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raksh-writes · 2 months

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Welp, today's the day I finally stepped on a scale after, like, I dunno, years probably? Aaaanndd well... that was a number I haven’t seen there before xd Which is both good and bad.

Bad because I gained a few kgs since the last time and apparently went over the healthy bmi and body fat amount (not by a lot, but like around 1,5 each), if the online calculators are to be believed, but it's also good in the sense this might finally give me enough motivation to kick myself in the ass and start moving goddammit.

I've already been trying to do some light exercises a couple times a week but maybe this will help me up the ante + I have, for the first time in my life, decided to try and count my calories intake. Which is... weird, lmao, but also interesting? I haven’t been eating a lot, tbh, and pretty much no sweets or snacking, I kinda grew out of it? So I guess most of my added weight comes from lack of exercise and maaaybe hormone changes. Ive been on and off the pill several times during the last year-two, currently off for a couple of months, so I think that could’ve thrown my body into alarm mode of gathering fat "just in case".

With the calories intake counting, Im mainly curious to see how much I get in the day when I eat as I normally do and if there's a reason for the weight gain somewhere in there. Like today Im already after dinner and I'll probably only make myself a light supper and won’t even meet the amount the app Im using calculated for me to lose the weight I want (5 kg for now to get back to the healthy bmi scale), so that's very interesting and Im wondering if maybe Im eating less on some days but more on others and that's also making my body "put away" the extra? I don’t actually know how all of this works, so Im just making guesses right now.

And the exercise part, ooof. It didn’t use to be so hard, goodness grace, Im Really out of shape. Tho, I guess the added kgs are impacting me too. Im starting slow, mostly stretching + some squats, some shorter video exercises, the kind. I know it'd probably help to make a regime, but that's only gonna make me miserable, so for now Im setting myself a goal of just Doing Something everyday and whenever I feel stronger, I'll just do more on the day. Otherwise the pressure I put on myself might kill any fun or motivation Id have.

This is pretty much just my personal rambling, which I might turn into a bit of a diary to help myself keep track and all (its weirdly easier to just type up a tumblr post than open up a notebook and write it down? Huh...), so like if anyone got through this whole post, damn, thank you, I guess, hah. If you have any tips, I'd be glad to read them! ^^

Let's see how long this bout of motivation lasts me 😂🙈

#personal #Raksh posts #starting a weight loss journey I guess??#tho those are some big words oof #but yeah I do wanna try and lose some weight #see how my eating habits look rn and try to improve them going further #try and exercise more too #Ive already did around an hour today #mostly stretching plus some weight exercises like squats and big for the arms #I might try some more stretchinf in the eveninf #I know these are very light effort but Im telling myself I gotta start somewhere #little baby steps!#I do need a tag for this hmmm #Rakshs weighty ramblings #alright that'll do for now #feel free to block the tag!#I might make these posts more regular who knows!#gotta try and make myself consistent or something 😅#and now I think Im gonna reward myself with some gaming ^^

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mrfoox · 11 months

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Ok I've touched on this before but like.... Ive noticed since losing weight... Ive gotten more positive attention from men especially and im like 🙃

#miranda talking shit #At one hand yay attention but also.... No one likes me if im fat lmao #Ive had randoms call me cheesy shit like... When i bought a drink the guy at the counter came to my table #And bowed and said 'heres your drink m'lady' i was speechless like wtf uh thanks?!#Im so used being seen as.... Less feminine and more 'capable' i guess?#Since started my weight-loss journey men will hold doors for me more and just ... Yeah .#Not that im getting ton of attention but i went from zero to like 2 which is wild...#Guys are doing things for me now and jm like... Um yoi sure?🥺#Like a huge guy at work will take care of big boxes for me or hold doors and shit and im like are you sure?#And he just says 'yes im strong' i know but goddamn....#I dont see myself as skinny or pretty i still have like 10 extra kg and overall dont have a pretty face or anything #But.... Its so wild.... Men have never looked at me or done things for me unless they were old men who's just polite....

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littlebiggirl2 · 7 months

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Will start doing only fans again! Weight loss journey not going well. Guess I was destined to become a hog. I uploaded one quick video but more to come!

