#this is my best attempt too help

[0rchidm4ntis]

this song is going to be my 13th reason.

#mica rambles #enstars #whoever made the beatmap. id like to have a friendly chat ❤️ #WHY TF IS IT SO HARD?? #im not gonna give up but damn if im not struggling TvT #this is my best attempt too help

[canisalbus]

just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3

Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.

#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though #it often takes me a long time to write that response #my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly #I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times #I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory #so I keep putting off reblogging gift art #because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give #maybe that sounds dumb and fake #but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that #often weeks sometimes months even #and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed #I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time #not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person #so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet #please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess #and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you #feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot #and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it #because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond #thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it #sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot #because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness #I'm trying to work on that #answered #anonymous

[whump-n-comfort]

when you read a fic that gives you a hyper-specific whump scenario that you know would either A.) take forever to find in another story or B.) hasn't been written at all so the obvious conclusion is that you have to write it yourself

#whump meme #~my stuff~ #my brain hates me sometimes lmao #i just want a story where two characters are stuck in a broken down car in the middle of winter and having an argument #which leads to one stomping outside in some petty attempt to 'find help' while the other person doesn't realize #what is happening at first. they think their friend is just taking a quick second to catch their thoughts. not the best idea in a snow stor #but the other option is them tearing each others heads off so a little separation is fine. but then their friend starts walking away #and keeps going. so now they have to chase after them to corral them back into the car #because yeah its broken but its still somewhat warm unlike this suicide mission you are attempting!! #and then theres a big blow up because they have kinda been the shit-stirrer so their friend just is #im fixing it!! im being not annoying/useless/something related to whatever they were arguing about!! #so now they get slapped in the face with the fact that they've been taking out their bad day/week on their friend #who was simply being themself and trying to cheer them up/be nice #and when they eventually get back in the car the friend now feels like shit because they not only wasted heat from the car #but they also dragged their friend outside just bcuz they were being a brat so didn't they just prove the other person's point? #so now the two are just in a guilt huddle apologizing for being idiots as they inevitably wait for their rescue #bonus points if the rescue involves their rescuers trying to separate them and the other person just *refuses* to let their friend go #because they have a need to keep the first person warm after feeling like they essentially forced them out into the cold #is that too much to ask?? (i could turn this into an A talks to B scenario... also thinking about my OCs but when am i not lol)

[anglerflsh]

*trying not to sound desperate* what's your system for not struggling with social relations?

people like it when they're given subtle compliments and when you let them talk about their own achievements, so, as long as you can get someone to think you're genuinely interested in their life they should come out of it with a good opinion of you + also people love complaining together so if you can try and bring up something you both dislike enough to have a fun rant on

#my formula if I have to talk to a peer is open with a compliment or a similarly nice sentiment then ask a question related to it #and once they answer then make up one thing you have in common with their answer: that usually manages to be a decent conversation starter #like 'your handwriting looks nice' 'thanks!' 'do you write in cursive because it's faster?' 'no i just like the style more' 'ah me too!' et #<-very oversimplified but. yeah. that's my typical attempt to talk to someone that I don't know or that is an acquaintance #when i'm /required/ to do so of course. #I try to keep it at a 60/40 ratio of talking about them and about me also. It's an exchange of information so you do also have to share #+ try to gauge someone's sense of humor by the first few interactions so you can apply it when you talk to them as best you can #and try to come off as friendly and in a good mood even when you're really really not. That of course also helps #[.asks] #anonymous #oh and also try to remember what people tell you so the next time you can bring it up! That also helps your reputation.

[cator99]

I try to fit in at work by participating in collective commiseration but in my heart I am feeling like "GOD I feel fucking incredible do these fucking idiots not know about performance enhancing drugs or what"

#also I was. by choice. the one doing all the most physically demanding work these past 4 days. because I'm the only one physically capable. #because whenever i let anyone else even attempt to do so they would take so much time that it scared me. #If I wasn't there #they wouldn't have finished. Plain and simple. What was a 4 day project would've taken 7. #or more #This is a consistent issue btw they schedule teams that dont make sense for the project. #i was working with a really slow 60 year old woman who was stoned all day #and a 75lb indian boy who smokes a pack of cigs a day #and a tiny new girl who was trying her best to keep up #and my sedentary lifestyle team lead #we had pin girl the first 2 days #yestersay the district manager popped by to help briefly at the end of the day #and then today we had some dude helping but by that point i mean all the hard shit had been done #ok but obviously i was doing better at the easy stuff too and by the end of the day when everyone was shutting down i was just starting #to really pick up speed #like i was actively perfecting my techniques. it was incredible. it felt incredible.

