#this whole game is about trying to get Kim to hold back a smile

[disco-elysium-sideblog]

This is what happens if you tell Kim you practice both Mambo and Jambo. If you even care

#de #disco elysium #kim my beloved #kim kitsuragi #harrier du bois #harry du bois #HIS MOUTH TWITCHED HE THINKS I'M FUNNY #this whole game is about trying to get Kim to hold back a smile

[hamsterclaw]

Everything

Yoongi and you are at a wedding, and it seems like he's spending time with everyone but you. Set after the events of Vows - read the rest here.

Pairing: Yoongi x F! reader

Rating: 18+

Genre: Smut, angst, arranged marriage AU

Word count: 2.3k

Warnings: Sex, as always, Kim Seokjin in a suit

Yoongi enters the kitchen and you freeze in front of the open fridge where you’ve been munching yesterday’s leftover noodles.

He looks every inch the chaebol he is, in his bespoke tuxedo, his perfectly aligned bow tie, his hair styled back. He even has makeup on, just enough to make him look airbrushed.

Your husband looks like he’s stepped out the pages of a magazine, and you —-

Well, you had been feeling pretty good before you decided you needed to eat something before the wedding you’re both going to.

You lift the box and offer it to Yoongi. ‘Noodles?’

He’s looking at you with a bemused expression on his face.

You take that as a ‘no’. 

***

You fidget in the passenger seat of Yoongi’s vintage sportscar and examine your reflection in the mirror.

The lipstick you’d reapplied hastily before you left the house looks perfect. You’re checking your teeth when you catch Yoongi staring at you.

‘Just checking there’s no lipstick on my teeth,’ you explain.

His brow rises slightly, but he says nothing.

‘You look very handsome,’ you offer.

‘I know how I look,’ Yoongi says. He sounds disinterested.

‘Like my dress?’ you ask, smoothing out a wrinkle in the silk.

‘It’s pretty,’ Yoongi replies. 

You try not to feel hurt that he hasn’t complimented you specifically.

You look out the window. 

‘My family are all going to be at this wedding,’ Yoongi says.

‘I’ll try not to embarrass you,’ you say, lightly. 

He glances at you like he’s not quite convinced.

He stops the car, gets out to open your door for you. The flash of cameras, which you weren’t expecting, makes you startle, and Yoongi’s hand tightens on your arm.

‘You ok?’ he murmurs. You look up at him, still unused to him being concerned about you even though your relationship’s much more affectionate now.

‘I’m ok, Yoongi,’ you reply. 

Maybe he wasn’t that concerned, because as soon as you step into the hotel he’s approached by his grandfather. 

He greets you both and leads Yoongi away. Yoongi glances back at you once, and you’re still standing, watching them go.

You remember what he said about his whole family being at the wedding and put your game face on.

Your husband’s chaebol, but so are you. You straighten your shoulders, raise your head and nearly fall over as someone bumps into you from behind.

‘Ah sorry, I didn’t see you —-‘

You’re apologising too when you realise who it is.

Min Yoonseok.

He realises at the same time as you, and the smile that he gives you is sexy, devastatingly handsome. 

Objectively, he’s as beautiful as all the Min family are, but he isn’t a patch on your husband. 

You’re smiling back when he says, voice low but missing the gravelliness of your husband’s, ‘you look very beautiful.’

They’re the words you’ve wanted to hear all night, but it’s the wrong man saying them.

Yoongi would melt your heart and reduce you to blushing and stammering if he said that to you, but to Yoonseok, you smile and murmur your thanks.

‘You look handsome,’ you say, ‘that colour’s great on you.’

He holds out his arm for you to take as he leads you further into the ballroom. 

You catch a disapproving look from one of Yoongi’s uncles, and you understand why. In the early days of your marriage to Yoongi, you’d chosen to flirt shamelessly with Yoonseok as a way of aggravating Yoongi.

Yoonseok had been more than happy to flirt back, and Yoongi had never let on that it bothered him. Until you’d decided to make amends and Yoongi had wrestled Yoonseok over an ultimate frisbee game.

The memory of your husband, sweaty and panting, expression thunderous as he’d grabbed Yoonseok in a headlock, is still one of the sexiest things you’ve ever seen.

Yoonseok’s staring at you curiously, and you make a valiant effort to temper the dreaminess of your smile.

Finally he laughs. ‘Where’s Yoongi? I can’t leave you alone, you’re way too pretty to be left unattended at a wedding like this.’

You’re indignant. ‘I can handle myself.’

‘You look like you can,’ comes a silvery voice beside you.

You turn to a faintly familiar, very pretty face. 

The man who’s spoken holds out a hand. ‘Park Jimin.’

‘Min Y/N,’ you reply, shaking his hand.

‘I can escort you to your husband,’ Park Jimin says, leading you away from Yoonseok so smoothly you’re halfway across the ballroom before you realise it.

‘How do you know my husband?’ you ask, politely.

‘The man who outbid me to buy you at the charity auction?’ Park Jimin offers, eyes twinkling with mischief.

You can’t help your smile as you remember the moment Yoongi told you in bed after the auction that he had never had any intention of letting you be ‘bought’ by anyone else.

‘Everyone knows Min Yoongi,’ Jimin says. ‘Also we went to school together. And I have no idea where he is, apart from that it was foolish of him to leave you unattended tonight.’

You meet his gaze, teasing. ‘Park Jimin, are you kidnapping me?’ 

‘I would if you’d let me,’ Jimin admits, grinning at you so charmingly you laugh.

‘He’s got family business to attend to,’ you say, loyally.

‘He’s also staring daggers at me, behind you,’ Jimin tells you, leaning close. 

You turn so quickly Jimin laughs. 

You spot your husband across the room, and automatically change course to head for him.

You’re a few metres away when he’s approached by a beautiful woman in jade green whom you don’t know. You watch as he smiles at her in greeting, leans down to kiss her cheek.

You realise you’ve come to a complete stop.

Yoongi turns your way, and you rearrange your facial expression so quickly you’re not sure you fool him.

Kim Seokjin arrives at your elbow with a glass of champagne.

‘I did say he’s an idiot sometimes,’ he says, coiffed and perfectly groomed as always in his white tux.

‘He’s my idiot,’ you say, accepting the glass and taking a gulp.

Seokjin takes your arm. ‘Come on, let’s feed you.’

‘But Yoongi—-‘ you protest.

‘You have the whole night to stare at him longingly,’ Seokjin replies, firmly.

He grins. ‘Come stare at me for a bit.’

As Seokjin leads you to a quiet table in an alcove, seemingly set up just for him, he says, ‘you look very beautiful.’

You sigh. ‘Do you think Yoongi thinks so?’

Seokjin looks at you thoughtfully. ‘Didn’t he say so?’

You’re not going to be butthurt about the fact every man you’ve spoken to tonight, apart from your beautiful husband, has complimented you.

‘You’re right, he was probably too stunned to even say anything,’ you say, summoning your haughtiest tone, squaring your shoulders. 

Seokjin shrugs. ‘Did you know your mouth turns down when you’re lying?’

‘Maybe if you’d realised that sooner I wouldn’t have been able to fool you all those times,’ you tell him sweetly.

Seokjin laughs and nods to a waiter, who advances with a plate of food.

‘Eat, Mrs Min.’

Seokjin is a delightful distraction during your meal, solicitous in offering you morsels from his own plate, refilling your glass generously.

You’ve excused yourself to get some air when you realise you’re not alone on the balcony. 

Kim Namjoon straightens up from where he’s been leaning over the railing. 

‘Y/N,’ he says, polite as always.

‘Namjoon,’ you return, warmly. ‘Is Nayeon here too?’

‘She had to work,’ he tells you. He tilts his head. ‘You look pretty. That colour suits you.’

You’re grateful for the darkness to hide the expression on your face. 

When Namjoon goes inside, you stay, shivering a little at the crispness of the night air.

‘Are you enjoying yourself?’ 

You close your eyes at the sound of your husband’s voice.

‘Yoongi,’ you say.

It doesn’t matter to you that he hasn’t complimented you. You don’t care now. You’re just happy that he’s finally spending time with you.

Yoongi’s arranging his jacket over your shoulders with care.

‘I saw you eating with Seokjin,’ he says.

‘He wanted me to admire him,’ you say dryly. 

‘I’m glad you ate,’ Yoongi says. He leans against the railing next to you. 

‘Yoongi,’ you say, touching his arm. ‘Can we go home?’

He looks at you, face half-shadowed, the straight line of his lips the only thing visible in the moonlight. 

You wish you could read him better.

He offers you his dress shirt-clad arm. ‘Yes, brat, we can go home.’

***

You’re sitting in Yoongi’s huge bathroom in your finery, watching as he cleanses his skin.

He turns to you. ‘Are you watching me for skincare pointers? Because your skin is better than mine.’

You sigh. At this point, you don’t know what you want, torn between wanting a hug and wanting your husband to call you pretty and fuck you senseless. 

Yoongi’s already turned back to finish washing his face. His silver rings gleam in the light as he moves his hands.

You sigh again, and Yoongi raises a brow at you in the mirror. 

You search his face for a sign of any emotion, but he’s expressionless. 

‘I’m going to get my pyjamas,’ you tell him.

Back in your rooms, you get undressed and take your makeup off despondently. 

You’re heading back to what you still think of as Yoongi’s room, even though you sleep together every night these days, when you glimpse the stuffed kitten Yoongi once won you at a funfair.

You clutch it to your chest and get into your bed instead.

***

You wake to total darkness and Yoongi’s arm around you.

His voice is raspy, low. 

‘Don’t you want me tonight, jagiya?’ he asks.

You want to turn to face him, but he holds you tight against his chest. His hand strokes a path over your bare skin, and your senses light up under his touch.

‘You spend your night talking to every man but me, and then I find you in your own bed cuddling this damn cat when you should be with me,’ he says, disgruntled.

You’re about to answer when he says, ‘Yoonseok, fucking Park Jimin, Seokjin, Jeonghyeok, Sehun, Namjoon.’

He’s listed all the men you’ve spoken to tonight. 

You hadn’t realised he’d been that aware of you. 

You’re trying to process what that means when he groans. ‘Let go of that cat so I can hold you.’

You’re so confused all you can think of to say is, ‘You won me this cat.’

Yoongi nudges you flat onto your back and gets on top of you.

He lowers his lips to yours and kisses you gently.

‘I’ll win you anything you like,’ he says as he pulls back. ‘Buy you the whole damn funfair if you want.’

You’re distracted by the weight of him, the press of his length between your legs.

You shift your hips so he’s fully on top of you.

‘And popcorn too?’ you ask.

Yoongi laughs.

‘Everything,’ he promises.

Yoongi lowers his lips to yours again, and his kisses are languid, patient, a slow burn from your insides that steals your breath. 

He pauses with a hand under your (his) t-shirt, palm warm over your bare breast. 

‘Your tits look so good in my shirts,’ he murmurs. 

You’re trying to think of a snappy remark but he grinds his erection between your legs, the press of him against the thin cotton of your panties deliciously hard, and you moan instead.

Yoongi doesn’t seem to be waiting for an answer, thankfully. 

He makes quick work of your panties and his boxer briefs, halting with his cock poised hard and heavy at your centre.

You tilt your hips so that he presses against your clit. 

Yoongi sounds amused. ‘Stop, brat, I want to talk to you.’

‘Now?’ you burst out, so horny you can’t stop writhing against him.

‘Now,’ Yoongi says, firmly. His hand squeezes your hip. 

‘Where did you get that dress?’ 

‘Uh?’

Yoongi circles his hips, cock nudging against your cunt so tantalisingly you sob with frustration. 

‘Nara designed it, it’s her latest collection,’ you tell him.

‘Get ten more just like it,’ Yoongi says. 

He enters you in a smooth thrust, and you’re still moaning your pleasure when he pulls out completely, leaving you bereft.

‘You’re so fucking pretty in it I want to rip it off you the next time you wear it, ok?’

You’re still processing his sentence, hazy with pleasure, when he enters you again. 

‘Yoongi!’

‘Answer me,’ he says, sternly. ‘Or I’ll pull out.’

You stare at him, but have the presence of mind to say, ‘yes Yoongi, please.’

He laughs again, your fucking husband. ‘You have such good manners in bed, why are you such a brat outside of it?’

You don’t think you’ve been a brat tonight. 

Yoongi senses your change of mood. He kisses you again, gentler this time. 

‘My baby,’ he murmurs, lips by your ear. 

Yoongi starts to move, finally, and you cry out with pleasure as his hard length fills you, sliding into you the way he’s learnt you love. 

He lifts your legs to his shoulders, and you gasp as the change in angle lets you take him deeper.

You think he says something as he spills inside you, but you’re already floating on a high, anchored by the weight of him on top of you and the love you feel for him. 

Afterward, you’re half asleep, curled in Yoongi’s arms, pressed against his chest, when he says, very quietly, ‘be patient with me, jagiya.’

You look up at him. His gaze is steady.

‘I’m not used to being a jealous man,’ he tells you. 

His words send warmth through your chest. 

You do your best to keep your face straight as you reply haughtily, ‘better get used to it.’

He laughs and pulls you closer. 

‘Go to sleep.’

‘Good night Yoongi,’ you murmur, pressing a kiss into his chest.

‘Good night.’

©hamsterclaw 2023

#min yoongi x reader #min yoongi fic #vows au #suga fanfic #bts smut #yoongi smut

[jigujellee]

(gif creds) SOMETHING THERE -> minji kim is a problem you can't seem to solve.

minji x reader word count: 1.2k warnings: just some swearing and minji being frustrating

a/n: i honestly dk what this is... it could be way better but i was really itching to put something out. nonetheless, i hope you enjoy it! (not proofread as usual lmao)

“this one is wrong too, y/n” minji circles the incorrect answer you wrote with her red marker. “you know, it’s mistakes like these that can make or break scores,” she looks to you and smiles before continuing to mark the practice test she specifically made for you.

you gaze at the dark haired girl in front of you. she held your hand, thumb gently caressing your knuckles. her eyebrows were creased as she concentrated on your test. she was sporting the baseball cap you always wore and was drowning in your favourite oversized hoodie that was almost twice the size as her. she’s unaware that you’d been staring at her this whole time, trying to study her and figure her out.

because honestly, minji kim is so fucking confusing.

your ears perk up when you hear a familiar voice coming from down the hallway. you take a quick look in the mirror that hung on your locker door, ensuring you looked somewhat presentable for the girl about to pass by you. you close the door just in time to find minji just a few steps from you.

“hey minji!” you beam a bright smile her way. “are we still good for later? i can order takeout if you-”

“mhm, i’ll meet you at the gate” she says robotically, not even bothering to reciprocate your smile which has now faded as you watch her walk past you without sparing another word or glance towards you.

oddly enough, that’s how minji always was with you in school. she never uttered more than a sentence towards you and rarely ever smiled in your direction. you noticed she wasn’t this cold to anyone else, and she definitely wasn’t like this whenever you two were along together in the comfort of your own home.

it was almost like a routine. once your front door closes, she’ll make her way into your arms to intoxicate herself with the smell of your cologne while she lets herself sink into you. she’s exhausted again, you’ll think to yourself as you peek down at the girl resting in your arms. “ready to study?” she’ll ask as she peels herself away from your body. then she’ll grab your hands and leads you to the dining table to start your tutoring session. that’s how it always was with minji. maybe she only knew how to love you behind closed doors, and you were okay with that if it meant getting to experience what it was like to be loved by her.

the sound of the doorbell causes you to nearly trip down the stairs as you make your way to the front entrance. when the person you’ve been expecting appears in front of you, you instantly hold up your test paper to the girl, making sure you’re flashing the big red 97% right in front of her eyes. she lets herself in and grabs it for herself, and you watch a smile grow as she flipped through each page before she excitedly starts jumping around.

“see, i knew you could do it! i’m so proud of you y/n,” she wraps her arms around your neck and tries to pull you in for a tight hug, but you take her arms off of you and push her away gently.

“minji wait, stop.” the girl backs down and creates some distance between you two, confusion making its way on her face. “what’s wrong y/n?”

“i don’t think it’s fair that you act like this around me now and then be a bitch again once you leave.”

the arm holding your test drops by her side as the other reaches up to pinch the bridge of her nose, irritation and disappointment evident on her face. she lets out a deep sigh, “bro please, not this conversation again.”

“no bro. every time i try to bring this up, you always shut it down. can’t you see i’m tired of all your stupid games?” you spat. “whatever this is needs to stop because i can’t fucking understand you at all.”

“what games are you talking about? y/n, i’m here to tutor you just like you asked me to, so i don’t know where all of this is coming from.”

“oh my fucking god minji, what is wrong with you?” her expression remains blank, waiting for you to continue the conversation.

“why do you act like you don’t have feelings for me?” she nearly laughs at your question

“what the hell made you think i have feelings for you?”

you looked at her in disbelief. every word minji spoke to you, even if it had to be behind closed doors, were enough to make you believe she felt something for you too. hell, her voice alone was enough to have you kicking your feet and twirling your hair like some fool who was madly in love. you always disregarded how cold she would be in public and tried to give her the benefit of the doubt, always trying to give her any possible explanation for her attitude towards you whenever you weren’t being tutored, but now you don’t know what to think. if you were confused before, now you were just lost at this point.

“do you not see yourself when we’re alone together?”

“y/n, you need to stop overthinking how i act around you.”

“are you being for real right now? bro you-”

“honestly, i think you’re an idiot for thinking that i’d have any feelings for you.”

her words rang in your ears, echoing over and over like a broken record. there’s no way you misinterpreted how she was acting towards you. anyone who saw you two together would believe that you two were a thing. fuck, even you believed that something was there between the two of you.

“then why the fuck do you act like this when we’re alone?”

“act like what? you know friends can act like this too, y/n.”

“no, you know what? forget it. i think you should just go, i can study on my own,” you seethe through gritted teeth, fists tightly clenched as you fought the tears forming in your eyes.

“what, you’re getting rid of me? with finals aroun-”

“get out of my house, minji. please.” she opens her mouth in attempts to protest, but instead just accepts defeat and turns to leave.

she stands on your front porch and could hear you sobbing before being startled by the sound of glass shattering on the ground. for what seemed like hours, she internally debates whether she should go inside and check on you or just go straight home. she raises her fist to knock on the door but quickly changes her mind and chooses to make her way home because she knew the last thing you wanted was to see her right now.

minji is a smart girl. she’s a straight A student who knew how to solve problems that others had trouble doing, which is why you asked her to tutor you in the first place. now she was the one who was confused.

why couldn’t she just admit that she was in love with you?

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[amnignsity]

Truly...

MDI!!!!

Dom!Han Jisung x Switch!F!Reader x Sub!Kim Seungmin. Mentions of pegging, bxb, begging, good boy(seungmin), Slight BDSM, overstimulation, cvck ring, s3x recording, kinda mentioning giving head(male), nicknames ( my love, sir, pretty), polythrouple.

All three are over 23 no underage hanky pankey here, not on my watch.

Dom Han who would literally tie you up on a chair while making you watch him toy with seungmin while being handcuff on your shared bed.

Sub Seungmin who let you overstimulate and pegging him over and over again until his legs shake and unable to walk until for the next day or so.

Dom Han who would have you bend over while covering your mouth with his hands to make sure seungmin gets his rest.

Sub Seungmin who would literally beg on his knees just for you to start bouncing on his cock until he can't cum anymore.

Dom Han who would literally smack your ass while pulling your hair as he thrusts his cock into you while seungmin just records the whole thing with a cock ring over his cock dripping in pre-cum not being able to cum due to him running his mouth over at an interview and not listening to Han when he told him to stop.

Sub Seungmin who gets bratty at one point when you were at a friend's house making you pop and nerve and kindly use one of your closest friends bathroom while they play games as you pull him inside grabbing his chin while making him look at himself in the mirror as you play with his cock but stopping every time he was about to cum and just leaving him a twitching mess with pre-cum dripping down his redden cock.

Dom Han who is literally so gently with you two whenever you guys try something new and would always make sure to lube himself up and make sure to pull multiple orgasms out of you two before letting himself cum.

Sub Seungmin who makes sure you two get the best heads of your lives since you two had a stressful day and him being the good boy that he is wants all your stress to go away as he gets on his knees using his hands and tongue to get you both drunk in pleasure.

Dom Han who gives you both the best aftercare with multiple kiss and gentle caressing over your sensitive bodies while preparing you both a bath and grabbing new pairs of bedsheets to change ruined one so that you two can lay comfortably later.

Sub Seungmin who cuddles with you and Han after a session liking to be the big spoon of you two while he feels contented with both of his lovely partners in his arms while he slowly drifts off to his dreams.

Dom Han who gets mistaken for being a sub due to his babygirl attitude as he just smiles over person who said it just letting them have their own thoughts but never letting them know that he likes having you folded in half fucking in the dorms while the others are asleep hands over your thighs telling you not to make a noise or else and seungmin crying while he makes him bounce up and down, again and again on his cock that disappears completely inside of seungmin each time holding his neck and his other hand over seungmin's tiny waist to make him a complete mess then afterwards sending it to you who was currently being on vacation.

"Seungmin was missing you baby...Look at him begging for you~"

"A-ah~...F-fuck..I-..miss you so much..Pretty...ah..p-please come...home~ ngh-"

Sub Seungmin who makes people intimidated by his big figure and blank look being a sarcastic individual who almost wins every argument made against him making him somewhat dominant in a way but never letting them know how much he loves crying for you hugging you so closely giving you his biggest puppy eyes with drool dripping down his chin as you make him cum for the third time of the night and Han who gets to see him on his knees when he comes back home from work at the studio being so obedient for Han fucking his mouth wanting the older to use him however he pleases since he's been craving him from the very start of their comeback.

"S-so...ah~...sexy above me...my love~..please don't...a-ah~..stop..i love...you~..."

"I'll be good for you, sir...please...i need you so bad...Want you..I wanna please you..."

>Authors note - Currently questioning if I'm on my ovulating cycle or nah cause I'm cramping but at the same time nothings coming but I've craving to give a bj...Next ones probably gonna something like that ¦D.

Hope you guys like this! And I probably got a little too comfy but it's cool.

Might have some grammar mistakes ¦>

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[leviackermanscleaningbuddy]

Lol as soon as I saw this I knew I wanted it 😭😂😂

IMG 4, prompts 37 & 38 with either Chan or Seungmin please! 🩷🌸

Skz prompt game

Prompts: "You're n-not, um, w-wearing anything under that, are you...?"

"Are you trying to turn me on or are you really just that oblivious?"

Member: Kim Seungmin

Relationship: Neighbors!FemReader x Seungmin

The first time you'd met Kim Seungmin, it had been under completely normal circumstances.

You had needed to borrow a cup of sugar.

Cliche, right?

But you really needed to stress bake these cookies and eat them all before bed, because you had a big job interview in the morning and what better way to relieve some anxiety than with warm chocolate chip cookies?

So, when you'd realized you had no sugar, it was a catastrophe, to say the least.

Without even thinking, you had gone next door and knocked on your neighbor's door.

You only realized it was a bad idea after it was too late to take it back.

After Kim Seungmin had opened the door looking like some sort of nerdy Greek God, confusion spread across his pretty face, dark hair still damp from a shower.

He had stared at you with confusion, and in a squeak, you had asked if he had any sugar you could borrow.

He had given you a look that clearly said he still didn't understand why you needed sugar at ten PM at night, but had promptly gone to retrieve you a cup.

You had taken it with a mumbled 'thanks' and scurried back to the safety of your own apartment.

Surprisingly, the cookies did not make you feel better, because they were only meant to soothe your new job anxiety, not erase the stupidly awkward way you had introduced yourself to your incredibly hot neighbor.

You vowed the next time you saw Kim Seungmin, you would be calm and collected, smooth and put together, ready for anything, not standing on his threshold in barely matching pajamas with a bird's nest for hair, holding a measuring cup.

Oh, how Karma is a Bitch.

********************************************************************************

The next time you see Kim Seungmin, it's just as bad, or maybe worse-no definitely worse-than the first time.

He opens his door at your knock, and his eyebrow ticks up in surprise when he sees you.

You give a little sheepish wave. "Hi."

He leans against the doorframe, and you try not to notice the way his cozy, soft looking sweater stretches over his arms as he does so.

Recognition crosses his face.

"Oh, Number Four right?"

You stare at him, confused. "What?"

He gives a little grin, and cocks his head, watching you, before he jerks his chin toward your apartment door directly down from his.

"You're from Number Four, yeah?"

You realize, with a jolt of stupidity and a flush to your cheeks, that he's referencing your apartment number, because of course, you hadn't given him your name the first disaster of a night.

You had been more focused on getting back to your apartment before you spontaneously combusted from embarrassment.

"Oh, right. Yeah." You give an awkward little laugh and swing your arms a little. "That's me."

Seungmin studies you for another brief moment, and you begin to fidget, before he asks, "How'd the interview go?"

You jerk in surprise, staring at him wide eyed.

He remembered?

"Um-" You scratch at the back of your neck, suddenly flushing again under his gaze, scuffing the toe of your shoe on the old, worn carpet that lines the hallway. "Yeah! Good. I got the job."

"That's great." Seungmin says with a smile, and you think he genuinely means it.

You stand in silence for a couple more moments, and then he clears his throat, finally asking, "So, did you need something?"

Fuck, you had forgotten the whole reason you had knocked on his door in the first place.

Something about big, brown, doe eyes did that to your stupid little monkey brain.

"Oh, yeah!" You give another nervous little laugh, and try to ignore the burning of your cheeks. "I um, kinda locked myself out of my apartment. Do you mind if I use your balcony to get in through my window?"

Surprise flashes across Seungmin's face, and then he's moving aside, giving you room to enter his apartment.

"Oh, um, yeah, sure. Go right ahead."

You squeeze past him in the doorway, and try to ignore the slight scent of his cologne that wafts over you as you do so.

Something cedar lined, if you had to bet, with hints of pine.

Focus, (Y/N).

Seungmin follows you through his kitchen and living room, and you note, with slight interest, that his apartment is just how you imagined from the one time you'd interacted.

Shelves of books line the wall behind the TV, and there's few and sparse decorations, but a nice, large leather couch takes up the majority of the living room space.

It's nice and cozy. Definitely a bachelor pad.

There's no touch of anything feminine-not even a cardigan left over the back of a chair, or shoes in the hall.

The thought makes you giddy for some reason.

Seungmin skirts around you to push open the large window that leads to his balcony, and gives you an amused sort of look as you consider the most ladylike way to shove your body through a window.

"Okay, um-" You hesitate, fingers wrapping around the sill, and glance out to the balcony beyond.

There's a couple of pots of what looks like herbs growing on the ledge that lines the window, but you should be able to shimmy your way out relatively easily.

"Need a boost?" Seungmin asks from behind you, and you jump so hard that your head hits the top of the sill.

He chuckles. "Sorry."

You shake your head, your face so red it could heat and cook an egg, and decide to just get it over with.

Surely someone like Seungmin isn't going to be looking at your ass as you crawl through his window anyway.

"Here I go." You announce, not really sure why, and push yourself out through the open window, hands first.

Your legs dangle for a minute as you scooch your body over the wide sill, and then with a slight shriek, you topple headfirst onto the grated metal floor of the small balcony.

"You good?" Seungmin peeks his head out, staring down at you.

You access yourself and then nod, dusting yourself off and standing up, gripping the fire escape railing for support.

Fuck, you had thought the third floor wasn't that high up, but out here-

You swallow, and focus back on the man still leaning out the window.

You give him a thumbs up that you hope looks more confident than you feel. "All good. Thanks for the help."

Seungmin watches as you slowly creep your way against the wall to your own terrace, and swing a leg over the railing to the adjoining balcony.

"How do you know your window is going to be open?" He queries, seeming like he's making conversation, and while you would like nothing more, you'd rather it be when you weren't three hundred feet off the busy street below.

You grunt a little as you lower yourself to your own balcony, and take a moment to catch your breath.

"I always leave it unlocked." You reply back, leaning forward enough that you can jostle your window and heave it upward.

It opens easily, and you let out a triumphant whoop.

"That seems unsafe." Seungmin comments, and when you glance back, he's sitting on the ledge of his own window so he can see you, legs dangling, worry in his dark brown eyes.

"What, leaving my window unlocked?"

He nods seriously. "Yeah, I mean, the crime rate is pretty high here."

You snort. "We're three hundred feet off the ground, dude. It'd have to be a pretty determined criminal."

You swing a leg over into the safety of your apartment, and let out a sigh of relief.

Seungmin's voice makes you pause.

"Stranger things have happened."

He still sounds concerned, and you slide the rest of your way into your apartment before you lean back out the window, popping your head around the sill so you can meet his gaze.

"The only thing that these tiny balconies have ever been used for, Number Six, is what you just witnessed." You give him a little grin.

Seungmin looks resigned, before he holds out a hand into the space between the two of you. "Throw me your phone."

You stare at him like he's just grown a second head.

"I am not throwing you my phone. Knowing my luck, you won't catch it and it'll smash on the concrete three hundred feet below us."

"I'll catch it." Seungmin assures, hanging farther out his window, giving you a pointed stare.

You slip your phone from your pocket and heft it into you palm, wondering how incredibly stupid you have to be to put this much trust in a man you've only met twice.

Though, he did let you use his balcony, so you guess you sorta owe him.

Resisting the urge to close your eyes to what happens next, you toss your phone over the railing to him.

He catches it easily, and you let out the breath you'd been holding.

He types something, and then tosses the phone back to you once more. You fumble it, but palm it in time, and stick it back into the safety of your pocket.

"Now you have my number." He announces, giving you a cheeky little look and an arch of his brow. "Just in case you ever get locked out again, or you need someone to save you from all the bad things that come in through your unlocked window."

You resist the urge to squeal and look at your phone.

Instead, you clear your throat and say in a rather calm voice, "Thanks. I appreciate the help. And the number."

He waves you away with a sigh, and starts to duck back into his own apartment. "Yeah, yeah. See you around, Four."

You grin, and shut your window.

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You: I have a favor to ask. 👀

Six(y) Seungmin: Oh no. 😮‍💨

You: It's not bad!!! Six(y) Seungmin: Considering the last two favors you've asked of me were 1) for a cup of sugar and 2) to climb out my balcony, I'd say the spectrum with you is *very* broad and I have a right to be apprehensive.

You: .....Touché.

Six(y) Seungmin: What's the favor, Four?

You: Can you possibly, maybe, water my plant while I'm gone this weekend? Pretty please??

Six(y) Seungmin: *Plant*. As in, you have *one* plant?

You: Yes?🤨 What's wrong with that? If I have too many, I can't keep them all alive and I panic and then I feel awful when they die and have to have plant funeral services for them all. 🥺

Six(y) Seungmin: OMG. Fine. I'll water your *ONE* plant. 😑

You: You are an angel, Six.🥹 His name is Yongbok.

Six(y) Seungmin: ....like the fucking KPOP star?

You: I will not be taking anymore judgement this chat session, thank you. 😌

Six(y) Seungmin: 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 You don't have to choose to take it, but just know it's there regardless.

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"I made cookies!" You announce as soon as Seungmin opens his door, sweeping past him without waiting for him to invite you in.

He sighs, shutting the door behind you, and when he turns, his eyes go a little wide, staring at the large platter of chocolate chip cookies filling your hands.

"Holy shit, Four, how many cookies did you make?"

You glance down at the platter and give a little sheepish shrug. "I was stress baking."

He stares at you. "Why were you stress baking?"

Your cheeks go pink, and you set down the oversized tray of cookies on his table, jumping up on the counter to swing your legs.

"I have an annual performance review tomorrow."

Seungmin sighs again, and you know it's killing him to watch you sit on the counter without telling you off, but to his credit, he doesn't say anything, cocking a brow and asking, "And you think you'll do badly?"

"What? No!" You immediately protest, but then consider for a moment. "I mean, I don't think so? But also, it's stressful, and I don't know-"

Seungmin makes an understanding sound in the back of his throat, leaning against the couch, and you realize suddenly, as you reach over to pluck a cookie off the tray, that he's wearing nothing more than a robe, cinched tightly around his narrow waist.

The hand holding the cookie freezes halfway to your mouth.

Seungmin raises an eyebrow, staring you down.

"You're n-not, um, w-wearing anything under that, are you...?"

His brow ticks higher. "I mean. That's kind of the point of having my own apartment, so I can wear-or not wear-whatever I want, right?"

You shove the cookie into your mouth instead of responding, not wanting to lead your thoughts down that path, and promptly choke on the sugary treat, coughing violently.

Seungmin watches, a smirk curving his lips, as you dart to sink and take a long, gulp of water.

Your eyes are watering when you finally turn back to him, cheeks red and mind buzzing.

Instead of addressing the elephant in the room-obviously choking on a baked good at your friend's state of undress is not considered ordinary platonic behavior-you promptly cover your eyes dramatically, joking loudly, "Oh my god, put on some clothes! My eyes are burning here, Six!"

Seungmin sighs, and you hear his footsteps pad from the room.

Peeking out from between your fingers, your cheeks still burning, you turn back to the sink, and promptly splash cold water on your face and neck.

Everything is hot at the thought of Seungmin completely bare beneath that robe. And when you say everything, you mean everything.

Fuck.