#fat belly #fat piggy #fatty #feed me #weight gain #morbidly obese #fattening up #feedisim

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doumadono · 5 months

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Hey, this is my first ever write-in or whatever, and i’ve recently stumbled upon your writing and I really love the way you write all the characters. I’m not good with words, but I lost my best friend 2 years ago unexpectedly and while i’ve been trying to cope this entire time, i’m having a really hard time recently as i’m kind of at a really low point in my life right now, and he was my rock for many years. It’s extremely difficult and sometimes downright debilitating lmfao especially with the holiday season, and I don’t have anyone I’m close to in my life who’s ever really experienced something like this. I guess I’m just in need of a little boost aside from therapy. Was wondering if I could request some comfort or words of encouragement from either bf Deku or bf Dabi? You do not have to do both. This is such a sweet thing for you to do for people and I hope you know you’re awesome for that 💜 Thank you so much in advance.

Dabi & s/o in mourning - headcanons

A/N: I'm truly sorry to hear about the loss of your best friend. It's completely understandable that coping, especially during the holiday season, can be incredibly challenging (I went through the same after losing my best friend almost 10 years ago, and trust me or not but even after all those years it's hard to cope with the loss) Remember, healing is a journey, and taking it one step at a time is more than okay. If you ever need to talk or just want some company, I'm here for you.

EMERGENCY REQS MASTERLIST

Dabi, understanding the weight of your loss, is not one for many words. He silently observes your struggles, providing a constant presence without the need for constant conversation.

Dabi, not one for sugar-coating, acknowledges the harshness of reality. "Life can be a real pain, but facing it head-on is a strength, not a weakness."

When the grief becomes overwhelming, Dabi has a way of offering comfort with a simple touch — be it a hand on your shoulder or a gentle embrace. During a particularly tough moment, he places a comforting hand on your back. "Take your time." Dabi might lightly trace patterns on your hand as well.

Dabi takes note of the small things that bring you comfort — a favorite snack, a warm blanket — and makes sure they're there when you need them. "Figured you might need a little pick-me-up today."

"Loss hits hard. It's alright to let it out, even if it's in the dead of the night. We're both a little broken, but we're surviving. Together."

Dabi notices when you start avoiding certain places. "We can steer clear of there if you want. No need to face it alone."

"It's alright to have those moments. Just know I'm here, no matter what."

On nights when sleep seems impossible, Dabi holds you close, being the big spoon, using his Quirk to warm himself up a tiny bit to provide you with some much-needed warmth. "Shhh-shhh. Close your eyes and try to rest."

Dabi takes you to a peaceful spot in nature, after the sunset. "Sometimes, a change of scenery can ease the burden. Let's find solace in this walk. The evening air can be surprisingly calming."

Dabi proposes a symbolic act of letting go. "Write down what weighs on you, and let's burn it. A metaphorical cleansing by the flames, you know?"

#emergency request #dabi boku no hero academia #bnha dabi #dabi fluff #dabi x reader fluff #dabi x y/n #dabi x reader #touya todoroki #dabi is touya #dabi my hero academia #mha fluff #bnha fluff #my hero academia dabi #mha dabi #mha x reader #mha x you #dabi headcanons

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muzzleroars · 10 months

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I am obsessed with this acended v1 idea now, a fallen angel and an acended machine!!! Please I want more thoughts on this I’m begging you

(see this!)

I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THEM TOO....i've of course talked about them a bit here, here, and here, BUT this lets me sort of give some miscellaneous thoughts i couldn't fit into those other asks!! of course i'm still formulating this part of the au so things are probably...very subject to change but they're on my mind in a big way....

first is the time gap that sort of happens here, with v1 taking years for gabriel to revive - he departs from hell a few days after its death, but ascending mount purgatory is difficult for a fallen angel, especially as he moves higher and higher. everything becomes more oppressive, his feet growing increasingly heavy as v1's body eventually feels like a lead weight in his arms. crossing lethe is treacherous as such - if he touches its waters, every memory will be wiped from his mind in an instant, and so he's required to leap from one bank to the other (assisted minimally by wings he hasn't taken out in years). and on the other end of eden, its sister eunoe threatens to burn him away (all sin is meant to be forgotten in this river, which would likely be highly detrimental to a fallen angel). so he vaults again, yet this journey was the easy one - he has all of heaven to traverse now, unable to teleport, unable to fly, but still finding some way to move between the spheres.

