#this time everything is fine

[stil-lindigo]

ARTISTS FOR PALESTINE 🇵🇸 - On the 6th and 9th of March, I'll be doing art requests on stream with other notable artists to raise money for Operation Olive Branch and the PCRF.

I'm incredibly lucky to be counting quite a few big names in the roster, including known Jesus and Odysseus enthusiast @wolfythewitch, the extraordinary fanartist @denimcatfish, and the incredibly talented @troubledminnesotan, as well as Lilypichu from OfflineTV.

You'll be able to watch the streams on the day of the event either on my twitch channel here, or via the links provided by the artists below.

Lilypichu

Cuptoast

Akairosu_

Sevvanto

Wolfythewitch

#we're all gonna be doing an aggie.io board together and taking requests #sort of like drawfee's charity streams if any of y'all know them #its my first time organising a fundraising event like this and i hope it all goes well #the stream on the 6th is gonna double as a practise stream for me since i wanna check if everything will work fine #fingers crossed!! #im honestly so lucky that these people agreed to this so short notice as well... #i promised wolfy id read the odyssey and the epic of gilgamesh so y'all better donate #palestine #free palestine #free gaza #free west bank #donations #pcrf #operation olive branch #donations for palestine #fundraiser #lilypichu #cuptoast #crumb #offlinetv #shamelessly trying to get as many eyes to see this as possible

[sanzundertale]

babygirl i will invent stages of grief you have never seen before

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #so that ending huh! #this has been sitting in my drafts for months #i’ve been waiting for something to emotionally devastate me enough to post this and!! yeah!!!!!! this applies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #losing my mind #i was stunned i was at a loss for words #need season 3 on a flash drive and plugged into my brain STAT I CANT DO THIS #AUUUGGGGGHHH #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #ineffable partners #time to open ao3 and pretend everything is fine!

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[eastgaysian]

idont care if your durge was having crazy eroguro sex with gorty can you get them to put some pants on and tell me about their sibling relationship with orin. please.

#i think you should be able to recruit orin she doesnt reform in any meaningful way #she just lives at your camp and has decided to kill the people you point her at now #and she still eats people or whatever like let a girl live a little. #dak-wai shows up back at camp looking like they got mauled with orin in tow (did the mauling) #and is just like. hey. we're good. and responds to any further questions with It's fine. We're good. #she just needed to evil stim stab them a couple times and they resolved everything. it's fine. #balls your gay 3

[itsdefinitely]

i had a vision

#Haha What Episode 9 Is The Most Emotional Ever? #nooooooo noooooo look we're all in episode 4. everything's fine #i think it would be very funny for simon to have ranted about his fucked up life #and then for prismo to be like “yeah i know. i was there” #simon petrikov #prismo the wishmaster #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #adventure time #adventure time spoilers #id in alt text #definitely art

[codgod]

noth1ng crazy has happ3ned

[alt version under the cut]

ended up liking the blank background more buuut this is also cool

#.png #qsmp #juanaflippa #codeflippa #qsmp slime #charlie slimecicle #fanart #the binary text in the alt version translates to: #‘everything is normal everything is fine. i worry about nothing because nothing’s on my mind.’ #it’s from m.arble hornets i just like that quote #also tried to make it more clear this time that the black and green scales are just what juana normally looks like #not a product of the code

[beanghostprincess]

me: all sanji fics are the same! it's always sanji having a breakdown over liking a man and going into an identity crisis and a spiral of internalized homophobia-

also me every time i read a sanji fic: OH MY GOD SANJI HAVING A BREAKDOWN OVER LIKING A MAN AND GOING INTO AN IDENTITY CRISIS AND A SPIRAL OF INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA THIS IS SO GOOD AWKEBFNALKEWNFLKANELKN

#tbf it's just me relating to the 'being fucking repressed' part #i'm a lesbian who dealt with comphet for a very long time okay #and i just LOVE a good internalized homophobia fic #he's so traumatized someone free him from this jail called heteronormativity #he's such a cutie patootie i wanna kiss him and hug him and tell him everything will be okay #sanji you can kiss men it's fine darling #one piece #sanji #sanuso #lusan #acesan #zosan #whatever sanji ship you like idk

[lotus-pear]

never forgiving bones for fucking up this scene

#hey sskk nation how are we feeling :( #literally just finished watching the new ep and i genuinely sobbed #i was so mad they didn't make him smile or have atsushi take one last look back at him bones hates to see mlm winning #also second img is me being delusional and just stopping the show when they used koko zessou for the first time and killed fukuchi #yk before he used the space time sword and literally fucking cheated #akutagawa is alive. sskk reunion totally doesn't leave gaping holes in my heart. everything is fine. #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #akutagawa ryuunosuke #ryuunosuke akutagawa #atsushi nakajima #shin sokouku #sskk #bsd #lotus draws

[potatoesbasket]

I'm not even mad. They've been like this for over 6000 years, what's a few more, right? And we got ineffable bureaucracy of all ships canonised???

What a week to have forgotten to buy my propranolol. My heart might actually explode.

#not my absolute number one favourite couple who i think about literally all of the time #technically breaking up forever because the show gets cancelled #as long as season 3 gets made everything is fine :) #good omens #good omens 2 #go2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #ineffable bureaucracy

[milkybishop]

"- but with whom can you sit in water?"

and who can hop in the bath with you to make a show of not caring about your tattoos, and how can you not find it hard to hide your disdain at the attempt.

because either this is a trap you have blindly walked into again . . . or he really does love you and could have loved you all this time. and despite all that-

you cannot turn from the path that you are on.

