#so maybe it's a good choice after all ;)

[corallapis]

the important thing to remember about the "five watching the master burn to death on sarn" situation is that the last time they saw each other was in 'the king's demons' where the master deliberately engineered a situation where the doctor would have to beg for the master's life & then show just how much (little) those words meant by being made to choose an innocent's life over the master's. the master screams as he's being forced into the iron maiden. the doctor can't watch, doesn't even turn his head, squeezes his eyes shut. when it dematerializes, the doctor looks to whatever the gallifreyan equivalent of the heavens is in relief/exasperation. the master laughs to himself in delight inside his tardis. the doctor looks just a little unwillingly fond as tegan asks "what's the master up to?"

so when we get to 'planet of fire', with the master cajoling, threatening, begging, "won't you show mercy to your own—?" it's a boy who cried wolf situation. is he condemning the master to death in that moment? is he letting him burn under the assumption that it is a trick? the hope that it is? clara doesn't tell him "if you have ever let this creature live, everything that happened today is on you" until lifetimes later, but you know that same refrain is running through his head. he can't, in good conscience, save the master — the man who killed his fourth self, who killed nyssa's father & now walks around in his corpse, who destroyed nyssa's entire planet & people & a whole entire third of the universe, who abducted adric & tortured him. i think five looks determined as he watches the master burn but also, briefly, devastated. he walks towards the flames after the master disappears... hoping for what? the sound of the master's tardis again? his laughter? but the doctor has to turn and walk back to his tardis in silence.

#and then ainley isn't dead after all in 'mark of the rani' so who knows... maybe five was right not to fall for the 'trick' #i've made gifs of the king's demons part of this but idk if ppl connect it to planet of fire #there's something. something about the decision being simultaneously in & out of the doctor's hands in both these situations. #something about the master orchestrating things... the illusion of choice. the illusion of hands being tied. #the doctor's self-shouldered burden of Goodness vs a little selfish hope that he hides even from himself. #that the master drags into the light. #doctor x master #dw #(eta: in the heady compulsion to make this point i forgot that the last time they saw each other was actually in 'the five doctors' lmao) #(but i think the point still stands)

[andthebeanstalk]

Betty is so relatable I would do the same shit for my wife

#simon petrikov #original #at #the moment where she declares that she's jumping into the future to save him. just pure save-husband impulse #and maybe she made the wrong choice but I felt the emotion in my gut and that's good tragedy baby #I would do the same thing and then be in the future and realize I probably fucked up but also what else could I do but #devote my entire life and sanity to saving her after I have destroyed every other option?? #it's not healthy necessarily but a fucking apocalypse happened and her wife is in eternal torment. what else could she possibly do?? #I'm just obsessed with the attitude she has towards saving him and how it turns from joyful heroism to unhealthy obsession #I have a much healthier relationship with my wife. but also she's never been driven mad by a magical crowd for a thousand years! #and Betty did it!! y'all can argue about whether Ice King was better than Simon and I think he must make peace with every part of himself #but it is extremely consistent in the original series that being Ice King is basically this existentially horrifying Eternal torture #so the fact that someone who loved him decided they would save him from that at all costs is very sad and very beautiful #beautiful because no one deserves to suffer forever. tragic because she was far to willing to take his place if she had to. #betty grof #fionna and cake #golbetty #golb #*driven mad by a magical crown #you forgot your floaties #edit: upon rewatching every episode with betty in it i will say i don't think i would be so hellbent on murdering the person she had become #betty does act selfishly and it makes her character more compelling #but i like to think if my wife went banana-pants ice-king-level bonkers i would be able to love that version of her too #but who's to say whether this story would be the reason I responded differently? #it's a good story

[rickybaby]

Laurent Mekies on Daniel’s race in Shanghai via Autosport

#I doubt Daniel would have gotten a point anyway #the m-m-s strategy looked good on paper and while it was kind of ruined by the timing of the safety car #I don’t think the RB would have the pace enough to make that final charge on softs really count #I know a lot has already been said about RB’s strategy making abilities #i love that Daniel seems to have a say on what strategies he wants #which after mclaren is so refreshing #and I have to admit despite his quali results; this year and last year he has been really good at making them work for him in the race #but I do feel Daniel’s sometimes a bit too ambitious with his choice of strategy?? #by his own admission he chose to start on the mediums in Japan and we all know this sorta played into the crash with Alex #on one hand I would rather him go for a more conservative strategy that mirrors what the cars in the midfield are on #on the other hand. now that he seems to be getting his pace back. maybe those ambitious strategies would pay off??? #daniel ricciardo #China24

[tricksterlatte]

There's something absolutely ironic and even compelling to me about the domino effect regarding Akechi and Sae's interactions. Akechi had to deceive everyone, including his coworkers. Sae in particular was closely tied to the investigations of the crimes he was committing, so of course appearing as non-threatening or even annoying as possible to her was in his best interests.

