#the person he could trust the most

[qtubbo]

Ive actually been trying so hard at trying to figure out why people think qphil doesn’t care about qtubbo, and I mean specifically care nothing else. Cause you can argue tubbo’s not one of his most important people that’s fair, but also you don’t have to be at the top of a list for them to care. It’d also be really hard to argue that he doesn’t trust tubbo, and in that same vein not respect him at all. Their relationship is very complicated, and it is true that it’s way more onesided than people like to admit, but it’s not like Phil has just shown Tubbo zero attention or love. My best guess so far from all I’ve seen it’s because Phil fundamentally doesn’t understand who Tubbo is as a person, and has this very shallow view of him. So people have taken Phil’s mischaracterization of Tubbo as a sign that he doesn’t actually care for the real Tubbo? Idk I like to figure out how fandoms think… (oh also if you have your own ideas why just like tell me I’d love to know)

#I need a deeper reason then they just think Phil doesn’t trust tubbo its something internal #Because care doesn’t equal trust so even if it was that people wouldn’t go straight for that conclusion #Btw to me Phil does care for Tubbo he just doesn’t get Tubbo so he thinks Tubbo already understands that #For example him thinking tubbo has an ego when tubbo has very clear self esteem issues #Which is something most incudling his not very close friends have picked up on #He ignores the obvious about tubbo that break his idea of him #because to him he already knows tubbo so theres no need to seek out a greater understanding #Which is something I think is starting to break more recently if youll allow me to rant #Qsmp #In purgatory Tubbo did not change in any serious moral way and it was unlikely he would even looking at it before hand but phil was so sure #He did from the get go. The idea that tubbo could change so drastically is a heavy misunderstanding of who tubbo is ecause of that I think #Phils starting to realize his idea of Tubbo is off it’s not alligned to the actual person #Qsmp phil #Qsmp tubbo #But phil has bigger things to worry about right now so thats taking the back burner he can worry about the purple stuff only he can see

[aroacettorney]

we talked a lot about how the incidents in delica absolutely broke ludger, but tbh, casey didnt come out of it unscathed either.

imagine how lonely you must have been to willingly travel to such a distant land just to see someone who was potentially like/similar to you. and when you thought you finally got a best friend who could understand you in a way that no one else could, they turned out to be something you would absolutely abhor with your entire existence. they gave no explanations. they bothered not with excuses. there wasnt even enough time for you to grieve what you just lost because they forced your hands to fight them in a death battle. without a word, they just simply vanished as if your friendship in the past few months meant absolutely nothing to them and you were left alone again, trying to navigate when and what went wrong all by yourself. there was a mix of burning hatred, betrayal, and sadness inside you, but there was no longer anyone for you to talk about it — no one that could understand it. you endured all those feelings for three years with no one to share while chasing after your old-best-friend-now-turned-archenemy for answers because they never gave you the closure you deserved.

even when you finally learned the truth, you realised that they had never trusted you nor your abilities enough to even consider working together. rather, they took on the most extreme measure and didnt hesitate to make you their biggest enemy all the while keeping all their troubles and pains to themselves. best friends, friends, friendly acquaintances, private detective and their client — it turned out that your relationship was neither of them. was it truly your one-sided assumption after all? or perhaps, was it because you failed them when you could have known better and done better? still wanting to keep believing that your companionship was once real, your guilt started gnawing on your conscience. not only you couldnt save them, but your inadequateness also doomed them to their worst fate possible.

then, the opportunity came. you finally mustered up all the courage to utter an apology. even though they acknowledged it, they made no intention to accept your peace offerings. they reminded, "our alliance is temporary". they stressed, "enemies are what we are destined to be". what a fool you were, trying to save a relationship that never existed. either that, or you had never truly been forgiven. they wanted nothing to do with you. they needed not saving by you. it wasnt a closure you wanted but its still a closure you got. in the end, you were left alone once more, with the knowledge of a possibility that you also might not be able to save them again this time.

