#this take way too long than i expected

[carelessflower]

malec as songs from speak now (taylor's version)

Mine - City of Ashes

Sparks Fly - The Red Scrolls of Magic

Back To December - The Voicemails of Magnus Bane

Speak Now - Shadowhunters Season 1 Episode 12

Dear John - City of Fallen Angels

Mean - City of Lost Souls

The Story Of Us - City of Heavenly Fire

Enchanted - City of Bone

Better Than Revenge - City of Lost Souls

Innocent - City of Heavenly Fire

Haunted - City of Lost Souls

Last Kiss - City of Lost Souls

Long Live - Queen of Air and Darkness

Ours - City of Ashes

Superman - City of Heavenly Fire

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#malec #alec lightwood #magnus bane #shadowhunters #the mortal instruments #the shadowhunter chronicles #speak now taylors version #speak now tv #tmi #tsc #city of heavenly fire #city of lost souls #city of ashes #queen of air and darkness #the red scrolls of magic 4th anniversary #this take way too long than i expected

[moonlitkilljoy]

so. the line of tape. it's existence makes me lose my marbles to no end, but probably not in the way you'd expect. it's the fact that even with this clear divide they STILL spill over into the others space. i've see a lot of people talk about it as if it's this clear divide in the lab that hermann and newt steer clear from but that just isnt the case!

if it was, you'd expect the lab to look something like this layout

but look at the actual movie

it looks like more akin to something like this

newt's samples, tables, and stands for his dissection tools spill over the line right into hermann's space. there's definitely room on his side of the lab for everything, he's just. spread out across the entire lab instead. AND it seems like this is what the lab usually looks like, hermann only makes to point out the entrails on his side and not the rest of newts things, it's a shared space— not a divided one. what i'm saying is that even though hermann makes a big deal out of his side of the lab versus newts side vis-à-vis the intestines, he definitely doesn't care that much about separating himself from newt OR his space from newts space in general. the way i see it, they argue and bicker a lot but ultimately they find comfort in the others presence, hermann just doesn't want to deal with potentially-hazardous kaiju intestines right by his things ^^;

#pacific rim #pacrim #newmann #hermann gottlieb #newt geiszler #newton geiszler #benny beeps #should i tag this as newmann?????? unsure but im tagging it anyway because the intent is there #also yes i spent way too long illustrating the floor in a stylized and simplified yet faithful manner— what of it #anyway i love them and i'm thinking of them always #shoutout to gay scientists #and also to my friend toad for being willing to talk to me about these guys so often ^^ #AND ALSO TO MY FRIEND ATLAS. because he read me the most beautiful think piece about pacrim that he wrote the other day #and im still thinking about it #and one more shoutout to everyone who's interacted with me irl in the year of 2023 #because i have not been able to reel in my hyperfixation infodump terror radius at all ffdgjkdlkjg #anywho. uh. have a nice day/night if you're reading this!!!! i'm still working on those fic recs i promise!!!! #just taking longer than expected fjdlfgk i wanna make sure i do each fic justice

[sonknuxadow]

sorry but i really really do Not like the ideas people have of sonic actually liking amy back and being too shy to admit it. or that sonic SHOULD agree to be amys boyfriend because amy "deserves it after waiting for so long" and by not doing that sonic is mean or immature or leading her on. or that yeah sonic isnt interested Now but they Will get married as adults. or whatever people go around saying.

for the entire time amy was actually open about her crush and trying to get sonic to date her he would almost always either outright reject her or just not say anything but still obviously be uncomfortable or annoyed by it. to say that he actually has always liked her or that he Should like her just feels like youre saying his feelings of not being interested in amy or romance in general arent valid and are a problem that needs to be fixed. that he MUST be with amy just because she likes him and he needs to get over any discomfort he has with the idea because he doesnt have a choice. its like people are so obsessed with shipping that theyre ignoring sonics feelings or at the very least prioritizing amys over his . Hello can anyone hear me