Fuck fuck fuck.

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You: If I fucked as loudly as our upstairs neighbors, I would never show my face in public again. 🤢

Six(y) Seungmin: Sounds like you're jealous.

You: WHAT I AM NOT JEALOUS. WHY WOULD I BE JEALOUS.

Six(y) Seungmin: It's okay to admit you're in a bit of a dry spell, Four.😏 I mean, I've never seen you bring anyone home-guy or girl alike.

You: Oh, because you can tell so much from my comings and goings. 🙄

Six(y) Seungmin: That and you spend all your time with me. So. I know you're not getting any action. 😝

You: I hate you.

Six(y) Seungmin: No you don't. You're just cranky as fuck because you haven't been laid in like 6 months.😘

You: Reported. Blocked. Deleted.

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"You know, most young people spend their free time at clubs or with their friends on the weekends, Four."

You glance up from your spot on the small fire escape balcony to see Seungmin grinning at you, climbing out onto his own balcony.

You lift a shoulder in a shrug. "Yeah, well I'm not most people."

Seungmin chuckles, checking over his carefully potted herbs before he glances up at you, a slight smirk on his lips. "Yeah, I've noticed."

You stick your tongue out at him, and settle your back more comfortably against the wall behind you.

"You're here too." You point out, glancing over at him again, as he sits down, legs dangling over the grating, thousands of feet above the busy nighttime street below.

"That I am." He admits with a tilt of his head in your direction and a sigh. "That I am."

There is silence for several seconds, both of you watching the tiny people below coming and going, the bustle of the city a quiet hum filling the cool night air.

It's nice out here.

Especially with Seungmin's company.

"What, did your weekend dick appointment fall through?" You glance at him sidelong, voice teasing, playing with the hem of your sweatshirt as the breeze picks up.

Seungmin gives you a slight smile. "Something like that."

"Bummer." You tease back, leaning your head against the wall and closing your eyes, letting the breeze caress your face, before you stare up for a moment at the stars just starting to breech the smog. "No other crazy weekend plans?"

Seungmin makes a little noise in his throat that you take as a no, and comfortable silence falls once more.

You hear Seungmin shift his position, and then he says off handedly, "You know, Four-"

"Hm?" You hum beneath your breath, still squinting to see the stars.

He shifts again. "-we could be each other's crazy weekend plans from here on out. If you wanted."

You blink slowly, trying to digest his words, not sure if you've heard him right.

Sitting up, you stare at him, his lips pulled into the hint of a nervous smile that doesn't quite reach his dark, beautiful eyes.

"What?" You ask stupidly, still staring at him, brain whirring.

Seungmin clears his throat, looking away to glance down at the street once more. "I'm just saying. We spend all our free time together anyway, maybe we could-"

He trails off, and you're still staring.

Butterflies are starting to come to life in your stomach.

Is he-?

"Are you asking me to date you?" You ask incredulously, shock morphing across your features, even as your stomach swoops at the crazy notion.

Seungmin rolls his eyes and pins you with a stare. "Well, you don't have to say it like you think it's a repulsive idea-"

"I'm sorry!" You laugh, waving your hands, scooting closer to your own railing, so you can stare at him through the bars. "I didn't mean it to come out like that. I just didn't think-"

"Didn't think what?" Seungmin questions, encouraging you to continue.

You clear your throat, your cheeks hot, and drop his gaze, your tone softening. "You were into me like that. Like I'm into you."

There is a beat of silence, and then Seungmin laughs, loudly and slightly unhinged, and you jerk your eyes up to him in surprise.

"Oh my god." He gasps out, fingers gripping the railing, almost close enough to brush your own. He stares at you with open glee in his dark gaze. "You're into me?"

You huff, crossing your arms over your chest defensively, giving him a glare. "Of course I'm into you! I think I've been halfway in love with you since the first time we met and you opened the door looking like some sort of studious Greek Adonis!"

Seungmin laughs some more and you watch as he swipes at his eyes, catching his breath.

"Oh god." He huffs out another little chuckle, and glances back to you, eyes gleaming, mouth pulled up at the corners. "I did think it was a little weird, stress baking and needing sugar at almost midnight, but after you left that night, I couldn't get you out of my head. I kept hoping you'd come back to return my measuring cup, but you left it on my doorstep without knocking and I didn't think I'd see you again."

"And then I locked myself out." You giggle, realizing just how silly you'd both been up until this point.

"Yeah." Seungmin nods, expression warm and affectionate. He leans forward to put his hand through the bars of the railing, and you take it.

His fingers curl around yours, and warmth spreads through your body.

A mischievous look glints in his eyes suddenly.

"Hey, Four, think you can make the climb over the balcony just one more time? For old times sake?"

You arch your brow at him, biting back a smile. "What's in it for me, Six?"

He grins. "A kiss?"

You grin back and nod, already moving. "Yeah, I think I can brave it one more time for that."

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Six(y) BF: Okay. Listen. You. Me. Dinner.

You: Go on. 👀

Six(y) BF: Dessert on the balcony.

You: OMG. Are you trying to turn me on at work or are you really just that oblivious? 🥵

Six(y) BF: And then. Hot, dirty couch sex. 😏

You: I'm in.✅

Six(y) BF: Don't say I don't know what you like. 😘

You: Honestly, you had me at dessert, but the sex thing definitely sealed the deal.

Six(y) BF: I knew it would. 😏

Be ready. I'll pick you up at 8 PM sharp.

You: Don't be late.

Six(y) BF: Wouldn't dream of it. 😘

You: 😘 Love you, Six. 💗

Six(y) BF: Gross.

Love you too, Four. 💗

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[buckysgrace]

Thirty Five

“Let’s go,” Billy thumped on her door, looking rather irritated as Max kept bouncing around on her heels next to him. She was rambling about something, some video game that she had beat the high score of the other day. Kim put her makeup brush down, looking at her reflection again, “You know it’s like almost a hundred degrees out there, right?” He said, watching as she put mascara on.

“I didn’t know you watched the news,” Kim remarked playfully, watching how his blue eyes twinkled. She stood from her vanity and headed towards the doorway, “Did you tell mom we were going?” Kim turned to look at Max who was trying to drag Billy forward. Their dynamic had definitely changed within the past few days.

“No, I think she’s getting ready for their date.” Max turned away. In other words, she didn’t want to go in there and deal with Neil. Not that Kim could blame her. If she was Max, she wouldn’t want to be anywhere near him either. Kim double checked to make sure she had her cash in her pocket before she nodded.

“I’ll go tell her we’re going; I’ll meet you out in the car.” Kim smiled softly, meeting Billy’s observing eye. His thumb flicked against her elbow, soft enough that she almost missed it. His smile faded back to annoyance as Max shrugged him forward.

“I’m going!” He huffed and Kim suspected that his arrogance was all forced. She figured that he was probably enjoying Max’s company as much as she was enjoying his. Kim took a hesitant step into her mom’s bedroom, knocking softly before walking in.

“Hey,” Susan turned, pausing as she placed large green earrings on. Kim smiled nervously, but soon felt herself relax as she noticed Neil wasn’t around, “Are you guys leaving? Make sure and watch Max, okay?” Kim nodded, feeling a bit uncertain as she glanced at her mother’s form.

“Are you going to be, okay?” Kim asked unsure, looking up at her mother worried. She didn’t bother answering her questions about watching Max. She had been doing that for a long time. Susan sighed, straightening out her hair as she nodded. Kim still didn’t like that her mother would be alone with Neil for so long.

“It’s fine, honey. We’re going to work on our marriage,” Susan smiled sweetly. Her cheek was already back to normal, but the memory was still fresh in Kim’s mind, “Thank you for looking out for me.” Susan wrapped her up gently and Kim felt like a little girl again. She sighed softly, resting her chin against her mother's shoulder.

“I just don’t want you to get hurt,” Kim admitted softly, “I worry about you.” Her mother swayed them back and forth for a second. Kim lingered in her touch, not quite ready to let her go. She didn’t like the thought of her being alone with Neil for the whole night. She didn’t trust him. 

“I’m fine,” Susan pulled away softly, holding onto Kim’s small shoulders as she looked up at her daughter, “Don’t worry about me. Make sure you have fun tonight, at least try and act like a kid. It’s okay to do all of the stuff you’re too nervous to do.” Kim blinked at her mom, feeling a bit uncertain as she listened to her words. She looked into her mom’s hazel eyes, not quite knowing what she should think. She wasn’t sure if she was allowed to do those things with Neil acting the way that he did. 

“Susan, are you almost ready?” His voice sent chills down her back as he entered back into their bedroom. Kim felt her smile fading as she stared ahead at her mother. Susan’s cheek was still discolored, not quite bruised but it didn’t match the rest of her skin tone. Susan pulled her eyes away, smiling brightly as she nodded towards the older man behind them. Kim didn’t want to, but she turned slowly to face him. She resisted the urge to grip her mother’s hand tightly like she was still a small child. 

The tension turned as Neil entered the room, looking at the two of them with a prying curiosity. Kim shifted away from her mother, forcing a smile like there was nothing wrong. His whole demeanor left her feeling uncomfortable, especially since his outburst the other day. She didn’t know what he expected of her, but she felt as if it was different from what her mother wanted from her. Maybe she was partially scared he really would spank her like he had threatened.

“Shouldn’t you be leaving? Billy and Max are waiting.” If he was trying to sound nice, he failed at it. His tone was nothing but cruel and cold as he monitored Kim. She shifted uncomfortably, suddenly wondering if her clothing was too short. She nodded quickly, glancing back at her mother before facing him again.

“I was just saying bye,” She pushed her hair behind her ear, giving her mother a soft smile again. Susan nodded, giving her daughter an encouraging look like everything was okay, “I’ll get going then.” She began to step forward, but Neil remained planted in his spot.

“I just need to finish up my makeup really quick,” Susan spoke up quickly, glancing away from Neil. Kim watched her, knowing she was referring to her cheek, “I’ll be out in just a second.” She turned and made her way to the master bathroom. Kim faltered for a moment, not wanting to be left alone in a room with him. He waited until Susan was almost to the bathroom before he spoke up again.

“I don’t get a hug?” The question was tense, his blue eyes cold as he watched her. Kim fought the urge to fidget. She glanced towards her mother, watching as she closed the bathroom door behind her. She truly felt alone now. From the first day they met Neil had tried to commit the idea that he was a hugger. Kim was just never comfortable hugging him and she especially wasn’t keen on the idea after he threatened to smack her. She felt her lips twitching awkwardly as she took a step forward. She didn’t know a way to avoid it without him blowing up into a fit of anger. She didn’t want her mom to get hit again. 

“Course.” She exhaled softly, remembering that this wasn’t any different than any of the other times he had forced his hands around her. She felt stiff as she wrapped her arms around his torso, doing her best to keep her face from touching his shirt. He squeezed her in his arms, pulling her closer to his chest. He was cold and stony, nothing paternal seemed to linger underneath him. She tried to pull away, only to be brought back against him. He gripped her wrist tightly.

“You’re not going to see any boys tonight, are you?” He whispered cruelly in her ear. She stared down at where he was gripping her wrist, she tried to twist away but he held onto her tightly. She felt a sickening feeling growing in her stomach as she finally found the courage to look up at him and shake her head no. She couldn’t form any words, too afraid to say the wrong thing. He released her then, dropping her hand as quickly as he had gripped a hold of her. 

She looked away from him, beginning to move around him as he stayed put in his position. He was planted in the doorway and even with as skinny as she still was, part of her still brushed against him as she tried to make her way out. She felt her heart slowdown in fear as she quickly moved past him.

“Kimberly?” He spoke up again and she winced before turning to face him, “I’m serious. I don’t want to see you around that boy.” He was staring at her harshly. She looked back nervously, wondering what he would do if he knew that the boy was his son and not the one that showed up with roses. She didn’t like feeling like she had to walk on eggshells around him, like one misstep and he would crack into a fit of rage. She was truly afraid of him as she nodded in agreement to his words.

“Yes, sir.” She breathed out after a moment, finally finding her strength to speak to him. She didn’t think she was irrational to be afraid of him when she had seen exactly what he could do. She rushed down the steps before he could say anything else to her. She made haste, holding onto the wooden railing as she raced towards Billy’s car. 

“Bout time,” Billy grumbled, flicking away his cigarette as she slid into the leather seat. The hot leather burned against her bare thighs as she quickly buckled up, “What took you so long?” He turned towards her curiously, but she quickly shook her head, brushing off his question. She didn’t want to think about holding onto his dad any more than what she had to. She could happily pretend that it never happened. She wiggled her wrist around, trying to ignore the prickling feeling around her skin.

“I’m so excited,” Max gushed out after a few awkward seconds. Kim was still trying to catch her breath and keep her heart from racing so hard, “Lucas said they have those spinning cup rides. Do you remember riding those?” Max asked, sitting forward to look at her sister. Kim rubbed her clammy hands against her thighs before she spoke up.

“Those are kind of fun. Daddy used to spin us so fast,” Kim smiled at the memory, before reaching forward and gripping onto the dashboard. Max jolted forward as the car skidded to a near halt, “What was that?” Kim looked towards Billy’s flushed expression. He shifted in his seat, adjusting his foot away from the brake pedal as he brought his car back to a steady motion. 

“I thought I saw something.” He muttered as he looked away from the redhead. Kim looked back to meet Max’s astonished features. Billy huffed something under his breath before he turned his loud music up to die out the complaints from the two girls. Kim watched the irritable look grow on his face before he reached for another cigarette.

“Anyways,” Max spoke up over the loud music, “I can’t wait to go on all the rides. Oh, and see the fireworks. That’ll be fun too.” Max rambled on over the loud music. Kim turned in her chair as best as she could with her seatbelt on so she could watch the younger girl. Even though Kim didn’t really care for fair rides she was glad her sister was at least going to have fun. 

“Yeah, Addi said there was supposed to be a lot of fireworks.” Kim told her sister, looking away from Billy’s gaze as they spoke towards each other. Her friend had told her she had been there, but she’d be going with Eddie. She was happy for her but had grown a bit jealous that she had someone else. Kim still felt like she wanted a boyfriend. 

“Tell your friend to hurry,” Billy grumbled, sparing a glance back at Max as they pulled into the dirt driveway. Kim fidgeted forward nervously and turned down the music to Billy’s protest. She didn’t care right now. She didn’t want Hopper to have another reason to be upset with them. She wondered if he even knew that Billy would be the one driving his daughter to the Fun Fair.

“Is Will coming?” Kim asked as Max stepped out of the car. She paused in her steps for a moment as she shook her head no, her red hair flying in the hot wind.

“I think he’s going to meet with the others later.” Max rushed out before she was making her way up to the front door. Kim watched amused, glad that her little sister was finally making friends. She had the best luck out of all of them in Hawkins so far.

“Good, I don’t want any more shitbirds in my car.” Billy grumbled as he took a long drag from his cigarette. Kim shook her head, rolling her eyes playfully as Max quickly came back with El. The other girl smiled shyly before sitting in the backseat. Kim suddenly hoped that Billy had taken his time to clean back there when she noticed Hopper following behind quickly. She felt herself sliding down in her seat as if she could hide away from him. He looked just as intense as he did the other day, even with his police uniform off.

Kim shook away his comment, knowing that it was all an act. He really didn’t seem too bothered by Max and her friends. Well, he didn’t anymore. It seemed to her like he was trying to change. That, or she was seeing him in a different light. She turned away at the sight of Max leading El back to the car. Kim waved back towards the small brunette girl.

“Thanks for driving me,” El slid into the backseat with Max, a large grin painted on her face, “I’m so excited.” She gushed as she sat forward with Max. Kim turned to Billy.

“It’s all thanks to Billy, otherwise we’d be walking.” Kim admitted. It wasn’t fully true. She was sure if he hadn’t volunteered, he would’ve at least been forced to drive them. She was glad he came willingly. It made her excited that she would be around him so much for the next few hours. She missed him more than she wanted to admit.

“Sure,” Billy muttered as he began to back out of the driveway. He halted when he noticed the chief of police making his way towards them, “What does he want?” Billy grumbled to no one in general. Kim could feel her pulse quickening in nerves. She was hoping to avoid seeing Hopper for the rest of her life. She suddenly wished she had picked the backseat and one of the younger girls was sitting up here. He made his way towards them quickly as Billy slowly rolled down Kim’s side of the window.

“He’s so embarrassing,” El whimpered as she held her head between her hands. Hopper leaned against the car, bending low again until his elbows were against the window, “Dad I’m fine!” El protested, exhaling loudly.

Kim was busy playing with her fingers, glancing back and forth between the Chief of Police and Billy. Billy still seemed calm as Hopper seemed to stare into his soul, “If she’s back any later than midnight, exactly, I’m drug testing all of you.” Kim felt herself stiffening in the seat, even though she had no plans to smoke tonight.

“Yes, sir,” Billy replied dryly. Kim forced out a smile, still feeling uncertain under Hopper’s watchful eye, “She’ll come back in one piece.” Hopper stared at him curiously, his blue eyes hardening. Kim could feel her heart thumping hard as he analyzed the blonde boy.

“What happened to your nose?” Hopper’s voice wasn’t as stern suddenly. Kim turned to face Billy, feeling her heartbeat pick up again as she looked at his stunned face. It was so small, just a faint fading bruise to the left side of his nose that dipped towards his eye. She wasn’t sure how Hopper caught it with Billy’s shades on. The car suddenly went quiet, the only sound was Billy’s music filling inside the car.

“It’s a bruise,” Billy said simply, seeming to recollect himself after a second. Hopper turned to look at Kim, but she kept her lips pressed tightly together. She wouldn’t say anything against Neil, not in front of Billy. Their relationship was too complicated for her to step into, “It’s fine.” Billy didn’t offer an explanation. 

“Dad, we’re going to be late.” El whined in the backseat. Kim was glad for the interruption. It seemed to bring Hopper’s gaze away from Billy as he looked towards the two girls in the backseat.

“Fine, but I don’t want you running off. You're going to stay with Kim, understand?” Kim watched the older man speak, recognizing a hint of delight in his tone. Despite sounding so protective, he still wanted his daughter to have fun. It brought a small smile to Kim’s face.

“I already told you yes before,” El sounded exasperated as she spoke, “Can we please go now?” Kim glanced at her in the rearview mirror, looking at the excitement that traced her features. Kim resisted the urge to look at Billy, wanting to assure herself that he was alright. Hopper seemed to be suspicious of the boy for a lot of things.

“Midnight.” He patted the side of the car before he was standing straight again. Billy waved him off, taking his time to pull out of the driveway. Kim looked in the side mirror, noticing how Hopper was still watching them even as they drove off. She was still all too aware of how Hopper seemed to be watching the two. She didn’t like it.

“I’m sorry about him,” El mumbled, sounding bashful as she spoke. Kim glanced over towards Billy, noticing how he was cracking a grin, “He loves to embarrass me.” Billy shook his head.

“It’s fine. He’s worried about you, it’s no big deal.” He always sounded so soft when he spoke towards El. Kim wondered if it was the same way he spoke to the kids learning how to swim. He scratched at the side of his face, near his bruise and she was curious if he was becoming more aware of the mark on his face. She turned from him, looking out the window as they approached the Fun Fair. She was surprised to see how such a small town could afford so much.

“Don’t be running off,” Billy grumbled as he finally found a parking spot. They were hours early before any fireworks were supposed to go off, but it seemed as if everyone else had the same idea. It did look like fun, “I’m not chasing you shits around.” El giggled when he cursed, and Kim looked back to see Max rolling her eyes. Kim stepped out into the hot air, the sun already beating down on her from the high spot in the sky.

“We won’t,” Max grumbled in a similar Billy fashion as she got out of the car. She took her friend's hand and walked ahead, putting a distance between them and Billy, “See you inside!” Kim turned to look at Billy curiously as the two young girls took off. He lit up another cigarette as she turned to look at Kim with a smirk on his face.

“You have to pay to get in, they’ll be waiting for us at the front gate,” He promised as they walked through the makeshift parking lot. Kim always thought she enjoyed nature, but that was before they moved somewhere where she constantly feared she’d step on a snake. She kept her eyes near the ground as she moved, “We can take as long as we want.” 

“You’re evil,” She told him playfully, their arms brushing against each other as they walked, “She’s not going to want to leave tonight.” Kim told Billy, knowing that Max would stay here forever if she could. Billy shrugged, blowing out a large cloud of smoke.

“She can walk home then. El will listen to me though.” He took his time as he walked, and Kim was sure it was so he could purposely piss off Max. She shook her head, shadowing his movements as he moved. The closer they got to the front gates the louder she could hear children screaming and laughing. She really hoped she hadn’t dragged him along to something completely childish. 

“I think she has a crush on you,” Kim admitted, thinking it was cute, “That’s why she’s always giggling around you.” Billy scoffed but she knew the truth behind her words. She figured that she would probably also have a crush on him had their parents never married. She wouldn’t ever admit that to him.

“Billy,” Max whined as she walked towards him and grabbed a hold of his hand, “Please come on, I wanna go inside!” She must’ve got tired of waiting as she dragged on her older brother’s hand. Kim half expected him to shrug the younger girl off but was surprised to watch his pace quicken as he walked with her. She felt her eyebrows raising as she jogged to keep up with them.

They made it to the back of the line, but Max still kept a hold of Billy’s hand as she ushered El back over towards them. Kim looked at Billy amused, who looked rather uncomfortable at the moment. She was more curious than ever to know what he was feeling at the moment. Six months ago, she would’ve never believed anyone had they told her they’d all be here in this situation at the moment. It seemed like it was a lifetime ago, like they had all been different people then.

“Hey, it says you can’t smoke past this point.” Max pointed towards the sign, sending Billy an amused look. He sighed, taking one last drag of his cigarette before he was tossing it aside. Kim was slightly worried if he could go that long without smoking but figured there would be a section he could wander off towards. 

“How many?” They stepped up towards the front and Kim began to shift, trying to remember which pocket she had stuffed her cash into. Billy stepped up first while she dug around and began to pull out her dollar bills. 

Billy glanced back at them as he pulled his wallet out, “There’s four of us,” He spoke gruffly as he pulled his money out. Kim felt her eyebrow raising in surprise. She didn’t mean for him to pay for her, she had brought her own money for a reason. El and Max stepped up forward to get a stamp on their hands. Billy motioned her forward and Kim stuck her pale hand out, looking at how red the ink looked against her skin, “Let’s go.” He nudged Kim forward softly, making her draw her eyes away from his expression. She wanted to thank him but found herself growing quiet as they walked inside the big, sparkly archway.

She walked faster, trying to keep up with the two younger girls as they raced around. She found herself drawn to the different activity booths filled with a multitude of different prizes. Screaming and laughter surrounded them as they walked forwards. Kim felt her eyes drifting towards the large Ferris wheel as the smell of sweetened fried foods and buttery popcorn drifted across her nose. 

“There’s Lucas,” El drew out the letters in his name slowly and Max pushed her friend hard. Kim bumped into her, reaching out to steady her as the young brunette giggled, “Let’s go say hi!” She took Max’s hand and dragged her ahead of them. Kim glanced at Billy, noting the irritation curling around his eyebrows. 

“Wait, I agreed to watch Max. Not all of these other kids,” Billy grumbled as him and Kim walked to the same pace. There was a big distance between the two of them and Kim figured he was just as worried about people being suspicious, “It’s like being at work all over again.” 

“Only you’re not getting paid,” Kim teased him, a light smile playing on her features. He huffed but a smile against his features. She liked that he looked less upset than from earlier, “I’m sure they’ll run off with their group here in a little bit.”

“Just as long as they don’t do anything dumb,” She watched as Billy’s eyes glanced around the different areas as they stood near a sitting area as El and Max joined their other friend, “Pretty sure Hopper will arrest me.” He muttered under his breath. Kim hesitated for a moment.

“Does he know about Neil?” She asked softly, glancing up towards the blue-eyed boy. He stiffened as he dragged his fingertips along the wooden table. She waited for him to speak, understanding if he didn’t want to talk about it.

“Yeah, he’s suspicious of him.” Billy left it at that, but it felt like it was more than enough for Kim. He hadn’t snapped at her or tried to change the topic right away, it was something. Kim glanced away, noticing a nearby sign as a thrilling sensation grew inside of her.

“Billy!” Suddenly Kim was a small child again, bouncing on her feet as she pointed excitedly, “They have cows! Real ones!” She felt overly giddy as she pushed past the crowd to look. She had seen cows pretty much every day since they had moved here, but they were never close enough for her to touch. He lingered behind her a bit, sending her an odd look.

“Pretty sure you see these every day.” He grumbled softly as he stuck his hands in his pockets. She was shaking her head quickly to dismiss his claim. She had completely forgotten about the two younger teens they were supposed to be watching. She was too enthralled with being able to touch the animals in front of them as she wandered away.

“No, those are dairy cows. These are Highland cows! See how fluffy they are and the horns?” She was bouncing as she walked closer towards the gate, half tempted to push the little kids out of the way. She felt like she hadn’t been excited for something this much before. Billy stood behind her, peaking over her shoulder curiously.

“So like the ones they use to make burgers?” She swirled her head around and sent the blonde boy an annoyed look. He smiled at her cheerful smile, looking amused with her reaction. She elbowed him softly as they stepped further in line.

“They’re cute,” She defended herself, feeling overjoyed as they took a step closer, “Hi, baby,” She cooed towards the large cow standing in front of her. She gently reached out and pushed the long locks of tan hair from his eyes and let her hands linger softly around his neck. She was trying not to jitter with excitement as she rubbed the soft fur of his neck.

“That’s Angus.” A taller man with a thick beard and a farmer's tan smiles towards Kim. She nodded, turning to look at where Billy was snorting. She felt her lips curling into a smile as she glanced back. A squeal left her mouth when rough, wet tongue slid across her hand. Billy’s lips curled up in disgust.

“It’s not that bad,” She told him gleefully as she continued to pet Angus, “Feel.” She took a hold of his hand with her clean one and began rob help him put the brown fur. Billy was stiff against her touch, looking uncomfortable for a few seconds before he finally relaxed.

“He’s soft,” He grumbled as he slowly let his large fingers curl into the soft fur. Kim nodded in agreement, looking at how gentle he was touching him. She watched as his blue eyes widened when Angus stuck his large rough tongue out and licked around Billy’s palm, “Fuck that’s nasty.” He cursed, rubbing his hand across his jeans to clean it. She laughed softly.

“He gave you a kiss,” Kim replied playfully, letting her finger linger against Angus’s wet nose for a soft second before they were moving on down the line. She wished she was able to bring him home, she figured she’d never be lonely if she had a cow living in her room, “It’s really sweet.” She told him again, noticing the disgust that was still written across his features as he continually wiped his hands across his pants. She stared at the goats in front of them. They were cute, not as cute as the cows, but smelly. She decided that she’d rather not have the smell of them lingering on her hand. 

“Holy shit,” Billy looked further down the line, staring, “What is that?” Kim turned curiously, stepping on her tippy toes to look over parents with their kids. She felt her eyebrows furrow as she turned back to look at his surprised expression.

“The miniature pony?” She asked slowly, not quite seeing what was out of the ordinary. She looked towards the golden boy, noting the astonishment in his blue eyes.

“Is it a baby?” He asked curiously. She bit her lip, trying to hide her smile and failing. She thought he looked so cute being intrigued by an animal. She shook her head.

“No, it's a mini one. They stay like this size forever,” She explained, watching how he seemed drawn to the small animal, “Come on.” She stuck her hand out before withdrawing it quickly. She hadn’t meant to reach for his hand. She played it off as she stepped around the chickens and made their way towards the end. Billy was following her closely behind.

Maybe he wasn’t a cat person, maybe he was a horse guy.

“Woah,” He breathed out as they stopped in front of the miniature pony. Kim grinned, reaching her hand out softly as she began to pet the soft fur, “I didn’t know they could be this little.” Kim almost giggled, thinking that Billy was acting adorable.

“I haven’t really seen one this small before either,” She admitted. His fingers touched against the wooden railing that separated them from the animals. She took a leap of faith and took a hold of his hand gently before pulling his hand forward to touch the small horse, “His name is Sebastian.” She told him, reading off the name plaque. Billy’s large fingers curled softly around the pony’s soft hair.

“My mom took me horseback riding a long time ago. I was too afraid to sit up there myself, they seemed so big at the time,” Billy told her softly. She glanced over at him, losing herself in his bright eyes and soft freckles, “She always liked horses.” He was silent for a moment, and she watched as remorse settled upon his hard features. It was like he noticed her watching, the look of sadness was gone as soon as it appeared. The usual irritation settled upon him as he pulled his hand away.

“My mom left my dad after he forgot us at a carnival, he was so drunk he couldn’t remember which one we were at,” Kim admitted. She had been ten at the time, Max was around six. She could still remember sitting out near a park bench for hours until Susan finally found them. Billy looked at her curiously, “He was good to us, he just wasn’t a good dad. At the time I blamed my mom for a lot of it, I think I really hurt her too. I’m seeing more and more that he just never really cared about us in that way.” It hurt to say, to admit that her dad could be so careless. He was. With her growing older she could see more of why her mom left him when she did. She didn’t know how her mom had stayed with him for so long. He was still her dad though; she still loved him.

“No offense, but he sounds like a shit dad,” Billy grumbled, kicking his foot softly against a tuft of dirt. He stepped up to the fountain and began to scrub his hands. Kim followed suit. As cute as Angus had been, she didn’t want to be eating his tongue germs later on. Kim nodded, heading back in the direction they had come from, “Has he called since?” She felt the base of her neck heating up a bit as she remembered how he had been there to comfort her.

“No,” She hated to say it, feeling pathetic that she couldn’t even get her father to pay attention to her, “He hasn’t called or written. Nothing.” She tried not to get too into her emotions as she glanced at Billy’s worrisome expression. She forced a smile, letting him know that she wasn’t going to break down into tears here.

“You and Max deserve better than that,” Billy told her honestly. She scanned through the crowd, searching for the younger redhead. She was sure that they didn’t wander off very far. Billy still hadn’t given them any money for any of the games. Kim liked that he wasn’t suggesting that Neil was better. She’d rather have an absent dad than an abusive one, “There they are.” He pointed past a few of the vendors, where the three teens were waiting in a line. El caught their eye and waved them over.

“Looks like she found the teacups,” Kim spoke up as they walked over to join them. She felt bittersweet suddenly as they joined them in line, “Have you been on anything yet?” Max shook her head no.

“We tried to look for you guys, but you disappeared,” Max remarked, shoving her hands into her pockets as she spoke, “We thought we’d get in line while we waited for you to reappear.” Kim smiled at her younger sister a bit sheepishly.

“She had to go pet the animals,” Billy teased her, nudging Kim’s shoulder softly. She pretended to scoff and roll her eyes, but she was smiling widely. She was fully admitting to the crime, she had been the one to wander away, “I think she was trying to steal the cow.” Max looked between the two of them curiously and Kim felt herself slowly stepping away from Billy. She played it off, pulling her hair into a scrunchie.

“Are we all getting on then?” Kim glanced at the three teens, unsure if they were wanting her and Billy to join them or not. Lucas nodded enthusiastically at the same time Max shouted yes. El was smiling, looking like she was just happy to be there.

“The more people the better, it makes it spin faster.” He explained as they took a step forward onto the cups. The ride operator pointed them to a golden cup with pink swirls decorating it. Kim followed shortly behind them, smiling back at Billy who was watching unsure. 

“What do you do on this one?” Billy asked as they settled into the small teacup. Kim sat next to El, who sat next to Max who was keeping a fair distance between her and Lucas. Kim thought it was cute. Billy’s leg pressed hard against hers as they all squeezed in together. She thought he almost looked silly sitting in such a girly cup.

“So the ride spins you around in like an oval, but you pull on this to make you spin inside the cup super-fast.” She tried to explain as she pressed her fingers down on the yellow, metal circle in the middle of all of them. She set her feet on the bottom railing, trying to give them all a little more wiggle room. Max and Lucas joined their hands on top of hers.

“It’s really fun,” Lucas spoke up before darting his eyes away from Billy. He looked like he still wasn’t sure if he was allowed to speak to him, “It’s one of my favorites.” He glanced back to the shorter redhead, a warm smile placed on his lips. Billy watched him for a minute, his eyes twinkling.

“Okay, go! Go!” Max commanded as the operator gave them all clear. It was hard to build up a rhythm at first, all of their hands awkwardly clambering on top of each other as they all tried to pull the circular handle around. El was giggling, trying to find a place for her hands as they all spun in awkward, harsh circles. Kim could feel her forearms beginning to scream in protest from the ache that was growing from pulling on it so hard.

Billy placed two of his large hands-on opposite ends and gave it a hard push. The motion sent Kim jolting back into her seat, her eyes widening at how fast they had just moved. El was nearly on her lap, laughing so hard that she was beginning to hiccup. Max screamed in delight, keeping her hands on top of the wheel to try and keep up with his motions. Billy took over with ease, spinning them around faster and faster until even sound blurred past Kim’s ears.

“Oh my god!” She couldn’t tell if it was Lucas or Max that had yelled, only that it came from that direction. Billy was laughing, a genuine laugh like he was actually having fun. He was so strong that he was easily spinning them around in ease. Kim suddenly wished there were seatbelts in the ride, as Billy only seemed to move them faster. She couldn’t remember her father ever spinning her and Max this fast. She burst into nervous giggles, clutching onto El for dear life.

