#the man who haunted himself

[cinemablogs]

The Man Who Haunted Himself

Director: Basil Dearden | UK, 1970 Starring: Roger Moore & Hildegarde Neil

#The Man Who Haunted Himself #Psychological Thriller #Doppelganger #Roger Moore #Film #UK

[leonardcohenofficial]

screaming at the doctor in the man who haunted himself who tells roger moore that his problems with his doppelgänger ruining his life will go away if he starts fucking more

#the man who haunted himself #literally who is this freud bizarro knockoff dhfkgjglfgkgl

[kcthumbnails]

The Man Who Haunted Himself (1970) KILL COUNT

#the man who haunted himself #dead meat #kill count #deadmeat #killcount

[wheretheresawyll]

'you can put distance between you and yesterday but you'll never leave it fully behind' father's words hard to argue with them florrick spoke true i'm a grand duke's son my story is one of two men the blade of frontiers a man hunting the fiends who prey on the weak and claw at the coast and wyll ravengard a memory of a memory a man who belongs to the past A MEMORY OF A MEMORY A MAN WHO BELONGS TO THE PAST

#how do people hear this dialogue and not absolutely lose their MIND???? #A MEMORY OF A MEMORY A MAN WHO BELONGS TO THE PAST <<< absolutely haunted concept of self #he's not even a ghost of himself it's a veil upon a veil!!!! HELLO???? #wyll ravengard #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[juregim]

the eternity of Aki Hayakawa’s childhood

Chainsaw Man by Tatsuki Fujimoto

Frankenstein; or, The Modern Prometheus - Mary Shelley // 11/11 - Girls Rituals // Checkers - John Marsden // Deathless - Catherynne M. Valente // Camden - Gracie Abrams // The Godfather - Mario Puzo // A Hymn to Childhood - Li-Young Lee // A Breath of Life - Clarice Lispector // Little Talks - Of Monsters and Men // God’s Silence - Franz Wright //

#chainsaw man #aki hayakawa #web weaving #chainsaw man spoilers #csm #chainsaw man manga spoilers #manga spoilers #csm manga spoilers #csm spoilers #spoilers #ok. he is character of all time. like even thinking about just this little aspect of him. that he is always haunted by himself of that day. #that maybe he is still that little boy inside. that the gun devil who broke him gave him one mercy of a peaceful death #that all his life was coiled so tightly around the tragedy that it accidentally bound him in place in that age. like crazy #hayakawa aki #mine*

[rainbowpufflez]

Fine, I’ll admit that I like Lysandre 😔

#queue the ‘we all know Bo’ #I mean it was definitely obvious from the beginning #and I’ve somewhat said I do in a few posts #and considering the amount of times I’ve drawn him should’ve definitely given it away /lh #the funniest part about me liking him is that I actually straight up don’t #I just I think I hate him so vehemently and deeply that I’ve 180 back to liking him #LIKE WHY ARE U PREOCCUPYING MY BRAIN #LIKE GET OUT OR LIKE PAY ME U FUCKING ASSHOLE #literally I can’t stress enough how unlikable he is #and then I see him and I get locked in #I cringe literally everytime I talk to him #maybe it was cause his ass has been haunting me for the past few months #I GOT SOCIALLY CONDITIONED /hj #like he makes my blood boil sm #when I pointed out that he holds himself like he’s insecure on Pasio to my friend and they went #‘someone who doesn’t like a character wouldn’t have noticed that’ #or when they pulled the ‘true hate is indifference’ on me 😭 #I mean I have always said I have to hate a character before I start liking them #so yeah I’m still gonna be really fucking mean to Orange Peel but unfortunately it means I actually like him #the most insufferable man in all Kalos and I’m still like ‘guess I better draw him again/think about him 24/7’ #WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME #I HOPE U KNOW IM STILL KILLING HIM FOR ALL THE BS HE PULLS THO #rainbowpufflez rambles

[martyrbat]

Deaf Republic - Ilya Kaminsky

[TEXT ID: —observe this moment / how it convulses— / the body of the boy lies on the asphalt / like a paperclip. / the body of the boy lies on the asphalt / like the body of a boy.]