#also people getting mad at sonic for not wanting to be in a serious committed relationship . hes 15 ????? #and sonic not wanting a romantic relationship still wouldnt be a problem even if he was an adult to be clear #its just especially weird and unrealistic to expect a teenager to ''settle down'' or whatever #expecting it from amy is a bit strange too considering shes even younger than sonic . but Whatever #sorry for the long rant. every day i wake up and see terrible takes about sonic and amy and what their relationship is/should be like #the ideal resolution to the whole crush thing isnt sonic eventually liking her back #its sonic never liking her that way but amy being ok with that and accepting that and theyre still best friends #that is what would be best for them as characters i think #mandatory disclaimer that i love amy #because ive seen some people act like hating so//namy or sh//adamy or whatever other amy ship #and liking amy as a character are mutually exclusive opinions. which is annoying and i dont want people assuming i hate amy #okay to reblog by the way but not if youre going to try to argue with me becuase i dont feel like arguing about this lmao

[butchviking]

actually 2 b honest most of my Emotional Issues rn just boil down 2 im lonely. im literally just lonely.

#this was expected im kind of working my way out of a weird codependent friendship #which i hung about in way too long exactly BECAUSE i knew id isolated myself over the course of it #and had that whole 'oh but if i lose this then there is No-One and yet if i stay here at least theres One Person' thing #so i did literally know this was coming 2 bite me eventually. whatever. in a year it will all b fine. things take time #transitional periods in life are just difficult ig. but its better than sticking w something that aint working. #whhhatever. the time will pass anyways

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Every bookbinding tutorial i found online: "DO NOT TRY THE COPTIC STITCH AS A BEGINNER ITS TOO ADVANCED"

Me who has only bound one book before and used a completely different method: "ehh it can't be that hard"

2 hours later

.....I was right. Its not that hard.

#its technically slightly wrong cuz i dont have signatures #im just doing one folded piece of paper at a time #which does take longer #but i was expecting that #doing actual signatures would have a. been way too thick cuz im using watercolor paper and getting them to lay flat wouldve been annoying #and also i wouldve had to pay a lot more attention to how the pages were actually laid out #and this project was already kinda overwhelming without that added in #im also combining methods a bit cuz im also gonna glue the spine with wood glue for extra support #and i also dont want the stitching to be visible #every tutorial was also like ''coptic stitch is great for exposed stitching!!!'' like cool story. not why im using it. gonna cover that shit #also finding one that wasnt in video form AND actually showed everything i needed to know was completely impossible apparently #i needed to know how to attach a fresh string when i run out cuz i always struggle with that in any sewing project #and generally need a refresher each time #and all the written ones were just like ''just make sure your string is long enough before hand!!! but not so much that it becomes #tangled!!!'' bitch im making a much thicker book than you. i cannot just use ONE string. it b #absolutely WILL become tangled if i make it long enough to finish the binding in one go. #yall are WEAK #my book is 3 times thicker than yours #i need to know how to attach a fresh string #the video tutorials cover that but i had to fast forward through most of it #im running out of steam for tonight (hence why im here and not working on it) so ill be finishing this tomorrow #was hoping to get this part done over the weekend but i ended up not getting a lot of the writing done on friday as i intended #cuz i ended up having to play tech support for my friend so she could update her sims mods

[dnangelic]

