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bluethedream · 1 year

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final working day of 1401, over :)

#sabi's words #If there's actually anybody reading these I mean the final workday of 1401 this year in the solar calendar #so. I told my boss I'm gonna quit. She asked me why and I said it's too much for me to work and study at the same time and that I need a #break. And she looked at me liked I'd grown horns. (everybody looks at me like that when I say it. What #What can't a 21yo catch a break? Can't a 21yo get tired? Is it such a foreign notion? I have cardio problems at this age and have burntout #Mentally emotionally and physically so of fucking course I need to catch a break.#Anyway.#She said 'you're going you have energy at least work this summer just 3 days a week'#And I repeated myself that I won't and it's too much and I need to take a break but then she turned away and told me to reconsider it and #that she'll talk to me about it later #but I know I'm not gonna reconsider and no amount of raise or less working hours is gonna convince me to stay at this job that has taken.#everything. Everything. From me.#It's made me depressed and anxious and took away my confidence and sense self worth and given me heart problems and digestion problems and.#the list goes on.#I wanna think that I'm a valuable asset to her as everyone around me says I am and that that's why she's asking me to stay even for 3measly #Months but I know she's short on work force and needs people to stay here and is only asking me to stay because she needs work force. Not #because she needs me specifically. When I was hired here I thought it was because of my stellar resume and high skills but no turns out she #was also short on work force back then.#ugh. Anyway. Bottom line. I'm gonna be broke but I prefer that to staying in this place.

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thaliagrayce · 1 year

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y'know what we don't talk about enough? Hazel died. We talk about how she grew up in the 30's and 40's and we talk about how out of place she feels in the modern world, but! She died! She was dead! She has spent more time dead than alive, and not by a close margin!

How does that effect a person??? We got some of it in the flashbacks, but once those caught up with her present timeline and she shared them, they just kind of... disappeared. And she was a regular girl with some weird past experiences. That's one way of doing it, sure!

I think it would have been a lot cooler if she was just a touch creepier. If she felt a little bit Wrong. Yeah, in general she's more approachable than her brother, she's more sociable and less closed off, but. If you actually spend any time with her, it can be difficult to tell which child of the underworld is actually more unsettling.

Hazel is bright of personality and has a dazzling smile, but sometimes she'll just... shut down. She'll go completely blank for like half an hour and nobody knows what to do with it. Sometimes she forgets she's alive. Sometimes she'll spout the grimmest shit you've ever heard like it's nothing, she won't even notice it's weird until the room goes quiet. She spent decades in Asphodel, which is designed to make people forget about themselves and wander around for eternity, only she didn't have the luxury of forgetting! Wild! After she comes back to life, sometimes she forgets that she's allowed to Do Stuff now. She can spend so long sitting and staring at nothing. Sometimes she'll start crying on cloudless days because it hits her again that she can actually feel the warmth of the sun on her skin and she can hear birdsong. Every little mundane experience is a blessing and she will make you remember that in the most foreboding way possible.

#hazel levesque #hoo #mj talks #like. i am fascinated with characters who die and come back different and it JUST hit me that there was so much potential for hazel there #the idea of how death lingers was not explored At All in heroes of olympus #of course there's the obvious part in that there were what. 3 named character deaths total? 4 if you count leo #which i very much don't because it didn't stick! there were no consequences to this gigantic war!#the first series did well with that because we had plenty of named characters who died #even though some of them were introduced only to die like six chapters later. we still knew them on some level #and more importantly percy knew them. he felt their loss in a way that made consequences seem real #heroes of olympus didn't have any of that. hazel could have been a great way to talk about it a little more!#also i just love characters who have obviously gone through death. that has to change a person! tell me how it changed you!#anyway. i think i'll make hazel creepier from now on in my writing #she deserves it <3 #nico is creepy in an obvious way. he's got power over death and that clings to him like a second skin. he can't hide it #and he's learned that he doesn't have to. there is power in being othered #hazel seems lovely when you first meet her! none of the death power all of the glitter and gold and riches #and then she'll look you dead in the eye and say 'you really don't know how lucky you are to be able to breathe until you can't anymore'#and move on like it's nothing! what!#underworld siblings

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solarpunkani · 24 days

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Y'know someone's probably waxed poetic about this already but it's on my mind so I'm gonna do it again.

