#the show is over and you can go home

[houseswife]

bro can you imagine being tritter. you’re a power hungry cop who just wants to get revenge on the asshole doctor who humiliated you, so you approach his prescribing physician saying “here’s cold hard proof that he committed several crimes and endangered your career”. and instead of testifying against him in light of this information he’s like nooo he didn’t do anything wrong!! it was my fault actually that he committed felonies without my knowledge!! don’t take him away!! send me to prison instead!!! like. what do you even do with that

#can’t get over the car scene where tritter is like ‘you’ll go to prison if you don’t tell the truth about him’ #and wilson just goes ‘better me than him’ #and tritter just gets inscreasingly baffled by his commitment to being number 1 house defender #gay people bro 😭😭 outside perspective on that relationship goes crazy #house md #hilson #house/wilson #gregory house #james wilson #or like alternatively #can you imagine being julie wilson #and your husband comes home one day and he’s like I lost my job #and u ask why #and he says that house committed too many crimes and you refused to get him fired #my man was down bad 😭 stand by your mannn and show the world you love him

[howdydopillar]

welp. it’s yo-kai over for all of us who enjoyed the dubbed… time to start looking around for who’s hosting it on their website.

and for the love of everybody, don’t post any of the sites you find on here, we don’t want them getting taken down too.

we’re as equally desperate for the yo-kai watch dubbed anime to resurface as you are. however, find a different way in messaging each other about the site, just not publicly though like a post, gotta make sure the big men up there doesn’t play the “I’M TELLING MOM ON YOU GUYS!!” card on us.

Also, as a safety measure, I, @lesbianjibanyan/Whis, will find whatever website is hosting all of the dubbed episodes, screen record them or even download them, and upload all of them onto a Google Drive for everyone to use!! WHICH, funny enough, isn’t the first time I had to do something for a show I deeply cared about, worrying that it would become lost media. (*cough cough* robot and monster *cough* foster’s home for imaginary friends… *cough* the latter half DID get removed off of its respective streaming services, funny enough, hulu being one of them, and only being able to buy on any streaming services that allows you to buy shows or movies *BIG COUGH*)

soooo yeah! looks like that’ll give me something busy to do as I’m making time for myself! (since I’m posting this while I’m on break from tumblr, which has been really helping! ^_^) and, of course, I’ll make sure not to overwork myself as well too!

hoping that everything will get better… this really seemed like an unneeded bump in the road for all of us. :/

#☆ (it’s time to make history!) #yo kai watch #ykw #yo-kai watch #I ain’t letting my fandom go down. Not like this. I will figure out how to bring the dubbed anime back if that’s the last thing I’ll ever d #A little dramatic of me but that’s how serious I am. #This is my home. Even the franchise is my home. I’m not going to let it wilt away in the ashes and rubble that it’s trapped in #I’m going to bring it back to its former glory so I can show to so many other people how much it means to me #Even despite its flaws at times it still has so many other things that makes it… I dunno… Lovable. And I’m strictly talking about #the dubbed anime over here because MAN does it has a lot of things that make you go 😬

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

13, trying to prevent yaz from spiralling when they get separated: i need you to do a deepdive into eschatology

#fghgjhjhggh #'yea i know this sucks babe but we'll figure it out the fate of the world is on your shoulders i believe in you kisses <3' #like thats where you'll end up right #'find out when the aliens come try and take over' #eschatology and death cults and conspiracy theories probably #forced to sift through like centuries of that stuff for years on end trying to find the Real in all of it #and you cant.......stop. bc the world will end #i dont think you come out of that.................normal #even with the best starting condition you dont come out of that normal but yaz is like #functional only by virtue of her circumstances i think #she looks fine bc shes standing next to 13 #i dont think shes normal under the surface #i dont think 4 years of apocalypticism left her untouched #dan either i mean i dont think anyone comes out of that untouched but these two are like barely keeping it together beforehand #can you imagine how WEIRD theyve become #can you imagine how obliviously and kind of unsettlingly weird they'd be in support groups #the others would get it like sure none of us are really normal anymore but like #i think they'd be weird #4 years of having to depend on each other and not knowing if you'll get back home and having to take The End Times seriously nonstop as a #matter of urgency and duty #and then losing the third member of your party? #dan and yaz will be so weird and fucked up #iknow im repeating myself but im just trying to put myself in the frame of mind of #having to take intepretations of the end times seriously for 4 years #when youre already like a lowkey suicidal person to begin with #i think if yaz hangs out with 14 she'll say such weird and fucked up things entirely obliviously and he'd be like O.O #she probably still has 1900 habits that show up unexpectedly #or like just miscalibrated. has to take a trip to another country and takes a train bc she forgets planes exist #has to look up somethign and just goes SIGH. gets her coat to go to the library. and ryans like ??? ive googled it #and shes like oh fuck google

