#this reads like a joke because it is but it's also true

[helloworldjj]

rui subconsciously preparing himself for rejection even when he first meets wxs… ough my heart </3

obviously the main story is meant to introduce rui’s eccentricities comically, but is it just me or is he also just testing tsukasa in ch 9?

he reads tsukasa’s script and then goes on to suggest LIGHTNING. as if conjuring concentrated electricity is the most normal thing in the world. and he KNOWS he seems insane for it

he even highlights the danger of it to tsukasa, making it seem like he’s not prioritizing tsukasa’s safety at all, even though we know damn well he would beat himself up over it if he actually hurt anyone. (hell, the first wxs event was literally all about that) like, it very much seems like rui is exaggerating his own eccentric nature

and then when tsukasa is apprehensive about the idea, he’s dramatic, pulling out puppy eyes and seemingly joking around about leaving

and it might seem like some funny manipulative farce to force tsukasa to let rui test out whatever ideas he had, but alternatively, it might’ve just been a farce put up in order for rui to protect his feelings. he saw that tsukasa was backtracking, not actually as willing to surpass expectations as he claimed, so rui was genuinely going to leave, likely because he didn’t want to face tsukasa’s rejection and judgement. he had exemplified the risk, knowing how any normal person would react to it, because then he could just say “oh well, i knew nobody would want to do anything this crazy anyways.” he didn’t actually believe that someone would accept him or his ideas and was prepared to be alone as per usual

which is why it makes sense that he’s surprised when tsukasa (albeit reluctantly) actually AGREES to the lightning

it’s too good to be true, so he throws more crazy ideas at tsukasa: a flamethrower, launching tsukasa w jets installed in the stage; trying to push him away before rui can feel the pain of rejection again

yet, tsukasa rises to meet rui’s challenges anyway

rui has FINALLY found people who are ready to carry out his ideas to the best of their abilities and he’s noticeably happier, which nene points out

after nene and rui part, he’s off excitedly shopping for parts and gadgets for the show. he’s found a place where he belongs. where he doesn’t have to face rejection anymore. where he has people who will support and actually fulfill his ideas. people who will see him as more than just a weirdo. he doesn’t have to be alone anymore.

this idea of a found home in wxs is reiterated in every rui event, and to think he was once afraid that they might reject him too </3

(rui, you make me want to chomp on a desk :’) )

#im back at it again: ruiposting after ages of just lurking #what can i say #this ourple guy has a hold on me #rui kamishiro #pjsk #project sekai #colorful stage #hatsune miku: colorful stage #wonderlands x showtime #wxs

[maddy-ferguson]

it's actually fascinating that i'm not depressed rn because my life isn't that much better than it was when i actually was depressed (2019). i mean i guess it is a little better because my grandma didn't just die and i'm not in love with someone who doesn't like me back and i also kind of know where i'm going with school and presumably life and i don't call the place i live in my cell because of how small it is but the foundations are still very shaky

#this reads like a joke because it is but it's also true #i remember in october of 2018 like a month after my grandma had died i was at my grandparents' house for the first time since she had died #or for the first time since her funeral ig because i spent a few days there while she was in the hospital and after her funeral etc. and i #was thinking about my life and about how very boring it was. and i had basically always thought that but from that moment on it was like an #actual situation and then i started being sad all the time in like january (not even right after my grandma died because of course i loved #her very much but it wasn't even about that) and then in march or maybe april i started feeling empty more than sad and that was just crazy #and then in july i started wanting to kill myself and i finally understood what people on the internet were talking about and anyway. bad #year. but it's like. okay i had all that going on but i remember being like how did i deal with my life being this lame before #because it was never good. i was stupid to enjoy it and to not feel like killing myself every second of every day. and when i stopped being #depressed (incidentally when i stopped being invested in my friendship with the girl i was in love with like literally my grandpa died in #december of 2019 and it was terrible and i was very sad but it still didn't stop me from getting better😭 so crazy our relationship was just #THAT bad for me) i remember being SO grateful that my life was back to being boring i was like i would rather be at a 5-6 all the time than #go from 11 to -5 in five minutes and so i really liked feeling bored but not empty and it's crazy because i still feel like that when it's #been almost four years like i was expecting that feeling to fade a little. but i'm also like well maybe i should do things to make my life #better because the only reason i'm not depressed rn is just because i don't have one more bad thing going on like i'm just lucky😭 #lmao. but also. i don't really want to i just wish i had one more friend #and like i say: brf slt #tw suicide #<- for me #my friend i was in love with was a very nice girl she never really did anything to me if we had been friends at any other time in my life w #would probably still be friends. or i guess not because i WAS in love with her but like i had issues with our friendship that i never would #have had if it had been any other year in my life i was crying up to 10 times a day at one point in late august because she hadn't #talked to me in like 25 hours like i was not normal😭😭😭 #i was very close to my grandparents i saw them like at least one week every month even though they lived 400kms away and spent all my #holidays with them it was my mother and them that raised me and my sister them dying altered the fabric of my life. for context

