#tho i doubt that's how it would happen

[chirpsythismorning]

Thinking about the what if El was never interested in Mike romantically, she just assumed she was discourse on the tag today and how it's very possible what could make El fully realize this, is when in s5 she see's Will's love for Mike in real time, for the first time, and she's just like damn! That is not me!

#byler #no but arguably that already happened.. #remember that! you're the heart #el listening: you're the what now?? im sorry but that's corny as hell. could not be me! #i feel like this could be how el confronts will in s5 about lying to mike #i think it's interesting they had that talk with will and el about her lying to him with will calling her out #if to not circle back to it in some way for her to be like hypocrite much? #tho i doubt that's how it would happen #i have a feeling el is going to understand in will's case in contrast to her and mike's argument #like will and el are siblings so yeah they fight #but i just get the feeling she's going to sense something is up with them (already does) #and something big will happen and i feel like she's going to see the truth before they're able to #and i think will is probably going to realize last because he really does not think it could ever happen now #and also because of el i think will would feel like its wrong unless he was confident she would be okay with it #so i could totally see will not allowing himself to be happy in that sense even if he realized mike could return his feelings #but by then mike's already made his peace with el and they're good #UGHHGHHG s5 arrive now! #no but isn't it kind of side eye that they've never shown us el be confronted with mike and wills friendship at all? #like in s1 and s3 at the end Mike mentions will in his plans with el #and that's about where it ends #we have not seen her exposed to their dynamic and like reacting to it before #UNTIL THE END OF S4!!!

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[ilynpilled]

Do you think Brienne will also turn really grey in winds too like GRRM alluded?

i dont think brienne is intended to go that dark and i dont think this is the aim of her character thematically to be frank, nor do i think this is what is being set up ig. the one thing that i could imagine that would make her substantially morally darker in winds is if she eventually had to really choose between podrick and jaime in a way where jaime is actually in direct and immediate danger so not entirely like the feast scenario where that is not really the case and she picks jaime

#like this is not what the weirwood dream foreshadows tbh #and i mean put her in morally dark territory not in a dark headspace which will fs happen #like betraying cat atp is not that morally grey imo #like sure there r layers then but relatively nah #so this is the one thing that i would view as truly selfish and very dark #and ig it would mirror the things i do for love in some way but again i dont think its likely #but ye i think what george was doing was that he already put her in that scenario and she decided she will die trying #like a true knight no chance and no choice #but i think she will succeed tho there will be some tragedy in there like there has to be something massive #ask #talked about this before w someone briefly when we were talking about how insufferable winds will make the discourse #and the moralizing #so thats gonna be p funny #but i doubt thats the trajectory for brienne

[roychewtoy]

impaled

#nathan being impaled on that tetanus inducing loose steel pipe. tho tetanus is the least of his worries on account of. well u know 🕳 #nathan can be a body horror fans best friend if u let him into ur heart. living human crash dummy #i really cant believe he gets impaled. twice. #hole moment! #love turning nathans immortality round in my head. but healing factor....? #thinkin today about how the video game guy tim threatens to cut one of them in half with a chainsaw and simon is like: #[😐nathan u obviously have to volunteer] #but what woulda actually happened if that followed through [probably why it didnt lol] #would the others have had to drag each severed bit of him back to the community centre and let his guts re fuse #fucking hold him together with gaffer tape and plasters. cause i doubt he coulda regrown a whole half #his 'healing factor' only comes into play when he dies. fresh canvas etch a sketch reboot and all that. hes not fuckin wolverine #all the deaths r: impaled on fence. impaled on pipe. beaten to death. blows his own brains out. falls and snaps his neck #but chainsaw... ? one can ponder. fingers to head i can imagine anything image #readin his wiki rn 'his body will never get sick. rot. age. or truly grow old' #may not get sick but he can still shit his guts out. hashtag oblivious lactose intolerant king hashtag milk drinker #forever the worlds most annoying twenty yr old #and then the wiki goes 'the user does not need to eat drink or breathe' ....hello #ive rotated him not aging any further cause it lines up with the whole stuck in his ways. never changing [kelly voice: its just who u are] #but eatin and drinking and breathing??? we know he still experiences hunger [<-kebab] #and he dunks his head in a bucket of water when hes testin for powers with simon. gaspin for air afterwards right #firm believer in the. he suffocated to death several times in the coffin before they dug him up #oh waaait. is it stating this like. he doesnt need foodwaterair. cause it doesnt matter if he dies.. ohhhhhh..... Oh..😃 #staring at nathan sleeping in the community centre surviving on bags of crisps from the vendies so hard i burn holes through my monitor #this got away from me. uh. living crash dummy. oil pastel guts and water colour jumpsuit yessir #having fun doin art. expect more hole art. sorryfor putting this in the misfits tag hehe. not really #gore #blood #misfits #my art #chewtoy

