#the fear of being known

[phckingusername]

He's not

Rk900 : Hello, Detective Reed. How are you today?

Gavin: I am deeply Depressed and filled with self hate.

Gavin : But it's ok because I've made it a joke.

Rk900 : I fail to see the humor in this.

Gavin : I'm a Gen Z.

Rk900 : That explains nothing.

Gavin : It explains everything.

Rk900 : Go to therapy!

Gavin : Fuck you! I'm fine!

#dbh #detroit become human #rk900 #gavin reed #dbh gavin #dbh incorrect quotes #the fear of being known #lol #you know that meme with the guy yelling and the other guy throws a table #this

[fondantythoughts]

Thanks @tentoriumcerebelli for the tag from forever ago.

I am actually super fearful of interacting on this site--the fear of being known or saying the wrong thing. I've been a passive user for many, many years afraid to do much else.

It's time I got braver, so, let's start small!

1. 3 ships: Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens), Jessi/James (Pokemon), Kurama/Hiei (Yu Yu Hakusho)

2. first ever ship: Joey/Seto (YGO was my first fandom I wrote for, but I never actually wrote any stories about them-- just read a lot!)

3. last song: The Ocean, Against Me!

4. last movie: Fellowship of the Ring (I've done a rewatch of all the extended commentaries, so now I'm rewatching the extended movies without any commentaries)

5. currently reading: Been around Good Omens fanfiction lately with a stopover in YYH.

6. currently watching: Rewatching old Great British Baking Show when Mel and Sue were hosts.

7. currently consuming: Anything that I can vaguely taste (Wildberry poptarts, orange juice, etc.)

8. currently craving: Taste. I got COVID after years of avoiding it and lost my taste. I'm crushed about this because I love to cook, and usually I make some of my favorite recipes around this time of year.

#the fear of being known

[flowerofbuffoonery]

for someone who writes a lot, i never really post any of my works

#the fear of being known #of my work being known #WHICH REMINDS ME I STILL HAVE TO FINISH A REQUEST #writers block oh writers block #i wish i could strangle you and throw you out the window

[hornyhandmetaphors]

Everyday it feels like there is just a chant in my head that goes “love me love me love me love me love me” and it is so CRINGE I want to collapse into the abyss 

#the fear of being known #if you grow up lonely will you ever not be lonely? #i want to be smothered in love #cringe

[bloomvalyria]

to the anon from yesterday: not to worry, even if she was sad, she wouldn't be sad for long; she ends up with some epic af new character who is deserving of her 😌👌 the benefits of keeping up with the many asks bloomvalyria receives include but are not limited to knowing what's up 😎

oh hell yeah anon!

because my girl icy deserves nothing less

(now I just gotta figure out who that new character is)

#I’ll be real #sometimes #i do feel like im shouting my dumbass takes into the void #but to know at least one person is keeping track of them #is very comforting #and also terrifying #the fear of being known

[theplanetprince]

Google did not just recommend me fanfic in the auto fill tab

#the fear of being known #tales from the voorhees #txt

[team-moonlark]

Ugggh anxiety

#The fear of being Known #Kailey rambles

[the-bassist]

There is no feeling scarier than sharing original fiction you wrote with someone who knows you way too well. Like there’s the instinctive fear of sharing writing, but also like what if they read into it, and think things are autobiographical. Like please, the author is dead, even if you know him well.

#venting #I suppose #writing complaints #the fear of being known #the fear of being misjudged

[joycrispy]

I'm seeing some confusion out and about over the title A Companion to Owls (generally along the lines of 'what have owls got to do with it???'), so I'd like to offer my interpretation (with a general disclaimer that the Bible and particularly the Old Testament are damn complicated and I'm not able to address every nuance in a fandom tumblr post, okay? Okay):

It's a phrase taken from the Book of Job. Here's the quote in full (King James version):

When I looked for good, then evil came unto me: and when I waited for light, there came darkness. My bowels boiled, and rested not: the days of affliction prevented me. I went mourning without the sun: I stood up, and I cried in the congregation. I am a brother to dragons, and a companion to owls. --(Job 30:29)

Job is describing the depths of his grief, but also, with that last line, his position in the web of providence.