When it comes to encouraging people to learn about native plants and habitat and involving themselves and their yards in the wider ecosystem, you gotta meet them where they're at.

And maybe that means they won't go as far into it as you are or would like them to in your wildest dreams. But even small steps count towards the bigger picture and I think we need to appreciate that more.

An example from my own life is my mom and the current gardening project we're working on. We're planning out the garden beds in the front of the yard by the mailbox--my mom's previous plantings for the most part haven't worked out, so I'm taking a crack at it.

I'm a pollinator gardening enthusiast who cares more about attracting as many butterflies bees and hummingbirds as possible than keeping things 'neat' and 'tidy'. However, not only do we live in an HOA neighborhood (though not as intense as some other stories I've heard), but I know my mother--an interior designer who has a deeply vested care for making sure the exterior of the house looks as Nice as possible.

We're still getting a pollinator garden in the front though. How? I'm meeting her where she's at, I'm making some concessions, she's making some concessions, but ultimately we're making something that works for the both of us. She doesn't want the plants too tall and messy? We'll trim them back in fall and winter--the insects can use the backyard garden to nest in. She doesn't want things too wild and bushy and weedy? We'll add a nice mulch to the beds, keep things a bit spaced out until they grow in to their larger sizes. She doesn't know the latin names for the plants I'm asking for, let alone how to pronounce them to ask for them at a garden center? That's fine, I don't know the Latin names for most things anyways, let's just use common names.

Does she care that the garden will attract butterflies and hummingbirds? Not intrinsically--she sees it as more of a bonus, if anything. She just cares about what color everything will be and if it'll be easy to maintain. The fact that they're native plants barely registers as a plus side to her. And honestly? That is fine.

If I approached this problem with a hardheaded attitude on how I wanted it to be just as wild and free as my backyard garden? There wouldn't be any native plants in the front beds. It's not like I didn't teach my mom things, but I didn't lecture her like she was lesser just for not knowing or caring as much about native gardening as I do. And that, ultimately, made her more open to the idea than she would've been if I looked down on her like I've seen too many people do to others.

Not everyone is going to develop a deeply seated care about native plants and Latin names and I don't think it's reasonable to expect that. Meet people where they're at and you just might get a lot more done. Meet people where they're at and you just might find they'll get excited enough to learn more--but if they don't want to learn more, that is fine.

We can't expect everyone on the globe to suddenly become plant experts rattling off Latin names left and right and professionally ID'ing native and invasive plants. In the same way we wouldn't expect everyone to suddenly learn the ins and outs of learning code, or how to synthesize medicines, or how to properly build a house. And that is fine. Because we can lean on those who do know when these things come up.

I lost track of where this was going but. Y'know????

#out of queue #ani rambles #may delete later #like idk between the CPBD channel and some posts ive seen on here #it feels like a lot of people expect EVERYONE to learn ALL the Latin names for everything and thats just not realistic #Latin names make me fuckin dizzy just hearing them out loud 99% of the time #we can't admonish your everyday homie for referring to things by their common name and not knowing the ins and outs of native gardening #you attract more flies with honey than vinegar. don't look down on people for things they don't know and instead lift them up #thats the best way to get people curious about wanting to learn more #and lead by example. show good results and people will be interested.#i put up a bird feeder for the first time like 2 years ago and just this weekend my mom decided to buy a window feeder because she likes #seeing the birds. does she care about providing habitat for wild creatures? no she just likes seeing the pretty birds.#im not gonna lecture her for not putting up a birdhouse and birdfeeder and just wanting to see the birds??? thats stupid #if she wants to get into more then she'll get into more and if she doesn't even a small contribution is still a contribution yknow?#like if someone's doing something actively/with risk to be harmful by all means talk to them about it but like #dont be fuckin rude guys #im going to bed

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capybaraonabicycle · 3 months

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Anne: I want to be like you: Unmarried because I don't give a shit about romance.

Josephine: Anne, I'm a lesbian. And my wife just died.

