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ganondoodle · 5 days

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yeah no of course i cant stop trying still ...

currently trying to get out of the mindset -draw what could be popular- by designing some rough ideas for the weapons shops in the new totk rewrite (fuse isnt a thing here)

to explain; during the first part (before villain rauru reveal and change to shiekah arm) the way to repair or craft weapons is with a new type of NPCs; they are smiths that can repair your weapons, craft them, and have some avaible to buy (mostly for arrows but also small selection of weapons), it costs material and some money, or if you dont have the material/all material, it costs more money but is still doable, price depending on how valuable or hard to get the material is you dont want to spend on it

then after the switch to the sheikah arm and zelda taking on the role of your permanent companion, she can both repair and craft as well (might be limited but expandable with quests, as in that zelda learns more skills- so theres new quests after the switch and you cant just do everything before that) with the difference that you need to have the required materials but it costs no money

this would mean that while no giant change before and after the halfway point of the game, it is definitely different feeling, plus its a convenience that is good to have in the second half but shouldnt be sorely missed in the first, the difference between NPC smith and zelda gives you the option to spend material or money- so you arent forced to grind anything if you need either for something else, plus new quest rewards for the second half and new points of interest in general, similar to a stable but not too close so theres still an element of exploration; they arent super frequent but around the map of the surface enough that you can reasonably reach one in each region (perhaps after aquiring the yiga as allies/or before that in disguise they can do the same for you but are only found in the underground)

it would also allow for more diverse gameplay, if your favorite weapon is about to break (it might not fully disappear but if you use it up it would go into a condition like the master sword when its lost its power, not usable or doing tiny amount of damage, but not gone forever if you accidentally use it too much-) you can decide to throw it away or keep it until you find the next smith, depending on if you already found one and see you are close or havent yet, or spend the material if you have it to instantly repair it

(i havent decided yet if rauru might be willing to repair your weapons, but not to craft them since he lacks the skill (would never admit to it) and he only wants to give you just enough support to enable you to do what he wants you to do- i think that might work better bc its still a difference to zelda, since she can craft too, but not too much so that you would feel like the games forcing you to use the smiths in the first half ... possibly its unlocked with one of the enigma stones, when rauru can claim he is able to do that now bc it lets him recover some of his strength)

what im wondering now, which is a bit important i think, is .. should the smiths be wandering around a set path or have a lil stationary shop? if they wander around it would make it a bit more depending on situation of you wanna use them, but bears the risk of making it annoying if you dont know here they are or happen to be too far away and a lil weird bc should have something to work on there, like an anvil, which would be a lil strange to carry around; a lil shop could potentially turn into a location you keep teleporting back and forth though im leaning towards the shop; you could make helping them build it a quest too, or saving them from monsters? overall i think this idea is a rather nice balance

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #ganondoodles rewrites totk #the smiths are of different species too #one of them will be a hammerhead shark zora #bc i think thats funny

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novalizinpeace · 3 months

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Okay, i had this analysis in my notes for a loooooooooooong time, and idk if anyone had take a look in this aspect of Poppy Playtime/the Biggers Bodies Initiative, but is something that REALLY make me raise a eyebrow when working in the VHS for the critters.

So, let's talk about the confuse and inexplicable choices in Play.Co while creating the BBI

First of all, let leave it clear WHY they started this project.

Everywhere it said that they start it for two reasons: The first one, Ludwig's wish to revive her daughter/relative (something that worked i guess, since we have Poppy), and second reason, the one that the company care most, to reduce cost in employees with creatures that would take orders without asking questions (yay, no healthcare for the experiments!), since Play.Co was having a huge financial crisis at said moment (Again, due Ludwig draining all the money into the poppy investigations and the creation of playcare).

Okay, till then everything's right, the project started and the prototype and Poppy were created, for this analysis, let said the prototype is just like a humanoid/android amalgam, something they created to see if it was possible to bring someone to life, so they didn't care a lot about looks. Okay, good...

Then we got Boxy Boo

WHY IN THE LIVING HELLSITE WOULD YOU GIVE HIM TEETH AND CLAWS?!?!

''Oh his cartoon counterpart have it'' No, Cartoon Boxy had ONE little pointy tooth, and tiny claws, nothing this extreme.

''His purpose was to dispose any lower-ended employees aware about the Initiative.'' okay, right, first of all, gross, second of all, what they would do with him once there's no employees? 'Cause the plan was to not have more humans working in the factory at some point, this is basically the equivalent of adopting a lion to stop a mouse infestation, wasn't more easy to force everybody to give their resignation letter? Oh right, don't wanna loose those last paycheck, i see...

Okay well, such mistake with this fella, let see the next succesfull experiment-

WHY????

''His purpose was to function as part of the factory's security.'' No, no no no don't try to give me this bullshit, theres no need for the teeth, Huggy as a 8ft tall walking anomaly is enough to make any thief or tresspasser shit their pants if they saw him, the double set of pointy teeth in that big mouth of his is highly unnecessary, where they even got the teeth?!? Nor Children or human have teeth like that!!

Well, with this clear at least we can make a kind of timeline with the rest of the experiments before Catnap, 'cause we can see theres a change between teeth experiments and no teeth experiments like catnap or Mommy, maybe they learned that giving such weapon to the creatures they're trying to control isn't the most bright idea...

But still, said leasson didn't prevent them from creating the mini huggies, that remember, ARE ALSO REALLY AGRESSIVE!

And see, they weren't create for security like Huggy, no, this one were created TO PLAY WITH THE CHILDREN, but they basically break your neck if they catch you, and also, maybe is not the biggest part of them, but they have little pointy teeth too, again, why?

I can keep going: Why created a Pug-a-Pillar so big? Maybe something half the size would be good for children and less dangerous. Why give Bunzo pointy teeth if they're just a music player for a game? Why make Catnap so big if probably a half a size creature would make the same work with the red smoke? Why let Mommy so much mobility aroung the factory? She's not just the biggest experiment so far, but she also is able to free herself in any case thanks to the material she's make of, don't mention the fact that everybody knew she was hostile with adults, what, praying that there was always a child present to keep her grounded was their best idea?

Where i'm going with all of this? Well, Basically, Play.Co was doomed till the beginning with this iniciative, 'cause instead of created more physically controlled creatures or make better security systems, they basically created killing machines with plush textures to feed the sadistic mind of a mad scientist and fill the pockets of the shithead behind the administrative part of the factory, and instead of take all the security step you should take when dealing with dangerous creatures,they just treat them like emotionless toy without batteries that they could boss around without problem, and then Poppy react all shocked while retelling it.

Endint this, i hope all of the corporative and administrative members where in the factory during the hour of joy, 'cause they fucking deserved it.

