#the element of doubt

[neteyammeowmeow]

my drawing of lloyd from last year and yesterdayy hlast year actually belonged to an au of mine called scales of samsara (elemental master of water lloyd au) that’s why he looks different , i like that my coloring is more vibrant now and i’m able to draw features better) but I’VE ALWAYS BEEN A LONG HAIRED (and moles) TRUTHER💪💪💪 the oen thing i need to actually improve is anatomy and rendering becus thats my worst enemy for real

#ninjago #lloyd garmadon #ninjago lloyd #ninjago fanart #sketch #art progress #i doubt anyone would actually read the tags but #scales of samsara is where every ninja is part of a natiom #that suits their element #and they’re like the power source/deity that protects their nation #kiiinnddd of like genshin #but the ninja are also dragons #SCALES of samsara btw #the whole name is basically a massive spoiler #average neteyammeowmeow infodumping

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

it does something incomprehensible to my little writer’s soul whenever alex articulates a phenomenon of the writing process i’ve always picked up on and then goes on to describe it in exactly the same way

#when i first heard him say this when i was watching the interview i legit had to pause the video for a moment #because it was like he’d actually taken my words straight out of my mouth #literally for years i’ve been fascinated by the little timeless pocket between dusk and dawn where there’s so much freedom #to explore creativity uninhibited and unobserved and without fear of consequence #the way it allows you to create things almost as if they don’t really exist #or like the rest of the world doesn’t #and the magic of that freedom #like if you create things on the cusp of dreams it’s almost as if they don’t count #they’re liberated from any usual self doubt or self criticism that invades the imaginative space during the daylight #why am i making myself sound like a creative vampire 😭 #i’m going to stop rambling in the tags now sorry #i fear absolutely none of this makes sense #kudos to anyone who’s read the whole way through this #the gist of what i’m trying to say is that it’s such a special feeling when someone whose writing you adore and connect to so much #puts into words elements of the process that have always resonated with you #and this is just one example too #right i’m going to stop rambling now #but one last thing before i go #on a more superficial note: can we appreciate how softly spoken and soft fluffy haired he is here?? 🥺 #alex turner #humbug era #arctic monkeys #alex vid #lulu posts

[shaykai]

I like to think that all of the summons/familiars/pets in BG3 hang out when the party is at camp

#is this so I can spread imp-ghoul-bestie propaganda? yes. yes it is. #look I’m just saying I can perfectly picture zailith’s imp flying by #and it immediately being followed up by six ghouls scurrying around chasing after it #and of course boo/scratch/owl bear are invited to hang out too because friendship #also also the elemental summons who I doubt really interact much but they still get to #because friendship. #doodle #sketch #Baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 #Baldur’s Gate boo #imp #ghoul #owl bear #bg3 scratch

[spocks-kaathyra]

learned how to edit purely bc I need everyone to know this song and how well it fits Garak

#the song is Doubt by Radical Face btw!! *slaps Radical Face's discography* this bad boy can fit so many Garak songs in it #fanart. fanfic. edits. cosplay. only the avatar can master all 4 elements of fanwork #can't say I've mastered any but now I've done all 4 do I get a prize #star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #elim garak #julian bashir #garashir #deep space nine #star trek edit #narcissus's echoes #my art

[moonshynecybin]

I would argue that Pecco and franky's hate for Marc is different from bezz's. Marc annoys them because he always picked tows, but I don't think the vale's element in their hate is particularly prevalent. While Bezz is helding a personal crusade against Marc in the name of his lord and saviour valentino rossi

i would mostly agree with you, bez takes the vale vendetta wayyyy more into himself than the others. BUT i would also argue that you can’t forget the lens of public relations here… it’s a different philosophy for pecco who is more reserved (and a factory rider NOT currently riding for vr46), than for a character like bez who sees a camera and says OTHERWISE I WOULDVE FUCKED YOU AGAIN about his buddy. different priorities with the media there for sure lol

like i have no doubt that marc pisses off franky and pecco. often. when they were both caught in the thick of his towing schemes they were um. VISIBLY very angry. made some annoyed gestures (flipped him off even!) and publicly alluded to it being disrespectful. but they also won’t go to the press to whine about it as eccentrically as bez just bc that’s how they are as people… which makes it a bit harder to gauge the valentino-influence of it all bc they’re more private…

#i also think there’s an element to the bezz thing of. this is the last race of the year let’s get crazy #and also marc being like i don’t wanna talk to that clown when he showed up at honda hospitality afterwards #he was specifically angry about that and there wasn’t too much vale talk if i remember. i mean i have no doubt it was influential but. #he had grievances of his own. #motogp #callie speaks #asks #remember none of the rest of those bitches went to visit marc in portimao they held the fucking line

[spittyfishy]

What did you think of Season 5 of ML, if you have seen it?

