#tomorrow at long last my day off

[monster-noises]

There needs to be more events where wearing pants, a sick jacket, and no top is acceptable attire... The world is really missing out.

He/him

#creatures features #people #posting pictures to stave off worsening the quivering sense of self-doubt that's been seeping in all day :) #i've been doing so well for so long.. but the last two days just.. little cracks in the armour y'know #i think i just need to take my shot #i was busy the day i was supposed to do it earlier in the week #but i'll be doing it tomorrow #so i should be fine then #get things back in balance #and also if i get some better sleep #that'll help i'm sure #gay boy #trans masc #and GOD i wish i had a better mirror than the ine in my bathroom to take pictures in #literally my place is so cute but i'm forced to use the only room with no natural light

[thebirdandhersong]

on the good news train today: I have finally finished the last chapter(!!!) of my Inklings challenge story, which marks the FIRST ever Inklings challenge story I've ever completed properly :'D coming in at 30,810 words (yikes) (it did get out of hand, I must admit), it is definitely not a short story, but it IS a piece that I think articulates a lot of what I've been thinking about lately re: love and death, and, considering everything, is probably something I needed to write. I am very happy!! It has been a wild ride, but a deeply clarifying one.

#ALSO i went to watch hadestown on friday and i came out of that a changed person. i will literally never recover from that experience. #hadestown also has significantly shaped this story along with HMA's little mermaid and goblin market and sir orfeo btw #anywayyyy i am going to BED i have midterms to study for tomorrow which i have been putting off for too long!!!! #inklings round 3 #i'm bracing for impact this week (it's gonna be ROUGH) but i am holding to julian of norwich's wise wise words for this one #all shall be well and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well! #including midterms (of which i have TWO right after reading break. ain't no rest for the wicked and the righteous #don't need none and who knows where i fall) and boy problems and family worries #all SHALL be well!! #why my soul are you downcast! why so disturbed within me! #put your hope in God for I will yet praise Him my saviour and my God #magpie said think of jane austen's wise words too #(friendship is the best balm for the pangs of disappointed love) and she was right :) #im sitting on my little raft and paddling steadily onwards! #thank you for sitting on the step with me through the dusk and blue hours and dark days #all shall be well for pete's sake!!!!! all SHALL be well!!!!! #last year of school log

[scream-mans-friend]

the past two years ive been both employed damn near close to full time and going through a dense degree program, but my office internship is now over and I am hunting for a full time gig which does fill some of my days, but i still have not had this much free time in a long while. so im finally circling some of my fic ideas/drabbles like a shark that smells blood in the water and im finally developing the plot so it has an actual story that i feel good about...

#my classes take up a whole two days out of the week. tomorrow im going to write a report which will take most of the day yea but its insane #what do i do. like i finally have time for my hobbies again which is ground breaking. the last short employment gap i had i was too busy #grieving the job and failing interviews and also dealing with lots of tests and other stuff life threw at me to appreciate it #im still dealing with a lot of bullshit drama right now to be real. I can feel the stress shaving off years of my life. but damn man #this employment gap actually feels nice for now. like i can actually do things i enjoy (so long as i avoid the bullshit drama)

[oculusxcaro]

Khare is not an inherently violent person but she will have violent reactions when it comes to certain situations. These involve jumping her from behind (especially trying to get a bag over her head), coming anywhere near her with a needle or jumping out at her while wearing a bear costume. These are guaranteed to get her kicking and biting.

#🌈 || musings #🌈 || headcanons #Just a thought that popped into my head #Not feeling ot today and tomorrow's gonna be a long day but I have all of next week off as my last part of holiday! #Thought about Khare becoming unhinged and... it's gonna be very niche tbh #She will stand up for herself more now after the shit she's been through but the situations above will have her go apeshit #Doesn't matter if it's Winnie the Pooh he's losing his fucking nose #Absolutely will not tolerate needles anywhere near her #Because you know... all the experimental injections and shit #She ain't having it #needles tw #needles cw

[stealingpotatoes]

forcing myself to not do any artfights tomorrow bc it's only been a week and i've done 67 attacks and got more than double the points i got in the ENTIRETY of last july. there has got to be smthn wrong w me LMAO

#so basically if you see me posting on artfight tomorrow tell me to get my ass off there #just tomorrow tho <3 i can only stave off probable-addiction so long #talk is cheap #67 attacks! #AND MY TOTAL ARTS FOR THE MONTH IS CURRENTLY AT 81 #BEAR IN MIND WE ARE EIGHT DAYS INTO JULY #81 ARTS!!! #EIGHTY ONE! IN EIGHT DAYS! #WHAT THE SHIT! #WHY DO I DRAW SO MUCH!!!!! #AND HOW! #actually 67 thats one off doubling my attack number for last yr too LOL