[communistkenobi]

I’m curious if other communists have like a religious relationship to their political beliefs for lack of a better word? That’s not a good word to use but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m solidly atheist but all of the feelings and emotions religious people talk about, revelation and spiritual connection to community and so on are all things I experience pretty regularly and I interpret those feelings as fundamentally communist. the way I take in and absorb information in particular feels revelatory in a religious sense. I’m pretty sure this is fairly common with MLs but I’m curious about it in general

#disabling rbs because I don’t want this to leave my blog #I’m using religious in a deliberately loaded way because I lack the language for alternatives #I joke frequently with my friend that communism is the religion of science but like I do unironically believe that lol #also not claiming marxism is ‘just another religion’ I do not think that’s true or useful to think of it in those terms #but if you take political theology seriously the belief in a socialist state is like the modern version of a desire for religious authority #anyway sorry extremely complicated things that I’m not remotely expanding on enough #I’ve just been thinking about it a lot recently #it’s like a totalising force in my life and shapes the way I interpret and understand the world and my relationship to it #I remember reading marx for the first time and in a very real sense I ‘converted’ to being a communist #I need to read more Benjamin because he goes into like jewish mythology and stuff in his work #but like him talking about the divine violence of the state made it click for me and is partly responsible for me making this post

[secretlythatsme]

anyway, i think my hot take regarding the whole canon vs fanon thing for the dpxdc fandom is that fanon is fine but it also gets boring. there's a reason why 90% of the dpxdc creative content feels exactly the same. i'm not trying to like,, shit on anyone's work, but so many of these fics are very, very similar in plot and dynamics. and that's a product of the fact that most of the fandom doesn't actually know anything about dc.

if you're relying solely on fandom osmosis to learn about the characters and events, then you end up missing out on a lot. it's not Bad, but it's basically the footnotes. the sparknotes. the starred review compared to the actual book. you aren't getting a lot, is what i'm saying. and that's why so much of the content feels exactly the same! it's because everyone is getting their info from the same decade old jokes. so creative work ends up blending into each other because the creators don't actually have anything else to work with (because they don't Know anything else) so they rely on the same five fanon jokes and headcanons that they do know.

as a dc fan, i Do encourage dpxdc fans to look into dc and read the comics and be more active on the dc side of things, not because fanon is inherently Bad, but because it opens up so many more avenues for creativity. i'd love to see people talk about danny fighting evil vampire nightwing or going on missions with karen or having fun with kara. but most dp fans don't even know characters outside of the most popular 10 and know even less about any of the plots or universes. so like, it's not exactly a surprise that every fic sounds the same. and like. does that not get boring to you guys?

