#sometimes i'll look at one thing and fandom will go off in a wildly different direction

[yesloulou]

Please tell me we are not feeling bad for someone who purposely wrote erotic fiction about a real person and published it. Let’s not side with her as an excuse to hate Dax. I don’t love him either, but people like this “author” cause direct harm to fandom spaces. They enforce the trope that fans are insane stalkers and sexual perverts.

This is the same shit that happened with hockey “booktok”. Someone did something wildly inappropriate, it got around to real people involved, and the fallout made EVERYONE uncomfortable.

Some girl wrote something DISGUSTING and put someone’s real name as well as a caricature of that person on it, and now fandom “feels bad for her”? Hell no.

Sometimes people deserve ridicule. Sometimes people deserve to be shamed. SHE brought this on the fandom. While that’s partially Dax’s fault, the blame is on that author for opening this can of worms. That author fucked around and found out and I hope she has trouble sleeping at night. And if Dax ends up on Ao3 that’s fucked up and I’ll hate him for it, but it will be HER that caused him to go looking. That girl deserves to be ejected from every fandom she’s ever in and I hope she has the life she deserves ❤️

ok. here's the thing. i edited that answer a couple of times but couldn't decide on what to say bc i can't feel bad for her but i also didn't want to tell people who do feel bad for her that's not the right emotion to have. so ultimately i decided to discuss intentions. and based on intentions i do think dax as daniel's friend and a public figure deciding to profit off of a daniel erotica is worse than that girl writing and publishing it.

also i'll admit i have no idea what she wrote in that book and i'd like to stress that i think what she did was simply not right. but i also find it very interesting how much hate and serious allegations that book has been getting, especially on tumblr where rpf is pretty widely accepted. i think at least some of this condemnation comes from a place of self awareness. bc if you think about it the only difference between writing/consuming rpf and writing rpf and then publishing it is publishing. and the act of publishing does not make all the difference. by publishing her rpf (even on a platform like amazon) it was not like she put it in front of daniel and said read it. in fact if we're talking about ease of access, a pov tiktok or an unlocked fic on ao3 is way easier to access than a book you need to buy to read. but somehow, none of the easier to access rpf works got as much negativity as this one. in addition, when this book was first discovered by the fandom, the reaction was mostly "this is so ridiculous help 😭". the tumblr post about that book got barely 30 notes. it was only until a week later when we realized dax brought it up to daniel on his podcast that this outpouring of anger and condemnation started. you see, the issue is not only the girl publishing her rpf. it is also the book being a reminder of how controversial rpf really is. when a piece of rpf enters the internet, there is never guarantee that the person it's about won't ever see it. there is always that risk. Ofc you'd hate her and want to 'eject her from the fandom' for possibly turning that risk into a reality, but it's a risk you (we) took on in the first place, and obviously you (we) wouldn't want to be reminded of that.

anyways. again im not saying she and her book doesn't deserve hate, i just think it's interesting how much hate there has been. i'd love to discuss more but ive probably gotten ms into enough trouble for this already lol sooo.

#asks #*

[buddieisgoingcanon2024]

Hello 🚩🚩🚩 anon here.

I do NOT post about the actors on 9-1-1 and I don't view their SM accounts because I'm not interested in them and I keep my blog posts strictly about the characters on the show. Please understand this isn't a hit against anyone who does since everyone is free to view and look at whatever and whomever they choose. If that's what someone wants to do with their spare time, then more power to them but it's imperative that people keep in mind there's a HUGE difference between a fictional character and a real person.

OS is not Buck, RG is not Eddie, AB is not Athena, PK is not Bobby, JLH is not Maddie, KC is not Chimney and AH is not Hen.

It's evident that somewhere along the way, all the keyboard bullies (people who hide behind their computer screens, type unsavory messages and fixate on a celebrity like they're friends) started to believe that they should have 24/7 access to actors' and actresses' lives when in fact they shouldn't because they DON'T know them at all.

I'll get off my soapbox now and get to the point of this ask.

As I mentioned in a previous anonymous ask, ABC is in the business of making a profit. They're a national network with a CEO who has to answer to their shareholders because they're the ones who invest (shareholder) or loan (debtholder) money to them so they can make money on Wall Street via dividends (investments) or interest payments (loans).

