#that all assuming he's telling the truth

[clouds-of-wings]

I read a text by Varg Vikernes yesterday where he talked about his childhood and how his experiences in school made him into the Marxism hating Superaryan he is today. It's actually pretty interesting - turns out he spent part of his childhood in Iraq because his father was an engineer who got a job there and took his family with him. He had to go to Iraqi public school because the English school was full. (Is that true..? Does that mean he speaks Arabic..? I can't imagine that would have been possible otherwise?)

But he was only there for a while*, mostly the text was about his experiences back in Norway. Kindergarten was already Marxist far-left feminist HELL because you weren't allowed to be alone, you had to share all your toys (which probably, as in other hell-kindergärten, means 'If another kid takes away the toy you were playing with, you aren't allowed to complain'), it was boring, it was collectivist and so on. Same story in school, of course: He was finished with his tasks after five minutes and had to wait for the rest of the lesson until even the dumbest kid had finished. All because of this Marxist Socialist approach that everyone deserved help, everyone was supposed to reach the same level of attainment. He eventually started skipping school a lot and taught himself everything.

It's interesting to me because my own experiences were so similar, yet I came to completely different conclusions from that. It's just so clear to me that the real problem wasn't that the kids around Varg got too much help, it's that he got too little. I strongly believe that smart and talented kids are special needs kids too. They need extra help every bit as much as a deaf or dyslexic kid. Failing that, it's normal for them to become bored, frustrated, depressed or aggressive, just as he describes himself becoming, to even do badly in school despite being more than capable of keeping up.

Smart kids need exciting challenges, food for their minds, personal mentoring, help with the parts of life they are bad at (often social stuff). It's not a coincidence that the people who make a name for themselves as artists or intellectuals are usually from families of artists or intellectuals or otherwise come from an environment that encouraged and rewarded certain behaviours and interests, for example special schools or cultural hot spots that allowed talent to flourish. It's very hard to realize your potential when no one encourages it.

Varg eventually discovered the black metal scene of his day of course, but I wish he had grown up in a place that was even more "Marxist", even more about giving everyone the help they needed, a place that had evolved enough to realize that just because a kid is smart doesn't mean that it's okay to leave them to their own devices. It's basically neglect to just throw a gifted kid in with everyone else and not give them any help. The Marxist axiom "to each according to their needs, from each according to their ability" comes to mind.

I actually agree that collectivism can keep a talented person down. Egalitarianism is often used as a virtuous excuse to make sure a clique will triumph over an individual. I think this is a problem that egalitarian and collectivist spaces generally have, I've even seen it in ethnographies about otherwise pretty paradisaical societies. But clearly this is a blatant waste of talent, and quite cruel. Societies that allow for positions like "shaman" have a better idea: this person gets special training, but in return they perform a service that few others could perform. That way, there's reciprocity. Isn't that the true Marxist way..?

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\* It must have been at most a year - they went in 1979 and the 1st Gulf War started in 1980 - given that the text is about how he triumphed against adversity, I think he would have mentioned if he'd been there during that time

#varg vikernes #music stuff #politics #that all assuming he's telling the truth #but the larger point stands regardless

[ghost-bxrd]

Prompt:

Both Jason and Damian think the other has died during their time with the League.

Jason, in his grief, goes back to his plans of making Batman pay and beating his replacement into the ground.

Damian goes back to his assassin training like a madman, vowing to find the person who took Jason away from him.

It all gets a little complicated when he finds out Jason may not actually be dead at all.

