#sorry for discourse just really needed to get this out of my system

[thatadhdfeel]

love how ppl with adhd have become even more of an acceptable target lately even from so called progressive people. literally saw a post today saying “people with adhd act like they were in the vietnam war”. like. so we’re just accepting straight up ableist jokes now? the fact that this crossed my dash is incredibly disappointing. people really think just because some tiktok kids misunderstand the disorder on occasion that this shit is acceptable? people with adhd have been stereotyped, ignored, treated like shit, bullied, taken advantage of; of course we’re upset and tired and want to share what we go through.

ableism isn’t funny or acceptable.

#actuallyadhd #adhd #mod jordan #sorry for discourse just really needed to get this out of my system #also it feels fucked up comparison for obvious reasons #there is significant comorbidity between adhd and ptsd obviously people with trauma are going to act traumatized?

[gipzisays209]

Alright, there's been a rather disturbing trend I'm noticing with a lot of Anti Endos right now, and I feel as though it's something I need to call to attention.

When I see Anti Endos making posts like "I had an ex who was an Endo system and they did x, y and z to me and now I hate all Endogenic systems because all of them are pieces of shit just line my ex!"

Holy shit, we need to take a step back and dissect that for a second.

First off, nobody should have to go through that shit, regardless of stance on online discourse. Some of the shit I've seen on posts like these is downright despicable, and nobody should be subjected to that. So for any Anti Endos seeing this who this post applies to, yeah, I'm sorry you had to go through hell at the hands of people like that, because guess what? Even though we have differing opinions, you still didn't deserve that shit.

With that out of the way, FOR FUCK'S SAKE, stop with the hasty generalization. Just because one or two Endogenic systems put you through hell does not mean we are all pieces of shit! That only means the systems you interacted with before are pieces of shit! It's the exact same thing as saying "Well, a dog bit me, so that means all dogs are horrible animals and need to be put down!"

Or (and I'm using these examples to purely put this into perspective, so get mad about it), "A trans person abused me, so that means every trans person is bad and horrible and we need to dehumanize all Trans people because they don't belong!!!!" Or even "This one furry is a zoophile, so that means every furry is a zoophile and needs to be shoved out of every single space they possibly have!"

This is a logical fallacy, and a very prominent one at that. Please, please fucking realize that just because a few bad apples did some horrible things they most definitely shouldn't have, that doesn't mean the entire group is bad. Please fucking stop generalizing all Endogenic systems for your personal experiences, because guess what?

A lot of us are actually really nice people, if you'd give us a chance. We're not all heartless monsters.

#syscourse #pro endo #pro endogenic #system stuff #endo safe #tw abuse #tw abuse mention #tw zoophile mention #logical fallacies #hasty generalization #anti endo #endos dni #endos fuck off #using these tags for reach because this is something y'all need to see regardless if you want to or not #plus I'm honestly beyond caring about “being the better person” after Anti Endos have shown they don't care about our spaces

[collectivenothingness]

You're a random based stranger but I need to vent real quick. I'm losing my mind, I feel like every day misogyny seeps more into circles I'm in. Queer spaces don't give a fuck and perpetuate it with nice flowery progressive language.

I can't do this anymore, all the conversations about being a woman are taken over or watered down by men, everything had to be about men, men are the most oppressed, men suffer from the patriarchy, it's never men's fault, you're a misandrist, men men men.

I genuinely can't do this it's so sad in queer circles to see this and I hear my friends do this too. I just had a conversation with a friend who is a queer trans woman and who said it's ok for leftist men to be misogynistic against TERFSs, like no!!! This is getting terrifying even if youre not a TERF!!!! I don't want men to have more ground to be misogynistic without questioning themselves. I'm genuinely tired of the whole "white women" "straight women" loops they find.

Just urgh. I feel like I'm surrounded by people who should know better and everytime I point out misogyny I get told that I'm seeing things.

I'm sorry to hear, anon. That is very alienating, yeah :(

The thing is that most progressive people don't really believe in social classes or power dynamics between them or systems of oppression. They believe in ideas and archetypes and good stories instead.

They use the same language but to them misogyny or racism just mean suffering mistreatment because of some characteristics you have, so they are open to misandry and narratives about how men have been neglected and left behind.

You and I might think of the patriarchy as a social structure of oppression directed from one group against another, but they don't. Patriarchy is explained conspiratorially as the work of only a small elite or as an unpersonal gestalt that arises from the system with no individual truly at fault or perhaps it's the fault of men and women equally.

Or they may briefly recognize some talking point they heard to discard the idea of social power dynamics altogether, "gender is fake" after all. They might think in terms of sex-based oppression because it's "based in nature"; all while having TERFs DNI in their bio of course. Bioessentialism is a big one in general and it crops up again and again and again. Everywhere.

Oppression Olympics is a loaded term but a lot of people really do conceptualize your suffering that way. You get scored based on which characteristics you are oppressed on, weighted by their beliefs about which are worse, which is based on their impressions of the vibes they get from discourse. Just being a woman rarely cuts it now, especially because MRAs can just sell them the right talking points and they'll swallow them up because it's all the same to them. Heard vs. Depp. They just want a good story.

And since misogyny is just a targeted aggression, where is the harm in letting a redeemed man use it against an evil woman, right? Isn't that what justice is? lol.

Let's cut it here though. It's tiring stuff.