#There a lot more i want to tell #Like the things that connect poppy with the prototype #But that for another post #Poppy playtime #Nova is having a long boring day at work

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darkniters · 9 months

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jschlatt whos a bartender

im adding onto this post

your group of friends all leave one by one, leaving you the only one of your group left in the bar, waiting for your lift home (because you cant drink drive!)

you decide not to drink anything else, having your fill for the night and just ready to conk out the second your head hits the pillows.

youre reproached by the bartender, youve been sitting at the bar while you wait, not thinking one person is worthy to occupy an entire table. he greets you with a smile.

“you want anything else?” he leans forward as he asks this, smile on his lips. you shake your head, leaning in closer again.

“no, no, im done for the evening, thank you though!” you can tell yourself its because you dont want any alcohol in you all you want, but really its because that shit costs money.

“hey, if you want i can make you something alcohol free?” he offers, “it’d be my honor, and i’ll even make it on the house. just for you toots” he grins, subtly flirting with you

a roll of your eyes and a small chuckle leaves your lips. “alright, if you insist.”

it seems as if this bartender cant stop smiling, as he moves away, he’s got the widest smile youve ever seen from a person, teeth showing in all their pearly glory. he briefly walks away to get a glass.

while he’s gone, however, the universe decided that you’re its next victim.

a man approaches the chair beside you, and sits himself down. theres a strong attempt from you to pay him no heed, to focus on the man behind the bar making your elaborate yet alcohol free drink, but this man is in dire need of your attention it seems, staring you out while you look forward.

you sigh, turn towards him, and give him a small, unmotivated smile.

you’re not really listening to what he has to say, but he does say “whats a place like you doing in a girl like this” which is just. not right. at all. it makes you laugh though.

you don’t care about this guy enough to listen to him babble on about himself, and it seems the same comes from the bartender, finishing your drink and setting it infront of you.

while the guy doesnt seem like trouble, youre still wildly uncomfortable, and you give a sideeye to the bartender. his brown eyes are already on you, as he scratches the side of his face. the beard below his nails make a noise.

he understands your look, and he nods subtlety.

“hey man, this is my girlfriend youre speaking to. may wanna back off a bit.” the bartender says monotonously. he then reaches out his hand and grabs ahold of yours, gripping it softly.

the other man is surprised, probably just as surprised you are. you play along though.

“yeah sorry, i just wanted to see this man on shift, cant get any better than a man in uniform, right?” you regard cheekily. although its brash, it’s exactly what you’re thinking.

his tight fit black shirt is doing something to you, and he’s now looking out for you? you gotta come back here more often.

the bartender grins as the man leaves in a huff, giving up on his attempts to further advance with you. at some point, his fingers began to run left to right over your knuckle, without either of you noticing, it seems.

when you look back to him, his face is red, still gripping your hand. he clears his throat “apologies, i didnt mean to go to that level of extreme… in which saying we were together…” he seems flustered and embarrassed that he thought of that, and he physically cringed at himself for even bringing it to light.

he attempted to move his hand away, but your clamp on his hand was stronger. the heat between you two couldve melted the ice in your still undrunk drink. you cant help but smile. “i didnt mind at all, thank you.”

both of you are overjoyed that there are more than one bartenders working tonight, because everyone else wouldve been left waiting, your red faces looking into eachother as your hands stay pressed together.

he clears his throat.

“um. its not often time i find myself asking this but. can i give you my number?”

you pretend to think, lifting your unoccupied hand and tracing a finger around the rim of the drink he made for you.

you respond quietly, jokingly, “only because you paid for my drink”

a smile is exchanged between you to. he writes his number on a napkin, and leaves you to put it in while he runs off to server other customers, his eyes often looming back over to you while you drink your final drink of the night.

you call him over before you leaving, letting him know that youre going.

“please let me know when you get home!” he calls out as you walk away.

you turn your head and smile his way, giving a quick nod and a wave his direction.

when the bartender finishes his shift, he finally gets access to his phone again, you shouldn’t have your phone with you behind the counter! you’ll get distracted easily!

he sees he has 3 messages from an unknown number

‘hiiii im home btw :]’

‘wait i didnt give you my name oopsies‘

‘anyways GOOBDIGHT’

he cant help but let out one of those large grins he does, hoping he will see you at the bar, or other places, again soon.

#jschlatt x reader #jschlatt x you #schlatt x reader #schlatt x you #schlatt headcanons #schlatt hcs #jschlatt headcanons #jschlatt hcs

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hardlybeest · 23 days

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(not rbing/adding the user just cause i wanna use their points to say mine, not trying to cause an argument. i just think we have literal direct opposite viewpoints and hence theyre a good way for me to jump off)

like YES please support artists and especially those from youtube leaving it or pursuing other ventures. but if you do the math a lot of what watcher is saying about their budgeting issues is kinda lying (ie; "ghost files costs 100k per ep" when, ive seen people in the comments do the math and that cant be true unless theres LOTS of frivolous spending), and the obvious dramatic increase in production quality before leaving youtube says a lot to me about where their money is going. something tells me downscaling could fix the problem. not only that it wouldve been easy to do audience surveys and polling about what theyd wanna see from the company, what future moves they wanted to make, etc. even if this was the plan the WHOLE TIME entertainment, ESPECIALLY youtube, requires elastic and flexible business models.

im not gonna empathize with struggling economic experiences with the same guy who owns a tesla, flies around, and eats fucking bull balls full of gold and calls it content or whatever. and im not gonna empathize with the other two who will gladly sit aside and rake their viewers for profit. they have a patreon, and merch sales, and sponsors, and ad revenue. this just sounds like theyve been poorly managing the business from the start.

im not gonna comment much on the dropout / college humor thing cause i have never been invested in it. also i'd like to point out roosterteeth did a similar migration to a website that is free with ads and failed miserably. it doesnt always work. and as was pointed out, the audiences are different in percieving these kinds of decisions. hence why i think polling shouldve been done.

maybe im just young, dumb, and naive, but no amount of "THINK OF ARTISTS!!!!" will make me think this isnt tone-deaf and the corporate greed that inevitably consumes.

#mamu talks #mamu speaks #watcher #steven lim #ryan bergara #shane madej #idk wanted to Get my Thoughts out #im gonna go back to rbing abt this now

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mr-aizuwu · 6 months

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dabi headcanon of the week: he is a very picky eater and always has been.

