#technically both again so. lmao

[lavenoon]

Showing them the world, with varying results 💜

#post let luce #dcamv #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #my art #my photos #technically both again so. lmao #yes im back on my bullshit #look once you realize that no one can stop you you do in fact become unstoppable #so yeah we're back to self inserts #dunno why moon always needs to be a menace and trespass while sun gets the candid scenery shots #but that sure is becoming a pattern #have at it <3

[0fps]

BLADE ❖ death approaches until your sin is cleansed, my vengeance will pursue you

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr blade #blade #hsredit #honkaiedit #gamingedit #m:gifs #m:* #eye strain tw #flashing tw #i had so many technical issues with this set fucking hell afjkdlasdf #crashed ps multiple times had to restart my laptop bc it was bogging down memory then it crashed tumblr on upload and logged me out.. #ALSO this video was just hard to gif in general so much flashing and fast moving segments #not even sure if i'm that happy with this coloring but i'm too scared to open ps again for this ajkfdljs #anyways. hsr is a game idc about saving in so i'm just gonna throw everything at blade and kafka's banner #and hope i get at least 1 of them if i get both though yay #i'm barely building anyone anyways i'm pulling people just to look at them LMAO #also i rly like his engilsh voice too???? should i be switching to the english dub????????

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo. #this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so. #not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :( #i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

[krikeymate]

In the “billy parents the girls” au, I wonder how Sam and Billy would react to Tara being attacked by ghostface? Like one overprotective and “slightly” unstable family member wasn’t enough.

Somebody knows.

That's his first thought. Maybe he should have known something would happen on the 20th anniversary. He never thought it would come back to him. After all, there was a 'Ghostface attack' just five years prior, and it was all about Sidney. Why wouldn't it continue to be all about Sidney? Billy's dead after all.

He should have moved out of Woodsboro. It's always been risky, staying. But this was his home, and by the time he'd given up entertaining the thought of revenge against Sidney, he'd put down roots. He'd thought about moving a few years ago, when the last attacks happened and the police started sniffing around for information, but the girls had friends here, and Sam's never quite treated him the same since she learnt the truth. She would never have agreed to leave.

So here he is, staring Deputy Judy Hicks right in the face, unrecognised. God these people must be stupid, to look him right in the eyes and still not see him. He manages to talk his way back into the house with a well-placed quip about the absence of their good Sheriff and a reminder that his 14-year-old daughter, her own son's friend, who was attacked, is going to need some comforts of home and her inhaler.

He pauses to take in the murder scene on the way. He memorises the pattern of blood soaked into the living room carpet, the outline of his little girl, the kitchen knife abandoned on the floor. His own knife. They used his own knife on his daughter. When he finds out who did this, he's going to make them pay.

He packs a bag, he packs Tara's essentials, a change of clothes for Sam and the teddy bear she denies sleeping with. He heads for his own room to get some things, and that's when he learns somebody really does know.

Because Billy is scrawled across his bedroom wall in red.

Red is all he sees.

#/mp #ask box #Billy Loomis #AU: the past in the present #the tags tag #I love making baby Tara be attacked. it's so tragic. #the urge to make Sidney Ghostface here is astronomical lmao #anyway what are the logistics of there being two Mr Carpenters in Woodsboro technically and both have been seen being a father to Sam? Idk. #Billy's like 'Christina had a type what can I say'. Her husband left because he discovered the truth and he got to step up. #God I have so many thoughts about where this could go now actually #Like say it WAS Sidney. Who couldn't take knowing Billy was out there still. After everything she just couldn't take it. #She was never going to kill the girl. She just wanted to injure her. Scare her. Get Billy's attention. #But the girl fought back with unexpected ferocity. Things got out of hand. Billy uncovers her in the end and finally gets his revenge. #Gale and Dewey are distraught. Gale investigates. She discovered the truth. Billy Loomis is alive. She reveals it to the world. #Billy finally gets arrested. Tara doesn't take the reveal well. #Sam is old enough to take custody of her sister. She does her best. It isn't good enough. They both spiral. #Just a few years later her sister gets attacked AGAIN. This time it's so much worse. #Her injuries are so much more severe and the perpetrators were people they loved. It wasn't even about Billy this time. #It was about some fucking movie. #Sam moves them to New York after that. But everyone knows who they are. The daughters of a serial killer. With a body count of their own. #There's just no escape.