#ask

[celluloidbroomcloset]

https://celluloidbroomcloset.tumblr.com/post/735562286934245376/yknow-and-props-to-jenkins-for-seeing-the

Sorry but I have to rant about this a bit. Not about your addition though! It's entirely about the Izzy canyon op's clear intentions with that post. You don't have to post this, I just need to get it out of my system. 😅

I just love how the canyon is trying to turn fans against Jenkins. Sorry canyon op, it was always a romcom and Ed and Stede were always a real love story. Jenkins might've changed his mind on some of the details, but it was always a queer romance. Every other one of the collected articles and quotes they helpfully linked shows that very clearly, so thanks for that canyon op.

Sorry again canyon op, but that one quote doesn't suddenly turn the show into a barely dodged queerbait either. A queer romance possibly not having a storybook happy ending in its original plan does not mean it's "not a real love story" or anything resembling queerbait. (somebody please take that word away from the internet, I am begging!) What it is is a sweet love story in a fun romcom and he even gave it a clear happily ever after ending intentionally in case they aren't renewed.

And yes, the cast's influence on their characters and their stories is awesome and wonderful and at Jenkins' suggestion. They wouldn't have been allowed even a tiny fraction of the freedom Jenkins gave them to shape their characters on most other shows. That actors, directors, writers, and showrunner could all work together so closely and so well to create this incredible show is very telling of the kind of showrunner Jenkins is and it's a rare one.

Jenkins may not be perfect, but that one quote doesn't suddenly make him less of an ally or any less amazing for putting this fun little queer as all hell show into our lives! It doesn't make the show any less joyful! I'd say it makes it more so for having this straight man, as good an ally as he is, see and realize what it would mean to people to have this thing and willfully change his plans to make it even better for us. He didn't have to give Ed and Stede such a wonderful ending this season and yet he did! He did it because he wants them, and us, to be happy.

I'm sorry your blorbo died, canyon op, but Jenkins is not "losing the other half of the fandom" now. The canyon aren't even half of the fandom to begin with! It's a very loud minority that I wish would just leave the rest of us to enjoy the show in peace instead of trying to turn us all against it. 😒

Lol - you know what’s hilarious? I honestly didn’t look at the source of that post. I’d heard some of this stuff before and was like “oh, yeah, it sounds like Jenkins changed focus and it worked really well!” Because…that’s the nature of art, especially a collaborative art like film and TV, and it seems clear that other writers, the performers, etc. all helped to shift focus, and Jenkins himself saw the potential and went with it, even likely listened to the queer people on the show to help guide it. Which is…normal and good?

I dunno what this show might do for season 3, and it’s perfectly possible that they sacrifice good will for some strange narrative about-face, but that will have fuck-all to do with Izzy actually being the main character and everything to with…everything else on the show.

In regard to the whole weird Izzy discourse…I barely poked my head into this fandom during the first season, but obviously have done a lot more than that now. And I was immediately just confused by the cadre who seem to think Izzy was the main character. You mean…the angry homophobic white dude who tried to kill one of our leads multiple times and then sent our other lead into a suicidal spiral by telling him to stop acting so gay? THAT dude? Isn’t he, like, the villain?

I dig what they managed with Izzy and I was so happy to actually care about him instead of just hating him, but his narrative function is to advance the Stede/Ed relationship. He’s less independent, narratively, than most of the Revenge crew. His death was sad and it made sense. * shrugs*

I’m still honestly a bit concerned that ANYONE looked at Izzy in Season 1 and went “that’s my guy!” That’s…disturbing, my dudes.

#reply #ofmd s2 #izzy hands #ofmd

[syscourse-confessions]

sorry this is VERY long but i have to get it off my chest

the idea that you have to have DID/OSDD-1 to be any sort of multiple/plural really fucked us up and led us to misdiagnosing ourself. it led us to such a horrible place in life

i remember my anti-endo friends used to call us "the only good endo" before convincing us to self-dx. i didnt even consider myself endogenic but that didn't matter to them, anyone different from them was an endo. they wouldn't let any headmates other than our host speak anywhere except for their own dedicated channel, while every other system's alters could speak anywhere they wanted. a lot of us felt so isolated

we were pressured by our anti-endo friends to take on the label of an OSDD-1 system, despite us barely knowing a thing about the disorder. this is not how self-diagnosis should go, but we felt like we would never truly have their support if we didn't follow what they wanted us to do. they celebrated this decision and for a long while, we thought that we really did have this disorder

i remember when i found out that those friends had made a discord channel to talk about me and my systemhood behind my back, speculate about my trauma, try to pick apart our words to find any hint of amnesia, and liveblogged what i thought were private conversations i was having about my trauma and questioning systemhood. i felt so mortified and violated but i said nothing

they did this because they thought my headmates sounded "too genuine" to not be DID alters

the anti-endo community sent me down this deep spiral of shame and dissociation, life felt even more like walking through a thick fog. i was being told who i was/wasn't allowed to talk to. what experiences i did/didn't have. what words i was/wasn't allowed to use. if i did or said the wrong thing, it would make me a bad person, so i better have stayed in fucking line

communities that were supposed to be focused on trauma recovery always focused so heavily on making fun of and bullying endogenic systems and suicide-baiting. even back when i was anti-endo, i felt so uncomfortable with the extent it got to, but i was not allowed to speak out against it

i started to question my self-dx and the anti-endo community when, based on no evidence other than the types of headmates we had, some people we knew started to tell us that we must have been through a very severe type of abuse that we just... never did, in reality. they told us that we must have very severe amnesia (which we don't), so we can't trust what we know about our own experiences - they wanted us to trust THEM with what has happened with our life and what hasn't

i know. "not all anti-endos". but enough anti-endos to hurt me. and enough anti-endos to be present in every single online community i'd been a part of. and pro-endo spaces are far from perfect, but at least there's people actually fighting

when i started learning more about DID, OSDD (as a whole, not just -1), DDNOS, and UDD, and when i started learning more about non-DID/OSDD-1 experiences of plurality such as endogenic plurality, i shed the anti-endo label. i lost friends and my old communities, but i gained freedom and trust in myself, and i'm slowly starting to heal as i find newer communities who will accept us for who we are, as a non-DID/OSDD-1 adaptive plural

i'm sorry this is so incredibly long. i just..really needed this. i feel like my experiences were maybe not that bad or at least not bad enough but i was already in a very bad place so it all just affected us very much

💙.

