#this feels a bit messy

[gaonsguitarpicks]

LOST AND FOUND - GAON

♬ Gaon x gn reader ♬ fluff, Gaon cursing and having a mental breakdown about a lost guitar pick ♬ 1.5k+ words ♬ Summary: “If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours forever.” A quote about a guitar pick and the hidden meanings connected to it. ♬ Note: I’m sorry, I had to write about his poor guitar picks, I HAD TO—

It’s been a while since Jiseok felt such an overwhelming sense of panic that all he could think was, “I'm fucked.”

At first it's just a factual judge of his reality, however there's no human who would willingly admit that they're fucked without trying to resist such a terrible fate first. Jiseok is the same, so he keeps repeating this one sentence like the meaning of it would change if he said it enough times. All the while, he's making a mess of his room. 

Not here. 

He proceeds to the living room and repeats his previous frantic searching and cursing. 

Not here either. 

He moves to the kitchen and checks the pantry, double checks the fridge even though it's ridiculous to even imagine that it would be there, but according to his friends, that's also a common place it could be. 

Well, it's not there now. 

He searches the bathroom and takes out every single one of his clothes to check their pockets. 

Nope. 

He looks into the toilet and prays that he didn’t accidentally flush it down. (Also wouldn’t be the first time.) In any case, he can't really confirm it, can he? 

But Jiseok can't give up. This was a present you gave him for his birthday a month after the two of you started dating. He still remembers that you were visibly embarrassed since at that time, you didn’t know each other well yet, so you weren’t sure what to gift him. You wanted it to be meaningful but not too big, and in the end, you gave him a guitar pick that you customized yourself. It had both of your names on it and Jiseok's favorite colors, and he could never forget how happy it made him. It was a very special gift that made him fall completely in love with you, and he thought of it as a charm signaling the beginning of a beautiful relationship. 

Jiseok suddenly stopped in the center of the living room with his feet rooted to the ground. 

Does this mean you will break up with him because he lost the guitar pick??? 

"Um… what’s wrong with you?" Seungmin comes out of his room and the first thing he sees is Jiseok having a full mental breakdown in the middle of the living room so granted, he's a little concerned. 

Jiseok looks at him like he's seeing hope itself, which is also pretty concerning. 

"Have you seen my guitar pick?" 

"Dude," Seungmin starts slowly, so the crushing truth of the reality won't break his friend even more, "I see your picks everywhere."

And Jiseok knows that, because it happened at least a hundred times today that when he was almost happy to find the one he was looking for, it turned out to be a different one. 

"Well, I'm fucked."

Seungmin decides to ignore him and continue his way to the kitchen because he's hungry and this is not his problem. He also knows what pick in particular Jiseok is talking about because he obviously wouldn’t even try looking for any of the others. He doesn’t have much sympathy, though, he’s had it coming. Maybe the shock will teach him to not leave his picks littered everywhere anymore.

He casually takes out an ice cream from the freezer, and because Jiseok hasn't moved at all and he's a good friend, he tries to be a bit more helpful. 

"Didn't you say you keep it in a safe place so you wouldn't lose it?"

"Yeah," Jiseok looks up and stares straight into his eyes, "but it's not there."

"Well, good luck figuring out how to apologize." Seungmin pats his devastated friend on the shoulder and goes back to his room to eat his ice cream in peace. He tried. 

Jiseok keeps standing there, in the middle of the living room, and considers possible scenarios.

The safe place mentioned above is in his room, on his nightstand, so he can always see it and fiddle with it while he’s lying in bed. This way he can also easily pick it up and use it when he feels like it without having to look for it, though he usually only uses it when he misses you or plays especially for you. He’s overly conscious about his bad habit of constantly losing his guitar picks, so he always makes sure to put it back on his nightstand after he’s done using it.

However, there is no guarantee that he didn’t just forget about it one day and took it out somewhere.

His phone buzzes in his hand, shocking him back to reality, and he looks at the death sentence displayed on the screen in the form of a text message.

[ I’ll be there soon 🥰 ]

He frowns, speedrunning his thoughts in his mind to figure out why you would come over at this critical timing. Then he finds that one thought buried between the others: you agreed to go out for lunch today.

This means Jiseok has exactly fifteen minutes to either figure out where the guitar pick is or as Seungmin said, how to apologize for losing it.

One part of him thinks that if he’s being honest with himself, it’s a miracle that he didn’t lose it for this long, so you can’t be too mad at him. The other part is full-on panicking because he feels that what he lost this time isn't a simple guitar pick but a special, heartfelt present from you. What if you think that he doesn’t care about you or that he doesn’t treasure what you give him, and you consider him a bad boyfriend and want to break up with him?

