#they’re worth the pain

[labmousegirl]

are you disabled or suffer from other chronic conditions that often leave you bed bound? do you often feel like you’re in the “damn bitch you live like this?” meme because cleaning is too exhausting?

my protip is get yourself one of THESE bad boys and hang it by your bed

it’s an over the door shoe rack and the pockets are perfect for holding a lot of household objects.

you can use the pockets to store trash, snacks, meds, and water bottles. if you worry about hygiene, you can also keep some for dry shampoo, deodorant, body wipes, clean undergarments, or toothbrush materials. on good days, you can clean it out and restock it, or have someone else help you. on bad days, you won’t have to worry about getting food and you’ll be able to feel a little better about hygiene.

it’s also really great if you want to keep your hobbies close by!! i can often only work on my bed, and then i have to worry about putting everything away if i have to lay down. if it’s a hobby that has materials that can be stored in the pockets, it can feel more accessible to jump in and out of and take less spoons to set/clean up.

#spoonie #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #disability #tagging for exposure bc i want this tip to get out it helped me a lot #feel like shit today might as well share this tip so i feel sort of productive #worth mentioning i suffer from chronic illness and fatigue that they’re still testing (altho medicating under the assumption of narcolepsy) #but i have trouble sitting and standing for long periods so i spend a lot of time in bed and so whenever my bed gets gross i feel gross #so this is based on chronic fatigue mostly

[houseswife]

we spend the entire show watching house do anything to treat his pain — he goes to (understandably) insane, destructive lengths just to ensure he never has to suffer being sober. his entire life is focused around a cycle of distraction, thrill-seeking, and avoidance. we know that his home is filled with hundreds upon hundreds of pills, so he can always prolong and maximise those moments where his agony is muffled. and yet, in the final scene, we see him dive head-on into the end, and despite this being the most gruelling, insurmountable prognosis of his entire life, we see him smile bathed in the sunlight; those muted tones are dauntingly lifted, yet there’s no echo of a bottle rattling.

#this is a pretentious way of wording it but #it’s driving me insane that house — at the peak of his addiction and for most of the years following the infarction — was seen to take #HANDFULS of vicodin every few hours #because it hurts for him to even just EXIST #he’s never gone long stretches without relapsing #and yet!! and yet!! it’s so visibly clear that they don’t have much on them when they run away #not enough luggage space for a chronically ill AND a terminally ill person’s worth of painkillers anyway #it’s absolutely certain that there will be pain. #for both of them #this will be no doubt the most excruciating months they’ve ever lived through #but it’s worth it #and they’re more content than they’ve ever been #I JUST. AUGHHHHHHGGGH #house md #greg house #gregory house #hatecrimes md #hilson #james wilson #house/wilson

[sleepdeprivedlilbean]

Siggghhhhh I blame @dreemurr-skelememer for this 😒

close ups and info under the cut

Idk what higher power convinced me from 11pm - 5am to just HAVE to draw Dream and Nightmare as horses from mlp (god dammit I’ve never even watched mlp) but HERE WE ARE

I put waaay to much time into these drawings not to color them so once I line them I’ll do that

Hopefully-

Anyway I wasn’t sure how to incorporate Nightmare’s tentacles in this design, buuut here were a couple of things I wanted to do/design choices and why:

I wanted to make them both alicorns with Nightmare having webbed wings (with hints of feathers and trauma)

I decided Nightmare was going to have armor and a royal vibe/aesthetic (like the king he is)

He also has horseshoes with pointed tips and ankle armor and neck armor cause yes.

I wanted to give him even more armor but I thought it would be too much

The cutie marks are their respective apples, but I wanted Nightmare to have, well, a Nightmare Moon thing going on where there was discoloration around the mark (excess of slime in this case)

I did want to incorporate sun and moon elements into the curie marks as well, but I figured I could do it in clothing instead to not overcrowd the cutie mark design and have it lose its meaning.

The slime around Nightmare’s cutie mark is constantly flowing and dripping off of him and if you looked closely his apple may appear purple instead of black through the drips

Ok while I’ve never really watched mlp I don’t live under a rock and I’m aware of how similar Luna and Celestia are to Nightmare and Dream, plus I looked up different designs and species and if you couldn’t tell Nightmare’s HEAVILY Nightmare Moon coded (she also slays btw I love her).

As for ideas about Nightmare’s tentacles I figured maybe he could have a sort of shadow magic maybe??? That acted like his tentacles in a way? Idk I’m workshopping it.

