#this would make me so warm inside

[veronicathegoddess]

honey, it's okay. shh shhh, my love had such a hard tiring day, didn't you. oh you poor baby. just open your mouth for me. there we go. you're so good for me. now just let go baby, just focus on my fingers. forget about everything else except this feeling. now isn't this so much better my love?

#this is so cute #this would make me so warm inside #but i also wanna do this to someone #cause i like being a soft domme sometimes #ugh my heart #mine #gender neutral #domme thots

[inkskinned]

it mattered because when my brother asked me what if this is the happiest you'll ever be? the best you'll ever get? the thing i felt was fear, not peace. everybody thought you were so perfect for me. even i thought you were "helping me grow". i had to challenge every internal clock. make myself more thoughtful, more kind, more beautiful.

i told my therapist it was good because i like the changes i made and there's something so strong about saying i did that. the problem is that i can like the difference all i want, but i changed for you. something akin to getting your name tattooed, all my progress is stamped with fuck you.

it was the happiest i'd ever been and also the best i'd ever gotten. i would still get in the car and think what the fuck just happened.

#warm up #writeblr #i spent a lot of time picturing our future #how funny to think: in each version of our future #i was never myself #i was someone smarter kinder braver #better adept. #who could navigate the way you shouted and got angry at small things and never fucking believed the best of me #i would never be needy and you'd never get tired of me #people usually talk about how we picture people as being “fixable”. but i assumed i was the problem. my idyllic picture wasn't of you. #it was a version of me that wasn't ill. that needed no extra help. that could be your wife and happy #the fact i wasn't happy was because there is something so wrong inside me. it's always been that way. i convinced myself: #if i stay i can change. if i stay i can make it worth it. i can apologize and fix this. and make us both okay. #for the last year i've been thinking about how you blamed our whole breakup on me. how it was my fault for whatever thing. #and i agreed with you. because of course i did. you'd trained me to believe everything was my fault . that you wanted to love me and i made #it far too hard. that i was always finding ways to ''set you off'. #a few days ago while i was doing something else #i realized that while i was in crisis you told me to fuck off and find someone else to get help. and you never fucking apologized . #you said i made you do that because i wasn't being sensible. i had been crying too hard to speak clearly. #you said: you're doing this to manipulate me. #you forgave yourself for that. i had to forgive you without apology. you said you were right to react that way. and then you were SO #SO annoyed. any time i said: i feel like you aren't nice to me. it is hard to trust that you love me. #i don't think about you that much anymore. but these days when i do: all i can think is that im not sure u ever really understood kindness #you were the cruelest to the people closest to you. and most of the time. that meant it fell to me.

[canisalbus]

i've returned for 2 seconds to tell you that they're not leaving my head. (sort of unrelated but i've been thinking as well. what if vasco died before machete ? what would go down)

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#ah this is so terribly cute #makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside #“possessed by the vaschete spirit” you and me both #their expressions are so sweet #couple of dorks #and I like the dusty desaturated color scheme! with pink and darker brown accents #gift art #insect-shenanigans #own characters #Vasco #Machete #as for what would happen if Vasco died first #and I'm assuming of natural causes like illness or old age #I suppose Machete would try to sneakily sponsor his funeral #throw the fanciest burial possible #and maybe add some kind of anonymous half hidden obscure tragiromantic inscription on the grave #about wishing to see him again one day #and then either go on to do what Vasco did and commission art in his honor #or get a bad case of widowhood effect and go downhill quickly after his passing #oh yeah he might start to financially support Vasco's widow so that there was a little less pressure on her to get remarried #as you may remember she's a lesbian and one lavender marriage was probably enough for her #I can see that being a thing in certain circumstances

[icewindandboringhorror]