However, his petty but arguably feeble masquerade is what led to his cognitive self in Sae's brain presumably being easy for the Phantom Thieves to tie up? He was too good at deception and it led to Sae's perception of him being sopping wet cat, which was easy for the Thieves to subdue, so the threatening, real Akechi wouldn't stumble upon Sae's cognition of him as he went to murder Joker.

I know people usually discuss Shido's cognitive Akechi and the implications regarding Akechi's presentation of himself and his layers of deception, but Sae's is the direct contrast to Shido's, and it's very interesting to look at how being a petty little asshole to your stressed out hot lady coworker about her skincare routine can also contribute to her thinking of you a a nuisance at best (until it was almost too late for everyone involved, but hey, it worked out for the best? I think).

I love the layers of Akechi's deception because he was cunning to a fault. Sometimes I wish we could have seen how the Thieves interacted with Sae's cognition of him, because both Sae and Shido had a very biased perception of him, and it makes me wonder who really knew Akechi at all. I'm rambling here, but it's been on my mind for ages. I would love to see if her cognitive Akechi changed after 11/20, considering he went from annoying junior detective to a dangerous murderer in just one day for her, and she doesn't remember any of third semester or even 12/24 when he was there.

#parker says things #I love Sae I love everything she represents and her impact on the story so much #She's probably my favorite non Thief character other than MAYBE Sojiro and it shows #This was on my mind as I wrote her and Akechi interacting post canon because wow they barely did and we didn't see any of it on 12/24? #hardly any #I wanna know how she'd react to his actual demeanor especially after 11/20's hellscape #she walked out of that room suspecting him due to Joker and then came back to a murder scene even if that was the metaverse #actually so fascinating to think about how she had no choice but to adapt #and her palace was still there? Atlus give me more please #p5 spoilers #goro akechi the man that you are god I love you and your masks and deception and true self #and how those masks deceive even the player. sometimes even long after completing the game #on all sides. god it's so good #I love any characters who make me think I love morally gray characters who are actually morally gray #ahhhhhhhhhhh

[leafy-m]

I got Witch Hat Atelier Kitchen volume 3 a little early and guys.... GUYS!! THIS is what Kitchen in English should be like! 💥💝💖

If you like Orufrey, you have got to get volume 3!

#I don't know if the homophobic supervisor or whoever got moved to another project or what... BUT THANK YOU! 💝💝💝 #FINALLY! SOME GOOD FOOD! #I mean I am still side-eyeing the end of chapter 30 because Olruggio's line Should be about how they're finally living under the same roof. #BUT OH MY GOD what a difference everything else makes #They mention alcohol! They admit the loop chalices are usually for wine!! #The word choices for how delicious the food is is so great! #I'm gonna have to look up wtf the bananas are named after but aside from that!!! #Qifrey and Olruggio can actually say each others names and they're so friggin adorable!!! 😤💝 Mr I can go all day!! #I'm so happy ya'll I can't believe it 😭💝 #I feel so hopeful for volume 4 now #Also I'm half-way wondering if maybe they could revisit the translations for volumes 1 and 2 and maybe release an updated version maybe? #because I would absolutely buy those again if it were less censored and had better word choices. Just putting it out there! ❤ #Like maybe after volume 5 do a box-set with a little bonus item maybe and secretly slide-in the more accurate and better translated version #I'd buy it! I'd be first in line!! #Just sayin! #Witch Hat Atelier Kitchen #Witch Hat Kitchen #Orufrey #Witch Hat Atelier #Also there's some REALLY cute moments with the girls #(I say; as a total afterthought; sorry I'm so transparent lmao) #Jade talks WHA

