#these are very empty promises

[secretsstash]

needneedneedNEED 🥺🥺🥺

#i'll bruise so prettily.. i promise #feeling feral #and very empty #bd/sm community #nsft concept #use me use me use me #cnc somno

[hyperfixation-tangentopia]

MERRY CRISIS, I WOULD LIKE TO BURN A BUILDING.

#(An empty building that I own with appropriate safety precautions to minimize damage to others and nearby land) #(A very hypothetical building I promise) #(I don't know how to commit arson and am too scared to anyway)

[sagau-my-beloved]

Share the suggestive sagau content please, if your writing/creating it I know its good!

-Rapid anon

You're all way too nice to me 😭

But I guess since I now have a general consensus I'm not gonna hold out, so warning it gets slightly more than suggestive a bit down the road, starts off pretty safe though

So I wasn't kidding that this concept, in one form or another, has been floating around in my head for like two years now

Obviously it didn't start out as sagau centered but it transitions so easily into that universe so I've expanded upon it

Basically the general structure is based off of how in sagau fics it's always kind of implied that the very land of Teyvat itself reflects the creators emotional/physical state

Like heavy storms/rain in imposter au where poor reader is getting hurt/killed by the characters, and the less seen counterpart where the day is just beautiful and perfect when reader is happy

Soooo, taking that, why don't we apply it to characters as well?

And by that I simply mean that the reader's emotions quite literally extend from themselves and can be felt lowkey by anybody close to them

So if the reader is happy then it's almost as if it's impossible to be anything else in their presence, happiness and bliss just permeates throughout the room lifting the spirits of anyone that comes in contact with

Then of course, if the reader is sad, every living thing near them suffers the same pain

It's also considered a universally good thing even if the reader is experiencing negative emotions, which are then also felt by other people in the general vicinity, because at least then all the acolytes know exactly what their beloved creator is feeling and the moment when they're feeling bad, it's not as if it can be hidden, which then allows them to jump right in and try fixing it

I headcanon that this sensation is obviously stronger the closer to the source, aka the creator, that a character is, the strongest of this sensation being felt when the character is physically touching the reader

I feel like there's just a very big variety of what you can do with this concept, like having usually sad/depressed characters finding relief in the creators presence, happy energetic characters instantly feeling waves of negative emotions and just booking it to where the creator is to calm them

You could even extend it further and have this happen in a less dramatic way with the creator statues, if the reader is still in their own world

Like it becomes a daily ritual to visit the creator statue to touch it and feel exactly what they're feeling, it's a sacred place of relief for tired fighters, stressed akademiya students, and sad acolytes who want nothing more than to just bask in the warmth of the divine creator, and if they're met with a negative emotion it's customary to leave an offering and a prayer for the creators wellbeing

Now, moving into the more suggestive aspect of it, and I'm sure you can see exactly where I'm going with this but—

All feelings are amplified for others near them, including pleasure and arousal

Sooo, just saying, there's a lot of potential for some fun drabbles where maybe a particular character quite literally gets addicted to the intense bliss felt from merely touching our dear reader

Or maybe something more like said character can get off on focusing solely on pleasing their creator and the effects of that (not as if they couldn't already, but now it's a bit more literal)

And, in a few things I've written, I've also extended this concept so that the previously mentioned euphoria gets so intense that it becomes something of a baseline, as in there's an actual feeling of pain or at least discomfort from being without it, cough character abandoning all dignity and begging to touch the creator cough

Taking the phrase "addicted to your touch" to a whole new level 😀👍

#genshin impact #sagau #genshin x reader #yandere genshin au #yandere genshin x reader #brainrot #thanks for indulging me #I want you to know that it would take very little to get me to write so many drabbles on this idea alone #idea of being physically needed go brrr #head empty only this #sugestive #rapid anon #I wasn't kidding about the y'all being too nice thing #I promise not everything I write is good #in fact I'm often very worried most of it isn't #so thank you for the encouragement 👍 #means a lot and there's literally no way I would have gotten this far without it #getting personal in the tags on this Wednesday night woo

[delta-piscium]

part 1 | cw unresolved angst [unfinished/for now not being worked on]

Eddie feels excitement buzz through his veins, the same way it does before a gig. A steady hum that has him tapping his fingers against the wheel as he drives.

He’s leaving Hawkins today. He and Steve are leaving Hawkins today, together. They aren’t going too far, only moving to Chicago. It’s far enough away and big enough of a city to get a new start. A place where everything that happened the past few months won’t follow them but also close enough to visit.