#academy's undercover professor #academy's undercover professor spoilers #aro ludgercasey propaganda #selmore's undercover husband #this is caseys pov. to her ludgers true feeling is an enigma because he auto crits on deception. #ironically i think casey was/is much lonelier than ludger. #when she was bedridden for a month ludger seemed to be the only one who came for a visit??? (feral fans dont count) #what was marias even doing???? #ludger tends to think he is alone but he still has a lot of comrades openly caring for him. #even tho the delica incidents hit him hard he still at least had hans as his trusted emotional supporter. #meanwhile casey had to process everything by herself. there was no one holding her hands through it. #there is betty but i dont think she would be good at processing these complex and contradicting emotions that casey were having. #caseys going through the same thing ludger used to experience. the helpless feeling of not being able to save someone you most care about. #with the guilt eating her up under the right conditions she has the potential to become ludger 2.0. #personally i think the trigger would be ludgers self-delivered death. #it could break her for good considering how much guilt she already has over the delica incidents — the one event that changed everything. #anyway in conclusion casey also needs therapy. both of them need couple therapy.

[theoakleafpancake]

Crowley Meratyn was the first person Halt traveled with since his departure from Dun Kilty. And sure, while the Ranger was a welcome relief and perhaps annoyingly cheerful distraction from the memories, it took him a while to feel at peace.

The first night, Crowley had suggested they sleep in shifts. And of course the Ranger had taken the first shift. Halt, of course, had demurred, not wanting to cause unrest, and he had indeed turned his back to his new companion, but he didn’t sleep.

He didn’t trust this Crowley, plain and simple. There was almost a glimmer of Ferris from their younger years. Back when the responsibilities of the throne had been a fleeting whisper, back when their parents had left them to the care of their nurses and tutors. Back when he could laugh and smile and not worry about the future. Ferris had been happy, then. And so had Halt.

And then over time, things had changed. His brother had kept the front everywhere else, but when they were alone, he was distant and cold. Halt knew himself to be a fool for not seeing it sooner, or perhaps he had simply been willing to turn a blind eye. After all, Ferris was his brother. His friend, his confidant. He would never betray his kingdom, let alone his own blood.

Halt had learned that lesson the hard way. And he was determined to catch Crowley’s facade the moment he saw one slip up. He would not be taken in this time.

He would not be betrayed a second time.

#rangers apprentice #john flanagan #halt o’carrick #ferris o'carrick #crowley meratyn #1) he had a severe fear of water after the entire incident that didn’t go away for years (yeah doesn’t fit with the storyline but its an hc) #2) after being betrayed by your brother I feel like you’d have major trust issues after that #and yeah Crowley’s likeable but there’s no way halt was immediately taken in by this strange sense of peace #because he’s not used to that #he’s used to constant fights and having to tip toe over his parents and his brother #he’s used to bottling most things up because how can he burden his younger sister with everything he’s deal with #hes not used to this welcoming and friendly personality #because the last person he fully trusted tried to drown him #his parents couldn’t love him and nor could his twin #so why would anyone else willingly invite him along

[alicentes]

FTWDs final season could have been so much better if it was revealed that Troy was running padre and controlling madison (as revenge) this whole time. He knew enough about nick and Alicia to make madison think padre knew who and where they were this whole time. And here are some other reasons how this storyline would make sense and be more interesting:

- Troy has a military background so him taking over and running a military base makes more sense than two teenagers building it up by themselves because all the adults died.

- taking and training up children to be solidiers also would make a little sense because of his own fucked up upbringing and the idea he has of the type of people who were made for this world. He would have probably had the same idea as shrike, that the kids stood a better chance at padre than with their “weak” parents. The mother of his child dying for being a good person and not getting to raise their daughter (who would not be named after his abuser) could have also played into this idea of the kids being separated from their good parents.

- shrikes radiation cure experiments: Troy ran walker bite experiments before, just to see how people would turn. So it would also make sense if the work we see shrike doing was something he approved of or an idea he himself came up with. As for shrike, it would make sense that she turned out this way if she’d spent years being mentored by someone like troy otto instead of becoming evil and stealing children just because her dad died.

- the scene where madison smashes the glass to expose “padre” would have been such a good and shocking reveal if it was Troy. Imagine Madison finding out that Troy is not only alive but had been the one running this the whole time!

