#today just kind of sucks

[shopwitchvamp]

New bio just dropped-

Main highlights with added info:

-A reminder to please email us if you've got order questions or need help. Social media DMs aren't reliable and also make it much harder to connect you to your order, etc. Plus my bf is just way better at customer service than me lol, so if you email us things will get handled 1000x faster!!

-Anon asks have been disabled. End of an era, truly. But anon hate these days is so boring and uncreative anyway so what's the point. If you want to send an ask and not have it posted publically, just let me know if the ask. (But in that case, once again, it's probably a situation where you're better off emailing us rather than sending an ask that Tumblr may or may not eat depending on how hungry it is that day)

-Also I finally put into our tumblr bio that yes we are still just a 2-person business. I hear tell that my shop makes us appear to be a much bigger operation than we actually are (btw thank you so much for thinking things are too polished to possibly be a tiny business run by 2 people and a middle-manager dog out of an apartment), but please keep that in mind when it comes to what we're able to handle, how quickly we can expand/add products, things often being out of stock, etc etc.

#witch vamp #tumblr bio #bio update #announcement #also also about anon asks i pretty much woke up today and was like you know what! i value myself too much these days to leave anon asks on #lol #now asks are ya'lls problem instead of mine #although if *you* aren't a problem it won't be a problem anyways #and reiterating here in the tags again that if you have any kind of order issue or shop question pls pls just email us #i do tend to see things here at least (unlike twitter where it hides DMs from non-mutuals and i end up finding them like 2 weeks late) #but trying to run customer service from social media sucks and we'll all have a much better experience if you send us a support email #anyway all of this is just more steps towards living the hermit life of my dreams. retreating into my hovel and becoming inaccessable~ #expect more #haha

[blood-orange-juice]

In all seriousness, while I'm fine with *joking* about Christian themes in Genshin (there are a lot of tongue-in-cheek references indeed, especially since we are now in the equivalent of France), seeing them presented as the main inspiration feels deeply uncomfortable. It takes the flavour out of the story and I don't even think it's correct.

@liminalpsych-in-teyvat summarised it beautifully:

Genshin is a beautiful mix of traditions blended into something unique and I prefer it that way.

I hope the story takes an unexpected turn and puts and end to these theories. If Hoyo are indeed working more with themes of illusions, ignorance and enlightenment rather than sin and redemption/retribution (in line with the Gnostic concepts of the world) this will happen eventually.

#teyvat still seems based on zoroastrian-flavoured gnosticism to me #cricket it's not about you #I saw a post on twitter today and it made me so sad and angry #felt like life being sucked out of a character that I love #the boy lives in an ancient epic story #let him be #those and christianity have different kinds of depth #trying to combine them just makes the story shallow #not even tolkien was immune to this problem #childe's trauma whale #childe #tartaglia

[laidenbreecatchall]

This is entirely a self indulgent comic.

It’s my one piece self insert… which is just me with sick tattoos that I can control. I’ve got a whooooole little story in my head but that’s for another time.

I hope you enjoy my insanity and Laws flustered face 🙏🏻🕊✨

#I’m so nervous posting this #please be kind #I JUST LOVE HIM OKAY!? #also ignore the fact that the art style changes like every drawing #it’s fine it’s normal #One piece #my art #trafalgar law #I tried to make him in character but ya know who knows #there’s more of a story surrounding this but I will not elaborate on that today #I may be medicated but my ass is still mentally ill AYOOO #One piece self insert #entirely self indulgent art #I also have art of me and Sanji but we’ll get to that another day #I love my dramatic ass one piece self insert story okay #life sucks but they don’t