SO LIKE. THE GAME I GUESS BUT WITH GABRIEL IN HEAVEN KIND OF. he doesn't kill nearly as many angels as v1 does everything in hell, doing everything he in his power to threaten and scare them off rather than engage them for his sake and theirs. gabriel still cares for his old home, harboring no grudges for the people he once deeply loved and would have defended to his own death. yet he won't be stopped, he will kill if it comes down to it, and despite his exhaustion, despite an entire heaven hostile toward his very being, he's only grown stronger as they've become weaker. and so his travels take far more time than v1's descent, yet to find what he's looking for is what truly counts the years - gabriel walks through a ruined, broken heaven, a world no angels have touched since god disappeared, his vast kingdom crumbing outside the small inhabited islands. this is particularly true in the ninth sphere, yet gabriel goes alone into its unknown reaches to find what he needs...and eventually, likely in part following the lead of the other archangels, the others only let him go, let him search. fighting him is no longer worth it, not with the loss of life it incurs, and they see he truly means them no harm if he can help it.

and since those other asks covered the in-between here, risen v1 ideas!!! honestly, if v1 were to receive gabriel's light, it would be surprised how similar this still feels to being a machine - it's no wonder they understood each other so well. it is much better at recognizing emotion in itself and others, and art finally comes much easier for it, but otherwise its major adjustments are more how the divine interacts with the mechanical. v1 can now imbue things with light too, much like the ferryman's cloth but MUCH more powerful. v1's definitely already been given to playing with hell mass, but it absolutely panics when it does so, the same as it always has...and then it starts walking around!!!! it's alive!!!! it blasts it, instantly, but then it happens again and again and!!!!!! gabriel comes home one day to find a bunch of weird....bugs???? running around as v1 sits there in the middle of the floor, shaping yet another little creature in its hands for experimental replication purposes. the rest of the day is spent reckoning with v1's ability to grant life and gabriel stressing the GREAT responsibility of that - he is firmly against hell mass pets while v1 wants to make spore in real life.

in the same vein, there is simply a period where v1 is incredibly destructive. it always has been, naturally, but this is much less controlled, running loose with its new abilities and hurting itself quite severely more than once. there are times the power stresses its body to breaking point as v1 overuses it, leading to break downs that bring back a lot of bad memories for gabriel. however, on the flipside, their sparring matches are absolutely on another level for both of them now - v1 learns gabriel's old tricks, teleporting and using the light to construct any weapon it wants (it's VERY creative there lol) while gabriel is now a demon that could easily rival lucifer in his raw power and command of hell energy. they both feel a new burn fighting one another, something in their natures now antithetical to another; v1 feels the sullied corruption of a fallen angel's claws while gabriel's frozen body is electrified with molten gold every time he's struck by v1's light. and they're both absolutely wild for it lol after all this time, a new, almost forbidden dimension has been added to their battles and their love. ghosts of those feelings inhabit every touch as well, like a lingering threat for both of them for some time, and they both delight in it. they've got to be careful overdoing things for a bit because of it lol

#really im mostly thinking about v1 making spore miniatures #it's going to create a new hell ecosystem #consisting entirely of fucked up little guys #releasing them in the layers it thinks they'll like the most #while gabriel is like STOP. STOP IT!!!!#cake answers #v1 #fallen gabriel #rise and fall au

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mercurialic · 2 months

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*mario voice* itsa’ me, theo! i present to you a concoction of rambles dedicated to house yoon’s youngest successor, yoon ryeol. feel free to like annnnd i’ll come running your way to plot!

overview

yoon ryeol: youngest appointed to the vassal house, yoon. son of skillful artisans and antiquarians before his time. he is the last known nephew of the avatar, yuha.

a competent firebender. at least, to his knowledge. neither a prodigy or an inadequate wielder of his craft. at best, a proficient skill master. is currently pre-occupied with other habitual doings, as reaching near expertise-level isn’t of interest…. yet. 🤔 (?)

politics! known to be unbearably outspoken about his political alliance with house ozaki. never a blind follower of tepid leaders, of course not, but one must criticize its government against all that is unjust! house yi is dictated by an underdeveloped, young and cruel empire unfit for rule (to Him). thus, ryeol resents his aunt for assisting in yi sado’s succession.

remains indifferent (although positively-leaning) about his family’s business exporting/importing art and religious valuables. displays a lacking interest in pursuing related careers. instead, has taken an adventurous and theory-seeking journey with physics, which, came to be as a result of being a firebender.