Now on to all the "theories" that have been sent to Erica as asks.

After reading through them, it seems that anons have gone from (please note these aren't direct quotes just paraphrases):

"OMG OS hired someone to handle his SM accounts"

to

"People in this fandom are the worst because they've made him take down his IG pictures"

or

"He's protecting his mental health"

While it's possible his reason for doing it could be any one of these, the truth is ONLY OS KNOWS WHY HE CHANGED HIS IG PROFILE!

The only thing anyone other than him knows with certainty is it's been changed but no one knows the reason why except for the person who changed it.

Speculation is usually wildly unfounded and one option I haven't read about why he changed it relates to his EMPLOYER, ABC. Let's be real here for a minute because sometimes an employer's restrictions, guidelines or policies and procedures cause people to make changes to their SM accounts. It's like this in certain industries (I know it's like that in the one I'm affiliated with) so my point is, ABC may have told the actors and actresses on 9-1-1 to limit their BTS content and it could be as simple as that and nothing else.

It's possible there's no deeper reason for this other than ABC wants to control what is and isn't released so viewers can't figure out what's going to happen in the 10 episodes that will be airing starting March 14th. Also, if speculators were paying attention to the limited teaser trailers that they've released so far, it's kind of obvious they don't want anyone to know anything about the upcoming season except for the cruise ship disaster.

Additionally, AB is the only person they're currently promoting so that's something else that should be taken into consideration.

Finally, the only thing I know about OS's SM habits is the stuff I've read here on 911blr and IIRC, he does interesting things with his SM accounts all the time. Like it's been posted that he'll delete all his pictures then reupload them or he'll erase everything and start over so maybe... just maybe, he's going through one of his "I feel like doing something different with my IG account phases" and that's all it is.

Either way, NO ONE knows what happened or caused him to change it but him so please, stop posting all these wild accusations without having any real FACTS!

Thanks anon for your ask/comments on the Oliver instagram mess. Very considerate of you.

#oliver stark #911 on abc

[smiletimeisrunningout]

🫥 Have you ever felt invisible? What was a way that the RP community made you feel better?

🪅What are holidays like for you? / from: sharmawit -> Kathani Sharma

(though any muse of mine you feel emphasis on comfortable talking to is good by me, just to let you know *finger guns*)

@sharmawit

Have you ever felt invisible? What was a way that the RP community made you feel better?

I don't really feel INVISIBLE per se because when it comes to chatting I actually rarely feel like talking to people every day, maybe one or two because we jump from topic to topic, we 'find each other' in the way we mix roleplaying things and little things about ourselves, but I can't nor want to do more than that, I'm too chronically sick to afford more talking. And when it comes to roleplaying, here's the thing: there are always a LOT of people who will not engage with me, either they don't plot ooc and threads fizzle or we simply don't hit off with threads, which happens a lot, but it's something that happens to everyone because we are wildly different poeple with an interest in common but lots of different preferences when it comes to who and what we want to write, so I don't really feel invisible because knowing this, I just keep looking for people who will write with me. Sure, maybe 80% of my followers won't, but the 20% left will and that's enough to keep me occupied, plus I always look for new followers. So I guess the good thing about RP is that it DOESN'T make me feel invisible because I will assume that if I keep looking I'll find people who will write and be interested, and because I have other hobbies too when they are busy. Plus I think it's best to learn not ot be upset if things don't work out with someone because you have different ways to write or to enjoy a hobby. I'm CASUAL about it, I don't want to put an effort unless it comes spontaneous like when I go in hyperfocus lol

This answer got so long lol It's just that I know some people feel left out and I know it sucks, but I'm lucky in that sense because I keep sneaking into new fandoms and finding new people AND I don't want to be part of groups, I don't have the time nor energy for chatting!

What are holidays like for you?

Well, we are extremely poor, so in a way they are difficult because we can't contribute with food or anything nor buy presents, but I love the concept of them, because for me it's about the entire family reuniting in someone's house and spending entire days together with little breaks, playing, eating and talking, at least when it's Christmas/New Year/Easter, though I get tired very quickly and hide home to go back to my laptop, usually! Sometimes they get a bit sadder because being super sick and unable to go out while others celebrate sucks, but I make up for it with Christmas lights and other things that cheer me up!

