#the love was still there. it didnt change anything.

[h-doodles]

boy the sudden outpour of angst ideas for larissa weems x reader in my brain got me weeping so bad i feel a fever coming on

#ALL YALL POSTING ABT FALLING OUT OF LOVE BUT MY BRAIN GOING 700 MILES FASTER AND 3000 YEARS FURTHER WITH A #the love was still there. it didnt change anything. #ABT READER LEARNING SHE'S DYIG SOON. BUT KNOWS LARISSA IS SWAMPED WITH NEVERMORE & DEALING WITH THE KIDS. AND SHE ALSO LOVES #HER NEVERMORE FAMILY SO MUCH. SHE CANNOT BEAR TO MAKE THEM SAD #AND BC LARISSA IS SO BUSY. SHE HASNT REALLY LOOKED @ HER WIFE. AND TO READER ITS JUST OKAY. AND CREATES A MINI VIDEO JOURNEY #AND LIKE. ITS JUST ALL THE LITTLE THINGS SHE LOVED TO DO WITH LARISSA. AND THE KIDS. AND OF LIFE U KNOW. #and its wonderful and sad and beautiful #but she's dying and she doesn't want anyone else to know; her family had gone the same way too and thats how she wants it to end #and its just. augh. not my brain adding more angst rn #where her one & only friend notices #and is the one bringing her to all her doctor's appointments (outside jericho ofc. she knows her wife would know the instant had she been #diagnosed there) and like. Larissa getting more and more suspicious of their outings and accuses r of infidelity #.......and at this point r is just. done. and lies. #and gets out of Larissa's life. and everyone's just. shocked & devastated #R leaves but also begs her friend to go away. because she's just counting her days at this point. and you know what #the kicker here is that they agree knowing this was the last act of kindness they could give her. #AND LARISSA STILL DOESNT KNOW. #and wouldnt have known until Wednesday had a vision of a phonecall that'll shatter her #........shit. im crying again haha #anyways i love cinematic orchestra's i built a home <3 it really gives me such the best angst storylines #personal.txt #clown.txt #mod lee speaks stuff #idea.txt #larissa weems #larissa x reader #larissa weems x reader #lee writes #lee writes stuff #my fic

[heartscrypt]

they're girlfriends and they kiss. what of it

#twst #twisted wonderland #azul ashengrotto #jamil viper #jamiazu #azujami #ashenviper #jamil x azul #azul x jamil #jazul #heartscribbles #rule 63 #? maybe. idk i just like thinking of them as girls sometimes #they dont look that different to me as girls tbh #they are exactly the same as they were #its so funny i literally didnt change anything about them their designs are still the exact same #not because o lack creativity but genuinely i think if twst was a game with only girls every character would look pretty much the same #anyways can a stock market girl and a basketball girl fall in love (the answer is yes)

[canonkiller]

do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good) #and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough. #things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw: #top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

[colorful-horses]

My review of Miraculous Ladybug S5 so far is that it has a lot of scenes that I like in theory, but in action just end up being very silly and way over dramatic

#that being said. i love them all the same #genuinely obsessed with this show #but man it handles everything in such an odd way #they always spend so much time talking about nothing for the first 75% of the episode #and then the last 25% hikes up the drama to 100 and its always so abrupt #'illusion' is an excellent example of this lol #that episode had such a strange and sudden tone shift #its bizarre that the episodes are 22 minutes long but still barely manage to say anything #this is all technically criticism but make no mistake. i wouldnt have it any other way #this is truly the peak of miraculous ladybug. this is what it should ALWAYS be #so far i dont think theres been an episode where ive been particularly BORED. theyve all got a little spice to them #which i appreciate #well. i kinda didnt like the first 2 episodes. those were just a lot of running around #but everything after that has been exactly what i wanted #tldr: the pacing is weird and i wouldnt change a thing #my notes document on this show is up to 8 pages. ive never had as many opinions on a show as I do this one #im a certified miraculous stan

[aquared]

looking at my sprites from like a couple months ago is crazy because i look at them and then look at my new ones and think God those suck im so glad i got better at art ( even though its been like . 3 months )

#short-time improvement is crazy i love it #this is some thing im good at clearly #also dont say anything about my old sprites #ive complained abt old art before and been told ‘ oh but its really good though !’ i didnt i DIDFNT ASK !!!! #even if its not that old #still upsets me a little !! #actually when im complaining abt stuff i make in general #like i am never fishing for compliments if im dissatisfied with something i dont really want my opinion changed on it #snyways thats your aquared fun fact of the day #you guys are allowed to like my own stuff new or old just dont convince me to like it ! #thoughts directly from my brain edition #here i go talking again