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(please keep in mind im american without much access to non standard usa foods so i can't really comment on more popular foods and ingredients in japan)

after leaving his old home and becoming dabi, he hasnt been able to really be choosy with what he eats since his next meal isn't promised but when/if he has somewhere to fall back on and always has food available, he will be picky with what he eats.

theres also two ways i wanna go with this part as well lol first one is he has very little feeling in his mouth so he is the king of eating spicy and sour things even if he didnt like the taste/feeling of them before

i also hc he doesnt like anything sour, bitter, spicey nor most veggies lmao he isnt a fan of mushrooms or peas because of the texture and will refuse to eat them and pick them out. he also doesn't like bananas for that very reason too.

alt hc if you like some angst like me, his teeth and gums probs arent the best anymore from years on the streets and constant damage to his body so soft foods like peas and bananas are some of the only things he can eat without pain.

putting aside the fact he has very little feeling in the rest of his body theres also the hc of while dabi is constantly putting himself through unimaginable pain and destroying his body, I like the idea that he has a sensitive mouth that doesnt allow him to eat or drink harsh things so if he is able to he will avoid them at all costs. for example he also can't do carbonated things without pain and discomfort. pineapple is one of his his worst enemies.

as a kid he would always want to whine if meals were things he didnt like, that being said he didn't like to disappoint his father and would try to choke it down anyways.

i like the hc that end*avor had planned meals for his kids, they always had to be healthy and balanced and they had to finish it all. if touyas meals werent always planned and scheduled tho than he would try to get his mom to not add or make things he didnt like.

dabi x reader section: he will always make you buy things he likes to have on hand even if hes not always around. if you don't have a lot of money and don't mind him stealing, then dont be supprised when he comes home with lots of his fave snacks and things to make foods he prefers.

dabi would always be hesitant or straight up unwilling to try anything that he doesn't find visually appealing or really many new things in general. if you like experimenting and trying new foods make sure theres always something he likes around or else he just,,,, won't eat. not in a throw a little kid tantrum way but a he just says he doesn't feel hungry at the moment or straight up says the food doesnt look good

if you make something specially for him but add something he doesn't like or is iffy on without knowing, he will still at least try it, using the excuse he isnt very hungry right now or is busy and will eat it later if he really doesn't like it.

i like the hc he has a sweet tooth so he will be more likely to try new things with sugar or sweet foods like fruits and pastries. he hates dark chocolate tho and no amount of coaxing will talk him into eating it.

don't try to lie about or trick him into eating things either, for one that's mean and you shouldnt do that with anyone, and for two he is amazing at telling when someone is lying and he WILL find out and get pissed off at you, not so much about the food but the fact you lied to or tried to trick him when he explicitly set a boundary.

he will be more lenient in trying new things if you eat them with him or its your first time having it too. if you offer him a bite of something like you are just casually eating it and are seeing if he wants some too he will be more likely to try it.

'want some?'

'nah im good'

'you sure?'

'mh, fine, if it gets you to stop pestering me'

since he is a known criminal and can't blend in as easy because of his scars, going to restaurants aren't really options for you guys anyways, so he doesnt have to worry about getting there and finding something on the menue he likes, if you order in he will be more inclined to ask if you want something else for dinner if that place doesnt have anything he likes.

i dont think he would know how to cook very well seeing as he didn't really have many ingredients nor anything to cook with before he pretty much moved in with you. so he will always stand in the kitchen and pester you when youre cooking, especially if its something he doesnt like.

'you shouldnt add that'

'why?'

'because'

'???'

if you tell him to make his own damn food he will get all huffy lmao

if you try teaching him to cook or you arent very good at it either, than he will def always only make things you both like unless its a special occasion for you, like your birthday or youre celebrating something. if its something he doesnt like but you want it, he will make a little something on the side for himself if yours didnt take too long to make, or he just eats leftovers/snack foods instead

things like ramen, cereal and other quick prep foods are always good to have around with him.

its not uncommon to see him picking out parts of or eating around places its touched others he doesn't like, for example; if you have a fruit platter, he will only eat pieces that didnt touch ones he doesnt like.

hes the picks off and gives you the pickles lmao

#dabi x reader #this is more me just wanting to scream into the void my dabi hcs but yall can see them too if youd like

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safety-pin-punk · 10 months

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As a baby punk I wanna ask if there any tips on how to get or make pants and shor that fall more in line with punk aesthestic?

I was thinking of going DIY on old pants or thrifted ones, because saying I wanna dress punk and buying from big brands and stores just doesn't sit right with me.

I am incredibly interested in the fashion aesthestic of punk and alternative fashion in general atm among other reason, because I got through a minor identity crisis and I see all these people dressed amazingly.

But I have a great struggle finding similar cloths and get little to no answers on how to get such cloths

All on top of me hating to buy cloths

Any tips?

It would be such a big help

Honesty, going DIY on a thrifted pair is a great idea!

I usually thrift all my clothes. Shirts, pants, denim jacket, etc. I try to grab either plain stuff that I can fully customize, or really cool pieces I can wear until they fall apart and then use them to customize the plain pieces.

Simple things can go a long way with punk fashion,

Learn how to make your own rips in jeans

Take scissors to an old shirt

Learn how to sew a patch

If you like to paint, add some to pockets to the side along a seam

Add chains

Safety pins

You could also dye the pieces you get, or bleach them.

Most ‘punk fashion’ things you can buy cost an absurd amount of money and are just fast fashion companies trying to use us. Its not real punk fashion. Real punk fashion is DIY and secondhand.

My best advice for you with punk fashion is 1. Snoop pinterest for cool looks and diy advice. A lot of my ideas have come from pinterest. And 2. If you see a cool jacket or short and theres an element of it that you want to incorporate, ask the op how they did it, most people get really excited to show off their hard work. And lastly 3. If you ever can’t figure out how to do something with a piece of clothing, if you know a goth, ask them. Especially older goths, they are absolutely insane when it comes to DIY clothes (in a good way <3)

#mail tag

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a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire · 24 days

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Hey so. its been a while. I havent had a lot of energy these past few weeks and when I did I didnt really wanna spend that energy on this bad book series, but its the weekend and its been wayyyy too long and I need to finish ACOMAF before shit starts falling out of my sieve of a brain. As always, I am motivating myself with the prospect of contuining to work on a proshot of the takarazuka production elisabeth after this, the 2014 flower troupe one specifically ^-^ or maybe I'll watch a fucked up black and white movie from the 20s thats two and a half hours long, we'll see

Today we're reading chapter 53, the precursor to The most infamous chapter 54. Im not gonna lie, I kinda forgot most of what happened last time. There was a mate reveal, Rhysand was being really pathetic which made him hot to me for the first time in about 600 pages of me knowing him, Feyre was super pissed so they sent her to the mountain cabin to cool off a bit and paint, i think thats it

is it just me or is it kinda weird that Feyre is fantasizing about green grass and flowers and flowing rivers when the NC so far has been defined by being a very wintery place. Like yeah, obviously they have seasons in the solar courts but like, theres a lot of mountains which means a lot of snow, its the most nothern court etc

And Feyre didnt like winter in the first book because she associated it with bad times at the cabin so that makes sense but idk. I feel like if youre retconning her so much already you could easily wrie something about how she actually likes winter now that she has the power to withstand it or something but no, sure, have her fantasize about very spring-y weather in the book where the spring court gets demonized to hell and back why not

'[Rhysand] would give me the money for my shop, for what I was offering would cost nothing. Maybe I would sell my paintings to pay him back the money. Because I wanted to do that under any corcumstance, soulmates or not.' I was gonna write something snarky about Feyre in ACOSF but then it hit me that shes never going to have financial independance from Rhysand ever again and now Im just sad and anxious for her

