#the room is spinning so bad

[avatar-aaang]

day 4 of being sick. why this. why am I not better yet. I've been taking all the meds, sleeping like there's no tomorrow, keeping up with my liquids of all varieties. Like when will I be better.

#personal #the room is spinning so bad #and i think i might vomit again even tho i really really don't want to #but literally anything to feel better at this point #my throat is so dry too bc i try to breathe through my nose but half wsy to sleep my nose will clog up #and ill mouth breathe and i dont realize until i wake up and my throat hurts #thankfully i am going to the doctor tomorrow so maybe i can get some heavier meds then bc i dont wanna miss another day of work #im already on day 2 of skipping #not a fan of that #im missing out on so much money just to be fucking miserable at home #not that i could even attempt to drive to be miserable anywhere else but you know lol #anyway pls send good vibes or prayers or something bc i need it. Cedric needs it too #hes been taking care of me this whole time and i think it's finally catching up to him ://

[personishfive]

in which fine. ok. sure. i guess.

#my art #p5 #joker #wonder #p5x #<- ...? i guess #i was about to go to bed -_- #does the new guy have a name. god idk #<- apparently its wonder...?sure #do i win first person to draw this guy...? #anyway. hes like simultaneously off brand joker and off brand tatsuya (i miss him) its really funny. #why does the spin off gacha game have to get the aquarium themed velvt room....i wanted her so bad and then i got her...in a gacha game... #anyway im tired and i have school tomorrow. um goodnight #comics

[lil-vibes]

need me a fem! skk ballet and/or figure skater au so bad yall dont understand

#my mental illness is hitting and i think this will cure it #been spinning it in my head #imagine fem!chuuya in these beautiful outfits doing jumps and spins and being all graceful in the air IMAGINE it rn this is a threat #and my fav girl failure dazai being like :OOO n thinking thats my future wife up there !! #or dance duo skk grrrgrrrr #n the way the public catches on that there is something going on is bc when one wins first place they run straight to the other to #give them the medal or trophy #and ofc they r like 'just so u know who is better' and they they make out in the changing rooms #broooooooo i need i need this so bad #figure skater fem!skk au call that shit yuri on ice #... wait a second #bsd #skk #fem!skk #pebbles (me) ramblers #i need this so badly 😭😭😭 #honestly wasnt uuuuh the other side of paradise (?) chuuya a dancer ?? gotta check #gotta finish the fic actually #o7 mission received me im going

[somethingsomethingcomic]

guess what I've been fixating on

#animal crossing #animal crossing new horizons #acnh #tom nook #smth smth #yeah ive just been playing acnh again. sorry #i just unlocked terraforming this morning (as of when im creating the post on monday not when its posted on thursday) #so hopefully by the time this is posted ill have gotten some rly nice street patterns made up #i found some pretty good ones but the way they were set up was like. not exactly what i need? so im trying to like #rip them off ig??? is that bad? idk. im gonna put my own spin on em ig #im just not super good at making convincing like...sidewalks w depth to them and such #anyway hopefully this time around i can really get my island looking as baller as i want #the reason i restarted was bc id fucked my island up so thoroughly that i wasnt even sure what to do w it anymore #or where to start w it #also my plaza was SUPER close to the airport. #so i chose a different layout this time where the plaza is like in the middle right area of it #more room for an entrance and such #i even have made up a Future Map including new landscaping and zones #so ill get to that over the next few days since i have time off work #also! this is the first entry ive made using my new smth smth tools #namely the automatic halftone-ify-er and a custom hand-drawn font #it took a bit less time to make this one since i didnt have to 1. hand write the dialogue and 2. think about the specific halftone colors #im still sticking to a limited palette (specifically 256 web safe colors) just cuz #but yeah. if you have actually read all of this and you have thoughts on the look of this one vs the previous ones lmk 🩵 thanks #also have a good day and drink some water :)

[thesinglesock]

the fibre artist's descent into madness:

knitting mittens/baby clothes/other small-scale projects

knitting larger scale projects (sweaters, blankets, skirts)

crocheting looks fun, let's try that

altering / making your own patterns

any kind of weaving

building a Loom or other equipment from scratch.

cross stitching?? cross stitching.