💙 - Vent

DISCLAIMER: Posts may or may not reflect accurate information. More info here: https://www.tumblr.com/syscourse-confessions/728819621058232320/disclaimer-treat-posts-here-like-you-would-any

#syscourse #syscourse confessions

[schizosupport]

one time during a psychotic episode I was convinced I had did / was part of a system. I experienced what I perceived as switches and such. when I started getting better I realized that wasn't what was happening. it was very real to me while it was happening though and im just wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar. I feel bad because I dont wanna be one of those people who fakes did, but thats really not what I was doing, and I dont know how to put it in a context that doesn't make me feel bad about it. sometimes I miss who I thought of as alters at the time but I suppose were really just. delusional headspaces.

Hey there!!

Ok so I think it's important to add the context to my answer, that I have a different approach to/understanding of these questions than both many people in the respective communities, as well as many professionals. Nevertheless, since I'm not writing a research paper, but rather, providing a personal take on the question, I hope that you will bear with me!

So in my somewhat radical opinion, it doesn't much matter whether you experienced what you did because of DID or because of a delusion caused by psychisis.

Alters, as well as delusions, are products of the mind. It doesn't mean that delusions don't FEEL real, it doesn't mean that alters don't truly experience themselves as separate entities, but it IS worth keeping in mind that one of these experiences is not inherently more "valid" than the other.

Delusions are often of a negative, harmful nature, while alters are often a helpful coping tool, but that is FAR from being a universal rule.

I used to think I had something like OSDD, then a psych convinced me the 'others' were delusions of control (and as a result for a while I suppose they were), but today we just kind of co-exist somewhere on the border between psychosis, identity compartmentalization, ipseity disturbance, dissociation, method acting as coping and general identity confusion..

After years of wading through the professional and community discourse, on my own personal journey with the topic, this is what I think:

It seems to me that the discourse surrounding the acceptable causes of identity dissociation and amnesia in DID/OSDD, has ended up with a situation where DID identity compartmentalization is seen as the only "real" aka "valid" experience of identity fragmentation.

It would appear that this debate, which to me seems largely to be a matter of categorization and definition, has been warped to the point where people like you end up feeling bad for having been "faking DID" while in fact you have done no such thing, and furthermore having your legitimate grief at the loss of people/alters YOU experienced as real, be invalidated and belittled (by yourself, if not others).

Anon, I'm sorry for your loss. Jesus fuck, I'm sorry. Who cares what the others "really were" or "why they're gone"... You experienced them as people in your life, people you had relationships with, people you could rely on - ofc it hurts to lose them.

Of course you are grieving.

"Just delusional headspaces" is such a telling turn of phrase, and it breaks my heart. It really does.

So often we psychotic people are expected to be "over it" the moment we are not actively delusional. As if we don't get traumatized when we think we are going to be killed. As if we don't grief the relationship we built completely in our head, when it turns out not to be 'real'?

Identity.. personality.. headspaces.. they are no more real or no more fake dependent on their underlying cause..

I understand why the dissociative community are protective of their alters, I understand the need to say "this is not psychosis! These experiences are real!" ... I truly do, and I don't think it's a meaningless distinction, either.

But it's setting up a false dichotomy. Because the truth is that ultimately both delusions and alters are a thing the brain does. It's not THE SAME THING, but they are similar in the way that they are experienced internally as very real.

And I think that accepting the existence of alters as "real and valid" is important, but I don't think it should (or needs to) come at the expense of people who experience delusions, (or identity compartmentalization for any other reason).

In my experience, identity compartmentalization, that isn't coming out as scary delusions of control, is usually among the healthier coping mechanisms, delusional or not.

And creating a culture where having DID/OSDD is the only acceptable "valid" version æ variety of this type of experience is really not helpful for anyone. For one thing, it means that people with these types of experiences will be extremely prone to assume that they must have DID, potentially to the point of delusion, potentially to the point of making themselves more ill (developing amnesia, inducing memories etc) - and when it turns out they DON'T have DID, they will be terrified that they were "faking", when in fact they were just acting according to their current best understanding of themselves..

Not to mention, they will feel the obligation to bury any hint of identity compartmentalization within themselves, to conform to a social world that insists these experiences are "problematic" by virtue of being "not real", somehow.

.....ok I think I went off on a whole ass rant...

Was this helpful at all, anon?

#answers

[chloe-wants-to-kill-herself]

I'm still new to discovering I have a system (just got over that denial bridge a few weeks ago, and have been struggling mentally since (and before) then), and the system discourse online has been very... distressing? I want to lean into safe communities meant for learning about or exploring (my own) CDD, and find some sort of comraderie.

I don't understand what's happening really - I don't exactly understand endogenic systems, but I also don't understand why people would be anti-endogenic. It just seems... hateful. And purposeless.