#answered #meerawrites #thank you!

[universalsatan]

obligatory introduction post

hi guys i'm mando. (my father and abuelo are nando).

i'm trans in a hyper-macho/repressed way (han solo, dean winchester, indiana jones, you get the picture), bi in a very gay way (i have been pining over the same idiot for the past 5 years, which might make appearances in tags), adhd and autistic in the sexiest way possible (oscillate wildly between golden retriever and spock). i also stream on twitch sometimes, under a pseudonym you totally can't find by snooping through a music link included in this post.

this account is literally whatever i feel like (occasional 18+ humour, follow under your own discretion etc etc). the only thing i properly tag anymore is vid so i can find them again easier, and "personal" if i gotta vent or whatever (for potential tag blocking purposes). i still update the star trek blog, my dean aesthetic blog, and my bfu one (once in a blue moon), but they are products of past hyperfixations (which i may or may not return to on occasion).

i do a lot of writing (give it up for escapism as a coping method 🤪), particularly on my ao3 (+pwp account), of which i'll post updates on my writing blog as well.

fanfic-wise, there is always a lot of variation, so your best bet at prediction (especially considering my chronic exhaustion as a deterrent) is the fandoms list on ao3 or the stuff i've been posting on this blog. original work-wise, i tend to write comedic satire. i currently have one published work, but it is in my university's anthology, and i will not just dox myself so easily lol. once my exhaustion clears up and i start to submit to magazines/contests again, maybe i'll start sharing that too.

i am also an academic (ewwww). i am planning on going to med school and doing research (and have been considering writing papers in the near future too), but am also a huge nerd in both musicology and english related stuff, ESPECIALLY media analysis. (i don't tend to post a lot of media analysis, but i might pop off in tags if my meds freshly kick in)

autism fixation is definitely music (as in, way too much music history—eg. i was obsessed and even crushed over classical composers in elementary school; am always in a handful of music ensembles and own 20+ instruments atm; musicology in the sense of theory and how different songs/genres function and how we as people interpret them; music in cultural anthropology ie how it has affected history in a broader sense and the societal impacts of things such as the western teaching of music (bad), how music has been used as a voice or for protest and to convey different messages, the effect of music in film, my beef against terms like "jazz" or "folk" because (for jazz) like 95% of music can fall under the definition).

ANYWAYS. you can look at my playlists (shoutout to bad taste in music (real, not fake) ), but since a lot of them are messy/outdated and i mostly rely on albums/already-made playlists, feel free to follow my spotify for the sole reason that you can see what i'm listening to (or whether i'm actually having a good taste for once or i'm going insane listening to heinz baked beans the who or megalovania on repeat for 7 hours again)

#sorry if yall see this on your dash #maybe i'll actually format this properly at some point when i care enough

[fallintosanity]

Hi Sanity!! F and R for the ask game? <3

Hello hello! <3

F: If you plan, what does your planning process look like?

"Plan" is probably too strong a word for what I do, though I'm not 100% a pants-er either. The way it usually works is, I get an idea for something - a scene, an AU, a character moment, whatever - and let it percolate in the back of my head for a few days or weeks while I'm brushing my teeth, doing chores, whatever. Probably 95% of those ideas never go anywhere at all: either they're not actually that interesting, or I can't figure out enough of a plot or structure to make them work, or they're not for a fandom I'm active in at the moment. And sometimes I just don't have the bandwidth to tackle a whole new fic right then.

But if I get an idea that I feel like I can do something with, I'll start expanding it, maybe bounce it off my beta, until I have the rough shape of the fic. Unfortunately for me, this is rarely a full outline; I tend to leave big gaps that I promise myself I'll figure out when I get there. XD Still, there's usually a point where I feel like I have "enough", and that's when I start putting words on paper.