So, I have seen season 5 and frankly… I wasn’t a fan.

Season 5 was just chocked full of missed opportunities, because there were some interesting ideas there but the show's writing fumbled the execution so hard it was difficult to watch at times. Just seeing character assasination after character assasination unfold on screen was so unpleasant. I don’t think a single character came out of season 5 unscathed, I’m wracking my brain for anyone that got better this season, or at least didn’t get worse in some way, and I can’t think of any.

To be fair, there were a few bits I liked. A couple akuma designs were good (Hoaxer, Dark Humour, Queen Mayor, and Ryukomori). I thought the Ryukomori episode was well done, I’d probably say it was the best of the season (which is a low bar). But everything else with Kagami was bad. Full honesty I hate Felix and what his role in the story has been so far, but I especially don’t like that Kagami got brought down with him. Felix is the entire reason Hawkmoth got EVERY OTHER MIRACULOUS and it seems like everyone forgot that?? He didn’t get any consequences At All, and yet when Chloé worked with Hawkmoth (when he already had the miraculous for the record) she was painted as the worst person on earth.

I know I’m not the only one who’s pointed out the double standard between how the girl characters are treated compared to the boys, but it really got highlighted this season. Male characters like Andre, Jaggedstone, Felix, and even Hawkmoth himself can do any number of horrible things and still be ‘sympathetic’, but the two fourteen year old girls are irredeemably evil?

I’ll admit I'm biased, Chloé has been my favourite favorite character since I started watching in season one, but she really deserved better than the show gave her. I don’t have an issue with her staying a villain, in fact I think she worked really well as a minor antagonist in season one, she moved the story along and was entertaining to watch. But the last two seasons they’ve made her out to be this giant threat, but haven’t let her actually do anything! She’s been nothing more then a lacky to Lila and Hawkmoth, as far as having Lila in her ear telling her exactly what to say. If Chloé is as bad as the show claims then she shouldn’t need other characters to hold her hand and tell her how to be mean.

But the writing is just like that. They really need to get better at ‘show don’t tell’, and even more importantly, consistency. Because they keep adding things after the fact and retconning things from the earlier seasons to try and clap back at fans criticisms, and it’s just sad. I’ll never stop complaining about the absolute train wreck that was Derision. They made Chloé worse then she was in season one, and made Kim so much dumber then he needed to be. At the beginning of season one Kim was characterized as a bully, he antagonized Ivan in Stone Heart and helped Chloé willingly in episodes like LadyWifi. But for Derision Chloé had to trick him into pranking Marinette? Why?

The pacing in that episode was even worse, because so much of it was dedicated to a flash back everything else was rushed at the end. And Marinette saying she’d never crush on anyone again if she didn’t know everything about them was clearly just the writers trying to justify her frankly creepy actions in earlier seasons because people pointed out that it wasn’t cute or funny it was just weird. And her whole line and issues in that episode flat out don’t work as a retcon because A: why even crush on Adrian at all if she vowed not to like anyone associated with Chloé, and B: we’ve already seen her in a relationship with Luka where she didn’t show ANY of the obsessive behaviour she showed Adrian OR freaking out about going on dates. AND ON TOP OF THAT there’s been two other timelines where her and Adrian have started a relationship (Chat Blanc, Ephemeral) and she hasn’t had any of the issues that come up in Derision.

It’s just such a lazy way of writing the story, and that’s really the core issue with this season. It feels lazy, like the writers couldn’t be bothered to watch their own show and make plots that fit in the world they’ve already built.

Miraculous is a franchise that’s dear to my heart, it’s how I met my best friend and really became comfortable sharing my art online, and I still really like creating content related to the characters, but I’ve been very disappointed in the show since about the end of season three. I still have a small amount of hope that maybe the show will turn itself around and improve, but it’s dwindling.