[itsthegirlinthebowtie]

fulcrum….sabine finally wearing her armor…!!! ahsoka flexing and using only one lightsaber against the inquisitor because she only needs one to absolutely destroy them…very snips of her…. “funny, he never mentioned you”!!! carson teva my boy…the way sabine caved because she loves Ezra and couldn’t bring herself to risk losing the opportunity to get him back…fucking ANAKIN AND AHSOKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT FUCKING HAPPENED FUCK I’M NOT OKAY. HER FACE WHEN SHE HEARD HIS VOICE NOBODy TALK TO ME

#I am losing my shit #this episode was so good omg the character reveals were just very good I feel #we got some hint of history/backstory about what happened between ahsoka and sabine #I don’t love the world between worlds though I never have so wasn’t SUPER enthused to see it even tho I knew it was gonna be in the show #once I saw the waves change into that glowy blue water I said fuck #but then also like 2 seconds after started screaming and kicking my feet because I knew beyond a doubt anakin would be there #my brother and I had a debate of how he would show up #my brother said force ghost and I said world between worlds #so looks like I win #would’ve preferred force ghost I think but YOU KNOW WHAT I DONT EVEN CARE I’M DECEASED #seeing hayden in his rots fit again :’) #those two finally in live action murdering me ok #even more rambling taking place in the tags i’m sorry everyone #this episode did not disappoint for me #I am just so excited about everything with this show even if some of it isn’t perfect I just love it #positive ahsoka vibes only from me on this blog #ahsoka #ahsoka show #ahsoka spoilers #leah watches ahsoka #leah rants #star wars #star wars spoilers

[pitske]

long fucking rant about the joy of reading a good book. (not at all accurate title)

I just finished reading Felidae! incredible book I really love the story and- okay bear with me. I got the book a few years back because my mom mentioned reading it when she was younger. I told her I'd want to read it as well and she went through the painstaking process of finding it (which was not easy because the Author is a right fucking prick so his books aren't really sold anymore.)

so we found it on ebay eventually.( god knows I am not givin that author my money) I left it alone for a few years, had other shit to read and actually did not read much at all during that time...

right fast forward I decide I should read it because one of my terrible habits is starting thousands of things at once and never really finishing any of em. SO AND THIS IS WHERE IT GETS INTERESTING! I read the first 3 pages or so n talked to my mom and brother about it shortly, saying I liked the way it was written, the characters, the exposition, etc etc- AND at the mention of the plot my brother goes "oh! I've heard of that! it's the book that some german studio made into that horrifying animated movie adaptation!" AND IT ALL CAME CRASHING DOWN

because I remember what he meant because you KNOW tiny me with unrestricted internet access had seen some clips of the gory , disturbing cat-movie before! and you know what? I was unfortunate (or maybe fortunate , seeing how I'm a massive horror fan now) enough to watch "Watership down" as a kid so when I saw Felidae being ranked even HIGHER than that movie in those "ooh horrofying disturbing kids movieees ooh" lists, I swore I'd never watch it..

and here we are, I read that boook so fast and it is actually incredibly entertaining (i also just have never read a "krimi" before so I definitely have a high appreciation for the genre now)

I am incredibly excited to watch the movie. JUST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH a 2D animated thriller-detective cat movie with horrorfying scenes and absurd amounts of gore??? COUNT ME IN TL:DR : I realize that reading is fun if you actually have a good book to read and obsess over the story of a cat solving a series of cat murders

#I hate that this happens so often #where I find a great book or show and then the creator/author suck massive balls #looking at you jk rowling #either way I should read more good book. I had a lot of fun reading this one I should really read more Krimis #if anyone's got horror / thriller book recs feel free to throw em at me #please no stephen king tho I dislike how he writes (still forcing myself to read Cujo tho) #this is BY FAR the most incoerrent of my rambles #and since this is tumblr and I doubt I have anyone who wnat to read trough all of this #I am very much going to neglect checking my LRS in this #dyslexia is kicking my ass and today it is WINNING #pitskederdoenerhaendler #just. if kid me saw that I am actively deciding to watch this movie rn they would take me by the shoulders and shake me violently #I fuckiiiinggg love good books. I'll either continue reading Moby Dick where I left off or his majesties dragon (2) where I left of #you see I have a ton of started boosk #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I actually have to rewatch Skinamarink so I can rant about it here

[gendrie]