He absolutely cannot let that happen!

In conclusion, he will use the remaining thirteen minutes to collect very valid and convincing points and arguments about how he is the perfect boyfriend that you should never leave.

He still jumps out of his skin when he hears the door open but he’s quick enough to take on a determined expression like it’s do or die now.

“Hey, are you ready to…” you cut yourself off. You immediately notice that something is off because your boyfriend is not breaking off into a smile and attacks you with a hug after seeing you. He’s just standing in front of you, his whole posture looks stiff and his eyes a little frantic. “Is something wrong?”

For a second, Jiseok looks up and mumbles something - probably a prayer - before he promptly falls to his knees.

“I’m so sorry for losing the special guitar pick you gave me for my birthday I’ve looked for it everywhere but I can’t find it I have no idea where I could’ve left it—”

“What?” You try to cut in because you’re very confused about this whole situation but he’s rambling like a speech he memorized by heart and he can’t even hear your voice anymore.

“—I’m so sorry I swear I always put it back to its place and I was so careful not to lose it because you gave it to me and—” 

“Jiseok…” you try again but he just keeps going on.

“—it genuinely made me so happy and I love it and I love you so much I’m so so so sorry please don’t break up with me I—”

“Kwak Jiseok!” You crouch down to him and lightly tap his cheeks with your palms to ground him. You sigh in relief when he finally shuts up and his eyes focus on you. By this time you managed to grasp the situation and all you can do is look at him fondly, feeling a bit sorry. You caress his cheeks with your thumbs to calm him down, and you tell him in a gentle but firm voice, “It’s okay, I’m not mad at you.”

“You aren’t?” He blinks at you like this is a completely unexpected turn of events.

“I’m not.”

“Oh.”

“Actually,” you say, letting go of his face and reaching into your pocket, taking out the guitar pick that was in the center of today’s events, “you left it at my place when you came over last time.”

“Oh.”

Jiseok goes a little cross-eyed as he looks at the guitar pick, there’s a moment of silence before his face lights up and he starts laughing. His laughter sounds a little like his soul and his sanity escaped his body but at this point, you can understand it.

Then he suddenly grabs your hands still holding the guitar pick and declares with such a pure, innocent joy that you can’t help but smile with him, “It came back to me!”

You don’t know this but you bringing back the guitar pick to him meant so much more than you simply forgiving him for losing it. It was a new beginning, a second chance, something that made him even more sure that you’re the one for him. He had a feeling that no matter what happens in the future, no matter what difficulties force distance between the two of you, you would come back to him, just like this guitar pick.

#xdinary heroes imagines #xdinary heroes scenarios #xdinary heroes fluff #xdinary heroes x reader #xdinary heroes gaon #kwak jiseok #gaon imagines #gaon scenarios #gaon fluff #gaon x reader #this feels a bit messy #but it's kinda supposed to be like that so it's fine #i can't believe i managed to finish it #i honestly wanted to give up halfway through #but this fic needs to be in this blog #it's part of my identity slkdjfslkdfj

[ruporas]

dragon meat, you, and me

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!! #like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive #the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence #evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved #ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost #on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation #the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!! #also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood #in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?) #ruporas art

[rodentjazz]

Tarot cards based my Lunadeyis and Aster designs

#I may be the only person in the world who cares about the goddesses #but I love gillions fictional divorced mums #this was also my first time using csp so these feel a bit messy but at least I’m ending my Stockholm syndrome with ps #I also fucking love the theory that Ava was asters champion so that’s in here too #jrwi riptide #jrwi fanart

[p-oisn]

Teddy  Bear  @mietteone  ʢ-̫͡-ʔ͏ 🍏

#who else feels a bit insane w/o taeyong #kpop moodboard #messy moodboard #red moodboard #moodboard #random moodboard #green moodboard #shinee moodboard #taemin moodboard #jonghyun moodboard #clean moodboard #retro moodboard #carrd inspo #pastel moodboard #white moodboard #twitter headers #beige moodboard #brown moodboard #cute moodboard #soft moodboard #food moodboard #kpop boys #kpop bg #bg moodboard #unfiltered moodboard #2000s moodboard #lq moodboard

[smoothshine]

𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚖𝚎 𝚒𝚗

#royai #roy mustang #riza hawkeye #fullmetal alchemist #fma #fmab #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fanart #fma fanart #smoothshine draws #yaaaay i am alive for a bit again and i still can draw! #i am having my exams in the beginning of July so i needed a distraction between studying and eeh not studying x)) #but hey it's angsty royai hugs time!! #i wasn't quite able to take part in the royai week this year (which i feel kinda bad about btw) #but i still wanted to draw something involving my favourite war criminals during June and here it is! #tbh i just wanted to work with messy traditional stuff again and i ended up liking it #i have quite a lot of older sketches by now and maybe i'll post them with time if they grow on me ahah

[homestuckinthebutt]

"My love, return to me soon. I’ve begun to forget what you look like..."