[seenthisepisode]

this haunts me

#I KNOW THIS IS NOT THE SAME TIE but the callback to castiel's iconic tie here... i refuse to believe it was an accident. #i also don't think it was deliberate choice from production - if anything i believe that maybe jensen unhinged deangirl ackles chose this #my watsonian explanaion for this is when cas died in 12x23 and dean buried him he took his tie off and kept it and hid it in his closet #at first he couldn't even look at it because it was too painful but then cas came backa and all was good again so the tie just stayed in #one of dean's drawers kind of forgotten. and then after cas is taken away in 15x18 and dean is back in the depression pit he finds it #and chooses to wear it on his last hunt ever. i don't even know. i am feeling very bad today #spn finale #destiel #spn 15x20 #spn 12x23 #dean #cas

[runefactorynonsense]

Cozytober - Day 26 - Catnap

#Cozytober #Margot's RF Art #rune factory #rf1 #rf #This sketch was actually done back on June 6th of this year. I was knee deep in my Seattle vacation planning/stress and never finished it-- #I think I'd just found Home Run Derby tickets finally?? Or not long after that. And I was still scared to death I was making a mistake. #Silly past Margot! It was the best day of your life! #So I remember I did this sketch as just general human pose practice after someone else did the 'tree nap' pose of their OCs. #And so I grabbed it for today's prompt because!! I still liked how the anatomy turned out! #Context my brain goes with; #if I subscribe to the 'Raguna on the run from the Empire' theory then I strongly lean toward the Lynette pairing. #Safe life in Kardia- doesn't feel like the right context most of the time. Not bad. Just. Not as interesting a story. #On the run- This feels like just... a smart choice. Group up once those Empire targeting efforts escalate. #Perhaps he has to deal with the painful compromise and necessity of her lethality because he might be more likely to survive #And he WANTS to survive #AKA- if you can escape. Escape. He's good at it. But if the situation comes down to it.... Lynette can make sure who walks out. #And to reverse the pov- maybe a bit of atonement on her part? All the blood is only on her hands. She'll keep it that way. Let her do that. #He shouldn't have to. It's all her fault anyway. #Also please laugh at me as it took me half an hour to remember the word COMPROMISE. I was so mad. #Rune Factory Raguna #RF Raguna #Rune Factory Lynette #RF Lynette #another ship tag to fill #Raguna x Lynette

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Opinions on Dream? :^

SO many feelings about him omgg rant under cut please forgive me

okay so i don't really talk or draw him much cause honestly,,,most of the times i just think he's a bit....boring? or more accurately plain? not in a mean way either but just in a 'fades into the background' type of way like don't get me wrong!! he's a really nice friend to his peers, his feelings about his powers and aura making his relationships harder to navigate and trust along with his whole conflict with nightmare and morality about what's good and bad IS very cool!! and i love it whenever they write him to be complex and not on this black and white mentality or when he's just straight up following along his friends with no free will or with a dubious purpose without ever addressing his issues or feelings! it's just unsatisfying to me :')

or when they're making him the 'naive' and oblivious, (sometimes childish?) character being marked as the obstacle and villain along with the other star sanses from the fic's pov, always talking about doing good things while fighting his brother and not hearing him out about the balance, (and for weak reasons most of the time. like it's been so long and you STILL haven't sat down with him when he's, generally, basically begged you to just have a talk? guys please :'( ) or when they go for the victim sad dream always missing the old nightmare, where corrupted nightmare is the incarnation of evil, with no sympathy or emotion except anger and sadistic glee, killing and hurting everyone and dream's just trying to protect the multiverse and dream's always been in the right. such extremes!!!

LIKE!! i hope i'm not the only one that thinks a 500+ year old should have had enough time to idk. learn things? about people and manipulation and deceit? after knowing what the villagers did to night? about the bad things in the world and how there's a lot of grey areas in life and that he maybe reflected on his past enough to process and ask himself if there should to be a convo to settle his differences with nightmare (and you can make nightmare the stubborn one too! or have them BOTH be petty and imperfect and have some things wrong and some right at the same time like why do i always see the good guy vs bad guy cliché with these two when they're the perfect example of why positivity doesn't have meaning without the negativity!! as long as there's a satisfying evolution or growth that doesn't leave me empty i'm good yknow?)