But at least when cannon goes off it’s rocker that’s what fan works are for!

#this got longer then I intended and that’s even after cutting a bunch of other complaints lol #no matter how bad the show gets I doubt I’ll stop making fan art tho so there’s that lol #the class and the akumas were always my favourite part of the show so both of those getting sidelined this season bothered me #I don’t like the romance elements because like #these are 14/15 year olds why are we even discussing soul mates?? #people that age will have any number of crushes yes #but it’s kinda too young to actually start dating? #plus neither Marinette or Adrian are really in a position where they’d have the time to dedicate to a relationship it would need #anyway lol #how do I tag this? #miraculous salt #kinda? #miraculous season 5

[askfallenroyalty]

ok so the "misunderstanding" plot line is currently dropped (I'm rewriting my outline rn) and in doing so, I removed a big aspect of the chapter in favor of just... avoiding that plot.

one result of this is the "pocket fire!" joke is now removed ),: as well as this form:

The draft I had earlier this week had Asriel going full Spy Mode (this chapter is intended to be a thriller) and flipping between identities and forms like crazy.

to be clear, there still WILL be an element of the shape-shifting coming into play in the story but it's not treated like the spy-thriller trope. It ends up being something completely different in the plot. Which, when typing it out, feels like the shape-shifting is over used, and its for the best to keep it simple.

Asriel would go so far as to steal Undyne's identity.

I REALLY LIKED THIS. I really pushed Asriel's shape-shifting to its limits and it was going to utterly shatter Undyne's trust in the royal family and believe that ANYONE could be a shapeshifter.

But uh, realizing now, maybe that's NOT what I want! It'd be interesting, sure! But it'd be really tough to convince Undyne to trust again. And like, the whole Asgore-giving-the-throne-to-a-literal-teenager is already pushing a lot of Undyne's feelings.

So yeah the plot line would be a bit convoluted and would have an end result that adds a layer of conflict that I don't really want anyway. So as much as it pains me, that whoooole plotline is dropped.

Sad cause we were going to have a cool Toriel and Undyne fight! But... again, the stakes are artificially built. While the family IS doing shady af things, they're not being looked into. They're being looked into something they're not even a part of and are blamed for. Which sucks ass.

I STILL want a confrontation between Undyne and the Dreemurr family, but it makes sense to come from a natural result of the family's true bullshit behavior rather than this forced into a problem caused by the fallen kid's behavior.

#i do like the element of Asriel shape shifting so much that they end up reverting partly back into Flowey. But they don't notice its not #because of them shape shifting into Flowey but rather their face exerted so much magic that it poofed out. You can see them regrowing #a magic body shell for their head in the last panel there. Because every time they do face shifting before there's not really any effect to #the change. But this one does! its subtle but i felt really clever for doing it #i MIGHT be able to replicate this in the chapter still but i really doubt it. they only shift into one or two forms now. and holding the #forum isn't actually any difficult its just a matter of changing it a lot that wears you down #ooc #redraw

[rithmeres]

yes, the plans that i could not share with you (because the haters would sabotage me) were that i was taking on LACC in my vash getup :)

i have so few pictures of myself but i got so many compliments (especially on my arm) and plenty of other people took pictures of me. and normally i don't like attention but i will be honest with u. under these circumstances i loved it. my arm held up really well through 8 hours on the convention floor and i have never been prouder of anything i've made. it's articulated incredibly well, no part of it gave out or required repair, it's never uncomfortable or a nuisance to wear, and i have enough range of motion to do relatively complex things like tying my shoes.

originally i was not planning to try to meet anyone famous because 1) it's expensive and 2) the lines are long and 3) i feel weird and annoying approaching literally anyone for any reason BUT. the spot where i met up with my sister just happened to be right next to johnny yong bosch's table. right when he started signing things. so i said LOL ok i'll do it.

it was super chill, i asked him how it felt to get the call that they wanted him to come back 20 years later for a trigun reboot and he said it almost didn't happen -- that since they recast everyone else for stampede they considered recasting vash as well (and i said WOW i'm so glad they didn't) and he said he really enjoyed getting to come back and explore a darker take (i forget if what he said was a darker take on vash's character, or just a darker trigun in general) but it was briefly surprising 2 me that he considered stampede to be a darker version but i get it, especially when u consider that there is not a lot of comedy in those 12 episodes to balance out the grief.