I've seen tons of anti-endo posts (before I learned what endo meant) that made me terrified to lean too heavily into traumagen spaces (if they could say this about awful stuff about one group of people, what could they say about me? *it is very much a learned response from trauma, but it is what it is I guess*

I guess the point is to ask if you were ever anti-endo, and what has it been like since you started making pro-endo posts? I know it's silly, but I'm trying to figure all of this out and I'm terrified of receiving hate for refusing to hate someone because of how they identify

Thanks (and sorry for the book lol)

- Host

First I want to say it's not silly at all!! Being a newly discovered system is overwhelming and it's normal to want to have a community of those who understand you. It's also normal to want to avoid being harassed and fakeclaimed. I'm happy you reached out! This reply is going to be kinda long (sorry I tried to keep it short) but I did my best to address all your questions. I hope this helps! And I wish you the best on your new journey of self discovery!!

Second I would strongly recommend that you stay away from syscourse if you can. It's really draining and overwhelming even for us and we have a pretty good handle on our system. As a newly discovered system it's going to be even worse.

Unfortunately I don't have any specific recommendations for cdd focused spaces which accept endos (if anybody knows one put it in the replies!) but I will say that pro endo servers, even if they aren't focused on cdds can still be amazing for finding comradery. There will be other cdd systems there and you might find some endos who you relate to as well. Also if you want my dms are open! I'm just one person (well, not exactly) but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have and suggest ways to help you figure out your system more!

As for why people are anti endo I think it mainly comes down to two things. First is that they think endos are saying they experience the same thing as cdd systems except without the trauma. Endos do not generally claim this*. Second is that people who've spent significant amounts of their lives under attack sometimes they start to see threats where there aren't any.

These systems have debilitating mental illnesses that are criminally misunderstood and romanticized. For them being a system is intrinsically linked with being deeply traumatized, they are not separate. So when they see a community of people claim to have systems but not trauma, they get upset. They feel like that's not possible, because it isn't possible to be a system like *theirs* without trauma. They get frustrated because they think people just want the "quirky" parts of their disorder without the painful ones. That's why they always say endos are faking did, because they can't imagine a system that doesn't have a cdd. They think endos are just people who want to feel special so they claim to have system. Once endos started becoming a part of the community, anti endos felt invaded because now there's a bunch of systems who don't have cdds in the space they thought was for them (keep in mind cdd focused spaces still exist, its just that the plural community as a whole isn't 100% focused on us anymore).

Once they feel invaded, they feel like they need to defend their community and they do that by harassing and fakeclaiming endos. Then they act like psychology is on their side (it isn't) and after that it's just increasing amounts of digging their heels in.

I think it mostly comes down to the misconception that endos claim to have did without the disorder part, and then in trying to defend themselves they turn off critical thinking and just do whatever they can to get rid of the perceived threat.

*There is a world of difference between the experiences of most endos and most cdd systems but it's not black and white. At this point the term "endo" just means anybody who is not completely traumagenic which includes mixed origin systems. Also, some endogenic systems develop cdds after being exposed to trauma, the only difference is that they were plural beforehand so they're still endogenic. There's others too. The main point is that the plural experience is incredibly personal and doesn't fit well into boxes, categorization is useful and it's important that people understand that in general there are real and big differences between endogenic plurality and cdds but there's no hard lines here.

[riotbrrrd]

1, 18, 21 et 25 pour mass effet ?

Oh yeah let's play this game with a notoriously discoursey fandom that's perfect

I'm gonna try to be normal about this but you have to know I watched Ache's video on the game only two weeks ago so I'm very unwell about this series actually

the character everyone gets wrong

Idk, any answer feels like a cop-out tbh, I think all characters are the center of so much stupid discourse that it's hard to find one where everyone is united in mischaracterizing them.

I think it's Thane though. I think it's the most infuriating how he gets the sad bad boy act mesmerizing absolutely everyone and there's no one left to talk about how fucking weird he is and how embarrassing the romance is.

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

the lore lmao

Like I'm sorry, it's insane to say from a series that people probably had entire youtube carreers built around explaining in detail but there's a point at which going down every little rabbit hole is in fact just keeping people from actually looking at the worldbuilding I think.

I'll sidestep the genocide part even though I have been mentally yelling about it in my mind for years and never found a good moment to really express it, but it's also linked to me with all that's said in the Leviathan DLC and the implications of it all and. Truly like. I need people to engage with the experimental aspect of the Reapers' system and existence, the fact that all cycles have similar conflicts engineered by the positioning of the mass relays, and. the implications.

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

I honestly can't say, I'm the one overhyping even the most boring parts of this series. There's not a part of it I haven't enjoyed, sometimes I even miss the repetitive sidequests from ME1 and I almost start the game again just to go explore random ass maps of warehouses on barren planets. The mako trips might be overhyped tho. Sure it's funny but the real fun parts are when you get out of it to go investigate stupid little crevices with a dead guy in there.

Actually no, you know what? I'll be violent. Citadel DLC overhyped. Very funny, but the actual gameplay part is really fucking boring especially compared to the other DLCs for ME3 that have engaging phases and exploration and battlemaps.