#I don't think this is supposed to be funny but it really is #*Anne talking about kindred spirits proclaiming her undying love to Diana* Josephine: thank god she gets it #*Anne saying how she will ignore her romantic feelings for a boy because she is following in Josephine's footsteps*#Josephine: I have spoken too soon #Don't worry aunt Josephine: Anne will figure out she is bi sooner or later I am sure <3 #I have the theory that all of Anne's kindred spirits are simply fellow queer people #Aunt Josephine and her 'friend' Gertrude are clear and so is Diana #That teacher (that I haven't seen in the series yet but I am sure she'll show up) I expect will be another open and shut case #Matthew in the audio book was very aroace coded and now there's his lady friend in town #But honestly it does make sense that he would be nervous around her when he cares for her a great deal platonically but knows she is #expecting something else #anne of green gables #anne with an e #I am kinda watching the series and listening to the audio book at the same time #I have to say much as I like the series Marilla she will always be Whitney Avalon to me #I am not set on anyone else as much but Marilla is her that's just the way it is

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snepfeathers · 1 month

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I'm glad people have been enjoying Nyx, she's such a fun and affirming character for me to draw

#yeaaaaah. I think she'll definitely stick around as a sona #for once there's not the overwhelming urge to merge her into being just a different form of Storm #hmm. I'll make an Actual Post talking about it later but: Storm and Zephyr are the same thing #but Storm is Me/My Fursona #and Zephyr is An OC In A Setting. self insert for my own fun worldbuilding thing #and I have a. History. of just merging other potential characters into Versions Of Storm. Aleyxi only barely got away #storm speaking

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mzminola · 11 months

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Man, I want a series-finale AU where Jon just lies his ass off about what happened to Daenerys. Like, the final dragon torched the Iron Throne and then flew off with her corpse. There is NO BODY and NO DRAGON.

He could just. Lie. He could just lie and say Dany, who recently torched the entire city, torched the throne too and then took off flying to destress.

Jon may or may not be able to get away with claiming she left him in charge and calm her remaining forces down. But there's no reason to tell anybody he killed her yet! Just lie, Jon!

#Game of Thrones spoilers #are we still tagging spoilers for that?#Game of Thrones #A Song of Ice and Fire #please don't tell me that it would be out of character for him to lie for practical reasons #this is an AU idea we either run with the premise or we don't #fic ideas #'um she said you guys should take a vacation too'#'yeah just pack up and sail to those islands you were talking about'#'she'll come get you later! really!'

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bi-the-wei · 2 years

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I am slowly but surely still working on this redraw. Lol. SO many flowers. X_X I've been a bit stressed lately. Just residual stuff from grief and complicated emotions from the beginning of this year kinda hitting its second wind. Also my clipstudio decided randomly to undo ALL of the organization I spent like 2 hours doing to my brushes and I got mad so I haven't drawn much at home. And my work has been busy because it's the end of the fiscal year so I haven't had enough time there to draw much of anything other than my ghosties (that I'm posting on @boos-day). BUT the end of the fiscal is done and I'm slowly getting back to.. mmm well as close to normal as I'm gonna get for a while yet (healing is a process yo!) so I'm gonna try to draw some more again soon. <3

ANYWAY yeah. Here's a WIP that I'm

#mo dao zu shi #mdzs #wei ying #wei wuxian #wip #art with effort #just like... this year #My grandma who lived with me my entire life and helped raise me and my brother died the day after christmas #then my mom had a major stroke that was complicated by both covid and pneumonia a couple weeks later #She is still alive but she will never walk again and probably won't regain use of her right arm #she is slowly learning to talk again though so that's good #but she'll never go home #and then a month after that my grandpa died.#And so very randomly this year all the stress of that just.... has been coming back.#I'm getting better but like #it's a lot #Sorry for the sob story in the tags #but I still like.... need to talk about it sometimes.#;w;

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marivenah · 1 year

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What is your OC's love language?