Sealord Uthero Zalyne put an end to that secrecy, sending forth his ships to every corner of the world to proclaim the existence and location of Braavos, and invite men of all nations to celebrate the 111th festival of the city's founding. [...] The anniversary of the Uncloaking is celebrated every year in Braavos with ten days of feasting and masked revelry—a festival like none other in all the known world, culminating at midnight on the tenth day, when the Titan roars and tens of thousands of revelers and celebrants remove their masks as one. (TWOIAF) 

honestly, i always kinda figured arya reclaiming her identity in braavos would be a fairly internal thing because arya tends to keep a really low profile esp where her name is concerned, but maybe arya, like braavos, proclaims herself for all to hear. a key part of the this celebration - that was clearly created to reflect this aspect of arya’s identity arc and will happen in twow - is revealing a secret existence to the entire world after hiding for over a century out of fear. thats how arya’s been living since she escaped the red keep and went on the run. her name has been her “secret” that she had to keep or be killed. if she’s truly going to reclaim her identity in the spirit of the unmasking of uthero she’s going to have to let it be known

also i think it makes sense within the context of arya’s storyline in braavos as “a coming of age” (grrm’s words) that she finally feels strong enough to reveal herself before leaving

#asoiaf nonsense #crazy how i went from barely speculating about twow to doing it nonstop lol #i mean it would def be an atypical move for her arc #but thats actually what makes it so intriguing to me #the question is #how does arya reclaim her identity publicly #when jeyne rolls into town using her name? #bc i have no doubt thats happening #but the FM know arya is arya and that might be enough #since they run the city #that would depend on the terms of arya leaving tho

[zhongrin]

◆

— fin.

alrighty, i will be cuddling the shit out of a certain dragon after this but before that, a small bonus (read: silly doodles) because we all need therapy after all that (or at least i do) -

1:

2:

"i had a nightmare."

"but i just went to buy milk-"

/silly

3:

we both have separation anxiety now so that's that 👍🏻

#rin plays ebg #'ebg afterparty' event #ok for REAL this time things are going to return to normal lol #i hope the ebg event was enjoyable for you as it was for me hehe #i loved every second of it #altho i was in pain™️ at the same time hskfjskjdlsjdlsfj #thank you for sending all the asks and rbs and creating entire POSTS for this event #thank you for your patience and encouragements for my noob art🙈 #thank you for going along with my silly whims #thank you thank you thank you thank you <3 #i can't express how grateful i am to have such a supportive and amazing community and friends. it still feels so unreal to me #if you missed the event i'll post a little masterlist latr so you can go through all the post. i mean i doubt anyone would be interested bu #it's more for me myself to go back and reread the asks bc man. that was so much fun. the most fun i had in a while tbh #literally the whole time of this event i nearly neglected genshin (and work but we dont speak about that-) HAHAHAHAH #gimme a bit to do the theme changes and such!! <3 #i did not expect to get soo invested. i just wanted to make a mini au thingy for the ebg and.... and somehow..... this happened......... #i'll be reblogging some stuff from other people which are related the ebg too for the next few hours lol- #feel free to tag me if you want me to see anything you made!! #should i...... post the 'alternate ending' sketch....... HMMMMM...... it's so roughly drawn tho shdlfjskljdfk #rin selfships #zhongrin

[spideyhexx]

I feel like the Plinths would ultimately be okay after his rise to power, but mostly cause he had the setup for becoming a gamemaker through Gaul's internship. If Coryo came back from twelve and went through college and was setup to inherit the Plinth's munition business, he'd get rid of the Plinths, but since he was going the politics route instead of the business route and they were already supporting, funding, and endorsing him, they'd be okay. (Unless people commented on him being taken care of by District borns cause of Capital bias, then he'd distance himself in the same way he distanced from Tigris, but I don't think he'd harm them at all.)

-🐭

yeah I agree! I don’t think he harmed them in any way, I think at most he just distanced/cut off with them once he was successful enough on his own because in the end he was using them, so ofc he’d be done with them once he’s gotten to a better place.