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

The problem with the ending isn't with the cinematics but to me it also isn't exactly about what Ache speaks of, it's honestly just that it is annoyingly ignoring, well, the fucking lore and the themes and emotional arcs of ME3 and specifically our responsibility in genocide and the way that the context in which the reapers exist sets us up for it and so everything that comes out of the crucible's baby boy mouth is bullshit. Sorry I'm remaking the same answer that I was trying not to make for the other question. Anyway. yeah

choose violence ask game

#I'll make another post about the crucible. I'm pacing in my flat about it again I can't keep living like this #mass effect

[levi-dayne]

i figured i should probably do an introduction post since my bio is getting a bit long

hi!! i'm levi, my pronouns are primarily they/them (but i also use ae/aer and ve/vim)

bi (??) + arospec + acespec

my primary fandoms are currently death note and hazbin hotel

i post every random death note thought i have and i am obsessed with mello and near and matt and wammy's house (i have SO much to say about all of them)

i don't post about hazbin hotel on main besides this intro post but my side blog is full of it if you're interested

death note side blog: @meronia-note

hazbin hotel side blog: @loser-babyyyy

i follow back unless you're a blank blog with no theme, pfp, background, or bio (basically don't look like a bot)

mello's biggest fan and apologist fight me

also mello has adhd

i make edits on tiktok under the username meronia_note

my ao3 is under the username levi_dayne

posts of, about, and referencing my fanfictions

i'm autistic so please use tone tags if you make a joke or use sarcasm because that's really hard for me to pick up on over the internet. also things i say may come off as aggressive when they're not intended as such so if you think i'm mad or something please know that i'm probably not

if anyone has music recs i listen to pretty much everything and would love to hear it

my favorite characters/comfort characters:

- mello (death note)

- near (death note)

- matt (death note)

- L (death note)

- angel dust (hazbin hotel)

- husk (hazbin hotel)

my ships:

- meronia (mello x near)

- m2 (mello x matt)

- huskerdust (husk x angel dust) -> again i'll only post this on my side blog

- soichello (mello x soichiro)

- mattmisa (matt x misa)

- controversial one but mello x sayu im sorry

statuses:

- requests are open but they might be slow

- asks are open but i may not get to them immediately

- dms are open (please do not dm if you are under 16)

- anons are open

- i don't mind if people need to vent as long as you ask first with a trigger warning, i know sometimes it's easier venting to people online

what i do here:

- shitposts

- headcanons/memes

- art

- positivity posts

- activism posts

- occasional fanfiction

- posts about my death note self-insert

- some personal posts (tagged with "personal posts 😌✨️✨️" feel free to filter it out if you're not interested in my lore lol)

- pagan posts (probably just on yuletide, imbolc, and samhain, also occasional random posts about brighid)

what i'll write:

- meronia is the only ship i'll write for as of right now

- i will also write mello x reader

- i'll write smut, fluff, or angst

- i reserve the right to deny or ignore a request if it makes me uncomfortable (up to personal discretion)

- if you leave a request off of anon i may reach out to you to ask more details or let you know if i can't get to it right away for whatever reason

what i'll draw:

- basically same rules as above

- i am willing to draw mello, near, matt, and meronia for death note

- i am willing to draw angel dust, husk, huskerdust, alastor, lucifer, and radiostatic (one-sided) for hazbin hotel but i'll only post these on @loser-babyyyy

please keep in mind that any request may take time and just because i don't get to it right away doesn't mean i'm ignoring it

dni/byf:

- disrespectful discourse (you're welcome to your opinion but be nice about it)

- seriously dni if you're pro-israel, this is a genocide and it is not up for debate

- homophobes, transphobes, TERFs, ableists, racists, pedos/MAPs, antisemitics, etc.

- mdni on nsfw posts (i don't mind if you follow me but please do not like, comment, reblog, etc. nsfw posts or i'll block you)

- don't just come to my blog to bash on my comfort characters, i understand not everyone likes them and that in itself is totally fine but coming to my blog just to hate on them will get you blocked

- dni if you don't support people with cluster B personality disorders, psychotic disorders, systems, etc. mental health advocacy means ALL mental health

- we can debate on pineapple on pizza, not human rights

#personal posts 😌✨️✨️

[theliterarywolf]

Oh god, Twitter is having the shoplifting discourse

people don't want to be called out for their bad behavior so they keep trying to justify it

like even if you don't care about the employees you'll be affecting more than the big company (people try to hand wave it with "they've got insurance" & "I was an employee at Place and never cared"), it's a bad idea for yourself. Certain places are going to notice but not charge you. . . until they can hit you hard with a much worse charge.

Sorry I don't believe you're really in a bad position where stealing is more understandable when you're swiping makeup and art supplies. What a first world problem

Something something -- Twitter is just Tumblr on a two-year delay -- something.

It's also pretty damning to see all these higher-profile artists talk about 'lol, I only made it through college because I stole art supplies from this store. Cry some more'

Bitch, I'm more than certain most of you guys are American citizens with American or nationalized parents. Apply for some damn Financial Aid.

Meanwhile, I'm the daughter of someone who has never been able to get so much as a green card due to the American Immigration System being dogshit so I wasn't able to apply for Financial Aid to go to college until my early 20s and yet I never had the thought of 'Hm, I should steal luxury products I don't need in order to survive'.

[archersxartxblog]

I saw your input to the discourse and I wholeheartedly agree with your view.

The Antis in the fandom are the most disgusting crybullies I've ever come across in any fandom... and I have been in a lot of them for a long time... What's also disgusting is that these same people turn around and claim how open, friendly and positive this fandom is...

Well turns out it's only that way if you stick to what is considered the norm by anti's...

I really don't like the ship at all... but I can make a difference between fiction and reality and treat people the same. Heck, I have a sibling that has been into "proship" and I never made a big deal out of it... It's still my sibling at the end of the day. And they also can seperate fiction from reality. Something that has become rare nowadays... but people desperately need

They claim they are the good ones but do bully and harrass anyone with a different opinion to the point of them deleting their accounts or stepping away from fandom (lets hope nothing worse) (also seen this happen several times on dead-bird-site with japanese fans) smh

sorry to go into this little rant... you don't have to publish this. You're even free to delete and block me. I just need that out of my system without them witchhunting me off the web....

(also love your content. You have a cute and wholesome artstyle! Keep up the good work!)