[parab0mb]

"God Damn the Sun"

More like "God Damn I'm So Tired" haha amirite?

#supposedly this is one of the harder levels to P-rank so I don't feel too bad about struggling #but still I'm trying my damndest to kill as stylishly as possible on this level but the best I can muster is an A for style #the strict time limit and some annoying enemy placement doesn't help #all the failed attempts are starting to weigh on me a bit #(that said I still find it marginally less irritating than the lust bridge level) #ultrakill #pain

[okayjokesover]

THAT’S IT, it’s 2am, I just submitted the last assessment task for my masters (it was a take home exam, not like a thesis or anything), now I am partly on holiday until mid December when I am FULLY ON HOLIDAY because I am GOING AWAY FROM MY STRESSFUL ASS JOB FOR 3 WEEKS, also I’m getting an iron infusion this week because apparently mine’s currently in the toilet again, so I’m hoping all of these things will band together to stop me feeling like I am dragging my body through sludge to do literally anything, thoughts n prayers plz

anyway I have my second pottery class tomorrow & I am PSYCHED, I made 2 bowls & a weird cup last week so imagine what I might be able to do now that I have some idea of what I’m doing

(here are my bowls & cup, I know they all look the same but my pottery teacher assured me they shrink a lot in the kiln so one of them is a small cup & two of them are small bowls, like for tiny snacks)

#liiiife updates! #attempting to pull myself out of the deep horrible depression i’ve been in since a while before my mum died! #that obviously did not help but i was feeling Not Great before that too #also it feels WILD that that’s hopefully the last law assessment i have to do #(I only needed a 15/50 to pass & god I can only assume I achieved that at least) #(also no i am not now a lawyer #i took the wrong subjects for that & the best i could have done was a trademark/patent attorney)

[edith-is-a-cat]

Fuck.

I wish I could help.

#lmao hey tumblr vent post time #vent mostly in the tags #tw sucidal ideation #sucide attempt #< not from me from a friend #I won't be naming them since y'know privacy and all that jazz #but it's an online I fucking love them so much #and I don't know how to help #i don't know them as well as i did my previous best friend since we aren't really close #i and others have been trying to get them to stop trying as they document it in vent #ive been doing my best but i don't know what else to say since im just an online friend no one to really be attached to #online acquaintance would be a better term for me ig.. idk #I think the other have been/are suicidal so they are much better than me for helping #and im just some guy who can't relate so i don't know how to help.. #im so upset that i can't bc what if they do i can't stop them #reason number 9 to be able teleport to prevent a suicide and be a better support system #im too silly to be of good use litterally told them if they do and when i die in my 40s ill lecture them like a mom #wish i could lecture them like a mom rn #im going to cry in the attic or something i feel like my brain is pre grieving or something #no im not putting my organizing tag on this feels too ..wrong

[boltgunkiller-archive]

saw brittana s2 era being related to are we still friends by tyler the creator

#juno speaks #oh my goddd… #“are we still friends? can we be friends?” #when you apply the locker scene where santana says britt staring at her is causing her to forget her locker combo… ohh #because britt literally says “did i do something wrong are you mad at me. i miss being close” (not a direct quote but that’s essentially #what she said) and like. my god. because during the s2 era they heavily drifted due to santana’s confession. it wasn’t the confession itself #that drove them apart #more so santana’s own decision to distance herself due to her fear of rejection and #since she got rejected #her subsequent bitter behavior to deflect from what happened and the embarrassment and shame she felt not Only bc she admitted to liking #girls. Liking BRITTANY. but also bc she didn’t even get what she wanted in the end and now people may know and now BRITT knows so she can’t #just go back to being normal and she’s stressed and hurt and upset and she just doesn’t wanna talk to anyone #she just wants to be straight and normal and she wants things to be normal but she can’t handle the idea of facing brittany at all so she #just drifts away from her so brittany desperately tries to fix things and become santana’s best friend again #they’re a two shot they’re best friends they need each other they went from inseparable to not even speaking outside of maybe glee club #it’s got an effect on the both of them and brittany wants to fix whatever happened and go back to being close but santana won’t even tell #her what’s wrong so she has to figure it out for herself (“can we be friends?”) #the song essentially repeats those two lines a lot but they can be applied to more than just that locker scene too #you could apply them to santana denying dancing w brittany/wearing the lebanese shirt because she’s denying brittany’s attempt to not only #fix their relationship but also help santana accept herself. she can’t accept that and all brittany wants is for them to be friends but #in that moment it seems as if santana won’t even accept that they ARE friends #and then in 2x19 she doesn’t accept that well now that artie isn’t in the picture they COULD be more than that (“don’t say goodbye” lowkey) #like santana’s just so closed off it seems like they’re not friends and they can’t even be that and they could never be more either #auuvuh… does this even make sense… losing my mind #gleeposting