Soon, Kim became pressed into a tight sandwich with her sister and her two friends. The four of them were screaming with laughter as they clung to each other. Kim could feel her stomach rising into her chest and feared she may go flying from the teacup from how fast Billy was spinning them. The whole time he bore an amused smirk, looking unbothered.

Their teacup was the last one to finish spinning, taking far longer than anyone else as their speed slowed. Kim watched as trees, lights, and different shops that were once blurred into one object were becoming into different shapes. Kim’s whole world was spinning as she glanced back at Billy, their eyes meeting slowly.

“Again!” Lucas demanded as the teacup finally came to a slow stop. Everything was still spinning as she blinked, trying to focus as Lucas’s words rang in her ears. She turned her head at the same time El did, knocking her chin into her forehead.

“No!” Kim shook her head quickly as she rubbed her chin, wincing at the pain that coursed through her jaw, “No way, I’ll puke.” She admitted, still feeling like the Earth was spinning when she pulled herself away from the other three teens. Billy was laughing at their dizzy reactions but still wobbling himself as he stepped off of the ride. He took a hold of Kim’s hand to help her down and as quick as he noticed what he did he was letting go of her and helping the two younger girls down. She flexed her fingers, feeling the burning sensation travel up her hand.

Max swayed for a moment before catching her surroundings, “That was awesome.” Max grinned, looking up at her older brother in amazement. Lucas was stumbling next to her, a goofy expression written over his features.

“That was pretty fun,” Billy smirked as they followed the three younger teens, “You really don’t want to do it again?” Something about his tone sounded hopeful and she felt her decision swaying. She wanted to do more things with him, even if it left her feeling like she was drunk.

“Maybe later,” She replied almost shyly as she glanced towards him, ignoring how their bare skin was rubbing against each other, “Once I can see straight again.” She teased watching the way his lips curled into a genuine smile. She could feel her heart racing, liking how he seemed to appear happy for once.

“We should go get on another ride,” Max was bouncing forward, leading them on as they followed. Kim wasn’t a fan of too many rides, her fear of heights liked to keep her as close to the ground as possible. She looked at Billy who was wearing a goofy grin, “Oh, let’s do this one!” Kim followed a bit slower, still trying to stay balanced on her feet as she turned to look at Billy.

“What?” She asked Billy. He reached forward, pushing her hair out of her face. She felt her face burning and tried not to stare at him for too long. She didn’t want anyone to think anything suspicious of them. There were already too many eyes on them.

“Your hair is just crazy,” He said as he observed her wild hair. She quickly pulled it down and began to fix it up over her head again. He chuckled, “I didn't say it looked bad.” She shook her head, still feeling a bit dizzy as she walked with him.

“Crazy sounds bad to me.” She smiled playfully at him. It took her a second to realize how close she was to him before she took a couple steps to the side. She looked at the large Ferris wheel they were approaching, her nerves clenching up tightly as she realized what ride they wanted to get onto next.

“This is supposed to be the tallest one in Indiana, they borrowed it,” Lucas rambled excitedly, craning his head to look up at it, “We’ve gotta get on it at least once.” He turned to the other two girls his age and they mirrored his enthusiasm. Kim had heard exactly what she needed to hear for her to decide that this ride was not for her. No way would she willingly sit up that high in the sky.

“I’m not getting in that thing,” Kim protested as Billy and Max shifted them further in the line. Lucas beamed up at her, his fingers linked with Max’s, “There’s no way. I’m leaving.” Billy held his arm out to keep her from backing up any further. She glared at him.

“It’ll be over before you know it,” He persisted as she shot him a look. She didn’t care how fast it would be over with, she didn’t want to willingly climb to her death, “Come on, it’ll be fun.” He tried to encourage her. El nudged her forward, a gleeful smile painted on her lips.

“It’s almost our turn anyways. Don’t be such a wimp.” Max teased her. Kim thought about snapping back that she had no problem being a wimp as long as she didn’t get caged onto this machine. Lucas shifted Max forward as they took their spots on the empty ride. Kim felt her heart pumping in her chest and anxiety clenching around her as she stared up and up until she saw the top of the ferris wheel.

“You can hold my hand,” Billy whispered low enough so that no one could hear him, “I promise it’s not that bad.” She sighed, still not relaxing but nodding as she gave into his promise. If she fell to her death, he’d be the first person she’d haunt. The couple stepped off of their seats and Billy made his way forward. She felt her feet lingering in her steps before she finally followed him, briefly thinking about running away and not dealing with it.

She sat close to Billy, practically on his lap but too afraid to rest at the end of the cart in case it toppled over. She took a deep breath, trying to calm her heart as the ride attendant stepped up and buckled them in. She gripped at the leather, tightening it and earning a groan from Billy.

“I’m not falling out,” She told him, and he looked at her peculiarly while wincing from how tight the belt was around his waist. He shifted, his arm rested behind her shoulders so he wasn’t pressed up against her so tightly, “I can’t believe you forced me on this.” Their cart moved forwards and up into the air and she felt the wind whooshing her stomach up into her chest. She bit down on her lip hand, trying to erase her nerves. Billy’s free hand reached across her lap and took her small hand in his large one. She tried to focus on the feeling of their skin burning together rather than the sensation of being lifted into the air. 

“I would catch you,” Billy chuckled as he rubbed his thumb across her hand softly. She could feel his rings against her fingers, “It won’t fall anyways. I mean, look at this view. Think of how you would’ve missed this.” He looked out dramatically. She peaked her eyes across the cart, noting that he was right. Everything did look a lot prettier this high in the sky. She could see the moon beginning to shine brighter as the last of the sun dipped beyond the trails in a blanket of orange and pink. The breeze danced between the trees, rustling the leaves as it carried its way towards them. She gripped his hand tighter when their cart shook.

“I think I’m going to be sick,” She muttered, urging her stomach to calm down. She did not like the feeling of being so high up in the air, no matter how pretty it looked. Billy laughed, tracing his hand against her shoulder, “It’s not funny.”

“That’s not why I’m laughing,” He smiled softly, “I’m just thinking about how my mom used to take me to the fair.” Her mind stopped racing as she glanced over towards him, drinking in the words that he was saying. She thought it was odd that he was speaking so much of his mother today. First it was the horse, now it was fair rides. She had just assumed that he had never been before from the way he hadn’t mentioned anything. 

“Did you like these death traps?” She questioned, a small smile playing on her face as she watched as the sunset lit up his features. She thought that this looked like where he belonged, with the warm sun decorating his features. He smiled as he faced her.

“Yeah, I find them relaxing. I could stay up here all day.” She wanted to rest her head against his shoulder, to curl up and listen to him talking. She was so intrigued with him. She inhaled again when they were pushed higher into the sky. Billy chuckled, rubbing his thumb in circles around her hand. She felt herself smiling sweetly at him. 

Kim had to admit that he was right about the view. The last of the sun's pretty colors were finally dipping underneath the hill as the moon took its place. She suddenly thought of how tragic it must be for the moon to never fully experience how pretty, warm and bright the sun was. It was surrounded by stars but constantly missed out on the bright golden orb that would hang in the sky. She turned to look at Billy again, noticing how he still seemed to be golden and warm even as the night air settled around them. Her eyes traced over his pink lips, towards his sloped nose and freckled cheeks. She lingered against his soft eyes that were surrounded by thick eyelashes as he looked out below them. He curled his eyebrow up as he turned to her, waiting for her to speak.

“Nothing,” She spit out quickly, feeling her cheeks growing warm. She wasn’t sure how she would explain that she was comparing him to the sun, “It’s not that bad.” She muttered as she looked down towards her shoes. He squeezed her hand softly, not saying anything as the ride began to move again. She could still feel her heart hammering, but she was no longer worried about her fear of heights, no. She was worried about a different feeling that was brewing inside of her.

“See, nothing to be afraid of,” They were at the very top now, sitting there almost peacefully as the crowds of people below them began to fade away. She was convinced there was still plenty to be afraid of, but it wasn’t nearly as bad as what it was before. Her heart was still beating fast, and her face was warm as she turned to him again. He hadn’t dressed fancy at all, a simple pair of jeans and a white t-shirt. That was it. Yet, she still thought that he looked better than anyone here. Better than the movie stars she’d see on screen or the models that graced her book covers, “Why are you so speechless?” He questioned, looking at her uncertain. She opened her mouth and closed it again.

“Just,” She exhaled deeply, letting all of the air leave her lungs before she filled them anew, “Thinking. I’m just thinking about a lot of things.” They were so close and most of that had been her fault from how tightly she had pulled the seatbelt around them. Still, he wasn’t making any effort to pull away as his blue eyes raked over her flushed features. 

“Penny for your thoughts?” He flipped a coin playfully in his hand, his other arm still resting behind her shoulder. He cocked a grin as he watched her, and she battled herself on what would be the appropriate thing to say. She wanted to believe that he was fighting with his feelings just as deeply as she was, but she knew it wasn’t true. She was the only one that was lost within herself at the moment. He had known that before. She wouldn’t be the reason everything came crashing around them again, not when this had been so nice.

“I’ve thought about applying to colleges in California,” She said quickly, changing the subject quickly. Billy’s eyebrows furrowed like he hadn’t been expecting her to say that, “But I don’t want to leave-,” You, I don’t want to leave you. She wanted to say, instead she took another deep breath, “My family. I don’t want to be so far away from everyone.” It felt less personal, but she still wasn’t happy with her answer. She felt as if there were a million different ways, she could express herself that he didn’t understand.

“There’s these things called phones,” Billy chuckled after a minute, playing with the hair that was touching the base of neck. It erupted her skin into goosebumps, “Y’know and you can call people whenever you want.” He teased her softly. She forced a smile.

“You don’t understand. None of my friends back home have spoken to me since we moved. I have one really good friend here. I just, I don’t want to be lonely again.” She admitted, clasping her hands together on her lap as they began their descent backwards towards the ground. Billy thought for a minute.

“Being lonely sucks, but I’m sure you’d make new friends. Meet someone.” He spoke up after a moment, his blue eyes lingering across her lips. She wondered if he wanted to kiss her as badly as she wanted to kiss him.

“I don’t know if my guy is in California anymore.” She admitted softly, glancing out towards the line that was waiting as people began to get unloaded. She could see the back of her sister’s head now. They would be getting out next. Billy reached across her gently, slowly unhooking her belt as he freed them.

“You’ll find him,” He pressed his large thumb against her nose, squishing it softly, “You’re still young. There’s no rush.” She knew she was young, but she still felt as if she had lost out so much of her youth from maturing so fast. She thought of her mom's words.

She didn’t have time to reply as they were rushed out of the cart, trying to fill it quickly with another couple before they wasted too much time. Kim hopped down the side of the steps, joining her sister and her friends, “You know you guys don’t have to wait for us, right?” She asked, looking at how the three teens were looking at each other mischievously. Usually, they had run off by now.

“See, it’s interesting you say that because -,” Lucas began to speak as he glanced over at Max. She extended her hand slowly.

“We’re hungry. And Thirsty. Also, we're very broke.” Kim scoffed, glancing to look back at Billy who was staring at the three of them amused. Max was supposed to bring the money from her savings but had obviously neglected to do so. 

“One drink and one foot item,” Billy told them, glancing around at the booths, “You might have to share drinks. Little shits.” He muttered as the three of them took off, most likely looking for the most expensive items they could find.

You haven’t even lost your temper once,” Kim applauded him as they followed the three teens, “And you haven’t smoked. This is like a new record.” She teased as they walked past groups of families. Some of the people in this crowd she could faintly recognize, most of them looking like they went to school with her. She wasn’t sure of their names. Billy grunted, his shoulder brushing against hers.

“Don’t remind me. It’s torture,” He teased as they caught up to the teens. They were stopped in front of a stall that smelt of grease and salty French fries. Kim could feel her stomach twisting as she began to think of how she really was hungry, “What do you shits want?” He grumbled as he reached for his wallet again. She wasn’t sure how he was able to pay so easily for all of them. Perhaps, he was better at saving his money than what she was. They listed off their orders and Kim faltered as Billy turned to face her.

“Corn dog,” She pointed to the item on the menu. Billy raised an eyebrow, but she shoved it off, “Oh and a cherry coke?” She asked sweetly. She felt bad, she really didn’t mean for him to pay for everything. However, she wasn’t going to fight him for as long as he was being nice and offering. 

He mumbled something under his breath before he was ordering everything for them, glancing back every so often to make sure that he had gotten it correct. She could feel her heart thumping as she crossed her arms and waited to the side with her sister and her friends, “I didn’t know Billy was this cool.” Lucas admitted. Kim smiled softly, making sure to remember to tell the older boy what Lucas had said later.

“He’s not cool,” Max corrected him, “He’s just being weird.” Kim watched as Max shrugged it off. She seemed keen on admitting that nothing had changed between the two of them. She didn’t think that Max should be upset with herself that she had cried over him. 

“I’m not carrying all of this,” Billy looked over his shoulder to look at them. The three teens rushed forward first, grabbing their items. El took an extra second to linger next to him and thank him again. Kim was still smiling when she stepped up and took her plate, “There’s your weird corn dog.” She gaped as she followed him.

“How are corn dogs weird?” Billy sat across from Max, hooking his long legs inside the table. She looked down at the greasy burger he had on his plate. He shrugged, ripping open a ketchup packet with his teeth.

“They’re just gross,” He spoke up as he took a large bite from his burger. She felt her eyebrows furrowing as she looked down at the golden corn dog sitting perfectly on a basket of hot fries, “And weird.” He shrugged at her. 

“You can’t tell me this doesn’t look delicious,” She paraded her corn dog up high as she rested her elbows on the table. She thought it was beautifully golden, thick and juicy. Just the way she liked it. She waved it in his face playfully as he laughed, motioning over her shoulder.

“I think one of the cows got out,” She turned away for a moment, looking for what he was speaking of when he made his move. She felt the arm that was holding her corn dog shift and she turned in horror, looking at the giant bite he had taken from it, “Hm, not terrible I guess.” He responded as he chewed it slowly like he was savoring the taste.

“Are you serious?” She felt her eyes narrowing as she watched him. He grinned, shrugging his shoulders as he chewed on her corndog.

“You said it was delicious, I thought it was an invitation,” Max giggled from across the table, her arm brushing against Lucas’s arm softly. Kim grumbled, fumbling with a packet of ketchup as she stared at the giant bite out of her food, “Here, why don’t you try this? I think it’s Angus’s little brother.” He teased as he held his burger up. She gasped.

“Don’t bring Angus into this,” She teased as she put three packets of ketchup onto the top of her corndog. He stared at it for a moment, “This is a perfectly healthy amount of ketchup. Don’t judge.” She brushed him off as she ate off what was left.

“Whose Angus?” El asked, tilting her head confused. Kim fought the grin on her lips as she chewed, Billy snorted softly and shook his head. Max looked towards the brunette girl.

“Don’t worry about it, they’re idiots,” Max shook her head as she spoke, “You know what this would really taste good with? Funnel Cake.” She shot a look towards her older sister, knowing she couldn’t ever resist the sweet treats.

“Don’t look at me,” Billy grumbled, “That was already way too expensive.” Kim sipped on her drink slyly, thinking about it. It had been a long time since she had any funnel cake. She started to stand, grabbing her corn dog with her.

“I’ll be right back.” She smiled sweetly, watching how Billy looked towards her betrayed.

“You had money this whole time?” He shouted after her, but she made her way towards the food vendors with haste, a smile sticking to her face the whole time. She didn’t think it was possible to be around Billy this long and actually have fun with him. It was like he was different.

“Can I get one funnel cake?” She stepped forward, pulling her cash out, “Extra powdered sugar too.” She felt her cheeks redden a bit at the request. She quickly put her change away, stepping back as she waited.

She glanced around, feeling her stomach beginning to shrink and her smile fade as she noticed a freckled boy coming into view. She felt herself shifting, trying to hide away so he wouldn’t notice her. That feeling quickly faded away when another girl came into view, her fingers interlocked with his. 

Kim found herself sighing in relief as she turned and watched them dump the powdered sugar onto her hot bread. She felt thankful seeing Tommy with someone else. She hoped that he could truly leave her alone now. She didn’t want to be mean; she just wasn’t interested, and he wasn’t worth the hassle that followed.

“Thank you,” She smiled kindly at the worker as she took a hold of the hot plate. She began to trek back towards the tables, holding it cautiously so she didn’t spill it everywhere. That would be her luck.

“Where’d Lucas and Billy go?” Kim asked as she reapproached the two girls with a plate of funnel cake. She really wasn’t sure if she could eat much more but it smelt that good. Max huffed and then pointed her fork towards her left. Kim set the plate down and glanced over, looking at how the two boys were playing a basketball game.

“They’re bonding.” El spoke in a soft, sweet way as she pressed her enclosed against her cheeks and pretended to swoon against Max. The younger redhead heated up in flames, mumbling under her breath as she stabbed her fork into the funnel cake. Kim giggled, wondering if she looked the same way when she got embarrassed.

“That’s nice,” She teased as she ripped off a small corner of cake before sliding it along the powdered sugar, wiping up as much of the powdered sugar as she could before placing it on her tongue. It melted in her mouth in a strange sensation of warmth and sugary sweetness, “Maybe Lucas will win you a stuffed animal.” She spoke slyly, watching how Max’s blue eyes shot up towards her accusingly. 

“Are you jealous that I have a boyfriend?” Max had always been a spitfire, using her words first before she thought of how they may affect the other person. The mood turned sour as Kim felt her smile drop, all of the playfulness leaving her. She should’ve known better than to tease her, knowing how much it bothered her little sister. She gulped down the bitter food in her mouth, trying to act like the words didn’t bother her. She knew they shouldn’t, that Max didn’t really mean what she was saying. But it still hit that sensitive spot in her heart. Her younger sister always seemed to be more experienced than what she was. 

El nudged the younger redhead, shooting her a disapproving look as their conversation turned quiet, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that.” Max muttered out after a second, taking another bite of the funnel cake. Kim suddenly wasn’t hungry anymore, but she nodded along, not wanting to ruin the atmosphere anymore.

“Look what I won,” Lucas held up the grumpy, blue care bear. His expression was less than happy, “I wanted the baseball glove.” He sat back down next to the girls, almost defeated. Kim thought about rubbing it in her little sister’s face that he hadn’t even offered her the stuffed animal but stayed quiet. She didn’t need to fight back.

“You okay?” Billy slid into the table next to Kim, looking at her questionably. She smiled back stiffly, nodding as she motioned towards the funnel cake that the three teenagers were now devouring.

“Did you try it? It’s pretty good.” She changed the subject, too embarrassed to admit what she was upset about. Billy watched her curiously for a second before he shrugged.

“I’m not crazy about funnel cake. I like spicy stuff.” He nudged her thigh with his knee as he spoke, a small grin placing against the corner of his lips. She laughed softly, rolling her eyes.

“You also said you didn’t like corn dogs, but you ate like half of mine,” She exaggerated as she nibbled on her fries. His blue eyes watched her amused, “You didn’t win anything?” He shook his head no.

“I was giving him pointers.” Billy responded blandly. Kim tilted her head as she watched him, still desperately wishing she could understand what he was thinking.

“About the game or about Max?” She asked quietly. He gave her his answer in the form of a mischievous grin. If that was the case, they had truly come a long way from where they had once been a few months ago. She liked this Billy better.

“Is it okay if we go look for our friends now?” Max spoke up after a few minutes. Kim glanced towards Billy but shrugged her own shoulders. She thought that there was more than enough to keep the teens occupied. She didn’t have reason to believe that they would leave the fairgrounds.

“Just meet back at the entrance after the fireworks, around 11. I don’t want to go to jail because of your dad.” Billy teased El softly. Kim watched how her cheeks flared up into pink splotches. Max rose first, throwing her trash away.

“Sure, see you!” Max was off quickly, leaving the other two teens to scramble to throw away their own trash as they hurried to follow her. Kim sat, facing Billy as she crossed her legs over the bench and sucked on her straw.

“What do you want to do?” She asked him, not really feeling like living through her sister tonight. Billy grinned widely, his eyes lingering against her lips.

“Nothing appropriate,” He chuckled softly, swinging his leg over the bench seat so he could face her as well, “We could try out luck at some of the games?” He asked, tilting his head as he waited for her reaction.

“You don’t want to ride anything else?” She asked him slowly, not wanting to spoil his fun for the night. His lips curled into a smirk, his eyes lingering over her form. 

“Not any of these rides,” His eyes drifted down towards her cleavage and back at her reddened features, “Do you want to try and play a game?” She ignored his previous comment and nodded, trying to keep cool.

“I’m probably not going to win anything but sure,” She stood up after him, following his long strides. Their hands brushed against each other gently as they walked. Kim glanced down, noticing how he flexed his fingers as he pulled away from her, “Do you want to do the ring toss?” She motioned towards one of the stalls. She looked back suddenly, noticing how Billy had stopped and looked panicked. She looked at him concerned. 

“Oh shit, shit, shit,” Billy cursed, glancing around wildly while Kim turned to him alarmed. He ducked away, hiding to the side of one of the booths. She stared at him, watching as he tried to swat her away, “I’m not here.” She wasn’t sure what he was meaning until she looked at the brunette girl barreling towards her.

Tina approached Kim, looking unsure for a moment before she took another step forward. Kim looked around awkwardly, unsure of what she had to offer for the shorter brunette. Tina shoved her hands into her pink shorts. Kim’s smile felt frozen as she realized Tina wasn’t speaking, “Yes?” She questioned slowly, rubbing her arm. 

“Did you say something to Billy?” Tina was forcing a smile on her face, but Kim could tell how distraught she looked, “He just hasn’t been answering my calls. I thought things were going so well the other night.” Tina replied pitifully. Kim fidgeted with her fingers, still not used to having to let girls down for Billy. 

“Why would I say anything to him?” Kim looked towards the other girl awkwardly. Kim knew that she really did have a big reason that Billy wasn’t seeing her anymore. The other girl didn’t need to know that. Tina frowned, watching her intensely.

“Could you just tell him that I’ve tried to call? I just want to know what I did wrong.” Kim nodded, doing her best to look sincere. She was sure Billy was behind the booth listening in on their conversation, but even if he wasn’t she wouldn’t tell him. She still didn’t like Tina.

“Sure, um, have a good night,” Kim took a step back, pretending to be interested in a menu from a food vendor. She waited until Tina walked away again, she glanced at where Billy had been hiding as he stepped out sheepishly, “That was cold.” She told him, shaking her head.

“Sorry about that, I did try and talk to her by the way,” Billy motioned Kim in the opposite direction, most likely trying to separate himself from Tina as much as possible, “She said she wouldn’t take no for an answer.” Kim tried not to snort. She felt like she had already warned Billy about that.

“Yeah, well she hasn’t been the first one that’s asked about you,” Kim teased, their shoulders brushing against each other again as they walked, “You have no idea how many girls have asked me for advice on how to get into your bed.” Billy cracked a smile, looking at her.

“Did you scare them off?” He teased softly, his blue eyes lingering against the different gaming stands. Kim thought that he was probably looking for another basketball one or one that dealt with sports. She wondered what he would do now that he was out of school, and he was no longer playing any sports. It seemed to be the one thing that he actually enjoyed with school.

“Ha, real funny,” She shook her head watching as Billy stopped at a pick a duck stand. She stood close to him, looking down at the different colored rubber ducks swimming in the small plastic pool, “Are you any good at this?” She asked as he handed a dollar towards the worker. He shrugged.

“Never done it before. Which one do you think?” He turned to face her. She felt her eyes lingering against his features for a moment before she leaned forward to get a good look at the ducks. Her hand brushed against his gently again and she felt her whole hand catch on fire.

“What’s your favorite color?” She asked suddenly, looking at the different colored ducks that were in the water. It felt odd that she had been with him so long and didn’t know the simple things about him.

“Blue, I guess.” He spoke after a second. She could feel his eyes lingering on the side of her face as she looked into the water. She examined the different ducks swimming around, figuring that she probably had her father's luck when it came to gambling. She tried anyways. 

“Do that one, no the other one,” She told him, pointing towards one of the blue ducks floating on the outer edge from the rest of the ducks. It was gently bumping into a pink one as it moved in the pool. Billy reached forward, picking it up as he looked at the green dot on the bottom of it, “Oh cool, what did you win?” Billy shrugged, showing it off to the worker.

“Congrats,” The worker pushed a cold can of Coke towards Billy. Kim watched how Billy looked a bit irritated but took it nonetheless, “Come again!” The worker yelled as they turned away. Billy grumbled and popped the cap off before taking a big swig. He handed the bottle to Kim, and she was glad for the cold drink when the air just seemed to be getting hotter.

“That was a waste of time,” Billy spoke up after a second. She shrugged, feeling a bit pleased that he had asked for her opinion, and she had found something else out about him, “What do you want to try?” 

“What about that one?” She pointed towards the booth that held four high top chairs. There were multiple bullseye targets that were held up high in the booth. It was one of the games that Max loved to play. She was always a lot better at using the fake guns to hit the target than Kim was.

“Sure,” Billy headed that way, “You’re burning me out of my money, Red.” He teased as he pulled his wallet out. She gulped hard, feeling bad as she began to rummage for her cash again.

“I can pay for it,” She insisted as they stepped forward, waiting for four younger kids to finish their turns. Billy shrugged her off, “No really. I feel bad.” He grinned at her, still shaking his head no. 

“I didn’t mean for you to feel bad. I was just teasing you,” He nudged her softly with his shoulder. She shifted a bit on her feet, smiling up at him and watching to make sure that he really meant what he said, “Are you wanting another stuffed animal?” He asked as his eyes lingered against the plushies that were hanging inside of the booth. Kim bit her lip as she smiled.

“That wasn’t my purpose of picking this stand” She told him slowly, “But I do love stuffed animals.” She concluded, looking quite proud as she thought about her collection of stuffed animals she had already. Billy turned towards her amused.

“You’d use that one?” He motioned towards the giant, fat teddy hanging up that she was sure was the size of Max. She glanced at him, a bit excited.

“He looks like he would be comfortable to nap on,” She told him as he slid the money towards the next worker, “I don’t think he’d fit in my room though.” She admitted, thinking of how tiny her room was already. She was slightly worried about what Neil would say if she appeared with such a large stuffed animal anyways.

“You’re something else,” Billy spoke softly as he sat down at the last seat. She sat next to him, holding the gun up playfully while he shook his head at her. She wondered how much more of her he could take before he got bored. She wasn’t sure that they had actually hung out in this way for this long before, “I like it.” He sent her a sly wink as he got himself into position. She paused for a moment, trying not to search deeper for what his words may have meant.

Kim found out she was still bad at her aiming skills. She did manage to knock a few of the targets down but it was nothing special. She glanced towards Billy, watching as he knocked down every target he aimed at, “That was mine.” She whined as he knocked one of hers down. He laughed.

“Then you should’ve hit it,” He teased, continuing to strike down all of the targets as soon as they popped back up. She scoffed, trying to adjust her hold on the toy gun as she aimed it again. Just like sports, her hand eye coordination sucked when it came to situations like this, “Ooh, well nice try.” He grinned at her, leaning over to read her low score.

“Shut up,” She grumbled as she stood up from the seat, “I tried my best, that’s all that matters.” She reminded herself as they made their way to the prize table. She had still achieved enough to win a small prize.

“Whatever you say, Red.” She glared at him from the nickname that seemed to be sticking. He only looked proud of himself as they waited for the kids in front of them to claim their prizes. She peeped forward, trying to get a good look at what prizes they had hidden.

“I want the blue scrunchie I guess,” Kim leaned over as she looked into the bowl of small prizes, “Oh and the snickers bar.” She smiled up at the worker as he handed them towards her. She slid the scrunchie over her wrist and held onto her chocolate bar. Billy looked at her amused, but she shrugged, holding onto his Coke bottle while he examined the prizes.

“That one,” He spoke up and she looked over her shoulder as she worked on opening her candy bar, “Thanks.” Kim took a bite of her candy bar as she watched the rush of kids go past them. She was sure it was almost time for the fireworks to set off. She turned to Billy, looking at the stuffed Highland Cow in his hands.

“For the memory of Angus,” He grinned as he held it out towards her. She felt her heart thumping in her chest roughly as she swallowed the rest of the chocolate hard in her mouth. She felt the smile erupt on her face as she looked at his bashful reaction, “There wasn’t anything else. I don’t like stuffed animals.” He said quickly.

She stayed quiet, taking the stuffed animal gently from his hands. Her fingers brushed against his and she paused for a moment before she slid the scrunchie off of her wrist and onto his. He looked up at her, raising an eyebrow.

“Now we’re even,” She replied sweetly, looking up at him proudly as she held the stuffed animal to her side. She felt her heart racing at the cheerful expression that spread upon his golden features. She thought of how rare it was to see him like this, how badly she wanted to see him looking like this more often, “You don’t actually have to use it.” She replied quickly, unsure if it would be too girlish for him.

“No, I love it. Thank you,” He grinned as he watched her expression turn to glee, “I’ll use it all the time.” He chuckled softly. Her hand lingered near his wrist where she had put the scrunchie on him. She felt her hand beginning to move to press against his, wanting to intertwine their fingers together. 

“Kim?” She was drawn away, snapping her hand quickly to her side as her friend approached. Addi smiled as she stepped forward, the shorter girl hugging the redhead. Eddie lingered behind, looking excited as he held a bag of popcorn in his hand.

“Hey,” Kim breathed out quickly, glancing at Billy worried for a moment before she looked at her friend’s dark eyes again, “I tried to look for you earlier.” Kim responded nervously. She was lying, but she didn’t think it would matter. She had thought that they had mentioned meeting up at some point. She had become too enthralled with Billy. 

“Oh my god, it’s so busy here,” Addi spoke up as Billy began to walk away. Kim was worried he was leaving her completely but found a small relief as he approached Eddie. She wondered if they only talked about drugs or if they actually had anything in common, “I didn’t expect it to be so packed I guess.” Kim nodded at her friend, completely agreeing with her. She really hadn't paid that much attention to the crowd, too busy enjoying her time with Billy. 

“I didn’t either,” Kim admitted but the usual large crowds hadn’t bothered her quite so much tonight, “It’s been fun though. I got this.” She held up the stuffed cow proudly. She didn’t mention that she hadn’t been the one to technically win it. Addi was quiet for a moment, like she already knew how she had achieved the stuffed animal. 

“You’re hanging out with Billy quite a bit.” Addi observed, her dark eyes lingering against her friend's sheepish expression. Kim glanced back at the older boy, noticing he was talking casually with Eddie about something. She knew it was wrong, but she felt herself indulging in fantasies where she was able to go on double dates with him and her friend. 

“He’s my ride,” Kim started to defend herself, “Plus I can’t always be your third wheel.” Kim teased but began to feel bad as her friend's expression turned to worry. Still, it was better to make her feel guilty than to be suspicious of the two of them.

“Oh, Kim, I'm not trying to abandon you. I didn’t know you felt that way. I’m so sorry.” Addi rushes out, looking at her sincerely. Kim didn’t mean it in a serious manner but figured anything would do to get the topic off of Billy.

“I’m just not used to sharing you with someone else,” She joked again as she ran her fingers along her freckled arm. She kept the stuffed cow close to her chest, “I’m just teasing you anyways.” She smiled but her friend still looked worried.

“You know, we could do fun things as couples if you got a boyfriend,” Addi nudged her playfully, “I still think we need to work on Steve.” Kim sighed softly, before shaking her head no.

“I think that ship has already sailed. I appreciate you trying though,” Kim admitted softly, “I’ll get a boyfriend eventually, I just don’t need one right now.” She glanced back towards Billy, watching how his blue eyes met hers. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster and she tried not to think about how handsome he looked at the moment. Addi looked like she was going to be stubborn for a moment but then quickly nodded her head in agreement.

“Okay, but don’t be a stranger. Let’s plan a slumber party?” Kim nodded in agreement, feeling a bit excited. She always liked going to her friend's house. She never felt as if she had to walk on eggshells while she was there. 

“I probably can’t this week,” Kim sighed softly as she remembered Neil’s bonding suggestion, “We’re going camping or something dumb like that.” Addi looked a bit amused but nodded.

“Some time when you get back then. Promise?” She held out her pinky and Kim quickly interlocked hers as well. It would be nice to have a night away from Neil and everything that had happened since. Eddie and Billy made their way back over.

“Always a pleasure, Kim,” Eddie nodded towards her before pulling his girlfriend back in his arms. Kim wished for nothing more than to be able to do the same thing with Billy, “You ready?” He asked Addi, placing a kiss against her cheek. The tanned girl nodded, waving towards her friend.

“Don’t forget about me!” Kim teased as they walked away. Billy stepped near her, a soft smile pressing against his lips.

“I’m gonna go smoke, you want to join?” He was already fumbling with his pack of cigarettes as he spoke. She wasn’t particularly fond of being trapped along the stinky smoke but nodded along anyways. She didn’t want to be left all alone either. 

“Yeah, did you find out where you go?” He shrugged but snaked his way behind one of the booths. She followed him confused, stepping out into a small empty clearing. He lit his cigarette quickly and she could tell the crowd and bustling of people had finally reached his limit.