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

Axl Low is so fucking important to me like yes it's frustrating seeing the discrepancy between his damage and ability to convert compared to other characters but like even if he did actually suck (which to be clear he does not no matter how much I complain lol) I could not let him go. This is the guy of all time to me. Can you imagine how great the world would be if everyone was a little more like Axl Low? This guy has had so much fucked up unfair shit happen to him and all he has ever done was The Right Thing. He never got rewarded for being the world's nicest man and he just didn't care. Never became bitter never decided "Fuck this and all of you I have time powers so I'm gonna do whatever I want." This man spent so much of the series trying to get back to his girlfriend and his own timeline after being forcibly removed from it by events out of his control and the second he finds a way he makes the fucking impossible choice of "Cant do it cause it'd erase this timeline" I am SICK!! That is INSANE! He just kept doing shit he felt was right and he had a smile on for the vast majority of it. I cannot get over how strong he is. To suffer so much and just not let it change who you are at your core that is so fucking - I can't even think of a word to describe that. I wish I had half the strength and positivity of Axl Low I will just have to settle for my hands on a controller breathing life into the funny British man on my screen. Not even the only Gear character that does shit like this. Many such cases. I'm smelling the fucking game.

#sairambles #guilty gear #axl low #long post #sorry I'm losing it I just cant stop thinking about this shit #I'm vibrating and I cannot play more Strive today it'd be unhealthy and I need sleep #Axl Low is so everything I can't believe how far he's brought me #and yet the people around me are so tired of me talking about him or Gear #like suck my DICK I'm sorry you are BLIND and dont wanna feel that's a SKILL ISSUE #ggst #anyway please don't think this is cause for concern I just really like Axl Low LOL #I realise bits of this make me sound insane I just kind of went off

[marcygoo]

cchemical smelllzzz

#soup draws stuff #eyestrain #bright colors #thz sucks but i was in somr kind of a mood idkkkk just look at hthe dumb animaler image #all ive eaten today wsa bread with chocolate chips on it and tea ughghghgh im so hunggryyyyyyy fucckkkkkkk

[autogeneity]

getting increasingly annoyed about instructor saying I shouldn't compete in sparring

#it's so frustrating!! to go to a competition do a pattern and then sit there for 6 hours while everyone else does things #and like #it would be maybe okay if he gave me like a threshold of some kind #like ok in this much time or when you have done/are able to do X or when you are at X belt or whatever #just something! you know? #ntch #m #whining #tbc I still suck I would absolutely get wrecked #well today I would've been against a friend from our own school if I'd taken part and he probably wouldn't kill me but generally #he's brilliant and still went through it lol so I would probably be pretty fucked #however I still want to. #I mean I'd do badly but I don't actually think the risk of being like. maimed. is as high as instructor seems to think #and like there is another guy would fare similarly to me so it's very bullshit that I get treated differently imo #I think my bones are fine. probably. #I lift a lot I've been on T for almost 2 years I think it is fine. #a year ago I understood but the more time passes the more it becomes unfair

[amygdalae]

I was literally so stressed out at work today but then like a brief ray of sunshine a very kind and beautiful man around my age came to the counter and he made so much direct eye contact with me I accidentally knocked over the barcode reader in front of him

#i giftwrapped a book for him and im very good at giftwrapping so. :^) #its not like we flirted or anything he was just very polite and cheerful. he did look at me a lot #either way it just felt nice when i was stressed for some1 to be kind and polite like a breath of fresh air #idk today at work sucked but it wasnt all bad

[illithiddies]

So I never realized that Astarion's cantrip ability comes from being an Elf actually, I always thought it was from being a Rogue.

The dndbeyond page mentions that High Elves tend to have an affinity for magic, and use the Wizard spellcasting list and mechanics for it.

And while BG3 doesn't specify between Sun and Moon High Elves (of which Astarion is probably the later) the FR wiki mentions this about them:

It's not really talked about at all during the game, but Astarion definitely has at least this tiny bit of magical ability. Even more so if Arcane Trickster is chosen as his subclass later on.

Firebolt is his default cantrip, but it's default for everyone so I'd say it's up to interpretation if that's what he would have chosen. With his constant discussion about how much he loves the warmth of the sun, I feel like he probably would have taken firebolt, or at least maybe changed to it after he was turned.