[raininyourblackeyes]

My cousin, a published writer, a well-known poet in my country and a literature professor, for whom I've always been no.1 support ever since her first attempts at writing in high school, told me that I must stop writing as a hobby because that's her thing and since I'm writing fantasy mostly my writing could never have any important artistic value anyways.

#what happened was that i was feeling really down these past few days #like mental health dead in mariana trench #and i went to visit her because she lives like 10 minutes away and has a cat i can play with #but yesterday morning a friend of mine made a fanart (i guess i can call it that) of a fanfic i am writing for the five of them #she sent it to me and said she's also working on an actual painting on a camvas of her fave scene from my original story #and i was so surprised and exicted #that's actually a too mild description #and when i was visitting my cousin i showed her the pic of the drawing on my phone and explained it to her and she just said ....ehh.. #and started texting someone #i was sitting there feeling stupid and thinking wow you could have at least praised my friend's art sytle or something #and when i was getting ready to leave she asked me if i was aware my writing has no artistic merit and fantasy is trivial literature #so i should just stop wasting time on that and focus on developing my art style more for her future poetry collections #i do the art for her book covers #and added how we already have an established writer in the family so i should focus on my role - becoming a good pharmacist #and she knows how much i hate that i'm studying pharmacy like it's the no.1 cause of me hating the direction in which my life is going #finished it off by saying she feels like what she's doing in going to be really great and important on a large scale one day #and how she wants me to continue being her shadow that follows and supports her #i left went home and started at a wall for hours #i just feel so dumb for getting excited over a silly drawing of something not more than 5 people will ever read #i genuinely hate the idea of people reading anything i write so most likely writing will just remain a hobby for me #and now i feel like the most stupid person on earth and am this close to deleting all my word documents from both my laptops

[boxwinebaddie]

my gay sons having matching personality appropriate unhealthily obsessed codependent jewelry check!

#nina speaks #that hc did things to my brain i cannot undo #also yes stans was 10 dollars at a mall kiosk #like 15 minutes before his show #and kyles was 300 dollars #and he planned it for weeks #im crying #your honor!!! #i can see raven eating taco bell on the phone like broooo oh my god i will be Right There hang onnnnnnn >:/ #like ooh ooh can i have the cool fancy curly font and OOH WILL U PUT IT IN A HEART THATS SO SICK!!!! #and jersey on the phone w marcus neiman #calling like every two hours for updates #fucking maddogging their front porch #and it literally shows up right when kyle gets in the shower so when he finally comes out stan is Holding The Package #squinting at it like kyle this was on our porch #but idk do u think it’s the neighbors it says like mariah newman on it????? *squints again* *frowns in dyslexia* #do u know a mariah?? CUE JERSEY EXTREMELY LOUD NERVOUS LAUGHING LIKE hAHA ILL GET IT TO HER THX BB #LIKEW WHEW! #I LOVE U DYSLEXIA #RAVENSTAN PUTTING THE SEXY IN DYSLEXIA ALWAYS #truly the ceo of being sexy and dyslexxxy ;) #jersey meticulously pacing their apartment trying on five diff outfits draping himself over every arm rest and surface #trying to figure out what way looks like the most nonchalant for when stan walks in and he has to pretend hes unbothered #and kyle was like you just wore a choker with my intial on it on live tv and didn't tell me and stans like oh my god!! i DID tell you #or fuck okay i was Going To but there was a really cute dog and i took a selfie w/ her and then i ran out of space and while #i was trying to free up space in my phone my phone died but i didnt have time to charge it before the concert but!!!! #surprise!!!! do u like it cccc: #and jersey is like Don't Worry #You'll Know When You Get Home ;) xx #AASAAaAAAAaA GAAAAAAAAY PEOPLE!!!!