“I think this will work.” He shrugged, looking around for a moment. Smoke tumbled free from his lips as he smoked. She hated how badly it smelt but couldn’t deny that he looked good doing it.

“I think Addi was suspicious.” She blurted out suddenly, thinking about what her friend had said a few minutes ago. She had hinted at them hanging out a lot and really didn’t know if that was classified as being suspicious or not. It was enough for her worried mind as she watched the older boy's reaction. 

“Is she suspicious or are you overreacting?” He took a large drag of his cigarette as he stared at the red head. She picked at her cotton candy. There were fresh freckles aligned on her hair and cheeks, her face red from the heat and sun. She was sure she looked like a strawberry.

“You always think I’m overreacting,” She tried not to sound whiny, “Addi is my best friend. I know her. She’s suspicious.” Kim tried to convince him, looking into his blue eyes seriously in hopes that he would actually listen to her this time.

“What do you suggest then?” Billy spoke after a moment, his hard eyes softening as he looked at the worried girl. She was thankful he wasn’t brushing her off. 

“I think,” She sighed softly, “That being exclusive isn’t the best idea right now. I mean- I’m not saying you have to fuck other people but, maybe we do need to be seen with others.” She admitted slowly, not liking the idea herself. She knew he would have no problem finding a date. Maybe as long as it looked like he was still seeing other people everything would be okay. 

“So you want me to go on dates now?” He questioned, looking at her unsure. She felt her cheeks growing redder and more wished her hair wasn’t up on her head so she could hide her face, “You got upset last time.” She wanted to argue that it was because he was seeing Tina but kept quiet.

“I know,” She sounded bashful as she spoke, “But I also don’t want us to get caught.” She spoke slowly, unsure of her own words. She didn’t want to feel so possessive of Billy, but she was. She couldn’t understand why she wanted him all to herself.

“You’re not going to bitch about it?” He looked down at his hands while he smoked. She frowned, clutching the stuffed animal to her chest again, feeling a bit defensive of herself. 

“I don’t bitch about things,” She responded weakly as she straightened her shoulders up. He glanced at her amused, “I just don’t understand why you should see terrible people.” He was quiet for a moment, like he was actually considering it. He shrugged his shoulders softly. 

“So, you think I should ask Heather out?” She could feel her heart dropping lower in her stomach as he brought up the pretty brunette. She paused for a minute, swallowing a rock in her throat as she nodded.

“If that’s who you want to ask out. She seems nice.” She tried to force the bitter tone out of her voice as she spoke. She couldn’t be mad; she was the one to suggest it. There were too many people who were suspicious of them at the moment. This was for the best, she tried to convince herself.

“Hm,” Billy grunted, nodding his head as he put his cigarette out, “I guess so. You’re not going to find someone else?” Kim smiled meekly. He knew well enough that there wasn't anyone who was interested in her, and he wouldn't approve of them either way. She was scared of what Neil would say now anyways.

“Probably not, your dad was scary the other day,” She admitted as she rubbed her hand over arm, “I don’t really want to get in trouble again.” She watched as Billy frowned, taking her scabbed hand in his. He looked it over for a minute.

“I’ll think about it,” He said after a moment of thinking to himself, “There’s not anyone I want to see right now.” He shrugged as he blew out smoke towards her. She smiled, despite the terrible smell of his cigarette as her hand lingered in his. She savored the feeling of their skin together, how warm she felt at the moment just standing there with him. 

“I just don’t want to hold you back or anything,” She told him quickly, beginning to let his hand go. He looked at her curiously, tilting his head as he put his cigarette out. She glanced over at the sound of a child crying loudly nearby. He stepped towards her, and she glanced at his eyes, suddenly feeling like he was towering over her, “Billy.” She warned as her pulse quickened in her neck from how close he was standing to her.

“You’re not holding me back if there’s no one else I want to be with,” He grinned as his hands rested against her hips softly. She bit her lip, feeling his touch travel through her body as she glanced up at him nervously. He didn’t seem bothered at the fact that anyone could pull the curtain back from the booth and see them like this. She didn’t need anyone else breathing down their backs. She was sure nothing good would come if anyone found out, “Why are you pulling away?” He sounded serious as he watched her with those blue eyes, she had become so accustomed to. 

“Billy,” Kim’s hands rested against his chest softly, trying to push her away from him as gently as she could, “There’s so many people here. We can’t.” He looked at her, giving her a challenge as he stepped closer to her. She gasped as her back hit against the hard stall wall. She glanced around nervously.

“No one’s on this side, no one can see,” He told her gently as he rubbed her sides with his large hands, “Just relax a bit. Have some fun.” Her heart was hammering in her chest as she stared up at him. She wanted to do this badly, but the thought of how disappointed her mother seemed in her the other night kept drawing her away.

“Someone might see.” She responded weakly as he loomed in closer to her. She could see his light freckles that decorated his cheeks from this position, the way his left eye had just a small amount of green in them. His right arm hooked around her waist, pulling her flush against him as he cupped her squishy cheek.

“I don’t hear anyone. Do you?” He questioned her as he tilted his head. She watched the way his blonde curls touched his shoulder. She pulled her eyes away to the right of her, checking the empty field and tall trees that stood near them. To her left, was the back of the fair booths. They were mainly covered by wooden stands and cheap tarps. She shook her head, looking at him again, “No one will know if we have a quick kiss.” He encouraged her, tilting her chin up to look at him. She met his intense gaze, fearing she would see a small, scared little girl reflecting in his eyes. 

“Billy-,” She started, still not assured that they were really safe. They were still in public. He took control, dipping his lips onto hers to cut off her voice of reason. He moved his lips against hers slowly, sucking on her bottom lip gently and with care. Her whole body grew warm from where he was touching, spreading across her like a wildfire. She broke down and allowed herself to be open to him, his fingers pulled against the fabric of her shirt gently.

His hands traced over her bare skin, sending shivers down her back as she sighed out softly at the feeling of being held on by him. His tongue slid inside of her mouth, rubbing against her own as he rubbed soft circles into her skin. She felt a moan leave her mouth as he pressed her up against him and she could feel his bulge against her thigh. She tried to clear her lust filled thoughts and remember where they were, but it was hard to. He tasted so good, felt so warm towards her.

“Let’s go somewhere.” Billy muttered as they pulled away. She stared at his pink, plump lips that were still wet. She could feel her heart thumping hard against her ribcage as she thought about her little sister. She had been given strict orders to make sure that she didn't run off on her own. Now, here Kim was trying to leave her behind. It was an odd feeling. 

“What about Max?” She questioned him, not wanting to get in trouble for leaving the younger girl behind. She also didn’t want Hopper to actually do something that would get Billy in trouble with Neil. He slid her hands up the back of her shirt softly.

“We’re just going somewhere to watch the fireworks, she’ll be fine,” She must’ve looked unconvinced because he pulled his hands away from her back and cupped her soft cheeks again, “I promise. She’s hanging out with her friends right now. We’ll find her after the fireworks.” He promised, placing a gentle kiss against her lips. She thought for a moment before nodding. It was worth the risk.

“Come on,” He reached his hand out towards her and as badly as she wanted to take it, she couldn’t. She smiled bashfully and walked near him instead. There may not be anyone near them at the moment but that didn’t mean someone could see. She was already worried about their kiss. There were too many people out and about for them to not be careful, “Let’s stop by my car first.” He muttered softly, shaking away her actions. He paused by a booth as they began to exit, pulling out two glasses of Coke before swiftly walking away. She stared at him horrified.

“You have to pay for those.” She whispered towards him harshly, glancing over her shoulder in worry. No one seemed to notice but she sped her pace up a bit faster just in case. He chuckled, glancing over her as he shook his head.

“No one’s going to notice.” He handed her a bottle, which she took hesitantly. She held the cold glass bottle in her palm and tried not to think about being caught with it as they made their way out the exit. She was sure she would cry and plead innocence if they were caught. No one seemed to notice, but her heart was still racing from the idea of being caught. 

She walked out towards the familiar Camaro, noticing how everyone was walking inside the Fun Fair except for them. She was unsure of where he was leading her. She didn’t want to wander too far away from Max in case she needed something. He reached for his keys, popping the trunk open.

“Here,” Billy opened the trunk, allowing for her to place the stuffed cow in there. She handed it towards him, holding their drinks in her hands as he dipped into the trunk. He exchanged the cow for a bright red blanket with the 49ers symbol on the middle of it. She watched him curiously as he shut the trunk, “Let’s go.” She followed behind him, glancing back and forth between him and the ground cautiously. 

“Where’s it at?” She was already out of breath as she followed him up a steep hill. She could feel the sweat beginning to form at the base of her neck and on her forehead. Her legs were straining as she struggled to keep up with his effortless pacing.

“It’s just up here. We’ll get the best view, I promise.” She inhaled deeply, trying to fill her lungs as she nodded with whatever he said. She thought that she may need to start exercising a bit more with how badly she was struggling to keep up with him.

They finally stepped into a flat clearing, not completely surrounded by trees. She looked around at the hot tufts of grass that brushed against her ankles. She wondered if he had been up here before. It really was beautiful. There was a slight breeze from how high up they were, and the Ferris wheel seemed to be small in this position. She glanced up at the stars before she looked back at him. 

“You’re right,” She finally caught her breath, getting her heart rate back to normal as he examined the ground around them. She found herself growing anxious again as she looked back at the grass, hoping there wasn’t any hidden snakes, “What are you doing?” She asked him after a second.

He glanced up at her, smiling as he unwrapped his blanket, “Finding a good spot,” He must’ve been happy with where he was as he sat the blanket down, unfolding it dramatically. She walked over slowly, setting their drinks down near the blanket. Her heart was thumping as she watched him sit down, patting the spot next to him so she could join him, "Are you still on your period?" Billy questioned, not looking bothered if she was. She shook her head no quickly, thinking about how hard it would be to clean up the mess this time if she was. 

“We’re not too far away, are we?” She questioned him, sitting far enough away so that they weren’t touching. He gave her a look, pulling at the back of her thighs so that she was pulled closer towards him. She giggled softly, her back resting against the blanket as he positioned himself between her legs. He bent down, looking at her with dilated blue eyes.

He was rough, his hands touching everywhere he could as he pressed her up against the ground. She was holding onto him just as tightly, trying to keep up to the motion of his lips as he squeezed her breasts. She squealed from the sudden sensation, and he took no time in diving into her mouth with his tongue. It was sloppy, the mixture of their kiss was coating the side of her lips. 

She urged for the cool Earth against her skin to wake her up, to pull her away from his trance. It was like she was only pulled deeper towards him as her fingers found his golden curls. She traced her hand through them softly, earning a soft groan from him in response.

“You’ve been ignoring me,” He peppered kisses across the side of her lips, down to her chin, “All night I’ve tried to touch you and you keep pushing away.” He accused, his words shooting straight to her heart and filling her stomach with guilt. She didn’t think she had been doing it all night.

“If someone sees-,” She started only for him to kiss her again. He was swallowing her words, like he could erase them from her memory and make her think of things his way. He thought she was overreacting; she was sure of it.

“Can I not hold my little sister's hand?” He pulled away, both hands cupping her face softly. His elbows were near her shoulders, hovering his weight on top of her. She felt her whole-body lighting on fire, and it wasn’t from the heat outside. He was so close to her. She looked up at him surprised at the question.

“What?” She felt her eyebrow raising high on her face as she looked up at his gleaming face. She resisted the urge to move her hand up and cup the side of his face.

“Max was holding my hand earlier, why can’t you?” He asked, looking at her with genuine curiosity. His fingers caressed her reddened, freckled skin softly. She watched him for a moment, thinking there was a large difference between her and Max.

“Max sees you as a brother,” She said slowly, “I don’t.” It felt weird admitting, but it was true. He had told her not to worry about labels, but she still wished there was something to classify them as. Other than being deranged, of course. He chuckled and she watched the way his nose scrunched up with his movements.

“Okay, but nobody else has to know that. If anyone that we know sees I’m sure that’s all they’re assuming.” He told her earnestly. She smiled in regret, thinking of all the people she had been adamant on convincing that her and Billy weren’t siblings. Still, she thought it was different for someone as young as Max to hold her brother’s hand than for her. She wasn’t that much younger than Billy, only about a year.

“I’ll try,” She smiled as his thumb began to trace over her plump lips, “I just get so worried.” He nodded in agreement, dipping back down to place a kiss against her lips again. She tried to memorize the curve of his lips, worried she might forget them some day. She savored the taste of him on her tongue. She never thought she would like the taste of cigarettes, it was bitter, but it was nice. It was Billy. 

“I know,” His hands shifted away from her face. He sat up next to her, pulling at the buttons on her jeans. She looked at him nervously, “There’s no one around. Look.” He motioned towards the quiet trees and lonely stars hanging in the sky. She sat up a bit, positioning herself back on the blanket as she looked over the hill. The Fun Fair looked far away from here as she began to feel her guard lowering.

“Alright,” She lifted her hips as he pulled her shorts and panties down with one careful swoop. She felt her face reddening as she looked around again. She felt utterly exposed up here on the hill, out in nature with nowhere to hide, “Billy.” She giggled watching as he struggled to pull his own jeans off of his thick thighs. She smirked, thinking it was what he deserved for always wearing such tight jeans. She took a second to admire him before she pulled her eyes away and removed her shirt and bra. She kicked her shoes off next, carefully folding her socks into them so she wouldn’t lose them later on.

“C’mere,” He scooted onto the blanket after he removed his shirt and she found herself having a hard time focusing on what he was saying with how good she thought he looked at the moment. He took her hand gently as he helped her straddle his lap, “Wanna watch you ride me.” He told her, sounding excited as he pumped himself slowly. She glanced between their legs, having no idea how he always managed to be so hard all the time.

“Okay,” She breathed out softly, rocking her hips forward at the sensation of the tip of his cock tapping against her clit softly. He held onto her hip with one hand as he used the other to push into her. She took a moment to adjust, still feeling a slight burn from this position before she settled down on top of him. She closed her eyes softly, rocking her hips forward as she felt the jolts of electricity spread inside of her, “It feels so good.” She told him quietly between her moans as she moved slowly. She shifted a bit, moving so that the tops of her feet were planted against his large thighs and no longer on the rough blanket.

“Fuck,” He breathed out as his rubbed her hips softly, “Been wanting to do this all night.” He groaned, snapping his hips up hard. She squealed softly, leaning forward at the sensation of him brushing against the bundle of nerves inside of her. She moaned as she moved softly, holding onto his chest for support. He pulled his hands away for a moment, only to pull her scrunchie from her hair and let her red locks caress down her shoulders and back. He rested his hands back against her waist as he dragged her wet cunt along his thick cock.

She glanced down at the golden boy underneath her, fully savoring the sight of him underneath her. His eyes were shut tightly, brows furrowed in pleasure as soft, sinful sounds left his parted lips. She could feel his abdominal muscles flexing underneath her touch as her hands roamed softly over his tanned skin. His fingers tightened around her hips as he brought her back down along his cock, grinding his hips up to meet hers.

“Oh,” She felt her eyes drifting shut at the sensation. Her whole body was warm from their heat, and she could feel the sweat beginning to form along her back as she started to move quicker, “Love your cock so much.” She mumbled desperately, not wanting the feeling of being intertwined with him to ever fade.

"You can be loud," He promised, rubbing the bundle of nerves between her legs as she moved her hips to the rhythm she wanted. He was meeting her halfway, snapping his cock up forward into her as he was fully indulging into his pleasure. Seeing him in so much pleasure tightened her stomach even more, sending a warm feeling throughout her body that ended between her legs. She was gasping as he rocked her forward, "No one will hear. You're doing so damn good." He promised, biting down on his lip as he stared up at her with twinkling eyes. 

A loud squeal left her mouth and she jumped, nearly falling on top of him at the large erupting sounds that took place in the sky. She looked down, noticing how his eyes were snapped wide open as well. She turned, feeling her heart still racing as she stared up into the sky where they had lit the fireworks. She giggled softly, watching how pretty the colors looked in the night. Billy’s hands trembled softly against her skin as he held onto her. 

She paused her movements, despite being fully aware of how stuffed she felt at the moment with his throbbing cock inside of her fluttering walls. She stared at the sky, watching as the yellow lights flickered in the sky and popped, “It’s pretty.” She spoke out loud, entranced for a moment as the sky once again lit up in a pop of red and blue. Billy’s fingers traced at her soft sides, squeezing softly as he stared up at her. 

“Beautiful,” She looked down at him, her hair caressing her face from where he had pulled it down. She watched as the colors flickered across his features, displaying his bright eyes all while he drank her in. She was glad her face was already flushed as she tried not to focus on the meaning of his words. He pushed his hips up softly into her wet cunt, “So fucking tight.” He told her, one of his hands reaching between her legs to rub her clit. She moaned softly, feeling her legs trembling as she began to move again. 

She cried out, her sounds dying out from the loud bang of the fireworks erupting into the sky. She moved against him in pleasure, enjoying the curve of his cock pressing against her bundle of nerves. He grunted underneath her, gripping her hips tightly as he helped her move. She could feel herself dripping onto his hardened cock as she moved desperately, soaking in the feeling of them becoming one.

“More,” She pleaded as she leaned down on him further, rolling her hips more desperately as he pushed her down on his cock harder. He was thrusting up to meet her movements, his balls hitting against her skin with each harsh movement. The sound of them echoed quietly into the dark night, “Need more.” She could feel the familiar tightening of her stomach muscles as her high began to grow. He rolled his thumb against her wet clit, using his other hand to press her down on him harder.

“Need more of my cock, baby?” He sat up a bit, grinding his hips up into her wet heat. She gaped in awe, looking down between her legs to watch his cock press into her repeatedly. She clung to him, afraid to let go as she began to near her end, “Such a greedy cock slut.” He smacked her butt harshly at the same time another loud boom was set off in the air behind her. She panted, a small laugh leaving her lips as she nodded.

“Just for you,” She moaned again as he dipped his head towards his chest, licking his warm tongue across her hardened nipples. He flicked them softly with his tongue before sucking softly. She moved her hips harshly, rolling him in deeper as she chased her high, “S’close.” She breathed out harshly, tangling a hand into his blonde curls. She was drenched, chasing her high as he throbbed inside of her. She felt her toes curl in awe as she came down hard around him, trembling as she cried out.

“S’okay baby,” He breathed out raspy, snapping into her harshly. He clawed at her hips, bottoming out inside of her as he came with a rough groan. She rested her cheek against his for a moment, rolling her eyes back at his warm liquid that filled her, “You did so good.” He breathed hard against her cheek, nudging her with his nose so she’d face him. She tried to catch her breath but was still quickly when he indulged her with a quick, lingering kiss. She could feel her legs burning as she went to shift them, to better position herself before she was falling back. She squealed softly, looking up at the bright stars as the Earth seemed to be moving fast underneath her. 

She was still shaking around him when he wrapped her in his arms, shifting completely so that he was sitting up and her back was resting on the blanket between his legs. A soft moan left her mouth at the feeling of him pulling his softening dick from between her. She could feel the mixture of them beginning to pool out before he scooped it back in with his fingers.

“See,” He was breathing hard as he looked down at her. He moved his hands across her thighs, touching her as much as he could, “I told you we’d get the best show.” His grin formed after hers did. His eyes lingering on her lips as she attempted to catch her breath. He scooted forward, his fingers cupping her soft boobs and earning a giggle from her.

“Except now I’m all sweaty,” She made a playful face, liking how she felt as she laid between him. He leaned down over her, pressing another gentle kiss against her plump lips, “You might have to carry me down the hill.” She told him playfully, watching how amused he looked at the moment. She tried not to think about where his fingers had been when he pushed them into her mouth. She sucked around them softly, licking off the taste of their mixture. He curled his fingers around her teeth, pulling her jaw open wide for a moment before he spit in her mouth. It took her by surprise, but she swallowed it just the same. Her heart thumped hard in her chest again, liking the proud look on his face. 

“Sounds like a deal to me.” He glanced back up at the sky, and she stared at the red and orange that highlighted over his features as more fireworks went off. She didn’t care about the night sky anymore; she was too entranced with watching how pretty he looked at the moment. It was more thrilling than any light show. 

“When’s your birthday?” She wasn’t sure why she suddenly thought of it. She couldn’t remember having a party for him since their parents had forced them all together, it made her curious. Neil and Susan had thrown parties for them, she even had a big one for her sixteenth birthday. She couldn't remember one party for him, and it made her nervous. He looked down at her intrigued.

“March.” He said simply, looking away as he looked back up into the night sky. She felt her heart hit her stomach as realization sat in that his birthday had already passed by. She felt a terrible amount of guilt filling inside of her, hoping that he didn't think that she didn't care enough to know. She would've done something for him had she known.

“Billy,” Kim cried, pushing up from the blanket as she stared at him, “Your birthday was in March, and you said nothing?” He looked up at her confused, like this was no big deal. Like it was something he was used to. Her legs were bent on top of his and she felt frantic as she sat close by him. 

“Dads never made it a big deal before. You were the only one that got me something for Christmas.” Kim felt baffled as she stared at him, wondering how he could be so casual in a moment like this. She thought about how hurt she would be if no one knew her birthday. She felt terrible all over, feeling like she needed to redeem herself for not paying close enough attention to him. 

“I got you a pack of cigarettes,” She spoke slowly, pressing her hands against his chest, “That’s not a real gift! Why didn’t you say anything? I could’ve thrown you a little party!” Billy grumbled, looking away from her eyes and staring at the patch of grass next to them. She cupped his face gently, the same way he had done to her a hundred times.

“Just never been a big deal.” He looked defensive as he watched her. She frowned softly as her eyes traced the freckles along his cheeks. She didn’t want him to be upset. It made her realize how lucky she was that she didn’t have to grow up with Neil. She leaned forward and kissed him softly, not sure if she wanted to know all that he had gone through. She hoped he would have a better future, that didn't reflect on his past.

“I’ll make it up to you,” She smiled sweetly at him, pushing his sweaty curls out of his face. He made a face, looking like he wasn’t pleased with that, “It won’t be overboard, I promise.” She watched how he still didn’t seem so happy with her answer. She didn’t care. He deserved to have at least one good birthday. She'd do something for him, she just had to figure out what. 

He grumbled under his breath, seeming like he could care less if anyone ever did anything on his birthdays. She knew it wasn’t fair though. It was just another way for Neil to punish him. She thought about hugging him suddenly but remembered his boundaries as she traced the curve of his face in her hands. She rubbed his skin softly, looking at how it turned white for a few seconds before she moved her fingers away again. She kept doing the same movements, watching at how his head rested in her hands. 

“We should get back,” He said after a moment as he rested his fingertips on top of her knees. He smiled softly, looking like he was relaxing under her touch. She liked how smooth his skin felt under her fingertips, “Before Hopper does lock me up.” That snapped Kim out of her gentle movements as she looked at him worried.

“What time is it?” She questioned, beginning to pull away as she slid her panties around her ankles. He shifted behind her, reaching for his own pile of clothes. She glanced over as he turned his wrist to look at his watch. She wondered if he would like a new watch. Her mind began to wander as she started to create a mental list of different things that Billy would like. 

“Just barely eleven. We still have time,” She watched him struggle to pull his jeans over his hips, a smile hinting on her lips as he ended up having to jump a few times to get them over his backside, “What?” He grunted out, watching her giggle as she began to fasten her bra. She shook her head.

“Nothing,” She turned, smiling towards the empty trees as she finished dressing herself. The fireworks were beginning to slow, signaling the end of the show as she finished sliding on her socks and shoes, “Just glad we came up here.” She changed the subject. He raised an eyebrow, sitting behind her and pulling her red hair over her shoulder. He nuzzled his chin into the crook of her neck, squishing his face next to hers.

“You sure you weren’t laughing at me?” He asked seriously. From the corner of her eye, she could see how his blue eyes were darting towards her. She cracked a grin but denied it all the same.

“I would never, ever laugh at you,” She told him earnestly. Her heart began to race as she slowly leaned back against him, resting her back against his hard chest. She felt him stiffen for a moment and she began to prepare to pull away from him. He leaned in closer, tucking his feet under her legs and wrapping his strong arms across her waist. Her body lit up in flames at the desire of finally being held by him. She rested comfortably, watching the fireworks light up the sky again, “Can we watch the rest of the fireworks?” She asked him nervously. He leaned backwards for a second, grabbing their drinks before he settled back into position behind her. He shrugged.

“Sure, I think Hopper is all bark anyways,” She shook her head, disagreeing with his opinion but keeping quiet. He popped her soda can open for her and she took it graciously, the back of her throat feeling dry in the muggy air. It wasn’t as cold as what it had been, but she accepted it all the same, “Don’t worry, we’ll get El there in time.” She nodded in agreement, watching the different colors flash across the sky. 

“Do you think this would’ve happened in California?” She asked suddenly, thinking about how he had brought up the small wedding ceremony the other day during their intimate moment. She tried not to flush as she thought about his words, but she could feel the tingling feeling growing between her legs again. 

“Us?” He turned to her, watching how she was neglecting to look at him. She was partially afraid of what his answer would be, but she was curious all the same, “I think that would’ve been up to you.” She looked away from the bright blue lights in the sky and met his eyes confused.

“Up to me?” She waited for him to confirm. He chuckled, licking his tongue across his teeth. She wasn't sure that she liked that answer. She didn't understand how it would've been her choice

“I thought I made it pretty clear this would’ve happened a long time ago had you paid enough attention,” He tugged on her hair softly, looking quite proud of himself, “You were too naive to notice anything that I was insinuating.” She stared at him, floored for a moment.

“You never tried anything,” She defended herself, “I would’ve noticed. You were always with other girls. You never hinted at anything.” She rushed out, trying to think back for one single memory where he had acted interested in her. He smirked at her, showing off his shiny white teeth. She felt her eyes furrowing as she continued to try and deny his actions. She was sure she would've known. 

“I did, you just never caught on. Until you saw my cock anyways,” He seemed proud of himself as she pulled her hands to hide her face, groaning as she felt the blood pumping against her flushed cheeks, “Awe, don’t be so shy.” He cupped her chin softly, pulling her face back so he could kiss the corner of her lips repeatedly. She mimicked his grumble, too embarrassed to kiss back.

“You’re terrible,” She whined out softly as she squirmed in his arms. His laugh vibrated across her cheek as he pulled his lips away to get a good look at her, “I think you say things just to embarrass me.” She admitted, he squeezed her sides softly.

“Sometimes, but not right now,” The night grew quiet around them, Kim could faintly hear the sound of applause and people cheering. She figured that must’ve been the last of the fireworks. She watched as the smoke curled in the air, the smell blowing over them. As much as she missed California, she had to admit that the stars were a lot brighter out here. She felt that there were four times as many stars here as there had been in California, “We should go.” He tapped her thigh softly, drawing her out of her thoughts. 

“Okay,” She cautiously held onto her drink as she stood up. He did so after her, picking up the blanket lazily and tossing it over his shoulder. He handed her his empty drink and she looked at him confused, “I thought you wanted me to carry you back?” She looked at him enthused, nodding her head eagerly. He bent over a bit as she wrapped her arms around his shoulders, his large hands gripped the back of her thighs as he hoisted her up. She laughed softly, adjusting the glass bottles in one hand as she held onto him. His blonde curls tickled against her lips and cheek as a soft breeze hit them. 

“Please don’t fall,” She told him seriously as he began to make his way down the hill. She squealed softly when he bounced her in the air before keeping up his steady pace, “Billy!” She held onto him tightly, not quite enjoying the angle that they were heading in as he walked them down the hill. She thought about how badly it would hurt the both of them if they tumbled down the hill.

“I’m not going to fall,” He laughed, grunting as he adjusted her in his arms again. She felt like protesting, thinking that it was very likely that they would end up tumbling down the hill. Her chin rested against his shoulder as he made it to the bottom and headed towards his car. Once they were out of the thicket of trees, she noticed the crowd of people making their way towards their cars, “It’s fine, they won’t think anything weird if you don’t.” He mumbled softly as if he could read her mind. Still, she moved her head away from his so she could act like they weren’t so intimate. 

“Do you think Max is still inside?” She asked him, having an easier time at looking through the crowd of people as he held her so high in the air. She didn’t see the fiery redhead nearby and figured she must’ve been lingering inside with her friends. Billy squeezed her right thigh softly, motioning towards a ruddy brown car sitting near the bottom of the gravel parking lot. She noticed her sister then, surrounded by all of her friends and Steve. Steve was there too. Kim held onto Billy awkwardly, not wanting to see the brunette boy again.

“You wanna go get her?” Billy asked as she slowly set Kim down on the ground. She held the glass bottles towards her chest and shook her head no. She didn’t know how to explain how awkward it would be to walk up to the group of them and ask for Max to come along. 

“Can you just drive up?” She quickly grabbed the stuffed cow he’d won her from the trunk as he tossed the blanket back in. He waited a moment so he could light up a cigarette and shrugged.

“Sure,” He didn’t seem too bothered by that and she was glad for that. She slid into the leather seats and was thankful when he turned the AC on first. She accepted the cooling feeling against her hot, sweaty skin as she buckled up, “You too shy to see Pretty Boy or something?” She exhaled softly.

“More like too embarrassed,” Kim admitted, a bit sheepish. She was still humiliated as she thought about how she had tried to kiss him. Billy turned to her, smirking a bit and she wondered if he was thinking the same thing, “I’m pretty sure he really hates me now.” 

“He’s dumb,” Billy grumbled as he backed up slowly. She fixed her hair back up over her head, trying to get the back of her neck to cool down. She couldn’t wait to get home and take a hot shower. She watched as Max’s crowd of friends slowly peered into view, “Come on shitbirds, otherwise you're walking.” Billy blew smoke out towards the two younger girls. Kim caught Robin’s blue eyes before quickly turning away, she didn't really feel like talking at the moment. She fiddled with her fingers, hoping Steve wasn't looking at her. 

“Yeah, we’ve been waiting for you,” Max looked at him annoyed, nudging El towards the car. Max quickly slipped inside while El lingered near Billy’s door, looking towards her friend for support, “Oh, is it okay if Will rides back with us? We lost Jonathan somewhere.” Max admitted. Billy huffed loudly but nodded, swaying his hands dramatically towards them.

“Just hurry.” He blew out another cloud of smirk and licked his tongue across his teeth. She fought the urge to nudge him, noticing the cocky grin he was shooting Steve. Kim rarely met any of Max’s friends, but she thought that Will might be her favorite. She felt that she could relate to how quiet and withdrawn he was from everyone else. He slid in awkwardly between the two girls, shooting Kim a soft wave which she returned.

“Thanks.” Will muttered softly, rubbing his hand over his arm as the two girls next to him began to talk over him. Kim could vaguely hear something about vomiting and decided she had enough of that conversation as she turned back to watch the dark night swooping past them as Billy drove. Her eyes lingered against the blue scrunchie that was still on his wrist.

“Where did you two go?” Max asked suddenly, scooting her way up to press her cheek against the back of Billy’s chair. He scoffed softly but reached his hand back to swat at her foot to make her stop. Max waited a second before doing it again. 

“What do you mean? We were there watching fireworks.” He replied casually as he put his cigarette out. Kim glanced at him in relief, unsure of what lie she would’ve been able to think of. She glanced in the rearview mirror, noticing Max’s eyes narrowing.

“We didn’t see you.” She accused, looking between the two of them curiously. Kim turned to face her, a smile playing on her features.

“You were looking for us? That’s so sweet.” She teased her, reaching around to pinch her cheek softly. Kim felt her eyes widening as she licked the side of her hand, causing her to snap her hand away quickly. She wiped her wet hand against her shorts, making a sound of disgust as she felt her features wrinkling from the feeling. 

“Yeah, only because we thought you forgot about us.” Max sat back in her chair, glaring at her friends who were smiling at her. Billy surprised her when he spoke up.

“We wouldn’t forget about you,” Kim was surprised at how sweet he sounded, “We wouldn’t be allowed to.” He mumbled the second part under his breath, but loud enough for her to hear. She frowned softly as she rested back in her seat, thinking about what Neil would do if he knew that they snuck away without the younger girl. 

The three in the back settled into a conversation as Billy drove his way out of town, back towards where Hopper would be waiting for them. She glanced at the time on the radio, noticing they still had fifteen minutes before El had to be home. Kim grinned as Billy pulled down the dirt road.

“You timed that well.” She admitted, watching as he turned to grin at her. She felt her eyes lingering against his smile, liking the way his face seemed to light up. She wished he’d smile this way more often.

“Have a good night,” Billy glanced back at the two teens who were tumbling out of the car. They both sent a small wave before they were rushing inside towards the house. Billy waited until they were both inside before he began to reverse, “Maybe he’ll get off my back now.” He grumbled in reference to Hopper. Max leaned forward curiously.

“What did you do?” She tried to be sly as she asked. He smirked, shaking his head as he ignored her question. She rolled her eyes before falling back against the seat dramatically and crossing her arms.

“Did you win anything?” Kim asked her, wanting to know how her night had gone. The younger redhead shook her head, but looked excited as she began to recount her night. Kim felt her eyebrows furrowing at the mention of Robin and Steve joining them. She wasn’t quite sure how two people her age could get along so well with a group of kids their age.