[yaminerua]

Genuinely looking into the idea of trying to throw together a budget Rimmer cosplay for September now asdfhhjjdssfhk

#I have trousers that aren’t quite the right shade but in my search I haven’t found one that looks right enough online either so they’ll do #if I can get a tie that matches the trousers that would at least be alright. And eBay has loads of shirts going for pretty cheap #there’s that seller on Etsy who does the patches too so I guess I’ll need to figure out sewing again to attach those #For the H I dunno if I can just make it or if I’ll get that 3 printed one someone has on Etsy #speaking of what’s the best way to attach it to my forehead? Spirit gum? I’ll need to look into that #If I’m lucky I might be able to use the UC payment to get most of this without cutting into savings #I don’t know what I’m gonna do with my hair tbh #it’s not curly and I’m not going to attempt to try to make it so maybe I’ll just have to gel what I have to the side #and see how it looks #god I hope there’s time for me to hopefully pull this together #I get a UC payment on the 8th so this month and next should help #I wish I had been receiving CA like I am supposed to be since I applied in February but well

[blueyedgrass]

said i would not talk about cwilbur death yet here i am collecting things so i can draw a the best (worst) place he couldve been stabbed.

#trying to figure out what would be the quickest death where his ribs wouldnt have gotten in the way #unfortunately the heart is protected by the rib cage and the lungs are not actually ideal #but the stomach. youd bleed out. which is not the best way to go nor is it the quickest #its a very vascular area but bleeding out from an abdominal wound takes way too long #if we look at the video to see when wilbur stopped speaking (so we can presume that he is in fact dead at that point despite having actuall #been killed a few seconds earlier) then there was only a few seconds where he was speaking to phil after being stabbed but before shuffling #off this mortal coil #which is difficult for me because that could be a botched injury to the throat as long as the larynx and such remained in tact. however it #would be kinda hard to fuck it up in that specific way. it would have to be a very delicate cut and that just does not fly in this scenario #phil is shorter than wilbur whcih helps me cause if they were standing then it would be pretty easy for him to go under wilburs ribs but th #at only works to a certain point so a punctured lung is looking like my best option yeah? but no cause that can actually take a while to ki #ll you. depending on circumstance. #what phil would be going for is a quick death. unless of course he wanted to try and do something more mild in an attempt to save him later #which is a perfectly fine possibility but it maes my job harder so im gonna say that he was trying togive will a quick death #so the heart. the carotid artery. or the trachea #i hc the arm wound as being an attempt at cutting his brachial artery #which can kill you in as little as two minutes #but its not quite what him looking for

[valandherweekofwonders]

yeah so apart from a small assignment a professor gave me an extension for, i am all done this semester and thank goodness for it.

#wrote my last exam this morning and you know what? even if i fail i really did do my best given my circumstances #which were INSANE these last few months and constantly changing too #idk im just im so proud of myself for surviving through this far its been really difficult and its still all difficult but yeah #celebrate the victories you do get #attempting positivity and bright thinking is so hard after being so sad and bitter for such a long time but also refreshing #already today i got myself yummy treats and watched a movie under my blankets for fun and it was so nice to just watch the movie and #not have to check my phone to sew if i was needed or to get back to working on a deadline or some task #and i actually have time to play video games now and i always say ill play for 12 hours but i usually get a headache after like 3 hours bu #but the point is having fun i just want to have fun i have not had any fun in months im not exaggerating #everything really has just been so grim and bleak for me but hopefully dedicating some time to forcing myself into an activity will help #i really need to shift gears and focus on recovery now because i let things get so bad #yeah sometimes i experience hope and various types of positivity #ezra.txt

[homosociallyyours]

.