Eddie spent some weekends there when Hawkins got too much and Indy, which had been his usual escape, had felt too close. He’d slept in his van and it had honestly been miserable which said a lot about how much he needed to leave.

But it had paid off, he’d gotten to know some people and through them got a job. It was at a bar that regularly held concerts, he’d even managed to get a regular spot playing there.

He’d been so nervous to tell Steve, to ask him to leave with him when they’d only dated for a couple of months but he’d agreed. He’d smiled so big when Eddie asked and they’d gone there together just days later to look at apartments and jobs for Steve. Miraculously they’d found both.

Eddie is honestly amazed at how thorough they’ve been. He’s always envisioned himself packing up his van in the night and just driving. No plans, just him and his van. He likes this better though. Likes the certainty of it, likes that he and Steve have this plan together. That they have a future together.

He turns into Steve’s driveway, his parent's driveway really. After all, he won’t live here anymore.

Eddie has to stop himself from straight up skipping up the driveway, still does some weird half-walk/half-jump thing because he’s too damn happy not to.

He knocks on the door, his lips stretched in a huge grin across his face. One that he couldn’t suppress even if he wanted to.

Steve opens and-

And he’s still in his pajamas, a grim look on his face.

“Did you oversleep?” Eddie teases even as he can tell that isn’t it.

The corners of Steve’s mouth twitch down and Eddie instinctively reaches a hand out to touch, to comfort, only Steve takes a step back. Making a mix of dread and confusion creep through him.

“I’m not going.”

Three simple words and they have the world tilting.

“You’re not-“ his eyebrows scrunch together, trying to make sense of it. “Like today? Do you need extra time? We can postpone by a couple of days but-“

“No, Eddie.” Steve cuts him off, “I’m not going at all.”

“What do you mean?” Is all Eddie can say, is all he can think because what does Steve mean? Eddie doesn’t understand.

Steve looks annoyed, he’s never annoyed with Eddie. Always so patient and kind, but now he looks like he does when his parents show up once a month only to disappear again. And he’s looking at Eddie.

“I can’t leave Hawkins, the kids,“ he turns slightly looking to the side, away from Eddie and that is so much worse. “They need me.”

Eddie wants to scream, wants to ask Steve what about him? tell him that he needs him too.

“When did you decide you weren’t going?” He asks instead, he sounds detached.

Steve shrugs, still refuses to look at Eddie.

“A couple of days ago.”

Eddie feels it like a punch in the gut. A couple of days and he hasn’t said anything? Has pretended to be happy with Eddie about them leaving.

Every doubt Eddie has ever had about Steve and their relationship comes crashing down on him in full force. Tiny voices telling him that Steve never loved him, that this never meant as much to him, that he’s had his fun now and is throwing Eddie away. King Steve is done playing with him.

But, all those things clash so hard with everything Eddie knows about Steve, has spent months learning and falling for. Except the Steve he knows, his Steve wouldn’t do this. Wouldn’t pretend to want a future with Eddie only to take it back at the last second. But obviously he would, since that’s exactly what’s happening now. And if Eddie is wrong about that then why wouldn’t he be wrong about everything else?

Still, through his doubts he hears himself say a broken “Steve?”

He says it like a question and a prayer. Begging Steve to take it all back in the crack of his voice.

Steve swallows and maybe he will take it back because the bob of his throat looks like doubt but then he opens his mouth and he doesn't take it back.

“I’m sorry,” He says and then he turns around and leaves, closing the door in Eddie’s face. Closing the door to their lives together, catching Eddie’s heart between the hinges and crushing it.

Eddie stands there for what feels like a lifetime, waits for something to change. For a second he thinks Vecna is back and this is all a mind trick, almost hopes it is. Nothing else happens though, and eventually he stumbles back to his packed-up van and drives.

