#the things that cause a quiet life

[k-wame]

Then you are like me…and like all the Romans…and all the barbarians…and all the generations before us…and all those yet to come. For who does not wish, your grace, with all their heart for the quiet mind? Tell me a single soul who has ever found it. [2010 · THE TUDORS · S4·E04 · History]

#this is literally just my politics in poem form #politics #poem #the tudors #the things that cause a quiet life #henry howard #1550s #tottel's miscellany #marcus valerius martialis #martial #the happy dream

[ferretwhomst]

ghost brothers healing arc real?!?!?!

#i keep thinking abt that suggestion from an anon back in august/sept #where they were like What if when the ghost bros finally found happiness and comfort in each other #their ghost forms changed for the better as well to reflect that #and it makes so much sense to me because like #the physical injuries left on their ghost forms signify the unfinished business that kept their spirits from passing on #stan's brand symbolises the contempt he still has for ford after all the pain he caused him in life #(...and another thing but i'll keep quiet about that for now) #plus of course his wrists; the injuries which actually did him in. #and ford's eye... i mean losing his eye in life means obviously he . won't have it as a ghost #but the fact that it still bleeds. #bill had a huge fucking sway over how his life played out. and the fact that the trauma he inflicted upon ford carries on even in death.. #(and idk what the significance of the neck injury is specifically i just wanted to show that ford was super fucking battered) #ANYWAYS YEAH I HAVE THOUGHTS #gravity falls #blood brothers au #ghost stan #stan pines #ghost ford #ford pines #ferret's art

[corfisers]

love when he just Lies

#that whole internal monologue is lies lies lies #but it's so early on that you might be somewhat inclined to fall for it. and there is some level of truth to him saying #that he's accepted himself but it feels more like resignation rather than acceptance if it makes sense? #and “i've never been envious of other people” is the cherry on top. there's kuga and then there's aoi #and there's the quiet moment of him looking at that woman with her little kid while going through fucking hell internally #and so many smaller moments here and there. doumeki saying how it's his right to decide what to do with his life and his body #and yashiro just responding with “isn't that nice?” #even that brief conversation about amou with tsunakawa. cause you know. misumi dragged yashiro into the yakuza and isn't letting go #meanwhile amou had all the opportunities (given by misumi! the fucking irony) to do literally anything else with his life #but daddy issues are too strong i guess. amou and doumeki are two different flavours of the same thing it's so fascinating #anyway where was i? right this monologue. good set up for something that's gonna be getting dismantled throughout the rest of the story #saezuru tag

[hiddenworldofmary]

it’s quiet in my head

#first time on adhd meds #i didn’t realise the extent of my self produced background brain noise #it’s all quiet #is this the default???? is this how it’s supposed to be???? it’s wild #never in my life has my head been quiet #i think i’m having a nice calm afternoon #i’m not plagued by thoughts #i know they’re there but i can put them on the shelf for later #they’re not causing constant stress and pressure and guilt they’re just *there* #i unpacked the dishwasher with no external pressure of dirty dishes piling up on the counter #and i now have coffee and pumpkin bread #it’s so fucking quiet #I’m actually getting teary eyed oh my god #it’s so nice #adhd #actually adhd #adhd brain #adhd things #adhd meds #adult adhd #diagnosed at 26 #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #neurospicy #mine

[gumm1defloor]

Personally speaking if I had to pick one rairpair out of the entire hellaverse I would want to see canon it would be Velvette x Verosica but man it is going to be the most lavish, fluffy, intensely intimate, passionate, rancid & disastrous 24/7 trending full blown shitstorm hell has ever seen I don't think anyone is going to be ready. Not even these two. Dear god especially not these two.

Man Verosica is just 2 for 1 on short gremlin kings who are also coincidentally emotionally constipated walking talking sacks of untreated mental illnesses wrapped up in 3 layers of intimacy issues isn't she but hey at least this one's pretty much guaranteed never to steal your credit card for horse riding lessons and most definitely won't be caught one ring down in wrath in the middle of fuck knows where with said credit card so.... yay improvement?