For better or worse, I'm not one of the writers who can write out of order - I can't start with the scenes I know the best or want to write the most, and then figure out later how to tie them all together; I have to write from beginning to end. So usually the finished fic ends up veering off my original planned course to some degree. For example, The Basis of Reality originally had a wildly different ending that was much closer to what Ep: Ignis turned out to be. But aside from Ep:I scooping my plot, various scenes and interactions that came up as I wrote steered the fic away from that original plan to a second ending. That second ending didn't pass the beta test, so I scrapped it and reworked it to what I ended up posting, which I'm much happier with. Providence is on ending 1.5; I had a vague and incomplete idea for an ending early on that quickly got scrapped and replaced with my current plan. (We'll see if that ends up changing again. XD ) As for What Stays and What Fades, the ending was originally, uh, one of those big gaps I left for myself, whoops. I have an ending in mind now, but I'm still noodling over it for a couple of spoilery reasons.

R: Which is more difficult, the title or the summary?

The title. Oh god, the title. XD Don't get me wrong, summaries aren't easy, but I learned to do elevator pitches back in college and that's basically what a summary is. Titles, on the other hand, are simultaneously completely worthless and incredibly important, especially on AO3. I, and anecdotally a lot of other people, barely glance at titles on AO3 - we look at summaries and tags first, and the title doesn't matter unless it has some kind of red flag like multiple misspellings or something. On the other hand, and especially for anywhere other than AO3, the title is usually the first thing people see of the fic. So the title has to be interesting enough to catch people's attention, but also short enough to be a title, but also meaningful enough to suggest what the fic is about and make it easy for people to remember which fic it is and talk about it, but also not give away too much, but also but also but also... D:

so uh yeah titles (ﾉಥДಥ)ﾉ ︵┻━┻･/

Ask me stuff, or Ask me stuff!

#turtlewobbles #ask meme #sanity replies

[celestial-thoughts]

TUF 18, Chapter 4 // Facing the Facts (finale edition part 3)

Fandom: The Ultimate Fighter Pairing(s): Shayna x Dakota, platonic Shayna & Jessamyn

Week 2, Thursday

As a rule, Shayna almost never cries. She just doesn't. But week 2 of fight camp is apparently an exception to the rules. It's the week when the exhaustion from "hard week," the anxiety of knowing fight night is coming up fast, and the dread of the impending weight cut all collide in an overwhelming mix of emotions.

But if there was ever a week for Dakota to surprise Shayna during camp, it's this week. She's been there, right by Shayna's side all week. She's coaxed Shayna out of bed in the morning when training is the last thing Shayna wants to do. She's held Shayna in her arms and whispered quiet words of comfort while Shayna cried for no apparent reason. She's made training something she looks forward to rather than dreads.

After their morning training session on Thursday, Shayna and Jessamyn decide to drive to the drugstore to pick up Advil, heat packs, and all the other fight week essentials. They invite Dakota to come with them, but she tells them that she has plans to meet a friend for lunch. Jess is secretly glad that it's just her and Shayna. Not because she has a problem with Dakota, but because she's been waiting for an opportunity to talk to Shayna. It's a conversation that is certainly overdue.

Jess waits until they're on the main road before glancing at Shayna. "So, are we just going to keep ignoring the obvious?" she asks.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Shayna says, staring straight ahead as she drives, eyes hidden behind her aviators.

"I'll take that as a yes," Jessamyn says with a sigh. She's quiet for a moment, before turning to look at Shayna. "You know you can talk to me, right?" she asks.

Shayna nods, but doesn't say anything as she pulls into the parking lot. She turns off the car and unbuckles her seat belt, but doesn't move to get out of the car. She leans back, resting her head against the headrest of the seat and lets out a heavy sigh. "I just don't know what to do Jess," she admits.

"About Dakota?" Jess asks.

Shayna nods. "I just don't know if it's worth the risk," she explains. "I can't lose her, Jess. She's too important to me." Even though she's wearing sunglasses, Jess can see the fear in Shayna's eyes.

"How do you know you're going to lose her?" Jess asks.

Shayna sighs. "Because if I tell her how I feel about her, she's not going to want to be friends anymore."

"What makes you say that?" Jess prompts.

"Because friendships get awkward when one person likes the other one and those feelings aren't reciprocated," Shayna says.

Jess can't help but smile fondly at her best friend. Of course Shayna is oblivious to Dakota’s feelings towards her. Jessamyn doesn't expect anything different from her. "How do you know those feelings aren't reciprocated?" she asks.

At this, Shayna lifts the aviators off of her eyes, pushing them onto her head. "Because she's wildly out of my league, Jess. Have you seen her? She's just so..." Shayna trails off, blushing, and she turns to stare out the window.