He would have had this one singular magical ability with him for most of his life, both as an elf and as a vampire. Maybe he ignored it, maybe he relied on it, for self defense or maybe even comfort. Cantrips are the one thing you can almost always reach for, even when you've been disarmed.

There's a chance he might have had some further arcane knowledge in the past, but I feel like he most likely just didn't personally care to explore it. It might've not been worth his time as a magistrate. But, alternatively, he maybe 1) wasn't allowed to pursue it during his time under Cazador's influence, or 2) he actually did have some more magical affinity, but it was wiped out with the tadpole, as it was with Wyll.

Anyways, I feel like this can add a lot of fun extra context to his interactions with spellcaster Tavs or Gale!

#astarion #bg3 #this is long sorry lmao i love dnd meta #ive just never really made a rogue OR an elf so this was all new to me! #and yes. yes i made this entire post with bloodweave in mind lmao #listen the act 1 weave scene is still on my brain today. #i feel like astarion is probably actually a much better caster than he initially led gale to believe #especially if this is early on and he's still trying to (unnecessarily) manipulate gale into an ally. letting himself be 'taught' lmao #granted yes he'd have nowhere near gale's ability as a wizard. #so i think he would have ended up getting an extra taste of weave more so than he ever would have on his own #also semi-related but also hilarious: i realized this is why shadowheart kind of sucks in combat with firebolt lmao #its her elf ability not her cleric ability. it uses int not wis to cast. she's not super strong on int #questlog

[flowercrowngods]

the absolute mortification of crying in front of your volleyball group because you twisted your knee (fucking figures) and everyone keeps asking if you’re okay because you can’t stop crying but there’s no way of saying “the knee is fine, it’s the person attached to it who’s not” 🫠

#blah #seriously all i did today was cry. i’m so tired of crying all the time #and i’m so mortified that everyone just. had to see my ugly cry face. and my ugly post-cry face #but also everyone was so kind 🥺 my friend’s father took real good care of me and gave me his brace and. he was in full dad mode 🥺 #and my brother and his wife took me to their place and we had comfort food and his kitty was cuddly so it’s all better now #i even showered. but man 😭 i couldn’t keep playing volleyball bc the father said no (he’s a trained PE teacher) #and volleyball practice was the one (1) thing i looked forward to this week. and then that made me cry more #because objectively everything sucks and everything goes wrong and and i’m not getting any wins #anyway welcome to my pity party 🫶 #pathetic boy hours

[rosyjuly]

i was about to make a post about how i'm not fit for human society and then i remembered i have forgotten to take my meds two days in a row.

#:I #sorry i know i've been making a lot pof posts about how life is hard and terrible #a lot of shit has been going on in my life and they suck individually too but together? ohhhh boy #i'm on a mental health break from work and i'm just rotting away #fucking skipped my art class today to clean my flat before i travel. you think i cleaned anything? nope #i was looking forward to showing my stuff to the teacher so obviously had to shoot myself in the foot. #nooooo idea how i'm going to get back to work next tuesday and get through literally six hours of meetings #including a feedback sesh. like at this point i genuinely hope they fire me. i can't deal with this kindness man

[goldkirk]

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#gonna be real chief I just feel like shit #in several ways and none of them pin point able #I need food but I’m not hungry and it feels uncomfortable #I feel better rn if my stomach has a break #but everything else feels shitty because I’m not getting the usual equilibrium of water and salt and I’m not getting energy from tons of foo #I just feel shit #I have pain all over but I can’t figure out what kind #I slept 13 hours today and I feel wrecked after my irl meeting #this just sucks #health #shh katie #it’ll get better again it’ll get better again it’ll get better again it’ll get better again.