#and unlike the last one - they don't talk about the last one - #She likes how effortlessly confident Velvette is with everything she works with and how little she has to worry about their relationship #when she's around her #ofc the gradual loss of autonomy and general sense of self is a whole other thing and she definitely doesn't need to think about it ever- #-cause her stunningly hot drop-dead gorgeous filthy rich and famous girlfriend just designed her 10 new fashion lines for her new tour- #-without her even asking- #-and they're gonna live stream the best date she's ever going to have in the fanciest restaurant the pride rings has to offer. #she's never felt this adored & safe & content in satin knows how long she is getting herself trashed every other saturday and STILL #manages to look flawless for every magazine by morning #& Velvette tells her they look so hot together every time they take a selfie as she pulls her waist & face & hair & neck into her side #like she's ready to swallow her whole #they spoil each other with gifts & praises and shit talking ppl behind their back #and absolutely nothing between them ever went wrong #hazbin hotel shitposts #helluva boss #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel velvette #I remember having a headcannon that Velvette sends every single girl/boyfriend(toy) she has ever had to Valentino after she dumps them. #sometimes she'll even throw in a personal recommendation #Velvette is dead quiet about the breakup this time around #Valentino - for once in his life- knows better to ask #Verosika never came to pentegram city to do live shows since #angst #I suppose #which is probably all my 2 neurons are good for past 9 pm

[bunnihearted]

i think the reason i always feel so lonely is bc rlly all i want is a romantic relationship that is kinda co-dependent but we love eo nd it works for us. idc that it's generally considered toxic. that's what i need nd want. like i do want to experience nd go thru life w someone always by my side. i need someone close to me all the time to seek quiet, verbal nd physical comfort nd reassurance from. i need to share the burden nd horrors of life w someone else. have their warmth nd closeness be an anchor for me.

#nd it wouldnt get 'too much' bc im actually not like that #i can be content w the same thing for sooooo long. thats comforting to me #nd like to have this we wouldnt need to be attached to the hips or anything. we could be in different rooms or go for a walk alone or whatev #but rlly i want someone to spend most my time w. i want someone where the love makes us want to be close even if we're silent #nd not doing anything. being alone yet together #there r prob lots of psychological reasons for this but honestly i dooont caaare #i want a comfortable life im sick of being scared. nd i dont want to be 'brave' or push myself to live how others want #idk.... i also think this would be realistically possible for me bc im not a person who fights lol #like i just dont. if im in a bad mood i say im in a badd mood i need to be quiet nd thats that. i can coexist without causing friction #but yeahhh it's (part of) why i constantly feel alone. this is what i need to feel truly satisfied nd nothing else can soothe it #📓💭

[heartslight]

sora does come back from quadratum a little different but the biggest change is that he loses the mindset that self-sacrifice is a necessary requirement to achieve a better future for everyone. anytime there's a mission or a problem, it's either we go together or we don't go at all. he becomes adamant on that, you cannot change his mind.

#smaller differences is that he gets quiet more frequently #lost in thoughts lost in memories #some days it's just a little hard to stay in touch with reality! #the company of his friends really helps during those days just to reinforce the truth that he's THERE #he's not stranded in another reality he's not the dead among the living he's back home he's IN the realm of light again #another difference? he's more openly selfish! leans more into the 'darkness' within his heart and does things for his benefit #he goes out of his way to spend more time with his friends! acknowledges the hurt he's caused and tries to not apologize as often #living in that grief doesn't benefit anyone #it truly took him being just completely WIPED from existence for him to really appreciate the life and the friends he's been given but ykno #better late than never! #'you can't save everyone' 'you cant go against destiny' yes he can. he can and he will and his friends will be right beside him #and then they'll all go home #✧ ˚ · . ✦ STATION OF AWAKENING. #sora coming back from quadratum like maybe the it really is about the friends we make along the way...

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 16

"Coast of Carolina" by Jimmy Buffett

#song of the day #when I said my schedule would be back to normal today apparently what I meant was my sleep schedule would be obliterated today! #it snowed and I wanted to sleep in and so I reset my alarm but then my phone didn't get plugged back in and it died! #I slept through all my work day and woke up feeling quite refreshed to find several politely displeased messages from my boss #unfortunate! #I did sleep incredibly well though. better than I have in maybe a year #anyway my kitchen is clean again finally and my plants probably will not die and I have done quite a lot of frantic report-building for wor #and I'm going to sleep again now to nap for a few hours so I can be awake for real worktime tomorrow and apologize! unfortunate!!!! #love this song though. very soothing to croon. baked lovely brownies to this song while fretting tonight and it did help #edit: I'm awake and I've written out my apologies and Jo is here and purring so so loud #and I woke up with a different Jimmy Buffett song stuck in my head #Coast of Carolina is the one I was humming when I went to bed #but I've woken up with 'The Wino and I Know' which is also a fabulous song and which also did play as I made my sadness brownies #'just like a fool when those sweet goodies cool / I eat til I eat way too much #cause I'm livin on things that excite me / be they pastry or lobsters or love #I'm just tryin to get by / bein quiet and shy / in a world full of pushin and shovin #and the wino and I know / the pain of back bustin / like a farmer knows the pain / of his pickup truck rustin #strange situation / wild occupation / livin my life like a song' #a later edit: my lovely apology message has been left on read. unfortunate!!!!!!!! I do keep laughing though