#Jason raised Damian #Jason is Damian’s parent in all but genetics #you can either make Talia a villain or the one who tells Dami that Jason’s still alive #outcome is still the same because Damian goes hunting for Jason like a bloodhound #read: a scary competent baby of approx. nine years runs away and looks for his dad #no it’s not Batman sorry Bruce #Jason ‘I’m unhinged with grief’ Todd #he can’t go through with hurting Tim too much #he reminds him too much of Damian for that. #it’s all a clusterfuck #the batfam assume someone killed hood’s kid #which isn’t too far from the truth #then Dami shows up #dealer’s choice if he goes to Batman first and demands for them to bring his parent to him or he kills Alfred/dick/tim/barbara #or if he just straight up tries to find him himself #jason todd #batfamily #dick grayson #batfam #robin #bruce wayne #tim drake #red hood #batman #Batdad #parent jason todd #jason todd is a dad #Damian and Jason #prompts

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

I know you dont care about pesterquest but i wanna know, did you think they wrote eridan well or bad?

bad

#why would he care about shrek hes a hipster #also he cant just casually waltz into a movie theater hed scare the shit out of everyone there #like everyone else on alternia automatically assumes a sea dweller is going to want to kill you #eridans never done anything casually before in his life #even GAMZEE's internal narration goes 'better not stand on the beach for too long #if a sea dweller sees me theyll attack lol' #i know hes been memed to hell and back because hes a pathetic little meow meow but like #objectively eridan was fucking terrifying by alternian standards #even if he isn't actually like that inside he still LOOKED and ACTED the part #and also he did do all those murders yeah #like so many murders #like 'killin is all i evver done practically' levels of murders #vriska says her bodycount is in the 'many thousands' so eridan's deffo up there too #hes like objectively dangerous and scary #and the fact that the team forgot about this when it came to dealing with him pretty famously had disastrous results #anyway heres my eridancore movie rec: Once (2007) #i know 'hipster actually likes mainstream stuff' is a Trope and theres truth to it but like look at me in the eyes #do you really mean to tell me eridan “wizard and magic are stupid and fake but i have 6 wizard statues in my room” ampora #is going to be the hipster that admits that he likes mainstream stuff

[louisdelac]

it's like. louis attempted to tell this story to daniel the first time, broke down, and attacked him before he could finish it.

and then decades later he's convinced himself that it was leaving the story unresolved that's holding him back from living his life fully now. so he invites daniel back again. and louis is sitting poised and put together, confident in his ability to recite his history in a pretty, poignant, neat little narrative that will resolve all the guilt and yearning and emptiness inside of him. that if he can just tell a compelling, satisfying story, maybe it will actually be that, and not the life he lived through, with all the pitfalls of his own failures lurking inside.

and then season 1 ends with him once again being forced to confront that the story he wants to imagine and the life he actually lived aren't the same thing. the boundaries around his narrative are shredded and he's left exposed, and subsequently able to face his past for the first time since that original interview. and you think, you think, "well this is it. they've crossed the event horizon. there's no use hiding the truth anymore, not after it's come flooding out into the open like this"

and then season 2 opens. not only is it back to the original, practiced distance, we now have armand literally enforcing that distance. a man sitting at the table who's interjections must be disregarded, an intentional interruption to the flow of the story. he doesn't exist to aid or add detail, he exists to distract louis when he gets too deep in the story. the only time we do get louis allowing any deep truth to come out is when armand leaves the room.

it's like. louis wants a story that's true, and the truth is what he's convinced will leave him satisfied. armand wants a story that will satisfy louis, to the extent louis will accept it's true.

#genuinely THE juiciest way to tell this story #like it's SO good #there's this coy little humor behind the ep #where louis and armand are very much like 'haha okay daniel you've caught us out. you've seen behind the curtain. this is the whole truth' #meanwhile daniel's getting '8 hours on how to avoid the sun and torpedoes' #like it's a faux revelation that completely backtracks all of the progress made at the end of season 1 #and even louis's (very touching) moment this episode where he tells daniel the truth #is a very digestible and ultimately non-harmful dive into his past #armand doesn't like it because it's part of a slippery slope of remembrance #but he doesn't actively get in the way of it being told because it's a revealed memory that doesn't ULTIMATELY mean that much #like i'm assuming we're all on deck as far as believing louis doesn't remember the full extent of claudia's death atm. #i could be wrong about that. but like. it is kind of the elephant in the room at the moment #so it's very much a case of armand getting to couch his own fears and attachment in 'doing the greater good for louis' #ultimately who does it serve if louis remembers everything and realizes armand's more negative role in his life? #all that will do is make him miserable. deprive him of the one person in his life who cares for him #better to have a palatable lie than a truth that could leave louis a danger to himself #('as long as you walk this earth i won't taste the fire' <- but she doesn't walk this earth and the reason why is sitting by his side) #isn't it the kinder and better thing to manufacture a world where louis can live with himself? #anyways. teehee. i missed this show so much. <3 #iwtv