ANYWAY he was impressed with my arm and i asked him if he would sign my coat :) so he signed the lining but he was also like u know what, i'm gonna give you a second autograph just because. so he signed a print for me as well (free of charge!!) and the print with the blue signature matches my famous paintings that i always film in front of (that's providence baybee)

other stuff from the con under the cut

cosplay notes:

i saw 3 other vash cosplayers (a 98 vash, a stampede vash, and a purple coat vash) and no shade but i definitely had the best arm build. peace and love to all of them though

i saw 1 1/2 wolfwoods. 1 was the aforementioned mullet wolfwood from yesterday's post (ww if you’re out there ww) and the 1/2 was the 98 vash cosplayer’s gf in some kind of goth-ish dress and she was carrying a punisher

mullet wolfwood if you're out there i regret not getting a picture with you so much. i am deeply ashamed and i have no excuse because i ran into you twice and both times i was too embarrassed to ask for a picture. i just want you to know that your punisher was swag and your earrings were yolo and we would look very good together

i expected to see a lot more trigun tbh. los angeles where u at. 4 vashies at a convention of 120,000+ people is nothing. one guy even walked up to me like wow i love ur vash, i haven't seen a lot of trigun at this con and i was like I KNOW i thought i'd see a lot more

theeeee costume of all time award goes to the cad bane cosplayer i saw on the balcony. spare hand in marriage dude (gn) you looked so good

second place for costume of all time goes to the other mother cosplayer who had button eyes and these crazy finger appendages and never once broke character even while waiting in lines

i took 100 points of psychic damage from this one guy who (and im not kidding) was at least 6’4’’ and wearing platform boots and was dressed as the mfing onceler. with the stupid top hat he was fr 7+ feet tall (i saw him duck to get through a doorway).

someone was there as the brawny paper towel guy?? just walking around in a beard and flannel carrying a pack of paper towel rolls?? go off king

i saw 5 nightwing cosplayers but only 2 were biblically accurate (had ass)

the nanami sweep at this convention was so real u all SHOWED UP. and everybody ate. i saw at least 12 nanamis and not one of them was a flop.

i have never seen so many spider-mans in my life

other things:

fig. 1: this extremely hot captain america on a very large poster was about 2 make me act unwise. hi gorjus................................. nice eyebrows

fig 2: i saw this sign a couple blocks away from the con and i did a triple take. 🔥🔥🔥TRIMAX MENTIONED🔥🔥🔥

fig. 3: i saw all 4 hobbits in panel and can confirm elijah wood’s laugh is ten times more infectious in real life. before they were even done sitting down, dominic monaghan switched around all of their name cards so that none of them were seated behind the right name. as u might imagine much of the panel's content was reminiscing about LOTR, but i heard some stories that i hadn't heard before. they also talked about video games, other projects they are working/have worked on, how their kids feel about their dads' LOTR roles, how much they love ian mckellen, and how they would love to see something happen for the 20th anniversary of ROTK this year. sean astin (the legend) took shots at the stranger things writers (basically said joyce could never be happy with hopper) AND EVERYONE CLAPPED LOL. billy and dom talked about the best food in NZ, their show billy and dom eat the world, and the unfortunate events that led to the friendship onion's hiatus. it was a ton of fun to just watch them be themselves with each other, you can tell that these guys are all so fond of each other and love each other so much.

and finally, fig. 4: i bought these beautiful prints from @/batinyourbelfry and the skeletal washi tape from @/skeletalacademia (both on IG)

#this post is all over the place but i want u all to experience this with me. baby's first convention #i didn't hate it like i thought i might but i am absolutely WIPED and will b perfectly content to not go to another con for several years #lacc #los angeles comic con #it's so funny walking around and just hearing someone go VASH and literally being like. who said that. #like there are 5 million people in this corridor. where are u so i can acknowledge you #my immediate defense mechanism is to toss up a peace sign so it's very convenient that it is something in character for vash #my favorite compliment was this one guy who was just like 'THAT'S FUCKIN SICK' from across the aisle and i was like 'YEAH!!!!' #long post #ackchewally the more i think about it. i do think sometimes people mischaracterize stampede as lighter than the other triguns #simply because the characters look more baby than their other counterparts #even though many elements of stampede are. truly so dark. #like we are not at manga-level-dark yet but HOO BOY i have no doubt we will get there #i'm dying to see what other horrors orange is cooking bc i KNOW they're cooking awful manga things (laudatory) #hot single dads in your area #my cosplay #this post has taken me hours to write. im so sick of it at this point begone from my sight i hate u

[pasdetrois]

on the bachelor and resurrection

Thinking about how the concept of resurrection is touched upon in Daniil’s routes, and how the Marble Nest makes something of a mockery of it, casting him into the role of both resurrectionist and the resurrected. The man with an affinity for the living trapped in a cycle of communing with the dead..