[thiagodasilva]

trying not to self diagnose because that doesn’t really do much good but also spending years experiencing Symptoms and relating to people who actually have been diagnosed with the things I’m afraid I may or may not have

#this goes for both mental and physical things by the way #isn’t that fun lmao #but I go to the doctor and I’m like ‘yeah all good 😀’ #but being honest means going through more hell to get appointments and get people to listen to me but also means I have to talk and #make time for said appointments that feel impossible to get and it makes me more stressed than I already am #like my routine ultrasounds that I did for two years were hell on earth and I’m technically ‘fine’ #everything I wanted to be tested for is so much more difficult #I have health insurance again so maybe I should but also… #I don’t want to I’m tired and scared what the fuck #anyway!!!

[damnation-if]

cyberpunk organised crime ring espionage with sexy demons

lmao... something tells me they wouldn't quite fit together.

#what does the chaos mirror see #anon #time flows differently in the queue #forgive me for rambling in the tags here but. the rot Consumes me #when i say cyberpunk i guess it's technically scifi since it takes place on another planet #but in addition to loving d&d and vampire the masquerade i'm also a big fan of shadowrun #the premise is that mc is a corporate espionage agent who has to seduce their way into a gang of criminals annoying your corpo masters #the planet has a wild orbit that takes it far away from the sun and through an asteroid belt for roughly the half the year #it's a miserable time; there's no sunlight and transports can't land because of the asteroids so the planet is basically on its own #so all the rich people leave during that period and it basically becomes anarchy and chaos as everything turns to lawlessness when they go #until they clear the asteroid belt and the corps send in their private armies to re-establish order via gunfire #both the corps and the gangs know that you can make a hell of a lot of money during this period by doing standard shadowrun crime stuff #but one gang has really been cheesing your corp's onions and they don't know How so they send you to seduce your way in and find out #you pick one of the ROs as a likely mark in the prologue and then it skips forward almost a year to just before the planet goes dark again #so it's like. you still haven't figured it out but also you've been fake-dating this person for nearly a year #i just wanted to write something with. that kind of more complicated relationship dynamic of a longer-term relationship already in place #anyway naturally you get to decide in the end if you destroy the gang or betray your corporate masters lmfao #shadowrun *jazzhands* #i know i said i was keeping myself from pitching RO ideas but. one of them i already decided on is a butch lesbian with a shotgun #she's their driver and is covered in tattoos lmao #also there's a guy who's a spy from a Different corp #anyway yes. Sorry about this

[narwhalandchill]

ok for real tho i am genuinely so happy for jeans absolutely skyrocketing viability in our post-furina society like. she was my first 5* ever And somehow throughout the years ive managed to pull her c5 before even a single mona or diluc lmao. but ive genuinely had no realistic use whatsoever for her for so long it was kinda depressing. and then furina happens and shes just winning nonstop we love to see it 🥰

#like sure its tied to a single unit so its technically not as universal of a buff as keqing w dendro but. #its still soooo good how shes both an anemo and an incredibly cracked full team insta heal for fanfare like #ive been playing jean furina fischl yae tazer nonstop jdjsidkskd im so happy shes viable again #also uhhhhhh is it c2? thats her overworld sprint meta constellation #anyway. rhat one. very funny when u can just proc it randomly by slapping any animal w a fav wielder #so jean catches particles qnd entire team becomes sonic for a brief moment. furina speedwalking on water is double the convenience lmao #genshin #rambles

[unproduciblesmackdown]

truly further [2 sides same coin] of billions tragic failing of either quant's writing that the effective Demand that taylor & rian must have a very special dynamic is all about going "well i'm epic & you're epic" at every stage, which is nothing, while winston and taylor can never have a dynamic b/c he's so Not Epic, despite that he's more similar to taylor in any ways that actually matter or could mean anything, while also if rian was ever peers with winston / had a reciprocal dynamic there, maybe we'd Have to have had more of an actual character from that role, but instead once again [no] b/c he's so Not Epic. billions writing getting an award for [okay. tmc trifecta] as the only option heading into s6 & giving us Nothing instead