(assumed) public image: the fool, the nut case, the outlier, the idiot, haphazard mad scientist and physicist in training. ryeol’s outwardly dedication to the fire nation’s past sociopolitical affairs is none other than dismissed as “stay-out-of-grown-folks-business, kid!”. he’s got a backbone and a voice so it’s up to him to use it, with his proximity to higher society for the disadvantaged!

background tw / fatshaming, emotional neglect

when lady yoon was informed that she had a bun in the oven, it was likely that confusion washed over her. like. whatdoyoumeani’mpregnantwithmyfourthkid. hence, ryeol being a mistake baby — neither planned or wanted. he was just there, slowly clawing into existence and, so, that was how he was born. no celebrations, no tears of joy — just, y’know, great. another yoon baby, i guess. a boy at that, too. now what? ohrightwe’retheyoonswealwayshaveresourcesforchildrearing. nowimagineifweweredestitute, oops! haha!

anywho! ryeol was a robust and a chunky kid. it threw both of his parents off, having been a chubby infant, toddler, and child well into his adolescence. you can call the excessive baby fat cute, or you can call him a tub of lard; either way, the kid has a thyroid problem (the culprit of being overweight all throughout childhood) which sends him in and out of healers all throughout his life. however, this hasn’t stopped him from frolicking and running around yuha island untiiiiiiil he gets shipped off to the royal fire nation academy.

during his time at the academy he hones both military-based combat and later, firebending. moreover, ryeol’s firebending manifested much later in life (mid to late teens, i think?) which lead to his family putting him somewhat.. on the back burner. and, well, being an annoyance (or chronically misunderstood? more about that below) for a child growing up in the court as well, but, that’s a whole other ordeal. lord and lady yoon have greater and more adept children to pay attention to, and it sure as hell isn’t yoon ryeol. at some point, he’s left to raise himself. he feels pathetic, the situation’s pathetic; you’re allowed to feel sorry for him. even if he knew from the start, his existence is a foil.

so, he did just enough to keep his performance afloat, was far from an ambitious overachiever, but never stooped so low to be behind his peers. training lead to a gradual weight loss for his thyroid health as advised by the healers, not for visual aesthetics. one’s appearance is a form of social capital/currency even in the era of yuha, so it’s very unfortunate that ryeol in his adulthood is receptive of sudden benefits because he looks a certain way (still has a whopping of low self-esteem insecurities tho). the benefits were there to begin with as a young lord to the house yoon, but… you know where i’m getting at.

by the time culmination season comes around, the newly gifted firebender no longer wanted to pursue the military. continuing the family business in art/historical/religious valuable as trade wasn’t his vibe either. rather.. the hypothesized and the unknown intrigues him! researching and dwelling into natural sciences concerning matter! energy and forces! motions and theoretical physics has never appealed to him more than ever — all thanks to his own subatomic findings — referring to firebending (wip: about how the hell that came to be btw)!!

hence! the young lord’s time dwelling from island to island, port to port, and city to city upon his personal journey for discoveries. ryeol wouldn’t have been a nomad if it weren’t for his observations, i can assure you. that is, after pursuing secondary education by studying (umbrella termed) natural sciences. then, narrowing down his education onto a focus of physics. however, ryeol’s academic wanderings are so far off, he’s even contemplating the universe and its laws (is the sun the center of the universe in year 62? beat u to it, galileo galilei!) — that he doesn’t know if or how he wants to narrow his analyzations… will he, or will he not? that is the question!

attributes, characteristics, philosophies

yoon ryeol can’t focus on a single task for too long. he buffers responses in his head when having formal, back-to-back conversations. his mannerisms is almost as though he’s replicating what it’s like to be human for the first time. social cues? he misses them. hyperboles? he takes them word for word — literally. he has organizational troubles, despises certain textures, and does not hate routine. yoon ryeol is on the spectrum (linked to his thyroid disease), but neurodivergent/autistic intricacies has not been recorded in medical scrolls. or if it has.. then it’s highly unspecified? — so nobody really knows what the hell is going on. that’s just his brain! he doesn’t know where he’s going and sometimes that’s alright! (i’m sure modern day historians and cognitive psychologists would LOVE you ryeol!)

a lifelong learner: this isn’t equated strictly to the world of academics! ryeol is a lifelong learner and pupil in every way possible. from what he could absorb emotionally, spiritually, and intellectually — whether about the lives of people, past civilizations, how artistry came to be, or the *jaden smith voice* socioeconomic state of the world, you name it!

although in my stats page for ryeol mentions his introverted mbti, i’d like to come out now and say that he’s a proud ambivert. takes him awhile to want to approach strangers, but, once that threshold of apprehension has been knocked down after revealing that he’s a weirdo.. then you’ve got a professional yapper in him! i’m afraid at his core, he truly loves to yap. you’re talking about one thing and he’s bringing up the next. like, okay. honestly. i’m not even gonna hold yall to it — bro do be stupid and acting thoughtlessly, so! that is that. you have been warned. he means well tho.