There’s also a lot of other things I would have done differently for the other characters too and I would have liked Madison to have a little villain era and do some really fucked up shit as she tries to take down Troy and padre. How dark would Madison go? Would she survive with her humanity still intact?

I know I’m just talking into the void here because no one care about this shitshow but I just hate it when shows have a plot that could have been good, maybe even great but then completely miss the mark and fans come with better theories and ideas with minimal effort and thought.

#somewhere dave erickson is screaming (and relieved that at least frank dillane stayed away from the show lmao) #fear the walking dead #ftwd #madison clark #troy otto #i also would have had s7a focus on strand vs alicia but v differently with only alicia’s ending staying the same pretty much #then 7b would have been wrapping things up with morgans family and actually seeing the group being taken by padre before having a time jump #then season 8 would have been the much better padre/troy/madison arc #the way these writers reaally do not know how to write for troy and madison #it’s like they tried doing what they thought DE wouldve done with them but couldn’t decide if they wanted them to be villains or be redeemed #anyway i will always mourn the arcs we were meant to have in season 4 #madison becoming the villain vs nick and alicia and whatever was planned for troy #troy was only killed off bc dave didn’t trust the new showrunners with him and he couldnt save the OGs by killing them too lmao #but i am glad alicia is alive and we got to see daniel sharmans acting bc most of the cast were only giving about 20% atp #but who can blame them? the writing got to new levels of bad in s7/8 and their personalities were changing every few episodes #actually to be fair they did the best with what they were given they just seemed done #i only tuned in to alicias episodes in s7 so my opinion on the rest of it is from what ive read bc i just could not get through it #so my opinion on the characters full arcs in s7 may be wrong

[uniquezombiedestiny]

I'd like to know why you are all alone while I'm lost at sea /

Maybe we'll be there when you want

#bella #fc!bella #lc ocs #art #this is from reinhardt's (branch-wdk53) pov! you cant escape him in my art. i cant escape him #link leads to stranded lullaby - the lyrics are also from there :3 #this is around rein's fears about bella being like ryn but is also about the extraction interaction (still love that name) #honestly every piece of this has. so many meanings like. god #let me just redo all this and go through them one by one lmao #the sea: this one's about them being in the same situation. also their issues (the sea will slowly rise; obscuring and drowning them) #it's also about guilt - it can be a blood ocean! the blood of those they let die... #OOOH I JUST NOTICED THIS: bloodbath! since it's a blood sea :3 #the halos: the inner one is halfway just for composition half bc rein sees bella as a good person. the outer (hard to see but) tear-shaped #halo is both a drop in the sea (me when the blood sea! when we've let so many die it no longer matters.) and a noose's opening - #like foos's but metaphorically(? lmao) bella's own suicide by distancing herself from her friends and therefore her help/support system #the black spots: represents rein losing her in a way. he knows what's happening but has no idea how to help. also tied in with his #amnesia/memory loss (totally covered; lost info; yknow). could even be from pain or drowning in the sea! who knows! :3c #...........yeah im normal about these two. you can trust me. #i need to make a bella/ritz piece istg... ive been sleeping on them!!!!!!!! #but. i love these two so much. total of 2 interactions and i made the MOST out of them <3 #also since im naming all these now since i gotta save them to post em: this one is called lost

[designernishiki]

kiryu sitting haruka down for a really important talk and looking nervous but deeply serious about it and when he finally speaks he gives an honest and vulnerable admission that upon much self reflection, as unlikely as it may seem, as shocking as it may come, he is, in fact, gay, and he hopes this doesn’t make her feel any distress or discomfort in-part due to the implication that he likely didn’t have romantic feelings for her mom, he did care very very much for her regardless of labels, and so on and so on. and she lets him give this lengthy emotional confession that goes on for like twenty minutes before he finally goes dead silent anxiously anticipating her response. and she’s just like. uncle kaz I really appreciate you opening up to me like this and I’m really proud of you for accepting yourself for who you are. but me and every other kid at morning glory figured this out like 10 years ago