"Okay first of all, you can just say she's hot," Jess teases, because she's Shayna's best friend and it's her job to tease sometimes. "But also," she says, getting more serious. "She's not out of your league. And I know you're not going to believe that but I at least need to say it so you can hear it, even if you think it's wrong."

Shayna rolls her eyes. "The point is, nothing good is going to come out of me telling her how I feel, so I'm just not going to do it," she says.

"But what if something good does come out of it?" Jess asks. "What if you tell her how you feel and she feels the same way?"

Shayna stays quiet, thinking over her friend's words. Despite her doubts that Dakota would ever feel the same way, she can't help but smile at the thought. She glances over at Jess, who currently has a very satisfied smirk on her face, and rolls her eyes. "Alright, lets just get what we came here for so we can get back to the gym," she says as she opens the door.

"You mean so you can get back to Dakota?" Jess teases as she climbs out of the car.

"Shut up," Shayna fires back, but she's smiling. "Besides, if I am going to tell her, it's not going to be until after the fight. I'm about to make my UFC debut, I can't be distracted right now."

"I know," Jess says. "But after?"

#the ultimate fighter #tuf 18 #jessamyn duke #shayna baszler #dakota kai #my writing

[margle]

thoughts on tone indicators and the generational language gap

((long post to get something out of my system because it interests me. doubt anyone else would find this interesting))

I recently saw @hbmmaster 's (jan misali) video on tone indicators and it got me thinking about how offline, older generations would understand and approach tone indicators. I specifically am thinking about older, offline generations because I am presuming that there is a wider gap in language understanding due to the meaning of acronyms, phrases and even words changing wildly between older and younger generations. The most common example of that would be lol: 'lots of love' or 'laugh out loud'.

Prior to jan's video I only barely knew what tone indicators actually stood for, aside from /j. My reaction to them was one of general confusion but I was always too lazy to look up their proper meaning. After I watched the video I wrote down what my initial wrong translations of tone indicators were because I was amused at how incorrect I was.

Recently, I was talking to my mum and stumbled across a common issue between us: she can never tell when I am joking or being sarcastic and it often causes offence. This is probably a mutual issue as I have been told I don't offer any indication in my tone when I am telling a joke, aside from sometimes smiling. However, she also struggles to decipher tone. Because of this misunderstanding, I was reminded of tone indicators and I brought it up with her to see what she thought of them. I told her that tone indicators were used online to tell the reader what tone a potentially ambiguous statement was (e.g. a joke). I asked what she thought they meant and found some interesting results.

This isn't really a proper experiment because I gave her the indicators out of context, whereas I had experienced them all for the first time in the wild. Nevertheless, the difference between my initial understanding of them and hers is interesting. (/j and /hj aren't included because I explained them to her as context).

/hyp (hyperbole)

I thought: /hyperbolic She thought: /hyper

/s (sarcastic)

I thought: /serious She thought: /serious

/pos (positive)

I thought: /piece of shit She thought: /point of sale

/gen (genuine)

I thought: /genuine She thought: /general

The most interesting one here is /pos. Obviously, within context, she may have been able work out that it stood for something else, but this demonstrates that different generations can have wildly different understandings of common acronyms. Im tired now and can't be arsed to go into this but I promise there are insightful things you can say about this.

Anyway, language is weird and interesting. For a long time I thought people using /pos were being strange and threatening and if my mum saw it maybe she would think they were talking about advertising (unlikely). It is fun how we can both be so wrong but in such different ways.

A side note: until a few days ago I thought that when people said (gn) on tumblr they were saying 'good night'. Nope, means 'gender neutral'.

Example:

This goes out to all my chronically online girlies (gn).

While 'good night' kind of makes sense at the end of a sentence, as a sort of sign off, in any other context it is clear that it means something else. Strangely, I just presumed that they were using 'good night' in a sarcastic way.

Example:

I love fandom girlies (gn), they are so fun to talk to.

I would have understood this as: I love fandom girlies ( actually not really, I hate them because they are boring and make me go to sleep).

Another interesting (disputable) thing is that I thought 'oomfs' was an onomatopoeic way of writing the roblox death sound. Idk man.