+ the reminders that neither remaining nor returning shall constitute anything akin to a victory for him—just a trick mirror and, if you'll forgive the pun, a dead end

(p.s. the original marble nest line is a bit clearer in this connection, where the word for Sunday can also mean resurrection)

#still obsessed with aglaya's intro to him because WHAT DID YOU DO DANIIL. did he invent the patho universe's first defib unit or what #to blather on—all the (probably orthodox christian inspired) religious elements of his routes are really interesting #georgiy comparing the plan for simon as something akin to communion (+that line where simon refers to him as the closest thing to an heir!) #the marble nest gravedigger calling himself a shepherd; the clerks asking if he believes in god #(which is soo juicy to think about if you answer yes—because then it introduces a whole additional layer of rebellion to his actions) #anyway. #the idea of him conjuring up an endless cycle of resurrections in his head just feels so tragic.. #he has this line in p2 where he explains his lab's baseline goal as allowing people the chance to choose when they die. #to bring them back after death has 'won' is a different matter entirely—but a distorted reflection of the latter is all he is permitted #it's just. ;-; I am literally always thinking about him. THANK YOU AND GOOD NIGHT #pathologic #daniil dankovsky #🍓.txt #does any of this make sense. probably not but wtv #the adventures in screenshot collecting will continue btw don't even doubt it #there is still much to read in this cosmist book so. 😌

[twyrineslut]

pathologic 2 ending dichotomy moodboard

#NICE DICHOTOMY IDIOT WHAT LIES OUTSIDE OF IT #so i finished 2 for the first time after playing thru classic and well... it was a let down #i could write a whole essay about why i was so disappointed w the ending #but imo the biggest strength of classics ending is its ABSOLUTE REFUSAL to explain itself. #did u make the right call??? idk heres a 20 second clip to leave u bewildered and doubting all your choices. #2 did not have that element of doubt for me it felt there was very much a “right” and “wrong” answer #which is hugely against the spirit of what makes pathologic such effective story telling imo #they were so mechanically different which destroys the ambiguity imo so yeah not thrilled #pathologic 2 #patho crit

[fellhellion]

apologies for yosukeposting and especially incoherently but slowboiling in my brain whatever the hell was going on w him in kanji’s dungeon. guy who slingshots between some kinda fraught observation that this is so much worse for kanji because it’s happening in front of an audience (over like. freaking out about it), furiously asserting that he’s heterosexual, insinuating danger but then also being the one who volunteers to take kanji home afterwards.

It’s sooooooooooooooo.

#I’m naurt. #conveying it well. #but there’s some kinda something about which elements prickle his unease #exposure to the wider community #the topic of sexuality that falls outside of what is normative being introduced AT ALL #but he’s. not scared of kanji. he never has been tbh #I don’t think he would volunteered to take him home and essentially make sure he got there safely if he was #imo it’s more that like. kanji doesn’t reject the shadow’s assertions where yosuke would #and there isn’t a world in his sixteen (?) year old brain where you SHOULDNT do that lmao #if you’re a guy you like girls and you don’t get hugged when you’re sobbing your heart out etc etc #a guy’s a guy and when that doesn’t mean what he thinks it has to mean anymore that’s deeply uncomfortable for him to unpack #it brings to the forefront his own doubts and insecurities #and kanji accepts that in himself where Yosuke can’t I don’t think #doesn’t question a lot of time and builds his identity around it #but he can’t erase the questions people like kanji and naoto raise because like. it’s intimately relevant to HIM lmao #and it’s how he understands a core part of himself #even if that’s built on sand #congrats! you’ve discovered the patriarchal and heteronormative hegemony! #tunes talks persona #I think it goes largely unspoken and deliberately avoided with him but what kanji wrestles w in regards to conciling his sense of identity #to wider society is like. that’s him too lmao

[historyartthings]

Has this been done as a poll yet?? Apologies if it has! It’s a very morbid one but it’s always been an incredibly divisive question and I’m curious.