It's insane, honestly.

I've seen people getting harassed, doxed, death threats, people have had to get staff involved in some cases. People have been called blankshippers because of commissions they've done (fun fact if a blankshipper threw a bunch of cash at me I'd draw something too). Heck, just today it's been proven that these antis sit in the blankshipping tag looking for styles of creatators they can call out. Iike really.

And this is just the stuff I've seen on my dash.

And this isn't just a shipping problem, any miss step can get people to come at you, it seems. Remember that drawing challenges that happened around September/October, that person just wanted to do something fun, and a single prompt got them harassed and allegedly doxed.

I've really wanted to interact more with this Fandom, I wanted to join a discord and maybe make some friends, but the fear of some miss step I might make, someone not liking me and looking for a reason to chase me away keeps me from really interacting.

I've actually only had one bad interaction with one blankshippers, and from what I've seen, that person is just a giant dick. Otherwise, they have been quite respectful.

This is honestly the less friendly Fandom I've been in. There are some great people here, some really great artist. But there are also a lot of people looking for a reason to tear down anyone for whatever reason.

Don't worry about the rant, I totally get it. I'm hoping I'm too small to get a mob coming after me. Might loose a bunch of followers, but it is what it is. I will be turning off anon after this, just to discourage anyone coming at me even more.

But for the record, I'm not a blankshipper, I do not like or engage in the ship, I don't like it, but that's okay because I don't look at that blankshipping tag (cause I am not a weirdo looking at stuff I don't like)

I would prefer blankshippers interact with my work respectfully, to not ship ingo and Emmet in regards to my Warden’s Twins fic due to the underage nature of the twins in that setting.

But I would expect this from anyone.

(And thank you, it makes me really happy to hear you like my style. I'm probably going to be posting more oc stuff for a bit, I just kind of want to step away from the submas Fandom for a bit, I'll still be posting Caleb and Fjord stuff, bit I'll still post ingo and Emmet every so often, maybe even some dojoshipping stuff when the mood strikes me.)

#thanks for the ask #fandom discourse

[nightfallsystem]

Nightfallsystem - Main blog. Plural System. cringe asf autistic and chronic pain haver. giant isopod enthusiast.

READ MY DNI AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS POST!!!

IF I FOLLOW U / REBLOG FROM U RANDOMLY / ACT LIKE WE'RE MUTUALS U PROBABLY FOLLOWED/INTERACTED ON MY BLOG @qiekz OR @qiekzart

‼️hi guys if ur reading this during october 2023 plz check out @qiekzart rn im doing a thing ✨✨

Check out my etsy plzzz :333 i post adoptables !!

My name is Qiekz, my pronouns are it/its, please use my actual preferred pronouns. For your DNI purposes please know I'm 14 ^_^ also no nsfw interaction or you will fucking die!! im also learning japanese! (please send help.... im dying..... grahh.. ive gone too far to quit its kind of my curse now.)

what to expect from this blog? random shit, this is my personal blog. there may be vents and rants (tagged as #vent and #rant respectively) there may be random shit there will be so many reblogs.

i try to add ids when i can into the alt text, though i have chronic pain so sometimes im too tired to, sorry

Special interests: Giant isopods, Yugioh 💀💀

interests: TBHK, manga and anime, servals, marine animals, suicide boy (critical of it...), made in abyss, (critical of it...) , japanese language ,, ... i forgor

FEEL FREE (i encourage you to!) TAG ME IN SHIT ABOUT MY INTERESTS!!! esp yugioh im really autistic about it o my god

#autistic about this thing tag <- will be me tagging shit im really autistic about!!

not really in discourse anymore other than transgender stuff so if you try to drag me into discourse ill drag you into the pits of hell. i fucking hate syscourse so much.

If i am not speaking and another system member is, the post will be tagged as "- [name]". I tag common triggers, flashing lights and eyestrain, etc, these will be tagged as "TW [topic]". also JSYK i block a fuck ton of people so like, yeah, I block anyone for any reason I want. I will also not unblock you. unless youre liek my friend or smth.

We have so many fictives sooo,, source list: TBHK, Omori, OneShot, Wolf Song the Movie (yknow, that one on youtube.), yugioh..... </3 .. sourcemates r cool to interact n stuff feel free to send an ask im just shy...

anon hate MUST be original no lame "kys" or "[slur]". i will judge you. try better. try harder. get good. if you send anon hate i will judge it and rate it out of 10 so please try your best.

i am weirdo fictionkin heres the list: hooni from suicide boy yayy,, faputa from made in abyss ( I FUCKING HATE THE SORUCE FOR BEING SO WEIRD OMFG AHGHH),, jolteon from pokemon. . im weird and fuckd up . much prefer if u dont rlly seperate me from me in sources. cuz i just am me. sorry. ig. just refer to me as me . thank you

I am critical of all of my interests!!

or more just i hate them agh just be normal omfgggg crying sobbing

if you wanna avoid a common trigger its most likely tagged #tw [topic]. i also tag eyestrain and flashing lights but usually i just tag it as "#eyestrain" or "#flashing". tbh i unfortunately cant be trusted to remember to tag any other specific trigger because of bad memory. i wont tag reclaimed slurs but i will tag slurs used in a mean way

Please do not DM me unless you actually really need to. Send me an ask if you want to DM me and specify that you want it answered privately if you want. but i AM UNCOMFY WITH DMS. unless we're friends or i DMed you first. otherwise i place a curse on you I MUCH prefer asks over DMs

Sideblog list

@omori-addict

@oops-all-traumacore (TW TRAUMACORE)

@sunnymogai (inactive)

@hellhoundmutt (inactive)

@sunnymogai2 (inactive)

@qiekz (EYESTRAIN + FLASHING TW please block if you are affected by that please)

@qiekzart

@tsukasabrainrot

alter blog 4 tasma:

@tazmahell

@tazmaboxed

DNI:

Anti plural, pluralphobe, anti endo, sysmed, against created alters/etc, "dont believe in systems",

Proship, condone or support posting any sexual stuff that includes a child, lolicon/shotacon/etc, someone purposely meant to look like a child, cub.