#jason todd #cryptcites #last one i swear #but just always thinking about how no. he wasnt some martyr or sent saint. he was just a child who wanted his mom. #he was a little boy that died feeling alone and scared and betrayed and hurt. who died while still trying to save another. #he was a kid that believed in batman and that the good guys would win because being robin gave him magic. #the magic died and he was just a child laying dead on the pavement. he was a kid. he was just a boy. #and then the fact that his death is such a big significance that the narrative (and family) is just #constantly grieving the child while the man that lives is being haunted. by himself by the others by the narrative. #the feeling of 'im better off dead' but actually seeing that you were. #dying knowing you were loved vs living and doubting it every day. dying a boy hero and not recognizing your reflection as a man. #anyways :) #gn my little cryptids <33

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Points at you. 10 and/or 11 for starstruck?

Two starstruck asks,,,,,,joy of joys,,

Part of an ask game linked here.

#10. What's an au you have for them?

Since them meeting at all is technically an AU i have 3 different ways that they do meet up. There's the one where Juniper ends up with the agency/adjacent to and ends up working with Reggie (have written a fic with this). The next one is Juniper surviving but basically going stealth and living as normal of a life as he can and ending up meeting Reggie through chance (most recent fic I've written). And then there's my personal favourite where Reginald "You're lucky my tracking skills are still up to snuff" Crane keeping himself busy after Phoenix was MIA and finding Juniper still alive (fic I want to write but haven't started mainly because it may end up multi chapter).

In terms of more AU canon bending taking them and putting them in a completely unrelated situation...I have a guilty pleasure Warrior Cats AU for IEYTD in general. Both JJ and Reggie have perfect warrior cats suffixes in their names already (Juniper and Crane) so they're called Junipersong (charcoal bengal) and Craneflight (tabby Norwegian forest cat). It's very silly but the amount of scenes I have in my mind for it...good lord...

#11. How was their first kiss like?

Augh my friend Imp wrote an absolutely excellent fic about it (tragically in the realm of unfinished Google docs) and I'm shaking their hand about it so hard. Basically Juniper kissing Reggie but he like wasn't ready/fully expecting it and Juniper absolutely panicking because he thinks he's misread every interaction between them both since they got closer. The second one is much sweeter though,,

#realised i phrased all the fics ive written like those ghosts that haunted scrooge #ah yes the fic of starstuck past #the fic of starstruck present and the fic of starstruck yet to come. it's so dumb #and uhh for the warrior cats thing um. of course they aren't purebreds minus Juniper who used to be a kittypet (housecat) but - #- it was moreso for easy description #reggie is fluffy but he's not quite maine coonf fluffy...norwegan forest cat was a nice middle ground...still gets big guy points too #also um side note roxanix in that au um. they adopted a kit as a stand in for robutler in that au...... #also solaris is a VERY grumpy warrior turned medicine cat annnnd thats about all I have fully hashed out in my mind for it so far #im so torn abt also having triple threat.....extra large polycule where phoenix is just intimidated by the others prism is dating lmao #ANYWAYS ENOUGH ABOUT THE WARRIOR CATS AU #can you tell I have a special interest in cats/warrior cats. oh how I miss drawing cats. but I must learn people. for the brainworms...ouuu #i don't have much else to say on that second question other than....AUUUUUUGH they're so. there's so much pent up stuff. #like for JJ it's the first time he's let himself actually love another man the way he wants to while for Reggie it's a lot of - #- realising JJ is trying to be a better person while still ackowleging the fact that he did bad??? basically second chance yada yada #man. i love these two #ik im a broken ass reccord but I've never proactively posted abt them outside the last couple months and it's been so theraputic #ty for the ask it was fun :3c #ieytd #starstruck #junicrane #ask game #not tagging them specifically I don't wanna clog up tags too much #god WHY do i have such an issue eith that. mental issue. anyways

[vigilskeep]

hey do you guys ever think about how justice’s inexperience with people and anders’ reliance on laughing over his trauma would’ve made justice wholly unprepared for the kind of shame and hurt and fear that was now suddenly a part of him. i think abt it!

#theres this dialogue snippet in my word doc of hawke and justice getting to talk #a few actually but in this specific one hawke says smth abt anders being too critical of himself #and the rough next line is just like ‘justice shivers; hunches’ #(the semi-colon being a comma curse tumblr tag restrictions) #anyway that fucking haunts me #i just think abt being stuck in there as suddenly part of someone who can be like so violent to himself and you are now himself #like its kind of terrible and ironic that justice is much more likely to be in a bad way #not because anders is innately hateful and too angry and a contaminant or whatever but because anders THINKS he is like that #idk i just want to shake anders a little and be like stop talking to yourself this way dont u know ur friend is in there!!! #and not even just all that but justice suddenly gaining access to all his memories and like his experience in the circle #like justice obviously cares a lot abt the injustice but hes never EXPERIENCED anything like that and to suddenly have that a part of u. man #justice #to be centred around an ideal of justice and suddenly know so completely how badly ur friend who is now urself has been hurt #and theres so little they can DO abt it all for so long...