[simcardiac-arrested]

#i wouldnt usually care about stuff like this. but every month or so i get two or three asks like this and i just got one earlier today #and look. i’m not saying u can’t hate ns or dislike them. feel free to send me asks that are like ‘ns you are stupid and you suck and i hate #you’ he IS stupid and he DOES suck and he is quite hateable. that’s fine #it’s just when you start sending me wholeass paragraphs explaining every single detail you hate about ns and how they deserve a slow and #painful death that i think two things: 1. you are finite waves reincarnated 2. you are weird! and strange even! #what are you on about! ns absolutely does NOT deserve a slow and painful death! and you absolutely do Not have to be so hostile and #aggressive towards them as a character! like Please relax. we serve bullshit here sir #most anti-ns asks i get are funny and are light hearted because it’s just people messing with ns on purpose or mocking him and making him #mad because he easily gets mad and it’s funny. Like those asks are fine. it’s another deal entirely when you send me this detailed and— #honestly—really mean message. I guess i am not surprised considering how similar ns and pebbles are in terms of personality #(and circumstances somewhat) and we all know how the fandom treats pebbles. even worse than ns. but yeah anyway #they are not an irredeemable unforgivable monster and they do not deserve to die. Hope this helps #to me even calling them a Bad Person is kind of a stretch. let alone the shit some of you are saying about them #we have to get normal about mentally ill and traumatized and autistic characters gang! #crammerposting #i also do not appreciate when people insuniate that ns is stupid for overworking himself and damaging his structure and so on and so forth #yes it is his fault but that didn’t mean he deserved what he had coming to him or anything like that. be nice to him

[gomzdrawfr]

Man I'm sorry if me saying something like "you're a horrible person" under your angst art upset you. I didn't actually mean it. I love your angst work. I wont say something like that again. I'm so sorry.

Its fine, dont worry bout it, sometimes things gets the best of us 👍🏻

I appreciate the apologies and your support for my work!

#ask response #thanks for the ask <3 #gummmyspeaks #i know i bitched about it on twt on other kind of comments and ask way worst than this #seeing Gira's tweet today triggered something in me lol #it sucks sometimes but it is what it is #so long as we learn something out of it then we'll just keep moving! #dont feel too bad annon #it is what it is :3

[amethystina]

Hey <3 really sorry to bother you, I read Who Holds the Devil since day 1, I absolutely love it. Do you know when a new chapter will be posted ? Take care

Hi there! I'm glad that you like it! And thank you so much for staying faithful to the fic for so long 💜

Unfortunately, this is what we call "catching me at a bad time" since today I've received unsolicited criticism, opinions, and/or complaints (some of them valid) on three separate fics, from three different people. So I'm kind of having my doubts about the whole "writing fanfics" thing right now. Or at least the "posting fanfics" thing.

(That'll pass, don't worry. I'm just being dramatic because I'm still trying to process and overcome all these new doubts and anxieties I didn't ask for but suddenly have to deal with)

On top of that, you happen to be the second person to ask me this question today, which is in no way helping my current situation. I'm pretty sure that wasn't your intention, but yeah.

Also, I'm afraid I might be getting sick again so, uh, there's that, too.

So, to be entirely honest with you, I don't know. I had hoped to get back to it sooner than this, but things are kind of difficult right now even if we ignore the shitshow today has been for me, my confidence, and my writing.

As always, I promise I'll post as soon as I'm able but, right now, I can't say when that'll be. So please be patient for a little while longer :)

You take care too 💜

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #I promise it'll pass #And I will get back to writing it #Hopefully soon #Today is just a VERY bad day for this question #Because one of the fics in question was Who Holds the Devil #And... uh... #The comment hit me where it hurts #In that sort of way where even if it's just a single person saying their personal opinion #Which they're entitled to #And they claim it wasn't meant to be negative #I'm still second-guessing EVERYTHING now #Since it's such an important part of the fic #And something I take so much pride in #And it doesn't matter that it's one of the things other people have praised me for since the very beginning #Because anxiety doesn't care about logic #And all I can see is that I apparently failed at something I thought I was doing well on #So yeah #Today kind of sucks

[lesbianfakir]

Sorry for being so rambly today (and last night) I have thoughts so onto the blog they go

I feel like part of the joy of art is in community, like you create something and you get to talk about it and share it with the world. This year I lost touch with the friends who I would always talk about art with and I think that loss is heavily impacting my ability to create (and the enjoyment I get from it.) I miss having a new idea and getting to ramble about it excitedly. I miss texting people the sketches and the mock ups and the color palettes.