#fallen hero #fhr #fallen hero: retribution #fallen hero: revelations #ricardo ortega #sidestep #chargestep #dion bishop #my art #ok i did not realise the revelations demo was out so teehee i haven't played it yet #i have such a clear image of elena’s farm. refurbed a bit and lots of colour. ortega put in the bars himself hence the new plaster #and dion having an en suite and like struggling so much with being unable to just run away. and that people(especially ortega) have seen hi #pre-reveal dion is cagey but he’s definitely softer with ortega cause there was that barrier and almost dream-like curtain that #dion could go ‘i can have this much #cause anything real will never happen’. and then everything is too real. and dion is just trying to have a bath and he’s trying not to #be repulsed by his own body and markings. and the fact he can’t just escape if he needs to. #and then ortega is barging in and kinda making a show of how not-bothered he is by dion’s markings which manages to annoy dion more #i think dion is more..caustic(?) during this time. at first. because he kinda can’t accept the reality that ortega is fine with it #and it’s very self-sabotagey. that curtain is gone and so that softness is too. #but of course ortega persists and starts getting to dion proper #^these are tags are from when i posted the very first sketch of this in like september skjdghdjk #AND ALSO so sos so so happy with how this came out #shouout to my friend anonbea who gave me sooooo many helpful tips with this piece #it's very ambitious for me and i got overwhelmed once or twice but IM JUST REALLY HAPPY #hope to keep this momentum up and do more interactive + bg pieces

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo’s natural intuition and perceptiveness are so good and subtle but seen throughout the whole show many, many times. And it’s interesting to see how these natural characteristics of his give way to other traits of his as well.

Like, him loving twists and betrayals and surprises goes hand in hand with him being so naturally intuitive.

Canonically, he knows his fam so well he can predict how they’re going to react (knowing what state his fam would be in during the base Shredder fight, being able to trick everyone in Lair Games, knowing Splinter would fall asleep after milk and cake, etc etc etc etc), and he also knows how to predict and manipulate his enemies as well (the “salami paper”, everything with Big Mama, etc etc etc etc).

This intuition comes off as very natural, so it makes so much sense that anything that throws that off would be fun for him to encounter! Provided that the “surprise” isn’t, y’know, world ending.

Moreover, this intuition and perceptiveness also goes hand in hand with how he’s secretly more responsible than he lets on, having to remind his brothers to be aware of how they appear or what may be too much for them or who they may hurt if they’re not careful.

Lastly, and this one is obvious, but these traits are also what fuel Leo’s sense of strategy, which is displayed not only with his actions on the battlefield, but every conversation he has outside of it. After all, it’s a long game to play, to appear a certain way. The Face Man is just another strategy.

So yeah, he knows people. He knows people very, very well.

And he tries very hard to make sure no one knows him.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #which in turn makes Casey Junior so offputting to Leo #because he DOESNT know Junior but Junior knows HIM #or at least #he knows a different mask #one that Leo isn’t finished making quite yet #but that’s fine he finishes it by the end #also side note but there’s actually a tonnnn of times in the series where Leo just sorta??? knows what’s up??? #imagine someone asking a question like I wonder what [insert anyone here] is doing right now #and Donnie goes to answer since he’s (totally ethically) recording everything ever but Leo just answers nonchalantly #when asked how tf he knows he just gives a punchable grin and says lol I guessed

[shimmershy]

Just two siblings back from the dead, hanging out, totally not using this opportunity to torment one another for the rest of time! <3

Chara Week Day 4: Flowers

[Image Description: A digital drawing of Chara and Flowey from Undertale. They're on the Surface, with grass and trees and mountains stretching out behind them. Chara has golden flowers clustered around their left eye and speckled in their hair and on their hands. They're kneeling on the ground and smiling wide, holding Flowey's flower pot in one arm. Their other hand is outstretched in front of them and holding a camera. Flowey has a red bow wrapped around his stem and stickers in the shape of hearts, stars, and smiley faces decorating his pot. He looks annoyed as Chara leans their face in close to his to take a photo. /End ID]

#chara week #chara week 2023 #safeutdr #undertale #chara dreemurr #my art #flowey #undertale flowey #undertale chara #chara undertale #flowey undertale #chara #there were a lot of things I could have done with the flowers prompt but I wanted to do something more wholesome than my last post #plus this was the first thing that came to mind. flowey is a flower. and I usually draw Chara with flowers all over them post-pacifist so #it's like the golden flowers became a part of both of them after they got resurrected. ✨symbolism ✨ idk. #the stickers on Flowey's pot are courtesy of Frisk. they like decorating everything with stickers #also. sorry for giving every character I draw black nail polish. it will happen again. </3 #i'm not super satisfied with the background of this one because I was pretty lazy with it and it doesn't mesh well with the foreground #buuuuut I'm fine with it because I don't want to spend more time fixing it. and it's like. fine. just not as good as it COULD be #also I'm new to writing image descriptions so if there's anything I could adjust/describe better let me know #I just thought I should try adding one when I can #🌼

[iraprince]

sometimes i gotta bask in the knowledge that teen me would be so stoked if it knew what i look like now

#hi. heres the annual ira selfie #mostly i wanted to take one bc i cut my hair for the first time today (as in layers not just shavinf the sides) #and it came out fine instead of being a disaster. so i'm feeling celebratory #i mean you cant even see the haircut bc i immediately pulled everything back and slammed my headphones on anyway. but its abt the spirit

[spelljammin]

You are the greatest thing that ever happened to me.

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#BG3 spoilers #bg3 emperor #bg3 ansur #bg3 balduran #balduran and ansur #I feel sad about the whole thing #but at the same time my bloodborne lore knowledge kicks in #and im here like #I've seen this before but worse #everything is fine lol #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #doodles #color doodles #bg3 headcanon #bg3 headcanons