[roychewtoy]

impaled

#nathan being impaled on that tetanus inducing loose steel pipe. tho tetanus is the least of his worries on account of. well u know 🕳 #nathan can be a body horror fans best friend if u let him into ur heart. living human crash dummy #i really cant believe he gets impaled. twice. #hole moment! #love turning nathans immortality round in my head. but healing factor....? #thinkin today about how the video game guy tim threatens to cut one of them in half with a chainsaw and simon is like: #[😐nathan u obviously have to volunteer] #but what woulda actually happened if that followed through [probably why it didnt lol] #would the others have had to drag each severed bit of him back to the community centre and let his guts re fuse #fucking hold him together with gaffer tape and plasters. cause i doubt he coulda regrown a whole half #his 'healing factor' only comes into play when he dies. fresh canvas etch a sketch reboot and all that. hes not fuckin wolverine #all the deaths r: impaled on fence. impaled on pipe. beaten to death. blows his own brains out. falls and snaps his neck #but chainsaw... ? one can ponder. fingers to head i can imagine anything image #readin his wiki rn 'his body will never get sick. rot. age. or truly grow old' #may not get sick but he can still shit his guts out. hashtag oblivious lactose intolerant king hashtag milk drinker #forever the worlds most annoying twenty yr old #and then the wiki goes 'the user does not need to eat drink or breathe' ....hello #ive rotated him not aging any further cause it lines up with the whole stuck in his ways. never changing [kelly voice: its just who u are] #but eatin and drinking and breathing??? we know he still experiences hunger [<-kebab] #and he dunks his head in a bucket of water when hes testin for powers with simon. gaspin for air afterwards right #firm believer in the. he suffocated to death several times in the coffin before they dug him up #oh waaait. is it stating this like. he doesnt need foodwaterair. cause it doesnt matter if he dies.. ohhhhhh..... Oh..😃 #staring at nathan sleeping in the community centre surviving on bags of crisps from the vendies so hard i burn holes through my monitor #this got away from me. uh. living crash dummy. oil pastel guts and water colour jumpsuit yessir #having fun doin art. expect more hole art. sorryfor putting this in the misfits tag hehe. not really #gore #blood #misfits #my art #chewtoy

[cthulhum]

#literally supernatural #supernatural #dean winchester #destiel #love #love was there but it didnt change anything #but it still matters that the love was there #tavs moviklav #web weaving

[thegreatyin]

Hey what are your feelings on

1. lae'zel

2. Emperor

lae'zel is actually one of the best companions in the game and everyone who hates her or says she's just mean fundamentally doesn't understand her character. she's literally the nicest girl in the world given her usual environment and upbringing. she essentially has the exact same backstory as shadowheart in that she was raised in a controlling violent cult and has spent most of her life (including the start of the game) brainwashed by that cult into the person she is today. and yet despite it all she is trying her best to help people. she DID NOT have to save you on the nautiloid and she DID NOT have to promise to take you to what she had every reason to believe was a cure-all for the tadpoles and she goes so far as to defend you and the rest of the party to other gith despite her extremely xenophobic society pressuring her around every corner to do otherwise. over the course of the game she literally had her entire way of life and belief system uprooted from top to bottom and she ultimately decides to deal with it by becoming a hero and dedicating her life to saving others from the same situation she was in. her entire character, at its core, is so extremely dedicated to helping other people even at the cost of herself. she has the same trauma and should get the same treatment and sympathy as shadowheart and you guys just don't like her because she's not conventionally attractive and standoffish at the start of the game but when you actually follow her companion quest and/or romance her she is so sweet and trying her best and she is a TOP TIER companion and i am not going to pretend like she isn't.

the emperor is one of my favorite characters in all of bg3. i know i just went off about lae'zel but god the emperor is so good. he is a LIAR. he is a Bastard Capital B In Bold. he is the deceiver trope played straight from the very beginning and you can't trust a word he says and half of act 3 is practically dedicated to proving just how full of shit he is. he is an awful person who presents himself as a savior and a hero but at the first sign of resistance or hesitation he snaps and doubles down his manipulation in an attempt to control and corral the player into doing what he wants. his first reaction to the player turning down/questioning his sex scene in any way is to gaslight and accuse them so he can shift the blame and keep up his veil of heroism. he encourages them to let go of their humanity and turn themself into a cannibalistic monster while constantly swearing it's for the greater good. he literally runs off to join the netherbrain if you free orpheus. ansur was right all along. balduran died the minute that tadpole took over and transformed him into a mindflayer and the emperor is a shell of his former self masquerading around with the same gravitas and veil of kindness he used to have, but it's gone, if it ever existed to begin with. the emperor is a fascinating example of a manipulative piece of shit done right because even the fanbase can't agree wholeheartedly on if he's good or not but if you couldn't tell my money is wholly in the "he fucking sucks guys" camp. as a character i adore him though.