#he’s shaking he’s on the verge of tears and she’s just sitting there like. should I act shocked? this clearly means so much to him but #i feel like saying ‘uncle kaz. its not that subtle. you were a bachelor taking care of a bunch of adoptive kids with no interest #in women whatsoever for years. i already know. most people close to you already suspected.’ is a bit anticlimactic #I think about this a lot #cause realistically she would probably be the first person to open up to about it #unless he miraculously put together through Obvious Context Clues that daigo and mine were a Thing (probably YEARS after the fact though) #and then went and asked daigo about it. which would be hilariously awkward and id pay money to see it #he’s so bad at reading the room and like. getting social cues. I feel like he’d finally get a moment where he’s alone with daigo in his #office and would strike right as daigo’s about to make casual conversation like #‘so how have you b–‘ ‘daigo-san do you like men’ #with his typical stoic intense look on his face. poor daigo that’d be mildly terrifying. also the funniest thing he could possibly do #kiryu #haruka #rambling #kazuma kiryu #haruka sawamura #yakuza #amusing follow-up to the initial idea with haruka. he eventually calms down and is relieved and whatnot and says to her kinda casually #‘I’m not sure if I’m ready to tell anyone else. except maybe majima. I’ve been able to trust him for decades with just about anything and I #know he’d never be judgmental–‘ and haruka’s sitting there like. oh god do I have to tell him. someone’s gotta tell him.

[sisaloofafump]

The obvious way to deflect suspicion about his nocturnal tendencies is for Bruce to pretend that he is dating Batman. However, this sometimes means being in the same place at the same time as his supposed lover.

To do this they would have to mimic Batman's physical appearance, skillset, personality, communication style, fighting and detective abilities... while also being a believable romantic partner.

Also: do you think they'd be the first person Bruce would call?

#personally I think khoa would do the most accurate Batman to an outsider and be totally down to play along #like #very down to play along #but I don't know whether Bruce would trust him with his reputation #I think he'd trust Clark with his reputation and ability to mimic his personality and communication perfectly #but not his fighting style and skillset #Lois would very much encourage Clark to try tho #Clark would offer specifically because he trusts Khoa even less than Bruce #Basil would be surprisingly good at it #being both an actor and #having trained under Batman #anyway #I'm not including his kids in this for obvious reasons even tho they could probably do a very accurate Batman #(and they have) #or any women #despite knowing for a fact that Selina would want to try #she is also very tiny #so #batman #bruce wayne #dc comics #clark kent #superman #minhkhoa khan #my pills

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"

#tw suicide #i wish i was joking #i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me?? #said something to the emergency room psych #she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended #she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds' #i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i #could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence #is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts? #this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he #could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs #i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the #boy. i have confided in her before she's great) #she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m #to see the psych and escalate care #but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly #it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan #i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access #i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't #there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that #makes sense #ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD #personal #puddleglum hours

[wikipedie]

grief is like a really ugly couch

I think grief is like a really ugly couch. It never goes away. You can decorate around it; you can slap a doily on top of it; you can push it to the corner of the room—but eventually, you learn to live with it. ― Jodi Picoult, Leaving Time

#the mentalist #quotes #patrick jane #i would say web weaving but there's not a lot of web weaving happening #initially I also had a bit of an essay accompanying this but it disappeared because of a tumblr glitch + my own stupidity #and i'm too tired to write it prettily but i still wanna write it so it'll be in the tags #a cute little fun surprise for whoever cares about and reads tags #so i made a different post talking about jane's grief but i was upset i didn't have enough space for the couch (pun unintended) #and i was thinking this morning about this quote and jane's couch and how it could be interpreted as a physical manifestation of his grief #as well as his willingness to open up to people #1. i love grief; grief is important to me. grief is permanent and i have been aware of grief in a form of another (in my own personal life) #for a very very very long time. so to see it in this show is...significant to me. i cherish this #now onto the actual analyzing. of course they never intended the couch to be a symbol for grief; but it becomes so. #he leans on the couch when he opens the Red John files; for support most likely - and it's a beginning of the process of dealing with grief #he is the only one who uses the couch. everyone knows it as jane's couch #in S4E23 Cho uses it briefly to rest and Rigsby asks him if Jane knows he's using his couch #Erica tries briefly (also in S4) to sit on the couch but he doesn't allow her the space #in fact the only two people we see that use the couch are Teresa Lisbon and Dennis Abbott #and this is the part about emotional availability. he only shares the couch with people whom he trusts #With Lisbon twice even #the couch is grief and the couch is love; the couch is support #there's nostalgia for the CBI times but there's also more to it #and that quote makes me go absolutely feral because #'eventually you learn to live with it' 😭 eventually you learn to live with grief and eventually you learn to accept it as part from yself #andand he is happy to see the couch; he missed the couch #-> you are not free from your grief but in healing you learn that it's okay; you cherish your grief; it was there with you and for you #yea anyways i will never not go mad about grief and trauma and how it's portrayed and handled. #and i already have 2 more sorta-proper essays that i want to write on the topic asdgfhdhjk. yea i'm literally not gonna stop