Or he could pull a Rapunzel and have his mane and tail act as his tentacles (which is kinda why his hair looks like that, as I wanted it to look slimy and thick, and for the “tentacles” a bunch of the chords would wrap together to create the tentacle like shape).

Idk mannnn I’m trying but horses and tentacles just don’t really go together juuuust sayin

I actually wasn’t gonna give Dream his cape/shawl thing cause I forgot he had it but I looked at Dream’s ref again and thought it was fitting enough.

Dream’s circlet got turned into a helmet cause I thought it would match Nightmare’s vibe a little more and I wanted to do more than just put it on his head ya know?

I’ve also been seeing designs with Dream having his hair braided and I thought it was fitting so while u can’t really see it, Dreams mane consists of a bunch of thick braids and the nape of his neck he just cut his hair cause otherwise his braids would get tangled in his wings so he said be gone lol. (Nightmare’s tail is also partially braided and I like to think he also braids his mane too into one large braid I just didn’t draw it that way :().

Ok I still have more to say but THIS IS LONG ENOUGH NAHSVAGACA

#nightmare sans #dream sans #dreamtale #kinda??? #i mean they’re horses here sooo #eh i don’t care it’s fine #i wanted to make nightmare have armor and be elegant and royal #then i realized i could make their helmet/face armor stuff their crowns :) #nightmare was a pain but it was worth it #also wasn’t sure about the wings but eh could change later #eh dream looks too plain but idk what else to add before it’s too much #nightmare might be too much :/ #nah he’s slaying 💅 #i also have a habit of drawing nightmare first and then realize his good eye isn’t facing meeee 😩 #it kills me every time

[katiebell]

Gideon killing crux, who was so cruel to her, and having a breakdown over the revenge not feeling good broke me btw

#gideon nav #tlt spoilers #nona the ninth #the locked tomb #forget all the stuff with harrow. that awful fuck was so abusive and watching Gideon find out you can’t take that pain away… #oh I’m howling she didn’t fucking deserve that #the way she tried to drag some… repentance out of him by throwing in his face that she’s literally the child of god and he still called her #worthless ohhhh im so sick. she believes it she believes she’s worthless and this was the one thing she learned about herself she staunchly #believes finally has some worth - finally would change how she was treated growing up - and that worthless worm throws it right back to her #face AUGHHH #he didn’t even give her the grace of the fantasy of ‘they would respect me if they knew. they’re REGRET it if they knew’. TAMSYN MUIR IM GON #NA GET YOU

[thebisexualwreckoning]

Yk my family may not be perfect but at least despite the fact that literally everyone in my family is technically disabled(except my brother. He’s an outlier) we don’t park in the disabled parking space because we are still able enough to walk the five minutes from our parking spot to the ikea. If WE, people who are disabled, can walk 5 mins so that people who can’t can park in the disabled spot then YOU, the able bodied person, definitely can

#disability #disability talk #I am fucking tired of able bodied people taking disabled spots #disabled people need them for a reason #disabilities #disabled #disabled people #disability rights #like fucking walk bitch #cuz some people can’t and they need that more than you #I’m not saying actual disabled people should give up parking spots because they think they’re disabilities aren’t serious enough #this only applies to able bodied people #the reason my family and I don’t take them is because while we are disabled it does not affect our life in a major manner #and we can still walk around #albeit with a little pain #but that’s worth it so that people who can’t can also exist in spaces they have a right to exist in

[vstheworld]

holy fuck doc martens discontinued the entire industrial line of boots

I guess now I *have* to pivot to solovair but man does that price jump hurt

#text post #personal #I’ve been wearing the same style of steel toe industrial boots for over a decade #rude af for them to just completely ditch real work boots #I’ve heard solovairs are better but they’re like a solid hundred bucks more #worth it to not be in pain ig #okay they do actually have replaceable soles tho that might be worth it #I walk hard so mine wear out so fast

[eclipsedsuns]

#i do fuck up a cinnamon crunch bagel every once in a while but. they do cause pain. #they’re worth it idgaf #shut up carley

[phoenixkaptain]

I LOVE characters who are made to be cool

I LOVE characters who are cool on purpose

I LOVE characters that are mysterious

I LOVE characters with depressing backgrounds

I LOVE characters who are so fucking cool that they transcend into being lame then go right back to being cool

I LOVE characters, I LOVE author intent, I LOVE when authors make characters that are cool, I LOVE living because I get to see COOL CHARACTERS-