mending your own clothes

recognizing plants that can be made into cord

some obscure craft like needle binding or lace making

google search where can I get unprocessed wool

google search how to grow flax

spinning.

dyeing.

google search how much does an angora rabbit cost

venturing into the mountains on a dangerous quest to forage for muskox wool during shedding season

monetizing your hobby

#currently on 12. #theoretically I have a source of wool I just need to charm my sheep herder acquaintance into giving me some. #I have given up on my linseed dream btw. I don't have room for that #I wanna. wanna harvest muskox wool so bad but it's objectively a STUPID idea #I would die. maybe #but. wild cows cool. fur warm. wanna spin #vitpost

[squinching]

getting through today with two ibuprofen, a joint, and a dream

#i think i have a concussion <3 #you know when you’re super hungover and the room is spinning and ur eyes feel like they’re going to fall out of ur head #that #except i havent even drunk so its just the bad parts of being drunk and not the popping my pussy in the gay club

[jellypawss]

to cope with withdrawal i start writing some poems again like I did as a child, I used it to process a lot of trauma and forgot I had this hobby tbh lol. I’m definitely not the best writer but sometimes it just feels so therapeutic to just write and process your emotions. 

#sometimes it doesn't feel that good though #when i want to express a thought but can't find the words #im also thinking about drinking today and trying so hard not to! yay #its killing me :) #i was so bad 2 days ago i started thr*wing up and the room was spinning #so i had to have 3 beers #my boyfriend is getting a lot better at supporting me #i think he's starting to understand the difference between being an enabler and someone who supports me #anyways ya! #i thought about posting my poetry but I don't want to be laughed at for being edgy #and my vocabulary has decreased significantly after I started drinking #tw alcohol #alcohol mention #tw drinking #tw emetophobia #tw vomit #tw throwing up

[decidentia]

Had a fucking abysmal day at work on Thursday. Started my hunt for something new yesterday, and I already have an interview scheduled for Tuesday. The recruiter phoned me within minutes of receiving my CV and called me ‘heaven sent’ so I’m hopeful. To my current boss – you think you can do my job? Do it, then.

#apparently i'm ' just a freelancer ' but also i'm afforded zero flexibility or fluidity #( that is to say nothing about how she ranted to me about another freelancer – one of my dear friends – in a completely inappropriate way ) #( literally been friends with this girl for YEARS and everyone in the office knows ) #good news is said friend is leaving too #i have no notice period so if i get this new job i'll be starting on the 6th november #good riddance to bad rubbish ✌🏻 #sorry for not being around here or discord #my head has been spinning #catch me playing overwatch badly if you want #i'm going to try to participate in sinday tomorrow #got so many tasty prompts i want to sink my teeth into #i hope you are all well please know that i love you ♡ #◈ — ooc; saddest little baby in the room

[mysicklove]

i almost fainted today in class. ❤️

#🔪 - mello talks too much #i don’t know exactly why #but i think i was anemic from my period ? #all i know #is that i was in pain from period cramps #and then the room started spinning and every part of my body was tingling #my whole body was trembling it was sooo weird #i couldn’t take deep breathe so i was panting #this happened 30 mins before class ended #and i couldn’t take ONE note bc of it #longest 30 mins of my life #i was in so much pain lol #i feel so bad bc my professor is very talkative with our class and he could prob tell that i was NOT into it #BUT IT WASNT BC I WAS TIRED #I WAS DYING PROFESSOR PLS DONT HATE ME #my friends said i was as pale as a ghost #lol #and then i could barely walk #but anyways i slept and ate a small bit and i think i am ok? #gotta start homework late in the day tho ughhh #hopefully that was nothing and i’m not getting a weird sickness bc i would die than experience that again #ok sorry i just wanted to update u guys if u cared LOL #bye bye

[joyridingmp3]

well. that was a nice warm week. back to the cold for me now

#i think friday will be 19 which is like. objectively not bad but still :( #mine #it was 34 today!! #but the office BLASTED the aircon and put me in the one room that doesn't have aircon control #so i walked around in a hoodie all day #and everyone was like omg aren't you hooooottt?? and i was like NO NICOLE I AM SO FUCKING COLD #COME HERE NICOLE COME STEP INTO MY ROOM IT'S FREEZING ASS AND I CSNT DO SHIT ABOUT IT #AND YEAH IM ANAEMIC AND THE ROOM SPINS MOST DAYS AND I SEE STARS #DO YOU THINK THAT'S FUN???? #but of course i didn't #i just smiled politely and let out a little giggle #and then asked them if they were hot #but in the inside it was RAAAAGE

[braisedhoney]

So you said a while ago underfell was your favorite au before. Is that still true or?