........creachure

#cats #his eyes are always so big and weird he no longer looks like a cat anymore sometimes.. in a way... #it's hard to understand.. complicated vibes on this boy #his summer sprawl (laying flopped out on the floor weird because of the heat) #I AM still trying to get some costumes done and also post another poll advtnure so I can finally finish it lol #the weather this month has just been soooo.... There was the heat wave and then after like 2 days of coolenss where I was like 'ah! finally #I can be productiv!' but just as soon as I had recovered from the heat.. it got hot again ghhhh #currently sweating inside. I actually had to leave my doctors appointment early today because I was just so so warm from #sitting in the car and the fac tthat half the buildings still do not have their air up very high and etc. and I felt so nausous #and flushed and started to get back and stomach pains for some reason.. Which I guess is good in a way to further confirm to doctors that #I Have Something Wrong With Me lol (most normal people should not be this heat sensitive I think) but is also still a little stinky #because I still payed a copay for the fulla appointment time but cit it short by leaving 15minues early.. grrr #ANYWAY. It seems like recently it's just hot all the time but it will ocasionally tempt you with a cool day of reprieve BUT don't let your #guard down! because as soon as you start to think 'hey things are getting better! :0' the sun will be like NO actualy. scalding temperature #be upon ye.. #Which of COURSE. I would rather have hot weather with little breaks in between than just constant hot weather. 100% definitely. #but it just always makes me sad because I get my hopes up lol.. JUST as I've recovered from the past heat and am So Ready To Start #On All My Things now That I'm Not As Sick And Hey Maybe It's Even Cool Enough To Do A Costume! .. my hopes are dashed #.. woe and so on and so forth. . Which I am stil managing to get a few things done but just.. not the things I really WANT to do (costumes. #sculptures. edit videos. etc. ). #anyway.. look at son.. If nothing else I still have lots of cat photos.. my sole productivity offerings to the internet online world

[hwaitham]

as tired as i feel coming home frm lab at one in da mornie , i feel equally accomplished . . . dere is a sense of joy in contributing 2 research so close to da clinic — to kno dat my hard work will one day pay off in da form of saving someone's life or bettering their quality of living . . it touches mi deeply /ᐠ ིྀ ˶꜆´˘`꜀˶マ

#𓈒 ۫ 𝓹𝓾𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓮 𐂯 𝓹𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮𝓼 ₊⠀ೀ #on top of it all . . i get to learn So Much ! ! ! an it makes mi so happie ! ! :D #someth smth to learn is to love — to love is to learn . . . ♡ waaa #mmm . . . i told myself i would talk abt haithie less bcos i feel like i must irritate evione for tlking bout him so much but . . #pwz allow mi to indulge for but a brief moment ૮꒰ྀི⊃⸝ ⸝ ⸝⊂꒱ྀིა #it makes mi feel all warm n frothy inside imagining coming home 2 him after work n telling him all excitedly abt da stwuff i learned dat da #n him responding in kind :3 asking mi all sorts of questions n listening to mi intently n going out of his way to research moar abt it #so he cn share dat knowledge w me too n n n ! ! aaah ! #he is j :3 he is j da bestest ever :3:3:3 ! !

[craycraybluejay]