#fr the one arc left is winston being sick of it like alright i'm outta here #wherein it's time apparently for rian to draw on the apparent nonzero affection she thinks she has for all that that means anything.... #and oops it did nothing; she may as well have Again jumped in & volunteered info herself in the first place #and tbt rian could be indignant on lauren's behalf based on like 3 days of distant technical half coworkership #but Nothing re: taylor's participation in treating winston like that. nothing re: rian either. but you see....lauren was also epic #winston billions #when you're both Epic you're on the defensive about why you Don't date. except for when you're not! #like again so wendy thinks she & taylor were peers? why did They not have to explain why They didn't date? wendy being that cishet abt it? #we can't get an explanation for why rian would fuck That old man; just why it wasn't otherwise taylor specifically #this being the ''well it's how i'm So thoughtful abt things. & it's how i'm So Unthoughtful abt things'' In The Same Breath #like yeah yeah you dropped all pretense of [character: rian] for [young woman: inherently sexually available] like amazing #it was always like jesus christ but just increasingly dismal experience surveying the mess of nothingness & insults that was like. #again the Nothingness that was rian & pick your poison re: analyzing Power whether it's the ungodly thread of banging prince #or her casually being this general bully + personal abuser to her ''friend'' / coworker there & this is Completely Neutral to billions #perhaps Good! & there's just nothing else to the character. having her Not Leave also just further whittling away any sense of anything #again it's just like depressing lmao gotta get out of here #and as per usual the way that ripping off winston's character from getting to have focus; material; arcs; relationships etc just #impacts these other characters negatively too. rian's main traits having to be ''loves being a bully'' & ''presumed to have a vagina'' wow #billions doesn't even know abt the former which just makes it all the more amazing. taylor having ''nobody'' to talk to but rian for half #a season like WINSTON!! he was half their employees at that time & billions is still That resolute abt The Epics Vs The Losers #and being a Thee Epic is like [there's nothing there] like that was Really supposed to be rian's whole character & [there's nothing there] #the substance not in taylor going ''who's Epic like me'' but in who's Actually inherently intractibly offbeat & different & Knows This #embraces it works with it Has to embrace and work with it; suffers for it but thrives for it; is this secret weapon for it; can work w/You. #all the ways taylor had to water down talking abt themself to like wendy or axe or whomever tf....winston is right here #he's Understanding them & talking abt Them unprompted unguided just Getting It & Caring; doing 9000% better than these other Epic ppl.... #lord. it's just amazing they were really this committed to like well yeah the real binary that really matters. the cools & the nerds #they really were like oh we love winston sm....we Love to write 3x03 endlessly where he gets shitted on & we have so much fun seeing that #we could've at least had the Consequences of [winston deserved to throw hands] like fr. rian; taylor; wags; dollar bill; wags again

[leatherbookmark]

i'm barely a writer at this point so idk but ngl i'm kinda fascinated by people who raise the question of "if you normally don't like X, then why did you click on my fic in the first place, HMMM?". yknow, i mean, idk how other people do it, maybe it's just me, but i sorta author-jump? and sometimes an author i like has written something i usually don't enjoy, and sometimes i click out of pure curiosity. and when i don't like it, i click out, yeah, it's a nope for me! but when i do like or even adore it, i comment. positively. it's That Simple 4 me

#online existence is interesting in that you'd think some things are widespread but they really aren't #like i've internalized that It's Not About Me a good while ago. bitterly. so now seeing people go 'actually it's mean and hurtful to say #you dislike something i like very much' i go wuh? it's just someone stating their preferences? it's not about you? #again obviously it's the matter of phrasing because 'EW i HATE X lmao' =/= 'i don't really vibe with X' are both technically 'someone sayin #they dislike the thing i like' but cmon they're clearly not the same. it's just that when you talk about 'people saying they dislike' my #understanding is that people have said they dislike. not they they hate or that it fucking sucks. would i be hurt if someone said they #didn't like... idk. atz? no! it's their gotdamn right! in fact i would be interested in hearing out why because the way different people #perceive things is fascinating to me. but would i be hurt if someone said they HATED them with this particular tone of voice? #yeah. yeah i would. and i'd think this person must not really care about what others feel if they're so eager to loudly share the full #intensity of their opinions. but many such people are well-liked so it's none of my business in the end right.