#just venting a little grump grump: #I'm holed up in my room bc covid (housemate was gonna stay elsewhere but it didn't work out) and attempted negotiating my time out earlier #other than necessities (food making and bathroom) I'm getting an hour in the living room in the middle of the night #masked and with the hepa filter running #we agreed I'll turn on the kitchen light when I'm out in common areas so it's obvious I'm up #housemate was like: i always need to go to the bathroom around 12:30! (reasonable) #so i planned for a brief shower that would be finished before then #(our shower and toilet are in separate rooms & different areas of the house btw) #anyway it's 12:15 and I'm getting out of the shower and drying off to head to my room and she starts to open the door? #and like OK maybe 12:15 was cutting it too close!! but also i left the light on? the shower was running a moment before? #i swear i don't think of myself as the most observant person but sometimes other people don't notice things and I'm like ??? #how do you not pay attention? #part of it is my personal issues obviously #(always be aware of what someone else likes/wants/needs and be prepared to provide it asap and preferably without being asked) #*this is not a good way to be i know! but oh boy it sure does run deeply enough that even though i try my best to wait to be asked-- #i can't help noticing small things and keeping them in my mind #anywayyyy I'm sure it's annoying to experience! #but then i get annoyed when I'm trying very hard to accommodate agreements (reasonable i think?) #and the other person seems unaware? #bleh

[lightningfilledsaber]

missing my close friendships and how I used to have the energy to maintain them while also reminding myself that part of the reason I don’t have that energy anymore/right now is because that very energy was actively exploited by my “best friend” of Several Years for their own benefit

:pensive:

#lol #not to mention that said ''best friend's'' girlfriend didn't have the emotional maturity to own up to her mistakes #and neither gave enough of a fuck to actively do better #like hm why dont i have the energy to maintain my remaining friendships and attempt to become closer to others lol. right. that #your best friend only ever paying attention to you to treat you like a chauffer and otherwise literally avoiding you after you've realized- #-that they're you're FP (bpd stuff) and literally explicitly told them that will do that. lol #then. lol. a half assed apology ''I'm sorry I wasn't there for you'' when i FINALLY get the courage to cut them off. WOW. THANKS SO MUCH. #THAT REALLY HELPS *NOW* AFTER WE ALREADY HAD THE CONVERSATION ABOUT HOW YOU WERE TREATING ME LIKE SHIT *MONTHS AGO* #not to mention that their girlfriend was too much of a fucking coward to face me in person so i could properly cut her off instead of a text #''sorry our schedules didn't line up =( genuinely wish you the best'' #YEAH OKAY #bullshit on bullshit #if you fucking wished me the best you wouldn't have INTENTIONALLY crossed MULTIPLE boundaries #in one case. lol. LITERAL SECONDS AFTER I TOLD YOU I NEEDED SPACE BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO SCREAM AT YOU #WHEN YOU HAVE TOLD ME AND I KNOW DAMN WELL PEOPLE YELLING AT YOU IS A TRIGGER FOR YOU. #THAT'S YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME INTO THE BAD GUY DIPSHIT. ''mike I would never do that to you'' YOU ARE LITERALLY ACTIVELY TRYING TO DO THAT RN #and yknow the other reason is that i literally work 12 hour shifts and ~40 hour work weeks so #3/4ths of my time on this planet is spent working or sleeping. like yeah no shit i have no energy #im not only physically drained i'm also mentally and emotionally drained lol #anyway sorry for the pity party i'm just. so fucking tired of avoiding talking about this publicly #mud rambles #like i know i mentioned it before but i havent really gone into any depth so. i deserve to talk about it more

[canichangemyblogname]

Y’ever get the feeling a friend likes you less than you like them? Or that maybe they don’t even like you as a friend?

#Objectively. I understand that not everything— if anything— is about ‘me’ #and that she has a lot going on in her personal life #so when she’s kinda brief with me. just sounds and one word answers: ‘mmmhmmm’ and ‘okay’ and ‘dunno’ #I remind myself that it doesn’t mean she’s annoyed with me. she’s just dealing with chronic pain and fatigue #but I can’t help but take it personally when I chat with her and the convo falls flat despite my best attempts #and I feel it’s my fault #like I’m being weird #and then a former coworker calls her up and she’s laughing and animated and they chat for a whole hour #This. after telling me all morning not to say anything funny b/c she’s too tired and sore #I feel like maybe my reactions to her jokes and her stories aren’t animated enough and so she loses interest or stops getting excited #Like maybe she thinks I’m not invested or that I don’t care #even though I stop and I listen #I just don’t laugh a whole lot. I smile. I’m just… not a very animated person #quiet and boring and bland and I guess— maybe—un-lively (or stoic? laconic?). maybe that comes across as apathetic #I don’t know how to portray myself differently without overexerting myself #I’ve never been too spirited or bubbly #I dunno… #I’m just tired #And when I ask how the former coworker is… it’s all single word answers too

[isamoa]

“ WHAT GETS THEM HARD! ”

jjk men x f!reader ࿐ MDNI.