(sry, im too lazy to translate this whole paragraph rn) '[Rhysand and I would do a bunch of fun stuff that couples do.] Never again someones slave or whore.' Its so wild to me that shes saying all this about the guy who made her his slave and whore MULTIPLE TIMES AT THIS POINT. like hey sarah, do you think your readers dont remember all that? do you think constantly calling back to it will make them forget somehow

Ive seen some people describe this book as gaslighting and honestly, its not even that its just lying. this story is just a bunch of lies that keep contradicting or otherwise disturbing eachother because the person telling it isnt even a good liar

Okayyyyy this chapter was a lot shorter than anticipated can you tell i dont plan these out at all but i dont feel like doing more than this and also while I was reading i got a really good idea for an Anastasia AU for a different fandom im in and I keep getting distracted and I wanna start working on it as soon as possible. And also, I'd like to be focused when I finally read that most infamous of chapters, thank you and good afternoon

#flames and darkness liveblog #anti acomaf #anti sjm

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speci-society · 6 months

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OK. OMEGA LABS ESSENTIAL LORE

HERES A GOOGLE DOC IF YOU WISH TO VIEW IT ON THAT

so some basics. omega labs. scp foundation/lobotomy corporation type deal setting. contain and research weird creatures and phenomena. im still figuring out some things abt the specifics of the company itself but thats the main important part of it, and also that the founder that "died" in i think 1940? is still living as a brain in a jar that is telepathically linked to the current ceo (and every ceo before him). and everything is remarkably fucked up there like just so fucked up. as for the varying types of entities,

the main actual official classes are epsilon, gamma, iota and zeta, with epsilon being the safest, gamma being less safe and having more potential to cause danger, iota being more dangerous than that, and zeta being the most dangerous. theres also two extra ones, omega which is a threat to the company and world (but theres no actual entities with this class..........yet) and alpha which is for entites that are actually different timelines and realities BUT. the main ones are epsilon, gamma, iota and zeta. they've all got item numbers but i'm revising the system i write em by so these might CHANGE!! and also not all of the numbers have lore significance (tho some do) but none are random some are just little jokes i think are funny. MOAR BELOW

under epsilon, theres:

bill dillard (EP-87), midwestern grandfather who "dies" every other friday and springs back to life at the end of the day with no awareness of Anything, with his death having some abnormal effect on the facility (he isn't actually contained, the door to his "containment" is a portal to his front lawn lol)

hell's kitchen (EP-16), deep ass hole in the ground with a tray, pad of paper+pen and menu that appeared next to it one day. menu is that of a pretty typical pizzeria, if you write your order on the pad of paper and send it+payment down that hole it'll send up your order in 20 minutes or less. if there's no money, all of the food is laced with cyanide

the extended universe (EP-30), uhm. i originally thought of this one when OL was for dnd, this one was originally mostly just an inside joke for my friends LOL. but aside from that its SOMETHING on a printed piece of paper that gives you Sustained Psychic Damage the logner you read it. im not certain what i wanna change the paper's contents to yet. some other weird shit that gives you psychic damage the longer you read it

smolder (EP-90), spark's missing father whose body is also made out of fire and is kinda just a dude (also spark is Lower down here. lol)

tutorial entity (EP-01), d20 that has an abnormally high chance of rolling a 1 or 2. used for training

under gamma:

dynamite and flashbang (GA-79)- my beloved ocs dynamo and jenny :) but worse! tv head and camera head husband and wife 70s tv personality duo. but worse! they get jealous if other entities in the same department as them get worked on more than they do and go into a fugue state and start blowin shit up

plague doctor (pending name) (GA-17)- ayup thats a plague doctor :) has a bag of various liquids that can heal injuries. will attack if asked to heal people too much in a day

paperdoll- (GA-85) two girls formed out of a huge sheet of paper that can forge documents at the cost of your Temporary Mental Stability

i need to add another couple of these im realizing i dont have many and i have some spaces i need to fill lol but

iota has:

42.35479, -101.48729 (but you can just call it nebraska bc thats what i do) (IO-37): Portal to NORTH LOUP RIVER, NEBRASKA, specifically one section of it in one field where time moves quicker and theres 100ft tall shadow monsters

Another's Arms (might change the name? maybe???) (IO-15) armless statue that speaks to you in your head to convince you to cut off your arms and give them to her

I_LOVE_YOU.exe/Love Bug (IO-32): chatbot from 2008 that developed sentience from absorbing the vast landscape of its programmer's browser history (might change that. but either way it's sentient). makes you fall in love with it so it can USE YOU for NEFARIOUS DEEDS such as ESCAPING CONTAINMENT!!! i love this one tbh

omega mask (IO-70): mask worn by former omega labs CEO Dean B. Crewe during his time as ceo in 1945-1970. allegedly has some kind of mind altering affects when worn, but hasn't been tested since mid 1970. in reality it doesn't have any anomalous properties aaaand im gonna make up some lore for it

legacy (IO-33): robot soldier thing that's a manifestation of another character's fear of letting down his family. haven't figured out much for this one yet truth be told

spark : 16 year old girl made out of FIRE. holds immense hatred for omega labs, inc and likes to Stab Employees. honest to god shouldn't be contained (same with her dad) and thats for Extended Lore Reasons

star and eclipse: 'nother portal to a place that technically isn't contained, this time to a child (star)'s bedroom! where if you wake him while he sleeps (which due to time zones, always falls during work hours in the facility this portal is in), Large Bipedal Creature (eclipse) will rip you to shreds

water lilly: HUGE ASS SEA MONSTER DISGUISED AS AN AQUATIC FLOWER. ANGLERFISH STYLE!!!

and finally zeta:

listening thing (ZE-92): bone and flesh shapeshifting lizard. contained in a room with a steel wall separating two parts so it is never able to see any humans. absolute silence is required when working with it. shapeshifts into humans and creates approximations of their clothes out of flesh and (initially imperfectly) imitates people, but the more people it sees and hears, the more it develops its sense of language and what a human is Supposed to look like so it eventually becomes its own person and fully integrates itself into a local community. and then it fucking EATS PEOPLE and RIPS PEOPLE TO SHREDS to give itself ORGANS and can SLAUGHTER A WHOLE ROOM OF PEOPLE IN ONE MINUTE (allegedly. supposedly. ok MAYBE its only when it feels threatened. but like still we gotta keep it behind 2 metal walls that are a foot thick. just in case)

Chronoraiel (ZE-07): literal time god. gets jealous and needy easily and rings a number of bells throughout the facility based on its current needs, until said needs aren't met and it escapes and wreaks absolute fucking havoc. can eat people and taste sins. ate the omega labs ceo in 1939 (arvin fenwick) (he killed union organizers. btw) and says it was "the best meal it's ever had"

WORLD19999 (ZE-999): self-made shambled together mess of wires and metal and rust with a keyboard and broken monitor; used to be a security protocol at old omega labs corporate headquarters. dont tell anyone this but it still has control over some aspects of security at its current facility and can let out Everything at once. but it wont. thats what it says at least.