I was tagged by @natesofrellis @socially-awkward-skeleton @echo3-1 and @purplehairsecretlair to do this really interesting uquiz! Thank you for the tags, beloveds 💙

sending out tags to; @sstewyhosseini @risingsh0t @poisonedtruth @hoesephseed @thomrainer @confidentandgood @aceghosts @indorilnerevarine @adelaidedrubman @josephslittledeputy @strangefable @ghastlyrider @noetikat @jackiesarch @jacobseed @leviiackrman @shadowglens @shellibisshe and you!

a story that ends in blood

The world has always been unkind, and when you have turned to yourself for comfort you have come face to face with an empty pit which seems to be laughing. You don’t care if it kills you but once you find someone whom you love and who loves you back, you will make sure nothing happens to them. They are yours. You will make a tear in this world and create a new place for you and your love if it comes to that. Because it has always been about love, and it is how it always ends.

consumption of a heart unloved

Here’s a dining table, here’s a set of plates. Here’s your heart, red and bursting with love. You have tried to love people all your life, but no one seems to understand you. Your own mother perhaps forgot to teach you how to protect yourself, maybe people whom you trusted chose to look the other way when all you wanted was a hand full of love. All you want is someone to take from you, all you want is someone to dig in your heart and eat it and kiss you afterwards - bloody and red. You want them to tell you that you are what they have been looking for, you want to be the one who ends their hunger.

an undoing influence

Can someone tell you what to do? You have been carrying so much love within you for so long it is starting to turn into anger (why does it matter, all you see is red anyways) and you have been dragging this body through each day and every night you are split open on your bed and it is so so so lonely. If someone were to walk in while you were on your bed that way and they stitched you back in a new way, lining the seams with their love and kisses, you’d probably find this dreary world a little more bearable. You want someone to turn you over and over until you look in the mirror and see yourself looking back at yourself with a gentleness which has been lacking in you since forever.

violent devotion

Everyone seems to think you are faithless, but the thing is you haven’t yet found someone who will bring you to your knees and make you raise your head in reverence. This world has stopped bringing you joy, you want more of the divine. You want to dedicate your entire existence to someone; you want to make them realise they are not something terrible, make them see just how much beauty they are bringing to this world. You want to be the only one for them, the only one they have chosen to love. There’s a god shaped pit inside of you and only they can fit in it. And what if they choose to walk away? Didn’t I say this was violent devotion?

a knife called grief

You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.

#oc: paz acosta #oc: mags wilhelm #oc: laurie devin #oc: shireen oqir #oc: carol kovacs #tag game #uhh be careful when opening the tags lmao #we got A LOT to unpack here wow ok let's go #these are all so extremely accurate it hurts and scares me #mags' result is probably the most surprising one #replace 'mother' with 'father' and it would be a lot more accurate #i guess you could say it applies to her before she met genji and after she escaped talon hmm #she did give him her whole heart (served on a plate) so maybe that's how talon could not take it from her later on #because she didn't have it anymore. it was always safe with him #or maybe i'm talking complete nonesense #paz is an obvious one. a tortured and broken soul looking for redemption in the form of love #it's all there really is for her. all she can believe in. wants to believe in. and when she finally finds it she'll do anything to protect #this is the part where i can finally talk about how 'blood in the wine' is THE song for laurie. it was written for her i know it #'i was given a heart before i was given a mind' describes her perfectly #because that's how she acts. out of love and compassion. not necessarily the most logical way. but it's always others before her #not only has she been neglected by others but also by herself #and the stitching part can honestly apply to both jacob and faith #it's almost as if this quiz knew shireen's partner is maul 😩 and to her he's obviously not the monster everyone else only sees #she doesn't deny the atrocities he's committed and she stands by him #how they're sort of?? in a force bond and they're the only ones for each other kinda hnnnnn #this whole result is just about carol and her dad tbh. she can't deny him nor run away from the memories. they're rooted.#all she ever wanted to hear him say was 'I am proud of you' but she never did. and she blames herself for not being good enough #and she carries this with her throughout her whole life. talk about daddy issues #if you made it this far i am kissing you on the mouth #these are just notes for myself but hii!! if you're reading this lol

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leaphia · 10 months

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WIP Wednesday (on a Friday)

Yes, I’m two days late but anyways!