If I wanted to, I could, and worse, you would let me

#and my delusions and aches need healing #and i need you #to love me enough for me not to want to force my love on you #and my rational mind wherever it is knows you do it knows it does #it knows #but. the irrational mind wants some kind of Proof #it wants to force to feed to get inside and look around #nothings ever enough for me i want inside #soft and warm like the womb #you know it #the sick me wants you to somehow prove everything ever #proof of love. proof that im not the only monster. proof of protection of care of empathy of trust of acceptance #its never enough but to be fair you and i both know who made me this way #of course there were many but there are catalysts and then there are nothing-people #prove it to me #i look at you and i feel like youre slipping away someone else has their guts on you someone else has convinced you they are worth your tim #but theyre pathetic and not poetic about it. weak and spineless. they USE YOU to make themselves look strong they USE YOU to talk shit at t #they are useless so they use you like me. and i know i cannot rush it cannot learn your lessons for you #i can't convince you of whats dangrous or cruel until you live it until it breaks your golden heart #but i wish i could protect you from all that somehow #and too i wish a million years would pass and you were as dark as me and as kind as you #its selfish but i hate to see you truly hurt i hate it. it makes me so violently angry. my brain turns off i cant help it #you hurt so Easy you're so very soft but every tiny cruelty that hurts you i want to completely erase off this earth #i dont care if its alive if its helpless if it doesnt know better i dont care if it didnt mean to all i want to do is prove to you show you #keep you safe and cared for #its irrational. i'd put away honour and hurt someone weaker than me if it made you happy if it made you feel safe #i wish i could eliminate the real threat but i cant im trying #you make me crazy and you make me feel normal and simple and human. i know everything about you-- i want to know more #my irrational brain doesn't even register accepted right and wrong only what it considers significant and important. my rational brain read #it like a million page rulebook. be normal be good don't hurt anyone don't get dead don't act before you think

[starsburned]

i love having your presence on the dash and enjoy writing with you very much !! i love your dazai and our interactions make me so happy. thank you for writing with me and following me <33 *sends u internet hugs*

#| OOC ★ COR POSTING. #| ANSWERED ASKS ★ OOC. #| OOC ★ SAVE. #im really not good with words right now so have a picture of my reaction #that's totally a selfie and what i looked like reading that #but let me return the sentiment in these tags #following you has been an absolute wonderful experience #and i love atsushi and your ocs and even tho i haven't interacted with him (yet) i love naru #i would die for all of your muses #i would love to interact with all of them #thank you for taking the time to send this in because like #these really do mean a lot to me #and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside #and makes my ICE COLD DEAD heart thaw a little bit #you are an absolute treasure

[trashabilly]

i think there's something wrong with my couch

#we had to move the couch off the wall when it was almost -40°C bc the vent is back there #and while it was nice that we could keep the living room warm it also means lucifur can get into the couch #usually she just kicks us from inside the couch.. clawing at my arm from the crevice was definitely new #she is an absolute hellion.. #we met the lady who fostered her and her littermates when she got spayed #and according to her lucifur was the best one of the whole litter which makes me concerned for all the people who adopted her siblings #keep in mind when i say this that i love my cat so much i would kill for her.. she is the sweetest little baby ever #but shes also a huge dick so... make of that what you will

[cheekblush]

i might just fall in love with my physiotherapist..... 😳

#just had my first session & i've never had a man touch me like this ansnsjmsms #he's also my age which makes this whole ordeal even worse like i've only seen him with a mask but he looks very attractive.... #he's tall and has dark hair and he has a nice voice and his hands were so warm.... this is not good.... #actually thankful we both were wearing masks otherwise this whole thing would've been even more awkward #like i knew i would get a young male therapist that's why i was so scared of this appointment bc idk it's kinda uncomfortable as a young.. #woman to have a young man a STRANGER touch your body & of course it's his profession but still.. #he didn't make me feel uncomfortable thankfully but i was just so embarrassed & shy throughout the whole session zhananka #i hope he didn't notice i think i acted normal but in my mind i was going crazy ahhabsnsna #like when i was laying down & he was doing wonders on my back i had to hold back a laugh the whole time & i was just smiling.. #i'm glad he couldn't see bc my face nc it was inside this hole thingy idk how to call it shabwjwjnw #he made my back crack 3 times that was so sexy of him...... i need to calm down #actually my neck/shoulder hurt even more now after this session but he was so fine i forgive him shahnsnsn #☁️

[lorenlily]

after thinking about it a lot if i ever got to go to an eras tour show my dream suprise song combination would be dorothea (guitar) and labyrinth (piano)

#i cant tell you why but these two songs make me so warm inside i would love to experience a performance of them #theres a lot of other songs i love to but most of them have gotten to have a chance at being performed #dais speak not*