[isneezelikeamouse]

I really feel like there’s an interesting way to tie demonism to wh but not in the “THESE PUPPETS ARE LITERALLY DEMONS” way but in the “unfounded satanic panic” way

#welcome home spoilers #wh spoilers #the timelines don’t add up bc satanic panic happened in the 80s #but there is an idea there if we pair it with show sentience theory.. #wh characters (Wally mostly? Home too perhaps?) show that they are sentient. show producers let their fear over shadow their reasoning #satanic panic esque pandamonium ensues. puppets are all written off as demons. insert Christian religious trauma metaphor here #in their fear the show’s producers go through with a ritual to exorsize the show’s entire concept from our world #now nobody remembers this show (except the question answerer apparently but well this theory is just a brain exercise really) #previously mentioned characters are still sentient but they are trapped. ideas cannot die. they are forever #they are stuck in stasis for 50 years until the whrp begins. they can finally interact with the outside world again #etc etc July 22nd site update you get the point. whps is a sentient idea & relies on memories (physical or mental) to exert its presence #& gets written off as evil/demonic bc people do not care to truly understand it. there’s an autism metaphor in there somewhere I think #txt #welcome home #welcome home theory #don’t take this too seriously bc this is more of a mental exercise #than a theory. like I’m just fucking around here #lrb

[sun-marie]

What I really think media with ensemble casts, especially those in a traveling group of some kind, are missing are big, blow-out arguments between the group. Especially when there's a conflict of interests, I am such a sucker for when two or more characters disagree so strongly that they realize very little is actually holding them together as a group, and wonder if it's time to go their separate ways.

I feel like a lot of video games, specifically, just kind of assume once the traveling band is "complete", it's forced to stay together until the player expressly permits it, but I don't really find that very compelling and a lot of times it feels more like they're relying on some kind of immediately strong bond that hasn't really been earned. Which is a shame, because in my opinion one of the best ways to strengthen that bond is to have the characters disagree and argue. Maybe they realize they're only being superficially held together and so they temporarily split up, only to then realize how much they've come to care for the others in the group. Then they reunite, make-up, formulate a plan to go forward, and boom, the group bond is that much stronger. Or maybe they don't even split up, and maybe they never learn to like each other, but they decide whatever cause their working toward is more important. Something else, bigger than them, is holding them together.

It just feels like a lot of potential is going to waste to just skip straight to the intense found family bond, without earning it.

#there are exceptions of course #like I thought it was clever how bg3 did it where the group didn't necessarily intend to be traveling together this long #and then once they learned about the tadpoles and the artifact it turns out it's either stay together or die #but a disagreement between them every once and a while instead of assuming they're all insta-besties couldn't hurt #and DA2 kinda circumvents this by Hawke not really going anywhere #so if Fenris isn't having a good time with Anders he can just like stay home and vice versa #but games like Octopath Traveler 2 would really benefit from some stronger disagreements #like my first playthrough Castti's ch. 4 and Osvald's ch. 5 lined up right next to each other #and like vague ot2 spoilers #but what I would give to see them hash it out #over whether to save thousands of people Castti doesn't know potentially at the cost of saving one person Osvald cares a great deal for #or vice versa #especially with how hardened Osvald's become it would have been soooo juicy #i get that would've been difficult to implement and that's probably more the job of fanfic #but that's just an example of what I mean #idk I just think more creators shouldn't be afraid to have their characters seriously argue with each other #because not every disagreement is a dealbreaker and can in fact strengthen their bonds #and like not every game cast needs to be found family! but if you want that found family effect you have to show them arguing like a family #poe1 is a good example of a group that travel together and don't necessarily have this tight bond #they just feel like good friends (mostly) #i had other examples that I can't think of now and may add later #I feel like I was going somewhere with this but yeah it's just something I've been thinking about #let characters fight sometimes. conflict is what makes stories good #edit: FE: 3 Houses was the other example I was thinking of! #like things get pretty dire in the Blue Lions route and Dimitri has some pretty questionable moments #but with the exception of like Felix hardly anyone calls him out on it they just kind of go along with it #and lo and behold Felix is one of my favorite 3H characters and his friendship with Dimitri is extremely compelling #bc their friendship was tested and survived #marie speaks