He passes the town limits alone, just him and his van.

part two

#the happy ending i promised when i posted this never got written but im telling you they sort it all out #I was sad over something and wrote this so .. u know #there will be more like there’s a happy ending #sorry for any mistakes it’s very late and I’m also horrible at seeing typos and like honestly formatting text? I don’t understand it #I wing it - sprinkle in commas and full stops where it looks empty like yeah idk #English is my second language too and I’m not good in my first so you can imagine the struggle? #steddie #steddie ficlet #steddie fic #steve harrington #steddie angst #steve x eddie #eddie munson #stranger things #my post #dels steddie thoughts #My writing

[severaltuesdays]

I was just reminded of the existence of Dear Evan Hansen and I think it broke something inside me

#still can’t listen to You Will be Found without sobbing hysterically #and I hate it so much because its such an empty promise #I never finished DEH and I blatantly refuse to #but from the summary I read of Wikipedia.com #I hate it #I hate everything about it #its dehumanising in so many ways #and maybe that was the point #which is why im reiterating that I never finished it #but the way Connor becomes some martyr #and all these people are pretending they cared about him #and Evan pulls off the biggest fucking lie of the century #yet when he’s found out he still has a happy ending????? #bullshit #it destroys me to feel like im both in Evan and Connors shoes #like this musical targets some very specific parts of me #ugh im gonna be angsty and pathetic over this for a while #dear evan hansen

[hephaestuscrew]

I'm always mystified by those pre-roll podcast ads where the hosts of a show you've never heard of (which bears no similarity or connection to the show you are listening to) greet you as if you are meant to care who they are and then proceed to read out the ad.

#Just give me a generic radio ad #I'll ignore that too #but I promise I'm not more inclined to use Amazon because of the recommendation of Thingy and Whatsit from Shagged Married Annoyed #Like I get that it's a cheap way to produce an ad and it advertises another podcast as well as the product #But it always seems to be pitched at people with very different podcast listening habits to me #Any ad that's like 'Hi we're .... and .... from hit podcast .... And we're here to talk to you about ....' 🙄 #It's always so patently obvious that they don't know how to advertise to fiction podcast listeners #because it hasn't really occurred to them that those exist #The empty man rambleth

[anxiously-going]

New mantras: "My intelligence is not based on people's (perceived) assumptions of my knowledge." And "I have value beyond my intellect."

#screaming into the void #every so often i'm confronted with the knowledge that the adults in my childhood hung my self-worth on my intelligence for me #i was taught that i was naturally smart and given very little to no support beyond #empty encouraging statements and urges to try harder #which has led to an ongoing identity crisis because i'm not actually the hyper intelligent person i was promised id be #learning has become scary because im a failure and a disappointment if its not easy or if i cant 'prove' i know a thing #i wasnt supported beyond being called smart so now i dont know how to support myself in learning #and not feeling smart is inherently triggering #messy thoughts #im struggling to maintian a line of thought just ignore me

[katyspersonal]

It is always so hard to recover the default settings of my brain after someone had already fiddled with them.

I live completely settled and accepting that nothing in my life will ever get better. That Russia will just keep getting digged deeper and deeper into its grave and I'll never be able to leave it (I am poor, nor I have qualifications important enough). That I'll just die here, and alone, and unloved, and very soon after my mom passes away because I can't fully care for myself. That everything will just keep getting worse, that I'll never reach the civilized world, that I'll always struggle with money for as much as food, that nobody will want to be my family.

But I accepted it, there is no need to worry too much if nothing can be changed. So it hurts even stronger when some asshole crawls back, telling me that he can't have a future without me, how much he wants to take me out of this mess and give me better life, how he has money to buy everything he ever wanted but it all means nothing if he can't buy me gifts and see places with me and meet holidays with me. How he just wanted to have a family at last in his life and only saw me as such - not because I was the only one who would accept, but because he only liked me. Because in the end I dropped my guard and felt hope. My brain completely rebuilt my concept of life and future from "dying alone, cold, unloved and pretty soon" to imagining doing everything there is to do in life together with someone I love.

But apparently he got too scared and uncomfortable with how fixated I became on meeting irl already, since I kept asking him about it? Of course I was impatient! I could not wait to take walks in the places he showed me together, and let him teach me how to cook, and watch all the shows he wanted me to show together, and do house stuff like picking furniture, cosplaying, decorating for holidays, taking care of pets, having long talks before falling asleep etc.. Yet he thought that was cringe and it made me sound "obsessive and entitled" and he went all "woah chill, you should be more HUMBLE and grateful for the OFFER, actually I was not in my right mind when I offered you, I am not really that desperate for you so why can't you just visit me once in a while for holidays or something :)"

And I just can't rebuild myself back to how I used to be right away. The vision of a better future became so apparent, so integral for my thoughts and feelings every day, that I kind of lost the idea. Like walking out of a house only for the door to lock itself behind me, so I can't even walk back in and am stuck outside.

I feel like my life just tries to teach me that I can't be loved or wanted. Why else I keep facing betrayals? Because it should be apparent that if something sounds too good to be true - then it IS.