[peapod20001]

mmgmgngngmgngggHbGGGRRRAAAAHH

Bro what if. What if I. What if. Hear me out, WHAT. if..... I made a mini choose your adventure sort of thing,, but used polls to let y’all pick options...

#random post #funnily enough. this is smth I’ve wanted to do for YEARS and it only just now dawned on me that I could use the polls feature #I’d have to get on my computer to use it but like <3 yea #also. y’all remember my ask blog? 😳 those poor characters on that account. I was in high school still when I updated it last </3 #ough... I was having trouble answering two asks I had so I ended up doing neither </3 ogh #I also abandoned Just Desserts. technically I could start that up again since I didn’t get far enough for it to matter #I’ve also thought about just redoing the whole thing. so it’s more cohesive and things make sense yknow #I ALSO have ideas for stupid fun oc Uquiz’s. one is guessing whether an oc is left or right handed #or both. and the other is guessing whether a certain character is wearing makeup. or if that’s just how their face looks #that second one would be fun and mildly aggravating I think. cus for a lot of my ocs you just cannot TELL #UNLESS I specify whether it’s makeup or not !! XD ahhh would be fun. I’d draw for it obviously. I’m not throwing y’all in blind lmao #anyways I talked about a lot of vaguely related things lol

[likeabxrdinflight]

I know the morality play of the Raphael/Atem duel gets...weird, a little bit. There's a bizarre emphasis on how Raphael believes it's selfish and wrong to carelessly send monsters to the graveyard and that gets played up in this duel, but...many, many previous duels have showed how sacrificing monsters and having them in the graveyard can be a good strategy, and work to one's advantage. It isn't always such a terrible thing. Atem using catapult turtle to win a duel is not exactly a new strategy for him, he's done it before, and it's far from the worst thing he's ever done if we consider season 0 canon. and yet the episode frames that as the big indicator of Atem "giving into darkness" which.........eh?

But. There is something deeper at play in this duel that goes far beyond how people treat their trading cards. The real problem here- and Yugi will spell this out later- is that Atem struggles a bit with empathy, but he especially struggles with it when his pride is on the line. This duel really had no stakes in it- Raphael tells him the professor is fine, and he states point blank he isn't going to use the Seal of Orichalcos- there is nothing to lose here.

But the two of them bet on their "sense of justice" at the start. To Atem, this is a very black and white morality. Atem's sense of justice tells him that Doma and any working with it are wrong (objectively true) and therefore anyone working with them is also evil (less objectively true). He can't quite see that the enemy in front of him might not be Bad with a capital B. Good is good, bad is bad, so if you're doing bad and working with bad- you're bad. Even if he respects you as an opponent. But what he can't really see is that Raphael is, fundamentally, a good person making bad choices because he's been hurt. Raphael basically spells it out for him, and he still can't see it.

So in many ways, this is the world view that Atem is betting on in this duel- Raphael is working with the organization that's trying to destroy the world, therefore he's evil, and Atem is good. And Atem has to be good, right? He's fought evil, he's won, he's not bad, he's not dark like the others who use milliennium items, he's not the "evil intelligence" Pegasus warned of in the manga and he definitely couldn't possibly have been an evil Pharaoh when he was alive...right?

And that's the other thing Atem can't admit, and it's what Raphael calls him out on most directly- Atem can't admit to his own darkness. He can't acknowledge the darkness in his heart, the potential for evil in everyone. Things have to be black and white for him, because if not...what is he? And it's so easy for Raphael to dig into this insecurity, it is so easy for him to make Atem doubt his own goodness- because he doesn't know who he was, does he? But he can't believe it, can't make himself believe he was a bad person before, and he definitely can't believe that he could be now. This is what's at stake for Atem during this game- it's his entire sense of self, really.

And this logic is actually deeply consistent with the earliest version of Atem- season 0/first manga arc Atem, and I'd argue, the morality play of this duel only really works when you consider that first arc/season 0. Stay with me now.