plus i believe dream really isn't as dumb as people view him. i do get some of you saying he probably can't read or write since that's actually a pretty interesting idea to explore! but in general please let him have emotions other than pure sunshiny happiness or endless sadness like he's gotta have more depth than that! let him make mistakes, have flaws that don't just make him the bad guy that's always in the wrong by default, and be angry or suspicious or jealous or bitter or battling his mental health problems/depression or malicious or smart or witty or mischievous and silly or sarcastic or ANYTHING dude i just want him to be put into different scenarios where he can be serious or lighthearted like it doesn't even have to be long or perfect but make him feel real.

it could definitely be that i don't read or see much art about dream or really look for it hard enough but also i just. i feel bad for even saying this fr and i wanna be honest about why i don't enjoy most stories about him cause he always gets the worst treatment along with ink!!! especially ink omg the poor guy has it the worst i think like wow do they mess him up :'(

always one dimensional in non shippy fics, or too plain or easily replaceable by other, more entertaining people in the significant other's life in most of his ships like man. i have read fics out there that made me genuinely FEEL and root for him and love his character so much it restored all hope for me!!! but i can only name one on top of my head and the others? it's been so long i don't even remember their names i just legit feel terrible cause i love him still and i can't find many headcanons that fit my interpretation of him yknow?

not to say people who write him very happy, mislead or sad are ruining him like that's silly- if i see something i don't like i just. move on bro i wouldn't force people to feel or think the same way i do about him cause anyone can have whatever headcanons they want!!! just talking about what i personally look for in him and why i can't exactly find it since most of the stuff out there just isn't my cup of tea :')

hopefully i didn't set anyone off with this rambling opinionated essay i just pulled hhh xD i know i know he's a popular character and i know a lot of people like dream so *sobs* please please recommend me artists and fics about him that you think is good it's been so looong since i've read or seen anything new that makes me attached to this little guy aughg<33333

#ask #rambling #delete later? #probably xD i just wanna love him SO much but sometimes he's just *sigh*...forgettable #i tried to explain myself but also it's like 4 am and i skimmed through the proofreading so don't take this too seriously HHH #like really even when i do read good fics about him he's not on the forefront of my mind and it's painful to me :'( #i used to see him as my third fav but now? ever since i've read and seen characters who get heavier more in depth plots? #i can't say it with as much confidence :') and dream lovers out there i am not bashing your choice or even your headcanons #to each their own but i really wanna hear someone be passionate about him in my feed or askbox like TELL me about him #i've seen ink rants out there that are FIRE like so true!!! but where's the dream defense team??? #maybe it's just me tho :') btw i still like cream but not the same way as before if i'm being real #it feels the same...all of it and it makes me wanna bite something ARGHGG #i know i know i ship some stuff that's basic too hhh but dream and cross are always written the same and dream is too innocent #and nightmare is too weird in some of these fics like if MY brother ever tried to literally attack my hypothetical partner???? #i wouldn't give him the :'((( sad face and weakly tell him to 'please stop...you're hurting him'' like NO girl they're TWINS #they're the same age i would tell him to BACK off and not insert himself in my love life after years of ignoring and fighting LIKE #especially since most of the time cross is actually good to dream and all- so he doesn't have a good reason to disrupt his bro's dates #UGH i just have so many opinions but basically i would love him a lot lot more than i do now if they also let him be more flexible #and shake things up like with shattered and stuff! gimme alternate versions of him even if it's too ooc like we do for all the other sanses #jaa i am SO sorry you had to read all that dude thank you so much for passing by :'D