#the inane ramblings of a madman #who is this about kacie #gojou satoru #hatake kakashi #all those mentor types #i fucking LOVE mentors!!!! #mentor characters make the pain of life worth going through #they’re so fucking cool and annoying and lame and badass and COOL #i wanna scream /pos

[quietwingsinthesky]

if i ever have to play beyond two souls again im going to kill someone someone’s life ends with me

#the thing about achivement hunting is that it will either prove to you how much you love a game. or make you hate it forever. #like. assassin’s creed origins? i have a platinum in that and i never want to touch it again it was so boring and bad and by the end i was #in pain trying to finish it #mass effect trilogy? i had to beat all three games on insanity and it made me feel cool as fuck when i did. the little bit of grinding in #me1 at the end for power trophies was worth that sense of accomplishment. they’re damn good games. #beyond two souls? i have had to replay black sun. 11 times. at least. trying to see all the fucking endings. because my game wont register #that i have despite having seen all of them. I MIGHT HAVE TO REPLAY IT AGAIN. I HATE THIS FUCKING GAME. I WANT TO BE FREE. #no one is makingnme do this i just like number go up #but if i ever met david cage ill kill him with chainsaws #im so sorry elliot page but i dont want to see your face again for like a year im so tired #like this experience Has let me appreciate some parts of the story that i think were genuinely good ans critique other bits in new ways. #but then i had to experience both of those things like 4 more times in a row. and i want to scream

[boltgunkiller-archive]

pleasaaaseeeeeeeeeeee theyre so in love 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#sorry. sorry. i’m a glee blog. but omfg the serica demons #they’re GETTING ME #i miss them 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i wish i took quinntana serious enough to redraw these but mmm i love them i just. don’t know if the concussion pain is worth the redraw… #it’s okay… serica my loves #juno speaks

[pastel-rights]

And then I finally end it off with some doodles of them… they make me feel things.

#ringmaster doodles #sona art #( they’re very much the theme of. love in the face of the neverending march of time. ) #( being immortal and knowing you will outlive the man you love because someone else deemed he unworthy of eternal life. ) #( he may still have tens of thousands of years left. sure. but you know that those will go by and he’ll disappear in the blink of an eye. ) #( and you’ll sit there on his death bed. wondering why did things end up like this? ) #( wondering what you did wrong. and if you could have done something different. you’ll always ask yourself. ) #( if he lives a life of happiness and comfort or did he live a life as gruesome and miserable as the wars on earth? but you won’t know. ) #( and the more you think about it. the more you realize it. how nihilistic he was. and how he never seemed to smile even in the good times. #he always seemed to have a frown or a scowl on his face. he always seems bothered and unhappy. ) #( so you wonder if it was something you did. because you know you aren’t perfect. you’re hardly good. ) #( you wonder if he’s mad at you. maybe he was. but he doesn’t have the heart to stay mad. ) #( and that’s love in the face of adversity. knowing that no matter how bad it gets. he loves you as you love him. ) #( and you wonder why he never smiles. because he truly never does. and so you ask him. honest and true. ) #( and he tells you there isn’t anything worth smiling for. nothing in this whole world. ) #( but he smiles at you. it’s always small. and it’s always brief. ) #( but that smile. that smile means love. ) #( that hug. as flimsy as it may be. that hug means love. ) #( of course. he isn’t affectionate. if anything. he detests it. he hates physical contact of any kind. you’ve noticed. ) #( which is a shame. you love your hugs and your kisses and your hand holding. ) #( but even if he doesn’t like it. he lets you do it. because it makes you happy. ) #( and you learn that when you’re happy. he’s a little less miserable. ) #( of course. not all love is equal. and not all love is fair. ) #( the love from a lover and the love from the father can never equate to one another. ) #( no one will love you in the same way a father or mother loves you. in the same manner. no one will ever love you the way I do. ) #( because my love will remain with you. long after I disappear. ) #( and as bitter as the idea of my own existence coming to an end is. knowing I did all of this for. essentially nothing. ) #( that I’ve gone through all this pain and suffering and hardship just for it to all amount to nothing. for it to be fucking useless to try. #I get to die knowing that you’ll always love and be loved. and that’s enough for me… ) #( … maybe there is something worth smiling for after all. )

[vvalengogh]

biggest shock to me in fnv was convincing veronica to join the followers but bc i was a couple points off i couldn’t tell fool the brotherhood so their next logical course of action was massacring the followers post outside of freeside as if the doctors would build weapons of mass pre war destruction.