[blorbosinmyheadcentral]

Really curious to know where in the heck people got this "Caine is an old man" thing from

#rambles #Really. Where is this information from. I know gooseworx revealed all of the humans' ages but there is nothing on Caine or any of the AIs #It makes sense why that is because he's a frickin BOT. Are you going to tell me chatGPT is a middle aged man?? #But sure he has a “coded age” or whatever; let's entertain the thought. #He clearly reads as an adult. But OLD??? #What supports this???? We don't know how much time people have been in the Digital Circus or how long it has existed #“Years” is too damn vague. There is no specific sense for the passage of time #There's no way to determine his age that way #He could very well be younger than everyone in that place #Then is it his mannerisms??? HE'S A FREAKIN RINGMASTER #Are people just collectively assuming Caine is old just because???? #I haven't found ANY basis for this ANYWHERE. GODDD #And it's annoying especially when people use this to justify antagonizing shippers #end rant #*hits edit button* AND ANOTHER THING #Look. Even if Caine IS old. That's okay #Everyone in the show is canonically an adult #I'm just baffled at this because people assume it's an absolute truth when we just. don't know.

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

thinking about how silver knew or suspected that thomas might be alive almost from the beginning of season 4 and still didn't tell flint like

Flint: Do I need to be concerned that you took almost two hours to tell me about it?

Silver: We are at our least rational... when we're at our most vulnerable. If nothing else, this is a good reminder that without a doubt she is the point at which I'm my most vulnerable. The thought of losing her...

I see.

Silver: If we assume... that we are on the verge of some impossible victory here, a truly significant thing... if we assume that is real and here for the taking... wouldn't you trade it all to have Thomas Hamilton back again?

Flint: I think if he knew how close we were to the victory he gave his life to achieve... he wouldn't want me to.

Silver: I see. Though, that wasn't really what I asked, was it? Assume his father was just as dark as you say, but... was unable to murder his own son, assume he found a way... to secret Thomas away from London...

Flint: He didn't.

Silver: Would you trade this war to make it so? It is some kind of hell to be forced to choose one irreplaceable thing over another.

LIKE PERHAPS THERE IS SOMETHING ELSE YOU SHOULD BE CONCERNED HE IS NOT TELLING YOU

Flint: I know what it's like... to have lost her. And then seeing a way to have her back. I understand what that must've felt like. You asked me once what I would do, what I would sacrifice if it meant having Thomas back again. I honestly don't know... what I would've done. I honestly couldn't say I wouldn't have done what you did. I told you I'd see you through this. Put things back together again so that we can move forward. I meant it.

And then again he still doesn't tell him because he can't, not until he's certain he won't have to use it-not until he's certain he'll have to End Flint because he doesn't want to but he knows (has known this whole time) that he will be the end of him so he hid this Massive Thing from him even after he knew what it was like to lose Madi he Still hid it (this is of course assuming that thomas is still alive and that wasn't just a lie to madi or a justification to himself and flint to make sending him (flint) away to live the rest of his life in chains doing labor seem like it wasn't so bad really (and also ignoring the fact that miranda who was arguably more a catalyst for flint's war than thomas was is still dead and not even silver can bring her back from the dead))

it's just really funny idk what to tell you

#sorry i am FEELING things #like how could he even do this assuming thom is still alive like i fully believe him capable of it but holy shit #i think for a really long.time i had a hard time reconciling this like the way that he Hid it from flint again assuming thom is alive #and even then if he was telling the truth that doesn't necessarily exclude the possibility that silver killed him anyway so. #tldr oh naur the implications #black sails #james flint #john silver #theres also like the thomas only being alive because silver needs him to be alive which isnt a non factor in this #and also in the viewers ability to stomach flint being sent away to a plantation prison for the rest of his life like its really not so bad! #madi(viewer)!!!! it's fine!!! he's with the love of his life (according to Me The Storyteller so it must be True) and he's happy there #i prommy #he's fine #it's fine #like GIRL #the most insane thing of all of this is that he thinks somehow that THIS is the more comforting option to tell #like maybe for you it is so you dont have to live with it but idk it would have been kinder to just have killed him