[ssreeder]

hi, I don't use tumblr often, but i when i do, i always check your account to check if you posted something. LIAB is amazing. i truly have no words. i have read a LOT of fanfics from very different fandoms and i can confidently say that Leaving It All Behind is the best one i have ever read. the world you've built around the main characters is so deep, and realistic. even though benders are not real, it feels like i'm reading about true events. you describe the horrors of war and trauma so well. i'm actually very, very impressed. i happen to be a person that suffers from ptsd and other mental illnesses and and the way you portray traumatized characters is very realistic. i know you always say that the main characters' recovery is unrealistically fast, but don't worry about that. the way you describe zuko and sokka's feelings is perfect. their recovery doesn't seem rushed. it just looks like they're adapting and learning how to deal with it fast (we have to remember that the war is still very much happening and sadly they don't have a lot of time to deal with everything that happened to them). i'm so grateful i found your work. it's truly amazing, i hope you won't give up on writing when you finish the LIAB trilogy. have a good day/night

AWWWW OMG THANK YOU <3

seriously this was so kind I’m still in shock. I’m so happy you think the healing arc is realistic because I try to balance the stories pace with the characters struggles and emotions (some of them make it DIFFICULT haha) but I’m always worried it doesn’t translate well.

I have a lot of fun writing LIAB & I’m really glad you like it so much. I hope I continue to make you proud & thank you so much for this amazing ask you made my day <3

#This is so validating you have no idea ahhhh #I have read so many fics where the chatacter (zuko lol) has gone through extreme trauma or torture and he gets rescued or escapes #& then it’s like after a quick patch up job he is essentially back to normal #Which… no. lol. I can’t do it! #Trauma follows a person whether they like it or not & everyone copes differently to it #So even with zuko and sokka going through so much they’ll both handle their trauma completely different #I try to show that lol so I’m glad you like it #I am totally worried about the upcoming battle though #Cause shits about to get really rough #But we are in a fun arc right now (as fun as liab can be it’s a fic about children fighting a war so idk… I’d say 25% fun 75% angst) #So we have a few more fun chapters idk 4/5 and then we are on the home stretch #Idk what I’ll do when it’s over this has been so much fun and I’m so sad it’ll come to an end this year #But thanks again for this amazing ask #Its comments and asks like this that pets the head and makes me feel like a good author lol #Gets me fired up to finish the fic! #Wohoooo thank you !!! #Deansnoodle #Zukka #liab #ITF #RIA #ask #Leaving it all behind

[galwithalibrarycard]

…..his reward was saying goodbye. Who gave RTD the right to do this to me? *sobbing*

(Defensively adding, it’s not my fault I didn’t have easy access to Doctor Who until very recently ok I know I’m fourteen years late here)

#i finally finished Ten everybody #didn’t cry until the final montage #‘I bet you’re going to have a really great year’ I’m on the FLOOR #doctor who #the ANGST #‘it didn’t last forever but it still matters that the love was there’ the tv show #and now the eternal question- do I skip to the 60th anniversary specials so I can watch the last two as they air #or do I save them for five years from now when I get through Eleven thru Thirteen #you know what else I could do is start from Nine again for an INFINITE loop of doctorrose #part of me finds it very comforting that that infinite loop exists #in a way it ends where it began #timey wimey #my beloved forever-lonely spaceman #😩😩😩😩 #lbr I’m coming home from work tomorrow and starting Eleven I can’t not #I’ve already seen a smattering of it over the years #and even if it gets annoying in the moffat years I still want to try to watch it all

[arsonist-chicken]

Aha! It's been less than 12h since the fight about "I'm not giving away my key as long as I still pay rent here", and we're already at the next one! At 8am as I'm on my way out the door to a class I hate that I have to get up too early for.