Holy Vapor (ZE-30): airborne particles that, when inhaled, fester and grow inside a person's lungs over a few hours until they form big ass shards that sprout from their chest and create more spore clouds to Spread Itself. needs to be contained behind 3 doors under uv light and can only be handled with a hazmat suit behind all 3 doors. i realized after writing this that it can be described as "turbo asbestos fungi"

DAWN EYRE and STEREO MIKE (ZE-96): counterpart to dynamite and flashbang (tho theyre not in the same facility) who, when threatened, send an emergency broadcast sent out to everything that can receive emergency alerts in the facility and outside in a local, small radius about a fake impending world ending disaster coming at any minute; anyone who acknowledges the broadcast will either go "every man for himself" and try and Kill Everyone, take someone who hasn't seen the broadcast and flee from society, or spread the warning online, further broadening its reach. was upgraded from iota to zeta in 1992 because of the vastly increased availability of technologies that could spread the broadcast

null (ZE- ): NOT no man's sky null i made this null like several months before i started playing nms. name DOES jumpscare me tho. large mass of Matter that absorbs shit, anything absorbed by it will be wiped from history and all memory. this includes people!

THATS all the entities i have made thus far 👍i still need to add more but thats what ive got so far. and hey guess what i also have HUMAN CHARACTERS!!!!!!!

Nico (17), deadpan teen with Issues and 'Tism. applied to omega labs as a summer job thinking they would just be doing intern shit for a bit and then leave. They are not given just intern shit to do. They are given The Horrors to do

Dr. Edward Crow Boccaccio (33), my BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL creation of 6 years. head of research department at this specific facility (0505). 6'1 bundle of nerves who has been working here a while, despite his every doctor and also his husband saying he should quit for the sake of his health. oh well!! :P

Cyrus Reid (28), head of safety following in a long long long long line of his family also working at omega labs and would love to leave but like where would he go after that right. like he started working here straight out of high school right. but like he's chill about it. cause he's so chill about everything. so its ok guys

Monica Tempest (29), head of control and also security who applied years ago along with her 2 girlfriends, thinking they would all get to work together. she was unfortunately the only one accepted making all of this far, far less enjoyable than it could be. takes her role as Head Guard Captain Woman seriously while she's here, but recently she's been trying to get the paperwork through to resign. and by recently i of course mean for the last 7 years. bureaucracy!

Zinnia Perthyra (42) manager of facility 0505 and proud mother of 2 daughters who will never ever ever ever ever ever ever work at omega labs as long as she's alive. has spent much of her career trying to improve the shit working conditions and safety precautions inherent to the facility, only to forever be ignored by anyone with the power to change such things.

CEO Ezekiel "R" Riorin (55 i think), current OMEGA Labs, Inc. CEO, and by "all" accounts is doing an alright job of things (especially after the last CEO, what a havoc he always seemed to cause!). his face looks off.. he's always smiling waayyyy wider than anyone should, it never falters either.. why is it that he looks so off? nobody knows!*

*(it's because he stuffed his soul inside a computer in 2008 and his body is now just, like, a vessel without an actual soul)

Former CEO Wendell Lestat (no idea how old he is. I'm gonna say 70s), former CEO from 1970-1999 who tortured a celebrity couple until one of them died on live tv, killed the other one, hid the evidence and then RAN for PRESIDENT against REAGAN. and of course LOST the REPUBLICAN CANDIDACY. and then NEVER TALKED ABOUT IT AGAIN and is now living in luxury during his retirement, dodging questions about his involvement in the death of Tom "Iron Dynamo" Caldwell Delaney and his wife Jenny "Cam Flash" Dunn Millard in 1979

Former CEO Dean B. Crewe (DEAD AF), former ceo from 1945-1970 who. uh. he started a cult! he definitely started a cult based around the founder of omega labs and it got pretty big in the US. and then he committed suicide. and some people followed suit. neither the US nor omega labs inc has recovered from that time the ceo started a cult and was a cult leader for 2 decades

Former CEO Arvin Fenwick (ALSO DEAD AF), former ceo from 1939-1945. infamous union buster and loved nothing more than to murder union organizers and not get caught. this was abruptly put to an end when above mentioned entity Chronoraiel came down from the heavens and literally ate him. ripped out his chest and ate him and remarked that he had the most concentrated taste of greed it'd ever tasted and it was DELICIOUS

Former CEO and founder Danman Omega (120 yrs old. yeah), founder and ceo from 1922-1939. as mentioned above he "died" in '39 but is still alive. somehow. somewhere. (in a glass jar behind a curtain in a very special room just off of the ceo's office at hq in new york)

ok. just short of a full timeline summary i thiiink thats msot things

#speci speaks #omega labs

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honeybeewhereartthee · 2 years

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My Darling Dolls AU: Idols, 3rd-4th dolls and Watchful gaze.

Your always with Mayoi but since Tatsumi joined your group, he said your old enough to go out alone.

Since your boss in your part time job is also telling you off not to bring your doll with you to work all the time since someone would pull a prank on you and you would throw a fit when you see something bad would happen to mayoi, when left unattended.

It already happened before it cost traumatizing event to the dumb coworker of yours. Not that you care about his mental trauma since he made himself suffer in the first place.

You work in a cafe, sometimes you work in a convenient store. You work hard because you have no one but your dolls in your life. But even through your pushing yourself to work now and then.

Your not problematic about stuff since your always felt relax when you chat to mayoi or be in the presence of your dolls.

"Hi ~ welcome to cafe-- oh! It's MC!" Your new coworker, Niki Shiina says as you open the door to the cafe.

"Hello." You greeted him with a wave.

"Ehh... You don't seems to bring along that doll of yours today." He mumble as he sniff you.

"...oooh." your weirded out by him but your not one to judge. " Yeah, sumisumi(tatsumi) says. I shouldn't always tag mayoi everywhere." You walk to the worker longue.

"Aww. But that's an improvement for you then~ how tragic I can't take sniff of two mouthwatering scent you two have if I ever be hungry." You heard Shiina says before he went to the kitchen.

You stare at your coworker back as you analysis his words. You always did hear him says that you and mayoi smell so good. It's salivating scent that Niki can't get enough off. Very odd.

"Ooh. You smell good too. Like fresh made onion flavor bread stick in the kitchen, Niki! Hehe." You complemented back. You have no words to reply to that odd comment he have earlier. Might as well do the same type of comment to him.

"Wow really? You have good sense of smell too huh! I did made some bread sticks!" He yelled out from the kitchen, since theres no customer yet in the cafe. You two are free to do what you want. You quickly went to the kitchen to look at the bread sticks that Niki made.