“I thought El dumped Mike?” Kim asked when Max paused to catch her breath. Max exhaled dramatically as Billy glanced over at Kim.

“Why’d she dump him?” He questioned. Kim thought for a moment, trying to remember what they had told her a few days ago. She shrugged her shoulders softly when she couldn't remember the answer. She was almost afraid to ask Max, not wanting to irritate the younger girl for not remembering. 

“He’s a liar and he’s so controlling over her,” Max huffed, “He’s just annoying.” Kim looked back at her amused but didn’t say anything. She felt her eyes growing heavy, feeling the day finally beginning to catch up with her. She felt a relief fill her as their familiar street came into view.

“Try and be quiet.” Billy muttered as he parked his car. Neil’s was already neatly parked and by how dark the house was she was sure he was already asleep. She felt an odd chill settle over her. She hadn’t thought of what Neil had done earlier until the house came back into view. The less she saw of him the better.

Max was the first one out and was already making her way up the hill. Kim stood, grabbing her stuffed animal as she walked with Billy. She wasn’t aware of how sticky and wet she felt until now and really hoped she didn’t look as nasty as what she felt as he kept in pace with her.

“Did you have a good time?” He asked after a minute, holding the porch door open for her. She stepped in quickly, following Max inside as she nodded. She turned to look at his curious features.

“I had a lot of fun,” She slipped her shoes off, stepping aside so he could do the same, “Did you have fun?” She was a bit nervous. She was sure he could’ve been doing a lot of different things instead of hanging around her. She hated feeling like she needed to impress him.

“Loads,” He grinned at her, “Next time we’re getting on more rides.” He glanced over, making sure Max was in her room before he delivered a harsh smack to Kim’s backside. She yelped, the sound of his hand hitting her bottom echoing in the dark room. She shot him a look.

“That was mean,” She turned to walk to her room, trying to act like she didn’t have a big grin on her face, “I call the shower first.” She turned to tell him before she entered her room. She turned her light on, heading towards her bed first as she removed another teddy bear from her pillows. She sat her new stuffed cow by the previous one he had won for her. She smiled at the small collection that was beginning to grow as she picked up her pajamas and reached for her hanging towel.

“Billy,” Kim spoke up softly, looking up to see the blonde boy shutting her bedroom door behind him, “You shouldn’t be in here.” She whispered out, worried that Neil could still be awake. He grinned at her, stepping closer to her frozen figure. 

So, what?” Billy teased as he wrapped his hands around her waist, “I take you out, buy you food, watch fireworks with you,” He paused for a moment, leaning forward to lick at her cheek, “Fuck that tight little pussy so good and I still don’t get a goodnight kiss?” Flames licked at her face as she stared at him stunned.

“What?” She giggled nervously, clutching her towel and pajamas towards her chest. He grinned at her, still pressing her up against him. 

“A goodnight kiss,” He repeated, swaying her softly in his arms. Her heart was thumping so hard in her chest that it was hurting. She stared up at him with a goofy smile, feeling shy with the way he was watching her, “I think I’m owed one.” He replied cockily. She shifted on her feet nervously.

“Okay,” She glanced up at him, still feeling shy as he peered down at her. She stood cautiously on her tippy toes, rising to his height as she pressed her lips against the corner of his mouth, “Better?” She was unsure how he was wanting her to kiss him. He tsked.

“Awe come on, is that all I deserve?” His hands tickled against the side of her waist. She wasn’t sure why she felt so nervous at the moment. She moved her hand that wasn’t holding her clothing around his shoulders. She leaned in softly, pressing her lips against his slowly. It was sweet, gentle as he held her close to him. She felt like he was breathing life back into her as his lips pressed against hers tenderly.

They were like magnets being drawn together as she pushed herself up closer against him. She could feel her heart thumping to the beat of his, like they were slowly becoming one body. She didn’t care about breathing; all she could focus on was how badly she needed him in her arms. He pulled away first, much to her dismay as he rested his forehead against hers gently. 

“Have a good night.” He whispered finally. She found herself lingering in his arms, absorbing as much of his skin on hers as what was possible. She didn’t want him to leave. She wanted him to join her, to stay the night in her bed. She exhaled softly, nodding as she tried to control her thoughts as she remembered where they were.

“You too.” Her breathing felt stalled as he pulled away from her. He opened the door, leaving her alone in her quiet room. She felt a grin forming on her lips as she pressed her fingertips across the curve of her mouth, promising to remember what it felt like to have his against hers. 

#billy hargrove #billy hargrove smut #billy hargrove x oc #billy hargrove stepcest #tw stepcest #tw pseudocest #stepcest #billy hargrove x original character #Cruel Summer

[gingerjunhan]

first date with xdinary heroes

☆彡 I definitely got more carried away with the maknae line in this one, but that’s okay 🤭 hope you’re all having a great day! :)

word count: 939 | pronouns used: none | genre: fluff | cws: mentions of food and eating

goo gunil

he’s determined to make everything perfect because that’s what you deserve

main goal of the date: get to know you

it doesn’t matter how long you’ve known each other, he wants to be able to talk to you and get to know you better

bear with me… mini golf

it would be fun because I feel like he’d be kinda bad at it lol

“I’m just letting you win.” yeah okay

you get ice cream or something after you’re done golfing

he pays for EVERYTHING and will not let you try to convince him otherwise

has an internal battle with himself if he should kiss you or not the entire ride home

he doesn’t want to come on too strong but your evening has to be perfect

thankfully, you get to your front door and make the decision for him

you plant a kiss on his cheek, telling him you had a great time

he’s so so glad you had fun

already starts thinking of second date ideas on his way home

kim jungsu

nervous wreck (part 1)

he set the bar for himself high in hopes to impress you

and now he’s regretting it

had at least three wardrobe changes before coming to pick you up

arrives at your place with flowers and a shy smile

(please give him love, he’s trying his best)

dinner and a movie

lets you pick the restaurant, but you agreed on the movie together

holds your hand during the movie

he’s glad it’s dark in the theater because he’s blushing so hard

doesn’t kiss you at the end of the night simply because he’s too nervous :(

opts for a very sweet embrace instead, making sure to tell you he had a nice time

gets very excited when you suggested going on a second date soon

kwak jiseok

nervous wreck (part 2)

gives himself a pep talk in the mirror before leaving 💀

I feel like Gaon would take you to an arcade

his goal is to make things fun!

he’s more nervous about the ride to the arcade than actually being there

but the conversation between you flows easily, so he can push his worries aside

once you get there however, oh boy

things get competitive

the two of you go 1v1 in any game that was available

the two of you are pretty evenly matched!

competitive, light hearted fun

“If you think I’m competitive now, you should see me play Mario Kart!”

he uses his tickets to win you a prize to take home with you at the end of the night

oh seungmin

this might sound lame to some people, but you’re going on a walk

that’s the whole date- just a walk around a local park

unlike Jungsu and Jiseok, Seungmin is very confident the whole time

he holds your hand as you walk

he tells you funny stories

he asks you questions

he just wants to spend some nice quality time with you :)

once it gets dark out, he would walk you home

if it gets cold, he would give you his jacket to wear

“Are you shivering? Here, take my jacket.”

you can try to convince him you aren’t cold but it wouldn’t work

he can see right through you

Seungmin strikes me as the type to kiss you at your door

it would feel like a cheesy movie

oh no, did he forget his jacket?

looks like you guys will just have to go out again so he can get it back

han hyeongjun

one thing we know about Jun Han?

that boy can cook

so get your apron ready, because you guys are making dinner together

he thought it would be a cute idea if you both made your own little personal pizzas

you’re working together to make to dough

and debating over what pizza toppings are the best

after your pizzas are done, you try each others pizzas and compare them- seeing who’s is the best

he suggests watching a drama with dinner, and you happily agree

you sit next to each other, chatting and eating

eventually, once you’re done eating

Jun Han musters up all of his courage to wrap his arm around your shoulders

he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable, but he knew he had to do something

tries to suppress his smile when you lean into him

much like Gunil, he doesn’t initiate anything once you have to leave

so when you end up kissing him?

he’s over the moon

lee jooyeon

he would pretend that he’s so chill but he is NOT

the two of you were going to a cafe and a little record store nearby

it was very casual, yet Jooyeon was shaking in his boots

but it’s okay!

because what’s the one thing Jooyeon really knows?

music

the two do you spend almost an hour looking through all of the records

you exchanged favorite artists and favorite songs

Jooyeon was making a mental note of some of the songs he heard you mention so he could make you a playlist <3

the look on your face when you would find your favorite artists records was something Jooyeon doesn’t want to forget

seeing you so excited made him excited

after you left the record store, you went to the cafe

you get some drinks and some snacks, discussing whatever topics came to mind

once the date comes to an end, he’s quick to suggest a second

“I heard there’s gonna be live music in the park next weekend. Do you want to go?”

he couldn’t hold back his smile when you said yes

immediately starts to think about a name for your playlist on his ride home

#xdinary heroes imagine #xdinary heroes x reader #xdh fluff #xdh x reader #xdh imagines #xdinary heroes scenarios #ot6

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(Original ask from @crowravenrook) So! It turns out I’ve drawn so many panels they don’t fit in a single post anymore, changing my plans for waiting to instead show 10 at once and then post the rest of it in another post. I’ll make sure to edit this one with the link when it’s ready.

ALSO: This is set post-game when they’ve already built up enough trust for this whole interaction.

[Short ID: A 10 panel comic responding to an ask from crowravenrook about what powers Harry and Kim have in a Psychonauts au. The comic shows them discussing if Kim is psychic. /End ID]

Long ID under the cut:

[ID: A 10 panel comic showing Kim and Harry from Disco Elysium in the Psychonauts art style, responding to an ask from tumblr user crowravenrook. The ask reads: “So the Disconants au what PSI powers would Harry and Kim have?”

The first panel shows Kim and Harry sitting in a wild open space while Harry conjures a glowing green image of the Phasmid. He’s using his psychic powers to do so. The dialogue reads: Kim: “Very good, detective! Make sure to keep the image clear in your mind.”

The second panel shows Kim and Harry looking up and offscreen, at the Phasmid, while Harry uses his powers. The dialogue reads: Harry: “I think I’m finally getting it, Kim!” Kim: “It is impressive. You seem to have a natural talent with everything we’ve tried so far.”

The third panel continues from the last with Kim turning to look at Harry. The dialogue reads: Harry: ‘Really?” Kim: “You’re certainly the best projectionist I’ve ever met.” Harry: “Don’t sell yourself short, Kim.”

The fourth panel continues from the last with Harry turning more to face Kim in surprise, while Kim takes off his glasses. The dialogue reads: Kim sighs: “I’m not psychic, detective.” Harry: “Wait, but-” Kim: “Any non-psychic can learn to use a portal with the right mental fortitude. Garte could enter your mind with the right training.”

The fifth panel shows a close up of Kim’s glasses as he takes out a cloth to clean them with. The dialogue reads: Harry, offscreen: “Think he’d like me more if he did?” Kim: “Ha, I don’t think so.”

The sixth panel continues from the last with Harry’s hand entering the frame, bumping against the hand Kim is using to hold his glasses. The dialogue reads: Harry: “I guess that’s why you never gave a demonstration.” Kim: “Ah, so my diagrams weren’t enough, hm?” Harry: “Kim, those diagrams are high art! Masterpieces of instruction.”

The seventh panel shows Kim and Harry again as Harry takes the glasses with telekinesis. Kim releases his glasses and smiles slightly while Harry concentrates, poking out his tongue. The dialogue reads: Kim: “Hm, thank you.”

The eighth panel continues from the last with Kim looking straight ahead and Harry looking up at him with consideration.

The ninth panel continues from the last with Harry tilting his head and regarding Kim. The dialogue reads: Harry: “Are you sure you’re not psychic?” Kim: “I would know by now if I was.” Harry: “I didn’t.” Kim: “You know that’s not the same.”

The tenth panel continues from the last with Harry passing Kim’s glasses back to him. The dialogue reads: Harry: “I’m just saying, if you don’t try-” Kim, quietly: “Thank you”

/End ID]

#disconauts #Disco Elysium #Harrier Du Bois #Kim Kitsuragi #It'll be three panels at most I said #I'll be quick I said #anyway.

[bropunzeling]

pov swap for linger - the breakfast scene after matthew stays over at leon's, where matthew says he has to leave for a game and leon tries to get him to stay until he doesn't?

[ty for this opportunity to procrastinate on a real fic. this isn't the whole scene but i hope you enjoy anyway.]

When Leon blinks awake to find Matthew still asleep next to him, he wonders if he’s still dreaming. It’s happened before. Looking over to find Matthew with his mouth open as he drools into one of Leon’s pillows, curls spilling everywhere, scent sticking to Leon’s sheets. Watching, waiting, until Matthew’s eyes crack open, and his mouth starts to curve into a smile.

That’s always the point when his alarm starts shrieking at him.

But when he dreams, his eyes are never rough from sleep, and his body is never aching like he’s been run over by an SUV. When he sits up slowly, trying not to disturb Matthew, Matthew rolls closer and makes a soft, cranky noise. There’s crease marks on his chest. The skin of his throat is red and blotchy, from right below his jaw down to the skin just above his collarbone.

Last night, Leon kissed that spot, breathed it in. Until Matthew’s scent permeated his entire body, lungs and ribs and heart. Until he knew, as surely as he knew anything, that he’d never forget it, that it would always be there, seared into his memory.

And Matthew had done the same.

Now he remembers it. Matthew, face tucked into Leon’s neck, chest shuddering as he inhaled and shook through another orgasm, holding onto Leon so tightly Leon’s almost certain there are marks. Matthew, opening his mouth as Leon kissed him, gasping over and over like he was just as desperate for it as Leon. And even before then: Matthew, saying that he thought about this, even last summer, even last spring. That he wanted Leon even then.

Carefully, Leon reaches over. Brushes his fingers along the long line of Matthew’s neck, down to the hollow of his throat. 

The skin is warm. Matthew’s throat moves under his touch as he breathes in, slow and deep. 

It was all real. Every part of it.

If Leon remembers right, Matthew will be sleeping for a while. It’s one of those things where he isn’t sure if it’s dynamics, or just that he’s a morning person and Matthew isn’t. In any case, he also knows that Matthew will be starving once he finally wakes up. Leon should probably get out of bed.

It takes a while, though. Hard to pull himself away from the heat of Matthew’s body, the spicy richness of his scent. His heartbeat, quietly thudding under Leon’s fingertips.

As he showers and gets dressed, as he heads into the kitchen and starts cracking eggs, Leon tries to figure out if he feels different. He has a vague idea that he should. He’d never asked Kim outright what scenting was like, but he hadn’t had to; she volunteered it over too many glasses of Rioja a few years back, when Leon’s knowledge of Matthew was contained to a single hotel room, a single night. It was weird she’d said, lips stained purple as she tilted her head back on her couch. It was like—everything was already there, you know? All the—she’d turned her fingers into claws, snapped her teeth. It just got a thousand times more intense.

If he’s honest, Leon’s pretty much felt like that ever since St. Louis. Since the moment Matthew threatened to find someone else if Leon didn’t fuck him right that second. He can still remember the way his vision had tunneled; how the skin of his back went hot, burning; how he was digging in his nails before he could stop himself, as if by dragging Matthew closer Leon could keep him all to himself. It wasn’t an impulse he was necessarily proud of, but it also hadn’t ever gone away. Had only ever gotten stronger. Every time he forced himself to stop, to wait, to make sure that this was what Matthew wanted, there was a part of him that wondered why he should. Not much of a baseline for comparison.

But he had been patient, and he had made sure, and last night he finally, finally got what he’d been waiting for.

Even thinking about that—having Matthew in his arms, watching Matthew tilt his head back, kissing Matthew’s throat and barely, barely resisting the urge to sink in his teeth—makes Leon’s spine go molten, his hands trembling hard enough that he gets eggshell in the bowl.

As he picks out the piece of shell, he can’t stop himself from snorting. Guess that answers that question.

By the time he starts whisking, he hears the noise of the shower running; by the time he’s putting the eggs on the stove, the shower’s off and he can smell Matthew’s scent. As the floorboards creak and the mix of cinnamon and dark, spicy sweetness thickens and eddies around Leon, he gives up on focusing on the food and turns around.

In the doorway, Matthew is standing there, watching him. He’s wearing Leon’s clothes—and there’s another spike of that hot, intoxicating want, because he’s walking around in Leon’s clothes, smelling like him—and there’s a drop of water from the shower running down his temple, and last night Matthew let Leon kiss him, and this morning Leon hopes he’ll get to do it again.

“Hey,” Leon says, setting down the spatula. “You sleep okay?” With every step towards Matthew, his desire grows stronger—instincts—but it’s more than that. He wants to make Matthew sit down at his kitchen island, pour him coffee, ask how his season is going. Listen to him, watch him, place a hand between his shoulder blades and rest his nose at the crown of Matthew’s head. They’ll have time before Matthew needs to leave, and Leon is greedy for every second of it.

Matthew’s mouth opens, but nothing comes out.

Leon frowns, steps slowing. He expected—he doesn’t know—but Matthew isn’t coming closer. Is standing there, just outside the threshold, unmoving. “Hey,” Leon says again. Even amidst everything else, instincts and need and want all tossed together, there’s something new churning in his gut. “You are okay, right?” Leon asks. Matthew’s expression is tight, almost uncertain. Fuck, what if he thinks Leon had changed his mind? Maybe he shouldn’t have gotten out of bed. Maybe he should’ve waited. Stayed there until Matthew woke up; proven that there was nothing that would take him away. “I didn’t—” Leon reaches out again, brushes Matthew’s neck, a gesture that’s already become thoughtless and easy. Second nature.

Under his fingertips, Matthew stiffens and stills. Leon’s stomach goes cold.

#ask meme #omega matthew

[lacependragon]

Over the summer between Junior and Senior year at Middleton High, Kim gets a brain worm that won't leave her alone.

She can't stop thinking about when she went to Bonnie's house. When she met Bonnie's sisters. They're older, aren't they? College aged?

And they make Bonnie miserable.

And Kim doesn't like Bonnie. But... but no one deserves to live in fear and pain and humiliation, and she knows that's what they're like. She's seen them around town.

So she pokes Wade. And they go to work. And by the end of August, Bonnie's sisters are in different countries, going to schools overseas that they might never return from if they love the countries that much. Greece, Italy. It's perfect. Get rid of them without hurting them. Without sparking suspicion. Give them education, culture, a chance to grow as people.

And get them the fuck away from Bonnie and her sweet little Mom.

First day of senior year, Kim, Ron, and Monique are showing the tweebs around. Bonnie comes stalking up to Kim in the back hallways. Demands to know what she did.

And Kim explains: you were miserable. No one deserves to be miserable. And I figured if I made your life easier, maybe you'd stop making mine so terrible some days.

And Bonnie is a little floored by this. And she's snipy. But... she does start to get nicer. Easier to be around. She starts hanging out with the cheerleaders in a nice way, not a mean girl way, and she spends more time with Kim.

Now, she's not nice. She's like Vidia in the Tinker Bell movies. She's a good person trying to do good things but she's snarky, sarcastic, quippy, and loves to throw back and forth with people. She's got a bite to her, and Bonnie isn't going to lose that being good.

What's the end game of this? The end game is Bonnie being part of the friend group. The end game is Bonnie joining Team Possible as PR because she can read Kim like a book and knows how to handle reporters and fame better than she does.

The end game is Bonnie looking up at Monique one day, laughing and smiling, and going oh fuck and realizing she's got a crush.

The end game is Monique asking Bonnie to the Valentines Day and Ron going "Has she been mean because she couldn't be gay this WHOLE TIME?" and honestly yeah that's like at least 40% of it, if you ask Bonnie.

So she's still Bonnie. But she and Kim are like bickering friends, snarky sisters. They shove shoulders and quip at each other.

And Kim is holding Ron's hand. And Bonnie is holding Monique's. And they're all listening to the tweebs talk about how to make a motorcycle go to the moon.

#kim possible #lace speaks

[hanjisick]

yandere skz reaction. very innocent and naive!y/n

warning. this is not how i portray the members of stray kids or how you should either. this is purely for entertainment purposes.

bang chan.

chan would enjoy your innocence way more than any of the other members.

he sees it as something special and delicate that not many others have— yet he wants more than anything to watch it slowly crumble apart at his own hands.

it’s undoubtedly a huge turn on for him as well, knowing that he will be your first time with everything.

he wanted nothing more than to, one day, have you on your knees begging for him in the most sinful way he could imagine.

lee minho.

minho did everything in his power to ruin everything for you immediately.

his end goal was an obedient sweetheart who would obey his every command without question.

he would expose you to everything that he could imagine to taint you as much as possible in the shortest amount of time.

within just a few weeks, you had done things that you didn’t even know were possible. things that would send you straight to hell.

seo changbin.

he would find it cute. he wouldn’t intentionally try to ruin or keep your innocence.

changbin knew that, eventually, your innocence would fade. he wasn’t upset by that thought, but he only had one request.

he wanted it to fade at his own hands.

it made him sick to his stomach to ever think that someone else could be your first in so many things. it was simply another reason to always keep you by his side.

hwang hyunjin.

he found it odd that you could barely hold his hand without your face turning red. it didn’t take long for him to figure out that you barely knew anything.

hyunjin decided to make a game out of it, wanting to tease you until you snapped.

he would do little things like walking around shirtless and watching movies that he knew would make you want him.

hyunjin would make you ruin yourself, he would only influence these thoughts.

han jisung.

jisung would be a little upset at first. you were hesitant to be close to him, blushing if he even just held your hand.

you would have to get used to him quickly. anything you were embarrassed about would be just as natural as breathing air to jisung. he always needed to be on you in some way.

and once you got used to his cuddles and kisses, you would have a whole new set of embarrassment. by this time, he grew fond of your innocence, it became endearing to him.

it would never be long before he ruined more of it, simply because he couldn’t bare not always trying to be close to you in a new way.

lee felix.

your innocence was just another reason to kill anyone who did anything to stain you.

he would rather get his hands dirty a thousand times than to let a single person try to get their filth around you.

felix would pretend to be just as innocent as you, giving you sweet smiles and simply holding your hand was enough for him. he would never wish for anything more.

but the moment anyone was to present to you that anything but pure love exists, he would pretend to be just as confused as you were before cutting them into little pieces.

kim seungmin.

similar to felix, seungmin would do everything in his power to keep you as untainted as possible.

your innocence was special to him, something that made him even more protective over you.

if anyone were to make a dirty joke in front of you, he would lose it. they would be gone from your life as soon as you turned your back to them.

you were to be protected from nasty, unpure people at all costs. you were like his personal little angel that he had the privilege to take care of.

yang jeongin

jeongin had a dirty mind, but he was quite shy. he would think that you were the same way— secretly fantasizing about him the same way he did with you at night, yet blushing at every interaction.

it took him quite a while to realize that you truly knew very little.

once he figured it out, he felt relieved. jeongin had nothing to compare to, you had even less experience than he had. but the more he thought about it, the hotter it got.

he couldn’t help but think about how he could show you all the things that you didn’t know.

#skz yandere #skz #yandere stray kids #skz smut #han jisung #stray kids smut #stray kids fanfiction #skz fanfiction #skz masterlist #stray kids mtl #stray kids han jisung #stray kids roleplay #stray kids reaction #stray kids rp

[redandyellowsky]

Kim seungmin

Love game (nsfw)

You were playing with him. It hadn’t started all that long ago, and it had taken you a long while of being together before you even had the resolve to try, but you had finally taken the plunge.

You were holding out on your boyfriend. Well, sort of. You were playing at seeing how long you could go avoiding sex until he got desperate. You two had always been pretty equal about initiating sex. And your high sex drive and unending need for Seungmin’s cock inside you and your lips on his skin had been your barrier for entry for even trying this.

You had started off simple. Running extra errands after work so you’d be home late. Getting right in the shower before bed and waiting until you knew he’d be extra tired. Waking up a little early to go on a jog. You didn’t think he had caught on yet. Or at least you hoped not. But you noticed he was a bit more wound up that usual. Foot tapping under the table during dinner eyes trailing you everywhere you walked regardless of your state of undress. You were both busy people and you hadn’t realized just how often you’d been having sex until you started your little game.

But today in the middle of work you had gotten a text.

I miss you so bad

Aw I miss you too baby

I can’t wait to see you when I get home

I’m going over to my moms after work for dinner tonight remember :(

I forgot

I’ll see you when you get back?

Of course

You put your phone down. Feeling satisfaction seep through you at the realization that you were definitely getting to him.

Seungmin on the other hand had been having a miserable week. It had taken him some time to realize what it it was. He’d been on edge for days now. Feeling snappish and as though he had to hold his tongue from flaying his coworkers over minor indiscretions. It wasn’t until he was on his lunch and saw a couple engaged in a passionate kiss. The woman’s hands slipping down and cupping her partners ass briefly before parting that he realized it been far far too long since he’d sunk himself inside you. Had his hands on your most wonderful backside. Had your tongue in his mouth.

He cast his mind back to recall just why you hadn’t been having sex lately. And he could see in his mind your sly smile as you closed the bathroom door behind yourself for a late night shower. And shimmering glint in your eye as you left for a early morning jog in the tightest little shorts you had. You were toying with him he realized with a start. And that stopped today.

The second you pulled the front door closed behind you he was on you. His lips pressed to your neck. Long elegant fingers slipping around your waist and down to your ass. You giggled and pulled back to look at him. “What’s gotten into you today?” He looked down at you. Eyes dark like and deep as the blank sky.

“I told you I missed you” he said before returning to the crook of your neck to inhale your scent and nip at your flesh. “Gimme a second to get cleaned up”

“No no no. I’ve been patient. And you’ve been playing with me.” His smirk melted into something softer as he bumped his nose against yours. “I’ve been good haven’t I? Don’t you miss me too” he asked. Voice and eyes soft. His lips ghosting across yours. It took all of your willpower to ignore the tingle that rose to your skin. That simmering below the surface of your whole body his touch never failed to jump start within you. but you stepped back and then around him with a smirk of your own. Making your way to the small chair by the tv and plopping your purse down on the coffee table.

“If you missed me so much come here”

Seungmin made his way over to you. Alluring Eyes watching you carefully as you started fiddling with the end of your skirt. He made a move to reach out to you but halted when you let out a gentle “stop.” He looked at you puzzlement and desire mixed in his gaze.

“You said you missed me right?” You asked coyly.

“Of course I did.”

“If you missed me kneel”

Seungmins gaze shot from your hands on your hem to your eyes. All movement halted. Breathe stilling in his chest. You had never done anything like this before. Him usually being the one to take the reins and run the games you played in the bedroom. But you played your cards right. Left him waiting, wanting and all too aware of how bad he craved just even a taste of you.

Seungmin felt his heart thud and pulse all throughout his body. Blood rushing down to his cock as he took in your self satisfied expression and slightly parted thighs. You looked delicious. And you looked like you weren’t gonna budge until he gave you what you asked.

His hands balled into fist he sunk to his knees. Eyes never leaving yours. If you wanted him to play nice he would. The more time he spent in your presence the more it ate at him how long it at been since he’s slid his palms along your supple body. He reached out to place a hand on your knee but your foot came up to his chest to push him back. His cock practically jumped at the contact and the stern look you shot him.

“Ask nicely” you said starring him down. His words felt like they were stuck in his throat. He wanted to touch you. Wanted to kiss you. But seeing you like this he realized he wanted to be good for you too. So he stilled himself and tried to decide what best to ask for.

“I want to touch you” was his mumbled response. You tsked lightly at him and leaned forward to grab his chin. Eyes light and teasing “ wanna touch me where, darling?” His throat closed at the gentle pressure against his jaw and his eye dropped to your lips. His tongue wetting his own as he bolstered himself to respond.

“Your lips” it came out almost like a question. His eyes shot down between your legs and He felt the meat of his palms prickle and sweat. His hear erratic. He didn’t know where to look. You raised an arched brow at him. Your words from before echoing in his head before he hastily added a “please” on to his request. You smiled gently at him, releasing his chin to recline back in the chair and fully spread your legs. The most alluring apex of your thighs, covered but damp made him feel like he was burning from the inside out. “Go ahead.” You breathed out lightly.

He took a deep breathe of your scent as he drew closer eyes glued to the wet patch sticking to you so lovely he could hardly believe he’s survived this long without it. He pushed his nose against your clit and mouthed at the material of your panties. Your hips jumped slightly. Almost closing on him at the brush of his plush lips. He looked up at you. Mouth still almost brushing your core when he slid your panties out the way with his fingers tongue lapping at your juices. The second that bittersweet taste hit his tongue it was like he entered a trance. His hands slipped up to wrap around your hips to open you for him. Jaw working against your entrance as his tongue spelled out just how much he missed you along your clit.

You were working double time to keep your eyes open. Each brush of his tongue shooting up through your body until you were nothing but a live wire. He pushed his face deeper into you. Low groan rumbling in his throat as me mumbled obscenities into your cunt. You’d lost whatever control you’d had over him but you couldn’t bring yourself to care. Couldn’t think of much of anything but the image of his lovely face between your legs as he dragged ecstasy and cries from you.

Seungmin was lost in the taste of you. The sounds of you falling apart around him so desperate and pleading he’d started grinding himself against the edge of the chair. Your pleasure begetting his own. His hands went down to grab your ass. Spreading your cheeks to burry himself as far into you as he could.

Your legs started to shake and then he slipped his tongue inside your tight whole and you all but yelped in pleasure. Legs falling so wide open for him. He could never get over how responsive you were. So wet and so pretty and all for him. His hips were practically jumping on the chair. Harsh grinds shaking you as you knitted your fingers through his hair and rutted up into his tongue. He was so fucking hard and as he took a look up at you he practically fell to pieces at the sight.

Head thrown back, legs so far wide. The column of your throat cast in shadow from the light in the far corner of the room. He was lost in all that you were. He could drown in you. Sink into your body forever. He started to rub and nudge his nose into your clit as he tongued open your slit. Juices dripping off his chin and onto the leather of the seat below you. Little jerks of your hip signaling the immanent break in the wave of your felicity.

You started to stutter out words. Snippets of his name. Pleas of yes and more. He slipped his tongue out of you and drove it over your little bud slowly. Firm, long strokes and you broke all around him. Legs snapping shut. Thighs squeezing his cheeks as he moved his hands up to pry them open. shoving you down into the seat and moaning into you.

Just as your orgasm began to fade out you felt another build and crest within you. His tongue never stopping. His eyes on you as you struggled and strained beneath him.

“Baby I-“

“I know” he whispered it into just as you spilled onto him again. Body taut beneath him and your vision blurred to black as your eyes squeezed shut. Ripple after ripple of pleasure rolling through you.

As you broke the second time seungmin couldn’t hold it back any longer. Desperately grinding against the chair as the sounds of your desperation drove him to edge and pushed him over. His rutting matching the pace of your own as you held his face into you and sang out his name.

He started leaving little pecks on your pussy as you came down. Reveling in the little jolts it released from you as he panted into your core. He looked up to find you in a haze gazing down at him and he hauled you into his lap on the floor as you laughed and kissed him.

Your taste all over his tongue, his lips, smearing onto your chin.

“Your turn baby” you smiled as you pulled back to look at him. All the sudden he was sheepish and blushing after he’d just ruined your cunt.

“I might have blown in my pants” he said, eyes looking at your lips and down your body.

“That so hot.” He scoffed but pulled you in for another kiss.

Maybe you would have to try another game like this in the future.

#Kim seungmin smut #suengmin smut #skz smut #seungmin x reader #suengmin fic #stray kids smut #skz fic

[maniac-charmer]

PANDORA ~ Chapter 5: Love Poem

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader (mentions of other members)

-Academic rivals au. University setting. 

-TW: SMUT oral (m and f receive), non-protected sex (wrap it before you tap it), the pulling out method (be smart), aftercare king, nicknames (baby, beautiful, angel), mentions of jealousy, drinking (alcohol), smoking, hint of depression (not directly but implied), 

-Word count: 3.3k 

-Note: Thank you so much for reading my first series here. I will come back soon with new stories. Take care everyone. 

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After your ``interaction`` with Seungmin and you two promising to talk tomorrow, you told Changbin that you didn`t feel like continuing the night and wanted to leave. He was a gentleman, he walked you to your dorm and when you two reached the door, you turn to him. 

``It`s me… Thank you for tonight, for coming with me and walking me here. `` You smiled at him as you fidgeted your keys in your hands. 

Changbin gave you a hurt smile and ruffled his hair ``Yeah, it`s not a problem, I thought this was a date, but I understand why you wanted to leave after Seungmin. `` 

Shocked wouldn`t cover how you felt ``W-what? ``

Changbin almost laughed, he was trying to put on a brave face ``Your lipstick was smudged on his lips Y/N, I`m not stupid. `` He took a deep breath, this time his anger and hurt were more visible. `` I am happy for you, for being the valedictorian but I need some space. Good night, Y/N.`` He turned around and left you standing there, you couldn`t blame him. You did act like a bitch to him. 

You made your way inside your dorm as fast as possible and started to wait for tomorrow. 

Seungmin felt like the whole night was a dream. He lingered after you two ``talked`` and when he saw you and Changbin leaving, he felt a slight heartbreak and jealousy, but he also left. 