#sorry for going off. this ask awoke something in me #i love bg3's character writing so much i will literally be thinking about it forever. #ask #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #i would've romanced lae'zel in reggie's playthrough if karlach didnt exist tbh. both bc they love mean women that peg them #and also bc i just love her. #also dont bring up omeluum and the 'do mindflayers even have souls' debate because if anything it proves even more #that emperor Legitimately Just Sucks. omeluum is a cool ass dude. he's my bestie. he's my bro. #omeluum is the embodiment of everything emperor presents himself as and everything he lies about being #if they (mindflayers) dont have souls then omeluum is still making the conscious decision to be sociable and eat as ethically as possible #while the emperor is making the conscious decision to Not Do That despite omeluum proving it can be done. #and if they DO have souls nothing changes. he is still an asshole. he is still awful. he can have a soul and that soul can be rotten. #sorry again i don't know where this emperor rant came from tbh #it may-or-may-not be incoherent. hopefully yall get the point im trying to make here

[comehellsorhighwater]

if you never lose, how you gonna know when you won? if it's never dark, how you gonna know the sun? when it shines - you've got to let it shine

#'the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. but it still mattered' etc etc- #holding my least awful daughter whose life was full of love and loss and connection and just like #WAILS

[devotedlystrangewizard]

the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.

he never was.

#ramblings #incoherent beyond belief its 4 am #and im trying to avoid manga spoilers #might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything #actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers #manga readers know whats up #idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet #but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so #cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO #which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away #but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound #him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder #trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others #hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him #he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS #ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be #his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything #which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk #like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him #but. #hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late #both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR #also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot #the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it #CRAZY #if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga #ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

in a sherlock holmes mood and man..... everyone pour one out for my losleep sherlock holmes fic idea that never properly saw the light of day . you wouldve been great

#the cryptid speaks #me? talking about my ts wips in this the year of our lord 2024? wild i know #but listen man my ts fics that didnt get finished still Slapped ok . still do Slap . in my docs folder where i review them when im bored #and losleep sh au was one of them!! #bein in a creative writing class is wild bc it'll've you going like id love to write but im too busy writing #but i feel that with this #id love to write it but im busy writing (hw) and im busy writing (lj + bf) and i cant be trusted to finish anything ever . hope this helps #(sighs) anyways. anyone know a consulting detective position that's open anywhere im considering a career change

[aroacettorney]

dont mind me. im simply just putting together a ludgercasey angst collection.

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#aro ludgercasey propaganda #''why cant u be normal abt them'' how can i be normal abt them when solid 80% of their interactions is either angst or stemmed from angst. #even their ''fluff'' moments were also angst. #literally no one does angst like they do. #ludger prefers to keep most of his connections extremely impersonal/professional. #but whether or not he wants to admit it theirs on the other hand simply does not... fit in that category. #he'd even tried to convert it that way but it just didnt stick bc neither of them could help but be themselves around each other lmfao. #ludger is seemly still oblivious to caseys attempt to mend their personal relationship. #which is not too surprising considering he was also oblivious to the existence of their past relationship. #after all there was no reason for him to believe that casey would want to have anything to do with him. except maybe putting him in jail. #so pushing her away seems to be the most logical decision right? personal relationship is a luxury to him anyway. #alas casey who wanted to believe in their past friendship takes it as a sign that ludger has no interest in maintaining it. #she now has to take a step back because ''if you force a relationship it may become more estranged.'' #so unless he takes the initiative they are likely stuck in this limbo. #(casey might use impersonal excuses to stay around but rn its all up to ludger to change the nature of their relationship) #casey girlie forget him i would have treated you so much better... is what i would have loved to say. #i wouldnt be suffering this much if ludger wasnt clearly holding himself back most of the time / if it was completely one-sided from casey. #i dont know if this is a slow burn or hurt no comfort but if casey gets no closure im gonna commit arson 😔

[polaroidcats]

I just want to crawl into bed and hide underneath my duvet for like a month but I have to go be a functioning caregiver in like half an hour, I have no idea how people do this full time when it's already breaking me to be a part time caregiver

#and i always feel so horrible saying things like that bc its not got anything to do with how much i love my grandma #it's just about it being almost 4 years of me having full responsibility and not enough support in this whole thing #like even though i'm not with her 24/7 the mental load is still always on me #and also i'm just having a really bad depressive phase atm so that's also not helping #anywaysssss tbd just needed to shout into the void bc i need to function in like 25 minutes now and i already cried of exhaustion on friday #when i was at my grandmas (she didnt see) #and i dont want to do it again #i think what made it worse today is that originally my cousin saidn she would come in instead of me and then her plans changed #so i thought i had a day off but now i dont #ramblings #tbd

[littledragonkana]

Ok so...I finally got to 10 hearts with Rafael. Went on the date, expanded my house and proposed.