#/vent #personal #not the first time when someone gets weirded out by how... intense i get when i trust someone #it is hard to actually earn my trust despite me acting friendly and talkative #i am like... clinically paranoid. i am always prepared that my 'buddies' secretly hate me #or that they will leave very abruptly #thats why i become too clingy once my trust is earned - because i am so starved for feeling it #but he like... provoked it. this is different #empty promises and undecisiveness are such a turn off #sorry if this is incoherent ive been crying all day #i guess no one can handle facing the 'real' kat. even those that crawl back begging to see it. #i should just stay repressed and with my shell wearing me instead of me wearing it #look people.. just stop being too nice to me. stop acting like you really love me. #it is clear that whatever is under my shell makes everyone uncomfortable. #that i feel 'too' much and love 'too' much as soon as i feel worthy enough #i guess feeling worthless is the only way for me to not push someone away. #Youtube

[duckapus]

Some details about the Bichitaru Arc:

Because they redrew all the characters for the Kevin's School remake, Reboot Saiko has a slightly different design from our Saiko. Mostly just some added details on her clothes

Because Saiko's from the original version, her code isn't fully compatible with the remake, which is making her glitch painfully

It gets worse if she doesn't follow the script, no matter how much she hates it

The method Reboot Saiko used to trade places involved hijacking Saiko's body, so saving her isn't as simple as just using magic or Tari to pull her out because she'd end up in the same situation as Theo in Meta Runner

Kaizo and Boopkins know more about how a default canon Saiko would act than the others since Kaizo's her in-game best friend and the whole reason she was brought to life in the first place is because Boopkins was obsessed with the game in general and her in particular, so they notice when Reboot Saiko is acting off in ways that even the remake's improved writing can't explain away and figure out what's wrong on their own

Reboot Saiko was pretty quickly able to figure out how Saiko feels about Tari (girl is not subtle) and decides to Go For It, partly to somehow prove herself as the "better" Saiko and partly because she's still more dating sim character than person

This actually tips Tari off that something's wrong, so she believes Kaizo and Boopkins when they come to her with their theory instead of brushing it off as Reset Things

Mario also believes them because he thinks it's weird that Saiko's been so chill about his usual antics

They use Tari's powers to go inside the game (except Kaizo since the two Kaizos meeting would crash the game) and Tari has to go along with Saiko's route so they get chances to talk and figure out a way to fix things. Considering their feelings this gets hilariously awkward very quickly

Meanwhile Boopkins and Mario find out how Reboot Saiko managed to do all this...because they find a heavily modified version of one of the bug viruses from the Emulator Arc. One that has the TV Adware logo on its back

Also meanwhile, Reboot Saiko is getting increasingly frustrated that this isn't the Perfect new life where she wouldn't get overlooked for someone better anymore that she was promised. And when a pre-character development Saiko feels rejected, things tend to get violent

#smg4 #the bichitaru arc #saiko bichitaru #reboot saiko #kaizo koorumaniru #fishy boopkins #tari smg4 #mario #tv adware (smg4) #everybody's going to remember the hard way that saiko was a recurring villain when she was first introduced #this arc is going to be very very gay #you're welcome #for once there's no new trauma #just recycled trauma they all thought they'd moved past #fitting for an arc focused on a remake #once again tv adware preys on the vulnerable and offers them empty promises of perfection to use them as weapons against the crew

[icicleteeth]

For a little over a week now, I've been playing the game with a plogon that hides all players in the game (accursed hoard grinding is a Fuckton of menuing, and other people running around where the HoH npc is messes with my cursor and it was also distracting) Lately I've been wondering if existing in a literal dead game for a week (and probably for the next whole month it'll take to finish the achievement) is doing some subconscious damage to my mood (not helped by the assload of work and Everything Going Wrong already going on in my real life) lol

#more journaling #every day i log in to a ghost world and a barren aetheryte plaza to teleport to an empty deep dungeon entrance like maybe im being #conspiratorial but while i enjoy the quiet im also like. this probably isn't good for me.... but that's okay i can vegetable in front of th #npc and not think about irl for a few hours doing my boring task.. #i can feel myself slipping into a Spiral but being stuck in an infuriating limbo waiting for answers and having your chain yanked #and being put through the ringer with non answers and broken promises and communication refusals from friends who should know better!! #yeah idk putting myself in the most numbing awful grind in the game at the very least takes my mind off of that

[fuckthisshitimin]

Friend: Well it costs you nothing to send an application!