He couldn`t wait to see you tomorrow. But at the same time, he couldn`t shake his jealousy. He knew that you were not in a relationship or anything close to that but seeing you with other men made his blood boil. He felt almost like a switch was being turned on when he saw you with him. 

Was it a date? Did you like Changbin and not him? Did you want to talk about that? 

He felt more self-conscience as he continued to think about it. He decided to close his eyes and drift to sleep to stop himself from thinking. 

When you finally woke up, it was still earlier then you expected. You decided to start your day, getting out of the bed putting on a lounge set and brewing yourself a cup of tea. You took your usual place near your window and smoking as you start to wait. 

You didn`t know if you should text him or not but you decided that you have nothing to lose. So you take your phone out and start typing out:

``Morning Seungmin, I’m awake feel free to come whenever you want. `` You placed your phone down but a second later you heard a notification. You looked at your screen and when you saw Seungmin`s text ``Good morning, I`m on my way. `` 

You didn`t expect him to be awake at 9 am after a night of drinking but still didn`t really question it. 

You started to wait for him and finally have a conversation. Without holding anything back. Everything on the table. You decide you will make that clear to Seungmin. You are done with the games, what if`s.

When you hear a notification on your phone again, you look and see Seungmin`s text saying he`s there and asking you if you can open the door. 

You go to your dorm room and let him in, the tension between you two can be cut with a knife. But you walk over to your coach and pat the seat next to you, asking him to come sit next to you and clear your throat as you start to speak.

``No more games Seungmin, I want us to be honest for once. `` 

Seungmin nodded ``I want that too. `` He held your hand between his and looked at your eyes, with longing, with excitement. 

``And I want you. `` He continued. ``I want to be with you Y/N, I liked you for a while now and I feel like the luckiest men on earth to get to know you. ``

You didn`t have any words to say, when you opened your mouth to say something you heard Seungmin talk again. 

``Please, let me continue Y/N.`` You nodded and softly rubbed his hand. 

``All my life, I was told I was not enough, all my life I wanted something to work for. Something to fight for, something to hold on. And then you came to my life, your passion, your professionalism on everything you do, how you love everything you do. `` He took a deep breath ``I want you by my side. And I want to be by your side. I want to hold your hand every step we take. ``

You couldn’t stop yourself from smiling, you squeezed his hand with yours and looked at him, still smiling like an idiot. ``I want those things too, and I want some other things as well. `` You looked at him and fluttered your lashes. You could see how he blushed, and you giggled. 

``You are intoxicating Seungmin, everything about you enchants me. It`s like a dark magic that I don`t want to break free from. `` You leaned closer to him and pressed your forehead against his. ``I want you, and I want to be yours. ``  

The second you said that you felt Seungmin`s lips on yours. Finally, you were kissing him freely.

His hands found their place on your waist as he pulled you closer to him. Your hands flying to his nape, playing with the short hairs there. 

You start to kiss him with more passion now. You wanted to feel him. You wanted to almost prove that he was yours. 

He was yours, even thinking that felt odd, but amazing. 

You pulled him closer to yourself and your bodies almost touching, you felt his body heat radiating. His scent in your lungs. It was everything you dreamed for.

Kissing you was almost like a dream that Seungmin did not want to wake from. Finally letting everything out and you saying everything he needed to hear and more gave him a joy that he cannot explain. 

He felt your kiss getting more passionate, he pulled you closer to himself and pulled you over to his lap. Finally kissing and touching you like he dreamed about. 

He leaned back to the couch and pulled you closer to himself. Slowly parting from your lips but still staying close to them. He was addicted. Both of you were breathing heavily and he gave you a smirk. 

``You taste so good Y/N, I can`t get enough`` he kissed your lips again, his hands roaming on your back. Tasting your amazing lips, with the subtle taste of tea and cigarettes. Although he never got this close to you, you being on his lap, he felt so familiar. Comfortable. 

He roamed his hands on your body, feeling every inch of you. Trying to memorize everything. His hands found your hips, he caressed your hips and pulled you even closer. Feeling you on his length felt amazing. He wanted you for such a long time. 

When he felt your hips slowly rubbing on him, he pulled you even closer. Now your chests were pressed together. He let his hands roam your thighs and helped you wrap them along his torso. 

Now he could feel all of you. Your hips rubbing on him harder now, the friction making him get harder. 

He places one of his hands on your hip and the other on your thigh. As you pulled away, he saw your reddish lips. 

``I want you. `` in that second, something snapped inside of Seungmin. He almost went primal. 

He attacked your lips, giving them soft bites and guiding your hips to rub against him. He slowly moved to your neck from your lips. Kissing and biting the soft skin on your neck. Your moans and pants felt like music to his ears. 

He flipped you on the couch, making you lay on your back as he towered over you. 

His hands found their way to your chest, cupping you. He trailed his long fingers under your shirt. 

Feeling his hands on your skin was the best feeling you ever felt. You felt your body burning with desire. 

You placed your hands on his chest and feeling his muscular chest, dragged your hands down to the bottom of his shirt. You pulled his shirt over his head, revealing him. Your hands trailed on his shoulders and biceps. 

His hands found their way under your shirt and when you took his shirt off, he did the same. Your perfect body in front of him. Your skin looking smooth and waiting for him. Your nipples perked up with the cold air and Seungmin once again attacked your lips. 

Kissing him made your whole body burn with desire. 

Your hands trailed down his chest to his belt. You started to undo the belt and the buttons as you were kissing him. 

His pinkish lips now reddish. Looks like strawberries, you want to bite down to. 

You softly bit his bottom lip. You heard his heavenly moan, even hearing that made you moan as well. 

``I want you…`` you panted between his lips. ``Touch me Seungmin, make me yours. `` you whispered to his lips.  

In a matter of seconds, both of you were only in your underwear.

``You were not wearing a bra? `` Seungmin asked to you whilst smirking and you nodded as you pulled him closer to you.  

Your hands pushed his boxers down and when you saw his cock, your mouth almost watered. It was so pretty, just like him. It was a great size on the bigger side, and it was hard, waiting for you. 

Your hands wrapped around his length, and you started to pump it. 

``Can I? `` you asked innocently and with that question he groaned and got up from on top of you, pulling you up with him. 

He places his hands on your bottom and gave you a deep kiss. You finally broke the kiss and started to trail down to his neck, leaving kisses all over him. Kissing his neck, shoulder then his chest, his abs… You got on your knees and finally reached his length and without waiting you started to rub the red angry tip that was covered in delicious precum. 

You spread it with your thumb and started to suck on the tip at the same time your hands pumping him. 

You started to take more of him into your mouth. You felt his hand in your hair and you looked up towards him. He was biting his lip to cover his moans. With that sight you couldn`t stop yourself from moaning around him. That made him gasp and push your head toward his pubic bone. 

``I`m trying to be gentle but you`re not making it easy angel. You look amazing from here, I can`t get enough of this. `` With that he pushed your head further, he was almost touching your throat. 

``Your mouth feels so good, I can’t even imagine being inside of you. `` You let out a moan and looked at him, trying to act innocent. When he saw that he started to move his lips, holding you still by holding your head. 

After few minutes he pulled out from your lips and got you up from the floor. 

``You taste so good; I can blow you all day. `` You said while giggling. ``You can be as rough as you want, I am yours. `` You caressed his cheek. 

You saw his eyes darken and he once again attacked your lips, he placed you on the couch and started to travel down leaving kisses and small nibbles on your skin. You were giggling and moaning as he made his way towards your breasts. He placed his lips around your nipple and started to suck on it while playing with the other. 

With the stimulation you placed your hand in his hair as you moaned for him. You felt yourself getting soaked through your underwear and clenching on nothing.  

``Minnie please… please I need you. `` You panted between your moans. His lips formed into a smile, and he released your nipple from his lips and looked at you. ``Where do you need me baby? `` With his question you arched your back and rubbed yourself against his length. 

``Words baby. `` His fingertips traveled around your thighs. ``Where do you want me? ``

``Inside, please Minnie. `` A satisfied smile formed on his lips and started to make his way down your body. With his thumbs he took of your underwear, and you heard him moan at the sight. 

When he saw your clit, wet and glistening, clenching and needy for him he couldn`t help himself and let out a moan. He parted your legs and placed them on his shoulders, holding you from your hips and when his lips contacted you, you almost screamed. 

He was going feral from the second he started. His lips sucking and nibbling on your nerves, his tongue dipping inside you. 

``Oh my god, oh my-God. `` You panted while you moaned, you breath getting faster. 

He mumbled against your skin, and you felt his hands rubbing and teasing you. You arched your back with pleasure, closing your eyes, almost feeling like you were in euphoria. 

His tongue and his lips making you get wetter, his fingers rubbing the bundle of nerves and making you moan for him. 

He mumbles against your skin, ``You taste so sweet, just for me. `` He gives you cocky smile and slowly inserts his index finger inside of you. His long finger finally moving in and out, making you moan even louder. 

You bite down your lip to hush yourself, holding onto the couch with your one hand squeezing it tightly. 

You can see him still smirking while he pushes his second finger in. His fingers hitting you in the spots that make you squirm. 

``So pretty, so delicious and wet. All for me. `` He whispers to you and his lips connect to your skin again. Sucking and licking the sensitivity. 

You place one of your hands in his hair, playing with it and when his fingers find your sweet spot, your breath hitches. You pull his face closer to you, feeling the climax coming to you, you let your moan out. 

``Y-yes`` you exclaim. 

``Let it go for me baby. `` he whispers to your skin. Hearing that you nodded and let your pleasure take over you. Your body shake with the pleasure and moans escape your mouth and you finally reach your climax. Shutting your eyes, letting your moans out with the pleasure you are feeling. When you finally come down after few seconds, you open your eyes, looking at the handsome men standing between your legs with a smug smile. 

You smile back at him, and you feel his fingers exiting you, his fingers glistening with your essence. He pulls himself up and whilst looking at your eyes, you see him placing his fingers between his lips. Tasting you, savoring you.

You almost lose your mind on sight. ``You look so hot right now. `` you say laughing. ``I need you in me Seungmin, please. `` You look at him innocently and flutter your lashes. 

Hearing that made him get even harder, he let his fingers out of his mouth and came close to your face. You can see the glistening around his lips and chin, he kissed your lips while he held your legs and helping you wrap them around his torso. Rubbing his length on you. 

You felt your own taste on his lips. 

You felt him slipping inside of you. Feeling his length inside of you, made you almost scream in pleasure. Trying to compose yourself, you bit your lip and exhaled with pleasure. He slowly pushed himself further in you and you started to nod vigorously. 

``It feels so good Seungmin, I want to feel all of you... please`` you almost begged him. Opening your eyes and looking at his dark brown eyes. ``Please`` you pleaded once again. 

``I will give you everything you want baby. `` He smirked and pushed himself inside of you fully. You felt his every inch in your insides, making you feel full and almost whole. 

``You feel amazing, so tight and wet for me angel. `` he exhaled and placed your legs on his shoulders. The new angle making you excited you. He was still teasing you, you start to move your hips to get some kind of friction, to make him move. 

``So impatient`` he tsked. ``You want me to move baby? Do you want me to make you feel good, make you cum on my dick? ``

You once again nodded. 

``No angel, use your words. `` He said with authority.

``Y-yes Seungmin, I need you to move, please`` 

The second you said that he started to move. It was a normal pace, making you moan in pleasure, adjusting to him. You saw his body glistening with hints of sweat, the sun shining on his skin, making him look like a sculpture out of an art museum. 

After few minutes, he started to make his pace faster. Hitting your insides in every correct spot. Making you moan uncontrollably and your eyes rolling with pleasure. 

You felt his fingers rubbing on you. Making you moan even more, your insides knotted with pleasure. His hips and his fingers moving in the same pace and rhythm. 

He was panting on top of you and with your moans getting louder, indicating you were almost going to climax, he started to go feral. His hips hitting yours and the skin slapping noise and moans echoing inside the room. The pure erotic scent and feeling making you come in pleasure. Leaving you a mess. Seungmin riding you during your high and continuing to chase his. 

When he finally was close, he pulls out of you and spills his cum all over your stomach with a smile. 

``I`m sorry baby. I will clean it up, but you look amazing like this. `` he smiles proudly and letting your legs down from his shoulder. Your legs trembling, you give him a satisfied and sheepish smile. ``You can paint me like this any time you want Seungmin. You are amazing. `` 

He was like a fever dream, too good to be true. Intelligent, handsome, gentle, and horny. 

You see him running to your bathroom and cleaning himself up in a matter of seconds and running back to you with a warm wet towel, cleaning your stomach and between your legs, with delicacy. He looked happy and peaceful. You felt safe, happy, and peaceful with him too. You watch him with a smile on your face and when he sees you smile, he laughs. ``What`s up? ``

``Nothing… I can get used to this. `` you laugh and when he finally finishes cleaning you up, he lays down next to you and wraps his arm around you. ``You should because I`m not going anywhere. ``

Both of you smiling like idiots in love. Feeling of happiness, comfort, belonging lingering in the air you snuggle against him and both of you falling into a deep slumber. 

#stray kids fanfic #skz fanfic #skz au #skz #skz scenarios #skz smut #skz angst #stray kids scenarios #stray kids #stray kids au #stray kids smut #seungmin #kim seungmin #skz seungmin #skz x you #skz x reader #stray kids x you #stray kids x reader #Seungmin x you #Seungmin x reader #Seungmin x y/n #stray kids x y/n #skz fluff #stray kids seungmin

[kimchokejin]

music tag games 🎶

is it cheating to put them all in one post when everyone’s doing it?

thank you to everyone who tagged me i had a full day’s worth of music recs to listen to and bts songs to revisit happy hondadays to ME!

game #1: using your spotify top 100 playlist, shuffle 10 songs and tag 10 people.

thank you @cordiallyfuturedwight @wistfulocean and @seoksao​ for the tag! 💕

i will give the number they were on my list as well

99. Jackie Onassis by Sammy Rae & The Friends

51. Wild Roses by Jack Van Cleaf

73. Stick Season by Noah Kahan

92. New Shapes (feat. Christine and the Queens and Carolin Polachek) by Charli XCX

80. First Thing to Go by Hayley Williams

70. Mic Drop (Steve Aoki Remix) - Full Length Edition by BTS

88. religion (u can lay your hands on me) by Shura

63. No Blueberries by DPR IAN, DPR LIVE, CL

89. Lights by BTS

8. Vibez by ZAYN

game #2 (sponsored by kim taehyung): 💛 choose an artist you like and use the name of their songs to answer this as close to the truth as possible!

tagged by @cordiallyfuturedwight @jiminsproof @blueside-hobi @wistfulocean @seoksao​ thank you you guys are so creative these were so fun to read!

name of the artist: Halsey (it was working too well i had to go for it)

what is your gender: I am not a woman, I’m a god (“i’m god” - kim taehyung)

describe yourself: Ashley (you don’t need to be entertained. i’m entertaining myself)

how do you feel: Alone (but in a good way, an “i needed this” way 😌)

if you could go anywhere, where would it be: Roman Holiday

describe your best friend: Darling 🥰

your favourite time of day: 3am

if your life was a tv show, what would it be called: Still Learning

what is life to you: Hurricane, Heaven in Hiding

relationship status: Bad at Love 😬

what do you fear: Strangers (”i’m a little shy” - kim taehyung), Devil in Me (”i’m a bad boy” - kim taehyung)

game #3: share your top 5 current songs

tagged by @clutterbugs thank you emma!!! i feel like i get to use the free space in scrabble

1. Kiss in My Heart by Junk Fujiyama

i discovered this song a while back on a city pop playlist i think? and it’s been stuck in my head recently (even before indigo!) so i’ve been playing it. it’s just a fun happy song, it sounds like the artist is smiling as he’s singing it

2. ILLELLA by MAMAMOO

another super fun song and i didn’t think it was possible but i am gayer because of it. i have so many feelings about this i will have to hold myself back but i am v i b r a t i n g something’s about to break

3. girl like me by Blessing

this song is acoustic but i think also r&b influenced? i like how the lyrics are somewhat specific but the insecurity is she’s talking about is still super relatable to a lot of people and the singer’s voice is kind of unique

4. complex (demo) by Katie Gregson-MacLeod

this song is just kinda heartbreaking tbh at the end of the day it’s your typical woman trying to “save” a man who's too far gone to spare her a second thought story but the vocals really carry the emotion across in a way i don’t hear all the time so i think it’s worth a listen if you...want to feel sad

5. Ketchum, ID by Julien Baker, Phoebe Bridgers, Lucy Dacus

i have been in a folksy mood lately and i think a few julien baker/phoebe bridgers/lucy daucus songs came up in my listening and that reminded me about this album. this is my favorite song from it. i think the line “i am never anywhere anywhere i go, when i’m home i’m never there long enough to know” is just really hitting for me rn? i also can’t get over how this is the last song on the album they ended the whole album with

BONUS GAME! i wasn’t tagged in this but i wanted to share this while i’m here in case anyone was interested in doing this for themselves. if you have spotify this bot will judge you for your music taste. it’s like the anti-spotify wrapped. this is what they had to say about mine:

i will tag @joon-rkive, @cheekyquokka, @mutedstring​, @jinsquishes​, @senor-hoberto​ and anyone who tagged me in one game but hasn’t been tagged in one of the others (does that make sense?). no pressure just if any of the games interest you 💕 feel free to ignore me!!!

#tag: i'm it! #cordiallyfuturedwight #wistfulocean #jiminsproof #blueside-hobi #seoksao #clutterbugs #joon-rkive #cheekyquokka #mutedstring #jinsquishes #senor-hoberto #i was relatively normal about this be proud of me please

[atinysunbaby]

⏳Ateez when you have a fight⏳

Warnings: Cursing, suggestive

💖Park Seonghwa💖

Not like the usual affectionate and warm Seongwha you grew to love. When getting truly mad, it's in both of your best interest if he stays silent, rather then taking it out on you.

"Hwa~" Opening the door to his room after knocking and getting no answer, you're expecting to find him passed out from exhaustion on his bed.

"Seonghwa?" To your surprise, the boy his laying on his back with his phone in hand, not even taking a second to spare you a glance.

You figure he's focused, probably playing a game or something. So you make yourself comfortable next to him, laying on your side and about to wrap your arm around his chest, only to have him push your arm away.

It wasn't agressive, but enough for you to give him a look of confusion. Meeting his eyes, it's at that moment you realise, he looks angry. Waiting for him to talk, you're a bit hurt when he gets off the bed and leave the room, ignoring you completely, not bothering turning around when you call for him.

You follow after him all the way to the kitchen, wanting some answers. He sips on some water while his eyes pierce through yours. It's your turn to get angry when you see the look on his face, like he doesn't care about your presence in the slightest.

"What is this about? Hwa come on talk to me, please." He frowns and turns his head slightly, seeming embarrassed.

"You didn't answer my texts, why should I talk to you?" Anyone could hear the pout in his words, it's making you weak. He was just being a sulky baby this whole time and you thought he was pissed.

💙Kim Hongjoong💙

"Baby~ Look what I got you!" You exclame happily, showing off the delicious food you cooked for him. It took a while and you struggled a bit, but you wanted to surprise him.

He stands up from his seat and you think he wants to hug you, that he's just as excited as you are, only to have him push the door shut behind you and go back to his computer.

You blink in shock, it's something you would've never expected from him. His eyes are fixed on the screen in front of him, typing quite aggressively making you realise that he might just be exhausted and stressed.

You walk up to him and stand behind his chair, placing your hands on his shoulders, massaging them. His body falls back closer to you, eyes closing, he sighs in relief.

But, just as fast as he let himself relax, he tenses up again making you frown. Clearing his throat, Hongjoong not so subtly shrugs your hands off his shoulder and proceeds with his work.

You scoff in annoyance, but you're not just going to leave without an answer. You turn his chair around and in a blink of an eye, you're straddling his thighs.

He gasps, tearing his gaze away from you, trying not to blush and give in to you. Unfortunately for him, you aren't in the mood for more games. Grabbing his jaw between your fingers, you make him look directly in your eyes.

"So tell me why are you being like this?" He nervously licks his lips, trying to adjust himself in the best way he can with you on top of him. "I'm s-sorry.. It's just that I was mad because you didn't want to stay at the dorm yesterda-"

"Hongjoong, seriously? You were mad because of that and here I thought I did something wrong!" You slightly raise your tone, letting him know you're upset. "I know, I'm sorry! I just can't sleep well these days, I wanted you to stay with me so I could try and get some rest."

"Alright I understand, but next time don't you dare ignore me. Just tell me how you feel ok?" He nods and gently lays his head on your chest, holding you closer to him. You play with his hair and in just a few seconds, you hear the faint sound of snores making you bite back a smile.

💛Jeong Yunho💛

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Both your and Mingi's head whip around at the sound of Yunho's voice. You don't remember ever hearing it being that deep, but unlike you, Mingi remains unfazed.

"Do I have to repeat myself? I want an answer now!" He isn't asking anyone in particular, but by the way his burning gaze is fixed on you, he's waiting for you to speak, immediately. Mingi on the other hand doens't seem to realise and opens his mouth before you can.

"Calm down Yunho, we were just talking." He smiles innocently at your boyfriend, placing his hand on his shoulder. In any other circumstances, it would have been fine, but his jealousy is blinding his judgment. Shrugging his besfriend's hand off, he takes your wrist in a strong grip and drags you out of the living room.

You stay silent the whole time, despite being angry at his behavior, a small part of yourself can't help but be aroused by how sexy he looks when he's pissed.

He finally settles for the bathroom since San's in their shared bedroom. The moment he closes the door behind him, the air becomes thick with tension. He opens his mouth to speak, but shuts up hearing your voice.

"You're so hot~" You admit, grabbing the front of his shirt while looking straight in his eyes. His breath hitches and you can see the anger leaving from his face. His furrowed eyebrows raising and his mouth parting instead of being clenched. "I- eh! what?"

💜Kang Yeosang💜

Yeosang rarely gets angry, he keeps it all inside and sometimes bursts. He fights a lot with the other members, but always tries not to with you. When a conversation gets heated, he's quick to find a solution or change the subject, going as far as to apologise even when he isn't the one at fault.

You switch the lights of your apartment on, confused that it's so quiet. You received a text from Yeosang this morning asking if he could come over later and stay the night. You were quick to reply and tell him he could go first since he has the spare key. He said he would and you were looking forward to it all day, only to arrive home and find no one.

'Did he change his mind or maybe he's late?' You turn the rest of the lights on and make your way to your room. You stop in your tracks, your heart missing a beat, only to scoff at how dumb you could be. There in your bed, lays your magnificent boyfriend.

His back his facing you, the blanket over his body. You watch him sleep for a few minutes, contemplating if you should wake him up or let him rest. You quickly decide to join him and lay down with him, your arms wrapping around his waist and burying your face in his back. Just when you're about to fall asleep, a sniffle makes your eyes open.

"Sangie?" You slightly raise your upper body, trying to see his face. He burries his face in your pillow, making you frown. You feel his stomach quiver and hear his small sobs, it breaks your heart. "Hey baby~ what is it mmh?"

You stand on your knees and reach for his face, he lets you turn his head without resisting. Tears falling like a waterfall, cheeks and nose red and lips pouting. You start worrying, ignoring your fluttering heart because of how cute he looks. "Yeo are you hurt anywhere?"

He shakes his head, only crying more. You play with his hair and hold him close until he calms down. "We f-fought the other day and..I didn't like it. It feels like your still mad at m-"

His own sob cuts him off making you coo. "No, no I'm not mad baby, of course not. We're all good. You know? I don't like fighting either, because I love you so much."

He turns his body so his facing you and tugs at your shirt so you lay against his chest. You kiss his shoulders and neck making him hum. You end up talking for a few hours, both agreeing to speak to each other openly instead of arguing.

🖤Choi San🖤

The shortest silent treatment known in the history. He mentally prepared himself, confident he could ignore you and not complain, but the moment he sees you he just goes off.

"I'm angry!" Your eyes widen at his sudden outburst, the grocery bags in your hands are on the floor in a fraction second. Your attention his on the giant baby wearing a pout and his arms crossed over his chest.

"You left without me! I said I wanted to come and you- you abandonned me..." He seems ridiculously upset over something so small. Tears are threatening to escape his eyes, lower lip wobbling. "San~ You were sleeping love I didn't want to wake you up, you needed to rest."

Hearing you speak with such a soft tone makes his tears fall. You open your arms and he accepts the invitation immediately. He mumbles in thiny, face burried in your neck. You listen carefully, but only catch a few words. "...miss you....just wan' cuddles"

"Ok ok! Baby why don't you go choose a movie for us to watch while I unpack the groceries and make us some popcorn mmh?" He lifts his head slowly, eyes shining with growing excitement, pout being replaced with a shy smile. "Really?"

"Yes precious~" You poke his dimples with adoration and give him a few taps on his hips. "Go on!"

He quickly pecks your lips and runs in your room to prepare a movie of his own choice like you suggested. You chuckle at his cuteness before hurrying to join him.

💚Song Mingi💚

"What did you say?" He asks clearly offended. He gets closer to you, face inches away from yours, hand trapping you against the wall. You gulp and shake your head, knowing you just fucked up. "N-nothing."

He grabs you chin not so softly and makes you look at him, he seems to enjoy watching you struggle. Pushing his body against yours further, making you gasp. "I'm gonna let you one last chance to explain what you just did and apologise or else I won't be so nice."

His voice his deep and raspy making your breath shorthen. Flustered and nervous, you swallow and proceed to speak. "I said you weren't good at pleasing me, because I was angry. I'm sorry it wasn't true and I was being a brat.."

He nods wearing an unreadable expression, he leans down lips brushing against yours. Closing your eyes waiting for him to kiss you, you're met with the feeling of warmth leaving you. You open your eyes, confused. "You thought I'd reward you? Well you're wrong princess you don't deserve my kisses. Now think of what you did wrong and don't do it again."

❤Jung Wooyoung❤

You're at his dorm and you played games to decide who would win and choose what to eat for dinner. You won, but it lead to Woo complaining and you had a petty argument. Now after Wooyoung finally gave in to eating chicken, he keeps scoffing at you everytime you speak.

"Would you stop being such a baby Wooyoung!" He scoffs once again making you roll your eyes and sit next to Seonghwa again. The boys had to get in the middle of you both earlier, fearing you would strangle each other.

"You know sometimes people are just annoying fucking brats." You hear your boyfriend say to San and you gasp, looking at him only to find his gaze already on you. He watches you daringly, as if to provocate you. You raise an eyebrow and lean against Seonghwa just enought to see Wooyoung tense. "Yeah are you sure you aren't talking about yourself there?"

His jaw clenches and you see his grip on the cushion get tighter. You smirk and lean further into the boy next to you who his watching with a worried expression. The others are either laughing quietly or watching with interest, but everyone is aware of how it's going to end. "It takes one to recognize one sweetie."

"Fuck you!" You scream starting to get annoyed with him. He raises his eyebrows, a bit shocked by your outburst, but he quickly recovers. "Keep screaming at me and see what happens."

He says it so calmly that you're the one to scoff this time. "Whatever asshol-"

You gasp when he manhandles you, throwing you over his shoulders. You keep trying to get out of his grip, but immediatly stop when he delivers a harsh slap against your ass. "If I were you I'd start being good, your punishment's only gonna get worse baby."

🧡Choi Jongho🧡

His face remains stoic. Since you guys had an argument the week before, he doesn't show you any emotion. When you try to touch him, he moves away, when you try to talk to him, he answers shortly and you're starting to feel your heart crack.

You cry when you're alone, thinking that he'll break up with you. You miss him and he never comes to your apartment anymore. You're the one always reaching out for him. You thought it was fine after you fought, he said that nothing was wrong, but clearly there is.

"Jongho? Can I talk to you please, in private." They're taking a break from practice, you know now isn't the moment, but he ignores you all the time and you believe if you wait a tiny bit more your heart won't be able to take it.

You were right, because the moment he shakes his head and replies with a no you burst in tears. You can't even control your sobs, it's like something has taken over you. Everyone in the room is shocked and remain silent, Jongho more then anyone else is surprise and he feels guilty.

You try to leave, feeling embarrassed for crying like that infront of everyone, you don't like the attention and even less at that exact moment. Jongjo catches onto it real quick and instantly takes your hand to lead you out in the corridor. You don't have the energy to resist and follow him.

The next second you're surrounded by warmth and the smell you love so much, Jongho shushes you and rubs your back. "Shhh I'm sorry love, I'm so sorry. I was mad and I wasn't aware about how much it was hurting you. I was wrong, I'm sorry I- I love you."

You nod against his chest, wrapping your arms around him tighter. You both cry for a little while more before Hongjoong apologise for interrupting, but they need to get back to practice in a few minutes. Jongho brings you inside, making you sit on the couch and gives you his hoodie. "Will you wait for me? We'll speak more when I'll be done."

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[buckysgrace]

Fifty Five

CW: Drugging, violence, attempted assault

Kim didn’t feel any better about herself the closer they got to Tommy’s. Her pulse was racing, her breath quickening as she wondered if Billy would be looking for her. She hoped that he would be. She hoped that he missed her as much as she missed him. She felt like she hadn’t seen him in forever. He was gone before she woke and usually didn’t return until she was pretending to sleep. She wanted to sneak into his room and see him, but was worried that he would get mad. She needed to explain things to him, but she didn’t know how to do it. 

She had dragged Addi along to the party with her, not even giving her a chance to complain about it. She had practically guilted Addi into it, but she figured that it would be fine. She promised that Eddie tagging along wouldn’t bother her. She wanted to forget the conversation with her mom, she wanted to forget everything. 

Still, she found herself dressing in a way that she could earn Billy’s attention. She couldn’t make sense of her feelings. She knew she should stop what they had between them, but she wasn’t able to commit to it. She loved him, no matter what. She just had to tell him.

She wore her lingerie under the pink dress she had worn what felt like ages ago. She had styled her hair nicely and done her makeup with a steady hand. She wanted Billy to be so enamored with her that he was no longer conflicted about his feelings. She wanted him to look upon her and just know that she was the right choice. She hoped it worked, she needed him. 

“So,” Addi turned to look at Kim, “What’s the plan for tonight?” Kim stared at her for a long moment. She wasn’t sure if she should admit that she just wanted to forget everything. She wanted to feel something, anything other than the numb feeling that had taken over her heart.

“To have fun,” Kim forced out a smile and exhaled slowly, “We’re just going to have fun.” She repeated after a second, trying to reassure her that she wouldn’t do anything stupid. Addi paused, looking like she didn’t believe her.

“You know what’s fun,” Addi stepped out with Kim, holding onto Eddie’s arm, “Eddie’s game. It’s so much fun. We could always do that instead.” Addi offered. Eddie sent her a look, looking as if this was the first time he had heard her say that.

“I thought you said it was nerdy?” He questioned, his lips curling into a smile. Kim looked at where their hands were linked and felt another wave of sadness. She looked back at Addi.

“I’m fine,” She breathed out again, “We wanted to go to parties, remember?” She linked their arms together, pulling her friend towards the thumping house. It looked similar to how it did when she had come to pick up Billy. She thought of him again, feeling another wave of sadness hit her.

“Yeah,” Addi agreed softly. Kim moved her hand away, but Addi quickly grabbed a hold of it as they moved through the bustling bodies. Kim was searching, looking through the crowds and people for anything familiar. She felt disappointed when she didn’t see him, “Hey, are you sure you’re okay?” Addi stopped her, pulling her aside. Her hands were on Kim’s shoulders, looking at her seriously. Kim felt her eyebrows furrow together.

“I’m fine, why?” She was glancing around again, in fear that she might miss Billy if he walked in. Addi shook her lightly, bringing her attention back to her. Kim exhaled softly, the beat of the music was filling inside of her body. It caused her whole body to vibrate. 

“I know it hurts but you don’t have to do this,” Addi looked at her seriously, her dark brown eyes were soft as she examined her friend, “I don’t want you to spiral out of control. Promise me you won’t do anything dumb.” Kim stared at her for a long time.

“I’m not spiraling,” She tried to defend herself, knowing it was far from the truth, “I promise. I’ll be on my best behavior.” Kim grinned again. It hurt to smile. She felt like she couldn’t do anything without Billy around. She needed him like she needed air. 

“Okay,” Addi looked her over after a second, “Just don’t get too crazy with the drinking. C’mon.” She grabbed her hand again and pulled Kim towards the kitchen. Kim looked around it, wondering if she skimmed through the drawers if she would find Billy’s keys hidden away again. She had no indication that he was here. She needed him to be. 

“It’s a party,” Kim told her softly, pouring herself a cup of spiked punch, “We’re supposed to get drunk.” Kim smiled again, welcoming the burn that filled her system. It was warming, it felt better than the empty feeling that was inside her chest. She took another drink, then another, until it was all gone.

“Oh girl,” Addi was smiling nervously as she pulled her wrist down softly, “Are we really going to do that?” She searched Kim’s face. Kim shrugged her shoulders, moving her hand away so she could get another glass.

“I’ve never really been that drunk before,” Kim glanced towards her, “I can finally get that off of my list.” Addi was still looking at her nervously.