In season 0, Atem challenged "bad" people to shadow games with the intent that the game would decide who was right or wrong based on the outcome. The losers of his earliest shadow games usually lost because they couldn't follow the rules based on some character flaw. The games exposed their weaknesses and they paid the price for it. This was why he was always so confident- he was acting based on his sense of justice, and was absolutely certain in the correctness of his position (which, to be fair, was usually "save Yugi and/or his friends from literally dying), so...it wasn't necessarily an incorrect stance. Atem was doling out some pretty harsh penalty games, but he wasn't wrong about the flaws of these people he challenged.

What we never did was consider whether or not these people really deserved the punishments they were given. Did a high school bully really deserve to be tortured into insanity? Did an escaped criminal deserve to be burned alive? All justice, no empathy. But is that really justice at all? Now to be fair, with Yugi's influence Atem does calm down a lot over the course of season 0 and into Duel Monsters canon. He becomes a much better person. But we never exactly see him express remorse for the penalty games he inflicted, either. We never see him question his choices, or whether he was right or wrong.

Games are form of justice to him. To lose a game is to be in the wrong. He never lost, therefore, he was never wrong.

This inability to question his own beliefs and actions, to consider his own capacity for darkness, and to truly empathize with the person on the other side of the field, is what leads to him losing the test Raphael gives him. It is why he can justify playing the Seal himself- the methods don't matter to Atem in the moment- if he wins, he was right, he was good, and he's always been right and good, and that is all that matters because his sense of self is actually really fucking fragile if the outcome of a card game can shatter it- so he plays the Seal.

It reminds me of a quote from Avatar- "Pride is not the opposite of shame, but it's source." Atem is someone with an enormous amount of pride- and an equal amount of shame lingering just under the surface. Because I think that question Pegasus first posed to him- that question of evil- has been festering for a long time. I think Atem knows, deep down, that his early shadow games were wrong, they weren't that different from Pegasus or Marik or even Doma themselves- but he cannot go there with it, cannot let himself question it. I'll get into this more later, but Yugi will later tell him that in his doggedly stubborn sense of pride and honor, he can't hear others' pain or suffering. And I think this stubborn clinging to his sense of pride is a way of masking his own pain and suffering too, his own deeply felt shame- because Atem can't really hear that either.

Until he loses the game. Until he loses Yugi, and it shatters his pride completely, breaks him wide open.

#yugioh #atem #this is very rambly I hope it is coherent #...might have to make another post on how yugi and atem balance each other out because while yugi is an expert at the empathy thing #he sucks at the justice part #and ideally you want a bit of both #anyway #the writing is actually much better here than people give it credit for sorry if you watched the dub #anyways this is atem's best character arc by far and I'm so sad it's technically filler lol #...you could argue this slightly undercuts the earlier arc in duelist kingdom about him overcoming his fear of losing #but it's not really the same thing imho #this is less about the fear of losing his pride for pride's own sake #it's more about the fear that losing means he's been wrong all this time about who he is #more about the fear that he's not a good person after all #which again I think makes more sense if you consider season 0 #so in that context #atem regressing a bit makes sense to me #anyways this is long I just have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this character lmao

[todayisafridaynight]

I may just be delirious but I kind of feel like there's something there about some of the most traumatic events in Arakawa's life arguably stemming from/being made worse by being loved too much.

Like, Toshio's death, right. The death of a parent is always always going to be traumatic, particularly when your other parent is abusive, but I feel like being there, being the first to the scene, made it so much worse. Especially when it should've been a good memory.

Non-zero chance I'm just projecting because I was there for my own father's death and I was around Arakawa's age at the time, but it's like... it did have very specific life-long effects, didn't it... the way he keeps coming back to Peking duck and talks about it like he's had it before when he can't even bring himself to eat it unless he's with family (and indeed, never did, up until right before he died)...

And then there's his former patriarch. Of course, he seemed to see Arakawa as more of an object--fully under his control and something to be thrown away at the first sign of autonomy. But I feel like, before then, Arakawa must've been his "favorite," if he was willing to arrange a marriage between his daughter and Arakawa. Which I expect is what made his reaction when Arakawa told him he was (technically) having an affair with Akane and wanted out of the family that extreme in going as far as to send men after Akane and Ichiban.

The last one I can immediately think of is not exactly traumatic for him, though it is traumatic For Me so I'm counting it, but it's of course what we were talking about with Jo hesitating so much at the thought of killing Arakawa that he passed up the chance to save him.

