion is not worthy #god must hate me #words #the last days of judas iscariot #stephen adly guirgis #i am not at home in myself #truth is like a blanket #mine #i do not care whether you are sorry. only whether you are ready to speak

[nonbinaryaubrey]

damn. shits kinda fucked up in playing forever au for everyone but feeling bad about basil rn . likee.. i think. he wouldnt take seeing mari well at all.. with how he is at that point

#at this point in events mari does have a lot of her memories back? since this is true route. and sunny just went thru the truth sequence.- #so she remembers all that . fun! #also hm.. basil would probably. show up in headspace prettyyy soon after he dies.. since sunny is in the same house as him.. fun x2 #and. wait hm.!! i. is basil also trapped to the picnic blanket like mari is? #idk ... #is that just post hikikomori route or is that how headspace basil is like in general pre-finding out truth and getting eeby'd #if so... fun x3 !!! yayy :] #playing forever au #aubrey.txt

[fellhellion]

Not to bring out my catcher in the rye defender since high school soapbox, but I have literally never forgotten the scene where emotional tornado teenager Holden phones a prostitute to his hotel room only to be so shaken by the abject cruelty present in this woman’s situation and life that he has a breakdown and tries to pay her for nothing and runs away….

#I’m still to this day so fascinated by Holden’s use of ‘vulgarity’ (swearing and the associations with sex etc) and then being horrified by #the cruelty present in the world and not knowing how to fix it so he runs away #he just CANT allow himself to accept comfort either like we don’t know for sure that the teacher he goes to visit eventually was being #predatory because Holden at this point is so emotionally keyed up that a man putting a blanket on it just triggers instant flight or fight #senses #and we can’t glean from the narrative the truth of that scene BECAUSE holden’s pov is so murky and fear driven in that moment #he wants to protect the ‘innocent’ from the pain he cannot deal with #he wants the power of adulthood #he’s frightened by the cruelty present in the world he’s just coming to understand #and most importantly. he’s just a bit of a shitty teenager #my boy… #tunes titters

[aeide-thea]

thinking a lot lately about the desire many of us tend to feel for validation through community that not only respects but reflects us, and the way normie* men have been generally been happier to let me join them in their gender than normie women have been to let me leave it (them)...

#* not totally sold on 'normie' here but like. what i'm getting at is that the women i actually *know* are allies #(though of course it's like. how much of that is drawing on regard built thru homosociality...) #but like. when i get out in the world i find that women are the ones who really hate it #when they realize i 'could' be a woman but i'm Doin It Wrong #anyway it just does all feel tied to the thing i posted recently #about like. the ways many of us project our experience onto other people‚ looking to have them mirror it back to us #that post was about language and this one isn't so much #(although like. i've reached for 'we' twice in this post and substituted 'many of us' so as to be making slightly less blanket statements) #(and even then—that's still a claim both abt the world and abt how i'm grouped in it) #anyway i guess what i want to take away from this is the courage to be myself even unvalidated‚ whatever 'myself' even means #it's *hideously* hard bc i so often got invalidated growing up that i'm still horribly desperate for it #and i'm SO sensitive abt almost everything. but. at the very least a good goal for me‚ i think. #(also like. validation is great‚ or can be! i just think—when the desire for it leads us away from our truths‚ or towards fear and hate...) #(time to be wary then of its seductions and promises.) #anyway the cat is sitting on me so i haven't wanted to dislodge her in order to go make coffee #so instead: you get this

[thedreadvampy]

sorry guys it's a traumadump time

#the thing is it's just a bit mindboggling to me how i know all this and yet #i was running scared from doing anything about blanket contraceptives until i was nearly 30 #bc like. i started obsessively using condoms only after my abortion #bc. it's terrifying to try and every control over the sex you're having when you're used to the answer being no #like. i did not want to ask and be refused i wanted to keep pretending i was in control #when the truth is the majority of the time i wasn't #but if i just didn't look at how in control i wasn't. if i didn't ask for it to stop and i didn't ask to change anything. #i didn't have to know that someone didn't care whether i was ok. so i just didn't ask. for them to stop hurting me or to use condoms. #but getting pregnant was so horrific for me that demanding condom use became less scary than the alternative #still got pregnant 3 more times i think but my body dealt with it so it's ok #but like. the last time i got raped. like the time that made me put my foot down and say something has to change #and seek help and get therapy and deal with my trauma #like it only BECAME undeniable rape instead of grudging consent to unwanted sex when i said 'i don't have unprotected sex' #'if you have to have sex with me put on a fucking condom' and he didn't so i tried to prevent him so he physically forced me #and that's the fear coming true right? That's the REASON i hadn't wanted to ask before my abortion. that making that hard line in the sand #doesn't protect you it just makes the other person go mask off and hurt you more #SO TELL ME WHY #IT TOOK ANOTHER 4 YEARS AFTER THAT FOR ME TO ACTUALLY START WORKING TOWARDS ACCESSING HORMONAL CONTRACEPTION #this is also why it's so fucking upsetting that the implant really fucked up my periods so i was bleeding constantly #bc i finally acted only to find it wasn't a sustainable solution #right now I'm taking the Pill plus the implant to try and resettle my period #but tbh if it doesn't work after being on the pill temporarily i might just keep taking the pill #doctor said it's a good solution bc the pill manages the period disruption but the implant provides backup if you miss a day #red said

[dirt-mccracken]

Every time I do acid alone it's just 8 hours of me going insane but in a very calm and collected way