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

#might delete later I’m just wide awake and miserable #summer bill came out today and it’s $7100 not including housing which will be $2400 #literally dunno how im gonna pay for that and my dad is. adding to the emotional turmoil of it all #not able to get a loan at least not before the bill is due #able to get aid luckily but again who knows when or how much #my bday is tomorrow and for months I’ve been like please just let my bday be a good day i need one #i need some hope. not that I haven’t had good experiences lately bc I have. but nothing that lasts #nothing i get to feel good about for more than a day before a new problem drops #I need to enjoy my birthday without feeling this deep dark dread and fear and fucking guilt and hopelessness #I have fun plans for today And tomorrow and I’m grateful but honestly stressed about that too #bc it’s gonna be a lot + bc of all I need to do outside of that #+ I don’t get to spend my bday w friends the way I want like I have one friend Maybe coming w me #my bday is supposed to feel celebratory and instead it feels like absolutely forcing some illusion of choice or joy in my life #on top of it all. the most peaceful I usually ever feel is in bed w my partner and now my body won’t even let me hold or be held by them #currently laying next to them not touching them so I at least don’t keep them up w how physically miserable I am rn #I’m literally always physically miserable at this point and it feels like spring is never gonna come and provide any relief #but it’s like can I at least be cozy w them. nope instead I’m wide awake facing various horrors #despite being permanently exhausted and falling asleep in class after 40 ounces of coffee #Im just. so fucking unhappy in life rn dude I don’t want life to be like this forever with the constant threat of it getting much worse #fucking shred of joy in this godforsaken world: the sleep noises they r making rn #mine #txt #vent post #suicidal ideation tw #<- cry for help

[immamapletreekid]

instead of grinding for finals i lost hours to a one piece wiki spiral

#IT ALL STARTED...WITH CP9S INDEPENDENT REPORT #in the most predictable fashion. ive yet again fallen for the “dangerous murder bot villains are actually a found family and genuinely care #for one another“ #PLSSS THE WAY THEY ALL WORKED SO HARD TO EARN THE MONEY TO TREAT LUCCI #thinking so hard about how they are one collecfive unit. they move together they work travel live thrive together #giggled so hard at kaku giraffe slide #SOEAKING OF WHICH I JUST LEARNED KAKU IS THE YOUNGEST OUT OF CP9 #HE WAS 18 WHEN THEY PLANTED HIM AND THE OTHERS IN WATER 7 #im not ok im ripping my pillow to shreds punchjng the wall screaming shaking good GOD DJFJ #KALIFAS DAD WAS IN THE PREV GEN OF CP9????? SO SHES RRALLY BEEN THERE THROUGH IT ALL #thinking about lucci and jabra and blueno trio... #yes i originally was devastated to discover my favourite shipwrifjts were actually undercover government assassins but like #the found family.....maybe not found family but FORGED FAMILY THEY MADE IT WORK #i still think it's so silly that. kaku is the youngest but hes second ij terms od power and he speaks like an old man #in my ideal world cp9 brutally murders spandam and they live their best lives after doijg whatever #attention span for stats and cs??? nonexistent #but yea sure i can spend 2 hours memorizing the key detaisl from the wiki entries of all cp9 agents and making a chart and timeline #maybe this is a sign...that i need to fix this before it causes bigger issues #rambling about stuff #wait omg no last thought is how when all the cp9 members reunite after 5 years and firsg thing they do is immediately check their doriki #and jabras upset by how both lucci ajd kakus are higher than his now but then u think about how hes the oldest in their group #heck five years ago when they were sent off to water 7 those two were 23 and FUCKIJG 18 YEARS OLD #OF COURSE HES UPSET THESE TWO FUCKING KIDS ARE STRONGEE THAN HIM #who holds seniority over them. im actually devastated and extremely entertained #the last time u see the youngest of your group hes some 18 year old kid you could best in a spar. maybe even leave some words of wisdom for #then he goes and leanrs how to build ships for 5 years and comes back stronger than u #they are a family to me... HE COULD HAVE ABANDONED TJEM?!?! THEM ALL HAD THE CHOICE OF LEAVING THE OTHERS BEHIND TO SAVE THEMSELVES #BUT THEY DIDNT. HE STILL GAVE KALIFA HIS SHIRT AND CARRIED KAKU ON HIS BACK ALL THE WAY TO ST POPLAR #biting my hands hitting the wall scratchijg the floors screaming shakijg not normal about these guys #THE WAY JABRA HAS A PET CHICKEN TO COUJTER HATTORI

[down-thedrain]