#asks #🐭 anon #I would really love to see smth with his rise in power like university/intern with Gaul to game maker to whatever else he had #position wise until President #it def isn’t smth needed for Suzanne to write imo like I’m sure there could be a really good reason to write that but I doubt she will #would still love to see it tho especially the university/intern with gaul stuff because that would be like #the newly changed coryo at the helm while he’s still a young man and I think that would be super interesting to explore #also his stuff with the plinths ofc because he def harbors some guilt that he probably pushes down so much #on another note fnsndns thinking about older snow and how he had these things happen to him over the span of a few months is crazy #like it’s just so sad and I wanna know if older snow was thinking of sejanus or Lucy gray at all (I think yes in some cases but he probably #pushed that shit down so much) #FUCK SORRY FOR LONG TAGS BUT LIKE THINKING OF HOW CORYO TURNED JNTI PRESIDENT SNOW IS JUST SO INSANE AND SAD IN MY MIND NOW #he also practically won in the end #he lived for so long and did so much that he wanted

[eudikot]

Does Serizawa know about Reigen dressing up as a school girl

#Someone's drawing of school girl Reigen made me realize that happened way before his time #And like maybe Reigen could've brought it up in conversation but I kinda doubt it #Maybe Serizawa could've seen it in the news? But also unlikely #How would he react to that information tho #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #I'm not going to tag this as Serirei but implied #mob psycho 100 #mp100

[2001fairyprincess]

everyone around me falling in love and im so happy for them but it just digs in the very possible reality of me dying alone. i just don't think i'm meant to be loved or wanted romantically in this lifetime. being disabled and a lesbian is so lonely.

#i spend most of my time in pain in bed #idk how i could ever meet someone #or who would ever want me #esp since having to use a wheelchair #the lesbian dating pool in my area is incredibly small already #but it got even smaller since my disabilities worsened #i love friends gushing to me it makes me so happy #just once i wish i could relate tho and have someone want me or fancy me or kiss me #i just dont think it'll happen for me #and it hurts #i get i dont need someone but i am human and want someone #my throat and chest hurts from crying as i type this #being disabled and a lesbian is lonely #i wish sometimes i wasnt me #doubt anyone read this but im sorry if you did #anyways gonna listen to falling behind by laufey and cry some more #kitty blogs

[pocket-confetti]

If the owl house ever gets a Theme song Takeover it should either be King or The Collector singing it

#the owl house #toh #king clawthorne #toh the collector #I legitimately doubt that would ever happen tho #did you see how long it took to get a chibi tales?

[arolesbianism]

Dude istg if the colab doesn't add one of cotl's actually cool bosses I'm gonna cry

#rat rambles #I get that they very much Have to be inherently lamer just due to dont starve's lack of movement options #but I just want Something I can give a proper shit abt yknow? someone Id want to fight because its cool even if the fight is kinda eh #cotl could just do whatever with adding bosses if they decide to rly theyd probably go more ham than in the original #but Im gonna be honest I doubt that cotl is gonna add any new bosses #mostly because cotl is a much more liniar game and finding a place to fit new bosses would be tricky #like unless they rly wanna commit That hard and add like a whole new area for donr starve bosses but again. I doubt it. #I coulddddd see a sort of pergatory miniboss rush tho if theyre feeling spicy? #like idk maybe there can be a purgatory branch that includes a handful of dont starve bosses and/or enemies where you unlock follower skins #again I just genuinely dont know how this colab is gonna look on the cotl side of things #at worst this rly could just be a skin exchange and nothing else tbh fjdkhskdu #cotl gets a few new follower forms dst gets a few item skins and both parties move on with their lives #I sincierly hope that doesnt happen but it is possible especially considering the very quiet announcements from both parties #idk Im chosing to trust that theyre going to at least add one or two new items #idealy we get a boss or two along with said items but we'll see #my main concern rly is just that the dst animation team would look at cotl bosses and go yeah no thanks #not that cotl bosses are all too complicated or anything but for a colab event it might be a bit much of a workload #but if I had to pick a most likely cotl boss to get to dst Id say barbados probably #not for any real reason it just feels like the most iconic mini boss to me #plus itd probably be easier to impliment into dst gameplay wise #other options could be the very first guy but that would be boring and maybe a witness but that would also be boring #I do think a witness is more likely of the two tho and would be a good potential canidate for a second boss #mostly because I doubt anyone cares enough abt the witnesses that theyd be upset if they completely changed its attacks lol #I hate the witness fight btw I would be the number one dst witness is better truther no matter how lame the fight was #as for dst bosses in cotl deerclopse is an obvious one but I could see them going with dragonfly tbh #mostly because I just feel like shed fit nicer in the cotl artstyle and also could fit easily into several cotl common boss gimics #if I were to go morw unrealistic tho the pugalist would fit wonderfully in cotl tbh #both design and gameplay wise it wouldnt even need to be adjusted that much tbh just throw a few more projectiles on that bitch and ur good #I could also 100% see them doing toadstool honestly thatd be my number 1 pick as far as dst exclusive bosses go I think #like toadstool rly is just so cotl boss coded tbh again just throw a few moee projectiles on that bitch and your good

[mrs-kelly]