tbh it's kind of interesting to me that dark always wanted a merge and completely rejected krad's idea of keeping daisuke's body for himself. there's the obvious reasons as to why like dark simply Not Wanting to be Krad and loathing operating at all as an 'infection' forcefully taking over their bodies and completely erasing the hikari's selves--- hiwatari's 'if a shadow is behind the circle, then you have a hole' (if the shadow is within the circle, you have a full sphere,) line comes to mind, throw in the whole dark is love / krad is sorrow thing, and you get the idea that 'grief and intense unregulated sorrow doesn't just take something away from you, but also makes you lose parts (or sometimes the whole) of yourself,' but then what does that say for dark? love and desire can change you into something you are, but aren't? (in both a healthy, and also very ominous and unhealthy way, of course.) had dark and any of his hosts actually 'become one' wouldn't you end up with a brand new third entity, a literal composite? my intrigue comes the most from the way that dark at least superficially behaves in such an intensely independent way, but then between stealing for half-selfless reasons, his miserable history, the way he outright desperately doesn't want to be forgotten even if he thinks poorly of himself as a bad person and yet also avoids/excises himself from so many intimacies --- was he really willing and interested in becoming one with his hosts even if it meant getting rid his old, individual self?? for all his bravado and natural arrogant personality, all the signs pretty much point to dark and dark alone wanting to merge so that he'd either be 'better' as a person, more suitable as a real, proper human being, and/or so that he wouldn't have to be, (or rather, keep being,) alone???

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #this is definitely how im writing him at least. dnangel is too friendship don't leave me alonecore #dark has. the range #he loves himself he hates himself he's the greatest ever he's lower than the low ✨ #dark was born perfect and also his existence is a massive mistake in MistaKE #he wants what he can never ever obtain for as long as he's only himself for so long he's been trapped in stagnancy #it's only daisuke that gets him to change!!! #this got longer than i expected #when rlly its just 'ud think dark would act more like krad almost.' #ud think hed be the more belligerent one. the one who wants to violently take over his host's bodies rather than just #combine with them at all and potentially dilute/lose himself in the process 🧍‍♂️ #either dark thought it was completely worth it bc he'd have everything he wanted even if he wasn't necessarily fully 'there' for it #or he thinks so lowly of himself that in his eyes. in his truest opinion. his hosts are always better than him #poto erikcore #'i can't go on living like this like a mole in a cellar i'm sick of it i'm sick of it' #either way. hes been suffering bigtime til daisuke

[criscura]

I wish I wasn't so exhausted and I could make more art.... I even planned out a whole prompt-a-day month for Saigenos/Genosai, TWICE, but the first time no one seemed like they could participate when I asked about it, and the second time I friggin lost the damned plan. I could remake it a third time, but I just....I don't know.

I've been really struggling to get along for a while, and I think if it didn't hit it off--or even if I just got really productive and it seemed like I was reaching crickets--I'd be so incredibly discouraged that it would bring me down even further. It usually takes my stuff a few months to a year to get reach, and that really doesn't do anything for me when I need the support immediately.

It's not that I don't have a billion ideas for so many different things, but my battery has been taking longer and longer to charge up and it's been running out faster and faster, and it's been like this for....a year?? Ish?? Maybe longer, I don't know.

I wish I could just stop needing so much fucking time to bounce back.....

#written from my bed as I'm almost crying from exhaustion and hopelessness #I'm PMSing and I had a really tiring day so i know this feels worse than normal #but when you've been struggling to fall asleep for months because waking up means being disappointed in yourself #for everything you failed to do the day before and everything you know you're going to fail to do again today #it's really hard not to feel like shit about yourself #trying to be constantly hopeful but never living up to your expectations #and then the few times that you do you completely crash for days #and then the only way to not crash is to have your big accomplishment be 'i went to the gym' 'i took a shower' 'i answered a message' #and just. again #to have the be the way you're living for months and months and months #it's so embarrassing to admit how little i can do and it makes me so ashamed knowing how much I've done and see what everyone else around me #is constantly doing #and then when i do share things it just kind of dies off because I've been too exhausted to maintain most relationships #which ALSO makes me feel like absolute fucking shit because i think people think i just don't care about them #when it's really that it takes me hours to get out of bed and I'm lucky if i remember to eat before 4 #and I hate so much of myself and see it as such a huge waste of time that it uses up almost all the energy i have to take care of myself #but if i don't do it I'll just hate myself even more #i know i keep on complaining about this but I'm. I'm trying to fix it #i have BEEN trying to fix it actively for so fucking long #but it's.....i think I've stopped believing anything i do has significant worth and it makes it hard to keep trying #and i know people will read this and say take something for it but when you're only interactions with medications and drugs #are one experience that scarred you so bad you didn't go to the doctors for ten years and one experience so bad #that you couldn't even explain it at first without HARDCORE disassociating #it's hard to convince yourself that anything will ever be any better and that it won't make everything intensely worse for years