LGBTQphobic, transmed, transphobe/homophobe/biphobe/panphobe/etc, 'super straight'/variants, anti-ace inclusion, anti-aro inclusion, anti a-spec inclusion, aphobes, anti mspec lesbian/gay/etc, stelliophobic, anti lesboy/turigirl/etc, anti any good faith queer identity, anti neopronouns, anti xenogender, anti mogai.

Ableist, support autism speaks, think "narc abuse" is a thing/demonise people with any disorder including NPD, infantalise people with disorders/disabilities/etc, post/support on subreddits like r/fakedisordercringe or r/systemscringe, use the term "Aspergers" / describe urself as an "aspie" (Hans Asperger was a nazi who killed many disabled people, so shut the fuck up.)

Racist, cultural appropriators.

Radqueers, trans-id/transX, transrace/trace (not adoptee term), support the term transplural, pro-contact/contact-complex/contact-neutral for harmful paraphillia, sway people away from getting help for harmful paraphillia, MAP/Pedo/zoo/necro. (also transspecies is ok if its not used in a transX way)

Fujoshi/variants. fetishize mlm/wlw, etc.

Against traumacore / vent art.

Have minors on ur DNI (no offense im just a minor lol), NSFW-Focused blog

Post stolen art (includes AI images) / trace art without consent

other stuff is im neutral on factkin or kff tbh. and i think id rather stay neutral on tulpas as a term. i just dont fucking care. i dont involve myself in syscourse anymore, i might post more endogenic positivity later but id rather not due to the rampant harassment and infighting in the system community.

#pinned post

[griancraft]

Very late sorry. But in relation to system asks, do you have any advice for someone questioning plurality?

Do not listen to the majority of people online about most things. Do not go into the tag. Talk to your friends and read the literature. The literature is not often from the patients perspective and therefore can miss a lot of nuances in the experience but you know what sucks more? Being uninformed or even completely wrong because you’re reading tumblr posts. This isn’t me lecturing you that is my genuine advice.

Also avoid discourse, this is your mental health and your concept of self, this should be yours to explore without judgement or like. Getting involved in any of that.

For the questioning part?

If you are questioning, I really recommend doing the MID. It’s technically something you can do for yourself iirc and for figuring out if you have dissociative symptoms it’s really handy. This is not a diagnostic tool obviously and is just an indicator. I did the MDID which is the 265(?) question one with a therapist and it was really helpful.

Keep in mind systems hide from you as a form of protection. It’s also okay not to know right away or not be able to talk to anyone.

Many (but not all) mental health experiences shared online are a an exaggeration of the expected symptoms. Please remember that you do not need to have full communication, you do not have to have many alters, you do not have to black out completely.

I, for example, leave the front and the awareness is still there. So it’s not like I black out, we just switch who has control. This is fairly common in my experience.

Please feel free to send asks or dm if you want any more advice or just want to talk about experiences :)

#system stuff #did system stuff

[11queensupreme11]

The whole jjk 216 discourse is because of the shippers and on behalf of them i am so sorry 💀 less than 24 hrs ago, i saw my moot and fellow stsg shipper bashing gege for the "incest" and telling Myamra to "stfu" when he spoke up about the harrassment he was facing. AND THEN MY JAW DROPPED THIS MORNING BC THAT SAME MOOT WAS NOW CHEERING ABOUT SUKUNA/YOROZU WHEN HE TURNED OUT TO BE A GUY 😭😭😭😭😭

Nooo don't apologize. I'm a shipper too (satosugu and itafushi 🤪) and I know the shipper community can be... wild at times, but these issues are mostly caused by those who are too immature and can't discern between reality and fiction (ie. those who believe that if you consume/create dark or problematic media then you support it irl, which is NOT true btw)

Granted, it is usually just shippers who do those, but not all the shippers are that weird (it's especially less common outside of America so at least the rest of the world's got their head on straight)

Like I said in a previous post, it's really only centered around anything remotely sexual. They'll be up in arms when it comes to a problematic ship, but they'll turn a blind eye to the other darker themes in jjk like cannibalism (sukuna and curses), forced abortion (choso's mom), attempted genocide (geto), abuse (zenin clan), systemic oppression (the entire jujutsu society), and etc. They only focus on what can and shouldn't be shipped.

Even though, by their own logic, Sukuna/Megumi x Yorozu/Tsumiki is still "incest", they switched up once Yorozu turned out to be a man and cheered for it because now they got a new gay ship to obsess over 😭???

Honestly, I think JJK just attracted the wrong audience. The first season of the manga was so sweet and happy (well, compared to what happens afterwards at least), that it probs gave ppl the wrong idea 🤭 but they continued with it anyway cuz they thought the characters were hot or whatever. That, and some people are just too immature to understand how dark stories work.