Me: *Shaking behind my computer, nauseous and checking five times if I spelled my name right* yeah finding a job isn't so hard even with a disability *sends one email and passes out*

#yeah no i promise it costs me something #and i want to add the friend really means well. great supportive lad. #but yeah sending an application will take me two hours at the very least and sap my energy for the day so... right. #gotta send another one. last day is today and my mom found it for me. #'hey it's about queer people and chemsex son! it's so for you!' well thanks mom you know me best #she's so right btw. love her so damn much. #have half a mind to call her and send the application on the phone with her. might make it more bearable to have someone to complain to. #someone that isn't the echo in an empty flat

[oatbugs]

clouds by alex g great song to almost tear up to

#date i had on sat cancelled bc she had too much work to do which me too but i was rly looking forward to catching up w her #that plus all the other stuff that has been happening #my friends' house is almost empty everyone is going home #the weather is playing along too #two of my friends are in thailand i miss both of them dearly #ive found myself subconsciously believing in some form of karma over the past few months #even if logically i dont believe in it whenever a string of bad events happen i ask myself what i did to warrant this #i think right now my crime is a lack of self discipline #making false promises to myself and not following through at detriment to my own future #i know this line of thinking isnt helpful but maybe i need it because otherwise its just. that im very unlucky #or that im meant to not be loved or things will just keep going wrong and id really like thst to not be true #the sun is shining a little bit through the clouds #maybe thats a good sign

[transingthoseformers]

When the Fallen starts to like, really try convincing Tarn to help him it's gonna be fun.

"𝕀 𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕤𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦, 𝕋𝕒𝕣𝕟, 𝕚𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕗𝕣𝕖𝕖 𝕞𝕖... 𝕀 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕗𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝕕𝕖𝕤𝕚𝕣𝕖𝕤."

"𝐇𝐦𝐦... 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬... 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐌𝐞𝐠𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐏𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐚?"

"...𝕊𝕦𝕣𝕖!"

#tfp au #the fallen #maccadam #tf Tarn #oh the Dallen is just kinda nodding along bc we know he's fully willing to make empty promises #or at least omit very important details #Tarn is absolutely willing to do wnything if it means both having his Lord and his Medic in his reach... which won't happen lol

[seokmatthewz]

I HOPE U LIKE METRONOME!!!! i think its so fun ive had it on loop for 2hrs now

ITS SO GOOD I LOVED IT!!!! I got like a splitting headache out of nowhere so I had to stop listening to it earlier bdjfkf but once it leaves me I will return to looping it its such a banger keita does so well with his verse and I like ph-1's rapping in general so I was super happy with it!!! a fun summer song I adore this specific facet of khiphop so much im so happy thats the vibe they went for

#very glad the collab offer wasnt an empty promise i hope keita can maybe collab w other rappers too!! #hes so good #asks #megidology

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

“i need to get in touch with the goo people” i’m fascinated by your mind. in a good way

i want to learn their ways

#'dear people at the bbc. i do not have an education my cv is empty and i dont really learn very quick at all but #i am enthusiastic about slime and goo and sludge and Am willing to touch it (wont be weird abt it prommy) #do you maybe have a spot free to apprentice with the goo people (people who make the goo not people made of goo) #i will even cross the north sea to come live in your rapidly declining country for this #thanks in advance dimitri (promise i'll be normal abt the slimes)'

[maskyartist]

just jottin down an au idea real fast-

AU where the twins, in the wake of the Grulovia Flood, end up finding Amira and getting her away from the situation as a whole. the trio end up leaving town with Lucrecia-turned-Nona.

Augustus ends up getting his memories altered with Lucy's, but the twins manage to convince Ford to let them keep theirs. At first, they assumed they could handle the pressure of keeping such a secret, but as they got older and older and they watched Augustus grow up under this false happy ending, they grew bitter towards the old man.

They end up feeding into the "no Psychics" ideology, despite having previously been quite skilled themselves. All because of Ford, and how he ruined their family. He ruined their lives. Even the smallest of them, and it continues to effect their family to this day.

When Raz asks why they hate Psychics, they say the same thing.

"They ruined our family."

but outside of the drama shit, imagine the uncles actually getting to be uncles,,,,playin wingman for Augustus and Dona,,,,gettin to teach Raz some stuff during PN2,,,,so many thoughts,,,,

#masky says #nikolai aquato #dimitri aquato #psychonauts #psychonauts au #aquato family #i'll call it- #Frozen Oceans and Empty Promises AU #or- #FOEP AU #:D looks good amirite? very cool abreviation