[castielafflicted]

okay but what if I wasn't experiencing severe stabbing pain

#zeph posting #its been 6 days and at this point im bleeding more heavily than i was day 6 of bleeding off birth control #im going to call my gyno either tomorrow or tuesday and ask how fucking long breakthrough bleeding lasts #because ive been near bedbound the whole fucking time from how severe the stabbing pain is #and i havent been able to leave the house at all because im in too much pain to safely drive when i can stand

[thegreatbeyondmp3]

bro it sucks so much to have to go to work when you're sick

#i dont wanna go but literally if i miss another day they could fire me 😬 #i don't have covid at least according to the home tests but like. i still have a cold or something #and i can't call out because our time is so restricted #and its not even the worst attendance policy i know of but it still sucks to have to work around #esp coming from my last job where i could take off literally as much time as i needed to basically whenever i needed/wanted to #added on top of the fact that i just don't want to fuckin be there anyway #and that im scared im gonna pick up covid bc my immune system is currently weakened #ugh. i have to get through tomorrow and the next day #and then im off again #and then im on one more day before im back off again #so i will have a rest day again pretty soon at least #after being off the last three days #(the first was my legit day off but it was very busy and few days before that were the roughest of a tough couple of weeks - #the second i took off bc i had to babysit and. being completely honest. i watched all of fellow travelers thr night before. and esp after #how bad a time id been personally having lately. all the suffering and the loneliness and the romance just hit me so hard #tbh i just felt like i deserved a break and i could do some work at home to balance things out - #third day i woke up feeling sick and coughing pretty hard and just feeling generally miserable. which continued for most of the day. #but with less coughing until now bc im laying down) #i just wish i could take an extra day or two to actually kick this 😭 #sorry this is so long i can get locquacious when im tired

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all I know pretty much nothing about...dang it I don’t know what the branch of science is called. Archaeology but for animals? Paleontology but not for dinosaurs??? Biology but for things long extinct???? anyway to make a long post short: I want to make a like beanie baby version of a sabre tooth tiger, possibly a sabre tooth tiger cub. Can you please share any sources you know of that show what sabre tooth tigers are believed to have looked like? 

#I should know this I am friends with an implausible number of archaeologists for someone who is not an archaeologist #turns out the reason I've been kinda out of it this last week might not be that the new manufacturer of my meds made them in a shape #that cannot split evenly and resulted in a slightly different dosage every time #it might be that I am mildly allergic to the inactive ingredients that manufacturer uses #so. that's fun. I have the old version of meds back and am doing MUCH better #but still not back to 100% #and now I get to call a pharmacy again and ask if there's any way for me to get a list of the inactive ingredients #so I can start narrowing down which thing is messing me up lol #before I have any tests done that these meds affect I am supposed to be off them for at least a full day #preferably two weeks. So I'm assuming I'll be most of the way better tomorrow #and fully back to my normal within two weeks #probably sooner! probably only the active ingredient lasts that long #who knows though. certainly not me

[mashmouths]

i had planned to come back from rehearsal and listen to at least 1 of the 3 fucking hours of podcast i have to get through for a class but found out i had a draft of a paper due at midnight so! instead of doing either of those important and pressing assignments i made dinner for 2 hours and sat on my phone for the rest until time ran out 🫶 i am so happy to be alive (said through clenched teeth)

#the worst part is that This Morning i got up and just started doing work like i planned to last night and thought 'hey maybe i don't have #adhd and i've been a stupid fake piece of shit and lying about it to myself' and then i go and do this not 12 hours later. like no girl the #issues and problems haven't gone away you still in fact have issues and problems on good days too. not that this stayed good very long. #sorry to be like gripey on main i'm still mourning the high of 2 months ago when i thought i had a shot at passing this class <3 #anyway i'm seeing a concert tomorrow night and then surprising my parents at their house let's hope i don't rip my skin off in the meantime #a post #like yes i need to just get out of my own way but have you considered i have being-in-my-own-way disease :(

[elftwink]

the one fun thing about writing something longer than 10k or so words is once you get really frustrated with the specific part you’re working on and start being like ‘im a fraud im a sham ive never written anything’ you can just take a breather and scroll around 1000 words forward and be like. actually i’m so talented and cool and hot and this is going to be the best thing ever. this libreoffice document contains multitudes