#personal #drug m #yesterday on top of my very interesting and tmi posting abt succ/ession #i also crushed like 10 bath bombs in a giant bowl and splashed around in the sludge in my tub #and rolled around in fluffy blankets #and the whole time trying to Get To Know myself and what I like/want #idk drugs are weird but so is being 25 with very little sense of self thanks to years of meds and intense mental illness and trauma #anyway i don't believ the whole Psychs Made Me Better And See The Truth shit #but also it feels no more byllshit than any other sense of meaning I keep trying to craft #therapy + drugs + finally having some income to explore things #hopefully this is a year of character growth and development for myself

[jimmythejiver]

So Ang aka Recapkid aka Handsome Hugs aka whatever the fuck they calling themselves now* poisoning the discourse while doing exactly in rl what his art portrayed (allegedly) is why we don't get to have nice shit in ZADR fandom anymore, huh.

*My knowledge of Rek/Recapkid saga ended initially when they first made their first dramatic exit in fandom. Everything after is what I had to track down to verify tonight.

#there'll always be wolves among the sheep and obviously fuck your fandom if it hurts people yada yada #idk what to believe but it is apparent something is not right with ang beyond drawing sick cartoons #i've seen them get harassed and bullied years ago and they were toted as a fandom martyr #but i don't have a reason anymore to think the alleged abuse accusations about them is false anymore #and perhaps their victims did retaliate in such a way to ruin their life and have them lose their job health insurence #but by not taking the end of life care and persist to taunt them and play victim ang has made their case look worse and indefensible #that no matter how you slice it no matter what ang has went through and what they did or didn't do to these people they created bad optics #i predict we're going to get another monster ballooned into a bigger monster here and no apology or accountability #this person is like if chris chan had gotten nearly as far as john k. in terms of legitimacy and cult of personality #i'm not being glib if the full story is true #they were exposed time after time but kept muddying the waters like an abuser does by calling their victims the abusers #and people eat it up as lies spread around the world before the truth can put its shoes on #and then leave truth freezing in the rain when it's already not welcomed as lies makes itself at home with your hot cocoa and blanket #i was never invested in rek as i knew od rhen as a person like i saw so many in fandom were #but i see what looks like a bullying campaign and condemned that #but now i have to question if they staged the bullying and exit for sympathy points to fit a narrative #because no former child turned adult would doggedly follow around their abuser from account to account #because they stumbled upon or hacked their adult account and were traumatized to vengeance and decided they need to ruin lives #no it is because ang or rek or whatever couldn't fucking disappear for real and stop bothering these people and prey upon some new ones #again allegedly and just my opinion #idk the real facts than the they said she said of it all

[abandonedandforgottentimes]

Many of the younger ccs speaking up about Wilbur's manipulation is INCREDIBLY concerning, and I don't think they'll be the last. I think it's also a big indication that it happened to Tommy too, and that he'll take a while to respond. People demanding an immediate response need to remember that he was likely a victim of it too, he just may not have been aware of it.

I mean, Wilbur's ADMITTED he relied on Tommy for his mental health when he was still a minor. That is NOT something adults should ever do and it has always been odd to me. It also makes it very hard for the minor involved to leave the friendship, since they see themselves as responsible for the older person. I don't think I need to really go into how unhealthy that sort of thing is, it isn't an uncommon occurrence and lot of people will have a better explanation than me. But it is something to keep in mind, that Tommy may feel responsible or have been groomed to excuse the behavior.

The library stream is another example of the manipulation, and I'm surprised no one is talking about it. Tommy literally talked about how uncomfortable he was at Wilbur's house. It was cold, he had no blanket, he didn't want to keep staying there, he would rather be out in public at night in a strange place. Then Wilbur just shows up out of nowhere and tells Tommy he's misremembering/being dramatic and pretty much shuts him up, gets him to stop talking shit about him. Everyone's exasperation with Tommy in the situation (being a minor alone and uncomfortable and uncertain of what to do, far from home with nowhere to go), helped Wilbur pull Tommy back in and convince him to go back to his house, especially since it was passed off as Wilbur being caring.

It was obvious to me during the stream that Tommy was telling the truth and Wilbur was the one lying, but I figured he was just being defensive because he didn't want all that online. Now we know that he had a LOT more to hide about his living situation that he didn't want being spilled, and manipulators/abusers don't tend to like it when someone goes and starts talking about the truth. They want to downplay it as much as possible, and Wilbur showing up in person to shut Tommy up and make fun of him for not wanting to stay with him, make it more lighthearted, is incredibly telling and I'm surprised I haven't seen anyone point that out.

There are so many other things I found odd throughout the years that finally have a proper explanation to them, but that's just a few examples. I'm not going to get too much further into it. Wilbur isn't who we should be focusing on, I just needed to get that out to move on from it.

I do think pointing out that Tommy has openly been manipulated is important because it may cause him to take a while to respond openly to all this while he processes. If Wilbur treated so many of his ex-friends badly it's safe to assume he did it to all of them, and we need to give everyone involved time to stop and think about the situation. A lot of people want Tommy to respond immediately, but he will need time to do that and it's only fair we give him the space to do that properly.

I also think it is so, so incredible that Shelby has given so many people the space and bravery to come forward. I believe there will be more people speaking up soon, they just need time. Support her and other victims!

#saw people on x posting 'fuck Tommy Phil Tubbo Niki etc for not speaking out' within fifteen minutes of the bitchass 'apology' #and then tubbo spoke out like an hour later?? like give them time #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #tw: wilbur soot