#i'm sorry ik some of this sounds mean but its true aldghk #its not a bad thing but it is a noticeable thing #and im sure there are plenty of dp fans who are still having fun and dont mind this #but im sure there are also some dp fans who'd also like some variety #and that variety could be there! if you guys knew more about dc #there are so many characters! so many universes! so much you can do! #stop fighting about canon vs fanon and have fun with how much dc content there is!! #you don't have to read Everything but it definitely helps to read Some things #you'll get more ideas! more aus! more headcanons! more over the top jokes! #dc has SO much content for you to explore!!! why wouldnt you want to take advantage of that? #like you'll literally never run out of content to explore because there's just So much and they keep making more of it #even old forgotten characters get brought back every now and then #like! have fun with the canon that's there! and you'll be able to have more fun with your fanon!!! #dcxdp #im sorry but i really dont think ill ever be able to understand Why dp fans dont want to engage with canon dc content #its weird to me it truly is and i dont think anyone will change my mind honestly #ive seen all the replies and vague posts about it but it usually just amounts to #'we dont care about canon and we just want to have fun' which like. yeah. sure. but like.. #are you saying you would have Less fun if you knew more about dc? #like.. #if you genuinely like these characters then you would like their runs?? 😭 huh ??? #it doesnt make sense to me! i dont get it! if you like them why would you have less fun reading about them!! #what!! #anyway yeah my hot take is that you should engage with the source material because it actually makes things More fun #why have dp fans convinced themselves that theyll hate dc canon i dont get it #its like reverse stockholm syndrome

[ginalinettiofficial]

played the game ok boomer at my family party today, ended up explaining to a room of ~20 of my relatives what fanfiction is so they could understand the question, “in fanfiction, what does AU stand for?”. and then the card’s definition of “AU” was wrong so i also had to get into the concept of “canon”.

can u believe. in front of my whole family. a room full of people, aged 3 to 80. all staring at me intently as i explain the difference between an alternate universe and canon divergence. at one point my mom was like “daina i think we get it” and a cousin and two aunts were like “wait no we’re interested please continue” and i had to say to my own mother in front of god and my i am kenough sweatshirt “sorry but unlike you the rest of them DON’T have to listen to me talk about fanfiction on the regular”. my uncle is a retired judge. my one cousin worked for the federal government in a job that was so classified that for years he literally couldn’t legally tell us about ANYTHING he was working on. and today those men sat and patiently listened to me define “coffee shop AU”.

also, not one, not two, but THREE of the answers for the young folks, i knew solely because they were either plot points on stranger things or they were things i found out whilst reading stranger things fanfics. and then i was the only person in our age bracket (10 people, ranging from ages 9 to 42) that knew who anne rice was, and had to explain yet again that the reason i had this knowledge was because… fanfic.

it was surreal. also my aunt, aged 68, may or may not begin attempting to read fanfic now because, according to her, “there are so many stories where there are these small side characters and i’d just KILL to hear their backstory or like what was going through their minds during the main action!” i’m very happy for her. today was wild.

#d speaks #the things i knew because of stranger things: who ripped a bats head off on stage. what year the challenger exploded. the ghostbusters theme #in case ur curious the way the game worked is there was a set of questions for people born pre 1980 and a set of questions for people born #post 1980 and you split into the two teams and you take turns reading trivia questions to each other #the questions for the young ppl were things like above - who wrote interview w a vampire #what year did the challenger explode. who are the fab four. true or false elvis had a twin. #the questions for the old people were like: what does BAE stand for. in fanfiction what’s an AU. who won the first american idol. #it was a weird game but very educational #and funny to play with my little cousins because as i said anywhere from 2-4 of them are gen alpha depending on how u define it #so it was very interesting to see what sorts of things have been passed down culturally and what sorts of things stayed solely in their time #it was sort of reminiscent of are you smarter than a fifth grader in some ways #also no one asked but. the teams were: #old team: 4 solid boomers. 3 boomer/gen x cuspers. 3 gen x’ers. #young team: 2 xennial cusps. 2 millennials. 1 zillennial cusp. 1 zoomer. 2 zalpha cusp. 2 gen alphas #and then also our 3 year old cousin who technically is gen alpha but he was more moral support than anything you understand #though at one point he DID declare that he wanted to play - picked up a card and ‘read’: #‘santa comes he eats the milk and cookies. poop goes in the potty’ in the EXACT cadence of someone asking a trivia question lmfao #love that kid. he also told me a few knock knock jokes #mainly they were like. knock knock. who’s there. candy cane. candy cane who. candy cane on your head!!!!!!!! #a true comedic genius that boy

[prolibytherium]

I am often told I have the most dead lifeless eyes

#This reads like a joke post but for real people say this to me crazy often given how that's kind of a weird and mean thing to say #Like it doesn't bother me because it's true and funny and also a fair statement to say about light eyes in general but still #'cold eyes' 'dead eyes' 'lifeless eyes' 'serial killer eyes' etc it's incredible #(Got told that again at my job which is what prompted the post from a couple hours ago)

[crossbackpoke-check]

18 + swaymark!!

oooo thank you!!