It was just the more annoying one this time, and apparently they've decided now that it's okay if I keep my house key, but I am not allowed to keep the key to my room because... of reasons, I guess. Something something I can't just lock the room if I don't live there anymore? And when I said I'm keeping both keys until the next renter has taken over my contract and is paying rent for the room and then that renter gets them from me, she yelled after me as I was walking out the door about what's wrong with me.

Of all the things we've had fights about so far, this is the dumbest one yet I think - why in the world would I give up my keys if I might still be paying rent for another three months?? Regardless of if I never show up there again because why the fuck would I want to, or sleep there or let my parents or friends sleep there every weekend, that's none of their business - it's MY room that I pay rent for and I can do with it whatever I want.

#also she asked if I'd already cleaned my room for the showings tomorrow #ma'am i am not a toddler who needs to be micromanaged; you don't tell me how to clean; and it's my room and I clean it when and how I want #I was thinking hmmmm. what if the new renter takes the contract from 1 january? #say I'm not taking everything this weekend because I'm not up for the fith but it turns out I'm allowed to take the table etc #how petty would it be to drive there early on christmas morning; because they surely won't be there then; and just take away the furniture #they don't own? and give the keys to the new renter without meeting those two again and block everyone's number? #now that's a theoretical scenario of course and probably would cost me more nerves than it'd be worth #i just hope they'll decide on a renter in the next two days with the many showings they have #that they told me I can't be here for because they'd be embarrassed about me #i mean i won't be here because i can't be bothered but it's so fucking stupid they think they have the right #to kick me out of my own home and room #jess' flatmate rants #she 'informed herself' about if i can just take furniture. on juraforum dot de. a german forum. where anyone can write anything. we're also #in austria not germany #i'm going over to the rental advice place tomorrow and at this point it's out of pure spite #i'm so fucking sick of them #and if they want to be more annoying tonight they can reschedule all their showings because then i'll insist that #no one is looking at my room unless i'm there and they schedulded stuff for when i'm not there #so if they want to be annoying they can reschedule everything to times when i'll be at homr

[fountainpenguin]

The fact that there is currently not a single Vicky/Mark ship story on either FFN or AO3 when they are a canon couple for multiple seasons (and Mark had a crush on her for at least 9 seasons) is a CRIME, actually :/

#Mark Chang #Fairly OddParents #FOP #FAIRIES! #The only thing worse than a rarepair is a canon rarepair because I sit here feeling robbed and betrayed /lh #Staring at their arc in the 130 rn like... Maybe... maybe we should bump that up sooner rather than later #Listen. I have drafts of Tootie helping Mark pick flowers for Vicky. I have drafts of Mark and Vicky shopping together. #I have drafts of Mark talking to Vicky's parents. I have drafts of Mark looking after Doidle. Drafts of M and V in school. #Drafts of Mark and Vicky tag-team babysitting Timmy and Mark inner turmoiling over how she treats him #Drafts of Vicky wanting to go on a road trip but she has to deal with Mark and F.L.A.R.G. #Drafts of Mark being super fluid with his identity and she just has to deal with him turning into a kid digging for worms #Drafts of them trying to navigate their relationship when showing affection causes him pain #Can you even IMAGINE her trying to find his house and she just walks him home and drops him off at... the city dump #??? There is so much you can do with them why are they not amazing to anyone else they are the best ??? #Canonically she took him back after finding out he was an alien and I cry... she cares for him so much... My heart #130 Prompts #ridwriting #Red babysitter

[slocumjoe]