I Dunno I Am Delirious but... there's a pattern somewhere in there... Anyway. Uh. "Happy" Father's Day am I right

happy fathers day :]]]]

#snap chats #I HAVE NOTES DOWN HERE AS ALWAYS I PROMISE JUST. no better way to cap off a post with a smile :) #plus yk. i dont have any major notes to add thats not restating but i do enjoy Restating so in the tags we go #also ngl im a lil tired so if im gonna look right silly cause my brains functioning like a bowl of cereal ill do it down here as per usual #totally waited to answer this when its technically fathers day my time and i didnt just stare at a wall #listen if someone has a proejcting problem its me alright. its ok if someone else has a turn at it esp when its within fair grounds 🥴 #in any case Yeah.. everyone loves patterns ones a coincidence two's a pattern three should incite murderous intent #i definitely wouldnt call it delirious thinking Thats My Job right LMAO #in all seriousness the importance of at least one positive adult figure in a trouble child's life cannot be understated #im pretty sure i talked bout that already so i wont give the whole lecture again LMAO #in any case its not unreasonable to want to assert love being a theme with arakawa- if not a detriment in some way #it was arakawas intense love for akane that inadvertently fractures their family to be #it was arakawas love for masato that didnt allow him to be harder on him when he should have been and caused both their eventual downfalls #and of course- as mentioned- while not a result of arakawa's own feelings #it was ultimately jo's. //vague hand gesturing// towards arakawa that stopped him from killing him outright #yet jo's love for masato that didnt allow him to lie and go directly behind his back #so yeah love just. works against arakawa unfortunately. an especially sad thing for a troubled child #because as a troubled child that's all you ever really want isnt it- to love and to be loved without worry #so its a cruel irony in that despite arakawa's childhood and general growing-up it didnt stop him from trying to love his family #it makes me wanna throw up (depressed) #in any case i have to stay up a little longer so i can steal water for later SO im gonna be up to uhhhh idk :) Stare At My Wall

[bullseyelover]

Q: When you get the role, what were your impressions of Benjamin Poindexter before you had to live in his skin and peel back those layers?

A: Well, obviously, there’s a pretty big mythology around this character. So, you can’t ignore ignore that. That said, Erik Oleson, the showrunner, he had something pretty close to a carte blanche in developing a backstory and really developing a more intimate and intricate psychology for the character. You have a certain version of the character that exists in the comic book, but I’d like to think you get a really more fleshed out version. You’re getting to really spend some time with him this season on the show and hopefully in future seasons. So, I think part of the excitement for me was really getting to learn about him as I read more scripts. And of course as an actor, that just enriches just a bigger understanding of what his motivations are and where he’s going — what his arc is. I think part of what makes the character so cool is that when you meet him, he’s a troubled guy clearly, but he’s also good guy. He’s on the right side of the law, and he’s fighting the good fight. He’s working with the FBI, and for all intents and purposes, he’s a hero. What this season charts is his being pulled from a better nature into a darker nature, and Wilson Fisk is a big part of that.

Wilson Bethel for 411 Mania

#fuck he understands the character so well #which would be expected considering he is literally the actor LMAO but nonetheless he did so much justice to bulls and he wasn’t #even fully bullseye yet #having a version of bullseye who was technically a good guy (albiet a troubled one) who THEN becomes someone akin to his comic book version #is so so so so fucking cool #really crossing my fingers that he returns in echo or born again (hopefully both) so he can fully portray the character #by the time echo comes out it’ll be around the 47th anniversary of his first appearance #yes it is sad that netflix bulls never fully happened it would’ve been magnificent but i just need him back #benjamin poindexter #bullseye #daredevil #wilson bethel #interview

[thesmokinpossum]

Just saw a video of a short man throwing a fit in a bagel shop about how nobody wants to date short men (because it's somehow the fault of the girls working at the bagel shop I guess?), being loud, agressive and generally a pure asshole. Well, all the comments were about how this poor poor poor guy was probably bullied sooooo bad and how bad they feel for him so like...Are we ready to admit that the whole Karen thing is 99% misogyny and only marginally related to bad customer behaviors or are we still in denial about that shit?