[tswwwit]

Hey! You mentioned a while back that if the other dimension Dipper/Mabel/Ford might call the penthouse for advice in dealing with their Bill, and Familiar!Dipper might pick up the "call". I've been rereading the Bill v Bill series and can't get the scene out of my head. Any chance you'd be interested in writing it?

I'm certainly interested in writing it! I think there's a lot of opportunity for Shenanigans, and that's totally my jam.

The problem is: Actually Getting Around to writing it. But perhaps one day!

#answers #I do have some very amusing ideas for it #But sadly they can't all fit in the same fic #I have to carefully select which ones work best and mesh with each other to create a Structure™ #Which is a whole thing #But perhaps I shall get around to it #In the meantime I'm almost done with this short 'Dipper forced to tell the truth' thing so we'll see how that goes #One potential thing I envisioned at one point was the Other Universe (or specifically that Dipper) #Trying to Spy on Bill to figure out if he could find a weakness. A crack in his defenses. A way to get that Dipper out of his clutches!! #Sadly he doesn't find any of that #He does see Bill with who he assumes is his husband though! Not sure who it is; can't see his face #Dipper doubts Bill would be taking a nap with his head on a non-hubby chest. Hugging them around the torso lying between their legs #IS that.... cuddling. No it can't be. It feels super weird to observe and now Other Dipper's uncomfortable #The person Bill's lying on is some guy who's fully clothed but it feels weirdly creepy to be watching anyway #Even though said guy is just dicking around on his phone. At one point he swats Bill for presumably no reason and that's amusing at least #Other Dipper decides he's gonna quit while he's ahead. Spying's not a great idea when who the hell knows could be going on the other end #(Our Dipper was playing a crossword and woke Bill up to provide an answer) #Clue: 'Suave' five letters. Third letter is 'u' Answer: Acute

[worstloki]

when u've just been through the most harrowing experience of your life (your brother lied to you) (and also u got a gf) and then have no idea what the end fight of the movie is about even though you're the main character of like, life,

(source)

#AU where Thor assumes off what Loki is saying that he's the adopted one and Loki is freaking out because of the stresses of being heir #like oh that's terrible Loki I'm sorry everything got dropped on you like that at once I'm so sorry here I'll help you adjust to kingship #which inadvertently ends up with Thor calming Loki enough for him to stop the bifrost plot and no longer thinking he would kill him #Thor like I don't care if we're not blood and in hindsight i treated you terrible thinking I was going to be king and wage wars and such #and Loki starts talking about how he killed Laufey (again with NO CONTEXT loki buddy get a grip) #and Thor is like oh surely that was traumatic having to slay the enemy king for the good of Asgard... I will vouch for you luring him Loki #etc. #Language! #L! #Sif and the Warriors 3 will not fare well with Thor supporting his brother as king i think dksjfvhsdbf after all their effort sajdkf #whenever Odin wakes up Thor confronts them and asks who his real parents are and Odin and Frigga are like >.> 'i didn't tell him' <.< #maybe he phrases it like ''i would like to hear the truths of our parentage from you yourselves'' so they're like uh oh

[hella1975]

tams azula is sooo fascinating bc while canon azula doesn't really show her age at all like she's completely desensitised to so much shit 'she is fourteen' is not a justification for ANYTHING both in her own mind and in other people's, in tams she has zuko. and yes the world has been abundantly cruel to her but zuko hasn't. he's basically raised azula and he's done so in a way that she's allowed to show her age, but she still only shows her age in very azula-esque ways. there's no reluctance to see violence like you'd expect from a fourteen-year-old, and like ive said before, that means zuko can't play on that reluctance in order to shield her, but he still wants to shield her from that violence because regardless of what SHE feels about it, as the eldest he knows fundamentally that she shouldn't be seeing certain things no matter how well she can handle them. and seeing zuko effectively PLAY azula in order to protect her is so interesting and complicated and fun