[k-wame]

Then you are like me…and like all the Romans…and all the barbarians…and all the generations before us…and all those yet to come. For who does not wish, your grace, with all their heart for the quiet mind? Tell me a single soul who has ever found it. [2010 · THE TUDORS · S4·E04 · History]

#poem #the things that cause a quiet life #henry howard #1550s #tottel's miscellany #the tudors #marcus valerius martialis #martial

[itspileofgoodthings]

okay this is going to be an insufferable and niche post but the reason I’m so hard on Elyse Meyers is because we have so many similarities and such differences of purpose. Like. for both of us it goes

✔️ brunettes (curly hair)

✔️ interesting, imperfect faces

✔️ infectious laughs (eyes go all crinkly)

✔️ tons of anxiety

✔️ natural storytellers (good with words)

✔️ able to combine charm and vulnerability to awaken empathy

but we’re using those powers for very different reasons and in different ways. Every choice she makes is one I have consciously turned away from because I don’t think they’re valid choices!!!! (More thoughts in the tags)

#not to be like ‘she uses her power for evil!!!!!!!’ But. She uses her power for evil #Like. 1) she hates Taylor but won’t admit it cause elyse is threatened by Taylor #2) she is non-political in the most fake ass bitch little way. like that breathing exercise/hug/phone to the shoulder thing #after the Supreme Court decision re: abortion last June was SO. COWARDLY #she wanted to be part of the moment but she would not pick a side so that she could play both she does this ALL THE TIME #and as someone who also hates to be political but knows that you cannot walk that apolitical line forever without being dishonest #I hate to see it #3) she will not admit that she knows she’s charming but uses her (real!) anxiety as a blind to make her seem more humble #like bitch. BITCH. You can have anxiety and know your own powers and have you SEEN your comment section????? #your success??????? You KNOW you’re successful and you damn well know why #4) her stories lean into the (real!) awkwardness and cringe-ness of life PAST THE POINT OF COMMON SENSE which means that #a) she treats people in an insane way and thinks it’s ‘cute’ and gets away with it #or b) she’s lying #(I think she’s lying) #which. Leads me to 5) #5) she !!! uses!!!! her personality!!!! to make money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she USES her charm #which whatever. fine. Go for it if you can #but don’t LIE about it #and don’t make your (almost convincing!) little videos about how the person you’re talking to is so beloved and necessary #and should quiet the voices in their heads #and pretend that caring about people is the ONLY reason you’re saying this #when guess what. you are RAKING in the cash and the sponsorships #with every candid I just woke up with my messy hair at my kitchen table video #she weaponizes her natural gifts for money but WILL not admit it. will not own it #will not even acknowledge that she KNOWS she’s good at it #that there is IMMENSE power in her likability and ability to make people empathize with her #and she has a responsibility to acknowledge that in some way because power like that has to be checked #and she won’t!!!! #anyway I WILL be so hard on her. partly because I have to fight every day to not try to weaponize my personality to make money #because ….. I kind of think I could!!!!!!!!

[avatardoggo]

soooo i was right 🫠😐🫥 the Friend like likes me and it seems e v e r y o n e around me has known sINCE FEBRUARY

#SO 👏🏾 let’s just let it be known that i’m an Obviously Silly Clown so no one needs to tel me that ik already so i already told y’all how he #said he needed to Talk to me and i was planning on avoiding him but my friends said not to bc it’s not the Adult Thing To Do and he is my #friend and i care about him so it wouldn’t be nice so i didn’t me and my roommate went to dairy queen with him after i finished braiding her #hair so we were getting out the car to go get ready for bible study at church but then he’s all like ‘VK i need to talk to you can you pleas #stay?’ and i was like KAJDJDJFJFJJD NO but on the outside i was such a Normal Girl and was like sure :)) so we’re in the parking lot and i l #left the door open bc i didn’t want to feel claustrophobic but i lied 🤥 and said it was hot so he starts out all like sorry i made you anxio #us by prolonging this talk and i was like lol no it’s fine i was busy with exams and stuff and he just kinda gets quiet and he was like sooo #i like you and i’m like #🤔😃🫠😶🫥😧 processing #and then i was like ok elaborate and he’s like i have feelings for you so i’m SHOOK BC WOWIE ppl aren’t cowards like me cause i could never #and i say well thanks for telling me and i think you’re really brave for that but i’m sorry i don’t feel the same way but i still want to be #friends but if you need space then it’s fine as well and he’s like ya i didn’t expect anything from you i just didn’t want to regret not #saying anything so i was ABOUT TO CRY BC I HAD TO REJECT HIM BC I REALLY DONT HAVE THOSE FEELJNGS FOR HIM so i left and went home and my <3 #almost exploded from my chest i was on the verge of a panic attack and i told my roommate and she was LAUGHING BC SHES SUSPECTED HES LIKED #ME SINCE FEBRUARY when he paid for my pizza and aPpArEnTlY hOw He LoOkS aT mE 🙄 WHATEVER #AND THEN I TOLD MY SECOND ROOMMATE AND SHES LIKE O YA IM NOT SURPRISED #so i’m just an oblivious silly goose who doesn’t USE HER BRAIN like kajdjdjhddjd and and now i’m thinking of the things i’ve done that made #him think i like him too like i baker him a pie for his birthday and i just feel silly and need advice if anyone has any but if not it’s fin #just an update on my life if you’re interested #vk overshares in the tags