#i hope this man never get pussy again and die alone and miserable #you know what kind of comments a fat women complaining about people not wanting to date her woud have gotten you know it #the way we coddle and baby grown ass men is so fucking pathetic smdh #and when i say 'we' i mean this society not me as a person #you know i'm not about this lifestyle lmao #btw if you're about to tell me that karen is about the way white women use their racial privileges to terrorize black workers... #you're technically correct but it has stopped meaning that a long time ago #which is why you can super easily find shits like 'gettho black karen freak outs compilations' on yt #it's just misogyny at this point and it has been for a long while #i mean those ones are both racist and misogynistic but you get my point

[croakings]

SO. sorry this is going to be deranged i'm not proofreading this

so i've been writing a lot recently, and this particular project involves a language and culture i'm making up. and it's got me thinking about language, and communication, and lying.

and this is probably a very autistic realization, but it's hit me that usually when people lie, what they are trying to convey— and like, we're ignoring the ethics of it, this post is devoid of judgement one way or another, i'm just examining this thought— is a request for an emotional response from someone that the truth is less or unlikely to get across as effectively or as easily.

like, normal example, totally excusable: "my wife is in the hospital," when it's your girlfriend in the hospital. factually untrue! but what one wants people to hear is "someone i love and want to spend the rest of my life with is in dire straits and therefore so am i, please excuse anything in my behavior that may be caused by this," essentially. or like you can swap wife/girlfriend with sibling/best friend or aunt/neighbor or whatever. what you're trying to get across is the magnitude of the relationship rather than communicating the nature of the relationship itself.

we have words for that! like, yes, it's lying to use the wrong words, technically, to "trick" someone into understanding how close whatever given person is to you, and how much their condition is affecting you, but! also, i do have to say, in that particular instance i do have to say that, the primary goal of language being communication...... it's interesting! the facts are untrue. but the gravity of the circumstance was conveyed clearly with intention, which is to say, the emotional impact was increased by sacrificing literal clarity. this is basically what hyperbole does!!!!

most lying does that, doesn't it? most lies that i can think of are in some way in service to emotion above like, anything else. someone wanting to spare themselves someone else's emotion ("i'm fine", "i didn't do that", "i don't want this, you take it") and this is....... in a way, strictly speaking, effective communication. it's. hm.

like, for the record, i'm not pro-lying, and also, to reiterate, it's also ineffective communication, because it's factually untrue, which means again that however much an aim was achieved or a meaning conveyed you do it at the expense of one whole half of the venture. but it's interesting, isn't it? how much lying is usually angling for a specific impact, or to gain some form of ease and/or expediency.

i feel like i'm probably getting this across poorly which is also like, really funny, but what prompted this is like......... language is an imperfect tool! we know this. speaking (or whatever) is always an act of translation, and in translation something is always lost. like, even if that thing is only time. one is never able to express anything exactly as quickly as the original; thoughts take time to parcel up and deliver, or come out poorly if not mangled if at all recognizably. when going from one literal language to another, you have to decide whether you want to be more accurate literally, in impact, or in delivery, so respectively and with the simplest example you have to decide if when you translate an idiom you do so verbatim, or with an equivalent, and then whether or not you explain your choice and/or its value. because like, in an unattainable "perfect" translation, you could communicate both the meaning and the trappings of its delivery seamlessly and simply in about the same space as it was originally given more or less immediately. instead, because we can't do that, you can sacrifice to some degree either the original words, their original impact, or the original delivery, by again respectively changing the words altogether, losing the impact (generally also altogether), or losing the directness/straight forward nature of the communication by inserting an info blurb. and of course any kind of translation needs some extra degree of time, even just in its delivery. you lose things! you have to decide which things are most valuable to you to allow you to be "truest". like, which part of any given sentence is most important ? it varies, right? and sometimes one can affect another, like, what if brevity is important to the impact? or conversely, what if something specific has to be communicated in a long-winded and round about way to have the same impact, but it's tricky to manage doing so without losing the clarity? what do you sacrifice? the meaning, the impact, or the delivery? does that make sense? and you're probably always going to lose time.