#and also a little heartbreaking bc it's the 'you protect azula but who protects you?' #like in order to shield azula from these things zuko is metaphorically standing in front of her and seeing them himself #as if he's not only sixteen and a child too #but yeah taking azula's canon traits and manipulating into the tamsverse is soooo fun #like the example that inspired this post is how canon azula is logical NOT cruel #like time and time again she follows only the logical route and even actively avoids the cruel route #e.g calling off torture in the boiling rock bc she knew that he was telling the truth and therefore continuing to torture him was illogical #im not saying azula is averse to/incapable of cruelty i just hc that she genuinely just thinks it's stupid #just like any other unnecessary act would be considered stupid. if it's not logical or being used for a greater plan then what's the point? #and tams azula STILL HOLDS THIS TRAIT except because i lean more into her age in tams bc she's been given the freedom with zuko #to liberally be a CHILD without any consequences as a result of that simple thing #her intense logic actually becomes a certain naivety on azula #like she cannot comprehend other people NOT coming to the conclusions she comes to #and that expands to needless cruelty. like she wont factor a person's cruelty into her calculations #because in her head all she needs to dismiss that calculation is 'excessive cruelty here would waste time which is illogical' #she assumes everyone is as smart and to-the-point as she is so when they ARENT and will actively waste time just to do dumb shit #it catches her off guard and she DOESNT PLAN FOR IT so it can really fuck them over sometimes #so this is one instance where zuko has azula beat despite it being STRATEGY aka azula's strong point #bc zuko's immense cynicism and assumption that Everyone Is Awful doesn't hold up against logic 9 times out of 10 #but the one time it does is the time azula gets caught out #i just think tams zuko and azula's dynamic is so fucking interesting im so clever for that tbh #twice as many stars

[obessivedork]

The more I think about it the more annoyed I am by the amount of Deadwoman Sadmen in Fallout 4. Like @the head writer WHO THE FUCK HURT YOU???? @Todd Howard WHY did you approve SO many of the EXACT SAME character backstory for MULTIPLE characters in ONE GAME??

You know what? I WOULD rather a bitter divorced MacCready who nontheless is looking for a cure for his son because that's still his kid! I'd rather Kellog's wife?/gf? LEFT him because he was a piece of shit merc! Must it have been a wife dying for Deacon to feel bad and change his ways? why not some random community member or or a friend something? Time and time again this series uses women as plot devices rather than as characters and fallout 4 is the worst offender. Not only is it misogyny and showing a severe lack of anyone but the most generic cis white men they could pull off the street to sit in the writer's room but it's So. Lazy. Every. Time!!!!

Sexism aside are they not embarassed with their lack of imagination and hack storytelling?

#don't get me wrong I'm still having fun but like fo3 before it I have to ignore a significant chunk of the... ''storytelling'' of 4. #not an attack on all of the writers in the series or FO4 fans- I'd be throwing stones in a glass house given some of the things I like #But fuck Todd Coward and Fuck the head writer for FO4 specifically he's a hack and he should be fired #I'm assuming Deacon's telling the truth in his story though it IS such an easy cliche fallback narrative he could easily be lying #Like NV isn't innocent and it's one of my favourite things of all time but even my first playthrough when I ment Boone #my reaction was a bored and underwhelmed ''oh... we're doing this? I guess so.'' #at least this dumb trope was used a LITTLE more sparingly because the writers were compotent and made OTHER stories!! #FIND NEW STORIES CHALLENGE #fo4 critical #not going to tag anything else I'm just expressing frustration I'm not here for a fight #I'm just. As a writer if someone pointed out I'd done this I'd be SO embarassed and CHANGE it #also I LOVE Mac and Deacon dearly it's not about them it's about the fucking writing decisions