You ever think about Shaun and Danse interacting and cry a lil bit

#theodoor (renamed synth shaun) struggles w/ being a copy of a contentious evil man #and being used as bait #and being taken in by that mans father as a pity child. not what was wanted but there anyway #and feels urges to act a certain way even after gus gets his ideal programming outta there #and resents basically everything and everyone involved in his existence #because he isnt just a lure. hes a doll. hes a toy made by a cruel and heartless man. made to be exactly like him #and every time he feels any negative emotion he feels like Shaun won and got his clone #every time he feels positive emotion he feels like a puppet carrying out Shauns wishes to be the ideal child #and DANSE eventually comes to terms with his nature/himself in general and gets better. and as he slowly starts entering a relationship #with gus he starts noticing /hey this kid is going through something similar/ #/i suffered this but at least i was free to do as i wanted. teddy is a child & hes meant to be a specific child that he cannot possibly be/ #and danse notices that teddy is squeamish around science because he wants to distance himself from shaun #so he takes him under his wing. /you wanna see how a laser works?/ and gets him to see that science is not a force of evil #but a tool to be used. Shaun used it for his ego but Danse uses it to protect the others. Isa uses it to heal the wasteland. #Curie uses science to save people and heal their pain. he shows him /you know better. so you wont become him. you literally couldn’t./ #like. teddy has a lot of issues being put on the spot to be the missing boy come home. but not being that boy #and danse gets it. he had issues after building his existence on being a paladin and model soldier only to be the Enemy #he gets trying so hard and wanting so bad to be one thing or fully the other. not be in that awful middle ground where its all confusing #and danse figures out over time that the Institute made m797 but he - his choices and his experience - made Danse #and its the same for teddy. and the kid gets along better having someone who can closest understand what he feels #ss; alter #bc teddy is gus' kid so he goes in the tag

[thatgirlonstage]

I said it at the time and having just scrolled past a post attempting to summarize the Events of Nov 5th 2020 I stand by the sentiment: it doesn’t matter how you explain it there is no way to explain the sheer visceral impact of the sentence “Destiel is canon”—and the fact that this became a true statement in 2020—to someone who was not around for at least some of the years when Supernatural was not just big but nigh inescapable. Like, I’m sorry, but if you don’t have some backlog knowledge of Supernatural’s Got A Gif For Every Post and the Mishapocalypse and Dean In Gym Shorts then I can’t help you, I can’t explain it, no human language I am aware of has yet come up with words adequate to describe the scale of surreality that occurred that night

#supernatural #the post I saw said spn was having a renaissance which is also just wrong #it wasn’t. it wasn’t at all #it had maybe lured a tiny handful of people back in depressed fascination to watch the finale #since we’d gotten confirmation it was Actually For Reals Ending by then I’m pretty sure #but it wasn’t having any kind of real resurgence #I don’t think even what happened after can be described as a renaissance #but to the extent there was a spike in interest: it was BECAUSE of nov 5th #it was because ‘destiel is canon’ activated us all like a fucking sleeper agent #very very confused sleeper agents who thought their always-somewhat-aspirational nation state had been dissolved years ago #and instead had suddenly been told ‘congratulations boys you can all go home! we won!’ #anyway the point is this didn’t come from any like. growing renewed interest #we all just got told the one thing we were EXTREMELY SURE the show would NEVER DO #(and I do mean the one thing bc that show jumped so many sharks it was parasailing over them) #had just Actually Fucking Happened and we all lost our whole minds immediately and VERY loudly

[frecklystars]

I want to say real quick, again, thank you guys so much for sending me asks. The messages just keep pouring and I cannot put into words how much it means to me, how much I need them right now. I know writing messages takes energy, and half of you don’t even know me, some of you are even saying “oh I just followed you today, I hope you feel better” and!! That’s so kind!!! I fucking love you guys. Thank you for using your time and energy, choosing to write to me. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet, but across the screens, you’re helping a real breathing person heal.

I missed so many of you, even the people I only interacted with one time, like for a commission you bought from me, or maybe you wrote a nice tag on my art, I do remember you fondly. I always remember when someone is kind to me because I didn’t grow up surrounded by kind people; when I recognize acts of kindness, I really hold onto it. 

To the newcomers, welcome to my blog, and I’m so sorry you’re seeing me like this. I want to say I’m not normally in such devastated state, but I’ve felt so incredibly hopeless for such a long amount of time, I’m not quite sure how to be my old self again. I’m really hoping I can heal one day, and it feels a little bit more possible because of your support. It’s so touching that there’s so many of you who are like “oh I just found your blog today and I’m sending you so much love”. You’re seeing me in such a raw, wounded state, and yet you’re still willing to extend your positivity even though you don’t know me. It means so much.