[vanweezer]

sketchbook dump

#slipknot #joey jordison #whenever i draw older joey i gotta think ''mick. but hes tiny now'' and then im good to go #as yall can tell im in my joey feels today. the pictures of him with his kitties are doing me in #he was a FATHER to those cats #metal's most beloved old cat lady. in my opinion anyway #artings #joey #i hope yall enjoy these lol. the more i draw in my sketchbook the more im like oh yeah i could probably post that. and then i forget #ORIGINALLY it was just gonna be older joey but i figured #since when am i the type of person to not be extra? joey posting is a full time job and i gotta clock in #also you can tell that references are not my friend </3 i have yet to fully stylize slipknot but with faith trust and pixie dust #i may one day. make somethin good #one thing is for certain i got slipkneight locked and loaded to be posted when. i find the will to color them

[elibean]

IT'S THE SAME FUCKING EYE

#text post #link click #listen............... #there's no fckn way #but on the other hand #why would he just put eye drops in the one eye #WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS #listen ok ok #i'm the most cautious person in this fandom when it comes to theories and stuff bc i honestly don't trust the writing of this show that muc #so here it's like #yeah there was a 50/50 chance he would be crying out of the same eye DUH #and it's also likely that in the above image he's crying from both eyes #BUT THEY ONLY SHOW US ONE #and in the chibi shorts-- why would he only put the eye drop in one eye? he was using both #surely both were hurting #he could have put it in both like a normal person #LISTEN. I'M NOT SAYING THIS WAS INTENTIONAL FORESHADOWING. BUT ALSO...

[soupmanspeaks]

you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?

#fnaf #michael afton #five nights at freddy’s #glammike #crying child #elizabeth afton #i wanted to allude something to william but idk #would the glamrocks go into the sinkhole? maybe #maybe next to glamrock freddy alongside the weird overlapping face he has and the two kid height faces #there is a face tracking box next to him...standing #remember that post about the ghost hunters comin to the pizza plex? maybe the weird face tracking happens too... #im watching garret watts and Andrew's constant facial tracking anomalies inspired this post lol #anyways i really like the thought that despite being the most friendly Glamrock; Freddy has this......feeling about him #his AI was made just this year! programmed with cutting edge and top of the line technology! #then....then why does he go off script sometimes? why does he say things that wasn't programmed show dialogue? #how does he know about Mr. Afton? the killer from the 80's who committed heinous deeds? #Why does he speak as if he knew him personally? if his AI is just pulling stuff from online; Why does he speak with resentment about him? #IM SORRY I JUST LOVE THE CONCEPT!! #like just because this franchise has gotten more neon and sugery than ever; remember; lights can be blinding and sugar causes cavities #idk what that means just omg there is more horror potential than you think in the SB era of games if you look hard enough #off topic but back to freddy being a sweetie pie i think that its funny okay #freddy sasses adults okay okay but he isnt mean to kids okay maybe michael just idk; MATURED? maybe he just got some whimsy mkay? #listen if i was forced to be in a perpetual cycle of atoning for my own and my father's sins i would find any and all silver linings mkay #aw yeah this is sick i get to be a freddy mercury inspired glamrock bear WOOO #granted michael was probably tired of animatronic bands and pizza by fnaf 6 but ykkkkkkkk it.....could be worse? he could be his dad lmao #anyways headcannon michael listend to freddy mercury and this is the equivalent of cosplaying him scott told me so (trust) #tag rambles! theyre fun lol