Also who’s your favorite character from whatever au you like?

damn, you were around for that? :'D

yeah, underfell used to be my favorite! i think it was smth about being really edgy as a kid, or maybe it was because red was my favorite color. idk man, even now i gotta admit those designs slap really hard.

i'm not really sure if i have a favorite au now though. i do have some ideas for underfell that i like, but i think i see the appeal of most aus bc i just like making new scenarios.

i like the big three a lot (classic, fell, swap). sans is my favorite in classic (predictable i know) if you're not counting gaster, since he isn't technically a canon character. i like both fell paps and fell sans equally, and swap paps is cool. i'd be buddies with that guy.

(i also really like asgore in undertale. the tragedy of the grief-stricken ruler who kills even though it's against his nature for the freedom of his people but also because he's long past convinced he's in too deep is really compelling to me, and by proxy i'm interested in the theoretical stories of all the fallen humans including frisk. also the whole thing with their broken family and chara and—

—whoops the ask is about aus not canon lmao, sorry!)

#ney's chatter (ask answers) #captain talks about undertale #i have trouble putting my thoughts about characters into words sometimes but #i really do just enjoy delving into ideas and character motivations #so any version of a character i end up liking might end up with a kind of interpretative spin #i do like to stick closer to canon stuff because i like working off something that has solid bones #(pun not intended) #but with aus it gets more flexible so there's room for messing around ig #i think part of why a version of the skelebros ends up being a fan favorite is because of how they tend to get the focus in content though! #which isn't necessarily a bad thing—just a personal observation #i've always liked sans though because it kind of felt like he was the only Real character. the one who saw you. #that's probably why a lot of people liked him actually #we all know i'm a sucker for media that really includes the player on a meta or emotional level #and some of that honestly might have started with undertale #it holds you accountable in a way; you know? through sans’ judgement and flowey’s color commentary #i think flowey stuck with me in a different way though—him being alone in the underground maybe forever not by force but by choice is... #kinda haunting still. #so maybe add him onto that list. poor kid. #... wow there's a whole other post in the tags here isn't there #my bad lol

[cannibalkissies]

I'm having the worst health issues this month ;~;

#i'm having to drive #and go to appointments #and make sure i drink my liquid iv #and drive again #but make sure i eat enough #and then when i dont take care of myself #i feel like the room is spinning #and it's hard to sleep #and my neck is getting worse #and my period is delayed #ive never had this sort of period thing happen to me before #and i'm having gut issues a #and ... fuck dude #i want a break #i cant get one #not to mention i fight with my abuser at least once a week #and she sucks at cleaning so i have to clean dishes sometimes on top of all of this #i hurt my thumb really really bad the other day doing dishes and its still locked up #i want a pause on all of this shit #i do... god all fucking mighty #vent #sorry #sorry sorry ugh.

[cowboyooo]

I miss being small enough for my dad to carry me on his back

#Good times wish I could randomly jump on his back and have him spin me around the living room until my mum would tell him to stop bc it’s #‘Bad for my brain’ #But now I’m 6’2 and my dad has cancer and gets weaker by the day #So def can’t do that

[sorrellegiance]

worn the fuck out why did my grandparents have so many children and then why did all their children have so many children