#18 - pleaser, wallows + swaymark

okay i know they are canonically obsessed with each other but. the song is in some ways about feeling like you’re failing in your relationship and being not quite as obsessed with them as they maybe are with you, and in this video of them talking about being a tandem, there is the slightest pause before swayman answers “do you miss him?” that makes me want to probe a wound. we’re not talking irl reasons of how that’s an absurd question (how do you miss him. you’re coworkers you’re seeing each other all the time) we’re talking that maybe this whole goalies-in-love thing got blown out of proportion and now swayman’s having to buy into the bit too hard. linus loves it & everyone’s asking about their bromance & how they love each other so much and the thing is—linus is safe. he’s got a wife and plausible deniability and jeremy? jeremy is gay. sure, he can crack jokes and people-please but the more people ask the more they're going to find out until maybe they find out something jeremy doesn't want them to know. and the longer this goes on, the more jeremy has to sit at linus' dinner table with linus and his beautiful wife and pretend like he isn't a little bit in love with him. and you know what? the longer it goes on and linus doesn't dial it down jeremy does stop being in love with him, because it just feels cruel, until he finally is done enough that he stops biting his tongue and ruins the moment.

#…this so is not a five sentence summary but ALSO this manages to perfectly align with something i was obsessed with (that media video) #like yeah is that pause reasonably a buffering time to a weird question? yes!!! do i want to read into it & make swayman a bit uncomfortabl #also yes!!! sorry i decided to give them tragique but they were assigned by spotify. the other option for this song was an ED fix-it fic #about healthy sex and learning that it can be a part of a normal relationship!! sex is weird and fucked up!! but like. that’s just because #i have always interpreted this song as a) unrequited best friend love & you’re worried you’re gonna fuck it up b) virgin who doesn’t know #what sex is and is scared to tell anyone and then option c) people pleaser keeps going along with it but can’t anymore #also OBVIOUSLY they end up fine. whether that ends up being jeremy finally telling linus (oblivious) i don’t want to do this with you #i need to get over you & them creating a platonic space & sway ends up with someone else OR linus has the oh. true. i simply never #considered that i could be gay for you option OR the one i have just invented but is now my favorite because i love a good polycule is that #linus & his wife simply add jeremy to their relationship. and then this song becomes jeremy scared to have sex with linus’ wife at first lo #liv in the replies #the interviews in that video doing the lord’s work fr but also that ‘do you not miss him’ feels SO uncomfortable. say no! but then he leans #in with the dirty jokes comment & i know i’ve made like eight variations already (sorry. that’s how my brain works) but it is soooo fun #to me personally if they are broken up but now have to act nice & keep doing all these rituals & sell us on the narrative & they’re just #trying to see who’s going to crack first. needle each other into laughing or getting irritated enough it shows through & the other one wins #do even more aggressive hug rituals!! get a medical warning from the athletic training staff!!!

[sunnywalnut]

My favorite thing is when new people send me pictures of their animals and I get to gush and baby talk to the little creatures over text and either

A: they laugh and everyone has a good time

B: they send me a video of them reading off the messages/relaying the message to the Small One

Or C: they do an odd little reaction that says that they think I'm fucking crazy and would not tolerate ANY of my whimsy and in that case I get to be like ykw kewl see you later friend

Cause if you can't handle me at my "goodness look at that handsome boy" you DEFINITELY don't deserve me at my 3am niche wizard memes and I like to keep my good luck spells for people that actually deserve it

Which. If you're reading this and you're in need of some good vibes. This is your lucky day. Get hit with the good vibes. Your spirit is immediately lifting and you're super gorgeous, okay? You're awesome and wonderful and all the good things and I NEED you to tell yourself that. Even if it's just in your head. Say it with me.

"I am super gorgeous."

"I am deserving of good things."

"I'm an awesome cool wizard."

Okay? Awesome. You did great bestie. I love you.

Okay now your turn.

"I love me."

Fuckin fantastic dude. You're doing great. You got this.