[adhd-merlin]

I think this is a mega unpopular opinion among arwen enjoyers but I love the banishment scene in 4x09 actually. yes it's tragic, yes it's painful, but it's precisely because of how much they loved each other. its greatly written and bradley and angel are both incredible in it. I haven't managed to find a proper gif set of that scene yet which is a crime

#yes I love angst!! sue me #I'm sorry I think its very in character for arthur actually #he was hurt he was heartbroken he was furious #and even then he addresses gwen with almost... tenderness? #“what happened guinevere. we were happy” #“what happened”!! = where did I go wrong #he gives her the benefit of the doubt #he goes “god maybe it was my fault. because she wouldn't.” #“if you had doubts...” (!!!) #if you had doubts YOU COULD HAVE TALKED TO ME. #YOU KNOW YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME ANYTHING. #“but he banished her!!” WELL YES his council fully expected him to execute gwen. which would have been the standard procedure #(“do you know what they are saying?” > !!! the ever-watching eyes of the court) #he's still the king. he's been made a fool of. in front of everyone #he's lost and confused and he's just been betrayed by the person he trusted most in the whole world like #he is not exactly clear-headed. ok #and poor gwen can't even explain why the fuck she did what she did (obviously) which doesn't help #oh god I could go on and on about this. I'll stop #unpopular opinions #arwen #merlin

[gumiworth]

Sorta getting those ship thoughts rn thinking of ship scenarios. Theres one Krisnix scenario I think of that happens like, specifically near the end of the 7yg. Like I think there had have to have been a situation where Phoenix enters Gavin law offices(against Kristophs wishes) and just sees Apollo and/or some random receptionist behind a desk. I think either would be shocked to see Phoenix there he just goes up and asks where Kristoph is and they point to his office with a comically shocked face. Then he goes in where Kristoph sorta just goes “Phoenix what the fuck did you do” with some freaked out look while Phoenix walks up to his desk to look at all his expensive fountain pens. Then I think Phoenix just sorta mumbles the most incoherent thing and grabs Kristophs face(jaw?). But with the most. blank expression. Then they just stare at each other, like they love each other(but also definitely want to gouge each others eyes out). Again, they probably love each other but really weirdly. Meanwhile, Apollo/maybe some receptionist are just at the door trying to listen to as much as they can(they both kinda know that they know they’re listening in). Anyways Kristoph would sorta snap back into a nice superficial voice, loudly thanking Phoenix for coming and to “Leave this for later tonight” and to “Dont hesitate to call me!”. Phoenix just sorta laughs while taking those pens with him(to which Kristoph sneers at him for). As he walks out of his office he’d probably say something all gruff nd over his shoulder like “Thanks Kris, I’ll see you tonight”. They’ll definitely see each other tonight at the Borscht bowl club but it’ll just be less tense and more bitter. I think they’re just funny like that

#krisnix #phoenix wright #kristoph gavin #apollo justice #apollo definitely gossips about everything he sees tbh #I think hed go crazy over this #like the coming of age gay person type of crazy #Mr Gavins gay omg?? its ok to be gay is Mr Gavin is #meanwhile Kristoph is like homophobically gay #but made the most bitter exception for Phoenix #because Kristoph could have killed him #but he obviously had something #whether that something was still there or not is pretty cool to think about #I think by turnabout trump their spark definitely died out #but they still enjoyed poking at each other #and Apollo just sorta thinks theyre weird frenemies because on one hand hes got his mentor that he trusts and admires #then hes got this fallen legend thats oh so mysterious and could probably do no wrong #but he still thinks they were gay but doesnt know how to prove it #either of them would have turned their head to the side and dodged the question if Apollo even mustered up the strength to ask #but it definitely makes a good conversation starter for Phoenix when he talks about his love life #sorry for typing so much Im always restless and really wanted to say this #krisnix my beloved #ace attorney