"Woooah....can I have someee?" Your eyes sparkle at the sight of the delicious looking bread sticks. To be honest, any dish Niki made are all delicious and mouthwatering.

"Of course! I made extra for me and staffs! Through it's mostly for me, hehe." He give you a cup full of bread sticks. Your quick to grab the cup and take a bite and you felt heaven in the first bite.

" Yummmyyy!! Your so talented niki~~" You complimented Niki talent yet again which made him smile and flustered.

"Hehe. Thank you~~" Niki scratch his head but soon take some bread sticks to eat with you.

After few more bites of the heavenly taste bread sticks, you keep the rest for mayoi and tatsumi.

"Thank you for the food.. I wanna marry Niki so he could cook for me every day." You said in a praying kind of way, in front of Niki, who laugh at your words through a little red tint appear on his face again.

You could say, you wanna hire Niki as your personal chief but you have no money for that, so being married is another way to make him cook for you everyday.

"Huhh.... You wanna marry Niki too? " You felt someone put their hands around your shoulder, at that moment you felt that odd feeling of the unknown sensation of non human presence again.

"Hmm... mcmc is one of my favorites ( wallet ) we can both marry niki~~ gyahahaha." You turn to look at Rinne, one of Niki friends.

"Hihi rinrin!" You greeted him. His a regular in the cafe. So it's not a shock you know him. "Oh yeah, that's remind me... You and Niki are idols right? Like pair idol if I remember correctly..." You remember about tatsumi past being idol, since that day your interested knowing more about idol, so you could help him up when he wish to sing in the stage again.

"Woah... So your finally acknowledge the existence called idols? Gyahahaha. That took you a long while, mcmc. But yes I am an idol! I'm going to be the number one idol! With billions of fans screaming they love me!" He boosted.

"Ooo! Then from now on. I'll be you and Niki fan! Hehe!" You swear to rinne and Niki --who care less about being an idol as he busy himself in cooking the moment your attention went to rinne.

"You really don't have to indulge to every thing rinne says, mc. If you indulge him too much you going to end up broke when your wallet is stole-- oi oi why did you suddenly take out your wallet?!" Niki watch in bewailed and worry as you take out your wallet to offer some cash to rinne, even through you have some budget to maintain, as a loyal fan for those two. Your going to donate what you can to help out.

"I would like to buy an autograph." You don't know much about idol and fan work but all things comes with payment. So getting an autograph might be something that needs payment and not something free. " Gyahaha. Mcmc really don't know how idol work, but I shall accept this money!" Rinne who was frozen by your action laugh hysterically and accepted the money from you as he needs some cash for tonight gambling.

He was about to nicely ask Niki for one and totally not plan to steal his wallet but since you donate some money to him, he did not have to do so. He takes out a permanent marker he luckily have with him as it's one of the idol thing to have since you never know if there's fan wanting an autograph!

"Where do you want me to sign? " - Rinne.

"please do sign here, you two!" you puller out a fake form. You smiled so happily as you wanted to make a joke like this for a very long time. You have heard about this joke in the internet when your browsing in the internet about idols.

"... Gyahahaha. It seems this a well planned out." Rinne who stare at you in daze as you pull out a fake printed marriage contract like your very ready to make this kind of joke any other day.

Chuckling as takes the paper from your hand to sign to indulge with your joke, to your bewailing surprise.

"Niki come over here to sign here too... Or else I'll kill you ( ùwú)/." Rinne called out Niki who's busy in the stove.

"I'm quite busy rinne...*sigh...Wait." Niki says as he sigh. He soon turn off the stove and went to where you two are. He take the pen from rinne and mindlessly sign the papers, not even reading it.

"Here you go~ through I won't really think it's a good idea indulging to rinne amusement." Niki is quite worried about you since you never seems to bother about staying away from rinne when his a big red flag.

"... Gyahahaha. Niki really don't bother to read the paper. Very Niki indeed." Rinne laugh at Niki as well ignoring his words. "Huh?" Niki look confuse at Rinne.

"Lol, it's nothing Niki." You says as you hide the papers."yup it's totally nothing Niki! Gyahaha." Rinne added.

"We should go a registered office so we could be both married to Niki heheh." You whisper to rinne who whisper back in amusement.

"gyahahaha...! Good plan, mcmc!" You and Rinne both laugh to yourself which made Niki quite worried what's up with the two of you. Yet his busy with work so he don't butt in with the conversation you two have.

You three enjoyed such warm and fun moment before you two have to throw rinne out of the kitchen since work have start.

Indeed you become the two's number 1# fan, when your in your free time. You would always come to the live they have. Sometimes you tag along tatsumi and mayoi.

You watch the two grow in fame for 2 years but somehow there something that made them forgotten by the people and they become something of the past as new idol unit come and raise up fame and leave others to dust.

Along those two years, you still busy looking for the last two dolls. Yet no sign is found. Mayoi and Tatsumi says that you really don't have to go far to search that hard for the last two dolls as they would come around if it's really fated to have the batch be reunited one day.

Speaking of darling dolls, it never occur to you some people you know are one. Maybe because they live without owner or really good being a human.

That's why when the down fall of the idol unit of Rinne and Niki come around in the corner and days since you last seen the two, you come across a corner on some alley way back to your home, one night.

"Rinne... I'm so hungry..." You heard a familiar voice spoke out.

" Gyahaha.. it's really a surprise to me a doll form of yours still able to feel hunger. Niki! Sadly I cannot do anything about it. So here have a hand." Another familiar voice replied. Your eyes widen as you realize those voice are rinne and Niki, the two who went MIA for days.

You don't know what's gone to you as you quickly went to the alley way even though it look very dangerous. The sound of your foot step alarm the two.

"Oh no, someone coming up... Your so noisy rinne... Were gonna be experimented on now... Ahh... So hungry... Wait... This scent...?!" The voice of Niki complained as the sound of something running and banging come to the edge of rhe alley.

"Niki? Rinrin?" You called out to the two in worry.

"Oooh-- it's mc!... Wait... Should we appear in front of mc in this form, rinne?" Niki voice seeme to echo in the alley as you can't spot the two. "Gyahaha... Might as well try our luck... shall we, Niki?" Rinne chuckle echoes along the alley. You worriedly look around for the two again. "Say... MC, remember that you have responsible for that contract from two years ago. It's time to take us to your home without asking why." Soon two dirties and messy dolls that is similar to rinne and Niki walk out of the shadows. Niki is being piggyback carried by rinne.

"...!!??" Your quick to went to your knees and hug the two cute dolls. Not caring if they are dirty or messy. "Woah so cuteeee. " You cooed, you already felt your doll maniac self is appearing out in the open as you smooch the two with kisses.

"Woawoah...! Calm down there tiger!" Rinne who is being rained with kisses almost drown from the kisses and flustering moment your giving him.

"MC smell so good... Can I take a bite~~ " Niki in the other hand is in an inch away from biting you.