"this world will live on...!" girl no it wont im sorry

#posts in a drainage system #still. undyne's death monologue in genocide is really cool tbh #because really. we dont know how many monsters alphys managed to evacuate. we dont know how big the underground really is #there are ABSOLUTELY parts of it that you never explore in game and thats so wild to me. like. #even though alphys isn't fighting you directly she's probably one of the most important people in the narrative during the genocide run #and yet . none of it really matters in the end. does it #because by the end of genocide you have to make the decision to kill them all in the blink of an eye—as youve been doing the entire game— #or try to convince yourself in one last desperate act that you werent guilty for any of this by letting chara erase the world instead. #the final choice of the genocide run honestly makes me so wacky. like man . i could go ON about that shit #anyways this was about undynes speech. but yeah its a perfect example of dramatic irony for people familiar with the story #and if you aren't. youve probably become dissociated from your feelings about these characters if youve gotten this far into the geno run #BUT this speech is still so powerful. like maybe the monsters WILL find away to live on after this. even after their families and way of #life have been completely destroyed. even though that's the complete OPPOSITE of what youre trying to achieve during genocide #agh . such a good game

[running-in-the-dark]

I know I've been particularly incoherent for the past few days (again), and it's so dramatic and ridiculous but it seriously feels like something is punishing me. I just want to like things a normal amount. I just want to like people and characters a normal amount.

I don't want to become so fully obsessed that literally nothing else exists and thinking about anything else feels like my brain is being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives. I don't want to need to find every piece of information I possibly can on whoever it is this time. I don't want to feel like I'm (literally) losing my mind when I see them. I don't want any of this!

I can not believe that I exist as a human being on this stupid planet just to get obsessed with people over and over and over again forever.

#like it's not. fun. it's not 'oh haha I just like this guy a lot :3' no it feels like. dying. #like I said I know it's fucking dramatic I know. but it feels SO BAD #and sometimes SO GOOD because nothing else gives my brain that feeling but god damn it most of the time it's just painful #maybe I should try drugs #probably. #maybe I should start drinking again #that made it bearable #but no that's. stupid #but my god how am I supposed to go through this again and again and again so many times in a row #I don't know how to explain how fucking devastating it is to attach yourself to. some stupid idiot (I'm sorry I don't mean that.). only to #not really care anymore after a couple months #what do you MEAN. I literally love this person with every stupid fibre of my stupid being and now he's just. some guy again?? #I don't know. how. not to do this. it's not a choice! it's not something I DO. it HAPPENS to me. #and it only doesn't happen when I'm so depressed that I want to actively die. #anyway yeah it's about John Larroquette and Dan Fielding and Jenkins and yeah I'm the fucking stupidest fucking dumbass on earth #someone hit me in the head to fix my brain please #and seriously this is not normal. it can not be normal. this is not how normal people feel about stuff. it can't be #I think this is why I don't get fandom culture. and shipping specifically. like. no I'm not. I'm not enjoying these characters. I'm not #watching this show and thinking aww these two should kiss :) #I'm. not there anymore. I don't fucking exist. all I do. is think about this person. I can't stop it. #I am not a person when I don't feel like this. I'm not even real. I'm just whoever I'm obsessed with. I say that so much but that's how it #feels! I'm not real. #so anyway when I say 'haha I'm fine' what I mean is no I'm not someone make my brain work right please #I just. see him and start crying. because it's so overwhelming. #maybe I should find a therapist and hope they speak English and show them this post :) #haha no that's ridiculous I could never mention this to a normal person #guess I'll just keep driving myself to insanity with this crap. #personal

[designernishiki]

im at the haruka + akiyama duo section of 5 now and i love it <3 both for the uncle/niece sort of dynamic they have and because i fucking love me a murder mystery baby