[drinkingdeadpeopletea]

i think what's really getting me about kozma claiming to have blown up the moon and also claiming to "be" the breach and basically equating "breach collaborators" and "my allies" in the same speech is that. the breach operative we've known since season one, the person who "is" the breach as far the story's concerned, is saskia. and midst is saskia's HOME! she built the black candle with her own two hands (metaphorically, at the very least), she LOVES it there and she loves those people :( and if we take kozma's story at face value, she just threw the "centerpoint" (according to imelda) of her own operation entirely under the bus and endangered the lives not only of innocent people but also of a bunch of her own operatives without their knowledge just to destabilize the trust and frankly that makes me kind of hope she IS telling the truth simply because that's the kind of betrayal i find absolutely delicious,

#midst spoilers #midst #midst podcast #i DO think she's probably bluffing about all or most of it. i bet she was collaborating with the breach but not as closely or with as much #authority as she just claimed and i no longer think she blew up the moon #but MAN those claims leave a nasty taste in my mouth for the exact reasons outlined above. #and it certainly COULD make sense! it's a smart move to encourage/fund/organize an insurrectionary movement within your political rival! #and easy to sacrifice them--especially when it's not even all of them and you've got bigger plans now--to make an even bolder move! #she's a collector! she can move her pieces around the board! #and the scheming of it all only makes her threats have more credibility to the upper trustees she's threatening #except of course that hieronymous is sitting right there having the full perspective & caring about the breach and about saskia specificall #just one more crazy layer to what must have been going through his head during that dinner #frankly. WEEPE has the full perspective too although whether he cares about any of it remains to be seen #i do think kozma is probably going to get killed by the trust/weepe pretty quickly here. but i would LIKE for saskia to get to confront her #if kozma IS telling the truth #it's nuts even WITHOUT the breach component considering she OWNED midst until literally last week. ma'am those were YOUR people. #like to be very clear blowing up that moon was a callous and fucked up thing to do regardless of personal connection. whoever did it. #but the closer the relationship gets the crazier it feels as a thing to do or to claim to have done #i just think saskia deserves revenge or justice on SOMEONE for her home being used as a piece in this stupid game...

[imflyingfish]

side note. im just upset now about how it feels like my work is no longer belonging to me. I dont get to choose what it is put into. it is now a comodity for whoever believes that they have a right to my work.

When I work in an art-based industry, what I produce will not be my own. It will be owned by another company who hired me. I could spend hours on it and pour my life force into what I create, but it could be held by the company and not released or released and removed from my ownership.

Now tumblr is the same. now every website is the same. You never have control of what you post forever. You never get to choose what happens to your online work. But now I know that what I post will go directly into the content meatgrinder that is AI technology. I will not get to choose this. I will not get to own my work any more. Even if I opt out, even if thousands of users opt out, not everybody will. Not everybody will know. Not everybody will want to. Not everybody will be bothered.

Theres a difference between individuals reposting my work onto pinterest and an entire blog being fed into AI. Theres a difference between a single human feeding artwork that isnt theirs into AI and an automatic process in which my data, my artwork, my life is being fed into AI. I will never own my own work again unless I keep it directly next to me and never share it.

Im debating pulling all of my work from this website.

#fish talks #Im not sure what to do #I dont want my stuff used I want it to be enjoyed #but how can i enjoy my work being enjoyed by people and websites that i cant trust #i really dont know what to do about this #I think tomorrow Im going to ask someone for their pov #he's always given me good advice on AI debates idk #and I know most of the terms in this will be wrong and thats because I dont know how to phrase the processes of AI #Im not a machine. Dont treat my art as a product. Treat me as a person. as an artist. #dont treat me as something to be sold. #this year hasnt been my most productive year #I dont need likes and reblogs as much as I used to #But I also dont see how I am supposed to grow my 'brand' as someone who dreams of being an online professional if I cant enjoy being online #if i cant trust the websites that i use #idk. this is confusing #much less to mention the friends that i could be losing if i disappear from this website #i dont even want to reblog other peoples art because i dont know how to turn off the thing yet #how will i know if my art has been fed into AI?? How long does that take? How long do i have from when i get the option to turn it off #and when I do turn it off? #agggghhh fuck all of this. #ai #anti ai