Throughout the Old Testament, owls are a recurring symbol of spiritual devastation. Deuteronomy 4:17 - Isaiah 34:11 - Psalm 102: 3 - Jeremiah 50: 39...just to name a few (there's more). The general shape of the metaphor is this: owls are solitary, night-stalking creatures, that let out either mournful cries or terrible shrieks, that inhabit the desolate places of the world...and (this is important) they are unclean.

They represent a despair that is to be shunned, not pitied, because their condition is self-inflicted. You defied God (so the owl signifies), and your punishment is...separation. From God, from others, from the world itself. To call and call and never, ever receive an answer.

Your punishment is terrible, tormenting loneliness.

(and that exact phrase, "tormenting loneliness," doesn't come from me...I'm pulling it from actual debate/academia on this exact topic. The owls, and what they are an omen for. Oof.)

To call yourself a 'companion to owls,' then, is to count yourself alongside perhaps the most tragic of the damned --not the ones who defy God out of wickedness or ignorance, and in exile take up diabolical ends readily enough...but the ones who know enough to mourn what they have lost.

So, that's how the title relates to Job: directly. Of course, all that is just context. The titular "companion to owls," in this case, isn't Job at all.

Because this story is about Aziraphale.

The thing is that Job never actually defied God at all, but Aziraphale does, and he does so fully believing that he will fall.

He does so fully believing that he's giving in to a temptation.

He's wrong about that, but still...he's realized something terrifying. Which is that doing God's will and doing what's right are sometimes mutually exclusive. Even more terrifying: it turns out that, given the choice between the two...he chooses what's right.

And he's seemingly the only angel who does. He's seemingly the only angel who can even see what's wrong.

Fallen or not, that's the kind of knowledge that...separates you.

(Whoooo-eeeeee, tormenting loneliness!!!)

Aziraphale is the companion.

...I don't think I need to wax poetic about Aziraphale's loneliness and grappling with devotion --I think we all, like, get it, and other people have likely said it better anyway. So, one last thing before I stop rambling:

Check out Crowley's glasses.

(screenshots from @seedsofwinter)

Crowley is the owl.

Crowley is the goddamn owl.

#good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #there's probably a few thousand words more I could say about this but. I think I'll just hang the implications deliciously aloft for now. #something something tfw the embodiment of all your worst fears and self-doubts shows you the only real kindness you've known for centuries #you can't help but love him and you can't help but fear him but above all you TRUST him the way you're supposed to trust God but don't #brrrrrrr #do you think Crowley would vibe with being an omen of spiritual devastation or do you think he would get drunk about it #good omens meta

[bipgrinklebink]

I felt a flash of alarm checking my email for the first time in a bit and finding all these new followers here on Tumblr, so imagine my relief coming online and seeing they’re all just porn bots.

#tumblr #the fear of being known #do not perceive me #nothing i do or say is funny enough to get a following #thank the Lord

[meanbossart]

Hi. My boyfriend @barbatusart made an attempt on my life this morning. (EDIT: he didn't, this is a joke, I'm just dramatic)

Here is Neil Roberts, the dark urge's lovely voice artist, reading out a (slightly edited version - the original is a little more... crass) DU drow monologue from a short comic I have planned in the future.

I will be bopping him with a newspaper about this in the future.