Tagged by @turtlemurmurs thank you very much <3

I feel like I have too many WIPs BUT I can share one panel of the next comic page hehehe

THINGS are happening owo” I also really like the expressions here xD

Bonus: A doodle of Tristan I recently made. One of my first ideas when redesigning him was, that he’s half latino/bilingual and can speak spanish. (now I wish I could too xD) He was born and raised in Germany but still learned the language from his mother.

Bonus bonus: since Spiderverse consumed my brain for like over a week, here’s also a little Pavitr sketch (I love him and his pretty hair! uwu)

I also started a few more Spiderverse sketches but they are very very rough... xD Now they have to wait until Art Fight is over oof

Tagging: @thenotsolittlelady (If you want to of course!) and anyone who feels like to share their WIP :3

#wip wednesday #sketch #doodles #original character #(I haven't decided where Tristan's family is from exactly tbh xD)#(he only speaks spanish when he's angry or when he talks to his family or somethin)#(or to tell Astrid she's beautiful/to tell her how he feels about her and she doesn't understand at first but she'll learn later xD)#(also the use spanish by Miles and Miguel in the Spiderverse movies totally did not convince me to go with this headcanon for him no owo“)#leaphia art #oc: tristan #oc: sookie cantrell

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doggirlnarcolepsy · 7 months

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#idk how to deal with how my relationship currently works #I love her more than anything in the world I just don't think she actually has any romantic feelings left for me...#other than just me being her best friend and family and the fact we've been together so long there just isn't much of anything else..#it just feels like there's so little to no romantic love left in our relationship and that she resents me for putting her in this position #where she cut herself off from everything back in her hometown where she came from just to pursue a relationship with me #and because I can't make her feel loved in the way she needs. in ways I used to make her feel about our relationship #and now 7 years later she feels like she's wasted the best years of her youth #with someone that she doesn't even know if she loves anymore #because all the shifts in dynamics. terrible poly relationships. my inability to not get romantically involved with her partners #which just ends up making everything very awkward and usually just ends in disaster. hurting our relationship #At this point all kinds of intimacy feels so forced that it makes it so hard to believe it's genuine intimacy and not pity or obligation #because of all the baggage in the last 7 years our BPD and rejection sensitive dysphoria makes romance and intimacy so difficult #it's so hard to look past all the failed attempts and heartache in the past when you remember it all #right now we're decided to separate romantically and she's going go look for other partners so she can learn to love again #before she'll even try to approach having a romantic relationship with me again #she's my favorite person in the world and I would do anything for her.. I just don't know how much there's left for me to do at this point.#I don't know what to do..#I don't even have anyone to talk about it because she's the only person I've talked to in the last 3 years because I'm such a shut-in #and I have literally no friends...#I just feel so fucking alone

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leatherbookmark · 9 months

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i simply Do Not Think exaggeration to the point of lying for the sake of Haha Funny is. well. funny

#this must come as shock to everyone gathered here i'm sure #recently i've noticed my mother and grandma do it a lot. for no reason whatsoever #if my mother does something that i find funny and she later recounts it to grandma she will 100% make up something that i said #in an exaggerated manner. ie. i just laughed and shook my head and she'll say i was in hysterics and said i never laughed that much #grandma once saw me playing a rhythm game in her room and when i went to the living room for a glass of water she mentioned that #i was 'playing so much my little fingies hurt'#i just. what. why would you do that. if you feel a distinct lack of excitement in your life please read a book. watch a movie. go somewhere #don't just... bilbo baggins the mundane story of your life RIGHT IN FRONT of the person you're talking about???#should it come as a surprise to me that i don't know what i am and don't consider myself a person. remains 2bcn #that being said the post was made because i saw the letterboxd review of cql again. 'it's borderline unwatchable it's SO bad'#no it's not. 'the cg is worse than in the 90s' no it's not? '30 inch front laces' i don't think i would like this person if we met

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randomingoftherandomness · 2 years

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Friends and Fam, Theydies and Gentlethems,

Let me preface this by saying, I don’t give a fuck about someone’s command of English when it isn’t impacting me on a professional level/capacity. The fact that you don’t have that fluency in English means that you’re probably fluent in one or more other languages and I think that’s mad dope.