[dazais-guardian-angel]

kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....

#bungou stray dogs #been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me)) #cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands) #but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people #first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now #he was groomed since childhood just like dazai #but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there #and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong #but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself #which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong #and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia... #and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO #where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!! #it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay. #chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself #and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him. #didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!! #i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess #and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just #One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall #he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!! #there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma #and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc #it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!! #even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man #both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation #i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda #and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death #oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)

[cornerful]

Sméagol and the Gift

'Now!' said Sam. 'At last I can deal with you!' He leaped forward with drawn blade ready for battle. But Gollum did not spring. He fell flat upon the ground and whimpered.

'Don't kill us,' he wept. 'Don't hurt us with nassty cruel steel! Let us live, yes, live just a little longer. Lost lost! We're lost. And when Precious goes we'll die, yes, die into the dust.'

Devastated by this. Just a little longer, he begs. Even though his existence is a torment. Even though the will that holds him to life is barely his own anymore. He has long outlived his time but it's such a cruelty that now the only freedom for him is in death. I'm glad Sam didn't kill him but the whole scenario is awful.

When a mortal keeps a ring of power he does not gain more life, he continues, denied natural mortality as the fear of death is amplified and twisted into fear of separation, nothing matters anymore but the keeping, the continuing. In that miserable existence there is no peace, and at its end there is no graceful goodbye to life, there is only dust. Sudden, empty, and final.

It would take murder to spare him that. Or falling with the ring into the fire.

Bilbo let it go in time (did he feel anything when it was destroyed?) Frodo is freed of it now, though the toll it extracted for the separation was at very least a finger. It was too late for Gollum for the price to be anything other than it was, and that's brutal.

If you live long enough, death is no longer the enemy. What Sauron did to Gollum ensured that it would always be the enemy, to be feared and avoided for ever, once time and the ring had fashioned it into the only escape left. Evil.

#lotr newsletter #suicide mention in tags #haunted by the au in which gollum goes into the fire with the ring On Purpose #bc he still couldnt separate himself from it but frodo's compassion had somewhat released him from its evil #in a way an honor to frodo's quest and in a way an act of mercy to be able to give up the self-torment #which gives me shrimp feelings bc of the everything but also back to the original point that it is so tragic that death is all that awaits #bc death is natural and that was taken from him. what is the will to live in the absence of natural death? #smth deeply horrible about that #matt bugg screaming we'll be dust. so famous and rent free #lotrn325 #damn it im having more thoughts #wraiths vs gollum: discuss #the nature of the ring kept affects the nature of its possession no? those rings were made FOR thralldom #sauron has power over gollum but not That Much and his own ring is all abt the domination #what would a 2000 year old gollum even be like ._. #the wraiths are probably even more tragic bc at this point they're like...undead. even death isn't freedom #on that topic what happened to the witch-king's spirit fr #I'm pretty sure he isn't ever actually called that in the book but it's epic and gender and way snappier than lord of the nazgul #anyway shoutout to i think yambits for breaking the lore and giving them peace that was sick #where's my gollum rehab fic #i know he's a horrible little man who is constantly trying to murder my boys but i love him so #the au...gollum gaining the willpower to destroy himself because he was given trust and kindness and companionship for once. FUCKED UP. #fucked up horrible i need a minute. being shown compassion and then becoming more self-compassionate. epic #that compassion entailing seeking the freedom of death your soul was denied bc this is fantasy and somehow the exact #arc that usually leads to fighting to live is now flipped. HUH. #yeah jirt alluded to his motivation being For Frodo but i maintain that the willingness to die is HUGE there and extremely relevant #me and my red string keeping me company #ugh tag championships i win i think but at what cost #who wants to spin around miserably in a pool like franknfurter with me as we listen to gollum's song #tam you're already invited i have a floaty for u

[bb0nline]

I know I haven't posted here in forver but mp100 moots PLEASE tell me you know who wrote the fanfic "Sadness Accident" and if it still exist I can't find it anywhere and it is literally my fav fic of all time I'm going crazy😭😭😭😭.