Morniiiiing, James and I got married last night 🥰

#we basically just eloped like i was talking about <3 #anyone who saw my posts last night could tell i was like at a critical point of love for him afjkdsl #it was bound to happen; i needed to hear him promise to love me forever and really mean it 🥺💕 #and i knew he would! i knew he loved me so much and i didnt even doubt that he would want to get married #and!! even tho we've only been together for a couple months #or less?? really it's been a month and a half #i literally cant imagine not staying with him at this point. he's made a home in my heart and I've fallen ridiculously in love with him #cuz it;s like. every day i fall more in love with him and every day with him feels new 🥺 #spending time with him is just so fun and he makes me feel so loved 🥺 #also i imagined him calling me mrs ford and it made me cry with happiness 😭 #just cuz. i imagined how happy he'd look while he said it 🥺 #and i just wanna make him so happy!! and i think i do! <3 #ren speaks #im gushing out here folks #lost in your eyes

[depresseddepot]

My brother failed his driving test (was so nervous that he crashed) and cried afterwards because he was so upset about it and I, in true estranged eldest daughter fashion, am sick to my stomach worrying that my parents gave him shit for it

#i don't even like my brother very much #hes conservative and shitty like my dad (tho he is only 16 so im holding out for a few years before i decide he's a lost cause) #but i am still The Third Parent #my brother is My Dad's Son TM so i sincerely doubt he would humiliate him abt crying/be anything less than encouraging #but knowing how they treated ME when I made a mistake is. making me extra paranoid #surely they wouldn't do it a second time. surely they've noticed how i never talk to them #surely they understand what they did to cause it and wouldn't do it again to their youngest baby. right? #he was raised so much more leniently than i was so i don't think he's quite as. like. #terrified or failure but not bc of the failure but bc of the repercussions from The Bosses #but man. man. i need a leather cord to chew on. #i know my parents are shit to their kids bc they were shit to me and now im worried they'll be shit to him! what a cycle #anyway. tonight i am drinking to fall asleep faster! huzzah or whatever #also editing this to add a prediction: yes i know i could just ask my parents/brother how they reacted. you misunderstand our relationship #i live here and take care of the chickens and feed their son while they gamble. we do not talk. not even casually. #i don't just 'ask' any of them what happened. we exchange facts about events and move on #sometimes we visit my grandmother and get too encouraged by a chatty environment and get into arguments #we disagree on fundamentally everything (other than polite manners in public. that is unbreakable and sound) so we don't talk #ive surpassed wanting their attention. i don't want to know their opinions anymore and they never wanted to know mine #tough shit i guess. who knew you needed to love a child as a child and not as a cute handbag to lug around #(especially when that cute handbag grew up to be not so cute anymore and fat and actually reacted to that shitty treatment) #anyway this post isn't abt me (but im my mother's daughter so i always make things abt me huh) #i feel bad for my brother and wish i had been a better sister #i know i had 3+ undiagnosed mental illnesses/disabilities but still #i hope he passes really easily the next time and he isn't as nervous and my parents help him fix his car without complaining #vent

[astrxealis]

sometimes i randomly remember the time i was swimming as a kid and it was by the big pool but near the edge and the uhh entrance of the pool anyways i almost drowned and so i grabbed lune to live and almost drowned her. good times

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #the adults... were not there..... i mean they kinda were but did they really just look at us and think 'oh nothing's happening' and look #away :(( mom had to save us and it broke her phone bcs she forgot to remove it from her pocket and she still took so long raghhh !! #anyways i think that's what caused my extreme fear of drowning. it's funny i love the water so much yet fear it too #WE HAD TO WRITE ONCE about an experience where God Saved Us sorry religious school (SOBBING... <//3) #i did this. when i almost drowned (my twin too). uh. what was i going to say about this i forgot anyway #idk i have always had a very yeah imagination... sometimes thought about a plane landing down in the middle of a flight over the ocean #and it would really scare me thinking about the process (i think it was bcs i was a curious kid. even now but yeah. and i liked looking #at the papers and all during planes! love plane rides tbh tho i have a deathly fear of dying there too WHAGBJSHDB) it also didn't help #btw that yeah vivid imagination so i'd imagine it and it was worse than it would actually be tbh... maybe bcs i only really had those pics #+ watching the titanic + kid imagination to imagine how it would be like. i doubt now a shark would come if ever that happened tbh #also yk i love sharks they're so cute actually i love marine animals sooo much and sorry i should eat and do homeowrk i keep gettin #SIDETRAcked uhh i REALLY don't want to do my homework sobbing but at 5-6 i'll be busy and i don't want to cram and god i have sm to do