[skyeateyourdonuts]

weeoo

#this is gonna be me talking in tags today #ive been rather sleep deprived lately trying to keep up with everything around me #and its been taking a toll on my health like #if i go too long like this i tend to feel more lethargic and my allergies kick in #i got a sore throat bc my room has been Freezing and then i get headaches way way easier #often times my face will flush but its just my nose and idk why #well anyways lmao i just aint feelin great due to lack of sleep #so i emailed my teachers and stayed home and others might say this wasnt it #but i can barely get to sleep at all these days and just bed ridding myself #seemed like the only way for my body to be like #'fine 🙄 u can sleep' lmao #thats actually one of the worst symptoms is im restless i just Cant grt to sleep no matter how hard i try #ive had a couple days where i was running on 2-3 hours bc i spent even longer Laying there #anyways i hope this makes a difference im tired of feeling tired and shitty #luckily my mood has weirdly been high #its just my sleep and health that are low #i think when the sleepiest soldiers are unable to get sleep thats when u know smths wrong #i think also so much is happening and me trying to keep up is taking more outta me than i expected #im a gal who gets overwhelmed easily even if im happy w whats happening lmao #tho im not Happy im more In a Good Mood lmao #side tangent but i HATE being an adult who doesnt have like idk Help lmao #like my dad was so nice to me sometimes and helped me sometimes #i could go a whole day sleeping bc id be fucking exhausted #and hed qake me up and ask me when i last ate and if i couldnt decide but itd been too long #hed make smth for the both pf us or hed make it For me and id just be able to like recover lmao #ah adulthood is hard lmao #alright im done #gata #no need to read <3 yall

[randomszzz]

from square one, just looking at their respective introductions, these games have different priorities.  Rindo’s character arc is weaker than neku’s?  Yeah, neo is less interested in Rindo than twewy is in neku, and it never pretended otherwise.  Preferring twewy is understandable, hell, same, but knocking neo for not having the same focus and approach never makes sense to me.

#twewy #ntwewy #neo twewy #the world ends with you #neo the world ends with you #These games have different strengths and one will resonate more than other for everyone #but dragging neo for having 'weaker' characters is such a disregard for what the game is trying to do #I still think twewy is more successful on delivering on its premise than neo! neo has issues divorced of living in twewy's shadow #You go into neo expecting twewy you're in for rough time why didn't you process a new day why didn't you look at the credits #trying to outdo twewy feels like a futile exercise anyways so really good on the devs for trying something different #there's still missed opportunities and things I wish were fleshed out more too much vagueness here and there #takes way too long to develop stakes #but also the relationship development in this game is really enjoyable. #rindo and shoka and fret and nagi slowly growing bonds #and like. as a game it's A+. and that soundtrack #its fine if the story didn't resonate as much

[coquelicoq]

i finally wrote an xword that i think might be nyt-submittable...i originally wrote it for the local paper though so i now have to go back through and rework the clues to take out the specific local ones and make some of the others harder. i know exactly which day of the week this would run in the nyt (if it gets accepted) because this type of theme always runs on the same day, so at least i know which clue difficulty to aim for, but i'm still finding it difficult to hit that precise level! i'm used to just making the clues as easy as possible because my local paper's audience is mostly people who aren't xword aficionados. i already reworked this puzzle a couple times based on feedback from friends and family but that was all still when i thought i'd be running it in my local paper. i kinda just want to be done with it but i've never had a theme and fill i thought were completely nyt-worthy before!