#parasocial relationship for the winnn #i actually really love positive rambling like this #because it's literally just shit that i need to tell myself and now i get to share it with other people?? swag #also like it's actually really true. if you start saying positive stuff to yourself #even if it's in your head #you start to believe it #and that goes for negativity too #so try to be more mindful of that #and be kind to yourself okay? #you really are awesome #and you absolutely do deserve good things #that part wasn't a joke #good luck #i hope things get better for you #whoever's reading this #something tells me you need it

[fictionadventurer]

I think I deserve a medal for not engaging in Moffat discourse in the year of our Lord 2023

#saw someone claim the rache/rachel joke in sherlock was a sign the writers thought they were better than the source material #as if that joke isn't a sign of how much they love the source material #you only make references to details like that if you know the details #saying that 'rache' is a dumb answer is poking fun not at the original story but at the audience #if they've read the original they might think they know what the clue means #but sherlock holmes has to be smarter than the audience so in this version the opposite answer has to be true to maintain that surprise #(also i don't think anyone wanted the episode to veer into a novella-length flashback about mormons) #in general i remain baffled every time someone tries to claim moffat thinks himself a genius without flaws #when the biggest weaknesses in his writing come from his hyperawareness of his flaws #and his deep fear that the audience will get bored and change the channel #you can accuse sherlock of many flaws (and i do) but you cannot claim that the creators don't love the source material #this started because two fanboys talked about how much they love the stories #they are playing with the stories #having fun the way that fans do #loving the source material enough to poke fun and make inside jokes #and that deserves respect no matter how one may disagree with their particular fannish interpretation

[mkscatgirl]

Started talking about kdramas and now I can't sleep because I'm excited thinking about all the good ones I've seen

#speaking of i need to AT SOME POINT actually finish yunis cells because i never did thag OTL #theres so many i wanna see toooooooooooooooooooooooo #all because my bf made a typo that looked like he said im gong yoo instead of im going too #so then i naturally made a joke and then had to explain who gong yoo is and then my bf was like you watch kdramas #????** #and so OBVIOUSLY i had to go on about kdramas ive seen and liked #and also webtoons turned kdramas because i was ALSO talking about reading webtoons #and OBVIOUSLY i had to mention true beauty and the absolute trash it is #but also YUMIS CELLS!!!!!! KIM GOEUN THE GOAT!!!!!!!

[turtle-that-dabs-ironically]

Full offense but Tumblr takes on the barbie movie are so bad like I swear to you, I swear, it is not, and hear me when I say this, that deep.

#its a fucking gyno joke #they also made like ten about cellulite that weren't that funny #are we going to read into that too??? #like oh my god not everything is a fucking attack on us i promise #its literally just a silly goofy movie about beig a chick. #spoiler alert #there are chicks who have vaginas #oh no #oh god #i know its hard to forget that normal women have tk exist roght alongside cis women #but its true #the whole point of the movie is that women are so many different things #and that to see women as one thing or see one thing about a woman the reason shes a woman is Bad #like cmon guys #dont let the point of the whole fucking movie go right over your god damn head #because they said barbie had a vagina #they also said neither her or ken had genitals #and that didnt take away from their personhood or who they are #like seriously im genuinely mad that the whole movie is about all the different things that women face #and have to go through #from all types of backgrounds #whether you have no genitals or all the genitals #and yet we're still pissed because of a... gyno joke? #grow up please for the love of god #its a movie about plastic dolls #made for the dolls #and dont tell me i just dont get it because im transmasc like. stop. for the love of god #stop pretending transmascs just dont have the capacity for critical thinking #its infantalizing and objectively incorrect

[aether-friskets]

I was thinking about the kinds of characters I often like most in games and such, and yknow.