#weirdly very good choice of character to help haruka solve the crime and all that considering he #went to fucking law school amazingly enough #like. he’d actually know what the fuck he’s talking about despite how incompetent he seems on the surface fjddcjendgj #he’s actually got CREDENTIALS #anyway yeah also their dynamic is just very sweet and I’m so fucking glad two major characters finally got to meet like god I’ve been #WAITING #rambling #y5 #im reserving my thoughts about mirei and that whole… situation…….until I have all the context possible at this point #cause imma be real I didn’t see what happened to her comin #so. god knows what else I haven’t seen yet that I’ll need to consider #so far though. as much as they’re emphasizing a lot right now her work ethic and dedication and etc for haruka to elevate her career and #etc etc etc and that being a very sentimental and kindhearted thing and whatnot. imma be real I still find it mostly bullshit #I mean. even mirei herself could’ve maybe believed she was doing all that for haruka’s sake alone but that doesn’t erase the fact that mirei #had a plan for haruka since day fuckin one (before that probably) and it had nothing to do with caring for her and her personal freedoms or #enjoyment in life or anything- she elevated haruka because she projected onto her BIG TIME and needed to redeem herself after failing #in the industry by living vicariously though a mini-mirei conditioned to think she wants all the things mirei wants #and so on and so on. like #it seems really sweet and giving of her that she’d do so much to take out that loan and what have you. but once you step back for a moment #and go wait a second. this isn’t what haruka even wanted in the first place. she hasn’t had personal freedom at all the past six months and #mirei taking her shopping and letting her choose between some clothes on her own (ONLY allowing designer brand though. obviously) #is an effective way of making haruka believe she has free will and is doing what she honestly wants to do #because god forbid she realizes that- yeah mirei has sacrificed a lot for me- but I never asked her to and becuase of it now I have massive #responsibilities and expectations to uphold. after all- how could she live with herself if she rejected what mirei worked so hard for #especially after mirei. you know. suddenly dies. (not saying that was part of her manipulation or something just saying that it plays into #it conveniently well- haruka REALLY couldn’t live with herself now if she didn’t win this contest and debut) #annnnyway. it’s very interesting. mirei is… very interesting #I said I wasn’t gonna comment on her yet but. oops

[problemcore]

i miss this game already

#took me. over 220 hours to finally get through the ending of the game #i kept quitting right before the end and starting a new playthrough #something about act 3 as a whole. #the start of the game is just. so damn fun...... #i love creating my character and meeting the companions for the first time. getting to the grove and saving the tieflings #over and over again #im not sure how i feel about the ending. i think my brain is just soup so maybe I'll have thoughts on it later #it was. confusing? fun. unsatisfying? cathartic #i have to stop myself from. going back and trying to change the ending i got. #for the last 3 hours i was just agonising over all these small choices that really. just robbed me from the whole experience #its um. almost 6 am. lol #one thing i can say for sure. #completely unforgettable game. through all its flaws i can definitely name after 220 hours. i still thoroughly enjoyed it #forever altered my brain chemistry #i should. sigh. probably take a break from this game. #at least move on to a different game good lord. bg3 has completely consumed the last month and a half for me #i wont stay away for too long probably. i want to start my dark urge run finally #oh god its 6 am i have not slept at all #ok. goodnight dear followers. so so so tired. #chris noises #bg3

[quietwingsinthesky]

there’s actual good fights you could point out where Dean does put his foot down and it’s completely justified, even if only from his point of view. why would you bring up the amy thing instead of literally anything else.

#idk man if you’re gonna make that argument go with something in s4 #Dean telling Sam to stop demon blood. one of those times. #not only are those fights p much like totally him in the right. he even thinks he’s in the right. #(compared to Amy where even dean knows he did something wrong. that’s WHY he lies about it.) #but also. outside of just Dean’s pov. he is right. Sam IS hurting himself. Sam is making a terrible choice #seeking a vengeance for his brother who isn’t even dead anymore and wants Sam to stop. #like Sam’s still doing his best to do the right thing. he’s after Lilith which is also Dean’s ultimate goal. #but he’s hurting himself to do it. he’s hurting their relationship to kill her. #and then heaven is also there meddling making everything worse. #actually the real lesson here is everyone go rewatch s4 god it’s so good #and it’s one of the times in the show where objectively? both of them have a point. both of them are right to get angry and fight each other #the show kind of falters with that a lot of the rest of the time #early seasons sam & dean fights my beloveds #HELL YOU COULD REACH BACK TO S1 #DEAN GOING NO. WE ARE GOING TO SAVE PEOPLE. WE CANNOT CHASE DAD ALL THE TIME. #(combined a little with ‘that’s what he’s telling us to do so we’ll do it.’ of course my tramautized good son <3) #but that’s!!! Dean’s right!!! hey Sam!! hey Sam!! maybe don’t just try to ditch hunts right in the middle of them!!! #(and Sam is also right. they need to find their dad. what if they don’t get to him in time. god early seasons sam & dean dynamic GETS IT) #spn #dean winchester

[napneeders]

there's too much game in my game 😔

#i can't keep up with all the characters and abilities and tactics and shit #I've spent so much time just figuring out what all I can ignore lol #that's not to mention the standard can't be arsed to do any crafting/potions/etc #I also started over after 17 hours bc I wasn't enjoying my character choice #maybe that's good tho because now I have a grasp of the game #games