#i've been thinking that i would write a puzzle that was intended for the nyt from the beginning #but i never prioritize it because the local paper is actually expecting something from me and i have deadlines with them #so this might be the only way it ever actually happens #i feel kinda bad for the local paper that they don't even get my best work haha but also this theme would probably be too hard #for most of their audience (though let's face it probably all of my puzzles are too hard for various reasons) #aw shoot though i just reread the submission guidelines and they're specifically looking for themes OTHER THAN this type #hmmm #cruciverbs #i also wouldn't mind submitting this in collaboration with a more experienced constructor who could help me with the clues #and i imagine such people are always looking for greenhorn collaborators because it allows them to have >3 submissions #in the queue...but i don't even know how one goes about finding such people #if i submit it and they reject it no harm no foul EXCEPT that i don't know how long it would take them to get back to me #and if this isn't going to run in the nyt then i'd still like to run it in the local paper #but also maybe if they reject it they'll be like 'we don't want this but you seem to have promise so here's the email address of #one of our veteran constructors who would be willing to work with you on other ideas you may have' #i just made that up idk if they would actually do that haha but it seems plausible. and wouldn't it be nice? #i do have another nyt-specific idea that i've been spinning my wheels on for like two years #hmm hmm hmm. i think my best bet is still to rework these clues and submit it and see what happens #worst case scenario is they never get back to me. which is a distinct possibility given what happened with my #american xword puzzle tournament previous year solved puzzles (ie they never got back to me >:( ) #but that was will shortz. this is will shortz plus like 5 other people. he probably doesn't even see new submissions

[miscellaneous--bones]

Hey quick survey type thing, if you've ever commissioned an artist, especially if you've commissioned multiple artists,

Please reblog for a bigger sample size, I'm trying to figure out what the normal standard of time is on finishing a commission and this would really help me out :)

#i know not to rush or burn myself out and such but ive got some real life stuff getting in the way and im not sure if i should be worried #that im taking too long or not. i know certain works will take longer and it depends a bit on the artists work speed and if they have #a waitlist or anything such #but itd still be nice to know if theres a base time its usually expected to take. to know when itd seem appropriate to say hey this is l #going to take a little longer than normal and junk #artists on tumblr #art poll #commission #commissions #artist survey #artist poll #idk how else to tag this. u get the idea

[sugar--pain]

Kinda tempted to go back to identifying as aromantic but from the perspective of "I have chosen to love everyone that I have dated. I can choose to stop." but I don't know how well that would go over.

#I mean easily parts of us can identify as such just not collectively #so i guess that's why I'm saying it here #like. it's not wrong #some part of my brain has always decided that for whatever reason loving someone was in my best interest. #and only then did I develop interest Like That. #Usually we would like someone and want their attention want to be their friend and they'd develop interest #and we'd adjust to match their energy because they wanted that from us #for a while we argued amongst each other #that it wasn't valid if we didn't agree. pondering if this is ever valid #i saw people say it was popular to say that we don't choose to love #but i just don't relate to that #i know exactly how my brain works. and i can successfully convince it to love someone. and i can successfully convince it to stop. #i don't think being calculative is wrong #and honestly i think our feeling these things aren't genuine just because we can control it. it doesn't seem fair. #i'm fully capable of love. and there's nothing wrong with me deciding to love because it seems like it'd benefit us both. #and if we're already feeding each other anyway i just don't see anything wrong with accepting what's happening. #i don't like the expectations that get pulled with it. #i want to be able to independently decide what and when i want. i don't like labels. #i like that we're an anarchist but not everyone can even be on the same page about what that means #i know we left the aromantic community because they got too specific and a lot of ideas became too stiff and twisted in to reactionary #misunderstandings but how long can we keep leaving communities and cutting ourself off in to something nebulous #because of a problem that'll folllow us no matter where we go? #i think we can define ourselves any number of ways #i don't think any of them are wrong #bigger fools than i have claimed identities that were more maligned than my own #and when it's inevitable who's to say it's wrong #we're all who we are at the end of the day. these words can't contain or quantify us #they can be shortcuts but they can't define us #this is just how i live. it's about give and take #vv