#i'm still shellshocked #oh the unbearable fear of being known #du drow #video #the dark urge #enver gortash #bg3

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[charlieconwayy]

Movies That Made Me: Back to the Future (1985)

#filmedit #bttfedit #motionpicturesource #80sdaily #back to the future #moviesmademe #gifs: movies #* #this had to be the first pick for this meme #i saw this on a class trip in fifth grade and it changed my perception of movies #obviously it's considered one of the best films ever made with one of the most perfect scripts ever and honestly? i agree #biff still being in their lives at the end is weird af but i get why the writers did it #i have known this script word for word since i was probably 14. even rewatching it for this gifset i was just mouthing the words #my hot take in the ~fandom is that there never has been and never will be anyone who can play marty except for mjf #one of the reasons (aside from the music being atrocious) that i do not like the musical #“back to the future made me a feminist” essay also sums up my thoughts perfectly #the CINEMATIC EXPERIENCE that is earth angel bleeding into the score during the kiss #crispin glover's heel turn from fear into courage during the car scene is one of my favorite performances in any movie #we do not give him enough flowers i fear

[pawbeanies]

alone in my room on a friday night like a loser thinking about being taken gently. thinking about someone being so soft with me, telling me to sit back and let them take care of me, calling me a good boy even though all i've done is just sit there and look so cute for them.. because when's the last time someone took care of me (never)? melting at the idea of someone telling me to breathe and relax and praising me for doing so well and spoiling me until i can't even be shy anymore..

goodnight i am crawling into a hole!! good NIGHT !!!

#ftm nsft #tagging and getting really embarrassed at the ordeal of being known but i think this is the vibe #23 yr old loser virgin nerd goes on tumblr and says something that vaguely ns fw and immediately dies of cringe b4 ever being touched #i say this all theoretically as if my body could handle being touched i think. i am too touch starved TO be touched i fear

[fightwing]

bruce immediately asking if he hurt dick after days spent infected yeah okay dc i see this and i raise you: 😭😭😭

#such a difference between this #and like tita.ns year one when bruces first words were something like 'you shouldve figured it out sooner' #like GROWTH (the growth is me crying then to crying harder now) #also can i just say dg is so fucking stupid what do u mean he was going to reveal his identity to the president #like did we not JUST go through the grayso/n arc where he had to die and agent-ify and take down spyr/al to erase everyone knowing hes nwin #but overall love that the titan.s defeating beast wor.ld with the power of friendship #hate the rae cliffhanger like has she ever known rest but theres so much to unpack #titans spoilers #beast world spoilers #tuesday spoilers #comic spoilers #kory being the contingency for donna 😫 also the fact dick has custom made nwing logo manila folders 🫥🫥🫥 very on brand i fear #also roy was in the picture when the tower exploded so im counting that as confirmation roy is joining the team again #the teamwork of it all i love it here <33333 #* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.

[fromtheseventhhell]

Not Arya, Robb, and Jon catching strays for not "warning" Sansa about Joffrey?? As though they didn't all meet him at the same time and have equal opportunity to understand what he was like?? It just blows my mind that somehow everybody can be blamed for her actions regarding Joffrey but Sansa herself. Apparently, she can't be expected to understand anything because nobody sat down and slowly explained everything to her using small words (not even when Ned does just that lol). And then they just ignore the fact that Sansa had a crush on Joffery and actively wanted to marry him? To the point of excusing his behavior when she witnessed his cruelty first-hand? Then they pretend that she was just "coping" with her engagement when she actively argued against Ned breaking it and went to Cersei because she thought she could stop him from doing so. There's no way they like her actual character if this is what they have to come up with to cope with her writing.

#anti sansa stans #none of these words are in asoiaf #we're almost at the point of saying that Sansa had a crush on Joffrey being /anti Sansa/ oh brother #they straight up don't like this girl like there's literally no other explanation for the metas they come up with to absolve her #they hate how she was written and hate that the author doesn't favor her and warp everything around excusing her actions #the /she's just a child/ crowd can't even handle the fact that she was childish and made excuses for Joffrey cause she had a crush on him 😭 #I fear for her if George gives her a darker story down the line cause her supposed stans are going to hate it #love how a younger Arya can be blamed but if you say Sansa should've known better then you get called a misogynist #this is all part of an unbelievably long thread of nonsense cause op couldn't cope with Sansa being a bratty child and having a crush #this is why I roll my eyes when stansas cry about the hate Sansa gets cause they want to assign unreasonable blame to every other character