so, lying!!!!! it's sacrificing meaning for the other two, is what i was trying to say earlier. it's an imperfect translation!!!!! in one sense!!! but it is a translation!!!!! isn't that interesting?? actually no, sorry, most ethically speaking it's 2 sacrifices; meaning and delivery. like, as i kept saying, the facts are untrue (meaning), and at some point for the sake of clarity it'll be necessary to be like "oh no, sorry, actually it was [the factual truth], i just said [x] because [some form of expected expediency/ease], [explanation of that choice]." (<- delivery.) but y’know with lying with ill intentions you do get to skip that part, and in that case the lack of correcting by revisiting/extending the delivery is part of the communication, whereby you are implicitly saying something like "fuck you, also". or possibly "fuck me," idk, lying can contain multitudes. which!!!!!!!! isn't that interesting??? talking!!!!!!!!!!!! communication!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how and why and in what ways we say things........... the choices we make and the reasons we make those choices....... the sacrifices that are and are not acceptable to make, and in which contexts, in order to come across as you intend to...........

idk i'm just turning this around like a shiny rock in my hands. like, also, i do know that lying is done with the intent to deceive, and also that lying (derogatory) is done maliciously, with either the intent to harm or at least a lack of intent of care, but. hm. isn't it interesting, what you can learn when you look at how people lie, and how those things can change based on why you think they were lying? they still communicated effectively!!!!!!! they did it on purpose!!!!!!!!!!!!! they made those choices for a reason. that still..... tells something!!!!

even imperfect communication can, in its flaws, tell us something!!!!!!!! does someone sacrifice time, meaning, impact, delivery? why? in what contexts? with intent? for what purpose? isn't it interesting????????????????

#* #chatter #specifically what i've been working on is ftmob is why this happened #and something ehir does a lot (both as someone whose first language no one else speaks and as someone who wants to say as little as possible #at any given time) is he just. arbitrarily uses words he understands to be taken as the vague equivalnces of what he means instead of #entirely accurately conveying what he wants to say. which. not........ that is not lying! #it's sacrificing clarity and muddying impact for the sake of time and delivery‚ which is definitely not lying. but it does mean that a not #insignificant portion of what he says isn't like............... true. lmao. and he does know that!! #which. just to say. it got me thinking about lying isn't like. JUST saying things that aren't true. bc we say untrue things all the time‚ #for impact‚ usually‚ but also usually in those cases again you still don't lose Clarity (generally) #but lack of clarity is also not lying. like. strictly. lying is for IMPACT. usually. or sometimes Lack of impact #people say things that aren't true all the time for various reasons. and those reasons...... are interesting!! aren't they? #and isn't lying interesting???? ftmob isn't the kind of fantasy that has fairies but IF IT WERE #what is the ESSENTIAL component that a makes a fairy-lie untellable? #it is NOT the intent to deceive. universally it's accepted that fairies Can very much trick you. on purpose! #they're free to mess with impact. they can even very deliberately fuck with clarity‚ tbh‚ except in the very strictest of senses #ALL they have to say is something that (they think) is FACTUALLY true. and like. why??? #ik another fact of fairies is they don't have a soul (whatever that means if anything) and often this is depicted also as having the #consequence that they lack imagination or the ability to (independently) create‚ so..... what does that mean for COMMUNICATION? #language is complicated!!!!!!! doing the kinds of mental contortions that let you convey something untrue while only technically speaking #factually is NOT simple. that's like. an art‚ in a way! using what's there to makes someone see what isn't!!! why can they do that?? #they're allowed an imperfect translation. again‚ artfully and intentionally imperfect‚ even!! #they've gotta have fucked up brains in there that's all i'm sayin. that they can have imagination enough for the Product but not its Parts. #that's interesting!!!!!!!!!!! i don't think i've ever seen anyone quite make a point of/with that. #that's a tangeant for another day tbh #ig i'll also slap this w #ftmob #anyway #just rambling. i love writing. i love language. i love people. i love how people CHOOSE things............ #i love making those choices........ communication is so interesting. that's all send tweet.

[onedirecton]

this new naruto opening fucks!!!

#naruto blogging #it looks so coooool #but my question is what the point. of this madara vs hashirama fight if they’re both technically #immortal you know? #like I get it it’s eternal beef between the two of them but how will this end lmao will just die again