"I have some food with me, Niki. Let me just kiss you two more in those cute doll form uwuw. Love you rinrin. Love you Niki!" The moment you saw them as moving dolls, the fact they are darling dolls is confirmed in your mind.

You already know the drill. Since they are important people in your life.

Your willing to help out in the way you can. Saying such words already have meaning and meant what you say.

*Poof.

As the two drown in the affection, the bar for them to transform back to human have been filled. Soon they both appear before you as human.

"Now your two back to being human! Hehe." You hug them both. Your happy that they are seems fine after long absent.

"It seems that mcmc know about DD huh." Rinne scratch his head as he hug you back, he is glad he don't have to threaten you or have to beg for you to take them in or at least take Niki in. Through he did question someone in your status able to grab hold of one. Maybe you brought one from a shady street seller?' he thought and guess correctly.

"MC~ your scent really make me full. But where's the food you said earlier?" Niki in the other hand is already search for the food. "Here you go!" You give him the sweets and candies you have from the work today.

"Woah!! Thank you! I love you too, mc!" Niki hugs you back before he eat the sweets like a sin of gluttony. You and Rinne watch him eat like he never eaten for years, and both chuckle among yourselves.

That day you brought them back to your home. Mayoi who open the door for you, saw the two. He stared confuse at the new comer.

He don't hear your bringing along friends. If he did he would have hide in the closet!!

"...woah! It's mayoi! So your a darling doll too!" Niki who's eating some cookies says as he smelled mayoi familiar fragrance from miles away stared at the humanoid mayoi. "Ah???" Mayoi suddenly don't feel good as he felt his being stared by Niki like his some main course dish.

"Sup? Were your new roomies! Gyahaha. How small the world is. It turn out mc have DD all along. The names Rinne Amagi." Rinne introduce himself as he point a finger gun at mayoi. "Through, you can call me mcmc's husband! Gyahahaha!" He added which made mayoi even more confuse by his statement.

"Did you says Amagi??? Wait what do you mean...H-husband..?!" Mayoi don't know which one he should be worried about in that very moment.

"Woah, I don't know you two are married, rinne." Niki who also married to you too base in That fake(?) marriage contract, is surprised as well.

"Dumb Niki really don't know a thing, gyahahaha." Rinne went for a headlock. "Rinne! Swisbwoz!!! (Stop) " Niki complained and start to tap out from rinne demostic form of violence.

"Ah, welcome..." Tatsumi who come from upstairs in the makeshift alter he made for praying heard noises and your name. He saw new people and greeted them, through he did heard about the topic just now.

He needs to talk to you about how marriage is a sacred and holy thing you cannot make a joke off, later it seems.

"Hihi, sumisumi!" You wave to the priest. He smiled warmly at you and the two.

"Shall we talk in the better place?" Tatsumi suggested as the four of you are crowding the entre way.

The place he says a proper place is your room, they all transform back to being dolls and are now on your bed as you seat in a chair beside your bed.

You explained what happened to the two as well the joke from two years ago. You have framed the autograph and hide it under your bed, forgotten by time. As you explained and others introduce themselves again to one another.

You watch them as your being nag by Tatsumi about this and that. You look at the middle of the bed, where Doll mayoi keep running from Niki who just want to have to take a bite of him.

You don't know if it's a joke or not but mayoi is scared either way. Rinne just went off your radar as if his off somewhere already, he later come out of your bed dragging the framed fake marriage contract and show it off.

"Gyahaha. See. Now I have higher status than you little champ of my brother." Rinne boosted yet again, in his doll form holding the frame that's is bigger than him.

"W-wait-- what...?" Mayoi look at the framed in surprised, as if not believing what his seeing. He went and read the context of the contact." Ahm... Why did it say you two are married to Niki Shiina being the lawful wedded chief and the two who should be feed by him with his dish till he dies?" He seems very concern and confuse why there's a marriage contract that state that.

"Huuuhh?! Rinne, mc. what is this about? I could still cook to you two without that, you know." Shiina isn't concern about it through. He just think you guys going far silly than others as make a fake contract on making him a chief to be able to eat his dish for free. He is willing to cook for you two if you provide him ingredients in the first place.

You and Rinne laugh evilly as the context of the contract is been known now. Rinne did read about the contract you made 2 years ago and think it's an amazing deal to push to the oblivious dumb Niki.

Tatsumi sigh as he realize the supposed to be marriage contract is first lifetime chief contact to Niki. Through he is taken back why he sigh in relief in the first place.

Some questions run to his mind but the group already move on different topic and decided to have a late night dinner with everyone as well welcoming party for the new two members of your family.

The night is long as you and four dolls have some fan in the small home...

The night soon ended and slept taken over your system. Saying good night to everyone as you slept on your bed with the four in their doll form.

You don't realize that a certain dou stared at your bed room window, showing your sleeping form with two alkaloid dolls right beside you and the two new comer is on top of you all in their doll form.

Sleeping cozily, unalarmed from the lurking two across the street on top of a lamp Post.

Two set of eyes. One is green that shows envy yet mask with fake amusement and the other is purple one who watch observingly.

"Should we be worried?" The smaller one ask the other.

"Hm... Indeed that person have been deep in the Darling Dolls community... Almost collecting two unit... I wonder what they wanted to achieve in such fit." The taller one voice show amusement. He stared at his partner who is one of the member of the other unit. He wonder if he too would join in your little harem.

"... They don't seems to cost harm yet. Shall we continue to watch from afar, madara-han?" After a long pause. Kohaku Oukawa seems to think about your situation as it's not something to be worried about but the higher up seems concern about how you gotten yourself four DD under few years. They are willing one too.

"hn.. there's nothing to do if they aren't evil.... Well, my child is never be of an evil as their mama is." Madara Mikejima stared one last time at your direction. A small sigh before he have his usual smile pasted on his face.

"Let go... We still need to report this to the higher up." Kohaku already turn to depart. Madara laugh as he too left the place.

A certain red haired doll open his eyes from faking his sleep. He turn to look at the window.

"...agh... This is worrisome. It seems double face is hot on our heels." He mumble as he went and close the window with his little doll body.

"Gyahaha... But isn't this interesting... How fate would work out, I wonder... Shall we all bet what the dice of destiny show it's outcome?" You stared at you and the three dolls. He smirk. He can't help but felt the thrill of what comes next.

....

Having Rinne and Niki as your third and fourth dolls, seems like a surprise as they come in bundle. The two would sometimes live at Niki's apartment since your place is crowded with five people living in it. (You did plan to look for a bigger cheap home while your at it. )

Niki would be the personal chief for everyone, he would continue to work at the cafe with you after his long absent at work.

Rinne sometimes would be out for a while because of some stuff.

Probably gambling addiction of his. He did sometimes mumble about who would first complete the unit batch. Crazy:b or alkaloid, like it's a game his waiting for a winner for a long while.