#good idea generator #fic writing tag tba #yes this is about that fake married au i post about once every 3 months or so but never actually finish #sir thats my emotional support fic i started in 2019 that i'm most of the way finished with #but cannot for the life of me polish off the last few thousand words #but that document is always open. every day it's me and caleb widogast against the world #actually its me against caleb widowgast. writing from that man's perspective feels like wringing water from a rock sometimes #i do feel bad posting about this wip because its been. multiple years. and i don't want to continually give the impression #that i might post it Tomorrow. Soon. idfk that yknow especially given how everything has been in the last few years #but like also at this point it is hard to understate the emotional attachment i have to working on this fic and talking about it 2 myself #this thing is a monster. it has like six documents. varying stages of draft saved. alternate scenes documents. alternate perspective bits #multiple outlines. a playlist. a poem that fits it #most of the random npcs who exist to move the plot along got full backstories to the point where i could play them as dnd pcs #it's the longest work of fiction ive ever written. bc ive been working on it on and off for so long a lot of milestones #were completed while writing this fic. idk its been so long its almost embarrassing to be like 'still working on it' #but i couldn't give it up if i tried. you know. this fic is like a lover to me. it is my everything #it's my mortal enemy it's my best friend it's my shoulder to cry on it's my fine china to throw against the wall #i escape to it. i need to escape from it. i'm tortured by it. its tortured by me. i bemoan it day in and day out #i wish id never started writing it. i wish i could experience writing it all again. i want to be done yesterday. i never want to finish #etc. you get the picture

[bsaka7]

at what point did excitement for the holidays become apathy and the occasional wave of dread...

#Going to my bosses Thanksgiving with my coworkers and like. Maybe I should have begged off. #I had another offer which would have maybe been worse but like. #I can't handle meeting twenty new people and like. It takes me so long to warm up to people #And I've had a headache for two days straight :( #I mean I'll go and I'll fake it or whatever and hopefully play some cards #But it's just. I'm trying not to feel anything at all about it #Also dreading going home for the holidays except it's not even home it's just to my dad's fam and then my mom's fam. #Week between Christmas and new years #Sorry u guys r gonna hear a lot of this :( #But i'm hoping to get some fucked up i-feel-bad-in-an-airport fic out of at least. December. #Also my coworkers make fun of me all the time and it's mostly good natured #But we're not really friends so it frustrates me #Also they are way behind on the deadlines we set for ourselves #But that's just. Work. #And half day tomorrow at least!!!! #I miss the last year and a half of living with my friends so bad #It was really something. To look forward to coming home to them every single day. #Now I sit in my house. #It also takes me forever to make friends. Like. I didn't feel like i had good friends in college til. Literally my senior year. #A bit the second half of my junior year.

[yousaytomato]

I've really enjoyed Dracula Daily, like legitimately some of the best times I've ever had on Tumblr, or the internet

but damn -

the immense guilt and shame I've felt the last couple of months for falling behind, has really marred the entire experience - made only worse by knowing it's entirely my own fault, and also that it's such a stupid thing to be upset about, and yet, I still am 🤷‍♂️

#if you do relate genuinely we can all cry together about it #i think it's reminded me of uni a little bit #i know that keeping to deadlines and my inability to do so #is something that really frustrates me 😭 #i loved it so much when i was up to date #and i feel so so awful to be behind #especially because i did catch up!! and then fell behind again #and tomorrow is the end :/ #idk. im feeling sad in general the last couple days #i feel like im teetering on the edge of a big cry / breakdown #so a lot of things that would normally bounce off are upsetting me a little lately #im also feeling immensely guilty about some other things so thats kind of contributing to everything else #and stress of the new job i guess #which genuinely is not currently that stressful but i feel like it will be soon #and tbh just interacting with some of the people and being in a new environment is kind of stressful #and the long days and travelling and early morning's and damn. this got off track #huh. #woes of emily #Dracula Daily #main tagging because i feel like others may relate #there's always next year lol

[kirk-goes-to-gallifrey]

in the decade that I’ve been here I guess I’ve never turned anon on (or if I did it was so long ago I don’t remember) and now I’m wondering if I’d get some freaky shit or if it would be cool in case I turned it on 🤔

#idk I feel like experimenting #odds are I'm not gonna get anything at all because there are just like #3 people here who interact with me hahaha #(not complaining! it's peaceful) #but anyway I feel like my brain is fried today #I've worked all day long and it's 6pm and I'm extremely tired #and I've gotta do it all again tomorrow #(I'll take a break tuesday tho cause I haven't had a day off in the last 11 days #so anyway I'm so tired I don't have energy for tv or games or books #so I guess killing time on here is an option #anon asks

[tempobrucera]

Thomas's body hair part 2! But GIRL it was Tuesday

Maybe ... I've got barely time for anything let alone myself at the moment tho, so might take some time. I scheduled that post on Monday, guessing that this was about my tags?