#corvid chatter #the fnv branch of the brotherhood especially makes me so oh. ohhh you wanna die so BAD. #this is whag plays as the final nail in the coffin for quinn and he goes nuclear on them lol #at first he was like ‘ok they fucking suck but they’re not hurting anyone. I’ll keep an eye on them and see if they’re worth anything to me #but they won’t even help in the hoover dam battle bc they’re all babies and then they kill followers for the stupidest cause and he’s like #alright suffocate now. #before he just kept them around bc they were hermits and also had laser weapons and mcf for him #i knew they sucked in my first playthru but i never did veronica’s quest until now . I’m in pain

[autoneurotic]

called out at work as an astarion girlie

#how did he know. he just guessed. #i’m nothing if not painfully obvious i guess #it’s just like. he’s just like me for real #covering your trauma w flirtatious flippancy is sooooo. me #just assuming you get through life by grinning and bearing it ! when you could be happy instead ! #‘the worst thing isn’t that he (cazador) did it it’s that he did it to ME’ #AAHHHHH ASTARION I LOVE YOU #the few times he’s mentions his past and seducing ppl for cazador makes me insane #like he sounds so pained the whole time but tries so hard to play it off #like well it was over quick enough anyway ! #and then u find that blood lady in moonrise who wants him to bite her #and if you say fuck off dude he’s his own Man #ar camp later he’s like. almost surprised that you said that!! and was even like talking you and him into it after the fact #like it would have been worth what she was offering whats one more time ha ha 🥲 #OR (im sorry i can’t stop) when you find the drow twins and they’re like we could all fuck ? #he says oooo my love im not sure im ready for that again. #and he sounds NERVOUS. and APOLOGETIC. like IM going to be upset?! #and you can say that pretty much and he’s like i hate it when you’re nice ew……..thank you <3 #MY POOR BOY. my GOD. ohhhhh. #i gotta go lie down i thought about astarion too hard it gave me brain damage

[bawnjourno]

stayed up til 2am last night making these chai sugar cookies w eggnog icing and these lemon cheesecake cookies and they’re both divine btw

#food tw #this has been a text post #i’ve made the tswift cookies a couple times and they’re always a hit (you’ve gotta double the eggnog in the icing so it’s spreadable tho) #but the lemon cookies were a gamble that luckily paid off! #zesting lemons is a pain in the dick but i took a bite and almost busted a nut so worth it

[stormyblankets]

Woo I got dca inspired tattoos today :]

#they’re mostly inspired from chapters and art from SL #I’ll be going back next week to fix the sun one #I like the wonky shape but the guy who tatted me was new and mixed the blue and yellow and made green : #also I learned yellow is hard to see on me anyway so I’m gonna go with a more orange color #overall I love the tats it was very much worth it but woof that pain was somethin #I’ll make another post about it after I get the fix :]] #Solar lunacy #fnaf #sun and moon tattoo #dca fandom #go read Solar Lunacy by Bamsara you cowards #a post of mine

[tyrianlynch]

When ur disabled and ur bosses start being shitty to u and it’s very clearly bc theyre annoyed ur disabled and everyone in ur life is like “oh we’ve all dealt with bosses being shitty” but they don’t get the huuuuge different between bosses being shitty and bosses being shitty purely bc ur disabled

#it’s such a big difference #and they’re telling me to do nothing and just let it happen! #‘let them cut ur hours and thank them for letting u be there at all!’ #WHY SHOULD I #it’s literally not my fault that my abilities are different from those of my coworkers #and when they hired me they were well aware of my disabilities and the problems it could cause #and they said it wouldn’t cause any problems! #but now they’re cutting my fucking hours bc I couldn’t show up to a meeting bc I was in so much pain I couldn’t fucking move #and bc I can’t work long days WHICH I TOLD THEM I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO IN OUR INTERVIEW #but now they’re saying they have to prioritize the people who are able to work longer hours??? #tell me that shit when ur hiring me! #also everyone keeps saying ‘oh they have the right to cut ur hours they’re the bosses’ they literally don’t! #they literally are breaking laws if they are cutting my hours bc I’m disabled! that’s literally illegal! #I’m just so angry and can’t stop crying but there’s not a single person in my life I can talk to about this #bc they all think I’m being over dramatic and that I should say whatever it takes to keep my job #but if keeping my job means letting them treat me like a second class citizen then I don’t even want the fucking job! #it’s just not worth it to me #anyways sorry I haven’t been active lately and literally just came on here to complain #I just didn’t know where else to put this anger since talking to anyone else abt this has just made me angrier