[pepprs]

last few hours in boston :(

#purrs #conference tag #we literally just got here and now we have to go 😭💔 i havent rly felt as enriched by this conference as i have in the past (though there’s #still 2 more sessions to go to incl the closing plenary and we’re getting lunch in the station before the train ride home) but ive walked #around so much and have spent time with people i love and some people i miss. and have been on adventures i have been looking forward to for #a rly long time though i am kinda bummed i never made it down to fanueil square. but… idk what happiness feels like anymore but maybe for me #it’s just absence of misery and despair. or contented ness. i have gotten a little triggered from time to time these last few days and ive b #been lonely in my hotel room but MAN it has been nice to not be miserable and suffering and to take walks and to not go to every session (ev #even though i do feel bad abt it like i missed 2 plenaries and an afternoon concurrent session which is more than i usually miss) and to #be in this city which feels so much like brighton and so uncity like in some ways. it’s so charming and omg i went to harvard and it was #NOTHING like what i imagined it to be / feel like.. just a quaint artsy quirky town. and the rest of the places ive been have been like that #too. and people LIVE here every day!!!!! there’s a big beautiful world here both above ground and below!!!! and im gonna be late to #breakfast but… i just feel nourished and healed in a way i wasn’t expecting to. I haven’t been this far away from home in 3+ years and #it’s just been really nice being somewhere else and going on adventures and seeing things surviving. i miss my grandparents a lot and im sad #to not be visiting them and to be unable to visit them now lol but it’s just rly nice and special being here. im goingto miss it so much and #im trying to savor every second. i wish we had one more day here and im a little sad to be going home lol #* what i meant when talking about happiness earlier is that i think… i have been happy these last few days. for the first time in a really #really long one. and that’s nice. it’s good to be happy again. and good to be here

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

is it just the cogs of my brain whirring wildly or was bedelia kinda sorta in love with hannibal too?

#raj shitposting #i mean there must be a more concrete reason than just purely the fact that she got to live with hannibal that will hates her so much right? #idk sometimes it seems like she deliberately does what hannibal tells her to and deliberately lies to save him some amount of trouble. #her accompanying him rather than just killing him on the spot in antipasto is tantamount to her being acquiescent. #or as she put it for will... cooperative. her choosing to spare him in that moment was not wisdom it was foolishness. #and we've only seen two people being that foolish besides her. alana and will. jack was ignorant for a long time but he came to his senses. #and to be honest alana only got the threat of death because she dared to take away hannibal's dignity. ONLY because she was rude to him. #she really didn't have to “obfuscate” for him. she could have simply told jack that hannibal was fucked up when he asked her the first time #i think i realised that bedelia probably had some latent feelings about hannibal when will asked her why she lied for hannibal so much. #it was because of will that i realised that she perhaps along the way lost a “professional” perspective towards her relationship with him. #they were obviously friends before that but when she corrected hannibal once by telling him that they were not friends but colleagues... #my brain had already started working up on that she was trying not to fall for him and maybe that was the only way she thought she wouldn't #but she did anyway. and maybe that's the reason why will hates her. i mean he would know if she were in love with hannibal right? #it sometimes does feel like she wants to save him. she was kinda salty that will let hannibal surrender like that in their sessions. #i mean she was probably jealous of will which was why she was such an asshole to him. i don't find any other reason for her to act that way #i mean she is a psychiatrist you wouldn't expect her to lose her shit like that at someone. but she does. that too at will. like- #-it's too much of a coincidence to let it go. she could have ratted hannibal out any time but she doesn't. even though she had leverage. #i'm thinking too much about this man... sighs anyway #bedelia du maurier #miss will graham #hannibal #hannigram

[halchron]

okay since we don't know that much about versus xiii / a lot of it is left to speculation about what actually was going to happen, here's just a few thoughts on what's up with prompto in my verse for it. all my understanding from what could've happened comes from this post.