intensely unamused by his family’s generational wealth. ryeol is a little embarrassed that the yoons rose to riches as merchants, which is predominantly their entire estate — all business and networking. point is, ryeol feels like his nobility (or the importance of) could be denounced, in comparison to other noteworthy houses, if it weren’t without the wealth. he doesn’t have to fight for anything, material wise, or desire much for it to just come crashing onto his lap. you would think this would spoil him, but it bores ryeol to know he’s lived a life without the need to earn. i suppose this is why he’s ridiculously frugal, not that he doesn’t enjoy nice things, but… sometimes nice things don’t serve him much purpose. wealth does answer to financial stability, though. that, he likes. perhaps yoon ryeol is a hypocrite in his own right.

can’t keep a straight face: whether trying to bite down on a smile in an inappropriate situation (routinely has done this in the court as a boy growing up — he even laughed once, too) or be visually void of emotions. that being said, yoon ryeol has an innate partiality for mischief! he doesn’t listen to his elders, siblings, and ends up paying the price for his foolishness. and trust me, he’s paid the consequences for it all his life, and will continue to. from petty court doings to bickering and banter, it’s no wonder he is house yoon’s most reprimanded.

in dostoevsky’s terms, father of “the idiot” (myshkin you will always be famous — can you tell i’ve picked up some inspo?): yoon ryeol has to fuck around and find out. one way or the other, somehow; it’s in his blood! that’s probably why he’s so dedicated to his scientific findings which is essentially all about.. fucking around and finding out, tbh. the greatest discoveries are born from mistakes. errors. trial and errors!

possible connections

fair warning that i’m quite a plot heavy person so despite the general connections below, i’d love to flesh them out to the best of my ability!

general: best friend/confidant, childhood friends (have they parted? or stayed within each other’s circle?), enemies turned acquaintanceship, sparring partners, combat instructor, a wonky situationship, former classmates, an ex, someone that he absolutely despises because you’re entitled to your wrong political opinion.

1a. fellow nomads? travelers? educators? wanderers? where are you all? in search of someone even remotely interested in ryeol’s purposeful academic findings who embark on his journey all across yuha island and/or otherwise, gather! maybe he bribed you for a specific reason (utp upon plotting) or your muse joined out of their own accord.. will they get caught outside of grounds? will they not? either way, we’re heading west! or south!

2b. your muse is under the impression that ryeol has a crush on them. i mean, the signs seem like so? he always finds his way to be around you, he wants to share his endeavors and every little thought that passes his brain with you — surely, it seems like it, no? not quite. you’ve just created a safe space for him to not have to mask with 98.6% of the people he’s met because he thinks highly of you! oh, shit, you thought he wanted you — ? sorry! unless?

3c. ?? more to come .. or so that i hope ?? 😵‍💫

#rs.intro #let him cook now

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bakumanfaces · 3 days

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You know what I'm gonna toot my own horn once again.

So my phone gave me a memory of the last picture of myself before I started my weight loss journey.

I never really felt like I wanted to do a before and after for this but the change is so drastic I just have to share.

So let's get this over with.

I give you May 4th, 2023 me...

That guy was 255-260lbs. I wasn't even planning to do anything at this point. That didn't start for another 5 days. I do remember hating seeing this so it maybe started the engines on the whole thing. The only reason this picture exists is because I told my sister I got a haircut and got rid of the beard and she wanted to see.

And you wanna see the last picture of me from last week.

Now this guy, with the last weight in was 170lbs. Like who IS that dashing gentleman?!?

Like I'm still working on my confidence, like I like what I see I just gotta make myself believe that that is actually me.

I hit my goal of 180 back in February but I like the diet I have so I just kept at it and bam now I'm here. I guess I can afford to lax even more.

Just thinking of what I ate before makes me cringe a bit, my diet was atrocious.

But I'm so proud of myself and now the journey is to see if I can maintain. Which I don't see that being an issue. Let's go.

#my face #weight loss #I've better a lot of other things about myself i think too #like i actually want to make myself look good and enjoy it #before i have zero shits #even negative shits if you would #even just talking big about myself still feels weird #but i need to do it to build confidence #so deal

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novafire-is-thinking · 11 months

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Same anon concerning Dratchet—

I get what you're saying a bit more, except my big counter would be:

How much of a main cast member is Drift, though? 🤔

He has a lot of presence when he's around, but if you look at the numbers... he's actually entirely missing for half the series (40/82 issues for MTMTE+LL) and his panel time is only spotty otherwise.