Admittedly these are very simplistic answers. The reason being, whilst I acknowledge there’s more room for dimension of feeling there, I wanted to get to the basics of it if you like? Boiled down, when those charges against Anne were drawn up, did Henry honestly think they were true?

#it’s a difficult question #someone take one for the team and ouija board Henry lol #but anyway #a big part of this I guess is would Cromwell do it w/o the king’s permission/approval #he was clearly more than happy to construct the charges. that he was the architect is beyond doubt #but w/o henrys involvement or knowledge? I’m not so sure.. #have to say I’m convinced by MacCulloch’s suggestion that Anne and Thomas Did Not Get On #even if they worked together on aspects of the reformation his evidence is solid enough imo to support the idea they weren’t allies #(the reformation is where they found some common ground it seems? #they agreed on the poor laws he’d had drafted it looks like? #and both disliked and pushed back against the legislation that went through parliament re: monastic closure) #for example #but overall #seems they tried to work around each other for the most part. again elements of the reformation excepted #and that would presumably cause issues and conflicts of interest. #on top of any personality clashes etc. #but could that crystallise into a plot of that calibre absent of Henry’s involvement? #or his approval? #again.. not so sure #henry viii #anne boleyn #thomas cromwell #Tudor history #poll

[deep-spacediver577]

Pixar Elemental - concept

#I had to post this! #This kid looks like they're going through some doubts in life #Pixar Elemental #Elemental Pixar #Disney #concept art

[caldobestial]

seethin’

#voltron fanart? in 2024? #its more likely than you think #its the purple guy the purple guy from- #my art #also the brainrot has me consumed ✌️ #ive got an au with dairugger + golion + 2003 elements in the works but i doubt it’ll see the light of day #:’’) #anyways- #prince lotor #fanart #fart if u will #au

[variousqueerthings]

*sighs in post mildly broke containment again* there's nothing wrong with reading willow as a lesbian, this is a piece of fiction, and the post I made took on a jokey tone for a reason and is ultimately more about underlying bi-erasure on tv than anything else kaybye ✌

#im watching btvs #jeepers creepers but btvs is bringing out the *taking it all very seriously in a very morally high-and-mighty kind of way* crowd #and i dont mean about shit that matters such as discussing racism or misogyny in fandom #just about whether you agree or dislike someone's read of a situation - move on my friend if you dont agree #i mean i could go on a rant about HOW the show portrayed willow-the-now-lesbian #(and while im at it why i hc buffy-the-apparent-heterosexual as bi too but nobody has disputed that part oddly enough) #but that would be an effort im truly not interested in expending on this day and possibly never and has been written before #im mostly just live-blogging and moving on #if im writing anything fanfic-wise it'll be about kendra and that'll be my full fandom contribution #ok but the ONE thing i'll mention is the fight willow has with tara which is one of the rare Ls for tara #where she basically admits that she's afraid this is a phase because willow has loved men/been with oz #and that's just an interesting fight from a meta perspective because the idea that bi women have to *choose a side* #and are consistently questioned and doubted by their lesbian partners #is a core element of biphobia within a gay relationship that many people can attest to #hell it's a big part of bisexual rep that is conscious of itself that at some point there's a plotline where the person is questioned #about their true loyalties and asked to take a side #btvs ofc is NOT conscious of this underlying tension and in fact i would argue is agreeing with tara that this is what needs to happen #for several other reasons as well #but literally people have WRITTEN about this im not saying anything bold and controversial here AND it doesnt take away #from lesbian willow reads to acknowledge the flawed approach of the show to her sexuality like come on #willow rosenberg

[iwonderwh0]

Connor may not have acquired the fear of heights, but Emma...Emma probably gained a several new phobias that day in which the fear of heights isn't even the first from the top.

#dbh #dbh emma #detroit become human #dbh connor #androids and specifically PL600 #guns that androids can use #listening to music in headphones #height #being grabbed #lifted #pools too as it must be hard to forget the sight of a dead body she saw in that one pool #helicopters #I doubt there's a single element of that day that didn't get implemented into her memory with a huge exclamation mark