“Okay, but when I tell you to leave I mean it. Sounds good?” Kim nodded her head, hoping that she would be long gone before then. She wanted to feel good, she wanted to feel anything. Addi poured herself a drink, still looking at Kim like she didn’t trust her. 

Kim drank the liquid slowly this time, making a point to behave nicely in front of her friend. She tried to hide the fact that her hands were shaking, that she was completely overwhelmed at the moment, “Whenever you want to go, I’m ready.” Kim promised with a nod of her head. Of course, she meant as soon as she was able to see Billy. She wanted him to see her, to want her as desperately as he did before. 

No matter how hard Kim looked, it was like he was hiding from her. She kept drinking, trying to fill the void of the empty sensation that was inside of her. She wondered if this is why Billy drank, if it was easier to ignore those feelings with alcohol. She understood suddenly.

Kim found herself drifting away from her friend, bored by the way her and Eddie were hanging onto each other. It made her think of Billy, made her think of how she wasn’t able to hold onto him. She wandered through the house, stopping as she found an empty room. She grinned as she bounced on the bed, giggling softly at how it moved underneath her. She looked up suddenly, hearing footsteps.

“Hi,” Kim smiled up at Robin, holding her hands underneath her chin, “Do you want to join me?” Robin looked a little surprised. She looked nice. Kim liked her jeans and the simple blue shirt that she wore. It complimented her eyes nicely. Kim sat up on the edge of the bed, the alcohol making her a little less shy as she patted the mattress next to her.

“What are you doing in here?” Robin smiled, looking a little flustered as she crossed the room and sat down. Kim nearly sat criss crossed, before remembering that she was wearing a dress. She shrugged her shoulders.

“Just looking around I guess,” Kim glanced around the room. It must’ve been a guest room by the lack of decorations. Robin sat with her hands crossed on her lap, “What about you?” Robin shrugged her shoulders.

“I lost Steve to some girls,” She smiled softly, “I didn’t want to stand around and listen to that.” Kim made a face with her, thinking about how she had left Addi for similar reasons. 

“Romance,” She huffed playfully as she swatted a hand in the air, “It sucks.” She felt her smile dropping as she thought of Billy. She exhaled deeply, feeling the familiar numbness beginning to settle in over her skin. Robin tilted her head, looking a little nervous.

“Steve said he talked to you?” She fidgeted with her bottom lip, gnashing it between her teeth. Kim felt an eye squint and her eyebrow raise as she tried to think about what she had spoken about with Steve.

“Been a few days,” Kim admitted as she crossed one leg over the other to try and make herself more comfortable, “He basically explained why he wouldn’t be with me before.” She replied after a second, feeling like she had to search deep inside of her brain to find the answer. She was beginning to feel a little jittery. Robin exhaled deeply.

“Yeah,” She looked at Kim apprehensively, like she was debating about saying anything, “Because of his friend?” She questioned, like she was trying to find out what exactly Steve had said. Kim nodded her head, thinking that it sounded right.

“I think that’s right.” Kim confirmed, unsure of why Robin was bringing it up. Maybe she was trying to admit that she liked Steve too. Kim wondered if she needed to reassure Robin that she didn’t feel anything for Steve anymore.

“I’m the friend,” Robin said softly, staring down at the mattress as she spoke. She dug her fingers against the pattern on the quilt, “You know, the one that likes you.” Kim blinked a few times, trying to make sense of what she had just said. She felt it would’ve been easier to process it, without the alcohol.

“Oh, Robin,” Kim suddenly felt bad as she looked at Robin’s hidden face. She didn’t think it was fair for Robin to have to feel like she should hide her feelings, “I’m sorry. You’re so funny and pretty. I just, I don’t-” Kim was beginning to take a deep breath and delve into her complicated feelings at the moment. Robin looked up at her, her blue eyes looking like she had heard this a hundred different times. 

“You don’t like girls,” Robin finished for her, “I get it. I don’t really know why I thought you would like me. You were so enamored with Steve.” Kim felt bad suddenly, realizing she had been blind to everything this whole time. She felt stupid, thinking that it was fairly obvious that Robin had been the person the whole time. 

“That was before,” Kim groaned softly, “I think we’re cool now. His mom has seen me naked. I think that ruins the whole romance thing.” She admitted. Robin looked at her confused before she started to laugh. 

“Do I want to know?” Robin looked almost hesitant, like Kim was hiding a deep secret. She covered her mouth, unsure of why she kept bringing that up. It was like she wanted everybody to know. 

“She’s a gynecologist,” Kim giggled softly, feeling her face warm, “I don’t know why I keep telling people that.” She shook her head, hoping that the embarrassment would leave her body as she did so. 

“It’s kind of weird,” Robin nodded in agreement but she was still smiling, “I’m sorry if I made things weird.” Robin apologized. Kim felt her eyebrows furrowing together as she reached for Robin. 

“You didn’t make things weird,” Kim squeezed her hand gently, “You’re pretty cool and I think if I wasn’t totally in love with this person, that we could’ve had a chance.” She admitted. She had no idea what it was like to be with a woman, but Robin was nice. She wasn’t sure why everyone made a big deal over genders. She was sure that Robin would be nice to her. 

“You’re just saying that to be nice,” Robin spoke like she was a balloon that had just been deflated, “But thank you.” She shrugged her shoulders softly. Kim paused, unsure of how she was supposed to support Robin. This was something she had no idea on how to handle. It was a complex situation that she also didn’t have the answer to. 

“I mean it,” She paused for a moment as she spoke, furrowing her eyebrows together, “How do girls have sex?” She wasn’t sure why that had to be the thing to fall free from her lips. She instantly regretted it at the way Robin’s blue eyes widened. 

“What?” Robin asked, nearly in disbelief. Her cheeks were turning red as she stared at Kim. Kim fanned herself, trying to think of a way to explain her stupidity. 

“I mean,” Kim paused for a moment, “Do you just like hump or, is there something else I don’t know about my body?” She was more curious than anything. She wondered if there was a way to do it without a penis that didn’t just involve fingering. 

“Kim!” Robin looked mortified, her face completely red at this point. Kim bit back a sheepish smile, noticing how Robin was having a hard time looking at her. She smiled bashfully. 

“I’ve had a few drinks and I’m just curious,” Kim shrugged her shoulders to defend herself. She felt bad asking, “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.” She added quickly, not wanting to put Robin on the spot. Billy was much easier to question, he rarely got embarrassed.

“You didn’t,” Robin spoke softly as her eyes darted around, “I just don’t really know. I’ve never had sex.” Robin admitted, like it was something to be embarrassed about. 

“You’ve never had sex?” Kim asked curiously, figuring that she was the only one at her age that had never had sex before. Robin turned towards her before she exhaled deeply. 

“I’ve never kissed anyone.” She spoke next, surprising Kim completely. Robin was nice, she was pretty. She didn’t see why no one would ever try to kiss her. Then again, perhaps Robin had never been allowed to express her feelings to anyone that she actually liked.

“You’ve never kissed anyone?” Kim repeated softly, asking for Robin to confirm what she had just heard. Robin shook her head no, looking embarrassed once again. 

“Saying it again doesn’t make it any less true,” Robin laughed, “I’m a bit of a loser.” Robin turned to face Kim again. Kim glanced over her features, taking in her bright blue eyes. She thought of Billy’s blue eyes. She missed him. She missed everything about him. Something in Robin reminded her of a bit of herself. 

“I can kiss you.” Kim offered slowly, unsure if she was crossing a boundary. She didn’t want to press the issue, but she felt guilty that Robin hadn’t ever been able to experience anything. Robin’s eyes were wide, staring as if Kim had grown an extra head.

“What?” She was laughing nervously as she watched Kim fiddle with her fingers. Kim breathed out deeply, trying to regain her confidence. She darted her thumbs in circles around each other and bit down on her bottom lip. 

“If you want to kiss someone, I can do it,” Kim nodded her head softly, “It doesn’t have to mean anything.” She added at the end, hoping that it wouldn’t give Robin any false hope. She was too crazy about Billy to ever leave him. She knew that was a fact. But if he could kiss other people, she was allowed to as well. Still, she felt guilt in the pit of her stomach.

“I don’t want to force you.” Robin said at last, breaking the tension between the two of them. Kim smiled gently as she shook her head. 

“You wouldn’t be,” Kim smiled, feeling like maybe she had drunk a little too much, “I really don’t mind.” She mumbled without a second thought. It felt weird, talking about kissing someone else. She wondered if she would be betraying Billy, but she quickly reminded herself that he wasn’t sure of his options yet. 

“Okay,” Robin looked at her, still not certain as her eyes grazed over Kim’s face, “You’re sure?” Kim smiled, gripping Robin’s shoulders instead of answering her. She leaned forward, letting her lips gently slide against Robin’s to answer that she was more than fine with this.

She tried not to laugh against Robin’s lips as they met hers messily. It was sloppy and gentle as Robin tried to find her routine. Kim felt nothing as Robin pressed her lips on hers repeatedly. It was nothing like kissing Billy. There was no spark, there was no desire to make it something deeper. 

“How was that?” Kim asked, curious as to if Billy had been lying to her the whole time. Robin looked a little flustered as she shrugged her shoulders.

“Not bad,” She squeaked out, her face more red than before. Kim felt another grin forming on her lips, “Thanks.” Robin stared at the floor as she spoke, a large grin written on her lips. Kim grinned to herself.

“Do you want to head back out there?” Kim had an urge to see Billy again. Her kiss with Robin had just fueled her fire. She wanted Billy desperately. In whatever way possible. She needed to find him, to see him. She was sure that everything would be okay if she just saw him.

“Sure,” Robin breathed out gently, “If we could um just keep this between us?” She asked hopefully. Kim nodded her head, promising to keep it between them. 

She headed back out, making sure Robin was following her as she headed back towards the kitchen. Thinking of Billy just made her feel more numb, more empty. She was upset that she couldn’t have him. She wanted to drink the feeling away, to make herself feel something again.

“You ran off!” Addi was at her side in a second, watching as she poured herself a cup of punch. Robin stood not too far behind Kim, waving awkwardly and still looking like she was having the time of her life. 

“I’m sorry,” Kim meant it as she spoke. She paused for a moment, drinking until her cup was empty again, “I was talking with Robin. Is that a crime?” Addi made a disapproving look.

“I don’t like that you’re drinking this much,” Addi admitted, trying to stop her before she made another glass. Kim huffed and shook her head, feeling more agitated than usual. Perhaps it was the drink in her hand. 

“It’s a party, I can drink,” She tried to reason with her friend, liking the way the alcohol was warming her nerves, “It’s just for one night.” Addi sighed softly but nodded, looking like there was no point in arguing. Kim glanced around the room, exhaling deeply as she watched the crowd again.

The numb feeling that had spread inside of Kim suddenly diminished when she saw him. He was like a breath of fresh air, a spark that ignited the flames inside of her. Billy was here. Standing so far away but seeming so close to her at the same time. She felt as if her heart was suddenly alive again, that everything worked the way it was supposed to. 

She inhaled deeply, her eyes flickering over him as she took in his unbuttoned red shirt and tight jeans. She breathed out deeply, feeling like her heart was beginning to beat again for the first time. She thought that he was beautiful, brighter than any light or star that she had ever seen. She stared at his golden skin as the way his beer dripped from his chin and down his chest. 

She felt a familiar squashing sensation of her heart being stomped on. She watched as Chrissy wrapped her small arms around Billy’s waist and pulled him close. He was laughing, smiling as if nothing was wrong. As if there was something to be happy about. She stared for the longest time, feeling an empty feeling settling over her. He glanced up and she tore her gaze away before she could meet his eyes again. Everything hurt, everything felt too raw. It was like she had ice in her lungs as she exhaled. Addi looked at her worried but Kim just pushed past her, gripping her cup tightly. 

“I wanna drink,” Kim was stumbling over her words as she struggled to pour another cup. The liquid was dripping down her fingers, all over the sighed of the cup as she breathed in deeply. Her heart ached, her eyesight blurred with fresh tears, “Wanna forget him.” Robin was staring at her with concern but Kim didn’t offer any more information as she took another giant gulp, welcoming the burning feeling.

“Let’s not do anything dumb,” Addi urged as she placed a hand on Kim’s wrist, “He’s not worth all of that.” Kim was about to tell her that he was worth everything, when they were interrupted by someone else walking in on them.

“Hey,” He smiled as he looked down at her, “You’re Kim, right?” She stared at him for a long time until the pieces connected in her mind.

“Oh, oh hi,” She looked at him surprised, sniffling deeply as she tried to compose herself, “Logan, right?” She smiled softly, remembering their uncomfortable meeting from the other day. He beamed at her.

“You remembered?” His lips curled into a soft smirk, “It’s nice to see you again.” She felt an odd chill settle over her. She didn’t like the way that he was looking at her. 

“Right,” She glanced towards Addi and Robin, “It’s nice to see you too.” She didn’t really know what else to say. She felt shy suddenly, remembering that he had been close to seeing her naked. Addi’s dark eyes hardened.

“You look too old to be at a party for teenagers.” Addi spoke up clearly, her eyes lingering on him for a long time. Logan looked taken aback for a moment before he spoke up again. Kim glanced towards Addi.

“Tommy is my younger brother, I live here,” He laughed, “Pretty sure I’m allowed to be in my own house.” Kim watched as Addi’s eyes narrowed again. She looked irritated and Kim wasn’t sure why. She took another drink, not wanting to press the issue. Kim glanced around at the shiny countertops and pretty wooden cabinets to distract herself from the awkward tension that was filling the kitchen. 

“It’s a nice house,” Robin nodded her head, speaking similar to what Kim was thinking, “Very classy.” She furrowed her eyebrows together as if she was considering what she had said. Kim giggled softly before she took another drink and set it down.

“Huh,” Addi was still eyeing him suspiciously, “Never heard Tommy speak about you.” Kim hadn’t either, but she wasn’t necessarily friends with Tommy at the same time. She exhaled softly, glancing up to notice Logan’s narrowing eyes. 

“Do you dance?” He turned towards Kim, looking at her with keen interest. She felt her eyes widening in surprise. She looked towards Addi, relying on her friend to answer the question. She didn’t want to be rude to Logan, but she had no desire to dance with him. 

“She’s fine,” Addi smiled stiffly, “You’re not her type.” Addi smiled sweetly, but Kim could tell that she was being anything but nice. She took another sip from her cup, looking back and forth between the two of them. 

“Can she speak for herself?” He laughed but then nodded his head, “I get it. I just thought she was pretty.” Kim made an awkward face as she glanced towards Robin and shrugged her shoulders, unsure of what she was supposed to do. Robin laughed softly, pulling Kim towards her. 

“She’s drunk,” Addi spat back, “I’m sure there’s plenty of pretty girls that are your age. Maybe you’d find them if you didn’t hang out at your teenaged brother’s parties.” She shrugged her shoulders, still wearing that sickeningly sweet smile. He looked taken aback for a moment.

“Let’s just go,” Robin tugged on Addi’s arm gently, “He’s not worth it.” Robin promised her. Kim was still partially in her own stupor, swaying to the music that was bleeding in through the living room. Addi huffed on her breath, making sure Kim was the first one to turn around.

She was beginning to stumble now as they walked. She blinked hard, grinning as she looked down in front of her and willed herself to walk normally. She could hear Robin laughing from behind her and she turned quickly, her eyebrows pulling together as she moved her empty hands around. 

“I forgot my drink.” Kim whined as she pouted, feeling the urge to kick her foot as if she was going to throw a tantrum. Addi looked back over her shoulder. 

“We can go back in a few minutes.” Addi said quickly, looking like she didn’t want to go back into the kitchen. Kim was still pouting, knowing she couldn’t have any fun without her drink. 

“It’s right there,” She turned, “Just wait here.” She tried to reason with Addi, who looked like it was a bad idea. Robin stared at her for a moment before she stood up. 

“I’ll go with,” Robin offered as she stuck her hands in her pockets. She followed closely behind Kim, “We could fend him off together.” Kim snorted at the idea. She had a feeling they would fail horribly.

“I’m not very strong,” She picked her cup up from the counter, pausing for a moment before she filled it up again, “Don’t tell Addi.” She shot Robin a look, holding her gaze until the other girl nodded in agreement. She followed Robin back out, drinking from her cup. She furrowed her eyebrows softly, wondering if someone had added more alcohol to the punch.

“Do you usually drink this much?” Robin questioned her softly, watching the way Kim was downing the liquid. She gripped her stomach, feeling the warm liquid travel down and down. She shook her head.

“Barely ever,” Kim was fluttering her eyes a bunch as she spoke, “Just feel like it tonight.” She swirled her tongue in her mouth, thinking that it felt funny to move. Robin turned towards her, looking a bit nervous again.

“You’re sure your brother won’t say anything?” Kim wrinkled her nose up and quickly shook her head, spilling some of her drink on her foot and the ground. She groaned at the cold liquid that hit her toes. 

“He’s not my brother,” Kim told her urgently, “He won’t say anything either.” She mumbled as she took another deep breath, wanting to think of anyone but Billy. She was still doing what she could to forget him. 

“It’s just,” Robin drew out a deep breath, “Kind of a big secret.” She said softly. Kim frowned as she wrapped her arms around Robin again.

“He won’t tell,” She promised as she rested her head against the crook of her neck, “Your secret is safe.” She told her again, pulling away with a smile. Robin didn’t look fully relieved and Kim felt bad for that. Kim felt herself suddenly perk up as she noticed a familiar face walking towards them in the crowd. She beamed as she gripped a hold of him, like she was giving Robin a present. 

“It’s Steve,” Kim slurred, gripping a hold of his shoulder, “He’s here now.” She presented Steve dramatically, tugging on the collar of his shirt. Robin raised her eyebrow high.

“I see that,” Robin nodded her head, a soft smile on her face, “He’s a moron.” Robin spoke dryly as she looked at Steve. He smiled sheepishly as he looked between the two of them. 

“He said I was pretty.” Kim giggled like it was some sort of secret. She stumbled back against Robin, only to be steadied again. Steve shot her a look that she didn’t understand. 

“Oh did he?” Robin sounded amused as she spoke. Kim nodded her head quickly, her eyes shutting with her movements. She thought it felt nice to have her eyes closed and did it for a few seconds before she was stumbling awake again. 

“That was,” Steve stammared, “I was just reassuring her, okay?” Robin gave him a look, “I didn’t actually do anything. I’m not that horrible.” He held his hands up in defense. Kim smiled again, bumping back and forth between the two of them.

“He’s friends with my little sister!” She shouted over the music, “It’s kinda weird but it’s fine I guess.” She had her arm wrapped around Steve’s waist, as if they were really good friends. She didn’t take any notice, feeling too high over the moon to care.

“Robin is friends with her too.” Steve protested, his hand barely touching her as she swayed back and forth. Kim grinned at Robin, unsure of why the two of them were looking at her like she was silly. 

“Oh yeah,” She beamed, “You sneak her into movies!” She giggled at the thought, thinking that it was typical Max behavior. Robin’s eyes grew wider as she stretched her hand out.

“Okay,” Robin laughed softly, “Maybe you’ve had enough to drink.” She told her, trying to reach for the cup. Kim’s face grew serious, her eyebrows furrowing over her eyes as her fingers tightened around her cup. 

“This is mine.” Kim told her seriously, shoveling herself closer to Steve to hold onto it. Robin made an exasperated face. 

“I think she’s right,” Addi appeared again, holding a cup in her hand, “Here, try this instead.” Steve moved away from her side suddenly as she swapped her empty cup with Addi’s full one. She looked down at the clear liquid, her eyes narrowing.

“This is water,” She said, making a face, “I don’t want it.” She whined as she pushed the cup back towards Addi. Addi shared a look with Robin.

“It’s good,” Robin tried this time, taking a sip from the cup, “Mhm, taste it.” Robin pushed the cup towards her. Kim shook her head and made a disgusted face.

“No thanks,” Kim told the two of them seriously, “You can keep it if you like it.” She felt herself swaying again, listening to the music that was blaring. Steve was back to her side then, handing her another drink.

“Steve!” Addi protested, watching the way Kim downed the liquid, “She doesn’t need anymore.” Addi reached forward but Kim yanked it away, clutching it to her chest like it was her most prized possession. Steve laughed.

“She’s funny when she’s like this,” He looked up over her head, “It’s not alcoholic.” He told the other two. Kim shot her head up, her eyebrows furrowing together, “Oh, I wasn’t talking to you.” He reassured her with a pat on her head. She grinned widely up at him before she took another drink.

“You’re evil,” Robin told him seriously, “Maybe not a full moron.” She said offhandedly. Kim wasn’t sure why she found it so funny, but she did. She snorted into her cup as she swayed back and forth. 

“Moron,” Kim mumbled underneath her breath. She paused, “I have to pee.” She looked at Addi as she bounced her legs together. Addi sighed deeply.

“Okay,” She linked her arm through Kim’s tightly, like she was afraid to lose her, “Let’s go to the bathroom. We’ll be right back.” She turned towards Steve and Robin, looking like she was exasperated. Kim grinned, dragging her back through the crowd.

“I don’t know where I’m going,” She admitted as she stumbled against her friend. She was looking around, not necessarily searching for a bathroom. She felt like she was looking for someone else, “Lots of people.” She mumbled underneath her breath.

“You just drank too much,” Addi patted her back softly, as she pulled the bathroom door open for her. Kim grinned, nearly racing inside as she fumbled with her dress. The door shut behind her, “Do you need help?” Kim shook her head as she finally managed her way onto the toilet.

“Oh my god,” She moaned as she rested her hands against her cheek, “I’ve never had to pee so bad before.” She breathed out deeply, staring at the tiled floors. She watched as Addi rested up against the cabinets.

“Maybe it’s time we head back?” Addi questioned softly, “I mean you’ve already drank quite a bit.” Kim groaned as she fumbled with the toilet paper.

“But Steve just showed up,” She protested, hitting her knee against the toilet as she flushed it, “I’m having fun. Aren’t you?” She washed her hands messily, splashing some of the water against her dress. Addi laughed, taking a towel and helping her dry her hands.

“I’m glad you’re having fun,” Addi started, “But I don’t know if I can drag you back drunk.” She told her seriously. Kim frowned as she wrapped her arms around Addi’s waist.

“No more drinking,” She promised, swaying as she held onto her friend, “Can we stay a little longer? Please.” Addi sighed in her arms, patting her sides softly.

“Only because I love you,” Addi laughed softly. Kim liked the vibrations that came forth as she nodded her head, “Let’s go then.” Addi pulled Kim back out of the door, back to where the music was blaring loudly again. She stumbled along, her eyes fleeting across the busy bodies. 

“What’s Eddie doing?” Kim felt her eyebrows raise in amusement, staring as he was making his way on top of the Kitchen table. Addi sighed deeply, cursing under her breath as she turned to face Kim with a serious look on her face. 

“Don’t go anywhere,” Addi pointed a finger at Kim. Kim nodded her head like she was a little kid and the teacher was telling her something really important, “I’m serious. I don’t want to lose you.” Kim was sure that she would be too hard to lose. 

“I’ll stay right here.” Kim promised with a nod of her head. She leaned back against the wall for good measure, trying to make sure that Addi understood that she wouldn’t leave her spot. 

“You won’t run off?” Addi glanced back over, making a face as Eddie began to speak. Kim tried to strain her ears to listen, but he was still too far away. She smiled at Addi. 

“I won’t run off.” She nodded in agreement. She suddenly laughed, thinking of the scene in Star Wars where Obi-Wan made the stormtroopers do what he wanted. Addi sighed softly, looking as if she was debating about leaving. 

“If I get back here and you’re gone, you’re in trouble.” Kim felt her eyebrows rising to her scalp and her eyes widening in disbelief. She didn’t want to get in trouble, she hadn’t done anything wrong. 

“Okay, mom,” She drew out the O’s dramatically, “I’ll stay right here.” She folded her hands neatly across her chest, trying to look as serious as she could manage. Addi exhaled before she nodded her head like she had no other choice. 

“Don’t move.” Kim nodded her head again. Watching as her friend drifted away. She swayed her head back and forth, her fingers pressing against the front of her dress as she watched Addi quickly rush off. Kim felt her eyes dragging across the room, staring at unknown faces as she tried to remember why she was supposed to be standing against the wall.

Her eyes flickered across the room until she found a familiar face. She grinned to herself, moving away from the wall and stumbling through the crowd. She was unable to stop herself as she approached him, completely forgetting what Addi had said. 

“Tommy!” Kim found herself wrapping her arms around his thick shoulders, as if they were the best of friends. He stumbled back for a moment, temporarily overwhelmed with the way she towered over him. She had a goofy smile on her face as she pressed her finger on his nose, squishing it softly. 

“I see you found the punch.” He observed, making a surprised face. She nodded her head, her smile burning her cheeks. 

“Very good,” She confirmed with a nod of her head, “Compliments to the chef.” She pretended to tip a hat towards him. She giggled, stumbling back against a few people. Tommy gripped onto her wrists quickly, pulling her back towards him. 

“I really didn’t think you’d come.” He said after a moment. He glanced across the room, like he was looking for someone. She furrowed her eyebrows, trying to think of who he’d be looking for. She squeezed his arm softly.

“I promised,” She paused, stumbling in her steps. She was glad she had a hold of him, “At least I think I did.” She felt her eyebrows furrowing together, trying to remember what she had said. Everything felt fuzzy. 

“Where’d your friends go?” She shrugged her shoulders, making a face as people bumped against them. She tried to scan the crowd but everyone’s faces began to mold into one. She couldn’t make out any distance features or looks. Suddenly her chest felt tight as the music became too loud, the crowd of people pushing in on her. 

“It’s hot,” She told him, beginning to pull the straps of her dress down. Her mind was blank, she couldn’t focus on anything other than how warm she felt and how loud the music was. It was like the walls were caving in on her, “Too hot.” She mumbled, moving her arm like she was going to push it through the sleeve. Tommy’s eyes widened and he gripped her wrists softly.

“Let’s not do that here,” He laughed nervously, moving his head to look over hers as he scanned the room, “Why don’t you just chill out in my room?” He pushed her sleeve back up on her shoulder. She whined, feeling sweaty and warm as she held onto him.

“I don’t want to sleep.” She told him, her tongue feeling heavy in her mouth. He nudged her forward softly, taking her up the winding stairs with an uncertain look on his face. She smiled dopily, her footsteps heavy as they walked up.

“You don’t have to sleep,” He struggled to pull her up the remaining steps as she kept halting. Her strap on her ankle kept sliding down, causing her to slip around as she did so, “Just don’t strip naked in front of everyone.” She looked around the crowded hallway, surprised that there were so many people up here as well. She was sure she had never seen so many people kissing before. 

“I wasn’t going to get naked,” She scoffed as if it was the most obvious thing, “I have panties on underneath.” She giggled as if it was the most funny thing. He huffed and pushed his door open.

“Right, shit,” He gripped underneath her waist as she went forward, nearly slamming face first into the floor. She giggled hard in his arms, thinking that it was funny, “Maybe you should take your shoes off.” He suggested. She bent forward, trying to reach for her straps as she kept giggling. Her face felt hot and tight in this position.

“Can’t reach,” She grumbled under her breath, pressing her fingers against the strap before she rose again, “Too hard.” He sighed, looking a little irritated as he dragged her towards the bed. She landed with a soft gasp and found herself scooting closer towards the middle of the bed. 

“I’m going to find Billy.” He told her softly. She felt her eyes widening as she sat up on her elbows, feeling betrayal fill inside her chest.

“No!” She blurted out quickly, shaking her head wildly. She didn’t want to be a burden to Billy. She kept trying to remind herself that he was allowed to see anyone he wanted, no matter how badly it hurt.

“Not to be rude, but I have no idea how to handle you.” Tommy stared at her as she plopped back down the mattress. She grinned, feeling like it was moving underneath her. 

“I’m cool,” Kim said quickly, the words rolling off of her tongue nicely, “It’s just hot.” She told him again, feeling like she was burning alive. She pulled at her dress sleeves again before Tommy gripped her hands.

“Please don’t undress,” Tommy was begging her again as he gently stopped her movements,“I don’t want to die.” She felt her eyebrows furrowing together, unsure of how Billy got so many girls to like him. She thought of his arm around Chrissy again, a fire beginning to burn inside of her. 

“You said you liked me,” She pouted, “Do I look ugly?” She asked curiously, wondering if she had done something wrong with her hair or her makeup. She thought about what Neil had said and wondered if she was too scrawny. Tommy laughed softly.

“You’re very pretty,” He slid the sleeve of her dress up again, “But I value my life.” He sounded more serious than playful. She felt a goofy grin forming on her face before she moved her elbows again and let herself plop back onto the mattress. She moved too fast, her eyes crossing and his room going fuzzy before she was blinking it away.

“I’m thirsty,” She said suddenly, feeling a dryness in her throat along with the burning in her skin, “Really thirsty.” She mumbled as she stared at the ceiling, willing for the room around her to stop spinning. She felt Tommy’s weight shift off of the bed. 

“I’ll be back.” He said suddenly. She tried to sit up but her body suddenly wouldn’t move. She huffed as she moved her eyes lazily to look at him. He looked worried. She felt her eyes narrowing at him.

“Don’t get Billy.” She told him directly, making a point that she didn’t want Billy to know that she was up here. She still had plans to leave with Addi, she just needed to cool down first. She wondered if Tommy could grab Addi for her. 

“I’m not,” He promised with his hands raised in surrender, “I’m going to get you water.” She wasn’t sure if she believed him but she couldn’t look at him any longer. She covered her hands over her face, not caring if she ruined her makeup. She felt sick with how fast the room was spinning. 

“Everything feels like it’s moving, but then it’s not,” She paused for a long time, “Does that make sense?” Her head felt too heavy to move. She listened to the way Tommy exhaled softly. She wasn’t even sure what she was meaning to say. 

“Yeah, of course,” He stopped for a moment before she felt the hem of her dress being pulled back down on her thighs, “Just don’t go anywhere.” She wondered if Tommy was always this nice. She nodded her head, but then quickly stopped at the sensation of being dizzy.

“Can’t,” She whined, trying to wiggle her toes, “My body feels broken, I’m too tired.” She promised him, knowing it was true. Her mind felt like it weighed hundreds and hundreds of pounds. Tommy watched her curiously.

“I’ll be right back,” He told her, like he didn’t trust her, “Stay there.” He repeated. She grinned as she thought of Addi, suddenly remembering that she had left her too. Kim groaned.

“Can you tell my friend where I’m at?” Her tongue felt odd as it moved in her mouth, “She’s probably looking for me.” Kim thought about wiggling off of the bed, but the idea of doing so sounded like far too much work. 

“Sure,” He spoke up quickly, “I’ll get right on that. Just, just don’t move.” He repeated again. She lazily held up a hand to give him a thumbs up. She listened as he slowly crossed the room and shut the door behind him. She breathed out softly.

She kicked off her heels, not caring where they landed, as she let her fingers drift across Tommy’s smooth bed. She felt like she was floating on a nice cloud, far above where she was resting. She grinned to herself, feeling giddy.

She examined his room slowly, noticing the differences from Billy’s room. She felt guilty suddenly, that she was in someone else’s room that wasn’t Billy’s. She could almost feel Tommy’s personality as she scanned his large room. There were multiple different posters of sports teams, trophies and report cards hung up proudly. She looked at the various pictures of his friends. She spotted Steve, Carol and even Billy. She wiggled her way across the bed, pulling one of them off of his board.

She felt sad suddenly as she looked at it. Billy wasn’t smiling, as usual. He was just sitting there, his eyebrows drawn in tightly and a far away look in his eyes. Even with as foggy as her mind felt at the moment, she knew there was nothing she could drink that would make her forget him. He was bound to her. 

She felt guilty, so very guilty now. She hadn’t done anything, but she felt like she had betrayed him. She was doing her best to wiggle off of Tommy’s bed. She rolled onto her stomach, searching on the floor next to the bed for where she may have kicked her shoes towards.

“Hi,” She breathed out as she sat up on her elbows. She blinked a few times as she looked at him, placing a tight grin on her face, “What are you doing here?” Logan stared at her, an amused grin on his face as he looked at her form. She thought it was silly, having him look at her in such a way. 

“I was looking for Tommy, have you seen him?” She shook her head no, “Shame, what are you doing?” She tried to think about what she was doing. She searched her brain for an answer, but didn’t really know what she was doing. 

“I guess waiting for Tommy,” She spit out, not remembering why, “It got hot down there.” He sat next to her on the bed as she quickly moved her legs out of his way. She couldn’t find the strength to rise all the way up, her body felt weak and tired. She was tempted to fall asleep in Tommy’s bed. It was soft and she felt really tired suddenly. 

“You were drinking a lot,” Logan nodded his head in agreement. Kim felt her arms plop down from underneath her. She stared up at the ceiling, urging her legs to move forward but they wouldn’t, “You look really pretty tonight.” Her skin felt like it was on fire, the burning sensation prickling at her in an uncomfortable way. It took her a moment to realize that he was pulling the hem of her dress up.

“Stop,” Her words felt heavy, her hands numb as she tried to swat him away, “Don’t wanna.” She breathed out, feeling like her insides were burning too. Everything felt hazy. He pulled it up higher, despite her protests.