I cannot tell you how comforting it feels to open my inbox and my dms and re-read all of these messages you’re sending me. And then I’ll refresh and suddenly there will be more. I promise you I am reading every single one of them, and I am slowly but surely answering as many as I can, even if I’m so slow at it, I’m very rusty from not speaking to almost anyone for nearly 9 months lol. Not only do I feel encouraged when you’re lifting me up like this, but spending a few minutes distracting my mind from the traumatic events by focusing on reading your words, it helps to ground me. When I feel more vulnerable to flashbacks, whether it’s just that kind of day where I wake up and the wounds are reopened, or maybe I’ve been triggered by something and my emotions are raw, I’ll try to open my inbox and read your messages again, to try to ground myself. Some of you are even worried about putting content warnings onto your asks, which is so sweet. I promise you you don’t have to do that, but that’s so incredibly nice of you to even think about that. You don’t have to worry about whether your transformers URLs are going to make me flinch, or if there’s pink profile pictures, or if you mention Starscream or Knockout or Megatron or Bee or literally whomever. Just the fact that you’re being careful with me, that’s so sweet, I can’t believe how all of you, 100% of you, have taken me seriously. None of you have made fun of me, none of you have put me down for being scared -- hell, even non-self shippers have told me they support me in my journey to reclaiming the many characters I’ve lost. I think I’ve reached over 100 messages in the last three days that I’ve returned, and all of them are nothing but kind and empathetic. I’m shocked. 

I really thought I was going to be in this alone. I really didn’t expect anyone to believe me. A few of M’s close friends blocked me back when she was manipulating me, and it hurt, because I didn’t even know what I had done wrong. No explanation, I had lost a few people who I thought I was close with. And it was just more fuel for her to tell me how she would think I’m special, that she would never leave me like that. I was scared that when I’d return online, everyone would shun me, that she might be spreading rumors about me (which she is known to do). But I’ve even had FIVE PEOPLE come forward in the last two days and say “I know who you’re venting about, even though you didn’t say her name, and she hurt me too. She hurts a lot of people and I’m sorry she hurt you. Don’t let her ruin Transformers for you, it’s yours.” I felt so relieved to hear I wasn’t alone, that we’re not alone, that I’m not going crazy. Thank you guys for validating my feelings. 

My ask box is always open, my dms are always open (when they’re not being glitchy lol) and none of you should ever worry about “being too overwhelming” when sending messages. You’re not tiring me out, you’re not making me feel pressured to respond. You’re all making me feel seen. You can send me 500 supportive messages and I am going to read all of them. I had no idea how much I needed support until I received it. I burst into tears the first time you guys started messaging me because I was awash with relief. You’re all really helping me get onto the path of healing and I appreciate you so much. Thank you for helping me and thank you for being patient with me as I heal. 

#woof #im so scared that i cant get better. but so many of you keep insisting that i WILL get better #and man i hope you're right. i cant tell you how lonely it feels without my starlight :( #that love is still deep inside of my heart somewhere... i just dont know how to find it again #but all of you supporting me is seriously helping me so so so much #...also it's 5 in the morning and i couldnt sleep bc of a nightmare fhdhfj so. here i am #reading more messages and it helps me forget the nightmare and focus more on the Support #i was so isolated and lonely for so long. only filled with the belief that im unworthy of love #that my own comfort characters would *enjoy* hurting me #and im so shocked seeing these waves of kindness from so many of you #im not used to people being nice to me bc i spent so long being with one person who hurt me repeatedly #so each time i get a new Nice Message im like. surprised all over again #ok im gonna try to go back to sleep now bc i have a bartending shift at the theater in a few hours #im so excited! i genuinely love to bartend at the theater and i love getting to watch free shows #but i wont be able to pour any drinks if i am falling asleep at the counter sdlfjsdf #the nightmare really shook me up so i might be slow to responding when im home from work #but i will try to get back to as many as i can today. u guys are so amazing. thank you.