#mp100 #mp100 fanfic #serirei #ant talks #spoilers for the fic but #basically reigen gets depressed as hell and drinks a lot #passes out. when he wakes up he is in an alternate world where he has everything he ever wanted #married to serizawa. has a child. money. ya know the joke thing #then he finds out that he gained it all via corrupt methods (causing more haunting s everywhere so there is more to exercise) #and it bites him in the ass and his daughter dies his husband dies everyone he loves dies #then OH SHIT it was a dream (kind of?) and in reality reigen is basically almost dead due to alcohol poisoning #and the whole thing was like his consciousness being like do you want to live? and stuff #and there was guilt and self loathing and an intense need for love and confrontation wit himself and all the things he loved and it was #SO GOOD #and after all the confrontation he decides he wants to live and he fights #and while that's happening serizawa and dimple and trying their damn hardest to keep this man from dying since they found his body #reigen survives. every is like WHAT THE HELL?? and he is like guys. it was a sadness accident #but it's written a lot better then that #and serizawa and Reigen kind of?? get together I mean they do but serizawa is pissed about the whole reigen almost dying thing #and it ends with serizawa asking reigen who that young girl he saw in reigens dream was and reigen is like uh #and ITS SLOOO GOOD I CANT DESCRIBE IT IT IS SO GOOD. I NEED TO FIND IT PLEASEEE #the author also had other serirei fics that were like the most beutiful things ever #there was one that was a spin-off of sadness accident where it was about the serirei child but she was real and her whole life #THAT ONE HAD ME SOBBING #if the author wants their fics to be forgotten and stuff I'll delete this but I need to know if anyone has any of that authors fics #or know what happened #insanity is taking over #this is typos in the tags btw sorry I lt was a spur of the moment thing

[josephslittledeputy]

Something, something, Jacob had to leave Miller to the wolves to survive, something, now he trains wolves so they’re never out of his control and can’t turn on him like they did before, something

#ok to rb #i know everyone takes this story as cannibalism and youre valid for that but ALSO lets make it angsty and think about how jacob felt a loss #of control in that extremely traumatic moment where he had to sacrifice miller to save himself. now fast forward to meeting joseph again who #gives him purpose. a direction. CONTROL. his men never disobey. they never question like Johns do. They're obedient. Just like the wolves he #trains. Because if he has control of everything (especially the wolves that im sure haunt his dreams) then nothing can go wrong #anyway this is just my jay cub analysis folks take it with a grain of salt i love old sad man hours <3 #tbd #possibly #also thinking of how control and trauma relate UGH #ill stop writing an essay in the tags now..

[benbamboozled]

Bruce Wayne Headcanons

that I cannot reconcile with current/most/ALL of his comics characterization but I hold onto nevertheless

—Bruce Wayne!! trains each of his Robins with the goal of them becoming better than him.

—Bruce Wayne!! intends for the Robins to be his actual failsafe if he ever went off the deep end. (Fuck that weirdo robot lol.)

—Bruce Wayne!! 1000% blames himself for Jason Todd’s death I don’t care what the comics have had him say or what his dumbass inner-narrative has said…*handwave handwave* all of that was just him desperately trying to cover the hole in his heart from failing his son so completely.

#Bruce Wayne headcanons #yes this IS a stealth rant about BvR and other things I hate. #the Jason Todd one in particular…like… #FIRST OF ALL—what fucking parent blames their teen kid for being *murdered in cold blood by a serial killer*??? NOT ONE THAT I WANT TO KNOW! #SECOND OF ALL—BRUCE DIDN’T EVEN *KNOW* THAT JASON WAS FUCKING *THERE*!!!! LIKE… #HOW WOULD HE *NOT* LOOK BACK ON THAT AND GO ‘I should have been better for him’????? #and like…as I’ve said before—I could buy him using The Story Of Jason Todd as like a Teachable Moment (tm) #to try to get SOMEthing of value out of Jason’s BRUTAL MURDER BY A NOTORIOUS SERIAL KILLER— #WHO THEN WENT ON TO TRY TO KILL THE ENTIRE UN BTW. #but like…he *himself* thinking that Jason was to blame??? NO WAY. nuh uh #not Mr. Tortured By Being Unable To Save His Parents When *He* Was A Child. NO. DO NOT PASS GO. #man I feel like I had a third point but idk I’m too angyy lol. #idk WHY WOULD BRUCE NOT BLAME HIMSELF FOR LEAVING JASON ALONE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?! #IT DOESN’T FUCKING ADD UP!!! #YOU CAN’T TELL ME A DUDE IS ALL *HAUNTED BY HIS PAST* AND THEN THE THING THAT FUCKING WELL *SHOULD* HAUNT HIM… #HAVE HIM BE LIKE ‘lol sucks to suck.’ #YOU CANT EVEN SAY IT’S UNRELIABLE NARRATION BECAUSE IT IS NEVER CHALLENGED *WITHIN THE FUCKING* NARRATIVE!!! #LIKE SURE IF THE *GOAL* WAS TO HAVE BRUCE WAYNE BE A FULL-ON HUMBERT HUMBERT LEVEL BIG FUCKING LIAR THAT WOULD BE A GOOD WAY TO DO IT— #BUT THAT IS CLEARLY *NOT* WHAT IS HAPPENING!!! WE ARE CLEARLY SUPPOSED TO THINK ‘aw poor Bruce too bad Jason sucked so hard. :(’ #okay *deep breath exhales smoke from my nostrils* okay I think I’m done.