“I thought you wanted to forget that guy?” He asked softly, like he was somehow trying to make her feel better. She shook her head quickly, still trying to keep his hands off of her skin. 

“No,” She mumbled, her throat feeling dry, “Don’t wanna.” She repeated again, her tongue heavy in her mouth. She didn’t know how to speak suddenly, it was like words were too hard. 

“Relax,” He pushed her shoulders down gently, “You’re fine. I promise, I won’t hurt you. You look sleepy anyways, why don’t you just go to sleep? I’m just trying to make you less hot.” She was blinking hard, trying to clear out the fuzzy parts in her mind. She no longer felt that hot, she felt like her nerves were icy cold. 

“Not hot,” She tried to tell him, “S’okay now.” She nodded her head, quickly stopping her actions as her mind swirled and eyes felt like they were crossing. He grinned from ear to ear, but it didn’t look like the kind smile that Tommy had sent her earlier. She paused, trying to remember if Tommy had actually been in here or if it was a dream. 

“It’s alright,” He tried again and she could feel a panic rising in her body. Her arms weren’t moving even though she was telling her body to work, “I’ll take care of you.” He mumbled softly, pushing the dress up over her waist. His eyes drank in over her skin as she kept trying to push her dress back down. She didn’t like that he could see her panties. She wished she had worn something different, something not so revealing. 

“Stop,” She could feel her bottom lip beginning to wobble and she hated herself for coming to tears so quickly. His fingers wrapped around the sides of her panties and she did the same, trying to keep them in place while he began to tug them down, “Please.” She whispered under her breath, feeling chills settling over her body. 

“It’s alright,” He leaned over her, as if somehow by being closer he would reassure her. She was shaking her head slowly, not wanting to make herself dizzy, “It’s going to be alright. I promise.” He touched her face softly and Kim reacted purely on instinct, rather than letting herself think about what may happen. 

She bit down on his thumb hard, clenching her teeth down as tightly as she could manage. She didn’t want his hands on her, she didn’t want him anywhere near her. He yelled out in protest, trying to yank his hand away from her mouth. Her senses were too dull to react, to really process what was happening. Her head snapped to the side, the stinging on the right side of her cheek echoed clear down her neck. She whimpered at the feeling, moving her hands to softly touch the reddened area. 

“Bitch,” He spit out, roughly turning her so that she was laying on her stomach. She shook her head hard, blinking deeply as she willed her body to wake up. Her mind felt like it was sleeping, like it wasn’t really awake, “Could’ve done this nicely.” He was yanking her dress up high over her back. She was trying to kick her feet in protest, trying to move her body away from him. 

“Stop,” She was pleading, begging for him to leave her alone as he roughly shoved her panties down her legs, “Please, please.” She was sobbing now, completely incoherent as he gripped the back of her head and shoved her sore cheek against the mattress. She tried to will herself to relax, not wanting it to be too painful as she heard the sound of his pants coming undone.

The door slammed open, causing a chill breeze to enter the room. She was still whimpering, sobbing into the mattress as she prayed that Tommy had come back to save her. She suddenly thought of Jason and his friend, wondering if Tommy would actually do anything. 

The weight from the bed shifted, Logan’s grip was suddenly off of her. She struggled onto her elbows, the room spinning as she blinked her eyes rapidly. She could feel the makeup clumping against her eyelashes as she blinked.

“Don’t touch me!” She cried out when she was dragged onto her feet. She met Tommy’s worried brown eyes, her fists were pressed against his chest as he tried to adjust her clothes again. She was shaking, overcome with fear from what had nearly happened.

“Kim, it’s okay,” His voice was rough as he looked at her. She was shaking, nothing about this felt okay, “Everything is fine.” She tried to speak but her words slurred into nonsense as she brushed against him. She was blinking, trying her best to focus. The door had invited in the music and suddenly everything was overwhelming again.The lights were too bright, the music too loud and her skin too warm. 

He looked like he was about to say something else before he turned from her, his eyebrows pulling together in worry. She was suddenly aware of the sound of skin colliding against skin. She breathed out roughly, watching the way Tommy was wincing and how his lips were beginning to part in protest. 

Kim turned slowly, her body pressing up against Tommy as her legs suddenly felt far too weak. She could hardly stand, she could hardly move as she peered over towards the wall. Billy had taken Logan by his collar and had him pinned against the wall. He was punching him, over and over again as blood poured from Logan’s nose and mouth. Kim felt too numb to react, almost feeling fearful from how Billy’s anger had seeped into the room. 

“Billy,” Tommy was letting go of her, “Billy that’s enough!” He was yanking Billy away from Logan as Kim struggled to find her balance. Her eyes moved slowly across the room, details blurring in as she kept blinking rapidly. Her neck felt wet from her tears and her cheek burned. Billy was angry, she had never seen him so angry before.

Logan was bloody and blue, his face looking lumpy and swollen. He was still smiling, if she could even call it that. His lips were so inflated and bruised that it was hard to tell. His dark eyes flickering up towards her. She felt sick all of a sudden, wondering if he even regretted what he had done. Tommy was shoving Billy towards her.

Billy turned just as fast, charging back towards Logan only to be stopped by Tommy’s hands, “He fucking deserves it. Did you see what he was doing?” BIlly was shouting, looking furious as Kim swayed against the wooden floors. She blinked again, slowly shaking her head as she tried to stay in focus with everything else. She didn’t want this to happen. 

“It’s not worth it anymore,” Billy looked like he was about to yell again but Tommy shoved him back, “Look at him. You’ll kill him if you keep it up. Just go. Take her and go.” Kim felt guilty suddenly, thinking about how Logan was Tommy’s older brother.

“I’m sorry,” She was blubbering suddenly, wishing that she hadn’t drank at all, “It’s all my fault. I’m sorry.” She was a mess, shivering like a cat that had been left in the cold rain. Billy’s rage shut off like a light, he approached her but she was too humiliated to look him in the eye. He touched her gently.

“It’s not your fault,” He glanced over his shoulder again, bearing that same furious look in his eyes, “Let’s go.” She was nodded in agreement, her body and soul felt exhausted

“Billy,” Tommy sounded exasperated and Kim felt another pang in her chest. Tommy had been so nice to her tonight and now she was the reason his brother was lying in blood on his floor, “That’s enough.” Billy ignored him, kicking his foot hard across Logan’s abdomen. He groaned, staring up as Billy bent down and cupped his bloody chin.

“You ever,” Billy was all wrath as he spoke, “Come near here again, I’ll kill you. Do you understand?” Billy was hissing, his words like venom as he spoke. Kim was too afraid to move forward as Logan’s eyes found her again. He nodded his head slowly, as if it was some kind of game. 

“Do you,” Billy was seething, his whole body curled into anger as he roughly gripped Logan’s bloody face. Kim felt like she was stuck to the floor, unable to move even though she was desperately trying to. It was like her body wasn’t under her control anymore, “Understand?” Billy pushed Logan’s head back hard, the sound of his skull snapping against the wall echoed in the room. Kim turned to where Tommy was standing, looking just how she felt. 

“Yes,” Logan finally spit out, his words slurring as if he had been the one to drink, “I understand.” Billy let him go roughly, letting him rest in a pile on the floor. She was blinking softly, her eyes feeling droopy as Billy approached her again. She took in the blood on his hands and the knuckles that looked swollen.

He paused for a long moment, looking hesitant as he brought his hands up towards her face. She nearly winced away, her cheek still burning from the sensation. He stared at her for the longest time, looking angry. She was worried, afraid that he would blame her for everything that had just happened. 

“Are you okay?” His question surprised her. She wasn’t sure what to say, or what her answer would be. She just swayed back and forth, her legs feeling like they would give way any moment. 

“I feel weird,” She admitted as she felt her body tilting backwards. He moved his hands from her face, gripping a hold of her elbows to keep her steady, “Too much to drink.” She was slurring her words again, unsure of how to explain to him how weird everything felt at the moment. He looked at her concerned, his eyes shooting back towards Tommy.

“I don’t know,” Tommy sounded remorseful, “I swear I didn’t know.” Kim wasn’t sure what Tommy was talking about. Billy nodded hard after a moment, his arm wrapping around her waist.

“Can you walk?” She nodded her head softly, feeling comfort in his strong arms. She wanted out of here, she didn’t want to be around Logan for any longer. She suddenly felt like everything she had on was too tight, too revealing. She felt insecure, wanting to bury herself in a hole and hide. It didn’t take him long to drag her out of there. She stumbled down the stairs, grateful for his strong grip that kept her steady. 

People were staring as he pushed through the crowd. They moved on instant and she was sure Billy still looked furious. She was suddenly anxious, wondering how terrible she looked at the moment. She couldn’t even make out faces as he dragged her along through the crowd. 

“My shoes,” She mumbled suddenly as she walked across the floorboards, “I forgot my shoes.” She nearly whined, unsure if she was speaking louder than the music. Billy turned towards her in surprise.

“I’ll get them after,” He promised, pulling her out the door. Her thoughts were thumping in her head, “What’s wrong?” He turned towards her in worry as her feet came to a halt.

“I need to tell Addi,” Her heart was beating roughly inside of her chest, “She’ll worry.” She mumbled, nearly falling against the side of the house. Billy sighed as he took her hand.

“I think she’ll understand this time,” He urged her to take a step forward, “Come on.” He pleaded. She found herself moving without a second thought, her body following his on command. She couldn’t find it in herself to protest at all. 

“It’s hot,” Her mind felt fuggy as she tried to remember why she was walking barefoot. The crunchy grass and warm dirt tickled against her bare feet as he trekked down towards his familiar car. She stumbled and tripped, clinging to him as she tried to keep herself balanced. She found that it was hard to walk when her only source of light was the moon and her mind felt so foggy, “Really hot.” She was trying to pull her dress off again, not caring that they were outside.

“Let me turn the AC on,” He gently stopped her movements, squeezing her hands in his own, “You’ll cool down faster that way.” He was watching her with worry in his eyes as he helped her slide into the car. She moaned about how hot it was again, nearly forgetting to put her seatbelt on. She sat forward in urgency, scooting as far forward as she could to feel the cold air against her hot skin.

“Better,” She spoke softly, her eyes closing as the air coated her skin, “We’re leaving so soon.” She observed as she looked back up towards the bustling house. Billy turned towards her, looking concerned again.

“Yeah,” He said softly as he began to reverse the car, “You’re acting funny.” He observed softly. She moved her head to face him, a dopey grin wrote across her face.

“You’re funny,” She flicked her finger across his nose, “Are we sneaking out early?” She felt her eyes rolling back in her head before she snapped forward again, watching the way the moonlight danced on his skin as he drove.

“Shit,” He mumbled under his breath as he lit a cigarette. She stared at the blood on his knuckles, feeling a cold dread settling across her stomach. She felt sick suddenly as her smile dropped from her face, “We can talk about it in the morning.” He was still driving as she stared at him, suddenly feeling everything rushing back towards her. She felt small, so small as bile rose in the back of her throat. 

“Billy,” She breathed out hard, feeling her pulse echoing throughout her body. Everything was beginning to sound like it was far away, like she was fading into something else. Her breathing was loud in her ears as time seemed to pause around her, only to be thrown at her suddenly as she tried to recall which trees they had passed by, “Billy pull over.” She spoke up louder, her skin feeling as if it was on fire.

“I’m not pulling over,” He told her seriously as he drove. She blinked hard, trying to bring the world back to normal as the sounds and sights around her kept slowing and then racing towards her suddenly. She was beginning to fan her face, “What are you doing?” He looked over suddenly. The movement was too fast for her. She heaved forward.

“Stop the car,” She urged him, reaching for her seatbelt and unbuckling herself. He began to protest only for her to cut him off, “Stop!” Her body was too hot, her insides too cold when he finally pulled to a stop. He looked like he was going to start warning her about something, when the sound of her gagging cut him off.

“Shit,” He pushed himself across the middle console and pushed the door open quickly. She fell over quickly, onto the hot gravel and the prickly grass as she emptied her stomach onto the ground before her. Billy was behind her in a heartbeat, pulling her hair back quickly as she emptied the contents in her stomach. She vomited until there was nothing left, until all she could do was dry heave. Billy was still there, pulling her hair back tightly and rubbing soothing circles along her back. She felt something in her chest spike as the warm air coated her, digging in along her skin. Dread danced up her spine, nestling in her stomach as she looked towards him. 

“Something’s wrong,” She mumbled, feeling her heart beginning to pump inside of her chest harder than what it should. It felt like it was going to burst. She started to breathe faster, feeling the panic building up in her chest, “I think I need to go to a hospital.” She was nodding her head, already deciding that going to the hospital would be the safest thing. 

“Why would you need to go to the hospital?” He questioned her softly. His blue eyes were looking at her gently but she couldn’t focus on him for too long. Her chest was rising and falling rapidly, her breath coming out in quick spurts as her heart hammered uncomfortably hard against her chest. 

“Somethings wrong, my heart it’s going too fast and I can’t breathe.” Her tongue felt heavy in her mouth as she tried to spit all the words out at once. She felt like she didn’t make any sense, like she really couldn’t articulate what she was feeling at the moment. Everything was moving too slow, then it was suddenly too fast. Her heart only seemed to race faster in her chest at the thought that something was wrong. She was beginning to cry and she didn’t even realize it. 

“Hey, hey,” He cupped her chin softly, his fingers brushing along her jawline as he kept her steady and looking towards him. She was having a hard time focusing, everything was beginning to be overwhelming, “Look at me, hey. Just look at me. It’s fine. Take a deep breath, you’re fine.” He kept trying to reassure her. She tried to follow his commands, focusing on the way he was holding her and gazing in on his concerned eyes. Her chest was still moving hard, but not nearly as fast as what it was a few seconds ago.

“My heart is beating too fast,” She was still taking deep breaths as she spoke. Billy was rubbing his thumbs across her wet cheeks and sending her an urgent look. She was trying to relax but it felt too difficult, “It’s really, really hard.” She told him finally, moving one of his hands away from her cheek and placing it on the base of her neck. She held it there hard, looking towards him in worry so he could understand just how roughly her heart was moving. It was stinging hard in her chest, stabbing up against her collarbone and ribs.

“It’s beating hard,” He confirmed gently. He rubbed his thumb across her skin, “You’re just freaking yourself out right now. I promise you. Nothing is wrong. Just take another breath.” She exhaled roughly, desperately trying to take another inhale. She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t get her lungs to fill with fresh air. 

“Did someone give me something?” She was starting to panic again. He quickly took notice, shaking his head no swiftly and touching her face again. Her shoulders were rising and falling rapidly, her breath was coming out in short spurts as she assumed the worst. Billy’s eyes widened and he was shaking his head again, denying her worries. 

“No one gave you anything,” He reassured, tapping his fingers along the side of her face again to draw her darting eyes back towards him, “You’re fine. You’re just drunk, okay? You had a lot to drink and you’re not used to it. Just breathe.” She listened again, taking a few deep inhales until she felt like her lungs were full again. She felt like she was shaking, like her whole body was vibrating. 

“Something just doesn’t feel right,” She sounded pitiful as she spoke, like she was whimpering. Billy was rubbing his hands down the curve of her shoulders, squeezing her arms softly. She felt like she was finally calming down as she finally inhaled deeply enough for all of her lungs to be filled with new air, “It hurts.”

“You’re okay,” Billy promised her, his eyes looking at her gently. She felt safe with him, like nothing bad would happen as long as she had him, “You just got a little panicked. Let’s get in the car and go home. Does that sound okay?” He was pulling her hair out of her face, trying to get a better look at her.

“I can go,” She mumbled under her breath, her body feeling fuzzy as he guided her back towards the car. He held onto her hand tightly, keeping a grip on her so he could help her slide into the car. He held onto the top of her head to keep her from bumping her forehead against the roof of the car, “Tired.” She mumbled, suddenly feeling like her body was exhausted. She blinked for a long second, missing the way he shut her door and made his way back inside. She stared at him for a moment before he reached across and buckled her back in.

“Are you okay now?” He asked her softly. She liked the way his eyes looked in the moonlight. They were like bright stars, shining right at her. She nodded her head, feeling a dopey grin forming on her lips. She was already forgetting what had just happened. Her skin tickled against the leather seats as she rested back against her chair. She kicked her feet out in front of her. They felt odd against the floor and she found herself laughing every few seconds from the sensation. 

“M’fine,” She grinned from ear to ear as she turned to face him. She didn’t understand why he looked so worried. She didn’t remember how they got in the car, but figured he must’ve dragged her out of the party. She leaned against the middle console, nearly choking herself against the seatbelt as she did so. She rubbed at her neck before she leaned her head against his shoulder, “Really fine.” She told him seriously. She noticed that he was driving slower than usual and turned towards him with questioning eyes.

“I think you need to sleep,” He glanced down at her with a hint of a smile on his lips. She liked the sound of sleeping. It sounded nice. She felt like her whole body was exhausted, “You look tired.” He confirmed, bending his head down to press a kiss against her forehead. She smiled against the sensation, liking how it traveled clear across her skin and down her spine. She sat up after a moment, relaxing as best as she could against the back of the seat. She felt her eyes fluttering shut and she wondered if she’d drift into sleep before they made it back. 

“Too loud.” She murmured, feeling an odd pang in her chest as her heart seemed to match the beat of his music. She placed a hand over her chest, squeezing softly as if she could make the hurting go away. He quickly turned the dial all the way down before he reached over and took her hand in his. He squeezed softly, glancing towards the road as he spoke.

“Just breathe again,” He reminded her as he traced his fingers along the curve of her hand before he pressed his fingers against her palm. She instantly closed her fist around his fingers, bringing him closer towards her, “You’re doing great. We’re almost home, okay?” She nodded her head, wishing that she believed it was all okay. She kept breathing deeply, trying to ignore the feelings and thoughts of panic that kept rising in her mind. 

“It hurts,” She was holding her chest again suddenly, “Really bad.” She breathed out in worry. Billy shook his head as he pulled over. His parking was more rushed than what it usually was. He leaned over the console and took her face in his hands again.

“You’re fine, I promise you. Nothing is going to happen to you,” She nodded her head, looking at the intense way he was staring at her. Her heart was still beating obnoxiously loud, nearly louder than her own thoughts, “You’re safe.” He reassured her after another moment. She blinked hard, not even realizing she was crying again. She didn’t understand what kept happening to her. 

“Okay,” She believed him anyway. She watched as he quickly got out, then crossed the front of the car before he was opening her door, “The world is spinning.” She mumbled as he helped her out of the car. She leaned up against him, wrapping her arms around his chest. He pulled her into a tight hug, letting her linger up against him. 

“Let’s go inside,” His voice was slightly muffled as he spoke, “Get you cleaned up.” She grumbled as she remembered she’d have to walk up that big hill. He held onto her waist with a soft grip, trudging her up the hill. Her legs were shaking and wobbly. She glanced at the ground, giggling as she remembered she didn’t have shoes again.

It was a struggle to get in through the front door. He was basically pulling her around, her body weight fully leaning up against him. He didn’t protest at all, only sending her soft hushes when she would randomly start giggling again. She didn’t know how to explain to him that everything felt funny and off at the same time. 

He gently pulled her into the bathroom, quickly shutting the door behind him before he turned the light on. She blinked hard and rapidly, trying to urge the bright light to stop stinging against her eyes. Billy held onto her waist, bringing her back to the Earth. 

“Here,” He handed her the toothbrush gently, “Can you brush your teeth? I’ll be right back.” She stared down at the toothpaste on it before she looked at him again. His eyebrows were pulled tightly together, looking like he was urging her to take it. 

“You won’t leave me?” She asked nervously, taking a deep breath to keep her heart from racing again. Billy looked over her worried expressions gently, before he tucked her hair behind her ears and shook his head no. 

“No, I”ll be right back. I promise.” He squeezed her face gently in his large hand. She stared at him for the longest time before she accepted his answer. She would be fine on her own for a few minutes. He leaned forward and pressed a kiss against her forehead, making her lips curl into a smile.

“Hurry.” She told him seriously, watching as he snuck back out of the bathroom. She brushed her teeth slowly, taking cautious movements as anything too fast left her feeling dizzy. Despite her caution, she still felt like the floorboards were moving from underneath her. 

“You alright?” Billy questioned her as he snuck back in. She nodded her head as she leaned against the counter. She blinked hard and took another deep breath, feeling the painful lurch of her heart. He stepped closer, touching her shoulders gently, “Let’s get you cleaned up.” 

“I feel gross,” She whined as he shimmied the dress off of her, “Yucky.” She said again after a moment. Her skin felt sticky and sweaty. She regretted the outfit she wore underneath as the lace seemed to itch her sweaty skin. 

“That’s why you’re going to get in the shower,” He reminded her softly. He reached his hands around and unhooked her bra slowly, “Did you wear this for someone special?” His tone was slightly teasing.

“Wanted to make you jealous,” She pouted her lips out as she spoke. He set her bra down before he moved towards her hips, shifting her panties down her legs. She breathed out hard as she got a painful reminder, “Logan saw it though. I didn’t want him to, he just did it.” She was rambling again as her chest started to move up and down harshly. Billy snapped his head up and gripped her face softly.

“S’alright,” His eyes looked over her panicked expression again, his eyes softening even more, “He won’t be bothering you for a long time okay? I’ve got you, I promise.” She nodded, her chest still rising rapidly as she tried to control her breathing again. It hurt, her chest hurt so badly. She gripped her hands over his wrists, watching the way his lips moved as she calmed her breathing. 

“I’m sorry,” She felt close to tears suddenly. He was shaking his head as she spoke, “I shouldn’t have drank so much. I was just so upset.” Her breathing became rapid again. He touched her collarbone softly.

“There’s nothing to be sorry about,” He nudged her chin up again so she was looking at him. HIs lips were curled up softly but he had some worry deep within his eyes, “Think about what a mess I was. At least you haven’t vomited all over yourself.” He tried to tease her, tried to get her mind off of everything that had happened. 

“I did vomit,” Kim cried out, her tears growing wet, “Outside the car.” He wiped at her cheeks again, looking like he was close to laughing. She sniffled, unsure of what was so funny. She felt like she should be embarrassed. 

“Not on yourself though,” He nodded his head, “Don’t worry about it. Seriously, everything is going to be okay.” She felt like he had said that a lot. She sniffled and nodded her head. 

“I’m cold.” She told him, trying not to whine as she spoke. Her body no longer felt warm as the chill air settled in around her. The brisk air caused goosebumps to appear on her skin and for her nipples to harden. She thought about crossing her arms over her chest and hiding away. 

“Probably because you’re standing here naked,” He smiled, leaning away for a moment so he could turn the water on. She watched him, leaning against the cold tiles as he moved, “Can you get in the shower?” She stumbled, kicking her foot against the tub as she stepped inside. She whined, the pain traveling up her body.

“Owie.” She mumbled, bending over to rub at her foot. She moved too fast. Stars appeared in her eyesight and she nearly toppled over. Billy gripped her waist hard and straightened her up.

“Okay,” He sighed softly and she looked over at the sound of clothing rustling. He was removing his clothes, stripping down to join her, “Scoot over.” She mumbled in response, her foot hurting from where she had hit it. She enjoyed the way the warm water hit her back. He made his way in before he closed the shower curtain.

“So tired.” She mumbled suddenly, her hands feeling like they were glued to her sides. Billy moved her softly, fully dipping her hair underneath the water so he could get her hair wet. Her eyes kept falling closed as he scrubbed at her hair and skin. She was too tired to protest, to tell him that she could handle it on her own. She felt an urgency to fall forward against his chest. 

He scrubbed at her hair softly and she watched the way his nose scrunched up as he worked. She thought of how it felt like Chicago had been ages ago. She wished they could go back. She furrowed her eyebrows suddenly when he peered out of focus and snapped forward again. 

“Time isn’t right,” She told him, beginning to breathe hard again, “Everything is moving too slow and then it’s fast all of a sudden.” She knew it was dumb, she knew it made no sense but she didn't know how else she was supposed to explain it. Billy hummed softly, rinsing the rest of the soap from her red hair. 

“Just breathe,” He reminded her again, watching the way her chest was beginning to rise and fall again, “You’re fine, just keep taking deep breaths.” She felt her chest rattling as she tried to do as he said. She felt the tears forming in her eyes, wishing that he would listen to her. 

“I can’t remember what’s been happening,” She was freaking out, “I can’t remember anything.” She was crying again, trying to remember how they had made it home and into the shower in the first place. He paused, moving his soapy hands underneath the water so he could touch her again. 

“All we’ve done is showered,” He tried again, “There’s nothing to remember. I promise. Just keep breathing.” Her chest was aching from how hard she was breathing. She stared at him, trying to make sense of what he was saying as she looked into his blue eyes. They were pretty. So blue and so full of life. 

“You promise?” She asked softly as he washed her hair. He was gentle to make sure that he didn’t get any soap into her eyes or mouth. He traced his hands down the curve of her shoulders before he reached her hands. He squeezed softly.

“Of course,” He was speaking softly again, almost slow so she could understand every single word he said,“You don’t have anything to worry about.” He promised her, squeezing her small hands in his large ones. Her heart was still thumping but her breathing eventually went back to normal again. 

Her eyes remained closed the rest of the shower. It was easier that way, so she didn’t become overwhelmed by all of the movements. The water was off suddenly and he was drying her off with a towel. She felt a grin forming on her lips, a small laugh bubbling in her chest at the feeling of the towel on her skin. It felt so soft and warm. She wanted it to engulf her like a giant hug. 

“Feel good?” He sounded like he was amused. She opened her eyes again, thinking that he looked too bright to be in such a dingy room. She was enamored by him, her arms and legs moving however he wanted them to go. 

“Yeah,” She breathed out slowly, wondering how he could look so pretty, “Feels nice.” He smiled in response, drawing his hand along her back to make sure that she was dry. Her smile grew as he dressed her, realizing that he was giving her one of his shirts to wear.

“S’big,” Her words felt like they were slurred again. He chuckled as he stood in front of her, bringing her brush up and slowly brushing her hair out. She liked that he was gentle with his movements. It felt a lot better against her skin, “Feels good.” She mumbled, her body growing tired. 

“Do you want me to braid it?” Her eyes were beginning to feel heavy and she wasn’t sure how much longer she could stand. She kept bumping into him, her eyes snapping shut and then rapidly opening again. He peered into focus as she thought about his question for a long time. 

“Do you know how?” She murmured absentmindedly. He was looking at her worried again and she didn’t understand why. She wondered if she had done something wrong. 

“Is it that hard?” She shrugged her shoulders, her mind feeling too fuzzy to have much of an opinion. He sat on the edge of the tub while she fell to the floor in front of him, “Jesus, are you okay?” He scooted her forward a bit, pulling the shirt up to look at her lower back. She looked back at him, her wet hair touching against his legs.

“I didn’t feel it,” She told him seriously, “Everything feels weird.” He paused for a moment.

“It happens,” He tilted her head forward gently, “Are you tired?” He started to brush her hair gently and she felt her eyes fluttering close. She hadn’t felt tired before, but she certainly did now. His hands were so soft, so gentle that it tickled across her scalp.

“Bit,” She mumbled, unsure of why she had such a throbbing in her chest, “I could sleep here.” She admitted, enjoying the way nothing seemed to be moving when she had her eyes shut. The back of her neck tickled when his fingers brushed against it. Everything felt so nice, so much better than how they usually felt.

“Let’s go lay down,” He told her softly when he was done. She pressed her palm against the back of her head, feeling the rough ridges and bumps. She was sure it was messy, but she didn’t mind. She giggled, leaning her head all the way back until she was looking at him. He glanced down at her, the lines on his face were drawn in tightly. His eyes looked like they were full of worry. She felt bad, wondering what he was worrying about, “Can you walk?”

“Yeah,” She told him but then held her hands up anyways, “I’d prefer not to though.” She grinned again, liking the way he didn’t exhale or act like dealing with her was a chore. Her skin lit into flames when he picked her up. She moved as close to him as she could, lingering in the way his hands felt against the back of her thighs.

“Are you feeling better?” He asked her, a hint of an amused grin on his face. She watched him for a moment, feeling her eyebrows raise towards her forehead. She couldn’t remember why she wouldn’t be feeling good. She was with Billy. 

“I guess so,” She told him, nestling her head on his shoulder as he walked. She felt like she sounded too loud, her breathing was too loud and he was too quiet. She moved her head again, focusing instead on the way his heart was beating in his chest. She liked the sound, she liked the way it felt, “I’m kind of dizzy.” She admitted. Even though the house was dark, she kept feeling like objects were moving when they didn’t need to be. She closed her eyes again, listening to him push her door open gently.

“You just need to sleep it off,” He told her softly as he laid her across her bed. She sprawled out suddenly, giggling at the odd feeling of her comforter against her skin. She moved her hands out against it like she would when she would lay in the sand. He watched for a moment before he was pulling the blankets up over her. She turned on her side, curling up in them. She felt like she was hiding in a warm den, “I’ll see you in the morning, okay?” He pressed his lips against her forehead, the sensation traveling across her skin. She paused for a long time before she heard footsteps. She snapped her eyes open, not realizing that he meant he’d be in a different room than her. 

She turned to him suddenly, feeling panicked at the idea of him leaving, “Where are you going?” She asked him seriously. He turned, looking at her confused. She was beginning to sit up when he made his way back and gently pressed her back down onto the bed.

“You need to sleep it off.” He was trying to put the blankets back over her again. She wiggled her arms out from under her comforter and took a hold of his wrists. She stared up at him for the longest time, not liking the look of remorse that was on his face. 

“Don’t leave me.” She begged, her heart beginning to hurt again. She could feel her breathing beginning to rise again. Billy sat on the edge of the bed, pushing some of her hair that hadn’t made it into the braid. He twisted the strands gently and she found herself leaning into his touch. 

“I’m right next door.” Billy reassured her gently. He rubbed her back softly, his fingers tickling against her spine. She curled against him instantly, trying to make the ache inside of her leave. She took another deep breath, her lungs burning. He touched her face gently, caressing her cheek until she was brought back down. 

“That won’t help me if I die in my sleep.” She responded weakly, unsure of why those exact words left her mouth. She was scared, she could feel that deep inside of her. Billy watched her for a moment before he pressed his lips against the corner of her mouth. She exhaled softly, wishing she could never forget how it felt. 

“You’re not going to die,” His lips curled into a gentle smile but there was something else hidden beneath his eyes. Worry, anger. It looked like a mixture of all of that, “Why would you think that?” He asked her softly, as if she was silly. She shook her head, meaning it completely. 

“My heart feels funny and it’s hard to breathe.” She told him honestly. Kim breathed in sharply again, feeling like there was glass inside of her lungs. Billy watched her for a long moment 

“Scoot over,” He told her seriously, nudging her bottom softly. She did as he said, moving closer towards the other side of the bed. The mattress dipped as he laid behind her. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her flush against him. She sank into his touch, closing her eyes and trying to inhale deeply. He followed her same deep breaths, his chest moving alongside her back. It was easier to breathe that was, with him guiding her, “You’re okay.” He promised as he pushed her wet braid behind her head. 

“I’m scared.” She admitted, feeling like everything was coming to a standstill. He traced his warm fingers across her face gently. The sensation traveled across her body, tickling her gently in a nice way. 

“I won’t let anything happen to you,” He promised her, his words warm and like honey. She closed her eyes, willing herself to focus on him and not anything else. His fingers kept the same pattern as he slowly dipped down, tracing them across her collarbone and down her shoulders. 

“What if something happens to me in my sleep?” She was speaking again, unable to control the feelings inside of her stomach. She breathed out harshly. He hummed and kissed the side of her mouth again. 

“I’ll stay awake and watch you.” He told her gently. He brought one hand around her waist and squeezed softly. She sank against his touch, willing for the sensation in her stomach to go away. She hated how she felt right now and she didn’t want to feel guilty for making him stay awake to care for her. 

“Then I feel bad.” She mumbled underneath her breath. She felt his chest moving as he laughed. She turned to face him, fully meaning her words. He only looked at her as if she was silly.

“Don’t feel bad,” He told her softly as he cupped her face softly, “You need to rest.” He encouraged her softly. She felt calmer when she was looking in his eyes. He was easy to focus on, to make her feel grounded. 

“What about you?” She didn’t want him to be tired in the morning. She thought that he deserved to get just as much rest as what she did. He was smiling again and she wondered what he was thinking. 

“I’ll sleep when I know you’re fine.” He promised her. Her eyes glazed over the way his curls pressed against his cheek as he laid on the pillow. He squeezed her hands softly with his larger one.

“You won’t leave?” She whispered softly, for no one but him and the night to hear. He kissed the side of her face softly. She felt comforted again, her heavy eyelids closing again. He held her close and she felt safer than what she had in a long time. 

“I’m not going to leave you again,” He promised her. His voice was warm and smooth. It was like he was singing her a lullaby. She was drifting off, her mind and body finally at ease as he traced his fingers across her warm skin. Her chest was moving deeply as she drifted away,“Kim?” His voice was soft against the crook of her neck. Her eyelids were too heavy to open.

“Mhm.” She was already drifting off again, barely awake to recognize that he was speaking. Her body was so exhausted. Her mind felt like it was sleeping, his words drifted around loosely inside of her head in a way she wasn’t able to untangle at the moment. 

“I love you.” 

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