[batfamhyperfixation]

Tim jokingly sends Bernard:

Basically every night, but one night, he forgets to, and at first Bernard doesn't think much of it, but he still texts Tim anyway because they always talk before bed and say goodnight to one another, but cause Tim silenced his phone during patrol, he doesn't answer so Bernard slowly starts freaking out. After a few hours of spiraling and no replys from Tim, he goes to the manor and sneaks in cause it's past Tim's 'allowed to have people over curfew' and when Tim isn't there (cause Tim is patrolling as Red Robin, hence the curfew), Bernard goes into full panic mode, and he finds Red Robin on the street and Tim, obviously worried about Bernard, asks what is wrong and Tim doesn't know whether to laugh at how funny the situation is (and how paranoid his boyfriend is) or cry over how much Bernard cares for him, and so Tim is like "of course I'll help you, let's not get dramatic, I am sure he is not dead, oh, I'm sure he's okay, probably even closer than you think" and now he can't take out his phone cause Bernard will recognize it, and they won't actually find Tim cause Red Robin is Tim, and so they just go on an adventure all night and by the end of the night, Tim finally tells Bernard, and Bernard doesn't know whether to break up with him because he saw Bernard going through panic attacks and freaking out and he still didn't say anything, or if he should hug him and tell him how he's so glad he's okay, or if he should bombard him with questions about superheros, supervillains, and the like. He settles for a hug, a free pass for something major, and a discussion on a rooftop over 24 hour minimart coffee (that tim had to pay for).

#tim: so you broke into my house without being caught #tim: my house that is protected heavily as we are both super rich and heroes so we have it everything from security alarmed to boobytrapped #bernard: oh it wasnt too hard; i know your family is targeted a lot and i also know if you were taken there would be traps to trip me up #so once you anticipate for it it is a breeze to get it #Tim: i think you will have to show me one night when i actually am home; you know obviously for safety reasons so we know weak spots #when alfred and bruce go to wake up tim one morning and find him cuddling with bernard they do a full interrogation #and when they find out how easy Bernard bypassed everything without help they have him test the new traps and security systems every time #and if he can get through it without trouble then his reward is he gets to sleep over (but the door has to remain open and they will get #checked on by Alfred throughout the night) #but Bernard gets through without trouble every time and they even think its Tim giving him insider information but they find out it is #just because Bernard 'conspiracy theorist' Dowd is prepared for everything #and so they literally get to spend every two weeks watching movies and hanging out all night just cause no security can stop Bernard #bruce had to move it to only weekends so Tim wouldnt be staying up all night on school nights watching movies with Bernard #he usually doesnt even see Bernard bypass security he just walks in 5 minutes later to find Bernard and Tim sitting on the couch together #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

The amount of times I have had a thought to send to my sister and remembered she will never get it 😭

#kee speaks #we went to the funeral home yesterday and it felt so surreal #mom shared the note my sister left with me and my brother so we know what her mindset was like and her reasoning #but it hurts that she never voiced it to us when we could've reassured her #she parked her truck in one of our farming fields behind a row of thick bushes so the truck wasn't visible from the road #you wouldn't know a truck could make it there unless you've been in that field before like we have #but it's right next to a dammed lake and that's where my brother in law proposed to her and only four days before their wedding anniversary #and then he was the one who found her #none of my family made it over there to be there with him #my dad tried but he blew the engine on his truck just a few miles from the farm; not even a quarter of the way to the field #i think that was a sign that he shouldn't have been there #but my brother in laws family all made it over there so he had his immediate family with him and my family was together at the farm #when the cops were done talking to him over there him and his family came to the farm #from Friday afternoon until Sunday night it was just a continuous parade of people coming and going from the farm #even yesterday evening a bunch of people stopped by #i don't think i have ever received so many hugs in a 72 hour period before #we've definitely deduced that my parents church will not be big enough for everyone if all that showed up at the farm plus more will be ther #we picked a day almost two weeks away for the funeral so that people can make arrangements to come #im so exhausted though #i keep crying over things that feel stupid to cry over #like she was the one who convinced me to read the Murderbot Diaries and the next book comes out in the next couple months #i wont get to talk to her about it #i was going to lend her my PS5 so she could play Jedi Survivor #on Saturday i kept crying over a pin that has been sitting on my mug shelf in the cupboard that was meant for her #i convinced myself to wait until Christmas and put it in her stocking #and now I feel bad that i didnt give it to her when i bought it cause maybe it would've brought her some joy