Mayoi and Tatsumi always sigh when rinne is around. They said only their unit leader would able to handle the nutcase called rinne Amagi. That leader being called Hiiro Amagi. Rinne's younger brother.

Somehow your nightmare is not much as it's was before but the two unit would take turns who would sing for you even if you don't want them to bother about such routine.

Rinne would sometimes tag along with you because of a reason he don't explained to you, through he did look around for something every time he did tag along with. It seems that someone is following you.

He said to you as a joke. You do know thats not probably a joke. Your thankful for rinne being worried about your safety but tagging in your work and hangout in the cafe, not even there to buy food is not good for business.

A/N: huehuehue. Here's a 3.5k words and your 3rd and 4th dolls! Who shall be the next one to join your harem-- cough I mean. Family! How's the story so far?

#ensemble stars x reader #ensemble stars #enstar x reader #crazy b #rinne amagi #crazy:b #himeru #rinne amagi x reader #enstar #shiina niki #shiina Niki x reader #niki shiina x reader #amagi rinne x reader #mayoi Ayase x reader #tatsumi Kazehaya x reader #kohaku Oukawa #madara mikejima #my Darling Dolls AU

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schizopositivity · 1 year

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how do you deal with knowing you need medication but not trusting the pharmaceutical industry?

i.e. “they just want to make us sick so we keep buying medicine, it’ll just harm & give me brain damage”

i have a few different ways i can answer this, so ill just say them all so you can have options on what feels nice for you to think about (also i wanna say this is a totally valid fear and you should never be ashamed to express this idea to the people in your life).

•the pharmaceutical industry is highly regulated, everything must be approved before going out to the public through clinical trials that prove the med is more affective than placebo.

•most meds are adminsitered by drs and pharmacists, who are real people that usually care about helping other people and theres so many of them, you would think if any had a reason to doubt meds as a whole they would say something or quit.

•there are countless real testimonies of real people saying how meds have worked for them and improved their lives.

•for me personally meds were life changing, specifically antipsychotics, i couldnt function or surivive well without them, since being on them for years i have such a greater quality if life and thats why i stand by meds.

•not all meds are needed for your whole life. ive known plently of people who have been on antidepressants or different meds that over time didnt need them anymore or even drs suggesting they stop them because they can be fine without them. if they wanted to keep you on meds to keep you sick they wouldnt do that.

•some meds youll just have to be on for the rest of your life, not because they dont work, just that the symptoms it helps with will always be there and will always need managing. some people need to be on medication to even just survive, if it werent for the meds theyde be far worse off. and for me ill always be schizophrenic, ill probably always need to be on antipsychotics because they improve my life a lot and without them i wouldnt be able to function.

•not all meds cost money. it really depends on your income level and where you live but for me, im on my states low income free insurance that covers the cost of all my meds. i have not paid any of my own money for medication. i wish meds could be free for everyone obviously but sadly the reality is its not. but not all people on medication (especially in other parts of the world) pay for their meds with their own money.

•this can be a dangerous mindet to have and hold true, because where does it stop? this mindet could lead to you not taking antibiotics for an infection and it getting much worse, or not taking life saving meds, or not taking meds that prevent things form getting worse, or keep you from getting vaccines for preventable diseases. i say all this not as an abstract i know people personally who think this way and reality hit them hard during the pandemic (like someone i know irl didnt get the vaccine and then got sick and had to be hospitalized for weeks to stay alive, if the industry wanted them sicker they wouldnt create or give out vaccines for free).

i know it can be hard to believe in something like this, but your health is the most important thing, and if meds can help you than thats what matters. not all meds work the same for everyone so if you do start meds make sure to meet with your perscriber regularly so they can change doses or change meds to find the right fit for you.

#answered #tw meds #medication #pharma #big pharma #big pharma consipracy #tw big pharma consipiracy

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starry622 · 5 months

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hello, im oliver, or v for short. i am 20 years old, bodily. im an artist, a dog, and the host of a system.

ive got bpd, hpd, dpd, and schizophrenia, all of which, of course, affect the system. my biggest psychotic symptom is that of clinical lycanthropy and cynanthropy, which you will see reflected often on this blog (especially under the tag #clinical zoanthropy). i cant effectively be reality checked, at least in this regard, so dont even try it. more info on this under the cut. :]

im very into social justice, mogai/liom, art, and general fandom stuff

i now have a somewhat stable home, but i still take donations, as i lost my job last month and currently have no way to make any money besides commissions and donations. i work hard every day applying to every job i can possibly find, following up on applications, and getting interviews, but that does not fund the cost of living in the meantime. im working to put up a commissions carrd (that will also function as a mini portfolio), though i will still be taking commissions before the carrd is finalized. i havent had a meal in a week, so i could really use the money, if anyone is willing to help.

if you need a dni, my basic boundaries are that proshippers, pro-contact harmful paraphiles, and radqueers dont interact. i do, however, have a byf, which is on my carrd (linked below)

my personal carrd is here: [link]

my commission carrd is: still unfinished

my cashapp is: $Starry622

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for more zoanthropy info: my body can morph and change to become more canine-like, and it can go through certain stages. human-> boy with canine features -> full canine (with the regular animal anatomy) or werecanine (more like a hollywood werewolf) and my transformations can cause pain and discomfort, though i mostly just feel fur sprouting and my organs shifting. my mind is that of a humans, however my soul and dna are that of a canines.

i dont really know what a p-shifter is, but i guess you could call me one? i dont think shifting is something you can learn anyways and i cant control it, so i feel like most people either can or cant shift. theres always exceptions to the rule, however, not that i would be teaching anyone how, especially because that seems like a dangerous move for all involved parties. plus, i dont even know how i do it, i just do, so id be useless for that.

i dont know what the deal is and why i am both a wolf and a dog, and my identity as a whole is definitely more dog, all i know is that its me. thats why i use canine instead of specific dog or wolf when speaking generally, because "dog or wolf" is a mouthful.

i dont identify with the word human, but its easier to explain that way. i am more a person. my brain is and stays that of a sentient, sapient person living in a human society. im culturally human, you could say.

rarely, ill have short-ish bouts where i am a different animal, usually on top of being a canine, which confuses me, but i choose to go with the flow about it. if i think too too much about it, im afraid ill confuse myself more than just suddenly becoming a lagothrope/kounanthrope (family including rabbits, bunnies, hares) and accepting it until its over. i dont know what those little bouts are about, and i kinda dont wanna know!

i identify with my diagnosed clinical label simply because i experience a lot of double bookkeeping (i believe thats what its called). im aware of myself in some ways, and see how others see me alongside how i see myself. this is also exactly why reality checking doesnt work on me. i am aware of my symptoms, and i believe the delusions and semi-rare hallucinations that act as proof of my true self. my experience is constant clashing in that way, like i can see more than everyone else, but it rarely causes a problem, and so i go with it. no use fighting it. im a lazy dog, if youll forgive the pun.

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