still a clone, though from the beginning he's known that he's verstael's "son". however, to tie it into what might have actually happened in vs xiii, prompto isn't actually verstael's son that he preformed all his failed experiments on, but rather the first clone and only clone that had potential to control both his human and daemon dna after the death of his actual son. every other failed clone was instead made into mts or kept to preform further experiments on.

once the gang finally gets to niflheim, prompto does get controlled by verstael and requires noctis and the others to save him, though this happens due to a failsafe verstael put in all clones that allowed him to control them within a set vicinity.

due to his daemon blood, prompto can naturally see in the dark and has a natural affinity for dark type magic. however, due to the solheim genes also present from his human side, this also gives him an affinity for light magic ( though to a much less extent than the daemon side ). the solheim ancestry also prevents him from having more daemonic like features, though an extended use of his daemon dark magic makes prompto's scleras black while his pupils turn yellow while his veins becoming more predominant and black ( like ardyn's )

also he's aware that cor was the one to rescue him from niflheim, though he was still raised by cor's cousin. regardless he does see cor as his father and looks up to him, though he keeps their relationship a secret per cor's request ( cor still loves his son though and taught him how to defend himself and shoot firearms long before prom became a crownsguard )

besides what i listened above, not much else is different except that he's in general more confident in a casual way as he's aware of his past from the beginning and has come to terms with it, relatively speaking. of course, he still has his self esteem issues, but not as bad as they are in his regular verse. his self esteem goes down when verstael controls him and he thinks that he will hurt his friends if he stays with them, but soon recovers after they give him the spiel that they do in regular xv

#☾ ━ prompto ( headcanons ). #perhaps a hot take but I actually like xv's story more than what could've been bc from what I gathered vs xiii just seems too convoluted lo #even if xv's story is flawed and definitely could've been way better #REGARDLESS here's my thoughts which are really just a mix of the two lol #gonna be 100% real with y'all I really skimmed half of that long ass post bc I saw etro and I was like lord not again #granted it's literally versus xiii so what else should I expect lol

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

right. so. i meant to be writing the thasmissy fic. i did not do that but

i can explain

#hit over the head with the obsession baseball bat #hit SO hard i think i have a concussion #i might actually be more excited for the mcr us tour in 2 months than dw now this is BLASPHEMY dsfhgkjfhg #nuts this is the quickest a special interest has ever taken hold of me it usually takes like. a season #bc it's usually tv so it usually takes the first season. it took all of s12 in 2020 #but this was like... last sunday i told my sister like 'you know gerard way? theyre kinda cool maybe' #and this sunday i was painting the biggest painting ive ever done and it’s THEIR FACE #one week ago i was like 'idk i want to like it but this music is really not my genre' and two days later i was listening to it all day #a wEEK #like unfollow me now this is gonna be the only thing i talk about for the next week #actually no thats not true ive got nothing interesting to say about mcr #i did expect/hope to wean myself off of dw but i didnt expect it to get so violently replaced by something else #better than having nothing for a bit tbh #anyway it's not really replaced either im still writing fic and making videos #and i dont think mcr is gonna become a real special interest bc it has the obstacle of having real people so i cant get too involved #so it’ll just stay a fling i think. i Am excited for new music though. im excited for the old music! #i think the obsession will pass soon tho. fucking hope so this is the worst. im so annoying abt this #but for as long as it lasts it at least has produced maybe the best painting ive ever done. i think this might be the best #aND IT WAS SO FUN do you know how much fun it is to paint this big?? im never painting anything small ever again #also i Have actually been slowly working on a scene this past week in my notes app but it’s absolutely unnecessary thoschei octopus sex #like what i SHOULD be doing is loadbearing scenes to fill in the plot gaps. what i AM doing is more of the this. #more of the garbage that needs Connecting #anyway i didnt paint the mic bc i couldnt be bothered. i like painting faces and hands i dont care about objects sorry #hashtag artistic choice #mcrposting