[yappacadaver]

and it's like despite all the awful shit he's done and continues to do, like, i get it. he's employed like 24/7/365. he never got to live a life, despite spending a childhood clinging to the hope of having one someday. He knew companionship and love but lost it and can't ever get it back. His circumstances are so anomalous and gruesome that it completely isolates him from pretty much every other human being on the planet. he knows hell is real and he is basically guaranteed to go there if he can't break this demon curse thing.

like it doesn't make the kidnapping and spreading the curse around any better, but i do get it.

#like personally i don't blame him for the actual murders #and it's hard to blame him for hiring people without telling them because like lol. #anyone who's like 'oh he should just tell ppl about the demons' like what are you onnnnnn if you went to a job interview with a creepy old #guy and he started talking about demons and hauntings and shit you would think you're being pranked or that he's lost his damn mind #and fuck offffff with the 'ohhh not me im a quirky bean i'd love to take a job if the interview was like that' like sure. ok. maybe YOU wou #but what are the odds that milford in 1998 coming off the satanic panic has a thousand yous running around waiting to be hired #like i honestly dont have any suggestions for how he could have handled the hiring situation any better #now the actual JOB i have plenty of feedback #like yea he should be there to train your ass against the demons lol we got more hands-on guidance for the embalming (the non deadly part) #but like the whole 'raymond is evil cause he kills possessed ppl and hires people without telling them abt demons' #do you think that old man can run the whole mortuary by himself and also have time to teach classes #until he inevitably dies from either stress or the demons and is sent to hell (which he knows is real)? #it's my understanding that by having others around who can help him fight the demons he'll have the spare time to figure out how to #break out of the demon curse or break possession or literally any useful information that could treat the disease and not the symptoms #he is running out of time!!! he is only getting older and the demons are only getting more frequent and someday he won't be fit enough #to properly banish them!!! if you even care!!!!!!!!! #fucking tag essay lmao #mr delver i wont u...

[martyrbat]

batman and superman vs vampires and werewolves #2

#feeling fucking insane about this actually #bruce talking out loud to jason's memorial case—sharing the events of the night with his robin—with his son. #dicks response..... that lightheartedness before being slightly snarky at the realization.... #‘havent been called that in a long time’ before realizing bruce was almost hoping for it to be jason despite how illogical it may be #‘have room for one more?’ ‘might as well throw a ghost in the mix’ AND BRUCE REACHING FOR HIM BUT STOPPING HIMSELF!!! #like yeah jason coming back is cool and all (hate most of his red hood character lmao) but!!! this!!!! #haunting the narrative and influencing bruce and being a driving force in bruces still despite his death!!!!! #HELL MORE BECAUSE OF IT EVEN #bruce experienced the greatest lost of his life twice. the first as a kid and his parents deaths and how it was a driving force to make him #dedicate his entire life to fighting crime and helping others. but then he experienced it again but now as the parent #he now knows firsthand the other side of that coin. he knows both sides of grief and mourning and lost #first as a helpless child. then as batman. he became batman to prevent this from ever happening yet he still couldn't prevent it #making him push himself more and more because he still wasnt good enough. he still failed. #he still has only himself to blame for all 3 murders. #like losing jason was the thing that tipped him over on he cant ever have that civilian life hes yearned for and wanted #because there's always going to be scared little boys with blood on their hands that needs help. just whos blood it is can and has differ #anyways. bruce talking to jason still while working and trying to help others..... man. #c: batman and superman vs vampires and werewolves | i: 2 #crypt's panels #batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #nightwing #jason todd #robin ii #bruce & dick #bruce & jason