#ask #anon #personal rant before i drop off again: #like i am getting a new job role i didn't ask for #in the process of applying for something else in the function #running after my landlord because he needs reminders every five minutes #co-ordinating the new person moving in bc that's my responsibility somehow #i literally have burn out. lol. #lol. but no joke. #my epilepsy medication not working. which is always fun. #more than busy at work #someone died. again. #someone broke up. again. #two hour dinner date where i actually can be myself. which was good but made me tired #tomorrow four hour long meeting. i prepped nothing. fun #asked for a cuddle date. good thing. #my still flatmate being a real bitch the last days. #and i can't fucking concentrate #other people: answer me in the span of a working day or better earlier otherwise i'll burn you on a stake #the adhd is acting up. but i can't have it win at the moment.

[causticsunshine]

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#text our morning lead i was calling off today bc i don’t feel well and ppl in my house have covid #took a sleep aide and knocked out so hard i slept through my alarm to call out so #because i technically no call no showed i might have to drive all the way to work tomorrow just to get a three day suspension ! #regardless of the fact i hardly ever call out and i’m an interim lead two days a week and most of my shifts are 10 hours #long with no lunches :o) #while people who constantly call off at the last minute and skip out to go home early and don’t do their fucking jobs have #no repercussions at all ! love it !! not like i need the money or anything !!! #not like we don’t have anyone else who can be the tues/wed opener! #genuinely can’t wait to find something else like i will burn this store to the ground #alex talks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tomorrow is the day the measurements start. the start of my 40+ days of torment. but idk im glad its finally here #i dont have to dread it anymore. hopefully its the last time i have to do these type of measurements #i was talking to my boss yesterday and she was like: oh last timr we were out i realized this might be ur last time doing lpi for thr rest #of ur life. and i was like god i hope so. bc thats a process where i crawl across the ground for 50m per transect and identify all the #plants and soil cover and for the life of me i cant fucking remember plant codes. i hate it bc i basically have to talk for like 3hrs and #have someone standing over my shoulder recording me and all the while my brain is screaminf at me bc field work doesnt count as real work #in my stupid brain. so yea ill do lpi and soil stability as benign torment in purgatory #but anyway. im hesitantly optimistic abt the measurements i have to take bc im going to try my best to make it ok bc i have school #interviews looming and i have to pretend im hanging on by more than a single thread ya kno #so we r going to b careful abt it. well at least well see how long it lasts. i also have tk find the time to read a bunch before interviews #while my brain is completely fried idk how. and do other lab stuff. sigh... #idk im probably going to take measurements all the way thru sunday and then monday see if i can fill out patent intake info with a psy #psychiatrist. and hope they take my insurance. i called and checked for providers and they were the only one in the area so shoulf b ok but #ya kno. god im barely a functional person. like the fact that i have to drive 8min down the road is very nearly enough for me to say fuck #it. id rather suffer forever. i just hate driving so much :-P #i just wish i could focus enough to make words make sense and justify the time i spend to learn things. agh #lmao im such an anxious person. a lab mate had a birthday today and my boss and a fellow lab member surprised her with a cake #and im v worried abt when my birthday happens. it wasnt so bad last time bc another birthday was also that week so the focus was off me a #lil but with my boss leaving this school i was like. yes. i escape the surprise gathering. but probably not. same for when i leave #genuinely i do not want a gathering. i just feel like im waiting for them to end. not that i dont like my lab mates but idk it feels so #artificial. and i feel awkward bc i never make eye contact or look at anyone in a way i think is typical bc i see ppl look at me #like turn their head to see my reaction to something and i just like fundamentally do not understand that impulse #whatever. what i want for my birthday or going away is to not attend the gathering. make it more like a wake lol #but i kno that wont happen. last year my boss asked whst i wanted and i said nothing and she said that wasnt allowed #im just so neurotic that if u try to do anything for me itll prob just upset me. but idk ppl like to give presents and stuff #and sometimes things arent all abt me. so i just gotta accept it and go cry abt it later #but thats like 3 months away so i dont kno why im so stressed abt it now. I've got more pressing things to stress abt #unrelated