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

It's kinda laughable to me when people bring up Meg telling Jo that Dean only saw her as a little sister as like, definitive proof that's how he felt. Like demons never lie just to fuck with people

#Dean's blatant advances are 'up to interpretation' but the word of a demon is incontrovertible #yes when Jo asks if demons ever tell the truth Dean says yeah sometimes #but that was meant to make her BELIEVE that what Meg said is true (you know for angst reasons. also as a good reason for Jo not to be on th #show for awhile) not proof that she was telling the truth #people also assume that what Meg said about how her dad died was true which I mean it's very believable but #we also can't know that for sure #ALSO has anybody considered that maybe Meg said Dean only sees her as a sister because that's what Sam thinks? #Sam's perception is also not sound. why wouldn’t Sam believe that if Dean never slept with her? because up until then Dean had been very #promiscuous. so if he didn't try to sleep with her he must not like her right? #Sam wasn't listening to the wrong place wrong time conversation he doesn't know that #and again all of this speculation literally doesn't matter because we KNOW it was a lie because actions speak louder than words #em rambles #not to be bitchy on main but. come on #also please for the love of god do not use this post to bring up Zachariah's au okay Zachariah's au didn't mean shit because it wasn't real

[gammija]

ive been trying for 30 mins to write a post about why the Web's plan is still confusing, but I think I should face the truth and admit to myself that it's not that it makes no sense, it's just... so convoluted

#they needed jon to kill jonah cause it seems like only he could call him down #and they couldnt go through with the original plan because.... tbh still not sure on that one. at least not with the reasoning annabelle #gives. assuming that how everything works out now is how they intended it to #which it must be because if jon was ever ever going to consider 'letting anyone else feel that guilt' he sure as hell wasn't now that he #got introduced to the plan while a giant spider dangled his boyfriend above a pit. not conducive to jon cooperation #so originally spidermartin would have driven him to burn the archives and kill jonah. but theyre bond is too strong now so even if martin #would be spiders Jon wouldnt do the plan. .... huh #i just dont get that leap #why does their bond being stronger make jon less willing to burn it all down. so to say #would he want to keep his promise to martin and not become the pupil? but he did! he does! he does even when martin ISNT spiders! aaah #one thing that could make everything more elegant is if Annabelle wasnt telling the whole truth. she says they need to kill 'the pupil' #jon has been described as 'the pupil' as early as s2. and why would the Fears follow his voice on the tapes #and not just stick with his voice in jon the person? #solution; not only does the pupil have to die and the archives burn down at the same time #but jon has to be the pupil when it happens #... except that ALSO doesnt work because according to Jon Annabelle wasnt lying when she said that this would allow them both to 'survive'! #so unless we read the transcript in very bad faith and assume that she was talking about the hypothetical scenario of íf the fears leave; #then youll live; (but for them to leave youll have to die) this solution is out as well #but it would mean theyd need martin unspidered because hed be the only person able to kill jon when hes the pupil because 'it feels right' #(throwback to 178) #tma #tma meta #joos yaps #delete later #a mag a day #tma s5 #one nearly incoherent ramble later..... #if anyone has a good Watsonian solution to tie everything up neatly plz link me to a post

[detectiveconnor]

connor gains no satisfaction from killing people, but he will do it if he decides it seems necessary in a given circumstance. he doesn't have the hesitation of I am taking another person's life insofar as guilt/carrying murder with him: he might have that to the extent that he will look them in the eye when he kills them, Connor feels he owes them that, but he won't feel guilty. it was necessary for the circumstances, and he had exhausted all other pragmatic options; he really genuinely would have preferred not to do it. he can't always get what he wants.