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

Today i woke up and realized i had not ONE not TWO but THREE ENTIRE COOL DREAMS and none of them turned into nightmares. Just cool vibes all around and two of the dreams were about pokemon legends. One of them was an entire au idea. I should have taken melatonin to fix my sleep schedule before this if this is what normal people feel when they go to sleep

[au idea is in the tags]

#dream #pokemon legends #the idea was just people discovering akari was banished im the past and fucking. sending a certificate from the future saying its illegal #to have her in the galaxy team #it was saying something like 'dear commander kamado and galaxy team. this is a certificate saying dawn/akari cannot join the galaxy team. #since she was banished you will not be allowed to make her work for you. we are sending this with aid of the gods dialga and palkia #who were kindly tracked down by a blonde man who was touched by her story. kind regards - the sinnoh government' #and it was so fucking funny #pokemon au #pokemon legends au #the other pokemon dream i don't remember that well but it was just me/an oc i was seeing the pov of chilling in my ingame room #with a talking hisuian zoroark witb the windows open and the red sky above #except that in the windows' side there was a whole backyard and it was pleasantly cool but also pleasantly warm at the same time #also good vibes there despite the literal end lf the world going on #people would not come inside my room to get me so i could just chill umtil it was over and not be banished loll #there was a bit where i was outside with more pokemon but i dont remember it almost at all #the unrelated dream was just me going in a swimming pool with one of my favourite childhood youtubers for the first time at night #and finding it full of crabs when i turned the light on (i dont remember if it was a flashlight or the pool light. i think a flashlight) #other childhood youtubers came later and we were all friends and it was really cool #except my mom wanted to eat the crabs and a little squid that was also there when the morning was coming before they ran away to the sea #through the tubes #but that was the only instance of me feeling distressed throughout the whole night #this is the most dreams ive remembered at once in the same night ever this is so cool

[icewindandboringhorror]

i can tell summer has been very hot and annoying to me this year because just seeing snow in the sims is enough to be deeply emotionally moving 

#like it doesn't even look that nice. its just a plain default house with pixelly trees and stuff but literally even seeing reminders #of snow and winter it's just like aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i feel like i could cry ghhj #It's like a transcendent experience just to gaze upon digital snow #I feel like I have the opposite of that seasonal affective disorder thing where people get depressed in the winter and are so happy #to see summer and warm weather. for me it's like the second it starts to get warm I am filled with nothing but dread and miserable until #it's finally fall again and ESPECIALLY winter. my only complaint is that I hate being out at night or driving in the dark #or going anywhere and doing anything if it's not daylight. so in the winter when it starts to get dark at like 4pm its super limiting #IF it were reversed where winter had the longest daylight and summer had the shortest then winter would legitimately be the absolute perfect #season in every way. Short days is it's only solitary flaw #Just like longer days/more daylight is summers ONLY positive #I'm sure this is also different for people with central heating and air but for those of us with either zero ac or a tiny little #dinky window ac thats hard to install and uninstall every year and doesnt actually get the whole house and etc. etc. etc. #then it's just like.. idk how I'm supposed to enjoy constant headaches and being drenched in sweat #and unable to sleep half the time because it's 85F INSIDE OF MY ROOM when tryong to get comfortable and being basically unable #to go outside because you feel like you're going to pass out and you have to keep like 5 layers of heat/light blocking curtains up #just to try and reduce it a little so it's just like 2-3 months sitting in a steaming dark box sweating and miserable #And then people are like 'thats why we go on vacation! it's my favorite season because I get to travel away from the heat and go to the rive #r or the coast!' and it's like.. okay.. if it was REALLY a good season then you wouldnt have to travel just to get away from it like hghb #that argument just makes it look bad? 'Summer is good because I can enjoy spending my time escaping the conditions of summer!' #ANYWAY.. i hope cooler weather will finally arrive soon. there are STILL days in the mid-high 80s here... why was is like #87 degrees this afternoon on fucking September 25th .... w h y #I know climate changes is affecting the entire everywhere but it seems to be heating up so quickly on the west coast #If I cant get to the uk or canada or at least back to the northeast US in the next few years I am going to become an evil villain #idk how much longer I can take this before I transform into a rabid beaste #ANYWAY.. as always.. my mood is craving the cold.. craving snow.. I love being cold so much. I used to sneak into the walk in cooler at #daycare when I was a kid legit like cold has just always been so comforting for me. I am not built to be even moderately warm ever at all lo #l... It is so draining and the longer that summer goes on the more intense it is until I'm like crying at sims pictures ghjbj