As much as I love him, he's really not much of a player plot-wise—you could honestly sub him out for just about anyone with no appreciable difference.

Whereas, I'd say Ratchet is still a main cast member regardless of him being entirely absent for 11 issues.

So... Drift might seem Ratchet-centric, but as opposed to that being a reflection of his actual character, it's only a reflection upon the fact that his only claim to fame is Ratchet so it follows any panel time he gets is panel time tying him up with Ratchet.

TL;DR: it's not that Dratchet/Ratchet more important to Drift's character, it's just that it's what connects him to the story.

Does that make any sense at all?

It’s interesting that you bring that up because I did think about the fact that, quantitatively, Drift isn’t quite a main cast member.

I was looking more at qualitative presence.

“you could honestly sub him out for just about anyone with no appreciable difference.”

^ Right. His presence in the series was heavily dependent on Dratchet being so huge, and that’s one of the main reasons I take issue with it in a similar way I think Cygate is overrated.

You’re right that Drift’s claim to fame was through Ratchet, but as far as I know, Ratchet is still the most stable relationship to him outside of MTMTE. Everyone else dies or walks away.

Ratchet was there at the start back at the Dead End, and Drift’s story ended with him attaining his goal of belonging. With Ratchet, apparently. The message conveyed by that narrative is that his story and all his losses were a “journey to Ratchet.” (aka journey to belonging)

Someone (@/weapon-up-wallflower?) wrote something about Dratchet and how every step led to each other (if I recall correctly). I wish I could remember where the post was…

To me, the fact that Ratchet is the main connection Drift gets to [arguably] his most significant story makes their relationship/the ship extremely important to his character arc as a whole. It carries the most weight.

As for Drift’s actual character—barring narrative and storytelling—I still see Ratchet as being key because Drift’s life without Ratchet would be emptier, kinda bland, and would lack all meaning/direction because all of his other relationships were severed or shallow.

Besides Wing and maybe Megatron (both dead), what did any of his other relationships do for him? Nothing.

Meanwhile, if Drift were removed from Ratchet’s life, Ratchet would still stand well on his own as an individual character. Judging by the end of LL, Ratchet was a significant part of many people’s lives and vice versa. His life would still have had meaning without Drift.

I guess I’m just sad that other, potentially interesting options to make Drift compelling were ignored/destroyed with each loss he faced over the course of his story.

EDIT: I realize this would be very different if Drift weren’t so relationally oriented. Relationships aren’t always the most significant thing about a character, but because they are for Drift, that’s where my focus goes: The nature and quality of his relationships.

#honestly I think I just have issues with characters who are seen primarily through their love lives #while they have so little story of their own as individuals #personal bias and all that #I hope this all makes sense I am very tired and used this to avoid working on my story #asteroid belt of asks & answers #drift ✧ deadlock #I just had a lightbulb moment #watch me make an argument for the other side #‘why Ratchet needed to be so important to Drift and his story’

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thecourtesanschateau · 1 year

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overdue.

my last workout update was about 4-5 months ago and sad to say i had to stop my workouts due to a medical reason.

backstory.

i started my healthy lifestyle journey in january of last year (2022). for 2 (maybe 3) years before that, i was 40+ pounds overweight.

thankfully - with the help ($$$) of my benefactor, i was able to begin a journey towards becoming healthier and losing the weight.

and i did it. funnily enough, i did it with just food too. needless to say i'm now a big believer of "abs are made in the kitchen and refined in the gym".

so fast forward to the end of last year. i was eating healthier, i hit my weight loss goal and was exercising. i went to my doctor for a checkup and prescription refill and we discovered that one of my health issues...was gone.

needless to say i'm now also a big believer that you can heal yourself through food.

however, because one of my health issues (that i was taking medication for) was now gone, it meant that medication i was taking (for my remaining health issues) had to be changed/adjusted.

and that caused that some problems lol.

however, the problems cleared up and my body is now use to the medication so i've been cleared to exercise again.

truthfully i was cleared months ago but i fell back into the habit of not exercising.

part of the reason was that i was scared to. but the other reason was that i simply picked up my past behavior pattern of not exercising.

i wasn't acting like her at all. although fortunately, i did manage to keep my weight off (i guess those habits & beliefs stuck).

but for the past few weeks, i started getting back into quantum jumping, law of assumption, law of attraction and last night i was watching a youtube video of a girl that gave one hell of a law of assumption "pep talk" and it got me to thinking about how to become her, what her habits would be, her day to day routine, how she would think, what her beliefs would be, etc.

and today, i woke up and suddenly had the motivation to exercise. it was quite ironic. i didn't have to hype myself up to do it, i just decided that i was going to exercise today.

i kept it simple:

a walking warm-up to a random song on my playlist (3 mins)

lower body workout (10 mins)

cool down (6 mins)

in total it was about a 20 min workout.

and i've already created my new fitness routine.

i'm going to keep my workouts around 20 mins or less with a focus on lower body and abs. 2 days for lower body and 1 or 2 days for abs and then i'll rotate.

but the best part is that i actually got a bit of an endorphin high after my workout. i don't think i've ever experienced that before and it was great. i was definitely in a better mood and just felt like hugging people lol.

it's good to be back.