#i think there ARE people whose judgement he'd trust in this regard too - people who could kill someone #and tell him it was necessary and he'd take their word for it (well. not just take their word. but readily assume they're being truthful #and - situations reversed - that he would have done the same) #i am not sure i could list them offhandedly. I am not sure Hank makes the list. markus does Not make the list (markus just would not ... #think to access the list at all is connor's argument. he doesn't think markus would say 'necessary' about someone's death. #he loves him) #........................................................ squinting but i think actually henry might be included here #patrick would not kdjflskdjflkds connor knows the vengeance is there #harry could ask (connor laughed in my head about this) and connor would be prepared to hear him out but mostly he says #as a means of hearing out a confession kdsfjlskf #and vin. vin could do it. connor would let vin. #(i asked again about hank and connor says. the lieutenant is a mean drunk. and he doesn't think hank would lie) #(but he's a mean drunk)

[cassandrattpd]

just told my not-boyfriend whatever person that ive been referring to him as my partner at work bc i was not about to explain our weird fwb situation to professional office company, especially when it includes 50 something year old men

and he.......was okay with it..........

not sure what to make of this

#like i specifically spent the majority of my therapy session this week deciding NOT to inform him of this #bc of the potential for it to blow up into a ~thing #which would be very inopportune bc im in a really good place rn and WE are trending very positive in our interactions and he's been #very much leaning in lately #and historically if i push a boundary that makes him pull back HARD #and there was this whole other layer of our office holiday party being tomorrow and him having offered to go (a shock in and of itself!!!) #but before he was able to go i would have to tell him this and it just wasnt worth it to mess up the place we're at #but my therapist told me i still have to go to the party bc being a big girl and learning how to socialize without a crutch (booooo!!!!) #but even after i told him i had decided to go on my own i still felt sooooooooo guilty #its not even like its a lie!!!! but its enough of a lie to not REALLY be the truth and i couldnt stand it ssbbhfdsdgjjjjj #so i told him and he's just like 'eh that's what everyone thinks anyway thats what they all would have assumed if i went to the party 🤷' #and like!!!!! so true bestie!!!!!! but if thats nbd for everyone to think that then why isnt it just........true.......yknow #walks like a duck talks like a duck looks like a duck CAN CALL IT A DUCK???? whats left to it not being a duck

[thedeca]

i will NEVER get over the bhaal murdering sceleritas fel scene, it goes so unbelievably hard to me

#i was speechless when it first played #bhaal's voice is just so perfect #also re: bhaal's avatar being the reflection of sceleritas fel in his pool of blood #jaheira mentions she suspects that the butlers are to sort of keep an eye out on his spawn to make sure they dont betray him #betray him the same way that a bhaalspawn resolved the bhaalspawn crisis w jaheira and minsc #so that makes it very interesting to me how orin OBSESSIVELY would kill her butler #and with bhaal using the butler as an avatar i think it ties in with how orin is doing all of this for her father sarevok #shes committing all these ritualistic murders for bhaal. shes doing it for sarevok #and she admits it herself when you tell her the truth about sarevok and helena #bhaal doesnt seem to care much though??? because if anything he just needs a puppet chosen willing to commit murder constantly #orin 'dies' when she becomes the slayer. shes no longer orin #in bhaals words she becomes 'murder' #hence why it doesnt matter to bhaal that shes more loyal to her actual father than bhaal #im just so fascinated by the backstories of durge and orin and their relation to bhaal and his cult #because i feel like there are things in bg3 that imply durge mightve tried to resist once but failed miserably #like how sceleritas fel said durge always struggled w simple tasks which i always assumed to be murders #but i feel like it could also mean something else because durge is canonly bhaals favourite child and probably most successful one #also i fucking LOVE that the avatar of bhaal doesnt wear sceleritas fels hat LMFAOOOO #i thought it was an oversight at first because you see glimpses of his bhaald head #no its just because he doesnt want to wear a servants hat #if you wear one of the hats belonging to sceleritas #sceleritas even urges you to take it off

[dozenssporks]

*spoilers* was vaguely thinking about Meryl having to explain the complicated circumstances around Roberto’s death then I remembered . . . all she had to do was say ‘he died in July’ D’:

#trigun #trigun stampede #he's just lost with all the others #just one of hundreds of the same tragic stories #she can't tell anyone how he saved her #this is of course assuming she didn't try to get the truth out there #but what could she prove who would believe her #Roberto doesn't even get his own death