[ienvieu]

the irony that is me loving my parents and still them being the two people i am the least honest to and feel the least safe with my secrets

#today was shit #i pray that tomorrow is better #he knows. he understands. he makes me forget. he probably doesnt even know how seen i feel and how much of a breath of air he is to me #he makes me forget when he's nearby even when he's doing nothing and i feel so so safe that he knows #and he's so kind and is so warm-hearted #he is so tender inside and i have seen him cry more than a few times because of things i dont want to mention #and he doesnt push even when he addresses the elephant in the room and i never feel judged #and i only see him thrice a year for a week each time #and those weeks are the highlights of my year #so bizarre how i feel more cared for by someone i barely see rather than the people who raised me #relapsed awfully aggressively when i was months clean and i feel horrible i kept praying for forgiveness. i feel disgusting #mom would it have killed you to just help me #it's been four hours ever since and since then i was distracted by things i had to do but now #then i had to hang the laundry and not having any distractions and being left with my own thoughts made me spiral again #good lord #i just #i wonder if everyone else feels like dying every day like me. she always says that she struggled too and that she stayed up late manytimes #and i know she had it difficult too but our lives have been so different that our childhoods simply can never be compared and i want to #scream and destroy everything but i cant so i can only destroy my own body and im so helpless idk what to do #tw: mental health #i feel so spiteful and i want to show her everything and scream that she did this to me and that it's all her fault #but i love her too much to hurt her like that. it would kill her. #and ig it's all my fault for being a horrible being and for being a failure and turning out ill like this. i just dont know anymore #i think i had an episode of psychotic rage again. everywhere hurts but i still cant get the ugly feeling in me go away

[coquelicoq]

Hiya!!! Thanks for replying to my poll about DDDNE! You are not overthinking it and in fact are thinking about it the correct amount that I wanted everyone to consider it in an ideal world!!! I very much appreciate your contribution to Fandom Science and the thought you put into your nuanced explanation in the tags. I hope you have a great day!!!!

[re my tags on this dead dove poll]

wow thank you for responding!! i have a history of being confused by "dead dove: do not eat" (see also my explanation of where "dead dove" came from and these asks about using it as an intensifier) and also have a lot of thoughts about poll mechanics, so it was a perfect storm lol. it's so fascinating how terminology can mean such different things to different people, and this term in particular having different meanings to different people is kind of high-stakes because it's a trigger warning of sorts. i will be interested to see the results when the poll closes!

(followers who want to share their thoughts on dead dove do not eat: the original poll is accessible at the top link, and here's a follow-up poll)

i hope you have a great day as well!

#asks about my rambly tags always make me feel so warm inside <3 #polls are hard lol because my need to have opinions on everything clashes with my interpretation of the narrowness or broadness #of the poll question #i appreciate your poll because the options given were detailed and discrete and there was a good variety! #a lot of polls are like option 1 option 2 other and i'm like okay did you even try lol #asks #not anon #polls #trigger warnings #links #i also appreciate that your poll options don't have any particular judgment baked into them #i get annoyed on a poll where it's like okay this option is the one that i think except the way it's worded i would never agree with #like that poll about the definition of a drabble that was like 'it's 100 words and i'll die on this hil!!!' #it's 100 words but i ain't dying on that hill #don't put words in my mouth! there are different ways to feel about the fact that i think a drabble is 100 words!!