Jaya is my favorite ship ever they're just so tragic<33

#ninjago #nya smith #nya jiang #ninjago dragons rising #i know yall are starving for more content so i hope you enjoy this #im kinda proud how the art style looks a bit different from above and below #to symbolize what she wishes she could experience again; clean #and below; to show how things feel a bit messy right now with the whole merged realms thing (un-neat lines and different textures) #ninjago fanart #for thise who cant tell the background is part of the kingdom of madness

[literallyjusttoa]

Caged god.

#trials of apollo #toa apollo #lester papadopoulos #what if zeus was even more extreme for no good reason #apollart #kind've experimented with this one a lil bit but idk how I feel about it #it's real messy I did it quick :p

[lunarharp]

more phoenix wright situations

#ace attorney tag #maybe i should tag this narumitsu or something. but i dont really care. #gearing up to rereading/illustrating bits of my fic i suppose...i think nick really is too dense to realise he's in love with edgeworth #without some scheming fop trying to intrude. i love villains like kristoph..villains can be fun..witnessing their pathetic folly.. #or more like edgeworth would never have mentioned his feelings ever in his life if he wasn't sure phoenix reciprocates. #i want to see it this way because Falling in love during childhood with the person you're going to end up with. is not relatable #there have to be Situations that make you Realise. #as with orufrey i adore the idea of people not working out their romance with that person until their 30s+ #but... i mean. even with orufrey i often think how alaira could be qifrey's ex. and oru having been pursued by noble fops through his work #there is that delicate sliver of time before orufrey start living together that such believable situations could have happened. #Then the relief of politely and amicably extricating themselves from those untenable situations #the idea of falling in love age 7 and saving your first kiss for age 35 or something is all very well but more relatable is #people realising how they really feel whilst trying something that ends up feeling wrong. #The comfort and joy of living with your dearest one as if it's platonic - much preferable to trying anything more with anyone else. #But i doubt i will ever portray that or mention it further. it is indeed very delicate to me. #and i really am an OTP FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of person who can barely bear to consider this anyway...NOT a polyshipper i'm afraid ! #so i wouldn't mind either if they do have their first kiss in their lives age 35 with each other either. I would not mind that at all. #i love bi/gay couples apparently... bi father figures & their grumpy gay men waiting for them to work it all out... #not used to using colour in comic-style drawings..or at all..so this is messy and awkward looking..but colour is refreshing #i imagine i will go back to witch hat art soon btw. my destiny in life. #i still remember writing my nrmt fic expecting to write their first kiss & then partway through twas like Umm No. They have kissed prior. #does that really line up with this comic though... i think i had their early dinner dates/first kiss BEFORE disbarment. #so i guess this comic doesn't line up with my ficverse.... No..... U___U Oh well. sorry kris! <3

[achillesdaily]

DAY #12

>posting Achilles until he arrives at my doorstep.

well can't argue with that

#hello from halo head #there'll be a bonus panel if i feel like making it #do you think achilles knows what sin is #this ones a bit messy since i just cleaned up the sketch instead of doing lineart #also hi good news! as of 27th achilles is in my country #also bad news the said country is Not Great and i'll probably have to pay additional fees #if you saw me upload the version where chloe has her right eye open instead of left #no you didn't

[marikodraws]

A Knife Cuts Deeper on the Way Out

Part 2 of my accordion book comic project! Part 1 >here<

#persona 5 #goro akechi #shuake #ren amamiya #akira kusuru #persona 5 spoilers #p5r spoilers #It's done! phew! #tbh i likes part 1 so much i almost didn't want to make more parts #since I didn't feel like they'd be as good #or like not good in a the same way i guess #But! it would have been a shame to leave the backside blank #and I did want to muck around in the messiness of their dynamic a bit more #So! #anyway originally there was gonna be 3 parts in the book #but i decided to do.....4 parts and just make a second book #somehow the compromise between 1 and 3 was 4 #gonna sleep now and then gotta typeset the cover ✌️

[witchspeka]

I love my girl Miwa but as soon as I read that this image immediately popped up in my head:

