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#but theyre pathetic and not poetic about it. weak and spineless. they USE YOU to make themselves look strong they USE YOU to talk shit at t
craycraybluejay
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If I wanted to, I could, and worse, you would let me
#and my delusions and aches need healing
#and i need you
#to love me enough for me not to want to force my love on you
#and my rational mind wherever it is knows you do it knows it does
#it knows
#but. the irrational mind wants some kind of Proof
#it wants to force to feed to get inside and look around
#nothings ever enough for me i want inside
#soft and warm like the womb
#you know it
#the sick me wants you to somehow prove everything ever
#proof of love. proof that im not the only monster. proof of protection of care of empathy of trust of acceptance
#its never enough but to be fair you and i both know who made me this way
#of course there were many but there are catalysts and then there are nothing-people
#prove it to me
#i look at you and i feel like youre slipping away someone else has their guts on you someone else has convinced you they are worth your tim
#but theyre pathetic and not poetic about it. weak and spineless. they USE YOU to make themselves look strong they USE YOU to talk shit at t
#they are useless so they use you like me. and i know i cannot rush it cannot learn your lessons for you
#i can't convince you of whats dangrous or cruel until you live it until it breaks your golden heart
#but i wish i could protect you from all that somehow
#and too i wish a million years would pass and you were as dark as me and as kind as you
#its selfish but i hate to see you truly hurt i hate it. it makes me so violently angry. my brain turns off i cant help it
#you hurt so Easy you're so very soft but every tiny cruelty that hurts you i want to completely erase off this earth
#i dont care if its alive if its helpless if it doesnt know better i dont care if it didnt mean to all i want to do is prove to you show you
#keep you safe and cared for
#its irrational. i'd put away honour and hurt someone weaker than me if it made you happy if it made you feel safe
#i wish i could eliminate the real threat but i cant im trying
#you make me crazy and you make me feel normal and simple and human. i know everything about you-- i want to know more
#my irrational brain doesn't even register accepted right and wrong only what it considers significant and important. my rational brain read
#it like a million page rulebook. be normal be good don't hurt anyone don't get dead don't act before you think
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