ᰔ、summary. jjk scenarios on how their dicks get hard ofc

ᰔ、tags. (ft. gojo, geto, toji, choso), nsfw, female anatomy, cunnilingus, exhibitionism, sexting, masturbation, etc.

ᰔ、a/n. these are just my silly depictions. if u dont agree idgaf lol

SATORU GOJO has the dirtiest mind and the highest sex drive. his pants definitely start feeling a little tighter at the sight of you eating a popsicle or something. specifically in public. he would have no shame in it either—casually forming a smirk on his face and dropping a snarky innuendo about the way you’re eating. “can you suck me off like that when we get home?” he’d mumble from across the table, his eyes peeking out from the top of his glasses, a smirk plastered on his lips; wet from the constant licking of his tongue. your eyes widen, a small ‘pop’ sounding from your mouth when you took the frozen sweet out to gasp at the man in front of you. “gojo! are you serious?” you’d yell in a whisper, looking around to see if anyone had heard him. “you’re right,” he’d sigh, standing up from his chair to reveal the very prominent and very obvious bulge in his pants. “we should just do it now.”

SUGURU GETO on the other hand is a polite man. like satoru, he’s a real freak in the sheets—but not as shamelessly. the littlest things can get him hard for sure, but unintentionally seeing your undergarments would really get him going. like an accidental peek at your panties from under your skirt, or a shirt thats a little too see-through showing off the print on your bra. he wouldn’t say anything of course, not right away. you would just be minding your own business one minute and then he’s dragging you towards the bedroom the next. “sugu- what are you-?” you would ask in a confusing tone, craning your head to look at the said man who was now behind you—pushing your stomach up against the countertop; a single hand brought up to grope your breast while the other laid flat against your hip. “your bra is showing.” he’d let you know blankly; an attempt to distract you while his hand slid it’s way into your pants. you would look down in response to his comment, noticing that your bra was in-fact showing like he said. unfortunately for him, you also already noticed the hardon pressed against your back.

TOJI FUSHIGURO gets hard from eating pussy. simple as that. he will get embarrassingly sloppy—juices coating his face and dripping down his chin, loving every second of it while his cock slowly grows harder. emphasis on grows. and if you think for a second that he does it for your pleasure, think again. this man will eat you out purely for his enjoyment only. his eyes are closed and his hands are squeezing at your thighs—legs thrashing uncontrollably from the uncomfortable pressure in his pants that’s about to come undone. “toji- let me help you.” you’d beg with a whimper, dragging your hand from the top of his head down to his cheek when you noticed the constant shuffling of his legs and the crease in his eyebrow. he’d laugh darkly, the breathy snicker creating a hum between your core that made a whine escape from your lips. “im fine mama,” he’ll say cockily, pulling a hand away from your leg to undo his zipper. “ill cum soon, you don’t gotta do ‘nun.”

CHOSO is a needy guy. his face will turn red at a simple flirty text—but send him a slutty pic and he might just cream his pants. fully naked or dressed in lingerie, his favorite or not, he will definitely feel some pressure down below. he might ignore you for a while, uncertain on how he should reply; if he’s even able to. “fuck- couldn’t wait till i got home, could you?” he’d whine quietly, trying his best to keep his voice down from the bathroom of his office job; one hand holding the phone up to his ear while the other rushed to unbuckle his belt. “sorry cho,” you’d apologize from the other line, voice rather faint as you posed for another picture to send him. “when are you coming?” you ask doubtfully just as his phone vibrates with another notification from your contact. “now- im comin’ now baby.” he replies with a huff, phone almost slipping from his ear. “really!?” you try to clarify—much more excited than the first time. “no, i mean im cumming. right now.”

#my goofy ahh side coming out with the choso one #THIS TOOK FOREVER #toji x reader #toji smut #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo x reader #gojo smut #geto x reader #geto smut #choso x reader #choso smut #jjk scenarios #jjk x reader #jjk men x reader #jjk smut #isamoa #jujutsu kaisen smut