#HAVE SOME STANDARDS GIRL DAMN #i want this relationship to work out too but this aint it #how do we relationship #cine te a intrebat #uhmmm theres SPOILERS past this tag in case u care to read this yourself just a quick warning #i kid i joke but this scene fucks me up i like how this manga handles queerness. it shows how messy and painful it can be #like we already got a bit of that with sae and her relationship with sex but this mmmmmm this one i didnt see coming #imagine u work up the courage to confess to ur high school crush and she says she cant date you #not cause she doesnt like you. quite literally /because/ she likes you and wants to take ur relationship seriously and respect you #but she cant do that. because shes afraid of people finding out. of having to hide all the time. of being ostracised. she's tired. #she cant find the strength to do that. #the frustration of being loved but society denying you the possibility of being together... ill clown on Miwa (its very easy) but i feel bad #for her #gaud i need to sleep hai pa

[agent-aquato-and-co]

Agent Aquato will return momentarily!

#psychonauts #razputin aquato #lili zanotto #jt hoofburger #agent aquato and co au #asked and answered! #well. Kind of. #Im messing around with different ways to go about backgrounds! This posts rendition is ~ screenshots with the csp artistic filter over it ~ #it feels a bit messy bc i cant control the color palette…. But we’ll figure it out soon.

[ollylotl]

a dream of home

#be warned i felt like yapping in the notes and by god thats what i did #i loooove making messy drawings like this actually. i love colouring and making finished pieces but #i only have the patience to do it every so often. clean lines and detailed colours are <3 but they cause me psychic damage #so its nice to just be able to sketch and only clean it up a little and then go fuck it. colours time #i did not want to make vyncents mum blonde even tho thats what they say in canon. theres no way. it just doesnt feel like it fits #i tried to make her hair a pale purple turning to blonde-ish at the ends instead but the lighting just completely washed that out lol #my artwork #jrwi vyncent #jrwi #jrwi vyncent sol #jrwi anna #jrwi anna sol #anyway. bizly bizly channel. condi condifiction. *slides you a twenty dollar note* PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #tell us more about fauna and vyncents childhood #im on the floor sobbing and begging #i need lore not thats not just haha rpg as much as i love those bits #tell me everything. #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd #jrwi fanart #vyncent sol #jrwi fauna #jrwi pd fanart #pd fanart #prime defenders #prime defenders fanart #i fear i may hate this drawing upon waking up #but as the old saying goes #fuck it we ball

[secondbeatsongs]

they're fucking with the UI again I see

#I already miss the lil reblog symbol #having it all be text feels...messy #but I'll wait a bit to send in a feedback ticket #but to any staff reading this: that's my feedback #messy #will see if xkit has a fix for this if it stays #that is all #personal #tumblr

[maripr]

I think John Ward deserves to break down a little at the end of FAITH bc he just destroyed the cult that groomed him since childhood and abused him and his childhood friend, he's managed to protect everyone he loves, he's realized God's been with him the entire time, he has fred all the souls that were taken hostages in the rite of the second death, and he has been forgiven by the very person he wronged. He deserves to break down a bit, after things have calmed down, as Lisa and Garcia both hold him as his falls on his knees and his shoulder shake and he holds his crucifix close like he's hugging it and he wails like a child and as the tears fall on the cross once bronze, they leave golden streak, cleansing his vision of it, cleansing his heart.

#john ward #john thomas ward #lisa pearson #father garcia #amy martin #should i also tag jesus crhist lol #faith the unholy trinity #faith the game #etc etc #big fan of characters cathartically having a good crying after going to hell and back #i love the true ending but it does go a bit too fast at the end #you've defeated the literal second in command of hell and severely held back Satan's plans to cause the end of fhe world ok cool now drive #i wouldn't let him drive tbh #aslo why choose between lisa and Garcia John has two hands #he can have platonic or romantic found family shenanigans with both depending on your interpretation while still being married to the lord #because he's technically unordained #i do wonder if garcia is also unordained after the mess wih Michael anyway #i need my blorbos to cry messy tears lf relief and joy and love sometimes ya feel me

[seance]

GOOD OMENS (2019-) / ALL THINGS END (Hozier, 2023)

#goodomensedit #goedit #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #userbecca #tusermyra #jameszmaguire #ughmerlin #rs: hereditary enemies #edits #this is super busy and probably messy as hell #but i kid you not i was so overwhelmed by all the emotions the song was making me feel re: the two of them #that i tried to put them all together in fear of leaving something out lmao #the bit about fault gets me because i see too many people dismissing #how incredibly complicated AND THEREFORE tragic their situation is #the whole shades of gray concept is so central for both the characters and the viewers actually #they tortured themselves with the limbo they were stuck on and they torture each other now with their mutual rejection #but it's all over love - because of love - out of love #that's what devastes me completely #but they will find each other again ♥