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waterstar2016 · 10 months

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This is a personal post. I am sharing my experience to show others how much a comment can hurt. This situation happened at work.

Over the last year, I have been on a weight loss journey. We are all a result of our experiences. I had an emotional and physically abusive mother who called me fat, ugly and stupid from the time I was 9 to when my father finally found out about the abuse and kicked her out when I was 18. This woman, who was supposed to be my mother, arranged a marriage for me when I was barely 17…to a 50 year old man in Barbados, because I wouldn’t be able to find a husband.

I have had more abusive realationships than I have had good ones with men. Narcissistic, emotional and one even physically abusive.

I managed a retirement home during COVID and almost killed myself because I was caring more about others than myself.

I gained weight.

These reasons aren’t excuses. They are the facts of life that I had to deal with.

These facts are that my blood pressure was through the roof. My resting HR was well into the danger zone. I could have died.

Over the last year I have lost 70lbs. I want to lose about that much more. I have cried, sweated and injured myself (not on purpose or even by working to hard…shit just happens), all in the hopes to get my health back.

At work we have a new majority shareholder. Not my boss, but still a major part of my work environment.

I get taken out to lunch with my other coworker and what does this man say as I am eating? “Have you always been a bigger girl?”

I was so shocked I couldn’t react. I was frozen. I am in a public restaurant while a man that doesn’t know me is telling me to lose weight.

I managed to hold it together for the rest of the meal. I did not say anything. I kept myself professional.

That unprofessional, uncalled for bullshit has made me cry for the last day.

Those few insensitive words brought back that little voice in my head that says “you’re fat, you’re ugly” screaming to the surface.

I was just starting to feel better about myself even though I have more weight to lose. Guess what. I’m fucking trying.

I have been single for 4 years because I have been trying to ‘find myself’ again after a 14 year off and on emotionally abusive relationship.

I only recently started to dip my toes back in the dating pool and might even be going on a date in the near future.

I want to hide. I want to punch my pillow. I want to scream.

I will not let this destroy me or the work I have done. I will get over it.

I do however, need to pick up the pieces of my shattered confidence and put them back together.

I am sharing this for transparency. I am sharing this because I am a believer of body positivity. I am sharing this because maybe someone else is going through something similar…

You’re not alone.

The sad thing is…is that I know I’m not either.

Jenn

#personal #mental health #bullying #safe workspace

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apuckishwit · 9 months

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So I'm trying to get on a weight-loss journey (my knees are not going to put up with this nonsense for very much longer, and my A1C is starting to get concerning, so I guess it's time to get serious about this) and Jesus Christ...why all these recipes and meal plans gotta be so damn complicated?

Not in the sense of being hard to make--I'm pretty good in the kitchen, if I do say so myself. No in the sense that I HAVE THE TASTEBUDS OF A FUCKING MIDWESTERN TODDLER, WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO INCLUDE FUCKING AVOCADO AND CHILES AND SIXTY ELEVEN DIFFERENT KINDS OF ONIONS? It's not even a matter of expanding my palate like a fucking adult, I have so many weird texture issues--if something feels weird in my mouth, like my brain won't even let me register what it tastes like :(

It's just frustrating, lol.

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pandemiceye4 · 19 days

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Hi, I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am you've been going through the issues you've had. As a trans feminine myself, I have dysphoria a lot. I'm glad you were able to work through your weight loss and mental issues as well. I am just starting out in my transgender journey, so anyone who I see that has similar issues, I'm very interested. I guess I do have a couple questions. Did you always know you were trans? How did you know it was the right time to come out? I have great respect for you and any other trans people who can overcome their fears and anxiety and show the world who they are. I also have another question. Are you asexual? I have seen some of your ace posts on here before, and I just wondered. I also noticed that recently you haven't posted as many ace posts as you have in the past. I too think I may be ace, and I'm always looking for guidance and information. If you are, did you always know? I'm not really sure if I am or not. Why does this all have to be so confusing! I'm sorry if this post seems quite long, which it is. I just have so many questions!