Like all things I write, this doesn't really have an end so I'll sort of just let it fizzle out.

#long post #boring #only interesting to me #tone indicators #language #linguistics

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

Sometimes I need to get thoughts out of my brain you know?

(this is literally just me talking about knitting for awhile and then strangely, AH and my mental health tbh)

I wrote a knitting pattern that should be going up for sale this week (I hope??) and it's so wild to me bc I really only started knitting about a year ago? Like October of 2019. I'd tried multiple times ever since I learned to crochet when I was like 10, but just always struggled and hated it until one day it just... Clicked? And now I wrote a real pattern that I'm immensely proud of and I love and genuinely think is good?

I finished one and so did my mom, and we both have multiple other colorways in the works and it's because we've both had such a good time making it. I really do think it's beautiful as a pattern and I know the shawls people could make would be astounding. And I don't mean it in a 'look what a great pattern I made, what I'VE created is so wonderful' or egotistical or whatever way, I just... Genuinely love it.

The wildest part is that is started bc I was just... Fucking around with colors I liked. There was so much shit happening in October and I could not shut any part of my brain off enough with anything else, and I was so stressed and in such a bad place, so I just fucked around and made something that might give me comfort. The idea that this could be the Start Of Something because of that blows my mind.

And I'm mostly kidding here but I'm also terrified someone is going to say something about my color choice for the original and I'm going to have to admit that I 105% made it in Rimmy Tim colors bc they were the only thing I could stand to look at at the time. How do I begin to explain that to some woman on ravelry??

Anyway here's pics of part of it

Bc the actual pattern isn't out yet but I assure you there are more purple/orange bits and much less yellow as it goes on. But like... I made this! I did something! And it was completely born out of anxiety and my dear love for Jeremy's ridiculous color scheme. Which is fuckin hilarious and also part of why I love it so much.

I don't know my point here, but it's just... The world is fuckin weird sometimes. The things that inspire us. The things that turn into bigger things way beyond our imagination. Like if I hadn't stumbled upon a rage quit video 7 or 8 years ago I never would have made this. Because I wouldn't have gotten into AH, wouldn't have seen Jeremy's content, wouldn't have such a dear love for this color scheme, wouldn't have been in the kind of shit place I was in October for some of the reasons I was, wouldn't have turned to knitting to help ease the anxiety I had, wouldn't have made this thing.

Which is not even to mention all of the other parts of my life that would be different, like if I hadn't stayed on tumblr primarily bc of the AH fandom, I never would have connected with some of the wonderful folks I have, my writing would be either in a completely different place or non existent (which rn... lmao) my sense of humor might be wildly different to what it is and I might not have connected with my best friend the way that I have. He introduced me to bands that have forever shaped the way I listen to music. I went to my first concert bc of him. Would we have the relationship we have if the way I joked wasn't shaped by AH? Like the list goes on.

Honestly who would I be today if I had never heard Michael yell "swiss fucking cheese" and immediately watched other stuff he had done? Again, not even to get into what effect it's had on my mental health like... There were points where my only reason for not killing myself was so I could at least see whatever video was coming up. Which is ridiculous in a lot of ways but also even if it's something small hold on to it you know? And I'm so fucking grateful for that. It helped get me far enough to my childhood best friend coming back into my life one particular night when it wasn't enough, which is some timing I'll forever wonder about.

I just... Who would I be? Would I be at all? Shit, would I be a wildly more successful version of me instead? I don't know. I think I'm happy though, where I am. Happier than I used to be, at least. I think that counts for something. I'm not where I want to be but at least I'm not where I used to be, etc.

Anyway I really went on and on didn't I? This started as me wanting to make a joke about my first shawl pattern being Rimmy Tim colors, and then I just started thinking things. The world is weird. Life is weird. I am honestly glad to still be here though. And I think that's good.

#HOO BOY I GOT EMOTIONS TONIGHT #if anyone reads this: thank you i love you #youre the real hero for actually reading this mess #uhhhhh i should probably tag some things #tw: suicide #idk the word for like... mildly freaking out at the connectedness of events and how different things could be without them #existentialism? i guess? #idk man #i am ok i am just feeling things #the suicide ment is not current #it is very past i promise #ks gets personal