Maybe my real gender all along was silent protagonist

... Ironically, one of the main obvious characters I like that doesn't fit that bill is from a game with "silent" in the name

#rambles #this is a joke but also #yeah 👍 #obviously I like plenty of characters that AREN'T that #but a lot of my faves even from childhood are either silent #or just don't talk much lol #maybe I like the empty space it leaves for inference #or maybe if you don't talk much you're less likely to annoy me lol #or I just find people who talk less more relatable #... Or easier to project onto lol #I know I ramble on here a lot but that's because sometimes I don't even think about how people probably read all this #it's like all the random thoughts that I dont bother saying elsewhere I guess #anyway I'm rambling now #true to the tag

[quemirabobo]

Looking back to high school, my friends and i took every opportunity we had (and those we didn't we took them anyway) to act in the most awkward way possible

#I'm not talking about behavior (although it would also be true) #I'm talking about acting #we turned every presentation as an excuse to act and deliver the most terrible performance with 98% inside jokes that no one understood #it was so fun and out of the blue i would do it all over again #we also had theater classes and we acted everytime we could but with the same principle #of course everything we did was weird as fuck or in best case scenario a comedy #our logic was 'they bully and cast us outside regardless what we do‚ let's have fun' and we did #and when our classmates stopped hating us (the group of girls who treated us like shit changed classes and then the rest realized #we couldn't care less about them and I was friend with one of them so they were chill only the last year) #so we pulled them all into the madness and every presentation ended up as a video from all the class doing the most weird shit ever #and of course with the bloopers #most times the videos had nothing to do with the assignment but since the whole class was involved they let it be #but the other 5 years when we were from 4 to 6/7 girls? i think the teachers thought that since we embarrassed ourselves it would be mean #to fail us‚ or maybe they thought we were hilarious as fuck‚ or (probably the most realistic) they knew that our lives were a complete mess #so they looked the other side #but honestly i have no idea how we passed that history class when we had to make a presentation about renown people and all we did was #print Madame Curie face (it ended up green because the printer was almost dead) cut the eyes so i could see and use it as a fucking mask #one of my friend was 'the teacher' who announced that 'look who came to today's class' and i appeared talking with an accent that i used to #make because we thought it was funny (not even russian) and started to talk about radioactivity (literally reading the paper while trying #to not laugh) while my friends were openly laughing so still 'in character' (we barely knew anything about her) i started to scold them #the teacher of course didn't understand why the fuck we were acting but she laughed either way #and thought we were funny enough so we passed 🙌 #anyways #chronicles of Yu's life

[meowmeowbilly]

Neil Hargrove being on the villains wiki is the peak of my happiness but it is quickly ripped away when the next page is Billy

Like yeah, I know he's a villain, okay?? Logically I understand that and of course he's on there but yeah 😭

#like harassment and assault?? yeah true #but I'll be honest that man was never ACTUALLY attempting to murder anyone.. right?? #like yeah the car scene but he was joking with max #right?? #or did i just grossly misinterpret that scene?? #🧍🧍 did we watch the same show bitch #there's so much on this wiki I'm not even gonna read all of it lmao #I'm not gonna tag this as him because yeah #tw neil hargrove #cw neil hargrove #tw mentioned abuse #billy being listed as homicidial as well as two of his crimes being attempted child murder and attempted homicide is funny to me idk why #also his goals being to mistreat lucas and steve lmao 😭 ok sure.. his only goal was to survive tbh lbr

[longroadstonowhere]

so there's this one fantasy high fic i've been keeping up with (Walk This Empty Street by fioment), and it's one where i've been leaving long comments that just basically track my emotions through each new chapter

but i may or may not have just pulled another 'chiaki is a robot' guess out of my ass, and i am so fascinated to see how the author responds to it

#to note: early in reading sdr2 i noticed chiaki shared a birthday with chihiro #and combined with her personality/way of talking i was like 'oh clearly she's a robot chihiro made' #meant mostly as a joke #but uh well if you know you know #so now there's this random wood elf that's shown up in the fic #and while writing my comment at the end of the chapter i cogitated on this character #and suddenly my brain was just like 'oh this is aelwyn in disguise' #and???????? if that ends up being true i am going to scream so much #(the premise of this fic is that adaine's family abandons her before freshman year begins) #(so she is homeless starting from the summer before canon and also has to deal with the whole kalvaxus plot thing) #(which is going differently because of butterfly effects on the plot) #(but aelwyn has independently gone missing and we the audience know she is likely in solace but there has been little evidence for a while) #(if you know fantasy high and love adaine absolutely give it a read - it's tough and sad because of the subject matter but it's so good)