Can you imagine these sort of shippers starting this kinda discourse with a seinen like Berserk??? omg that series would be cancelled on twitter and the poor author would be getting death threats every damn day 💀💀 But that doesn't happen (or at least I hope it doesn't?) because Berserk is being read by the appropriate audience that can handle those sort of themes. Same can't be said for JJK 💀

Anyways, here's a bunch of twitter posts that basically sums it all up:

It's fine to ship characters together, but people really gotta understand what kinda manga they're reading before bashing the author (or the leaker who literally just... shows us the chapter??? why were ppl so pissed at him omg 😭). There's other interesting things happening in jjk, the ships shouldn't be all they should focus on. If romance is truly all they care about, then they need to stick to a different manga cuz jjk isn't it.

Yeah it's frustrating to see people act like that, but that's why I mostly stick to jjk theorists and analysts instead of shippers when it comes to Twitter. They got some pretty insightful theories that I like and they understand that JJK is a dark story, not a romance one.

#👸🏻| asks #👸🏻| rambles #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 216 #jjk spoilers #jjk leaks

[olderthannetfic]

The stuff on your blog about nuance and lesser evils and that living in an imperfect world doesn't mean we just give up, it just means we do our best, whatever that may look like, and try to be aware of what that might mean for other people, has genuinely been really helpful for me.

Very sorry if this sparks another discourse topic, but I somewhat recently had an online friend who lives alone posting about suicide. I, and a few others, tried finding a way to get someone to check on the friend that wasn't through law enforcement, but we couldn't find anything that was available to us from a separate country, or that was about someone else rather than ourselves. (Said friend is not in North America, for some context, but a European country.) We ended up calling a wellness check and the friend and a few other people were really angry and upset, and said all this stuff about how police makes things worse and the danger of potential forced hospitalization. I do agree with and understand those points, and I wish the systems available to us were better, but that was what was available. Maybe intervention wasn't needed after all, but reading your blog has made me feel less guilty about doing that and reassured me that I was doing my best. That my friend was brought to the hospital and was angry with us, convinced medical staff she didn't need to be seen and went home without any care, only time wasted and her trauma triggered, isn't something that was in my control or the fault of us for making that call.

I just wanted to say thank you.

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You're welcome!

I'm sure being hauled to the hospital was traumatic, but what else were you supposed to do? People need to learn not to grandstand with suicide threats. She made what looked like a cry for help. You tried to help. If she wants some other kind of attention, she's going to have to figure out how to ask.

[faith--in-the-future]

Industry people voted for Harry to win AOTY, 18,000 industry people vote for that award every year. Whether they think he’s manufactured or not is irrelevant because they’re clearly buying what he’s selling so who really cares? I’m sorry but I’m tired of the self soothing “oh but he’s manufactured and people know it” like… let’s not lie to ourselves to feel better. It’s easy to fall in the trap of thinking that karma is actually real and things will rectify themselves eventually, that we just need a little patience because surely this terrible person is falling out of favor, and people are seeing through them, and their imminent fall from grace is inevitable.

In my experience, that’s self soothing BS. Undeserving people have stepped on my back to get job positions I wanted and needed. My friends would go “oh but I bet your boss will see it if you work hard enough” or “eventually the true face of this person will show” and years go by and things don’t “fix themselves”, karma doesn’t strike, justice isn’t made.

The same thing happens in the music industry, probably ten times worse. As someone who’s been observing the industry for a while, Harry has managed to reach an echelon that very few people have reached in history. I’m talking, Justin freaking Timberlake never won AOTY. 49 artists have won that award since the Grammys were created. Of today’s musical landscape, of artists that routinely chart and are popular, the only ones to ever win it are Billie Eilish, Bruno Mars, Adele, Taylor Swift, and Harry Styles. You can add Kacey Musgraves to that list if you feel so inclined (I don’t, she’s not actually mainstream imo). That is an INSANE lineup to be a part of, and the day I found out he’d won it (the day after the Grammys because I refused to stay up just to get pissed off), was when I realized he’d won.

He just won and people are running in circles trying to come up with excuses as to why, actually, he can still lose. This is what he wanted and he got it, to a degree that I don’t even know he himself imagined (and people can spare me the discourse about his team buying Grammys because you can buy nominations but not awards, and definitely not AOTY, there’s a reason so few people have won it). Sure, we all know everything he lost in the process, but I’m willing to bet he doesn’t care and it’s all worth it for him.

There’s no degree of “the industry knows” or “fans will drop him.” The industry embraced him and he has fans in a chokehold, as much as it makes me want to break things. I let myself be fooled by the reception of his award on twitter, and then I came across a post about it on Facebook. People were outraged… that Twitter was mad. I kid you not. He pops up in my for you page on tik tok all the time no matter how many times I pick “not interested”. The amount of videos defending him and outraged about the person shouting during his acceptance speech. The amount of comments saying that Beyoncé was overrated (freaking BEYONCÉ. Overrated!!!????), that he deserved the win (!!!). The comments on YouTube and even in articles defending him. I truly truly gave up at that point. This poor excuse of a man could kick puppies as a hobby and they’d still be lodged up his ass.

bestie trust me when I tell u that I know all this 😭 I understand you probably just wanted to let your frustration out and I'm glad u did but like I 100% agree unfortunately lol I've always been the most pessimistic when it came to that man, and when I said industry people think he's manufactured I mean they probably know but also why should they care lol the entire music industry is a big manufactured mess built up by horrible men so they will support each other no matter what

and I do agree karma doesn't exist lol Good people are always pushed out by oppressive systems bc otherwise those systems wouldn't work anymore (that's why there are no good politicians and no good cops) and if we're talking about universal karma then good people always die and bad people live to their 90s rip

If u ask any of my friends here like @weareonejazzhand she can tell u I've been saying that we'll never get rid of that man now and we'll still be bombarded with his stupid biopic in 2050 and by then he'll have rewritten history completely lol

money always wins

#ask #anon