I got into art for me. I wouldn’t show anything I made to anyone for years. So I’m no stranger for creating for the target audience of myself. Still, I miss that sense of community. I love this blog and I absolutely adore the lovely comments you all leave on my art but sometimes it feels so one-sided on here. I post a piece, I receive a lovely tag back and that’s it. End of story. I spend hours and hours working on something and it kind of disappears into the void in a day or so.

Trying to put it into words, but I think I wish I could create art that starts a conversation. That inspires people to create their own things in response, or even just talk with me about process. I think the perfectionism has gotten out of hand lately because I feel like I’m missing something—which I attribute to the quality of the piece—but really what I’m missing is buddies to chat about art with. There is no level of being “good enough” that will serve as a substitute for a real community.

#ahaha if you can’t tell I am a very introspective person #and a lonely one the transition to college has been rough and all my friends are back home #anyways I was thinking about drawing more stuff for my ocs today #and then I remembered the friend I loved to talk about them with hasn’t replied to me in a month #which is understandable. she’s busy. she made new friends. she’s not struggling like I am so it makes sense that she’s just kind of moved on #but I miss her #I had no chance of making it to her in group because all her friends she met through dance and I can’t dance for shit #I don’t even think she meant to ghost me but who knows #it sucks that I won’t get a real goodbye #anyways all of that to say I was going to draw my ocs and then I got so sad because who would I even share them with #there are a few art groups on campus but I have anxiety and mild agoraphobia and when I try to go I just feel awkward and shy #anyways if anyone ever wants to chat about art #it’s only one of my fav things in the whole world #lea talks #WHY CANT I BE A PROPER TORTURED ARTIST #WHY CANT I TURN MY ISOLATION INTO SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL #WHY DO I NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO BE PRESENT IN THE PROCRESS #is it not enough to descend into a quiet madness on my own and create from that??

[universalkuzey]

İ want to messily rant about something which is the way this fandom treats canon ships.

Ships like aoikane are so very obviously canon from both sides (Aoi is so obviously inlove with Akane if you don't see that you have zero media literacy im sorry) yet they keep getting hate left and right, in some platforms (cough cough, twitter, cough) you will get jumped if you say you enjoy it.

Meanwhile a ship like mitsukou gets a completely different light and is just, you are auto expected to like it just because its canon? Just that, whenever someone brings up not liking mitsukou its just "BUT İTS CANON!!!!" who genuienely cares? İ straight up just don't like their dynamic im not too big on right person wrong time unless specific settings/an au

And it irritates me how those same people will deny aoikane or teruaoi or even Sakura's obvious pan/bi coding despite them being so obviously canon

And that behavior just pisses me off so much because in everyother fandom of ever, not enjoying a canon ship is completely normal and not a big offense but in tbhk fandom its a whole another story. And that makes me even more judgemental towards mitsukou because its fans are so annoying about it being canon.

İ am not fucking getting up everyday praying for mitsukou to not be canon because lets be honest it pretty much is. And i hate how these people are just so sticky to it thinking a ship can be liked just because its canon.

#especially considering how they treat certain rarepairs. #very suspicious ngl. #like if you will only ship canon ships im expecting you to ship aoikane and sumi6 too #its just so hypocritical #tbhk fandom in general sucks tbh #shout out to my 4 friends who never even heard of tbhk but still feed my terukane delusions you're the kind of people tbhk fandom needs #this is just a messy rant bcs im so angry about this recently i hope i got my point across #and god forbid they are also terukane shippers my god they give me so much second hand embarrassment #sometimes you gotta just learn that your ship won't be canon bro #ok thats all #ill post a coloringater today i promise