Upon proposing I noticed that I dont own a suit for the Wedding. And I didnt have enough money to get it (literally broke from upgrading my house) so I spent the entire day gathering shit to sell so I could get the suit the next day. It was the only day the Boutique was open before the Wedding. I got up that saturday with 10012 money. Got the suit. Healed the ocean, as you do one day before your wedding 🤷‍♀️

Wedding happened. Everything was cute. Loved Rafaels suit and the vows were adorable. I didnt really do anything the rest of the day. In fact I didnt even see Rafael that day again xD

Anyway. The whole point of this post:

I walk into Pablo the day after. Everyone I talked to either commented on the Wedding or that I healed the ocean. What beautiful inspirational and heartwarming thing does Pablo have to say, you wonder?

💫"It's getting hot. I can't help but wear a tank top in the summer."💫🥰

YOUR LITTLE BROTHER MARRIED ME YESTERDAY AND YOU TALK ABOUT THE WEATHER? YOU WERE THERE! IN THE FIRST ROW! YOU THREW SOME FLOWER PETTALS!

And you. Comment. On it. Being. Too hot today!

#coral island #thats your baby brother! #whom you clearly love #and me- one of your best friends #and you dont even say anything about our wedding 😭😭😭 #if I didnt know how the game worked id be offended #i mean i still am i assumed events overwrite other things like the season changing

[queer-pagan-witch]

One day I will learn, that just because the bottle is low, does not mean I need to finish off the bottle.

#imma be so fuckin hungover tomorrow #someone should kiss me #and i moght be either asexual or aromantic or both which like woo thats funny to only me for so many trauma reasons #i love #im so drunk #i too drunk #i stated typing thos at 12:30 #imma smoke pot after i post this #if your reqding my tags hi i love you. why are you reading this though like im a schizo bipolar depreased trans girl im unhinged in the tags #i need to stop drinking by myself #if think im an alcoholic as well if it wasnt for the fact that i can genuinely stop when ever i want but idkmaybe that changes? #at this point im just typing to annoy myself cause i think its funny to annoy other people and itd be hypothetical to not annoy myself #im ramblimg in the tags and honestly its your fault for still reading this #trans thought time #i wish i was born with a pussy but i do like having a cock and there is a possibility im genderfluid and fuck me that sucks if true #like how do you transition if your genderfluid? like i kinda want a cock and pussy and i know thats an actual option #but is it the right option? #i hate being trans but not knowing what kinda trans maybe ill hit where im at with my gender and just say tranny #cause i already say faggot for my sexuality instead of anything specific maybe i should just say tranny #this is probably what a therapist is for but idk if i can justify paying for this instead of saving money to buy a hoise #america sucks #capitalism sucks #love is such a bullshit thing #how can i be in love with some ane be in love with someone. being in love is nothing but selfish but also you have to be selfish for youryou #like i know that doesn't make sense sense but it makes sense to me and i also know its wrong #maybe i should give up and spend money on a therapist #i love my freinds and would sacrifice myself for them literally #12:51 and i have one more short tag to add #i hope you didnt read this far cause even in a drunk state this tag is embarrassing and im sorry you know me irl im sorry this is rambly+ugh #but if you dead read all the tags <3 i love yoh and would die for you

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

Is it just me or does it feel like a lot of the lis fandom doesn’t understand that teenagers can’t consent to “relationships” with grown fucking adults

#it’s also extremely disturbing and concerning because yall ARE adults #STOP SAYING RACHEL CHEATED ON CHLOE #I DONT CARE IF RACHEL WAS 18 FRANK WAS STILL TOO FUCKING OLD FOR HER #AND KNEW HER WHEN SHE WAS 16 #IT WAS PREDATORY AND WRONG #AND CHOLE PROBABLY REALIZED THAT WHEN SHE GOT OLDER #if she got older- #she may have been the age of consent but that doesn’t change the fact that it was predatory and wrong #again ​just because she says in her notes that she’s happy or whatever or that she looked happy in the picture frank had of her doesn’t #change anything #a teenager thinking that they’re happy and in love or just having fun doesn’t mean they aren’t being taken advantage of #most kids don’t realize anything is wrong until things /start/ getting scary or someone finds out and explains /or/ they get older #RACHEL WAS A TEENAGER WHO WAS BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF #JUST BECAUSE SHE DIDNT REALIZE IT DOESN’T CHANGE THAT FACT #she literally was just to young to understand what was happening and how wrong it was #and even if she did she probably thought it was “different” for her #life is strange #rachel amber #lis before the storm