BUT. When it’s my job to edit your work for a publication aimed at native English speakers where it’s literally your job to write in English and for which, you put your fluency in English as native/professional? Yeah, sorry sis, I’m holding you to the standards you advertised yourself to be.

My fam, you ever come across someone who,

a) insists that they’re self-diagnosed “empaths” and “sensitive to the moods and emotions of those around them”

b) tells you on your first meeting that they’re depressed and on meds and the meds will “make their minds a bit foggy” but when you, as someone who is clinically diagnosed with depression and was on meds asks what meds they’re on, they just give you a blank look when you list out some very common med names (Diazepam, Prozac, etc.) and say that they don’t know what meds they are on

[i recognise that no one owes anyone any personal and private info they don’t wanna give but this was just suspicious as fuck because wow, they were the ones who kept going on and on about how they are working on their mental health and the whole thing that goes with that and it really felt like they were trying to get me to sympathise with them and fawn over their asses]

c) in a professional setting, tells you repeatedly that your feedback on their work made their mental health turn for the worse - putting the onus of their own mental wellbeing on you - when you yourself has to take two days out of a five day work week just to edit and oversee their work on top of doing your own work and they knew the workload that was expected of them and the requirements for the job

[and their go-to reasoning for why they fail to perform is that their “mental health wasn’t too good and therefore the words written came out weird” and how when you point out that they’re taking your feedback too literally instead of as the professional feedback as they are meant to be taken as. See below for examples of their writing.]

-exhibit A (an unedited sample)-

-exhibit B (purple is my feedback; please share in my misery)-

-exhibit C-

d) obviously does not respect you as a colleague and a senior co-worker who repeatedly just tries to help them improve their writing, to which they take as a personal affront because it is clear from day one that they had been expecting you to pass their work just because they write fan fiction and you know that

e) is very very blatant about how they are very very proud of their “command” of the English language when, see the exhibits above, they obviously don’t have the command (sarcasm) that they think they do and refuses to gracefully accept your guidance in trying to get them to improve

Fam, those are fucking red flags, the house is burning, you’re dealing with a green tea bitch who has a barely tucked away white lotus in them. Run. Run the fuck far, run the fuck fast.

#Do Not Reblog #will delete later #i'm feeling some kind of way rn #i am talking about this shit because i know this person likes to save face and will never own up to this bullshit she fucking put me through #coz she is a fcking pick me girl and she'll die before she admits any wrongdoing #this 绿茶婊 #this absolute 白莲花 #I'm fucking serious about the DO NOT REBLOG because i will block you if you do #all those exhibits are just BARELY scratching the surface of the shit she writes

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kirishwima · 2 years

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my heart is gonna. leap out of its chest 💀💀💀

#i sent in my first drafts for a chance to get abroad a research team #they wanted me to present a few topics and my opinions on them and i just sent them in #i make it sound so formal lmao what i mean is #i sent them to a colleague at work thats on this team and she'll check thru them and sent them to the head doctor #but holy shit my stomachs a KNOT #if it doesnt go well and i dont get in this research ill be so fucking disappointed w myself #i started researching about it since i was given the offer #and it would be SO big to me if i made it since i never got into researches before #the doctor is rly rly strict though and just her giving me a chance is great #but if i actually make it in? boy im willing to lose all my sleep over this #keep ur fingers crossed for me lads 😭#burrito talks #burrito talks medicine #delete later

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th-alassa · 2 years

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i think my colleague is treating me like a cat

#shes so sweet but this is srsly funny lmao #our offices are connected by a door so we talk all the time but mostly each do our own thing #and she'll occasionally just. leave me little offerings on my desk #snacks coffee water #shes constantly trying to #keep me fed and hydrated like im a lil pet LMAO #and she checks in w me often without being annoying about it #its rly funny but also cute 😭#she was about to leave and suddenly took a bag of snacks out of her bag and placed them in front of me #and im like ?? dude what??#and she just went 'you have the night shift! keep them' and left 😭#she so aggressively sweet i love her and shes great co #*great company in this work place lol #sophie talks #delete later

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