#played THREE rounds of foosball (first to nine points each) with the eight year old and then he wanted to play animals upon animals which is #a very delightful animal stacking die rolling game and i could've played a lot more of that only then the ten year old came along and wante #to start a game of monopoly and i did some theatrics about how LONG and BORING monopoly was and i'd rather play the spinning fish game with #the four year old but then they wheedled me a bit and i said fine but i would be setting a timer for thirty minutes on my phone and then i #would be fishing but then it was thirty minutes and i said fine ten more minutes because i'd just bought boardwalk and was flush with hope #but then had some spectacularly bad rolls and had to start mortgaging everything and somewhere in all that i forgot to stick to the timer #and then i was mortgaged to the hilt and hungry (two aunts got stuck on the bridge coming and dinner was pushed back and back) until finall #i landed on a property with a hotel and then another with FOUR houses on it and that was it for my career as a landlord #after dinner i sat down at the keyboard and banged out some tunes with the four year old (her full force with her palms and me rattling up #and down the top octave with two pointer fingers which i think will be quite bruised tomorrow) and it turned into freeze when she abruptly #switches the keyboard off and runs a lap around the grand piano and continue banging when she gets back on the bench and then after that sh #started chasing me around the big living room sectional and there was a lot of slipping skidding around corners in my socks which was FUN A #HECK and then i let her roll me around on the nice thick rug and then she chased me some more around everyone eating cake (mango mousse and #a green tea three layer with red bean cream SO GOOD) and then my mom sighed a lot about how stinky i was in the car #there aren't even that many children!! two of them had just turned thirteen! teenagers!! but there was just so much children for so few #children (six of em) sheesh!! okay yeah definitely time to shower now sor #a happy thing #sor.txt

[disemboweled-fish-pastry]

☆ Can we please talk about my poor guy having back problems??? Thank you. ☆

Look at this sad, pathetic excuse for a chair my honey has to deal with for a majority of the day. Darling, let me trade you, gamer chair isn't great for ergonomics either, but anything is better than this hell scape you put yourself through on a daily basis. No wonder he opts to go to the internet cafe as often as he does. Is this some twisted part of his masochism? Honey... there are other ways, you don't have to do this to yourself.

#mystic messenger #yoosung kim #mysme yoosung #mm yoosung #yoosung #I mean look at this thing. It doesn't even have cusions #his ass bone hurt so bad. damn. #can't even roll away or spin like fidgety adhd person must #The discipline #on the list of worst cruel and unusual punishments: water torture. isolation. iron maiden. Yoosung Kim's chair. being lit on fire. #smashing fingers. blinding a man in the eye. laying on a bed of spikes. walking on burning coals. overdpsing on whatever liquid estacy bs.. #that Rika made #... #kidney stones. child borth. boredom. seiza. being in a room with super bright lights with white walls. light mode. turning off the heater d #during the winter.. ok those are things I do actually lol #except child birth. haven't done that yet. panic attack. #crucifixion #MM*Analysis

[salt-baby]

one of the really fascinating things about chronic illness and ableist doctors is how little they trust me to distinguish things about my body

I think for them it's very easy to say 'okay pain caused by nerves is a dull diffuse pain and pain caused by joint dislocation is also a dull diffuse pain so I need to do further testing to distinguish them'

but for patients who live with it it's very easy to distinguish the two! in fact with as much time as I spend with it I'm very good at telling what my body's symptoms mean! they're important warning lights for managing my condition!

nerve pain feels different than joint injury pain and they respond to very different treatment! it's extremely beneficial for me to learn the difference so of course I have!

it's just so frustrating for my doctors to go "oh your wrists hurt? let's do a nerve assessment" and for me to say "I don't tend to get nerve pain in my hands and that's not the pain I want addressed" and then have the doc go "ehhhhhhhhh let's run the test"

i feel like I'm constantly having my personal experience on this dismissed, on everything from distinguishing low blood sugar and low blood pressure to differentiating the types of fatigue and sleepiness I experience

disabled people tend to know their own bodies best, and the bulk of management of their conditions will be done by them alone, and I just really wish doctors would listen to them a little more.

#like bestie low blood sugar feels like im starving and my hands are shaking a mile a minute #low blood pressure feels like the room is spinning and im unsteady on my feet and i get so nauseous #i refused the nerve test fuck that doc #im not undergoing carpal tunnel testing for pain clearly caused by the VISUAL distension of my wrist bones #the joint looks fucked from the outside (to an expert eye) how are they this bad at their job #took my wrist braces off and my pt just goes YOUCH #i keep telling them my blood sugar is uncontrolled and they keep going 'its not that bad but also never leave the house without a high carb #...snack and also eat every two hours or else mmkay?' #it drops out like three times a day it is the most frustrating symptom ive dealt with to date #ugh #disability #ehlers danlos syndrome #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #chronic illness #chronic pain #ableism #chronic fatigue #salt baby talks