[caramiaaddio]

I’m not against straight people as a concept but in practice…not the biggest fan

#we have this gay center in town and we had this little holiday decorating party #and I love going to this stuff cause like. okay the ultimate goal is to find new friends and or partner cause I’m NEW IN TOWN #but I really like when it’s just the older people too cause idk it’s just nice to know like. oh ok I can live a normal life like everyone #I can make it to 70 and be a grandma and ALSO be married to a woman #but for some fucking reason this straight woman showed up #and like. she said she was gonna bring her gay grandson which like cool! but he couldn’t come so why are you still here #and in order to like..prove her allyship? I guess? she just started talking about politics related to gay people #and it’s like man we’re lgbt and we’re here to make ornaments out of clay none of us want to talk about homophobia #we just want to be in a space comfortable for us where we can do silly little fun things and also just be ourselves #like the whole room was quiet it was clear everybody was uncomfortable with her talking about homophobia and transphobia #and she just kept going #like how do you go to an lgbt club and make it all about you #nobody cares if you’re straight you don’t need to prove that you’re woke just #stop subjecting us to our own trauma to prove yourself #we just want to make arts and crafts and not have to worry about censoring our small talk like we do in every other aspect of our lives

[arthur-r]

hi is everybody doing okay today?

#i just want to check in and say hi. i feel a little strange and isolated #and i’m going out of town tomorrow also!!!! #(for the weekend and coming back sunday night) #(and will sort of still have internet but in a middle of the woods unreliable cell service way) #things are just creeping up on me and confusing me and things don’t feel entirely real #is everybody doing okay? let me know if there is something good and special going on in your life for being happy #(​mine is that i’m listening to hey you by edu) #anyway i just want to say hi and see everybody cause i’ve been kind of quiet and weird so i wanted to say hi #i hope everybody is doing well i love you #me. my post. mine. #friends only #delete later

[linoguy]

been using my lee knower rights to be loud af these days

#I’ve always been loud (talkative + generally loud cause Mexican) but for most of my life I’ve had to be quiet #but w summer of vulnerability (more of a thing on main blog but it’s basically I’m pushing myself to be uncomfortable in order to do things #i know i want) I’ve been getting incrementally louder and it’s hard to pull back sometimes #lee know yell ‘i just felt like yelling’ 🤝 when I TELL you that I get that mf

[thedevotionaltour]

when do i get to meet another asian dyke when is it my turn

#i have to be with someone not white like just once in my life like i have but like. in a serious way. #bc i need someone who can recognize how my race plays a role in things important to both my personal comfort but also like. #the literal safety and respect of my existence as a person i dont want to be with someone who will like. tolerate it. #and understand why it is an extremely legitimate concern and cause for discomfort and even upset. and not just. stay quiet about it. #even if they r against it it still often feels like. accidental complicity. and acceptance of it. instead of actively being against it #and working against it #have had too many white ppl friends my life be too comfortable with the possibility of racist stuff happening to me #or actually just being racist around me. ive had to reflect on this a lot in the questions ive been asked for therapy stuff the last day #and i kind of realized how even if i have only had a few direct experiences of it. being exposed to it SO much and being around it #and being like. in the threat of it. to the point of recognizing how small things could lead to that point #like where it hasnt gotten there yet but with certain ideas how it can eventually get there #has been. really stressful. and has actuallg affected my life. a lot. like a lot. #and i guess i just wish both white friends and partners i've had. would actually give more of a fuck about it. and think about it. truly. #static.soundz