Sorry for the slow response, I've had a ton of stuff going on the past week. And I'm always happy to answer any questions. I definitely did not always know I was trans, but that was mostly because I didn't know that was a thing. I didn't have any knowledge about the terms or anything like that. Once I did realize, I also realized how obvious it should've been that I was trans. I felt I was ready to come out when I was confident that I was actually trans. I am lucky in that I've always had a good relationship with my family, and they all supported me (not without a few bumps on the way). I think I'm asexual... I'm not really positive on that tbh. I'm kinda leaning towards me being potentially like greysexual. For me sex is nice to have but I don't really feel the need to have it very much. And I've noticed I have times where I just hyperfocus on figuring out if I'm asexual or not, and that's when I tend to post asexual related posts. I wish it wasn't as confusing as it is. I'm happy to answer any questions you might have to the best of my ability. I've been transitioning for 3 years now so I feel like I can share information on that. At the same time this also all still feels very new to me in a way lol. So at the very least I'll do my best 😅

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fowlblue · 9 months

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ask game! Picking some to ask was actually kinda hard cause they’re all legit good questions BUT (and if you don’t wanna answer all these that’s totally fine):

7 - age/ height/ weight for Tim

9 - scene that first made you love them for Spiro

13 - dumbest thing they’ve ever done for Valentine

25 - 3 things they’d take with them if dropped in the middle of nowhere for Butler

Oooo yesss okay-

So I’m absolute shit at guessing actual weights/heights, etc. (+ I don’t really wanna calculate what the exact loss of one leg would be for total body weight), so I’m just gonna go with approximate descriptions if that’s alright!

I imagine Tim to, at the point of his recovery in TEC, be around 50 years old! I’m sure there’s an actual age to be found in the series somewhere, but that’s what I’ve got. Build-wise, it really depends on which point in the series one is looking at, but given that most of my content is in a nebulous ‘just past TLG’ period, that’s what I’ll go with.

Tim in my mind is of slightly-above-average height, but he appears tall due to being long in the waist + his habit of looming over people (most of the time unintentionally). Over time, however, his near-perfect posture has loosened a bit, which means people are more often able to look him in the eye.

In terms of weight, Tim is pretty slim and built like a runner. He was a bit ‘stronger’ looking in his youth, but after his time in captivity, he thinned a lot and has struggled with building muscle back on.

I’d have to say the moment when he outsmarts Artemis at the vault. Not only was it a total surprise to me as a kid, but it hammered home that, unlike many AF villains to start, Spiro wasn’t going to allow himself to be outsmarted by Artemis simply by underestimating him. He made a bet with Arno about it- Spiro knew that Artemis would most likely make it to the vault, even if he didn’t know how, and that’s more credit than most of Artemis’s foes give him.

Also- this line from his introduction is just 10/10 description-wise. I think of it every time my bracelets clatter.

(Is is cheating to also list a part of a fic? Does that count as cheating? Ngl while I liked Spiro a lot initially, his journey to being one of my favorites was 100% the fault of @orangerosebush ‘s fic Kunegetikos- two scenes in particular: His flashback to being told mythology as a child/packing after his grandmother’s funeral, and his conversation with Artemis towards the end in which he admits that he wants to believe magic exists, not for profit, but because it might offer him a sense of purpose. It was a really nice look what his history might be and ultimately inspired me to start fleshing him out a bit as well!)

13)

Ohh, there’s a lot of stupid things Valentine does, but in terms of consequences? He rarely faces them. But he has absolutely, 100% shown up to at least one performance or interview completely wasted, lost his cool, made a spectacle of himself and promptly fallen off the stage, there is a video of it somewhere. Would he and his brand smooth things over quickly? Yes. Would he be reminded of if any time he happens to search himself on YouTube? Absolutely.

25)

The obvious answer is survival stuff cause c’mon, it’s Butler, but given that he would also not really need any of that stuff since he can clearly survive with just his own two hands and the clothes on his back, I would say-

- His gun. He cleans it when he’s stressed I’m 90% sure that thing is basically a fidget for him at this point.

- One trashy romance novel. Might as well have some form of entertainment if you’re roughing it out in the wild.

- Some form of communication with Artemis. Butler… he cannot seem to function well when he’s not sure that Artemis is okay or alive. At least give him a handheld radio.

#there we go! hopefully these are some fun answers #(also sorry for the tag Zoe)#asks

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